#mae's monologue

[luminoustarlight]

okay so... this was a big writing year for me. i was really curious to see how many words i wrote and holy crap?? 90,745 is A LOT. the average word count in an adult book is 70,000 to 120,000 words. i wrote enough for a whole book!!

i started the year off in the stranger things fandom and wrote 26 pieces for eddie munson. my top fanfiction was The Box Set, a 1980s porn au. It was cross-posted on tumblr and ao3 and it is still currently up on ao3. i am so proud of that story. it is 33k words alone. i've never undertaken such a large project before and the reception towards it was so encouraging.

after taking a couple months off, i got back into writing for one anakin skywalker. i have a long history with this man/hayden christensen. i first fell for him in 2015 and his appearance in ahsoka 100% reinvigorated my love for him. he is so, so, so much fun to write. my current series, as fate would have it, is a dilf!anakin story and will be continued in the new year.

i can't wait to see what 2024 has in store for me and my writing. i'm so glad you're all along for this journey. thank you for liking, reblogging, leaving comments, and messaging me about my work. it fuels me as a writer!

[theevilmaninyourcomputer]

Dude I literally AM Mae Borowski.

[frenchtwistresistance]

In my top 5 favorite recurring bits on Match Game, my number 1 might actually be when Charles Nelson Reilly writes one of his novella answers (especially when it doesn’t match and is way better than the contestant’s answer [I also love Brett’s novella answers but they are almost always So Stupid {affectionate}]).

Match Game ‘77 Episode 992 Question: When 97-year-old Mr. Pervis died, he went out in style. Pervis went backstage at Radio City Music Hall, and the Rockettes _____ed him to death.

Contestant (kind of a dickbag, tbh): Tap Danced

Charles Nelson Reilly:

They high kicked him in their 4th of July costumes on the Nativity set with the orchestra playing to the tune of “Hello, Dolly!”with new lyrics: “Goodbye, Mr. Pervis!”

[avionvadion]

Welp. I just finished watching the Glorious Masquerade.

I wasn’t expecting that enemies to lovers plot twist at the ball 🤣

Anyways, this event was pure gold. So chaotic. I think my favorite parts where when-

Sebek made a fuss about the goat (“I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU FOR THIS, GOAT!!!” and “A COMPANION!? OF MY LIEGE!? WITH THOSE TINY HORNS!?) and when he made a fuss at the table about sitting next to Malleus.

Mostly the part when he tried to convince Azul to let him sit on his lap, and then when he tried to convince Azul to get up so Sebek could sit down so Azul could sit on HIS lap. He’s such a brat, lol. I love him.

(Fanfic wise, in Once Upon a Dream, El would jsut solve the problem by sitting on Mal’s lap and Sebek would freak. In Till Death Do We Fall, Iliana would want to sit next to Mae and Mal so she would sit on Mal’s lap while Grim sits on Mae’s. Either way, Sebek would be frothing with rage.)

Malleus and the Gargoyles. All of it, enough said.

Other favorite part is the Azul/Deuce reveal in the final battle.

Final favorite moment- excluding the BEAUTIFUL SONG the bois sing- is when Sebek and Silver are trying to throw everyone up into the air to celebrate and no one wants to be thrown. Run Idia, run!

[hurricanek8art]

"The Jedi Code is like an itch. They cannot help it."

The best thing about The Acolyte is how the Jedi were murdered. Indara dies because her compassion is used against her, when Mae threatens an innocent bystander, Indara focuses on saving them, instead of watching Mae. Torbin dies because his heart breaks for whatever happened with Mae in the past, 16 years ago. She can't touch him until she weaponizes his heart against him. Sure, you can kill Jedi with overwhelming numbers against them, but if you don't have numbers, how do you get under a Jedi's defense? Use their compassion, use their care for others, use their connections to wanting to help others against them. These Jedi died because they cared.

[gwensy]

YOU LIKE NITW

I DO!!! i was super into it when it came out and then again in like 2020?? i think. it shaped fundamental parts of my brain

[tealvenetianmask]

A defense of Blitz in those text messages.

Because people are still making reactions to Western Energy with the caption, "Stolas deserves better." There are still people being shitty about it in the tags too. And Blitz is my favorite and doesn't deserve the slander.

Stolas has been taught subtlety, politeness, and understatement his entire life, and even though it doesn't come naturally to him (see The Circus and literally everything about him). He thinks it's the best way to get accepted by people. To Blitz, that's upper class bullshit that's condescending, manipulative, and mostly lies. He also can't write like that, so why even try to engage with it?

When you take apart each line, it's clear that Blitz's feelings of inferiority and hurt are responsible for the tone of these texts, NOT a desire to hurt or abandon Stolas.

Here.

ITZ WUTEVS

Blitz's internal monologue: You're apologizing to be polite. No one says "I'm sorry if anything I said or did may have offended you" and means it. What you mean is that you hope we still get to fuck. It would be better if you just said that. I'll be down eventually though.

Y?

Blitz's internal monologue: You don't really care. Cut the polite bullshit.

SHUR (I think- it's blurry, but it's in response to the wall of text about just how unbothered Stolas is by what happened at Ozzies, how glad he is that Blitz doesn't care, and how maybe Blitz should insult him in bed sometime.

Blitz's internal monologue: You just confirmed that you don't care in a whole paragraph. It was hard to read all that, and I already knew you didn't care.

NP (Seeing Stars)

Blitz's internal monologue: NP (lol)

LYKE OLWAYS

Blitz's internal monologue: sex night! (cue penises running around on a rainbow on his calendar)

K (after Stolas says that Blitz doesn't have to come over)

Blitz's internal monologue: he doesn't want sex night. Act cool. I shouldn't feel sad about this. Act cool.

WUTEVR U WANT. ITS UR NIGHT.

Blitz's internal monologue: This is not a drill. He's not into me anymore.

MAE BEE

Blitz's internal monologue: I get it. You don't want me. Quieter voice in the back of his head: Stolas wants to talk. Talking is scary. Better not commit to talking.

I MITE B BUSY

Blitz's internal monologue, STRAIGHT FROM THE DUET: I'm getting by on avoiding his questions!

It was surprisingly hard to screenshot this stuff/get it across without rewriting everything! Please, let me know your insights/different interpretations, and feel free to link other posts that have already done this well- I know there are some!

[lscullzthegreat]

*at Angband*

Sauron: *typical evil monologue™️*

Maedhros: *cough* Slut.

Sauron: what did you just say?

Mae: what did you hear?

Sauron: I'd rather not repeat it

Mae: well then I guess we'll never know.

[leclerc-s]

struggling to survive netflix

series masterlist

rhys jones word of advice: DO NOT watch season 6 of drive to survive.

max jones-verstappen you watch that crap?

rhys jones i couldn't sleep, it dropped, so i watched it. worst mistake of my life.

rhys jones i can't believe i was at several races and ryan made it onto the show before me.

esteban ocon oh yes, i forgot about that.

isabella perez someone tell charles they made him out to be the villain.

natalia ruiz just like max in season 1.

charles leclerc i did nothing wrong all season but have shitty luck.

dulce perez monza. charles leclerc i may have done one thing wrong.

rhys jones max went from being the formula 1 villain to being comedic relief.

max jones-verstappen i bet there was no mention of my win streak

isabella perez in the last fifteen minutes but only because christian mentioned it.

charles leclerc can i enter my villain era now?

pierre gasly do you even know what that is? charles leclerc je t'emmerde connard

rowan todd WHITE HORSE?? CONEY ISLAND?? WITH MAE?? ARE YOU TWO TRYING TO KILL US??

daphne jones-ricciardo 😁😁 mae jones-verstappen 😁😁

isabella perez CONEY ISLAND?? YOU SANG CONEY ISLAND?

isabella perez THIS IS FUCKING WORSE THAN LOSING MIRRORBALL!!

max jones-verstappen to be fair i lost seven to fucking pittsburg of all places.

rhys jones jokes on you guys, my song still safe.

daphne jones-ricciardo and what song is that rhys?

rhys jones thug song

daphne jones-ricciardo of fucking course it is.

alex albon crossing my fingers for monologue song next!

george russell charles cried when daphne sang this is me trying as a surprise song. i have a picture of it.

bailey winters one could say you "have it printed out" george russell hilarious bailey. bailey winter this is why lewis decided to leave mercedes, because you're dry as fuck george russell TOO SOON BAILEY!! TOO SOON!!

isabella perez sylvia just got me in trouble. apparently it's not good to speak out against netflix.

dulce perez i think it's more so because you spoke out in favor of a driver from a rival team and not that you spoke put again netflix. natalia ruiz i didn't get in trouble? charles leclerc it was probably the oscar part and not the netflix part isabella perez i got told by fred that it was okay??? just no spilling company secrets.

carlos sainz she probably just doesn't like you.

isabella perez wow.

lando norris to be fair, you are quite annoying. i get it.

dulce perez only i get to call her annoying kermit the frog

lance stroll we should wait until the next season for more drama. that's when it'll be good because of a certain someone breaking f1 twitter.

lewis hamilton talking about me? mick schumacher don't forget the secret contract lengths! esteban ocon and silly season!!

freya vettel i was fully expecting them to make oscar and lando to look like enemies. they've done it before.

isabella perez we should make a drinking game out of dts!! anytime d*nica shows up on screen we take a shot.

zoya torres we'd end up blackout drunk. george russell alternative, take a shot everytime will buxton says something funny. max jones-verstappen or anytime they make teammates who get along look like enemies. mae jones-verstappen you seriously still bitter about the daniel thing? max jones-verstappen YES! WE WERE NEVER ENEMIES!!

esteban ocon netflix doesn't know that friendships and rivalries can exist on the same scale.

rowan todd doesn't help that pierre said, "we'll never be best friends."

rhys jones i'm surprised they haven't brought in the nepotism card yet.

mick schumacher they did.

rhys jones i avoid that episode to not cry and charles' episode in season 1

isabella perez oh, same! we're very emotional people. i also avoid daniel's episode in season 5. and i can't stand otmar.

oscar piastri mood. esteban ocon same. pierre gasly you're lucky you didn't have to work with the guy. lance stroll welcome to the club

sebastian vettel any mention of my bee corner?

isabella perez no, and the people are upset. they wanted more of seb's buzzin' corner

logan sargeant he got the logan treatment, completely forgotten.

oscar piastri that's not funny mate.

alex albon lily and i are working on getting rid of his tendencies to degrade himself.

max jones-verstappen how's that working for you two so far? alex albon not well as you can see

daphne jones-ricciardo we have a new set of grid parents!

daniel jones-ricciardo GO TO SLEEP!

daphne jones-ricciardo shh! i just got to episode 3.

fernando alonso my favorite episode is episode 1.

max jones-verstappen ARE ALL OF YOU WATCHING IT?

lewis hamilton i wanted to see how they foreshadowed my move to ferrari. mae jones-verstappen daphne dragged me into this. daphne jones-ricciardo LIAR! IT WAS YOUR IDEA! george russell i wanted to see how i evolved through the season

max jones-verstappen i guess i should watch it.

daniel jones-ricciardo i promise you won't regret it.

12 hours later

max jones-verstappen you're a fucking liar daniel jones-ricciardo. i regret it so much.

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¡leclerc-s speaks! pushing my disliking for danica and otmar with this one. i still don’t understand why she was in season 6 of dts when she’s never driven an f1 car. i was thinking of doing a written part for the parts i made up but would anyone be interested in that?

¡disclaimer! this is in no way making assumptions about the people involved in this story, this is all fake. it is a fanfiction please don't take any of what is said seriously. this is all for entertainment purposes and as a creative outlet for me. enjoy!

[septemberlikeastorm]

LOVE how qimir/the stranger knocks mae to the ground right before he starts soliloquizing about wanting freedom & an acolyte. he said "no way is my garbage intern gonna be in this camera shot, not during the big monologue i rehearsed in front of the skura. they said i served cunt & i shall serve it ALONE"

[luminoustarlight]

okay my queens i actually think im going to edit and revise all three parts of as fate would have it before diving into chapter 4!

i last uploaded afwhi in december 2023 and although i haven't written much this year, i still feel as though i can improve on what has already been written. i've been reading them over and man - I AM SO WORDY HAHAHA- but you guys seems to really like my writing style and im so thankful for that!

but anyway - the goal is to start writing again. afwhi and other stories. but i want to edit and revise before posting part 4 because i think y'all might wanna refresh your memories on the story 🥰

i'm so so thankful for your patience and understanding! i can't believe you guys still wanna read the story 🥹

[midnight-melancholiaaa]

a hasty follow-up to my earlier post, where i questioned why sol had told fake-osha that he was ready to come clean to the jedi council about what happened on brendok, and yet switched off his comms and jumped into hyperspace to avoid the incoming jedi team. doesn’t seem like coming clean to me…

few key things here 1) sol made those remarks to somebody he believed to be osha, and now he knows it wasn’t her, his priority has switched to finding her, rather than post-mission exposition on coruscant. 2) we’ve already seen sol’s frustration at the jedi regrouping in meetings instead of pursuing an urgent ongoing situation. sol is likely avoiding asking for permission he knows he won’t receive, so he can find osha and qimir as soon as possible. the fact that he does this by avoiding the jedi altogether, inadvertently placing even MORE suspicion upon himself as a fallen jedi, is….. ouch………

so why restrain mae and monologue to her? i’ve seen posts arguing (very well) that his incoming explanation of brendok will be a self-centred emotional unloading, rather than anything useful for or considerate of mae. i totally agree there’s an element of that at play, but i think there’s something else going on as well, linked to sol’s mission for the rest of the show.

a couple lines stick out to me. “you and i have work to do” is, i think, a fairly obvious statement that mae will be roped into helping sol rescue osha. but the other is hiding in an earlier scene: “you found him”. as i explain in my other theorypost, i think this line is said after sol has realised mae is pretending to be osha. within a double meaning, it could allude to mae’s relationship with the master. she’s found qimir once — why can’t she do it again?

so yeah, i don’t think it’s super out there to say that sol is planning to recruit mae and use her to find qimir, and osha along with him. why the table restraining then? on a purely practical level, he’s keeping her cuffed until he feels in control of the situation and as though he can rely on her allyship. and getting to that allyship? sol’s going to try his damndest in this explanation monologue to convince her onside, and he doesn’t want her struggling or arguing until he’s said that full pitch.

i think all this really speaks to the level of desperation sol is experiencing. he’s just watched the other jedi he cares deeply for get massacred in front of him, and failed to save any of them. and it turns out the one person he thought he’d saved, osha, is still in danger, and that he’s failed his ex-padawan again. no wonder his responsibilities to the council fall by the wayside when sol, a person clearly motivated by love for those close to him, has one final chance to do right by ANYONE in this clusterfuck situation. sol also feels extremely out of control in this series of events, so is grasping for whatever control he can salvage — hence his desperation to do whatever it takes for his mae-saves-osha plan to work and his… questionable methods in accomplishing it.

the implications for sol giving into fear and a need for control like this are certainly juicy. dude is on the struggle bus lately, and this particular struggle bus has a few dark-side-themed stops. also, the irony of sol behaving like this indirectly digging his grave re: the council’s inclination to believe in his dark-sidedness…….. makes me want to lie in a ditch for a while. can’t wait for next week where my theories will probably be proven wrong and also i get to cry on the floor!!!!!!! i <3 the acolyte!!!!!!!

[frenchtwistresistance]

Another Match Game exchange (Match Game PM Episode 19) I think about all the time is when the question was about a woman so liberated that she not only burned her bra, she burned her blank.

Fannie: Do you know that Richard is a feminist?

Gene: Is he a feminist? Why do you say that?

Fannie: Because he marched with me in an Alice Doesn’t Do Anything Anymore march.

Gene: And where did you march?

Richard: Alice Doesn’t Day. Right?

Fannie: Yes, darling.

Gene: Alice Doesn’t Day?

Richard: That was the day that the women, who, you know, that they can’t get credit and they don’t get paid equal money for jobs, and they protested that day. And men that think that their cause is right were allowed to march with them.

Fannie: But, uh, I didn’t understand because the march went through Westwood. He and I— You marched me into Encino at some motel… I was confused…

Richard: Trying to get another march going.

Fannie: You said that was the rally point.

[notyourmoon4528]

Qimir: Mae is back

Qimir : did she get hit on the head and became even stupider then before? She just keeps saying hi.

The stranger : THATS NOT MAE THAT IS MINE.

Qimir: time to start plan thirst trap

...

Is how imagine Qimir's inner monologue when meeting Osha.

[fulcrum-art-fox]

Also can you imagine if Mae had actually been able to follow through with her stated “turn myself over to Kelnacca” plan and she hadn’t accidentally monologued at her master and left him strung up in the woods and still somehow been slower than him at reaching the house. So she gets there and Kelnacca is still alive and all. Like imagine Mae rocks up to the guy wracked by guilt and who’s drawing her coven symbols everywhere like “hello hi it’s me Mae I’m not dead and actually the whole reason I came to this planet was to kill you but I just found out my sister is alive can you help me” and then she. doesn’t know how he answers. because she can’t speak Wookiee. And yeah it’s super awkward to start with but then they go on a long and arduous journey back to the Jedi temple and it takes forever bc the ships fucked and they keep getting attacked by star wars beasties and also Mae’s former master and Kelnacca earns Mae’s forgiveness for whatever his role in whatever happened was and Mae develops a deeper understanding of the Jedi and who they are past their flaws and they become the unexpected master and padawan duo we never knew we needed and

[ahsoka-in-a-hood]

The thing about Mae is that an otter stamped on her foot and a tiny droid squirted goo in her eye and then she reset her sister's beloved pet to factory settings without even realizing this would be another strike against her and then her ruse fell apart and she got stunned in the back and now she's strapped to a bed about to be subjected to a villain monologue. I swear she fails harder with each episode. I'm rooting for you girlie