#mama fake awards

[chiskz]

《 CHICHI ON MAMA 2022 》

》 I Interactions:

DAY 1

- she talked a lot in Japanese while being backstage with Kazuha and Sakura from LE SSERAFIM, with whom she also ate some snacks in their waiting room

- she exchanged a few words with Yeonjun when they passed each other on the way to the toilet, he promised to call later (and he did)

DAY 2

- Chichi was absent from the couch during the others' performances, she was only at the opening performance of 3RACHA and Tiger JK

- after the whole event, she met J-Hope for dinner - fortunately, none of them were caught by the press

》 II Red Carpet Look (DAY 1)

》 III Solo Performance (DAY 2)

☆ Chichi performed covers of ATEEZ songs.

Title of the performance: Let's Break The Wall - Answer x Guerilla x The Leaders (ATEEZ).

☆ Outfit.

☆ Performance.

Chichi gave a lot of energy to both ATINY and STAY, perfectly preparing the performance in accordance with the theme of this year's MAMA - Music Makes One. The audience's involvement in the energetic chanting could really give the impression that everyone gathered, if only for a moment, actually became one. In addition to the substantive part of the performance, Chichi also looked really fierce, and once again proved how great stamina she hides. She sang and rapped live performing the entire, uncut choreography for both songs.

The performance started with Chichi walking to the stage and addressing the audience. After the lights went out, she lined up among the dancers to perform Answer segment. This was followed by the second part of her speech, involving the audience, and then flowing seamlessly into a performance with Guerilla. Without slowing down for even a moment, she transitioned equally smoothly into The Leaders.

"Our dear ATEEZ can not be with us today, 'cause they're doing right now their really best during their world tour to make their ATINY so happy. But... MAMA without ATEEZ feels so empty right? So I've got a special permission from no one other than captain Hongjoong and the rest of the pirates to perform in their behalf.

Hongjoong, Seonghwa, Yunho, Yeosang, San, Mingi, Wooyoung and Jongho. I hope we can meet soon.

Are you guys ready? Cause I sure am."

ANSWER began

'geonbaehaja like a thunder

ne modeun geol chaewo neomchyeoheureul deusi

modu janeul meori wiro

sesang eodieseodeun boil su itge'

short dancebreak

break the wall...

break the wall...

"We're so good at breaking the walls. So let's break all the walls around us today. Cause Music... Makes One!"

let's break the walls, let's break the walls, let's break the walls, let's break the walls, let's break the walls, let's break the walls.

'Cause Music Makes One. Today. Tomorrow. Always.

Okay, let's go, let's break the walls, okay let's go, let's break the walls, okay, let's go let's break the walls, let's break, let's break...

We. Are. The Guerrillas.

Guerrilla + The Leaders

》 IV Award.

Chichi won MAMA's first ever new "Little Independent Award" awarded to idols for their incredibly large, independent contributions to their careers. Chichi is the first MAMA independently awarded idol who did not debut solo. The selection was guided by her being a choreographer (independently creating choreography for a group of nine) and independently preparing such a varied performance at the gala.

☆ Speech.

"I never thought I'd be standing here all alone." She laughed through her tears, all the while looking at Stray Kids who were standing in front of the couches instead of sitting down. She wiped her cheeks quickly and sighed. "This is a very valuable prize for which I am incredibly grateful. If it wasn't for STAY and my Stray Kids, I wouldn't be able to fulfill myself in what I love and I wouldn't have a chance to use the acquired knowledge so well. However, I know that this award is not entirely 'independet', because without the aforementioned huge support, I would not be here now. Even though I did these things myself, behind my back I just have a lot of amazing people who wish me well. STAY, Stray Kids, this is my award, from me to you. I'll be working even harder from now on. Thank you!"

[y3ager]

STORYTIME I (26 F) FUCKED MY SUPERSTAR CLIENT (24 M) AFTER MONTHS OF SEXUAL TENSION!

— ‘i’m a manager for a pretty big music label and my client is the biggest dickhead in the world but i fear i fucked him after one of our usual arguments.. 😵‍💫’

eren y. x black!fem!reader

tags: modern au, smut, porn not much plot, hate(?)sex, cunnilingus, cowgirl, reader gets called ‘mama’ and ‘boss’, unprotected sex, mild choking, musician!eren, manager!reader. minors do not interact.

my first collab entry MAKE SOME NOISE YALL WTF!!! but no seriously thanks so much to @k9nto for letting me join your event i had a blast writing this! hope you all enjoy! 🤭

YOU’VE ENCOUNTERED SOME annoying people in your life. in kindergarten, a boy taunted you by picking up one your fallen hot pink knocker-balls and refusing to give it back to you. in high school, some chick named tiffany ripped down all of your junior class president posters that you spent weeks designing and printing out on the highest quality paper. your college advisor had been completely useless, you’d still be dragging yourself through your bachelor’s degree if you didn’t stay on your toes and realize the classes you were dropped in were a waste of time. but all of these people, and many more that have slipped your mind, shaped and molded you into the woman you were today. strong, tenacious, independent, a go-getter who never gave up and thus was able to reap her hard work, in the form of three nice crisp degrees and a never pitiful bank account.

but eren yeager, grammy award winning singer, songwriter and musician, with multiple weeks spent at the top of the billboard hot 100 and 200 charts, millions of units sold worldwide, and stadiums packed to the brim, took the fucking cake.

you were warned he’d be difficult. every manager he’s assigned quits before one of them ends up in a body bag. none of them have a single nice thing to say about him, and he finds that hilarious.

for better or for worse, you took the challenge because you’re a sucker for them. nothing in life comes easy, and you figured that the managers before just didn’t come hard enough. maybe eren’s fame and status made them falter, but such a fate wouldn’t befall you.

you dragged him to his magazine shoots, you kept his mouth in line during interviews, you kept his socials clean. he was never a second late to rehearsals and recordings. he was a reflection of you, and if you were perfect goddammit he was going to be too.

until today.

“i’m not putting in another extension, eren. the label is starting to get really irritable. we need to go to the studio now.” you furiously swiping along your ipad, pacing around the singer’s deluxe hotel room. while you’re dressed for the day in clean crisp clothes, sharp stilettos, and jet black lace front expertly melted and laid, eren’s still in the bed. the covers are everywhere, his shirt is next to a couple pillows on the floor, and he’s laying on his back eating a croissant from room service, paying you absolutely no mind. it takes everything in you to not chuck your device at his big head. “i’m serious. get. up.”

“and i said i’m not,” he mocks your assertive tone, voice oozing in sarcasm. “going.” he coughs, obviously faking. “my voice hurts. can’t make those greedy bastards money if my vocal chords ache. they’ll live.”

“you are on a strict deadline this era. if you want to catch award season, this album needs to be finished and dropped in the next month. amidst the press tour, your window of recording time is dwindling fast.” dates in your digital calendar glare at you, red and angry. every time you check something off your to do, ten new things pop up. you feel your jaw clenching, teeth gritting together uncomfortably.

“i’ve won enough awards. i don’t care. i’m not getting up.” eren finally raises up from the bed, narrowed green eyes meeting yours. it’s fire against fire, an unstoppable force that is a manager determined to do her job versus an immovable object, a musician who’s not budging from his spot. “it’s my album. it’s my music. i finish it when the fuck i get ready. that label will burn before they drop me.”

“if you don’t follow contract, they will drop you. they put a lot of money into you-”

“money i made back for those dumbasses-!”

“they are your bosses, without them-”

“they need me way more than i need them-!”

“get,” you toss your ipad over to a small couch, storming over to the bed. you snatch the edge of the covers and yank hard. enough is enough. if he won’t get up, you’ll make him get up. “the fuck out of this bed, eren, now!”

“you need,” the cover is yanked back, tugging you forward along with it. you lurch momentarily before righting yourself upwards, leaning back to give yourself more leverage in this childish tug of war you find yourself in. “to calm the fuck down, ___. i’m not going and that’s fucking it.” eren may be lean, but he’s toned like a MMA fighter, muscles rippling under tan skin when he calls upon them. another tug and you topple onto the california king bed, one expensive heel sliding off your foot and falling across the room.

your heads snaps up from the covers, brow furrowed deep in anger. “stop being so fucking difficult, you moron!” emotions welling, you grab one of his arms, preparing to drag him out of this bed. your to do list is a nagging itch on your brain that by the grace of god you are going to scratch. you’re not about to let this bad-with-authority dickhead best you when all he has to do is record a fucking vocal.

“oh, we’re doing this?” easily, too easily, so easily that you register your back hitting the soft bed before you realized he even grabbed you back. he pins you down easily, slightly calloused hands grip your upper arms firmly, pushing them down. he places his legs other either side of your hips so yours are forced in between them, but doesn’t keep you from writhing to free yourself. “whatever fucking—stop doing that—chip you have on your shoulder, you need to fucking solve it because shit’s not going your way today. i’m not going and that is final.”

the tussle leaves you two of you panting, eyes boring into each other’s. eren’s long chocolate brown hair is disheveled not only from a night’s sleep but from this impromptu wrestle. small beads up sweat trickle down his naked chest. your writhe again, and he presses down against you, a synonymous hiss sliding through both of your mouths.

“i hate you, eren.”

“whatever helps you sleep at night, ___. looks like you wanted an excuse to feel up on me.”

“oh, like you wanted an excuse to hump me like a mutt?”

there’s another beat of silence as you two watch each other. eren’s hands tighten their hold just a tad before he presses his hardening length hard against your clothed cunt. against your better judgement, your head tilts back and a small moan fights against your bitten bottom lip.

eren hums lowly, his dick bulging against the constraint of his boxers. “hate me too much to actually fuck me, huh? i’m only worth a dry hump.”

oh how eren frustrates you. how he makes even the simplest things in life painstakingly difficult. how he makes you want to smoke ten packs of cigarettes after a day of dealing with him. but oh, how handsome he looks under the lights at photo shoots. how his deep, smooth voice reverbs in your ears. how his fingers move so deftly on his guitar, as if it’s merely an extension of his body. who wouldn’t fantasize about that late at night, him bending you over and snatching down your pants to fuck the stress out of you, or yourself knocking him down a peg and making him beg to let you cum inside.

“shut-” another roll of his hips makes you gasp. “up..”

“i want you, ___,” eren confesses. his hips don’t falter, his cock becoming hungry for release. “i want that pussy. i wanna fuck that little attitude out of you, can i? i see how you look at me and i stare right back.”

you shiver, hand rushing to undo your dress pants and feel more of eren’s dick against your dampening cunt. his hands work with your perfectly, yanking your pants down. it’s a whirlwind of clothes, your sweater, bra, your other shoe.

eren reaches up to grab your breasts, rolling them in his palms, squeezing the supple flesh, pushing them together. “oh, pretty girl. pretty fuckin’ tits.” leaning down, he kisses down your sternum, stomach, inching closer and closer to your center. he wastes no time grabbing your thighs and licking a nice, long stripe against your drooling cunt and sucking on your clit.

your back immediately arches up and your hands fly to grip eren’s hair, tugging at the locks and pulling him in closer so you can feel everything. “oh my god, eren.” the singer’s not shy at all, audibly sucking at you and reaching up to twist and pinch your pebbled nipples.

with another languid lick eren pulls himself away. he pulls his boxers down on and off, freeing his dick from the constraint. he rubs the thick, weeping tip up and down your slit, staring hungrily at the juices leaking out. the feeling of it makes you shiver in anticipation.

“mmm, mm-mm.” you push yourself up. “let me get ‘n top..” there’s a greedy look in your low eyes as you place your hand on eren’s solid chest and lay him down on the bed.

“take charge here too, huh?” your forwardness makes him chuckle as he watches you straddle his waist. “okay then. ride me.”

you brace yourself on your toes as his hand and yours grasp his shaft, directing it to your pulsing hole. you slide down gingerly onto him, his size quickly stretching you out. “ahh, fuck, eren. fuck…”

“you got it,” he assures you, one hand on your thigh as you sink lower and lower, taking him in inch by inch. he bites his lip at the wet tightness of your walls, squeezing and sucking him in. it makes him throw his head back, a couple of small pants escaping his mouth. “mmhm, fuck that pussy feels so good. take that dick, boss.” his hand raises only to land on your ass check with a sharp slap.

you start out slow at first, letting yourself adjust to the wideness of his dick but that quickly gets old. you’re soon addicted to the feeling of him fitting inside so perfectly. gripping his free hand in yours, you swivel and raise your hips faster and faster, effortlessly, desperate for that feeling of him pounding that oh so sweet spot. your juices slide down his length, the slap slap slap of your ass against his muscled thighs filling the room. “‘s so big, feels so good,” your voice slurs.

eren hisses from his spot under you, eyes trained on where you two connect. mouth slightly agape, he watches your cunt swallow him up and the fluid that leaks out. “yes, mama. keep fucking me just like that. feels.. f-fuckin’ amazin’…” his hands grab your plump ass cheeks, fingers digging in hard as he thrusts his hips up, driving the tip of his cock even deeper inside you and pulling a loud moan from you. “keep goin, mama, ‘m almost there, don’t stop, please..”

his pleading make you clench even tighter around him, and that feeling deep inside your tummy aches for release. you place a hand around his throat to better balance yourself, relishing in his low groan. your thighs quake and tremble, your hips meeting his eager thrust perfectly. “oh, my god; oh my god. i’m— shit!” you throw your head back in ecstasy, cumming hard enough on your client’s dick to leave you numb.

“aw, fuck, boss.” eren thrusts up to push his cum deep inside, holding you against himself to ensure a single drop doesn’t leak. “take it, take it..”

the two of you are left panting hard, bodies sweaty and gleaming with the afterglow of sex. you gingerly pull away, cunt left sore and spent from a round of sex months in the making. eren reaches over to caress your ebon lips, admiring the smooth, wet feeling once you roll onto your back. “no more attitude from you, yeah?”

“no more attitude from the man reduced to calling me ‘mama’ and begging to cum either, i’d assume.” your teasing laughter is cut off by him purposefully sinking three fingers deep inside you. “mmh…”

“mhm, sure.” roles reversed, eren climbs on top of you and stares down with green eyes aflame with lust through his tousled brown hair. “now i want to see what i can make you call me.”

[bnecaz]

IdolMinji x idolreader hcs

A/n: I swear I just need to fill the time I'm writing bullyminji!! hope you like it!

Warnings: hate, body Shame and the rest is all cute!

You met by being placed as MCs together

She accidentally created her own ship when she said "I want to say something but I'm super shy" to you in front of the cameras

she does challenge with her songs with you whenever a new comeback arrived

You and her tarted dating and had no experience with it

Made you sing omg in her anchor

At awards shows she takes your hand and stays alone with you while leaving her members , and your members together

asked danielle for help on how to throw a picnic for the two of you

She arranged to meet you at a restaurant and the restaurant was filled with paparazzis

when dispatch posted a photo of you two holding hands that was the end for you

New jeans boy stans gave you massive hate, so when you went live the comments were from users "Newjeanscuties753" or "Minjiunnie11"

started to compare your body with other members

you open a live with one of your members, when you position the camera the numbers are growing every second, you come across comments saying that you missed them and the other member laughs and murmurs "wow.. Have we spent so long without opening a live?" she says jokingly as she focuses her gaze on the camera and fixes her bangs, the more people come in, the more people talk about you, so the comments are divided between "stop harassing Reader!" and "Leave our minji alone!" and then the atmosphere gets heavy and your member looks at you until they see that you don't say anything else "well, do you want to know about what we are planning to do?" trying to get excited, you just nod and mumble as you pull out your phone "let's make a cake for unnie's birthday!!" the member starts to clap and you just smile as you read the comments that start to fill up more, the member narrows her eyes and bite her lower lip gently, You can feel a knot forming when the comments get heavy and you pick up your phone and put it in front of the member who gently opens her eyes and looks at the camera in disguise, then she smiles and turns off the live stream.

Minji comforted you more than anything, when they decided to collaborate on MAMA, they made you dance hype boy on purpose

backstage she had to ask hyein to pretend to cry so she could talk to you

when she saw how nervous you were she hugged you for a few minutes until she heard danielle calling her

She is very protective, she takes care of new jeans then she is protective without knowing it, but this is all because she loves you

On your birthday she called you to her dorm and all your members and the new jeans were there

won't reveal your relationship for fear of people talking about your body

sued a man who created an account posting deepfake of you

Haerin loves it when you go to see Minji because she makes a lot of food to impress you

She's secretly a loser and when you play card games she takes pity on you and lets you win, not even bothering to see Hyein and Hanni's grumbles.

loves to kiss your cheek

when they put your group and hers up for interview and the interviewer asked you "what's it like to be the least popular in your group, and only be famous because of a rumor?" the atmosphere became tense, she could feel Haerin next to her stopping looking at the camera and looking sideways at you as she saw you blush and play with your fingers as you stumbled over your words "i..hm... I admire my fans so much be-" and then as if a god had appeared, your leader interrupts you "well... I think she's the second most famous in our group... and has this rumor already been explained?.." your leader gives an exaggeratedly fake smile and minji could feel her members sighing and their shoulders relaxing when their leader defended you

She arranged to travel to Paris with you, but when you arrived an hour after her at the Europort, the paparazzi were already there, and it was on all the gossip sites.

loves buying furry coats for you

Sometimes she calls you "bro" and at the same moment, without you questioning, he apologizes and kisses your cheek

gave you a Chanel kit as a gift

When you're passing by a store and see a cute outfit, she buys it for you

makes you sit on her lap when it's too cold to put your arms around her waist

Sometimes she has a fit and starts mumbling things in Korean

she bought you several gifts, but he made you wear a set that she almost knelt down on, and when you wore it she was in love again (this.

wrote one of the parts of ditto thinking of you

fans captured your group's album with your signature on her shelf

hyein sometimes calls you "unnie girlfriend" without meaning to and minji feels like putting her head in the ground

bought minecraft for you to play and made mods so her bed has your face

[m00nl1ghts1vt]

❀ - Smut ♡ - Fluff ꩜ - Angst ☆ - Suggestive

♡ You Like Me? - Part Two - After Chris & Nick convince Matt to go to a party with them, he overdoes it and has to carried home. The night ends in a silly drunken confession.

♡☆ Batman Has Arrived - Two weeks into the break Matt proposed, he pops up on you at a Halloween party.

♡ Puppy Love - Requested - After moving in together, Matt decides it's time to become dog parents.

♡☆ City of Love - Part Two - Part Three - Requested - You move back to your hometown, Boston, after a bad breakup. When your takeout get dropped off next door, your neighbor come by to give you your food, already paid for.

♡ Don't Think Different - Requested - You and your long-term boyfriend, Matt, get invited to a friend's wedding. As the ceremony goes on, you and Matt can't help but wonder what it'd be like if it was your wedding day instead.

♡ Dating Matt Sturniolo - Headcanon

❀ Vanilla or a freak? - Requested - Blurb

♡ ☆ Texting your boyfriend, Matt - Fake text

♡ Matt's October Camera Roll

♡ Alright, I love you - Chris stays out longer than expected, making your insecurities come to light.

♡ Mama - Chris attends your first ultrasound with you, and when you realize you have to have transvaginal, he’s there to comfort you.

♡ Positive - When the whole house comes down with the flu, you have a hard time recovering which makes Nick jokingly plant the idea of two pink lines in your head.

♡ Changed Woman - Your babydaddy, Chris, comforts you after morning sickness continues to kick your ass.

♡ Sketchbook - Requested - You and Chris meet freshman year of high school. With the talent of drawing, he quickly becomes your muse. After winning an award senior year, he finally finds out what you've been hiding from him this whole time.

♡ ☆ Pierced - ❀ Part two - During a movie night with you best friend and his brothers, Chris takes a photo on your phone while you're in the bathroom, but what he doesn't expect to see is the most recent picture in your camera roll.

♡ Dating Chris Sturniolo - Headcanon

❀ ☆ Vanilla or a freak? - Requested - Blurb

❀ ☆ Riding Chris - Requested - Blurb

♡ Chris's October Camera Roll

♡ Bestie Nick - Headcanon

© All Rights Reserved to m00nl1ghts1vt. Do not copy my work. All photos and dividers are mine, please tag me if you use them!

Don't forget to request!!

[writersdrug]

Ok ok ok I'm feeling creative today - how yall feeling about these ideas?

You drag Konig to a metal concert, he's not entirely happy with crowds but you're all smiles and singing so he's happy - ends up dragging you somewhere private (not enough, though) and REALLY makes you happy ;)

Konig comes home to you asleep, sees that you were listening to a GWA audio from Reddit, he decides to play it again on your phone and shares an earbud, acts out everything the voice actor does.

Working from home when Ghost is on leave, he gets bored having to sit around and wait for you to get off (gets a taste of his own medicine, huh), decides to pass the time by eating you out while you work on emails - oh! Boss needs to have an urgent video call? Don't mind him down there, just don't get distracted. - based on a request :)

John Price taking you, his favorite tailor, as his date to a military awards ceremony - oh, and don't worry about him introducing you as his fiancé, he may or may not have been telling everyone about his fake engagement just to get people to stop asking "When are you planning to settle down and have kids?" It's only for one night, so who cares? Well, you get your revenge and make it known that you are NOT to be mistaken as some cheap escort: if he really wants you to play this role, you will. Perfectly. And why not tease the poor captain, just for fun? Don't worry, he'll get back at you for it later. :3

First date with Gaz, he's a super sweet, observant, caring guy. Second date is for sure gonna happen, no doubt in either of your minds. Darts/card games/board games and the chance to meet the rest of his team? Awesome!! Until you figure out that Gaz is a competitive little shit, and he rubs it in, too. You've thought about throwing in the towel after that second date, it was honestly too much. But mama didn't raise no quitter!! So, date #3, you try again. He still wins every time - in your frustration, you comment that he's probably so good at board games and card games because he's horrible in bed. You could last FAR longer than he could. His response: "Wanna bet, love?"

Soap has been watching you since you joined the medic team. Told Ghost he called dibs. Ghost said dibs aren't a real thing, and proceeded to steal you away from Soap. You admire them both, but Ghost is giving you so much attention and he's one hell of a smooth talker... Johnny knows he's got so much more than Ghost does. He talks big, but Johnny would wipe the floor with him when it comes to sex. Ghost said he'll make you cum more than once, hmm? "Well, what if I show ye how hard I can make ye cum, hen?"

Imma write all of these istg some creative gear is turning in my head today

[thesparkling-diamond27]

The Second Bridgerton And I: Part 5

Benedict Bridgerton x Reader

Summary: Y/n Clearwater becomes named the “Sparkling Diamond” by Queen Charlotte herself, but she doesn’t know what to do with all this attention. Of course she has her family, but sometimes that doesn’t seem enough. But what happens when she encounters a specific Bridgerton, which changes the course of her season.

Author’s Note: This chapter includes scenes from season 3 episode 3 of Bridgerton. Down below is the link to the part 4 and part 6. I hope you enjoy!

I awaited for the impact and felt nothing. I released the breath I was holding and turned around to see that it was Lord Debling who saved me.

“Thank you Lord Debling.”

“You are we—“

“Y/n!” Someone shouted “Y/n!”

I turned to the voice and saw Benedict running down the stairs of the wooden platform towards me. As he reached to where Lord Debling and I were he crouched down to my level and inspected my body for injures.

“Are you hurt? Did the ballon hit you?”

“I am alright.” I placed my hand over his to calm him down and the concern and fear in his eyes seemed to fade slightly, but not completely.

“Thanks to Lord Debling I am safe.”

“Y/n are you okay?” Penelope asked.

I did not realize while talking to Benedict, Penelope made her way over here and stood behind him. Before I could respond, my family came running towards us. My mama and father were at the front with my brothers close on their tails.

“Y/n dearest are you hurt?” My mama asked when she reached me.

“Y/n are you harmed?” Noah asked.

Noah and Alex both crouched down on each side of Benedict and started to inspect me like how Benedict did before.

“Do not worry about me dear brothers I am unharmed. Lord Debling saved me from the balloon hitting me and Penelope and Mr. Bridgerton made sure that I was alright before you all showed up.”

My family all turned to Lord Debling and my father spoke up first.

“Lord Debling. Thank you for saving my daughter. I am in your debt. Whatever you desire I shall comply.”

Lord Debling stood from the ground and said , “There is no need. I did what any noble gentleman would do. Clearwater family. Mr. Bridgerton. Miss Featherington.”

He then walked away to check on Cressida who was “crying” and seemed to be faking an ankle injury. Alex spoke to Benedict.

“Thank you so much for checking on my sister Benedict. I am glad I can trust you with her when I am not around.”

“It is the least I could do for my best friend.” Benedict said.

“Since Lord Debling did not accept my father’s offer, will you accept? For saving my sister.”

“I did not help her for an award. I did not do much anyway. I only checked to make sure she was alright.”

“Do not downplay your actions.” My mama said, “I am grateful for any part you had in helping my daughter. Maybe I will invite you and your family for dinner.”

“Dinner seems acceptable.” Benedict said.

I turned to Benedict and realized that he was already looking at me. Was he looking at me the whole time? No that is not possible he was talking with Alex and mama. But maybe he was when he wasn’t talking with them…

I did not notice the confused look upon my mama’s face or the amused one on Penelope’s as Benedict helped me to my feet and made sure I was alright once again with gentle attention. He held on to my arms for any sign of discomfort and I silently reassured him that I was well.

“I will speak with your family right now Benedict.” My mama said, “Thank you again!”

“You’re welcome.” Benedict said with a smile.

My mama gestured for my family to follow her, however I decided to stay behind with Benedict and Penelope. Penelope squeezed my arm and said, “I am glad you are okay. Would you like me to stay?”

“No I am okay.” I replied.

She nodded and gave me a teasing smile, after glancing at Benedict, and walked away. As soon as Penelope was out of hearing distance Benedict asked,

“Are you sure you are alright?”

“Yes I am fine. I am just a little startled as one would be in a situation like this.”

“Would you like to sit down?”

I nodded and Benedict placed his hand on the small of my back and guided me to a nearby bench. Even though there was fabric separated skin on skin contact, I still felt a tingling sensation when he touched my back. I tried my best to hide what I was feeling, but my breath hitched and Benedict noticed.

“Again. Are you well?”

He thought I was still shaken up from the accident with the balloon. If only he knew.

“Yes I am truly.” I said.

His face showed that he did not believe me, but he nodded regardless. We reached the bench and he urged me to sit down, while he stood in front of me.

“Is there anything that you want that I can get you?”

“No. Only your company.”

I patted the empty space on the bench beside me for him to sit. He accepted the invitation and sat next to me.

“You can tell spring is here.” I said, “The flowers are so beautiful.”

“I can agree.”

We continued sitting in a comfortable silence. The breeze died down, but it still appeared every once in a while. The trees rustling, the birds chirping and the chatter of people all at once created a cohesive harmony that became calming.

“I want them.” I said.

“I’m sorry?”

“Flowers. I want flowers.”

“Do you want me to get them for you now?”

“No! Sorry. I said that without context. I do not want you to retrieve flowers for me right now. I mentioned flowers earlier and I was thinking how I wish to receive them one day. From someone else if I am lucky.”

“You will.”

“How can you be so sure?”

“I just know. You are an incredible woman. Anyone who does not fall in love with you is a fool.”

I was flustered with the compliment he just gave me. Does he really believe that I am that lovable? Can he possibly love me?Or does he see himself as the fool? Only seeing me as a friend and nothing more.

“What about flowers makes you want to receive them?”

“They are all beautiful. There are so many different kind of flowers and one type of flower can have so many different meanings based on the color. For example, red roses represent love and yellow roses represent friendship. Red carnations show deep love and affection, while pink carnations show gratitude. And so on and so on. But the thought of someone feeling the need to buy me flowers because they want to, makes me feel warm. I want something like that…I am sorry I went on a tangent.”

“No it is okay. It is nice to know that you are passionate about something. It reminds me of the incident at Lord Tremble’s event a few days ago. Would you like to talk about it?”

I debated on if I should talk about my Panic attack. I know he wanted to talk about it, but I already discussed it with my family and I was not in the mood after almost getting hit.

“No not right now. We might be having dinner with one another, so we can discuss it then if that is okay with you.”

“Of course. As long as you are comfortable. What about the book I offered you? Did you begin to read it?”

“Yes. However, not enough for me to discuss I’m afraid. What about you?”

“I started it and it is very interesting. It is entertaining, but not enough to keep my nose in the book. I finished part 1 and—“

“No! Do not tell me. I want to wait until you get about halfway through the book if that is alright with you.”

“That is alright with me.” He said with a smile and I returned it.

I looked over to the balloon, now in place and secure, when I noticed a familiar tent in the distance.

“Can you accompany me while I purchase some sweet treats?” I asked.

“It would be my pleasure.”

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Alexandra was adding the finishing touches to my dress for dinner with the Bridgertons. It was a beautiful sky blue dress with a white accents throughout it. My hair was tied in intricate twists and curls with a diamond hair pin placed just right. I felt like my hair was too much, since this was only a dinner instead of a ball, but Alexandra insisted. She wanted to try the new hair style on me and she thought tonight would be perfect because only the Bridgerton’s and my family would be seeing me instead of the whole ton.

I could not wear my green flower ring, so I pulled it from my finger and placed it on my vanity next to Benedict’s handkerchief. The handkerchief stayed in that exact place, ever since I placed it there after I came home for Lord Tremble’s . I know he said to keep it, but I wanted to give it back to him, since it belonged to him. I was going to give it to him at the balloon event yesterday, but it slipped my mind. I could give it to him tonight, but a part of me wanted to wait a little while longer. It may sound silly, but having the handkerchief is like having a piece of Benedict with me when he is not here. I smiled at the thought of Benedict being at dinner tonight, and it amazed me how fast he has been integrated into my life.

“Are you ready Y/n?” Alexandra asked.

“Yes I am. Thank you for everything.” I said gratefully.

“It was my pleasure. Now meet your family downstairs.”

Alexandra began to clean around my room and I walked out of my room and downstairs to where my brothers, father and mama were waiting to leave. The dinner was originally supposed to take place at our house, but after our families realized that there was scheduling conflicts they decided to have the dinner at the Bridgerton household.

“At least I am not the last one.” I said with a smirk.

“You are still not one of the first ones dear sister. Were you getting all dolled up for a specific Bridgerton?” Alex said with a joking smile.

I blushed at his jest as I walked down the stairs. Alex found it amusing after he found out about Benedict and I’s friendship. Ever since then he has made it his personal mission to embarrass me by teasing me about Benedict. He even asked me if I fancied him! Such as ridiculous question. Any girl who falls in love with him will be lucky to stare at this ocean blue eyes all day and run their fingers through his soft chocolate brown hair. And smell his calming scent whenever he is near, but that girl is not me because I do not have feelings for Benedict.

“No I was not!”

“Mhmm hmm.”

I tried to change the topic.

“Is Adeline done yet?”

“She appears to still be getting ready.”

I groaned. “She always takes forever.” I plopped myself on the nearby sofa and Alex said,

“Are you sure you slouching will make Benedict become attracted to you, because I don’t think so.”

“Alex!” I said annoyed.

He is going to be the death of me tonight. I hope does not embarrass me in front of Benedict or even the rest of the Bridgerton family.

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Viscountess Violet Bridgerton led my family and I to their drawing room and it was just how I expected it to be. It had the same layout as my family’s drawing room, but there room was decorated with blue shades instead of purple hues. It does make sense, since the Bridgerton family’s color is blue. It makes me feel glad that Alexandra dressed me in blue tonight. Maybe she picked the dress on purpose, since she knew we were having dinner at the Bridgertons. I wonder if Benedict will notice.

The younger Bridgerton siblings, Gregory and Hyacinth, were sitting at a small table arguing over something, Francesca was playing a beautiful tune on the piano forte, Eloise was reading a book called Emma, which I have read before, on the couch, and Benedict stood by the fireplace with his brother Colin.

“I find it absurd that we have not shared a dinner with one another all these years when we live right across the street from one another.” Violet Bridgerton said.

“I know. I do not know why it took so long, but I am glad we are doing it now.” My mama said. “I think we will be doing this more often due to our children’s friendship.”

Mama and Violet Bridgerton started having their own conversation, which left the rest of my family and I to fend for ourselves. Adeline followed mama, while Alex and Noah joined Benedict and Colin at the fireplace. I wanted to approach Benedict, but I did not want to overstep my boundaries when my brothers and his brother were all present.

I looked at Eloise and wondered if I should approach her. On normal circumstances I would, but now I am not so sure due to what is going on between her and Penelope at the moment.

I decided to approach Francesca. The last time we had conversed with each other was at Lady Danbury’s ball and that was awhile ago. I wonder what has happened with her recently?

That is splendid playing Francesca.” I said, “Definitely better than me”

“Oh do not over exaggerate. I am average at best.”

“Don’t be modest! You are a talented musician.”

“Thank you. I do rather enjoy it and it gives me peace. When I play I am able to take a break from all the stress and pressure. Join me.”

Francesca slid over on the piano bench to give me room to join her. I sat onto the chair and she began to play a simple familiar tune that I knew with her left hand. There were two parts to it and she was playing part 1, so I began to pay part 2 with my right hand. Together we became to play in harmony and in sync with one another.

“You mentioned stress and pressure.” I started, “what makes you so stressed if I could ask.”

Francesca continued playing with me as she thought about her answer. I could tell she had something to say and she was trying to figure out the best way to say it. I felt that way a time or two.

“Society can be stressfull. I am in my first season out like yourself and I want to make my family proud. I want to meet a noble man to marry, but I cannot seem to find a connection. It has been a struggle so far, but I am optimistic.”

“I know exactly how you feel.”

Francesca looked up at me surprised, but she continued to play with ease.

“I would have never expected someone like you to feel that way.” She said

“What do you mean someone like me?”

“You always appear confident and poised and you walk with such ease and grace. Far more grace than most ladies in the ton. It always seemed to me like you never faced the pressure of the ton. Also not to mention that you are this season’s sparkling diamond.”

“There is always more that meets the eye.”

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Benedict

“Benedict! How have you been!” Alex pulled me into a hug as he asked this.

“You literally saw me a week ago.”

“So what. I cannot know what my best friend is up to?”

“No.” I said sarcastically.

Alex began to laugh.

Slow music began to play and we all turned to see Y/n playing with Francesca.

“It appears our sisters have something in common.” Noah said

“It appears so.” I said.

“Sure your sister plays the piano forte as well, but do you hear her playing nonstop?” Colin dragged out the last syllable.

“No I am afraid not.” Noah said.

“Well consider yourself lucky because this is how it is here. Welcome to our humble abode.”Colin added.

Alex put his arms around Colin and I and said,

“Well I have been here before, but this is Noey’s first time visiting.”

“Eww do not call me that.” Noah said.

“Ummm…no.”

As those two began to bicker, I could not help, but glance over at Y/n as she continued to talk and play with Francesca. I wanted her to look over at me and acknowledge me. I originally wanted to walk over to her when she walked in, but her brothers came over before I could. Hopefully I can speak with her later.

“Benedict. Hello!”

“Yes.”

“We have been trying to gain your attention.” Alex said, “What are you so focused on?”

I wanted to answer honestly, but I couldn’t. I wasn’t going to say that I was staring at Y/n and especially not in front of her two brothers. Any man who would say such a thing in front of a girl’s brother is mad.

“Nothing.” I lied.

“Uh huh.”

Alex didn’t seem to buy it and his suspicions face turned into a smirk.

“Anyway, Colin was going to shows us things from his travels. Want to come with?”

“No I have already seen it.”

“Suit yourself.”

I watched as Alex, Noah, and Colin walked out of the drawing room. I diverted my attention to Hyacinth and Gregory who were arguing once again and I chuckled. Those two can never seem eye to eye and I don’t think they ever will until they reach adulthood. I glanced at Eloise who was reading her book titled Emma. She has been more invested with society recently and it has been surprising. Eloise never cared much for the ton before. My eyes eventually landed on Francesca and Y/n. Francesca was extremely quiet this season and I hope she was alright. Y/n and Francesca seemed to be getting along. It was nice to see Francesca somewhat branch out. She tended to isolate herself in the past.

I walked up to the piano forte and Francesca stopped and playing, since she noticed me first. Y/n looked up at me after her and she took my breath away. Her dress was blue. More specifically a Bridgerton blue. She has been wearing blue more lately and I believe the color suits her. I wonder if she wore blue tonight on purpose? Or maybe she just randomly picked it. Her hair was tied in an intricate bun with a diamond hair clip to complement her hair. She looked absolutely lovely.

I was almost tongue twisted, but I managed to hold myself together.

“Can you join me Y/n for a moment?”

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Francesca smiled at me and started to play another beautiful tune on the piano forte. I guess that was my cue to leave with Benedict. I rose from the piano bench and walked with Benedict to the windowsill.

“Um…You mentioned the other night that the windowsill brings you comfort and peace, so I figured we could sit here.”

I smiled at the thoughtful gesture.

“Thank you.”

I took a seat and gazed out of the window. I could see my house from here. I can even see the inside of my room if I looked close enough. It is crazy how I can see the inside of my home from the window of the Bridgerton drawing room.

“I can see my room from here.” I said.

“Really?! Which window is it?”

Benedict peered over my shoulder to see where I was looking and his proximity caused me to freeze for a moment. Feeling his breath on my neck was overpowering and our mouths can almost touch if I turned to look at him. I wonder what it would be like to kiss Benedict. To feel his lips upon mine. Wait why am I thinking about kissing Benedict? I cleared my throat and pointed to the window of my room.

“The window right there, on the second floor. Two windows to the left from the front door.”

“Ahh I see. Someone is in there.”

“It is probably my maid Alexandra.”

Benedict nodded and returned to his seat beside me.

“I wanted to talk to you privately about what happened at Lord Tremble’s house.” Benedict said.

So that is what he wanted to talk about. We did not get to discuss about it after I was almost hit by the balloon, so I think now is the time.

“Before we arrived, I was on edge all day and I knew that if I was ever left alone I would become triggered, so I tried to stay as close to my family as possible. Eventually I ended up alone and as you know Lord Clayton and two other gentlemen bombarded me with questions and I felt overwhelmed.”

Benedict nodded and I continued.

“I tried to isolate myself from the situation because that has helped me in the past. I used to have frequent panic attacks, but this was the first one in a very long time. I am glad you were there to comfort me. If you weren’t there I would have been alone.”

I placed my hand on top of his to show my gratitude. Benedict stared at it for awhile. I wonder what was going on in his head. Suddenly he brought my hand to his lips and kissed the back of it.

“You are a strong woman Y/n. What you go through is not easy and I am glad you felt comfortable enough with me to share that. From now on I will be there if you need me.”

“Thank you. I really appreciate it.”

“It is the least I can do.”

I looked down at our hands and noticed that he was still holding mine. It looked like he had no intentions of letting go soon, so I found myself looking out the window again. The sun was beginning to set and the once blue sky turned into shades of pink, purple, orange, and yellow. It was a beautiful sight and it reminded me of paintings I see in museums.

“The sunset is beautiful.” I said.

Benedict turned to the window to look at the sunset.

“It is isn’t it.”

“The colors all swirl together and it looks like paint on a canvas. To me at least.”

“I have a finger painting similar to this.”

“You do?”

“Yes I painted it myself.”

“You paint?”

“I do.” He said with a smile.

I was shocked to hear this news. I did not know Benedict enjoyed painting.

“The painting is a little different from the sunset though.” Benedict said, “I used a lot more colors than the one in the sky and the painting is a little more swirly than the sunset, but they are both quite similar.”

He mumbled something else, but I could not quite hear what he said.

“I’m sorry I did not hear you correctly.” I said.

“Oh…I said that it is kind of funny…because I was a little impaired when I painted it.”

“Impaired? Impaired how.”

“Last season I was under the influence of something that Colin brought back from his travels and it caused me….to become a little loony.”

I tried to picture Benedict being high while painting or doing anything for that matter and I couldn’t help, but burst into laughter. Benedict looked at me embarrassed.

“I am sorry, but that is too funny Benedict. You shouldn’t be embarrassed. The fact that you were able to paint something when you were impaired is actually impressive.”

“I guess when you put it that way…”

“I would like to see it for myself one day. If you will let me. Or any other artworks you have accomplished.”

Benedict didn’t say anything, but he seemed to be pondering on the thought.

“I usually don’t show people my artwork…”

“Oh I’m sorry I shouldn’t have—“

“…but no one has ever asked to see my artwork, so you would be the first. Maybe after dinner I will show you.” He said with a smile.

I was surprised to find out that I would be the first one to see his artwork. I was even more surprised that I was the first one to ask. However, I felt honored that he was willing to share his artwork with me. I know artists or writers are very sensitive about their work and do not share too often unless it is finished. Their projects have a piece in them and it can be hard to share that with someone else.

“I would love to see your artwork.” I said.

“Dinner is ready children.” Violet said.

I quickly removed my hand from Benedict’s hold and we both started walking out of the drawing room with Francesca and Eloise. I hope no one saw our hand holding because I did not want his family or my family to think that we were interested with one another. Our proximity and hand holding was inappropriate and I’m glad they were not here to see any of that. Francesca was too engrossed with her piano playing and Eloise was reading, so I doubt they noticed anything.

When I reached the doorway, Alex linked our arms together and whispered in my ear,

“You and Benedict are getting kind of close.”

“We are just friends Felis. Nothing more.”

“Okay Carina. Whatever you say.”

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Dinner was extremely enjoyable. Violet Bridgerton sat at the head of the table and my father and mama were to her right. To Violet’s left was Colin and Eloise and Benedict was next to Eloise, which made him sit across from me. Francesca sat to my right followed by Adeline. Alex sat beside Benedict followed by the two youngest Bridgertons. This left Noah sitting at the other end of the table across from Violet. Anthony and his wife Kathani were still on their honeymoon, so they were absent at tonight’s dinner. I do wish they were present because I would love to formally meet them.

The food was delicious and conversation was easy and free. I found myself mainly talking with Francesca and I could see a friendship blooming between us. We continued our conversation from earlier dealing with pressure and stress from the ton and she opened up about Lord Samadani and the Queen expecting her to marry him. As we talked I noticed how much in common we have, since we both feel the immense pressure from society and we both do not want to disappoint our families.

It felt nice to begin a new friendship because at the start of the new season I noticed a shift between me and my old friends. They seem distant, so it is nice to know I have friends like Pen, Benedict and Francesca in case those friendships unfortunately come to an end.

“I simply want to make my family proud.” Francesca said. “Lord Samadani seems like the easy choice for me. I have the best connection with him compared to other suitors and he is kind and gentle. However, I have a voice in the back of my head telling something else. Not in the form of words. More like a feeling. Like I am not on the right path.”

Her feelings were similar to mine. When Maxwell asked to court me, I felt a sensation of uneasiness. Penelope and I figured it was just nerves, so maybe that is what is going with Francesca.

“I’m dealing with something similar as well. When Lord Tewkesberry asked to court me I felt something wrong. A sense of uneasiness. Penelope and I agreed that I was feeling nervous. Courting is a major step that can possibly lead to marriage. Of course you feel nervous about Lord Samadani. It has nothing to do with you or Lord Samadani. The thought of being married is daunting. Remember that your family is here for you and I’m here for you if you let me.”

Francesca appeared to be reviewing my words and looked upon with a grateful expression.

“I would love for you to be there for me and I would love to be there for you. You have shown great character and I would love to be your friend if you will let me.”

“It would be my honor.”

We both shared smiled and continued on with our meal. As dinner came to an end it was time for dessert.

“I hope you all enjoy dessert. We are having lemon cakes and raspberry macarons, which Benedict told me are Y/n’s favorite desserts.” Violet said.

I looked ahead to Benedict and he was already looking upon me with a sheepish smile. He went out of his way to make sure my favorite desserts were present at tonight’s dinner and I felt warm. I hope no one noticed the blush that tainted my cheeks.

“Thank you Benedict for the gesture.” I said.

“Of course. I wanted to make sure you felt welcome.”

I noticed Alex looking at me with a knowing look and I knew he is going to have a field day with this now that he witnessed this interaction and caught us holding hands earlier. I tried to give him a discreet warning look, since there were non family members present.

The maids brought out the dessert and as I placed a lemon cake on my plate I noticed Benedict’s eyes on me. He had a smile on his face and the feelings that resulted were foreign, but welcoming.

[dearlexies]

if you are a REAL ENGENE read this until the end, it's long but so so important!!!

I need Engenes to start supporting enhypen the same way they do with us, and I'm being serious.

I warn you that there will probably be some spelling mistakes because English is not my first language, but honestly at this moment I don't give a damn about that I just hope you understand what I have to say.

I'm so tired of seeing other fandoms talking bullshit about the boys, and dragging the group and members at every opportunity. This is not the first, the second, third and definitely won't be the last one. I'm not saying for us to be like them but for us to start being better, and not in a way that they talk shit about enhypen and we just let it happen without saying a word but in a way that they talk shit and we show the results!!!

WE ENGENES are the ones who make them break records, WE ENGENES are the people who should support them on this path, WE ENGENES are the people responsible for voting and streaming their music and honestly we are not doing this well. Romance : Untold was a perfect album, and Sunghoon said he expected to get 3 wins with this album; instead we only got one. and sometimes it feels like it was purely luck. we had a goal for the XO mv to have 40M views on the first month, now 3 months have passed and we are still at 33M. XO and BTHB had the chance to trend on tiktok and we let it pass. How do you expect Enhypen to be known? Honestly Belift doesn't promote them too much, and in the few times that it happens y'all let it pass and act like it didn't happen. So the only ones who can ACTUALLY promote the group are us engenes.

The ones on Tik Tok are useless, most of them don't vote, don't stream, don't watch mvs, are only there for interactions and comment "who's your bias??" at every video. The ones on Twitter are fighting with each other all the time. The few on Tumblr are only here for fanfics. And not to mention the fake engenes that are LITERALLY telling us to boycott the group which is honestly the worst thing we can do for them!!!!

So please, all I'm asking is for y'all started acting as a FANDOM. we need to unite, connect, whatever, to help the boys to grow. Can we please do this???

ENHYPEN already warned us that next year's schedule will be super busy, that means they already know their plans and have accepted the challenge. We should match their pace in terms of working hard all year. ENGENEs I ask you, are you ready?

let's support them with whatever we can and I ask all the Engenes to kindly stream we need to go on a steaming lockdown. Every Engene who come across this comment kindly stream to their fullest, collect rewards for music shows, Stream music videos etc.

But let's not start it next year, let's do it NOW!!! as we know enhypen will probably have a comeback in November so download higher, all charts, idol champ, mubeat, mnet plus, upick and star collecting for the voting, you don't need to download all of them just one or two is already good enough to help. Just download the app, do your attendance, watch some ads, and when the voting stars just vote for enhypen, simple like that. We have one month to collect so when it starts we're ready.

ENHYPEN has a chance to take AOTY to this year's MAMA, we urgently need to increase streams in romance:untold, listen to the album as much as possible, let's give them this award, please!!! Moonstruck is kinda trending on tiktok right now so let's keep it that way post videos with the songs, do edits, dance challenges etc

and also, enhypen is the only bg of the 4th generation to have four songs with 300M on spotify and I know in the future there will be many more, but right now we need to make given-taken have 200M on Spotify so here are some playlists for Romance Untold and Given-Taken

R:U & Given-Taken 2 hours

Given-Taken to 200M

Given-Taken to 200M + XO focus

Romance Untold 8 hour stream

as Engenes we need to support our boys they not rookie's anymore they are Senior now. They have big goals in 2025 ENGENES need a mindset like ENHYPEN.. ENGENES also need a Big Goals to our boys like Deasang!!!! let's work hard

[bittersbloom]

✦‎۟ ࣭ ⊹🍒 CHERI @ MAMA 2023

with no prior confirmation that she was attending the awards, cheri made her first solo award show appearance at the 2023 MAMA. making her red carpet debut on day 2, she wore a 2019 oscar de la renta mini dress and donned vivienne westwood jewelry.

DAY 2 RED CARPET & CEREMONY

HIGHLIGHTS !

- she was nominated for best female artist, song of the year, and best music video!

- everyone was so shocked to actually see her there bc mnet nor chromatic confirmed that she was attending let alone performing.

- anyway she was the most colorful person

- she opened day 2 with NONSENSE & WEEKEND the theme of the stage was “what i want to say is…”

- true popstar fr

- she got into every single performance really enjoyed herself had the time of her life

- by gods grace she was sat near svt and she kinda was just their extra member for the night

- was beyond shocked when she won 2/3 her awards in fact she was very nervous when she gave her speeches and cried in her green room afterwards.

- overall two very exciting & big nights for cheri

PERFORMANCE OUTFIT

SPEECH FOR SOTY !

“I wasn’t expecting this and that makes me even more nervous. This song was written within a weekend in London, really just for fun, and now it seems like everyone in the world knows it and they don’t know how or why. I want to thank my fans who have made that possible. This song was risqué, to say the least. Um, sorry, to the children that listened to it, but thank you for the award. Of course, thank you to my members for always supporting me. This is my first time doing this by myself. I didn’t know if I could do it without them. Everyone, please support them as well. And, I couldn’t forget, I love you!”

SPEECH FOR BEST MUSIC VIDEO !

“Well, I can for sure say that I had so much fun making this video. I’ve had a lot of creative freedom lately, if you couldn’t tell. I really love creating things with my friends who are all over the place and in the video as well. Again, thank you to my fans and my members, and my friends for throwing the most incredible fake Valentine’s Day party ever. I have a concert soon, everyone come party with us!”

[romance-rambles]

godheim ayn | in which he sticks to the letter, not the spirit

Years after New Godheim is established, your daughter attempts to help you solve a mystery you hadn't thought too hard about before her. Ayn gets ambushed, Roxana gets chocolate, and you get no answers.

0.8k, domestic fluff, children of characters, post-ayn route, reader is mc, series: an eventful first meeting

AYN HAS JUST WALKED IN the front door when he's met with an ambush. Instinctively, he reaches out his free hand, steadying the small bundle of joy holding his legs hostage.

She looks up at him, and he sees eyes the color of his own shining determinedly back at him. As his hand lowers from the back of her head to her shoulder, her small hands tighten their grip on his legs, leaving a pattern of creases to crawl down the length of his pants.

"I'm home," he says, crouching down to her level. It takes all his willpower to not smile or look when he hears you laugh softly from somewhere in the back. "Isn't there something you should say to me?"

Letting go of him, Roxanna blinks owlishly. Then, as she cups her chin thoughtfully, some realization dawns on her—though Ayn doubts it's the correct one.

"Papa," she says urgently. "Did you get my chocolate?"

He snorts, offering her his latest purchases to peruse through. "Why don't you take a look?"

Easily swayed by the promise of more sweets, she buries her head into the basket and begins sorting through. Ayn watches over her fondly, until a slight movement from behind one of the sofas catches his eye. Soon, you poke your head out properly, a wry grin on your face—as if to commiserate over her blatant disregard for everything when chocolate is involved.

He raises an eyebrow at you. You hang your head in response, a fake tearful expression on your face. Ever the dutiful husband, Ayn sighs.

"Are you sure there's nothing else you want to ask me?"

There's chocolate on her hands now. A smear on her lips, and another on her cheek. She glances over to where you're hiding, then at him, her lips forming an 'O'. Taking off his glove, he gently wipes away the mess and gets awarded for his helpfulness by the sight of her stomping her feet angrily.

"That was my chocolate!" Roxanna pouts, crossing her arms. "I'm taking yours!"

Nothing good comes of spoiling a kid rotten. But a little bit, he thinks, is deserved. Scooping both his daughter and his recent goodies up, he presses a kiss to her forehead. She huffs, resting her head against his chest when she hears him chuckle.

"That's okay. I'll just take them from Mama," he says, keenly aware of his wife's furious glare as he walks past the living room—into the kitchen, where he sets her down on the countertop. "Are you sure there's nothing else?"

"Hmm?" Her eyebrows furrow in confusion, at first. Then, bobbing her head confidently, she asks, "Papa, how'd you meet Mama?"

By now, you've migrated to a different hiding spot. The still tearful look on your face tells him that this isn't the question you coached her on. Ayn bites back a smirk.

"So, that's what you wanted to ask?" he asks, his smile widening when he spies you shaking your head—hoping that your silent gesturing for her to cease her attempts get across. "I thought I already told you that story."

"No, you told me how you got married!" she says. "How'd you meet?"

"We were at a ball," Ayn recounts, closing his eyes. His smile fades a bit at the memories directly following that encounter, only for it to flare back to life when he remembers the way you panicked over maple syrup. "Your mother…she was engaged to someone else back then. So we were celebrating for her."

Roxanna frowns. "What happened to him then?"

Opening his eyes, he raises an eyebrow at her. "I thought you wanted to know about us?"

"Continue…" she grumbles.

"There was only one slice left of my favorite cake," he continues, recalling the smile on your painted lips as you offered it to him. "Your mom gave it to me when she realized I wanted it."

Years have passed since that day, and they have taken bits of his memory with them. Most of the nobles who attended alongside him are a sea of faceless men and women, depicted in indistinct shapes and clashing colors. Even Lars has become a distant memory—but you alone remain preserved under the bright lights, as beautiful then as you are now.

"Really? That's it?" As though she'd been hoping for something more romantic, she scrunches up her nose. "I'd never do that."

He smiles softly, well aware his daughter won't understand his hidden meaning. "And I hope you never have to."

"Okay," Roxanna says, tilting her head. She's grabbed another chocolate, and this time, her mouth is full when she asks her next question. "Oh! Then, when did you know you liked her?"

"You shouldn't eat with your mouth full," he chides.

His softened gaze naturally wanders over to you—at the same time that you happen to be celebrating your good fortune. It seems this is the question you wanted her to ask. Ayn disguises his laugh as a cough, and a lovely shade of red blooms across your cheeks.

As he ruffles his daughter's dark hair—to which she protests loudly, and is mollified only when he fixes the muted red of her bangs back into place—he flashes a mischievous grin at his wife.

"Hmm, well, I wonder…maybe I'll remember if I talk to your mother."

[ateez-himari]

MAMA EXCLUSIVE STAGE: ICARUS

A tragic take on BTS' most memorable tracks and a classic Greek tale.

November 29, 2023 (1:24PM) by ATEEZNews

The second day of the MAMA Awards Ceremony hosted a joint stage between Stray Kids' Hyunjin and ATEEZ's Himari - performing to a fusion of BTS' Fake Love & Black Swan created by 3Racha in collaboration with ATEEZ's producer line.

It began with a cinematographic introduction where Stray Kids leader BangChan's voice narrated the story to be told. 'An angel walking amongst mortals, so pure and beautiful...so ignorant of the evil blackening their souls. A demon was the one who caught her fragile heart, his love burning as bright as the Sun lighting the skies. The angel was warned to stay away but it was too late...his passion soon turned to obsession, to chains binding her for the rest of eternity to his ever growing greed. In the end she who was thought by many as one with the most hopeful future of them all drowned in tears brought by the pain of her unrelenting love. A young woman with wings of such a pure white was burned by the raging fires of human desire...a damned soul mortals would remember as Icarus.'

To embody this concept both artists were dressed in outfits comprising mainly of satin, the fabric's flow emphasizing the story's tumultuous emotions. Whilst Stray Kid's main dancer is truly a radiant presence, his black clothing made him seem like nothing short of a dark prince and Himari's white dress made her seem like an apparition from Heaven.

The styling and stage set were already a sight to behold by themselves yet the complexity of their choreography managed to take the audience's breath away by offering an unexpected combination of contemporary and classical dance. As they are styles rarely used by idols it was already proving to be a challenge yet they added a layer of difficulty by being bound to each other throughout the performance. Long ribbons were tied to their wrists, connecting the artists together and requiring their bodies to move in nearly perfect sync in order to avoid getting tangled or jeopardizing the following sequence.

This stage is sure to engrave itself in MAMA history as one of the most spectacular performances to have graced the award ceremony.

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[chiskz]

[ 💿💽 ] CHICHI 2nd Birthday Album (Physical) "moirai"

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♡ teaser/concept photos

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♡ tracklist

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♡ meaning

In ancient Greek religion and mythology, the Moirai (often known in English as the Fates) were the personifications of destiny (via Wikipedia).

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moirai by CHICHI (Stray Kids)

Studio: JYPE (Seoul), Channie's Room (Seoul)

Length: ~ 33 minutes

Released: 12 January 2024

Language: Korean, English, Japanese

Previous solo album (1st Birthday Album [Digital]): Member Branding

Tracklist:

spotify & youtube links are provided. you can also listen whole album here .

1. TITLE Crazy Fate (feat. Park Junhee of A.C.E.)

2. The Footsteps of My Dear Love

3. LAW (feat. Jurin of XG)

4. Loner

5. Villain

6. Devil by the Window

7. Run Away (feat. Seungmin & I.N)

8. YAMAZAKI (feat. SUGA of BTS)

9. IDOL

10. I Don't Wanna Know

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♡ trivia

➥ IDOL was presented during a performance with Avantgardey at MAMA 2023

➥ YAMAZAKI was previously released as a single and won "The Best Collaboration Award" at MAMA 2023

➥ Run Away with Seungmin and I.N was originally intended to be released as SKZ-PLAYER - the song was written in Paris during Stray Kids' visit to Music Bank Paris

➥ I Don't Wanna Know was created by HAN with lyrics by CHICHI - it debuted as SKZ-PLAYER

➥ with Crazy Fate and Loner CHICHI becomes:

* the fastest rapping idol considering each generation

* the fastest rapping idol whose first language is not Korean

* the fastest rapping artist in general using Korean

➥ Junhee's part for Crazy Fate was recorded right after he got out of the army (he got out of the army on 6th August 2023, and recording was already done in September 2023)

➥ The Footsteps of My Dear Love was written by CHICHI as early as two years ago - however, she did not feel vocally ready to perform it earlier

➥ critics assess the album as "an emotional rollercoaster leading to the discovery of one's own identity by a person lost in their own self"

➥ with the album's release, Twitter is trending #CHICHIselfmaderapper , a hashtag under which STAY and CHICHI solo stans express their pride and admiration caused by CHICHI becoming the fastest rapping k-pop rapper, when until recently she was not comfortable with the Korean language (because of which she was a victim of derision)

➥ CHICHI describes moirai as the most important musical release of her life

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♡ quotes from moirai songs describing the whole album

" No matter how pretty the memories are, everyone will forget it. "

" Let's dream a happy dream, just like long ago. "

" It's love and war. "

" I fight with another me, hiding inside of myself. "

" The villain you failed to notice breathes within you. "

" No, I can't tell what is fake in my reality. "

" When the night is nearly ending rewind the clock, rewind now. "

" If you fall back, you're dead. "

" I cannot accept any version of you other than the one stronger than everyone else. "

" Don't stop me now. "

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coming soon: Crazy Fate M/V & Behind The Scenes

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moirai album cover by my amazing fiancee @moondust-kitten ♡

♡𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭: @amyysfics , @smh-anon , @neohyxn , @stealanity , @alixnsuperstxr , @juliawritingblog , @rizzshimura , @elizalabs3

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[taekooktimeline]

September 11, 2023 (released):

Tae appears on Yoongi’s show “Suchwita.” They mention at the start of the show they’re meeting members for dinner later that same evening, and Yoongi says they’ll need to congratulate Jungkook (“Seven has achieved so much success. I’m so proud of Jk!). Tae gives a verbal congratulatory shoutout-

Timestamp 18:01 or 

https://x.com/kookvtwins/status/1701225201889931331?s=46&t=StSwHjW0_Domk_lHUFMaCg

Yoongi mentions when he thinks of Tae, he thinks of their 2018 Fake Love era. Tae admits this was the toughest time in his life.

Remember, “Fake Love” derived during the time members were exhausted, while simultaneously their careers were going to a new, higher level.

Suchwita flashes back to MAMA 2018, when an emotional BTS told the audience they had considered disbanding. This video is significant, both for fans and Taekook. It captures a vulnerable moment of the duo in public that hasn’t been shown before by BH official cameras. The video shows Taekook having an emotional moment together, when they hugged and made a huge statement. It’s honestly surprising to me that BH agreed to show this, and raises questions on how they acceded to broadcast it, and whether Yoongi had a hand in it, given that he specifically mentioned Tae and Jk together. This moment was significant, as Yoongi mentioned Tae and Jk went through a difficult phase, and the video shows them together during this time (the screenshot where Yoongi mentions they were together is included below).

Every time I watch this clip I get emotional, thinking of all the hardships and hurdles BTS had to go through and, specifically, my biases.

As an aside, in the BB of this award show, after their emotional speeches, BTS were interviewed backstage. Tae was working on gathering his thoughts to talk to the camera. Jk quickly looks to the cameras before glancing back at Tae to flash the ILY sign, encouraging him.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wkv2zRPef8E, timestamp 20:56 or https://x.com/kakostel/status/1701712695664255216?s=46&t=StSwHjW0_Domk_lHUFMaCg 

Recap of MAMA 2018 - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline2018/625027177926230016/december-14-2018 

We’ve seen repeated instances of them utilizing the gesture as a means to encourage the other. You can find a brief summary here of various times they’ve utilized the ILY or sign language with each other - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline2021/665338207021449216/october-2-2021-continued 

In February 2018, the members had taken a long vacation to consider the future of BTS. Members found this trip to be healing.

And they had reflected on this trip during Festa. A brief synopsis -

February 2018 recap of trip - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline2018/634616819634880512

March 2018 recap of trip - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline2018/625074896359292928/late-march-early-april-2018

Festa 2018 raw link -  https://youtu.be/K4Melso7MPU?si=buEHnYcBOMMIA31_ 

BTS also reflected on 2018 throughout their “Break the Silence” docu-series (filmed in November 2019). Jungkook reminisced about BTS giving each other strength, despite their individual emotional scars, coming together to talk and support one another.

Jk discussing them supporting each other recap may be found here - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline2020/625387952489496577/may-26-2020 

BTS also discussed this time in their career during Festa 2020, which you can read a recap of here - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline2020/640118082405384192/also-on-that-day-9th-of-april-2020 

Festa 2020 raw link - https://youtu.be/t9zPnWQIiuw?si=A1J3gAQSk5RVMfzj 

In the present on Suchwita, Tae reflects on that difficult time period. While they were achieving so much, they were all physically and mentally burnt out. Heartbreakingly, Tae admits he was so drained and exhausted that he contemplated ways to hurt himself to get much needed rest.

https://x.com/r_taekook22/status/1701229627010629953?s=46&t=StSwHjW0_Domk_lHUFMaCg

We know both Tae and Jungkook struggled heavily during this time. Both reflected on 2018 in “Break the Silence.” Until the Love Yourself tour, Tae admitted that was struggling with his emotions and shutting down.

Break the silence, ep 4 recap - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline2020/625388030307467264/may-19-2020 

In episode 5, Jungkook expressed some of his worries, one being that people only love his stage persona as the golden maknae.

Break the Silence, ep 5 recap - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline2020/625388016975970304/taekooktimeline-may-21-2020-break-the-silence 

This made me think of his London live (July 2023), when talking about the explicit version of “Seven,” Jungkook again cited his golden maknae image.

Recap of Jk’s London live (July 22, 2023): https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline/723765181171302400/july-22-2023-jungkook-goes-live-in-london-hes 

I also want to note in one of the final episodes of the docu series, approximately 21 months since the disbandment talks, we see BTS has come to a place of acceptance, stating that they recognize that one day it will be inevitable to let the band go, whether by choice or not. They expressed hope that, when that time comes, they have no regrets and it’s a soft landing, not a crash.

Break the silence, ep 6 recap - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline2020/625387952489496577/may-26-2020 

Yoongi and Tae disclose “Fake Love” almost didn’t come out, and reaffirm that “Tear” has a second layer to it, with it seemingly being about lovers breaking up, but in reality being a message to members considering disbanding.

As the rap line wrote “Tear,” Yoongi sent a letter to Tae and Jungkook (which makes Tae shy as he

The song “Tear” was previously discussed in “Break The Silence” episode 6 (aired in 2020).

The letter that Yoongi is referring to in Suchwita was previously revealed during Festa 2018. Tae shared that Yoongi wrote a letter that made him cry, ending it with, “I love you.”

Yoongi revealed he wrote the letter to two people (one being Tae)

Jungkook disclosed the second person to receive Yoongi’s letter was him.

BTS also brought up Yoongi’s letters to Taekook on April 15, 2018 (filmed), during their Harajuku Sweets Party. Tae reiterates the letter made him emotional. Members tease perhaps Taekook were beside each other when they read their letters.

Recap of Harajuku Sweets  - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline2018/625074488032280576

Comprehensive recap of some of the disbandment talk moments in 2018 (which includes Jk covering “all my life,” the song “Tear,” the song “Fake Love,” Yoongi’s letter, Festa 2020 and Break the Silence snippets  - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline2018/635128353110769664/february-27-2018 

Raw of Harajuku Sweets - https://youtu.be/03ngJ4oW7SQ?si=dao9sFCkdwWCGTpt 

Yoongi asks Tae about that letter he sent to them back in 2018, when BTS considered disbanding.

Tae recalls how the letters gave both him and Jungkook the strength to continue, to think more positively.

https://x.com/mybwits/status/1701238438584852631?s=46&t=StSwHjW0_Domk_lHUFMaCg

Tae tells Yoongi the letter helped him, and he’s not felt so down since then.

Tae said something similar in the “Break the Silence” docu series, when he said the Love Yourself world tour was a turning point, and seeing members happy made him happy.

Again, recaps can be found here - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline2018/635128353110769664/february-27-2018 or here - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline2020/625388030307467264/may-19-2020 

Tae’s message to his 2018 self -

Timestamp 24:03-31:09

A lot happened in 2018, so while I’d change the wording on some of the posts, I’d encourage you to review the year in its entirety to see everything that was happening, and how much pressure the members were under. Recap - https://taekooktimeline2018.tumblr.com/ 

While it’s quite clear all members struggled, I still believe Tae and Jk were at least two members who were contemplating disbandment, based on them receiving letters from Yoongi, Tae admitting to emotionally closing down and Jungkook shutting down (as expressed by Joon and Jin in Festa 2020). While all members were emotional during the disbandment talk during MAMA 2020, Tae was especially emotional, so  much so that he was still gathering his thoughts during their backstage interview (when Jk flashed him the ILY sign). But of course, this is my opinion, and I’ve left references as to why I believe as I do, but you’re welcome to disagree. 

At the very end of the episode, Yoongi admits 90% of In The Soop was cut, which makes Tae laugh in agreement. This is another instance where I’m going to reiterate we only see a fraction of their lives, and people shouldn’t place weight heavily on things like social media interactions.

Raw of Suchwita - https://youtu.be/M6wpkLCiHoI?si=S3RJ70XzrFzIivm1

[chanrizard]

Out of curiosity, what's your favourite Chris era and/or look?

hi anon! aaaa thank you for this ask :DD

i have so many looks i loved i can't really pick one lmao

oddinary blueberry chan was iconique and i adored it but was the damage to his poor hair worth it when it faded so fast? jury's still out on that one. and that transition period right before the chocolate factory fanmeet where he had short platinum hair and was really feeling it. speaking of platinum hair, if i'd been into kpop at the time of miroh era chan i would've been 10 times more insufferable dvjdfbjdb that look is. yeah. yeah 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻 feeling very sane very normal you see

the maxident - god's menu - 5-star era is probably my holy trinity of best channie looks, i think dark/natural brown hair suits him the best especially when it's kept on the longer side and the (fake, sigh. mistopher you would look amazing with a real one btw pspspsp) nose piercing i think rewired something in my brain

also shout out to that time he had purple hair for like 5 minutes for the mama awards back in 2020!! top 5 channie looks of all time imho

but if i had to pick only one i'd say the current styling! he looks so happy, the fits are amazing, his hair is the longest and healthiest it's been in years AND it's dark 10/10 brilliant incredible amazing showstopping

[smolwritingchick]

Ah ok! Update and Three Smol Previews for Bangtan Gal :)

Okay, good news, I am hoping to post the wrestling chapters tomorrow or Tuesday at the latest. It's almost done. Gonna let that be for a bit after I post and continue focusing on Bangtan Gal. A few chapters are boring imo but the later chapters have more drama.

Also, good news with Bangtan Gal, the second chapter I plan to post, MAMA Awards 2016 is done. I just need to reread and edit.

It's 18,000+ words. I...went overboard. I am so sorry. I don't know how to stop. I guess pace yourself?? I had a lot of ideas and it kept flowing. It's MAMA Award heavy and I was writing about people's reactions.

I have to split the MAMA Awards chapter into Part 1 (A big moment happens) and Part 2 (Jennie's response to Hyuna) because I can't fit all my words in one Tumblr post. (It's THAT bad lmfao this never happened to me before. I have a problem)

So I will link both parts of that chapter in the author's note and masterlist when it's uploaded. You'll also see the links at the end of the chapter to continue reading or to go back to read part 1 of that chapter.

All I need to do is work on is the chapter before. Which is The 3rd Muster chapter. It shouldn't take too long. Once that's done and edited, expect those two and a half chapters to be released together. Thanks for your patience! I hope the writing isn't too crazy with what I have planned.

I truly liked the ideas I came up with :)

Here's another smol preview for the MAMA Award chapter. Three Smol Scenes.

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The day of the MAMA Awards was finally here. The day Jennie anticipated the most. She had a good feeling about this show and was excited to show off her hard work with what she had planned. The morning of the show, she decided to tweet one simple word along with an eyebrow raising hashtag.

'Bet. #GonBeAnInteresting24Hours #Jen' 

Jennie had been a trending topic on Naver and various K-Pop news outlets, which caused people to anticipate the MAMA Awards even more to see what might happen and if she may respond to Hyuna. Her silence on the matter had been a hot topic and now with her tweet going viral, fans stirred in a frenzy.

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With the show getting ready for the next segment, Jennie suddenly received a few packs of smarties from Jungkook.

"How'd you know I was about to ask?" she happily accepted them with surprise in her voice.

"I brought some with me just in case. I was paying attention to your facial expression. When you're about to ask for smarties or say that you wish you had them, you make this cute face. It's like you're pouting,"

"What? I was not pouting..." She turned away, feeling her face warm as he giggled.

"You just did it again,"

"Stop looking at me," she playfully pushed him away, making him laugh harder.

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Suddenly, Hyuna had changed some of her lyrics, not looking Jennie's way as she danced.

Not a high and mighty girl scout in the club behind some fake bulletproof glass. How boring.

Some idols widened their eyes while others glanced over to where Jennie sat.

Yet another diss? This was getting out of control.

Bam Bam cringed and glanced at Jennie with worry, hoping she'd be all right. Hayoon frowned at the diss and shook her head slightly.

However, Jennie only smirked as she continued to watch, knowing that all eyes were on her to see how she'd react. Bangtan glanced at her and as she met their eyes, she gave them a nod. They nodded back and remained calm as they continued to watch the performance.

Suddenly a switch flipped in Jennie's demeanor as she rolled her neck and stared at Hyuna.

'This bitch got me fucked up...' she thought as she kept her cool.

Fans tweet:

'Not again!! Enough already!'

'Is she trying to provoke Jennie?'

'Don't be mad if Jennie catches her in an alley to stomp that ass!'

'The neck roll! I repeat! The neck roll! Jennie just did the neck roll! That is BAD! She got something planned! Get ready!'

'I don't like how she's acting. This is bullying at this point. Hyuna needs to chill,'

'Jen better than me because I would have ran on stage and popped her shit,'

'From the looks of it, Jennie is so bitter and jealous,'

'That smirk means business. I'm not ready,'

'I wish people would stop judging Jennie,'

'Jennie looks like she's plotting,'

'Why does she look so hot when she's upset?'

'Bangtan knows something that we don't because they don't look bothered at all,'

'Bangtan isn't even phased?! What is Jennie planning tonight?'

[soshiharin]

an: this was posted on the 3rd of december, 2014

2014 ‘MAMA Awards’ Called Out For Unprofessionalism

Many were left disappointed by the actions of the cameramen

On December 3, the 2014 MAMA Awards took place, honoring a year of achievements for artists.

While this was a happy occasion for many artists, many netizens have expressed their disappointment with the award show, namely the cameramen, for their actions during the show.

Earlier this year, Dispatch reported that Girls’ Generation’s Harin and CNBLUE’s Jungshin were dating. Their relationship was short lived, however, when a month later, their breakup was announced.

At the MAMA Awards, CNBLUE and Harin, and member Tiffany, were in attendance. The problem many viewers found was the fact that the camera kept showing Harin and then Jungshin on the screen or vice versa. When Harin was accepting the award for ‘Best OST,’ the camera showed Jungshin’s reaction and when CNBLUE was accepting their award for ‘Besy Band Performance,’ the camera showed Harin’s reaction.

This continued to happen randomly throughout the show, including John Legend’s performance of ‘All of Me.’ It happened so frequently that Tiffany started blocking Harin from the camera and Jungshin just stared down at his lap.

Netizens had a lot to say about this:

[+726, -29] They both looked uncomfortable...

[+1082, -382] They were doing a similar thing to Tiffany and 2PM’s Nickhun, but those two are still dating so it feels better

[+5722, -862] What was the point of that?

[+891, -182] Didn’t Jungshin look a bit shocked and heartbroken when he saw Harin on the screen?

[+781, -292] Oh, what to do? Yonghwa was patting Jungshin’s back...

[+8623, -972] Her member had to block her from the cameras... The cameramen don’t know when enough is enough!

[+2873, -782] Did anyone notice Harin singing along to ‘All of Me’?

Harin’s reaction is drawing a lot of attention online. After her relationship with Jungshin was publicised, she endured a massive wave of hate directed at her that continued even after they broke. Seeing Harin’s reaction made netizens wonder if perhaps they took things tok far:

[+4632, -231] Harin looked a bit sick didn’t she?

[+872, -608] Do you think all of the comments got to Harin? Why isn’t she singing along to the performances like Tiffany?

[+583, -892] I noticed the only time Harin smiled was when Tiffany was doing her stage... Is she okay?

[+9028, -287] As expected, you commenters took things too far and are only now realising and showing fake concern

[+276, -97] I’m glad Tiffany was there with her at least

[+8624, -283] Her eyes really look soulless... Was it all too much?

Even though their relationship has ended, we wish both Jungshin and Harin well in their future endeavors!

©️ jang harin

[adelaidedrubman]

MUSIC MONEY + WAY TOO MUCH WIP

i was tagged by my loves @simplegenius042 @shallow-gravy for music monday, thank you!

have been recently possessed to do some finishing damage to my spotify wrapped by working on the america’s sweetheart verse playlist, so here is track number one from that. sorry after so many weeks of no music monday to let everyone down by not having a hl&s fishing themed song to share, but it is at least still 90s country and my favorite kind of jestiny soundtrack feature: songs with innocuous upbeat lyrics that become extremely dark when actually applied to her situation

she used to tie her hair up in ribbons and bows / sign her letters with x’s and o’s / got a picture of her mama in heels and pearls / she’s gonna make it in her daddy’s world / she’s an american girl / an american girl / well, she’s got her god / and she’s got good wine / aretha franklin and patsy cline

aaaaaand here’s some america’s sweetheart actually dotting her letters with xxx’s and ooo’s. pretty lengthy excerpt, so reminder there’s always no pressure to read! also warnings for vulgar sexual banter and references to sexual situations, psychological and emotional manipulation, passing reference to retaliatory leaking of intimate messages, and jestiny catchall warning

Jestiny’s shoulders shook hunched over the table as her laughter deepened into low booms shaking through the flimsy walls of the trailer, half hugging herself as she looked up at Andrea with eyes bulging wide and gilded with a hot blaze of mania. 

Her laughter sputtered to a stop with a punctuating snort as her smile tightened and tugged to the side, her teeth digging into the scarlet painted plump of her bottom lip and a dimple sinking into her cheek. “Pretty fuckin’ good, right?”

“Good? Good? It’s deranged, Jestiny,” Andrea said plain and clear, lowering herself to sit atop the coffee table so that she was eye level with Jestiny. “You’re using a pen name to send sexually explicit love letters to an incarcerated mass murderer who kidnapped and tortured you. That’s the least ‘good’ sentence I’ve ever heard.”

“It’s like, a gag —” she replied with a wave of her arm and a few huffs of laughter that sounded far more strained this time. “Don’t you get it? I’m catfishing him!” She tapped her fingers against the pages in a short, frantic drumroll. “Did you know it was called that, by the way? Catfishing? Flynn taught me that. It’s pretty —”

“Jestiny, I fail to see the humor in —”

“And you know they also call it ‘phishing’ when they send you those fake emails that steal your password and give you a virus? It’s like, how do you fish with a computer —”

Yes, of course Andrea knew — she was the sender of most of the emails, anytime she needed to lock Jestiny out of her social media accounts. 

“Why the hell would you even want to catfish him?”

“Well, why the hell do people go actual fishing, for that matter?” she asked with a frustrated roll of her eyes. “Why do people put in the work of buying a rod and baiting a hook to catch something they could have probably saved money just picking up at the fuckin’ supermarket? Why do people do anything?’’ She shrugged. “I did it because I knew he’d fall for it.”

“Why —” Andrea asked with eyes still pleading for a real answer, because that might have been the closest thing she’d ever heard to honesty from Jestiny, and maybe not all hope was lost after all, “Why would you even want him to fall for it? What were you hoping to gain?”

“I don’t know, I —” she threw her arms up into the air; rolled her eyes more dramatically. “Build his trust up, then see how far I could push it. Maybe it’s one of those situations where over the years I lure him into confessing to a bunch of unsolved murders nobody’s pinned on him yet. Win an investigative journalism award and get a bunch of headlines about how brave I am for facing my own trauma to bring closures to other families, or what the fuck ever. Maybe I just humiliate him by leaking his Dear Penitentiary House letters to the tabloids. I’ll play it by ear.”

“So you started doing this — paid for a P.O. Box under a fake name in a city two-thousand miles away from where you live — without even having a desired end result in mind?”

“No, my end result just so happens to be a moving target.”

“And why would you catfish him with the name Gertrude Winston?”

She scoffed, easy and airy, the third roll of eyes once again softened to playfulness by a sweet flutter of her lashes. 

“Well what name would you have wanted me to use, Andrea?” she asked with a gentle, patronizing rise. “Would you rather I had fucking wrote him saying I’m Madison Hughetits — a happy and successful heiress and model in LA, until I saw him on TV and felt suddenly I would find it far more fulfilling to be a stay at home mom to a prison baby conceived from ninety seconds of under the table visitation room action?”

“I would rather you not write to John Seed at all, per —”

“He woulda seen straight through something like that,” she continued undeterred, tapping two fingers against her temple. “But a letter from Gertrude — a lonely older widow from Clearwater who thought he sounded very polite when he spoke to the judge and had sad eyes that made her wonder what his childhood was like?” 

Jestiny dropped the fingers from her head with a swift snap, swooping the hand down to jab against the stack of papers in the same motion. “That’s someone he writes back to. Someone he feels safe telling things to, because he thinks she’ll just feel so special he’s paying her attention at all. Someone he opens up to, because she’d never dare betray him. Gertrude gets results.”

Andrea’s jaw dropped, in spite of herself. Jestiny always found a way to shatter her normally unwavering professionalism. “You —”

“Now, of course, I did send him a few of the Madison Hughetits style ones, so he’d feel smart for seeing through ’em and let his guard —”

“You need help,” Andrea interrupted in stern command, desperately trying to keep a firm grasp on the reins of the conversation. “I mean it, Jestiny. This is…” She shook her head, gesturing towards the pages. “This is beyond the pale, even for you. You need serious help. Whatever is going on in that head of yours, you — You need to share it with a mental health professional. Please. You need help.”

Jestiny scratched her nose, rubbing a hand across her mouth as she scanned the pages. She looked back up at Andrea with two slow, owlish blinks of confusion. 

“I read that BetterHelp ad on the podcast just last week.” She tilted her head to the side, brow furrowing with hurt that looked oddly genuine. “Do you not even listen to my podcast?”

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