#man i don't know what i'm doing wrong

[vvelegrin]

man it just feels kind of... i don't know. mean that with everything lately we're adding mystery joint pain, most persistently in my hands, to the pile.

like come on. come on. i can't even have this?!

[bonesandthebees]

sigh feeling nostalgic for my old fics/the old community these days. I miss it man.

[undead-moth]

I know I've been on about this for a while now and I'm being a hater but you're telling me SydCarmy was "always meant to be platonic" even though there are two seasons of writing making use of tried-and-true explicitly romantic tropes, themes and writing signals, and SydLuca is going to be romantic because...he was nice to her on screen for a few minutes?

I don't even care if people ship SydLuca, or if they just prefer it, but you can't honestly tell me that you believe Carmy was always meant to be a friend but Luca is an obvious love interest.

Just because Syd and Carmy haven't kissed or confessed their love to each other doesn't mean that isn't very obviously the direction this show is going. The Bear has already shown you who is endgame. It has shown you every episode of the show so far.

Honestly I really don't think The Bear fanbase understands this show or cares about these characters or the story being told here, which is unfortunate because this show is shockingly well-written in comparison to most shows right now, and we should be so grateful for it but all we're doing is complaining that the writers led us on by not making a ship canon fast enough. It's just. Sad.

[uncanny-tranny]

At this point, gender nonconformity is about what the person says their experience is.

If a woman with a beard or a man with lipstick and a mustache says they're gender nonconforming, then they are! If a woman with short hair or a man with long hair says they aren't, they aren't! And that's not even getting into the awesome nonbinary, abinary, genderqueer, intersex, and general genderfuckery that may both be and not be conforming.

So much of what is even considered gender conforming or gender nonconforming is based on a world of exclusion. When we start defining one's conformity with whether they fit into white cishetero perisex standards or not, we play into the idea that there's only a very narrow window of what is considered worthy of time and thought.

[justafriendofxanders]

if xander came out as bi he would be so fucking obnoxious about it for the first few months. i think the first, like, week would be liberating in that he'd feel free from the expectations of cishet masculinity, then he would obsessively ask willow if this or that was "gay culture" and try to get into astrology only to find it dumb and be the guy who can't stop expressing how dumb he finds it. he would then have a crisis about not being appropriately gay "enough" and not fitting in with the gays but also not with the straights :((. coming out would not save this man. but it would be entertaining. for me.

[gxlden-angels]

Bro I hate fundamentalists and culturally-fundie parents they'll say shit like "spare the rod spoil the child am I right haha yea my parents used to have to beat my ass with a switch almost everyday but I sure did learn my lesson" but like??? no you didn't??? you were hit multiple times for something you very obviously did not, in fact, learn

Like studies about how harmful even lightly spanking children is aside, you're literally contradicting yourself?? Some even admitted they got worse as they got older cause they wanted to see how far they could push their parents before they got punished

And studies not aside, you're gonna get child raising advice from the same book that tells you to stone your wife if her hymen doesn't break on your wedding night instead of the decades of research we have now?? Just say you're a bad parent and move on my guy. Skill issue

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

Still wild to me that the Avatar team saw a guy write a love story between a stick and a monkey and were like "This is the guy who we need to write Rangshi and Yangvik" and then he ended up making two of the best couples in all of the Avatar-verse TT0TT

[zebratimw]

Spirit animal SQH

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Fuck I hate being an adult. I need a more adult adult to help with the volatile emotional situation.

[lady-dulcinea]

Jessica De Gouw as Mina Murray from the 2013 NBC series Dracula

[elderstrolls]

[brionnnne]

note that i will only ever call mithrun "stupid" jokingly. by "stupid", i only mean "frustrating behavior that i am immensely familar with". seeing him do something that makes me groan aloud, closing my eyes, sighing "stupid (affectionate, mournful)". like when he fucking... his dumbass "i don't want to [use the bathroom] right now, so it's fine." oughh. i know you! i know you! that's not how that works!!! and he's smart!!! he's so smart... but god, god... he's kind of an absent professor. he's kind of a cloudcuckoolander. i love him dearly. he gets called a dummy, a little idiot, and i flick his forehead, a little bonk of hard-heads, like "try again, idiot. that's not how bodies work." and "ooh, 'that's not going to work'. yes it is. shut up, stoopid. stubborn little man, my god." rolling my eyes forever.

[longagoitwastuesday]

I have learnt things about Geto that I wish I could unlearn

[mishkakagehishka]

"We're old moms, we can't wait to stop breastfeeding so we can get [very excited, shrill even] botooooox!!!"

We are never making it out of the patriarchy.

[yuseirra]

(I was writing this below this morning after having felt so...so hollow...after having been sent the spoilers, then a friend came to talk w me and it's helped me recover a bit!! Goodness.. It's pretty fateful to have help come your way when you need it, I have good luck)

I don't feel as bad as I felt as I did below now, I feel like I can attempt to draw a bit more now, I want to start brainstorming a bit!

But really, DON'T SEND ME SPOILERS. I didn't know it'd do this to me either but it really nearly took all the juice I had towards an entire series. It probably was never what was intended I mean it'd mean less fanarts and interpretations from me (or maybe it was? XD I am being a bit annoying with these lately) That was bad... It felt terrible losing love!!! I love things!! Having it gone like this was so unexpected!!

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This is so strange...I never had my feelings dissipate towards something this fast.. I feel like I'd be okay with whatever they would to with the work now, I wouldn't care, you know?? I had no idea spoilers would be capable of doing this to me???? I'm usually okay with spoilers and I do my research when I hop into it so I'm the type who actually reads a bit into something to see what I'd be able to expect out of it-

But this ain't it. I really want my feelings back. Being sent this one super creepy and ominous panel and a bunch of words really just grabbed and tossed all my feelings I have towards these characters and the plot out the window and I have to find a way to somehow find my way down that window and retrieve it. I don't know how to do it, I never had something like this happen to me. I can't draw... I can't draw, I'm stuck and I feel really helpless about it. Would having read the actual chapter had this same effect in me? I'm not sure about that, but,

The really ironical thing here is, if what I've been sent is correct, then everything I've been thinking could actually be entirely correct. I couldn't have been more right about things. I did a REALLY good job having predicted things and I could have had been brainstorming vigorously with more base. I could have been so proud of myself.

I really like drawing and I can't draw...I've been drawing every single day and I just can't do it now, I'm struggling. That's so new and so weird. Something about it is just gone... This is really sad, how should I get it back... On the bright side, I won't be stressed or so agitated either, thanks a lot I guess. And now I learned that spoilers can do this to people so it will help me be more careful about them (my blog is so far from spoiler-free, I'm sorry!)

Allow me to see things for myself when I'm ready about them, please..I really, really want to care for things and draw them again. It may not be so prominent for others but I myself know it the best, it just shows in your art whether you really love something or not and that's not something you can form artificially.. I need it. Even if they are sketches, I put my heart in them and I spend hours and days on them...I can't do that about things I don't care for...

[rexcaliburechoes]

does anyone else find it fucked up that moon's friends protect themselves from her with the skyfire at the end of moon rising?