#marcus.text

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no fancy promo today because i am making something to eat but also want to be included. anyways promo me? i talk about trains and ocs and whatever else crosses my mind

carrd

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i keep thinking abt legal name changes and im kinda tempted to take my adoptive grandfathers name alongside merlaux as a legal name since hes really deadset on me following that tradition especially since my dad felt forced to change his name given in the same way. but its gonna also feel really weird bc like the last time i tried using his name online people got really weird abt it since its very obviously nonwhite and theyre going to assume im doing some racefaking shit instead of wading through family complexities. :,) i dont wanna have to explain all the time that im just in a nonstandard situation

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my uncles gonna be here soon and oh god oh fuck i just realized i have to guide him *AND* his classmates through the hell that is the subway system. besties we did not figure out how to fix our infrastructure in 10 years theyre abt to see hell in subway form

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i know its wrong to tell people to die. especially neighbors. but if you live in an apartment building why did you get a husky puppy. like be real here. that thing is howling 24/7 at every minor inconvenience. i can hear it two floors down.

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when i was i think 16 my bio mom made me go to a nutritionist bc my digestive issues were awful and i remember sitting there while the nutritionist was listing off every category of food i had to cut out of my diet and i ended that appointment wanting to kill her. like it was so bad and so fucked up that even my bio mom said she was terrible at her job and even worse at a human being. 

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im trying to manifest the ability to beat rayman origins in my dad. please he needs to beat it. please . please. and he wont let me help him he just looks at me like a baby deer and says hes got it handled. i respect the commitment but this is the first video game he ever touched when he left home. its nearing a decade. he hasnt beaten it once. pleas.e

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its kinda funny very sad that the us military claims they make college affordable for people and then both of my brothers have gotten their full ride scholarships taken away by the us military on a whim 

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perhaps the funniest autism thing ive ever done was spend like a year in a server that always went “you should kill your shitty bio dad” whenever i vented about him and then i took it seriously, tried and almost did kill him, and got banned from that server for attempting murder. like cmon guys you told me to do it for like a whole year why are you surprised. 

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if youre a true crime fan please fuck off. idc if youre “normal” about it. i have trauma thats been talked about by true crime fans globally over years and i do not feel remotely safe around anyone who says theyre interested in true crime. 

like you can be interested in criminology, sure whatever, but true crime as a term is an immediate get the fuck away from me or else. “normal” true crime fans dont associate themselves with the term true crime. 

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my foster dad made a discord acct so we could watch columbo together hes so sweet. its also just rlly funny to me tho bc hes like 90. discord grandpa

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gabriel is the one called "a glass statue" but its ciuta thats associated with glass and shards with glass, because SHES the one cutting her fingers on them. everyone and everything in to turn sand back to stone is made of glass but its ciuta thats cleaning up after peoples messes, its ciuta thats nurturing people, its ciuta thats fixing the unfixable.

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tfw ur waiting in a servers vc for ur friends n then someone u do not know and hasnt said anything in the server at all just joins the vc and ur friends still arent there so ur just sitting there in silence bc the fuck am i supposed to say now and u cant exactly leave bc thats rude and ur a mod. im gonna pretend i was taking 20 minutes to piss 

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google how do i propose to my sleep paralysis demon

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something that weighs constantly on gabriel is the fact that he built the religion that traumatized him. it was him that ensured the birth of christ, it was him that controlled the actions of different popes, it was him that turned christianity into what it was--including the catholic-run orphanage he was abused in. imagine reinventing god, imagine building one of the most popular and widespread religions, knowing that in 2000 years, it will use its power and influence to abuse you at your most innocent and helpless stage in life, and that your inability to cope with this abuse will lead to you getting forced into a time travel agency where youll have to enact the abuse you received onto others over and over again.

and he keeps going. he doesnt understand why.

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i love having thomasthetankengine as my url bc sometimes when i rb a post about trains, unrelated to ttte, the op will make a remark about target audiences (me)

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they then proceeded to get into a fistfight on holy ground