#man i really dont get society's obsession with dying young. living a life like that sounds amazing

[timeloop-angel]

I want reread orv and twsb. I'm starting to read Children of the Whale and Noblesse and Tower of God and D.Gray Man. I want to watch True of Vamp stageplay. I also started reading Lord of the Mysteries again. There this Gilgamesh copy that i borrowed from the library months ago and i have yet to finish it. I also have this 2 astronomy books to read, finish Frankenstein and go around on listening some political books.

I want to consume media and let it consume it but fucking unfortunately i have a life and obligations and oh god i kinda wish the quarantine came back but without the deadly virus. I want spend 1 year without school and activities and without worrying about getting a job too.

[mattelektras]

Hey what are your favourite + least fav x men characters and why im curious i love seeing ur thoughts (also, to make it easier hopefully???, i mean specifically X-Men you do not need to include like the 100+ teams connected to them like new mutants or Excalibur etc)

tbh these are just from. everywhere. a lot of my favs are xforce and sub teams. just mutants in general really

least favs

xavier. hes just a dick like. objectively. hes got no business mentoring young kids with the way he went about treating young scott and young jean. also mr i would never invade someone's thoughts without there permission. and then he DID

beast. just kinda boring like. we get it youre smart and patronizing and blue and furry, what else is there. kurt is the only blue man

havok. i dont like. hate him. i just think he should be made fun of more. mr all lives matter avengers stan. bully him more

deadpool because i hate that some people think he’s a mutant n it irritates me idk

brian braddock sorry betsy ur brother is dull as all fuck. he barely has anything to do w mutants as a whole and it’s like why do we even claim him as one when he ran around calling himself captain britain for so long like. cringe, sir braddock

favs:

storm. like objectively i think if anyone doesnt favour ororo in some kind of way then theyre insane. she has a lot of wonder woman isms in that a lot of people see her as this. ethereal above reproach goddess but shes ironically a very human character. like just the little facts that shes into botany and is claustrophobic etc. and the fact that everyone loves her is because shes a good person, not because she’s beautiful or powerful or perfect in anyway. like she’s loved because she’s earned it and she deserves it. she’s a good friend and a GREAT leader without needing to physically be in charge. shes very open and loving and loyal but is also someone u really only get one chance with?? she has a much smaller circle of incredibly close friends than people would think. idk i love that shes allowed to be both kind and flawed AND hugely powerful

domino. ive gone on about how i love neena a lot before so i wont bore u but she is. genuinely one of my favourite characters of all time from anywhere. she has a persona that she puts up but there's so much in her backstory that no one would expect if theyd only read recent domino stuff. like she really shines in her solos more than anywhere else i cant stress that enough

magneto. if i had to like. objectively pick a best character ever i think it would be magneto. i think superhero comics are best when they SAY something. like not to be all We Live In a Society but if youre not making some kind of commentary on the real world with your good vs evil media concept then what are you doing. and we all know the mutant metaphor doesnt hold up like. ever. but its as close as it gets with magneto because his fictional mutanthood is linked w his real jewishness and its never like. a replacement or one or the other. and one fuels his activism in the other? idk im not sure how to phrase it but i think he embodies what being a MUTANT is about, in universe, not what being an xmen is about. hes so REGAL and smart and so powerful just in the way he carries himself, even when he was depowered. they simply do not make characters like magneto other than magneto. and YES the dilfery of it all

kwannon. i love where her story is going and how much attention theyre giving her since the body divorce. just that shes being allowed to be bitter and resentful of betsy about having years of her life stolen. her learning how to be her own self again and what's her own. also i like betsy just fine but my first intro to ~~~psylocke was the betsy/kwannon mash up and like. for ME. with what i like in characters??? pretty much all of what i liked was kwannon's. the assassin stuff, the sword stuff, her brutality and harder attitude. like u all know my taste in female characters and shes IT. and theres a lot of potential in exploring her backstory

wolverine. unfortunately. i love a little weasel man. He Is My Dad. i think he has such a rich variation of relationships with other people whether it be as a rivalry, romance, friendship, parent etc etc. this bitch contains multitudes!!! i think he as a character has so much bought to him by the other characters around him. likes YES he is a grmupy old man who probably hasnt showered today but hes a very loving person despite everything

angel. this might seem like a wild pick for me but. the concept of a rich pretty boy with seemingly everything going for him being turned into this monstrous apocalyptic razor bird with varying self control is SO GOOD TO ME IDK IDK. like hes very gentle and atypical for a male character in a lot of ways and i enjoy that a lot??? just the contrast of it all. i think there should be more horrific pretty boys

monet. forever obsessed wither attitude and her confidence even when so much of her story is wrapped up in people stealing her identity and the betrayal in that and being controlled by others physically w the penance stuff like. shes been through all of that and is STILL probably one of the most sure of themselves characters out there. her yes i AM the shit actually, better than you attitude, not afraid to be a bitch superiority. ladies i think we should all be more like monet as a rule. her powers just being that shes pretty much better than everyone at everything. also shes just funny as fuck

im allowed to say this because shes in x books on the regular now but selene. i think shes so fuckin cool and maybe this is the wannabe goth death witch from my teenage years possessing my body right now but i LOVE an insanely powerful woman. shes like 20000 years old, shes physically incapable of dying, shes the FIRST mutant and has a very rich backstory. shes a great villain but i think now shes more vaguely xmen aligned with the krakoa situation theres huge amounts of potential with her to be on heroic teams as the untrustworthy but begrudgingly helps out kind of addition. with everyone being like. remember that time you resurrected half of us as zombies and traumatised us all for life and she’s just like. god don’t you people ever move on

[shawnmend-yes]

THE CONCERT

I n c r e d i b l e. Words cannot even begin to describe how it feels to be sat in an arena and know that you have something in common with every single person inside. It's completely gorgeous. That feeling of contentment and satisfaction as you just look out and see all the faces staring back at you. It's like putting the final piece of a puzzle in, or being completely full. You just feel full to the core, ready to burst. All because of music, and that's insane. I've never understood how people put up with being famous, the pressure, but after feeling that moment of pure unity, I would trade my soul in a heartbeat to feel like that all the time. Just a glimpse of it and I'm hooked. I know a lot of people believe that Shawn Mendes only appeals to females, and that people are in it for his face and not the music. Id just like to say that's total B U L L S H I T. I mean sure, his face is great, very symmetrical etc etc. Like seriously 10/10. But that's not why I'm there. That's not why people turn up to his concerts. We turn up for the music, we turn up to hear him talk, because if you've ever been to a concert you know you don't seem them close up. So why would we bother? We turn up because he is an incredible singer, and he writes beautiful songs. And you know what? You don't get the right to tell someone their song is bad, you don't have that chance because you've never tried it. People FEEL his songs, they help people. He becomes their friend when they need it most and that is irreplaceable. You most certainly do not have the right to tell any of us our feelings are invalid, by critiquing him and judging our loyalty you are questioning the validity of our feelings. That is never ok. He's 18. He's still young, and he deserves nothing but support. I'm in it for him. I've heard him speak about issues that are close to him and damn does that boy have passion. It's overflowing. You can see it in his face when he sings, you can feel it in his voice. He has every girls heart in his hands, it's terrifying to know that he could crush any one of them whenever he liked. But I would trust no one else. Honestly? I am beyond impressed. He is even better live than on CD. That's saying something. Before playing "A little too much" he spoke to us, and I would be lying if I said by the end of the song I wasn't crying. He was so genuine, like he completely understands that music is an outlet for emotions. He spoke about how this song was very special to him and that he was humbled it had helped so many people. This man has so much power, he manipulates chords and words to tell a story that resonates with so many of us because it shows an everyday situation. It sticks to you. He uses his power for good, that man is the Yoda of the singing world. My family tell me that I'm obsessed with him, and sure, I follow him on all social media, scream along to his songs like a dying magpie but in all honesty I think he's an amazing role model. That's take the way he handled the "gay vibe" comments. He presented a Snapchat video with the following words. "First of all, I'm not gay. Second of all, it shouldn't make a difference if I was or wasn't. The focus should be on the music and not my sexuality." He went on to tell people to think before they judge. He's 18. He's only 18, but he dealt with it in an amazing way, if you guys haven't seen the clip I suggest you go ahead and watch it because it's awesome to see him discuss the matter in a clear way, he doesn't judge anyone. It's inspiring to see someone so young speak about issues like this. It raises my hope for humanity. I'll be honest with, completely honest. I'm sure it helps he's hot. Of course it does because that's what appears to be at the forefront of society. I'm sure some people are interested in the superficial side of it all. I'm also sure that if I were to meet him I would treat him like a celebrity. (Joking id probably see myself) But I think it's really important to remember he's still your average guy, his hobby just became his job. I feel a certain level of sympathy for him, to be bombarded all the time like he owes us something. He doesn't. He doesn't owe you a photo, a new song, a signed shirt. Nada. Zilch. Nothing. He does what he does because he cares, he doesn't have to do any of it. That's something I feel like some fans need to take on board and recognise. Anyway I'll move onto the actual concert today shall I? So the opening act was James TW, I'm not gonna lie, i had never heard of him. At all. But I have been converted, I'm a fan. He came on stage with just his guitar, no band on stage and it was magical to just watch the entire arena go quiet to listen to what he had to say. He played this gorgeous song called "Different". But before he began he did this little speech, "this song is about trying to fit in and belong, its special to me because I watched someone change themselves. And they never should have had to do that because I loved them just how they were" (not exact words but very similar). Definitely listen to that. So then Shawn swaggers his way on stage and obviously the crowd goes I N S A N E. Because this is Shawn Mendes we are talking about here. Like hello. You could feel the energy. Now let's think about this there are 20,000 seats in the O2 arena, that's 40,000 eyes, 20,000 people sat there. Hanging onto his every word. But he doesn't crack, instead he does the unthinkable. He pulls out an amazing set, that's even better than anything I've ever heard him play on the radio. That guy has got a set of lungs. He stopped singing maybe 3 times throughout the whole concert? How he didn't explode I have no idea. Even if you weren't a particular fan of the music it was impossible not enjoy the concert just from the atmosphere. You look at the screens and you can see how much he is enjoying it. He's grinning and singing. (Another pro, multi talented). When he started to sing A Little Too Much and the whole arena goes silent, flash lights and phone torches swaying. It's indescribable. The photos I have in no way do that justice. It's impossible to capture something that radiates such unity. But I'll tell you what got me the most. He sang my favourite. "I don't even know your name". I could talk about this song for days. But I'll keep it fairly short. It reminds me to look for the little details, it reminds me that you can fall in love with something you see for an instant, 
It shows me how important those little moments are, you can fall in love with a glance and it can be just as strong It makes realise that humans aren’t set to hate people, we are set to love each other, hate is taught to us and we can deny it I love the idea of seeing someone across a crowded room and falling in love for a sec, you don’t have to do anything about it It’s just a pure feeling, and it reminds me that even if I have a shit day, someone may have felt that, for just a sec, they Felt that, the tiniest thing, that the person didn’t even realise they were doing, it made someone’s day. The tiniest things Have the biggest impacts, like the way this one song, can bring out all this. It just makes me realise how every little thing It’s connected, and it doesn’t matter who we are, what we do, where we are from, we are all connected even if it is just by The fact that we breather oxygen, we live on earth. Everyone is link, by invisible threads, which are so tiny, almost Unnoticeable, but when you take a step back you see the connections, like a giant spiders web, every person weaving a thread Into the loop until we are all stood together. Whilst I would have loved to meet him because I have so many questions I'm not disappointed that I didn't because I still had an amazing night. I don't want to be another face in the crowd if I meet him. I would want to be able to have a conversation. That being said if he ever felt the need to meet me (doubtful) then obviously I would turn up yesterday. But that's not the point. Moving on. Not only was Shawn amazing but think of all the effort that went into that show, the merchandise sellers who had to deal with screaming fans shouting orders at them. The people working the lights, the sound systems, security. Shawns band. I would love to say Thank You to them all personally, and while I know that will never happen, I feel slightly better knowing I can say it here and even though they may never know. At least I can say it. Thank you to everyone who made tonight one of the most incredible experiences of my life. // I know this is pretty long, and the I've posted the bit about I don't even know your name before, but I posted this on my website last night on the way home from the concert and thought you may want to see it ? I dont know. //