#mapicc going after derap specifically
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mapicccc · 8 days ago
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I really can't examine mapicc without examining myself but I Do want to think about him and his Feelings so I'm in a bit of a rough spot
#zams right that some big act wont fix it#this kind of insecurity is constant. it makes you forget all the positive things and convince yourself of the worst#theres repetition to it too. mapicc said that maybe he only feels like zam only uses him for fighting is because others do#but no matter how much he tries to see other times zam has helped him. other times zam has cared. its so hard to not focus on the moments#that hurt#zam has abandoned him. zam has replaced him. hes already feeling like the empire. his team. is gone. and now the only other person he had#has someone more important than him#so hes angry and upset and doing something knowing it goes against zam. because there comes a point where you just need him to feel your#pain too. even though its cruel and you dont want to#if this didnt get brought up from only the wardens. i wouldnt be suprised if it had escalated.#mapicc going after derap specifically#because he doesnt Want to hurt zam he wants zam back he wants zams attention and maybe the best way is just through derap.#if theyre not teamed. he has no reason to not kill him. zam doesnt have a right to hold him back.#and maybe if he tried. zam would notice#but thankfully we dont have to see that world. however interesting and painful it would be.#devotions codependency is breaking but its so hard to get out of. when someone is meant to be with you forever and now they vanish#i have. a lot of thoughts on this. i feel really strongly for it lolz#rambles#devotion posting#lifesteal spoilers
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sol-rambles · 6 days ago
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au where zam agrees with mawn.
But like secretly cause I really enjoy thinking about zam secretly working with mapic cause then I can pretend it's real...
Okay sooo like, Zam and Derap are still 'teamed' and go build Zaun or whatever. Zam pretends to be super against Mawn and Mapic goes along with it.
Though in this au the first pumpkin patch meeting goes differently, Mapic and Zam tell eachother alot more, Mapic explains Mawn better than he did during it. Since like I guess he tried? kindof. Either way, they end up on the same page by the end of it. Zam knows that this isn't 'what's best for the server' in terms of what they'd all like most. Mapic actually reads Zam's oath, since I don't think that he's done that before.
The two spend awhile deliberating the pros and cons of keeping the oath, aswell as any loopholes they can dance through in order to let Zam not break it, yet atleast. Zam decides that he's going to 'disagree' with Mawn, just for fun, even if they're teamed.
A few hours later, Mawn is announced, and Flame comes to Mapicc asking to work together, Mapic doesn't tell Flame much atall, just enough to have Flame on his side to fight with him when needed (like how Mapic said he was just using Flame for fights.) He messages Zam abit after Flame leaves, they meet at Zam's base and have a lil talk about how they are going to be secretly working together. Zam mentions the Kab-Mane-Pentar coalition to have Mawn destroyed. They decide on having Zam join undercover.
They also discuss how bfb are like on opposite sides and what they think will happen. They mention Derap, Zam decides he doesn't want to betray him in specific, so they tell Derap like a very small amount of information in order to have him understand thay they were working together.
Zam joins Re:Spawn or whatever they're calling themselves and gets away without much question, his oath made it easier seeing what was happening at Mawn..
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