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oneroomjestershow · 20 days ago

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Hellooo, I was wondering, is Eli insecure with their real form?

(if by 'real' you mean 'true' then maybe you mean their mosnter form? i personally don't consider none of them a true form (or maybe all of them?), but i will take it as that)

At first I was going to say no, but now that I think about it, it would be yes. It's not like they are directly insecure about it, but it's true that that side of theirs fills them with doubt and fear about themselves.

Is like a cycle: Eli's troubles go around losing control of their own body, but their own insecurity and fear about it fuel that idea, and it manifests in small inconveniences, which fuels the idea more.

His own mind it's the one giving them the problem, she has a human mind after all.

For a moment i was going to say no because they know they can induce fear at first sight or damage at the slightest touch, and they are confident about it, but the insecurity comes in other times. Taking care of someone? Petting a small animal? Being too close to people? When he feel damage shouldn't be on the situation is when Eli feels the most helpless and dangerous if they get inside their thoughts too much.

That thought is internalized, it's not like they are directly thinking about it nonstop, but it shapes her behaviour.

#🥩FleshingOut: Eli🥩#for some reason this was a difficult ask to answer? wtf is wrong with me <- bro was searching the meaning of insecurity #i hope the explanation is explaining but at least i answered it <- doing my best at not mentioning their childhood #there are too many sides to this mymind almost exploded but i tried tto answer enough and not say too much #making ocs is so funn eyyeeyeyyee (until i have to explain ethics and their origins)#i was thinking on making another monster oc that counterparts Eli but i need the green light #if i dont get it then i can change it a little bit no big deal #i need Eli to have beef with someone aside from the internal stuff and the mind chess game with Ren #and how the game is going i dont think Eli sees Olivia as a rival yet (if anything i have been thinking in the opposite way-DANGEROUS)#so i have been thinking of nyeheheh ehehenyohohoh #but im in a little bit of trouble because i had an oc idea. but i separated him intro three sides to make the band members...#so if i do this oc in the way i initially thought it might not be so different from them. which me dont like >:|#so i will see how my brain works around it -w- i have no rush <- has been thinking about it for months

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