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"HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MEGUMI!" | MEGUMI FUSHIGURO.
đ˛ ࣪ââĄđâ synopsis. it would be so very cruel of you to not show your appreciation for your best friend, especially on his birthday.
đ˛ ࣪ââĄđâ cw. smut, college au, reader calls him âmegsâ, mention of âangelcuntâ, unprotected love-making, bimbo!reader / best friend!megumi, a bit of asphyxiation, megumi with a crush! fingering, and praise. mdni <3
đ˛ ࣪ââĄđâ word count. 1.7k, a quick read !!
đ˛ ࣪ââĄđ â dolled up! hellooo !! itâs a real oneâs birthday, this is the least i could do to celebrate. iâm trying to get back into the groove of writing again so stay tuned n ready 4 fics in the future !! sweet college au best friend megumi is always on my mind, something about a stoic but secretly in love trope .. (heâs no better than his father, sigh) .. as always, if you enjoyed this, please reblog / comment. iâll bake u youâre favorite sweets if u do !! thank u âĄ
megumi has always been there for you. through ups and downs, taxing breakups, even the times youâd get exceedingly inebriated and ramble endlessly about your ever-growing appreciation for him â there was no denying the cordiality heâd shown throughout the many years of your friendship. sure, he could be quite cold, maybe even grumpy; but that was just the joy of megumi fushiguro.
and for that, itâd only be right to repay him.
for all of the times he would show up uninvited to your dorm with the notes of the lecture youâd fortuitously missed, blaming the absence on the absurdly quiet lull of your alarm clock, or when heâd let you have the last bite of his food, because only god knows megumi was never above tolerating you. itâd be the work of a terrible friend to let it all go unnoticed, especially on a special day like today.
âhappy birthday, megs!â there you stood,
bubbly and bright as ever, in the doorway of his bedroom, clad in nothing but a tiny pink pajama set with a top reigning transparency, it barely left the skin beneath to the imagination.
he had invited you, along with yuuji and nobara, over to his dorm the previous night to keep him company after class â which led to a kugisaki-induced movie marathon, and eventually phased out into the four of you passed out on the fushiguroâs couch, hues of light omitting from the colorful rays of the forgotten television screen and onto your slumbering faces.
with megumi holding the title of competency within the friend group, it came as no shock when heâd woken up the others to send them on their merry way. all except you, of course. the light throw-over blanket clinging to your body neatly as you slept, soft snores resonating within your being aided in megumiâs decision to give you a few extra minutes to rest.
he could never interfere with your comfort.
after your unanticipated birthday wishes, it took a moment for megumi to come to, blinking away his awareness for your scantily clothed body and opting for a more stoic expression.
âthanks,â he replied, tone low and clouded with an air of vague appreciation.
âwanna know what i got you for your birthday?â your query was that of a sing-song manner as you swayed in place. megumi was used to being around absolute rays of sunshine, but you? you were different. it was as if you were the sun itself; warm and inviting yet shone luminous enough to blind onlookers. you were tooth-rottingly sweet, and as bubbly as you were naive.
matters werenât made any better forgoing the fact that megumi had true feelings for you. it was a running gag within your friend group, jokes that itadori and nobara would make concerning the contrast between megumiâs unwelcoming behavior when it came to them, and impassive patience had times fell upon you.
in fact, obliviousness was your specialty in being ignorant to the feelings of the fushiguro. it wasnât your fault, you truly didnât know.
megumi responds curtly, although with a hint of sarcasm, âa break?â
you pout as you rest your head against the lacquered doorframe, reigning defeated already despite the conversation barely racking up a minuteâs time. âno, silly.â the words come out as a giggle. âi got you me!â
a hint of confusion glosses over his features before it morphs into that of a neutral expression. shirtless from his shower just minutes prior, and puzzled from what your mind had conjured up this time, he questions again. âyou? you got me you?â
you shake your head affirmatively as he starts up once more. âand what do i do with you?â
clear as day, your exchange took a rather suggestive turn, one that neither of you were intending. âwell, you can do a lot of things with me,â now stepping into the room to close the distance between your bodies, your response is thick with an air of lust that megumi noticed seemed to come naturally for you. his heart picks up in pace from the sight of your pretty face, and even prettier eyes looking vacantly into his, as if you werenât aware of the trap you set up for yourself.
he brushed off the slight arousal brewing up within him, chose to play it off as mirth like he usually did when it came to you. âi guess so.â
you held onto his arm, a more distinct, yet adorable look of seriousness on your features. truly, you were a little doll. âiâm for real, megs. itâs your birthday, iâll let you do anything you want.â
yeah. youâre really going to regret this one.
the word âanythingâ came with free reign. and even though megumi thought of himself as anyone but a pervert, he certainly was bound to start acting like one.
âanything?â his question came out as if he was treading lightly while he moved to dig through his drawer, perhaps looking for a shirt.
you stepped back to allow him the space of rummaging, while nodding your head and confirming his suspicions. âanything.â
âletâs fuck, then.â
his tone was nonchalant, easy on your ears as his speaking voice regularly sounded, and you would have missed his request had he not straightened up to search your countenance for an answer â deadpan, as if he hadnât said a thing.
in that moment, all of what you hadnât noticed, no. all of what you chose to deny had finally been put into perspective.
megumi fushiguro was fucking hot.
âi mean, if thatâs what you want then i donât mind.â your response was succinct, gentle on your tongue and provided him the response heâd been aiming for.
this might be his best birthday yet.
he strode closer to you in light steps before his large, glacial hand found its place on your cheek and silken lips met yours, pulling you into a salacious kiss filled with hunger and want. the press of his tongue begging to be allotted within the slot of your lips was accepted with your own muscle dancing against his. it was dizzying, and dissimilar. for all your years of knowing megumi, you wouldâve never thought up the occuring situation.
lithe fingers danced up the skin of your thighs where you part them on instinct, allowing his digits to work on their own to slip past the barrier of elastic fabric and into your little lace panties, softly drumming along the puffy nub of your clit.
âmegumi,â you rasp against his lips, swirling your hips over his hand to build up the sweet friction surging from your core. the saccharine croon of his name tasted sugary like vanilla rolling off of your tongue and onto his. he was in pure bliss; ready to take everything you gave to him.
his body responded to your need, fingertips at your clit circling tightly, an action that pulled a string of mewls from you before you gasped at the intrusion of his long fingers dipping into your core. they curled upwards against your gummy walls just until they increased in pace while his thumb pivoted at your sensitive nub, and fuck! whereâd he learn how to do that?
he pulled away only slightly to read your expression, the tent in his pants growing taller, tip leaking carelessly at the onsight of your face, screwed taut in pleasure â plump, glossy lips that were slick with spit and moans slipping past without prevail.
underneath him, your legs felt feeble, as if theyâd fall beneath you from the surgence of pleasure. âm-megumi, wait, âm gonna!-â you held onto his shoulders for leverage, your warnings of orgasm falling on deaf, distracted ears, until finally, you were a gushing mess in his palm, coating his digits in your essence.
âfuck. youâre so pretty when you cum,â in that moment, he gave you no chance to react when he gently positioned you over his dresser, pulling down your little shorts until they pooled around your knees.
âyâmade me so hard, y/n. can you feel it?â he grinded himself over the plush of your ass, teasing before pulling his sweats down just enough so that his hard, throbbing and leaking, length could be free. it bobbed ever so under its weight while one hand began to pump from base to shaft to soothe the excruciating ache. once he felt satisfied in his ministrations, he lined his cock along your awaiting slit.
âa condom, megs.â your reminder came in the form of a soft lull. after all, you two were just free-spirited college students, unable to pay the consequences of spontaneous actions. âdonât have any.â with that, he sunk his cock inside to the hilt, a low groan rippling from his throat at just how tight your pussy clamped around him. it felt like fucking heaven. he could die in your cunt and be at peace.
while you adjusted to the stretch, he began to move; slow, deep strokes as if he were savoring this moment forever. who knows when heâll be able to have the luxury to sink inside your perfect angelcunt again? you bit your lip to stave off impending moans which ultimately failed when his arms snaked around your body â one hand underneath the cloth of your shirt and pinching at your perked nipples while the other finds its place right back at your clit.
âsh-shit!â you cry out, eyes rolling and mind hazy from the pleasure. his rhythm increased gradually until he built up a vigorous pace. âiâve been needing y-you so bad.â megumi groans along the shell of your ear. how he got so lucky as to have his dream girl engulfed around his cock, he doesnât know. all heâs aware of was the tightening of his abdomen, signaling his own impending orgasm.
white hot pleasure replace all feeling in your body, counting down its time until the familiar numbness washed over you in euphoria. a pitchy moan sounded from your lips and an even whorish whimper when the warmth from spurts of his cum coated your insides.
after what felt like a minute of the two of you recollecting your breaths, megumi finally pulled out, shuddering at the added stimulation at his oversensitive cock.
he leaned your head back to meet his lust-filled gaze; calmness of his deep navy orbs now deepened with sin. megumi pressed gentle kisses all over your face while his hands took purchase at your now, exposed, neck and squeezed tight enough to keep you lightheaded.
âyouâre the best birthday present.â
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Hopeless romantic
Part 1 â Part 2 â Part 3
Warnings: reader drinking (nothing serious though), mention of sexism by reader's parents.
Content: osamu x reader, Angst (to fluff in the next chapters), hurt/comfort
A/n: Guess the Song of Achilles reference! :)
It has been around three weeks since you last saw Osamu that day: you took your chance to scurry away when he went back into the kitchen briefly, leaving your payment to Tsumoto.
The memory of his embrace with another woman still lingered in your mind, but you were able to distract yourself with the hundreds of books on your shelf and the dogs in the shelter.
You took this time to explore other places in the city, from the cozy Indian restaurant near your workplace, where the taste of salty chapati mixed with matar paneer melted in your mouth like butter, to the Mexican fast food spot at the corner of the library, where you savoured the taste of chiles en nogada followed by elotes. Yet, nothing compared to Osamuâs handmade onigiris, the taste of his love surpassed any food youâve ever tried.
You donât believe he didnât notice your absence, but it wouldnât bother him that much, you assume, since youâre nothing more than a friendly regular.Â
Or at least, you used to be a regular.
Now you are just a girl who spends her days between work and shelter, occasionally going out to drink with the few friends you have. You know itâs wrong to use alcohol to dull the suffering, but sometimes itâs the only way to remind yourself that life still holds meaning, and that happiness, however fleeting, can be found.
But not going to Osamuâs restaurant has its consequences, like going to the grocery store to buy all the necessities to make a healthy meal and right now you are not exactly having fun doing all this.
When you were a child, your mother always told you to learn how to cook and clean because âsomeday youâll have to do it for your future husbandâ, so, as an act of rebellion, you refused to learn anything other than the most basic dishes of your culture; this act of rebellion ended up biting your ass now because you are tired of eating the same basic things over and over again and you miss Osamuâs food.
You wander through the aisles, searching for the ingredients of the recipe you want to try.
it has been at least half an hour now and youâre meticulously selecting each item, trying to get the correct amount of food. You always tend to buy more than necessary, which ends up with you never using that specific product again and making it go to wasteâlike the honey syrup you bought for your pre-made pancakes that now sits untouched. You donât even have time to eat breakfast most of the time.Â
You are trying to understand which vegetables are less decayed than others when someone approaches you slowly.Â
âThat one will go bad in like 2 days.âÂ
You startle at first, but you freeze completely the second you meet his eyes.
âHey.â he smiles.
Oh my god oh my god oh my god, please why did he have to come here out of all the grocery stores in the city?
You tried to forget about him like an unwanted pest, avoiding all the places he could be at, you even chose a longer path home so you wouldnât bump into him while he closed the restaurant. You are old and tired and so is your heart, it can scarcely bear the burden of yet another heartbreak.
You drew in a slow, steadying breath before replying.
âHi Osamu, long time no see.â you try your best to beam at him, like nothing has touched you, like you donât want to run away this instant, like you donât want to scream at him and hurl all these vegetables at him because you hate him for shattering the last remnants of hope you had left in you.
Like you donât love him at all.
You tend to buy more than necessary, just like you tend to let your feelings grow more than necessary, and then, then they stay there, growing and decaying at the same time, festering with pests and resentment.
âYeah, because someone hasnât been coming to my restaurant lately.â He remarked with a petty edge to his voice.
Well, you jumped into that one.
A nervous laugh leaves your lips, âI was just ⌠busy. We got a few more dogs in the shelter and itâs been a little hectic.â your voice is barely a whisper, laden with the weight of your lies.
Coward, liar, ugly.
He nods in quiet understanding, picking a zucchini with a pristine surface, a stark contrast to your rotten life. âTake this one. Whatâre ya making?.â
You take the vegetable from his hands and place it in your bag, his kindness pressing against the walls you've erected around your fragile heart âI donât know,â you sigh, âI'm trying to make some vegetarian lasagna, but I already know it's going to suck. Iâm a terrible cook.â
âYou can always learn, you know.â he counters, a playful smirk gracing his lips âI wasnât born with a knife in my hand.â
You roll your eyes, pushing your cart forward. âIâm lazy. And I donât have anyone to teach me in a fun way.â
âI could teach you. Although I'm not sure if I can do it âin a fun wayââ he signs with his fingers, âyou won't die of boredom, I guess?â
âIâm always having fun with you, Osamu.â And itâs true.
âThatâs crazy considering that you havenât come to meet me in three weeks.â
âOh god, youâre so petty!âÂ
âHell yeah, I am!â
You stare at each other before bursting into loud giggles; his eyes crinkle as he looks at you and you try so hard to ignore the warmth of your cheeks.
(and the warmth in your chest).
You are not used to being loved but you are used to love, and you canât help wanting to stay around those you love, canât ignore the tugs of your heartstrings. You know it will only end up in heartache and you are already regretting whatâs coming out of your mouth, but you canât stop it.
âWell? Will you teach me then?â
He smiles, and his face is like the sun.
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with me + part two
authors note: well, holy shit, the response to this has been so unexpected yet insanely appreciated and humbling! the kind words of support and interest really have been so wonderful to receive. thank you thank you thank you!
this ended up much longer than i intended, but i couldn't find a "good" place to break it in half, so i apologize for the length.
i also feel like this is a bit on the boring but necessary side in terms of setting the scene and backdrop for what's to come....
i also feel like this is gonna def be more than 4 parts, so sorry!!!!
warnings: language, slight sexy time, suggestive themes
song inspo: with me by destiny's child
words: 7.5k
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âI need a break.â He slid out of you, the absence of his thick dick noticeable and borderline uncomfortable. Despite the fact that your voice was hoarse, limbs jello, and pussy tender as all outdoors, you still wanted him. Wanted to feel him inside you. But you knew you also needed some amount of time for your body recoup for the next round, so you made logic overpowered lust.
He made a sound, lying on his back, eyes on the ceiling. âSo fucking needy for this dick.â
âShut up.â It was intentionally not a denial, because he wasnât entirely wrong. Itâd been a shitty past couple weeks, what with parent teacher conferences, your least favorite time of the year. There were only so many different ways you could try to gently explain to parents that their child wasnât the next Cornel West and actually could benefit from âadditional evaluations.â But that almost always went over their heads as they attempted to tell you, the professional, the real reason why their child wasnât doing well.
You were just over all of it and damn near at your wits end when you got the text from Joe that heâd be in town this weekend. That goofy âiâm about to get some good dickâ smile was damn near stamped on your face in the days preceding his arrival. You needed an outlet, and wearing yourself out on his dick until you were physically incapacitated happened to be the perfect one, the best one.
It wasnât like you didnât have options, you did, but they were subpar. And that was the problem with having a chance to experience superior dick, everything else that followed was mid. No one had ever fucked you like Joe. No man before him had ever made you come from just penetration. You always needed more. Had to sometimes physically instruct them on what you needed. Not with him. He gave you moreâ-the man could and had stayed with his face buried between your legs for hours on endâ-but it wasnât necessary. He could fuck you to a toe curling, light blinding climax with just a few good, deep strokes.
And yes, you still struggled with the guilt of fucking someone elseâs man, but in times like this, where you were beyond stressed the fuck out, all you could think about was getting off and decreasing that stress. The guilt session could come later.
âWhatâs wrong?â He asked after a few minutes of comfortable silence. You could both be around each other and not say a word without an ounce of discomfort. It was nice.
âParents suck.â You answer, bluntly, afterwards realizing how vague that is. âIâve had parent teacher conferences the past couple weeks, and theyâve been getting on my nerves trying to tell me how to do my job.â
âThat sounds annoying.â
âBeyond, and makes me feel like theyâre insinuating I donât know what Iâm talking about. I do. They just donât want to hear it.â They prepared you in school, to some extent, to expect those select parents that werenât the easiest to work with but to always stand behind your professional judgment regardless if one agreed or not. And for the most part, your parents in the years since youâd been teaching were relatively chill. It just seemed that this time of the year is when all of them decided to be in their difficult era.
One hand behind his head, Joe looks over at you. âThen thatâs on them.â He shrugs. âYou canât make them hear what they donât want to hear.â
Groaning loudly, you turn on your side, propping your own head up with your hand. âI know. It just sucks for the kids. Thereâs a couple who might be on the spectrum or have ADHD, but I canât outright say it, so all I can do is strongly imply. And trust me, my implications are clear as fucking day. Itâs just annoying when I have to work harder than I should to get people to be their kids' advocate, not their adversary.â
Heâs quiet for a second and then asks. âWhatâs the best part of your job?â
The answer doesnât even require contemplation. âMy students. Hands down. I love kids. I love helping them learn and seeing the excitement on their face when they finally grasp a concept Iâm teaching. Itâs super rewarding.âÂ
His gaze lingers on you, âThen focus on that. You do this because itâs a passion and a love and youâre clearly good at it.âÂ
His words marinate over you, reminiscent of past conversations where youâre the one feeding positivity into him, reminding him to not lose focus of whatâs most important and why he does what he does. The roles being reversed is different but nice. Itâs nice to have him to talk to, itâs always easy to do so.
You move your hand to his chest and slowly walk your fingers downward. âGood dick and good advice. This trip is a double win for me.â
His jaw clenches when you begin to stroke him, sinfully and intentionally slowly. A smirk forms on your face. Heâs just as needy for you as you are for him.
Joeâs voice is hoarse with desire. âYou ready for the next round?â
âYes.â Youâre not sure if physically, youâre well enough, but thatâs what epsom salt baths are for. And Motrin. You need him. Climbing on top, you grab his hardened length and align it at your entrance, dew coating the tip and serving as natural lubricant. âBut I want to be on top this time.âÂ
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âMommy!â
Youâre startled awake by the loud voice, jumping body, and smiling face of your personal alarm clock. The only alarm clock youâve ever had that you canât dictate the time it goes off. It takes a second for you to settle yourself, to push away the inappropriate afterthoughts of such a salacious dreamâone youâre slightly disappointed couldnât play out longerâto focus on the little human in front of you.
The shining sun beaming down on you from the curtains youâre certain she opened assists in doing just that. You rub at your eyes, a small, warm smile growing. âGood morning, Callie Bear.â
Her eyes, big, brown, and always full of curiosity are focused on you as she stops jumping and lands on her knees. âYouâre up!â
You chuckle, how can you not be up with a rambunctious four year old jumping on your bed and screaming for you to wake up? âIâm up.â
âYay!â She cheers, tiny fists raised up and victory. âCan we have pancakes?âÂ
âI donât know.â You pretend to contemplate her request, index finger against your bottom lip. âCan we?â
She pouts, and you bite on your lip to suppress your laughter. Her arms cross over her tiny chest, bonnet covered head tilting to the side. âMay we have pancakes?â
Sometimes, you feel bad for your daughter, having a teacher for a mother. Youâre always going to be on her about anything academic related, especially English. âWe certainly can.â Yawning, you sit up in bed and scratch your scalp through your bonnet. âBut first, hygiene.âÂ
Swooping her into your arms, youâre met with a chorus of giggles as you tickle her stomach with your index finger. Walking into the bathroom, you sit her on the counter and reach her her toothbrush, putting on her (Halle Bailey) Little Mermaid themed toothpaste before letting her do her thing as you do hers.
This is the first time in a while that youâre grateful for your daughter waking you up so early on a weekend. Those dreamsâŚ.youâd be lying if you said they didnât happen more than youâd like to admit. Youâd tried to figure out what triggered them but have yet to be successful.Â
The simplest answer would be that you miss him. You miss Joe, but thatâs also the answer you refuse to admit. You canât miss him. Donât have the right to miss someone elseâs man, someone elseâs husband.Â
All you can do is be appreciative that one of the biggest regrets in your life brought you your biggest blessing.
Calista, Callie, to almost everyone she knows, was a complete and utter surprise.
It was time for your womenâs wellness exam, and in the set of questions they asked you, one was of course the date of your last menstrual cycle. Being stumped for a second was normal, hence why you used your beloved Flo app to track your cycle. But, itâs when you opened the app and realized you hadnât logged a period in two months, you knew.
Didnât need a blood test to tell you the obvious.Â
You were most definitely pregnant.Â
Youâd used Flo consistently since you were 14 years old, there was no way in hell youâd forgotten for two whole months to input the period dates.
So, after crying and damn near having a panic attack, your doctor provided you with pamphlets. Options, as they were called. You wouldnât review them until a couple days later, needing that time to process that you were actually pregnant. Pregnant by a married man that youâd ended things with, ironically, on the night your daughter was conceived.
What in the actual fuck were you supposed to do? Send him a text and say ânvm. Congrats, weâre expecting. Are you gonna tell your wife or should I?â To this day, youâre convinced that the nasty wave of âmorning sicknessâ you experienced the first few weeks of finding out you were with child was actually just your absolute disgust that youâd allowed another womanâs husband to impregnate you.
It was like you were walking in the same footsteps your mother molded for you. Something you swore youâd die before letting happen.
Whatâs that saying? We make plans, and God laughs. Well, he must be having a field day with you.Â
It was actually in confiding in Mariah, your best friend since kindergarten, that you were able to look past your shame and panic to see this for what it is.
âYou want to have kids, donât you?â She asked in an obvious tone, picking through the big bowl of popcorn you two shared while Insecure played at a low volume on your TV. âWell, hereâs the kid.â
âI wanted to have kids with a husband, Mariah.â
âWellââ
âShut up.â You tossed a few pieces of popcorn in her direction. This was not the time for her occasional joke. You were too busy having a mental breakdown.
âDoes it really matter how the baby got here? Arenât you the one always saying kids are a blessing? Why are you trying to block yours?â Itâs a fair, valid point that youâre too stubborn to want to hear, even if itâs what you needed to hear. âIâm just saying if youâve been blessed with being a mom, something youâve always wanted. Seems kinda silly weâre having this discussion instead of baby names, baby showers, and gender reveals.â
âIâm not doing a gender reveal.â That much you are absolutely sure of. Never. But, Mariahâs words do resonate with you. Why were you so caught up on how you got pregnant? Yeah, it was fucked up, but dwelling on it did nothing but make you feel worse. You always imagined this would be a happy occasion, couldnât you find it in you to be happy? Regardless of the father and that whole Tubi of a situation.
There was a life growing inside of you, no matter the dynamics of the creation, the child had done nothing wrong, didnât deserve to be blamed. And the truth was you werenât really that upset, you were more happy than anything, if you really allowed yourself to feel without reservation. Borderline excited, even. Maybe even at the fact that you would always have a small piece of him with you in a really big way.Â
Even if he wouldnât be a part of that experience.
And it was then that you decided. You didnât care what anyone thought, couldnât think about how your mother, who was completely unaware about your relationship with Joe for the entire three years, would react. Youâd figure out the rest of this later because you were having this baby, but you were having this baby by yourself. Joe couldnât know.
He wouldnât know.
And almost five years later, nothing has changed. Yes, you absolutely couldnât see yourself making it through your pregnancy and even the first few weeks postpartum without the help of your mom and Mariah. But, for the most part, you did everything you could by yourself for your daughter, wanting her to see the strength and perseverance of a strong, single mother.Â
She finishes brushing before you and spits out the remnant toothpaste in her mouth. âAre we gonna see grandma today?â
You finish a few seconds after, spitting and wiping your mouth before answering. âWe certainly are.â
âYay!â She celebrates as you bring the towel to her face, giving it a gentle cleanse before tossing it into the hamper. Callie wastes no time in removing her bonnet and giving her curls a good shake. The two of you share a laugh as you follow suit.Â
 âPancake time?â
Separating some of her coils, you answer with a wink. âLet mommy wash her face, and Iâll be right out, kiddo.â
âOkay.â Nodding, she jumps off the counter and hurries into the kitchen knowing good and well whatâs about to come out of your mouth.
âSis, what have I told you about jumping off this damn counter?â All you hear is giggling in the wake of her dash. This child has daredevil tendencies that bring out a certain, uncomfortable level of anxiety. Medical bills werenât in the budget, so you needed her to calm the hell down.Â
She probably gets it fromâ
Shaking your head from unnecessary thoughts, you quickly work your way through your routine and eventually meet her in the kitchen to find her on her tablet, probably trying to figure out what movie to put on while you two cook. On the weekends, you remove the passcode from her device but still maintain the time limits for her overall screen time.Â
You refuse to allow her to become an âipad kid.â
âWhatâcha pick for us?â Moving through the kitchen, you pull out the necessary items and place them on the small island.Â
Climbing onto the barstool, she flips the screen with a proud smile. âMoana!â
Gasping with faux surprise, you ask, âagain?â
Much like her mother who was like her mother, an affinity and passion for all things Disney is another thing your child inherited. She could watch Disney movies for the rest of life and never get bored. And Moana was at the top of that list, the new Little Mermaid was a close favorite, but Moana resonated deeply with Callie for reasons you still donât fully understand.Â
Well, she is half Pacific Islanâ
Clearing your throat, you and Callie get to work on breakfast, both singing along and dancing to the catchy Disney music. Itâs a sweet bonding moment between the two of you, a bit of a tradition on the weekends. Youâre not much of a cook, at all, but breakfast food is relatively simple. And thankfully, your child is not as picky as some other kids. A stack of pancakes with sausage is always enough to satisfy her.Â
Itâs when youâre both sitting in the living room, on the floor, legs crossed while you eat the delicious breakfast that youâd prepared together that a thought crosses your mind.
A distraction could be beneficial, the dream from earlier still floating around in the back of your head. And not even the dream in as much as the main event from the theme.Â
You needed some dick. Itâd been too long, that itch needing a scratch to give you some much needed reset.Â
So, itâs when Callie is focused on the scene in Moana when Mauiâs hook is broken that you grab your phone and shoot off a text.Â
You free today?
Not even five minutes later, your phone buzzes with a response.Â
Just tell me when and where.
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Walking through the doors of your motherâs hair salon is always an experience, nostalgic almost, to all the times you and your friends would hang out there with the hopes that you could get free or discounted services. Usually free for you, not so much for your friends.Â
Business was still business.
The familiar smell of hair oils, deep conditioner, and the overall sound of flat irons sizzling through hair brings a warm smile to your face. Itâs things like this, this place even, that remind you why you decided to come home after college.
Home, where the closest major stores like Target and Walmart, and even the airport, are nearly half an hour away. Where you have only one elementary school, one middle school, and one high school. Where many of the streets are two laned and littered with storefronts, like your momâs salon. Hell, the freaking bank, post office, and city hall are in the same building.
Everyone knows everyone, and for the most part, everyone looks out for each other.Â
It isnât for everybody, this almost Hallmark movie type setup. You know this. Hence why many leave for school and never or seldom return. But, for you, itâs home.
Itâs also the perfect place to discreetly and raise the daughter of a celebrity.
âGrandma!â
Your mom is in the middle of a conversation with a patron but almost immediately redirects her attention to the equally familiar voice of Calista. âThereâs my grandbaby!â Callie runs into your momâs arms and is peppered with kisses all over. âLooking more and more like your mama every day.â
That genuinely makes you smile. You tend to think she favors Joe more than yourself, usually when sheâs making certain facial expressions. She has a lot of his mannerisms, which you are grateful for, happy that she has characteristics from both sides. But any and all of the good things she can take from you, you want her to have. Â
Callieâs smile is bright and infectious, as always. âThatâs cause mommyâs my mommy!â
You laugh, approaching them and leaning in for your momâs one armed hug as she has Callie in her other arm. âHey, mama.â
âHey, baby.â
Your relationship with your mom has definitely been up and down over the years, which youâd like to think is the standard for most mother-daughters. Itâs something thatâs arguably strengthened over time, especially post Callie. Youâd gained so much more appreciation for your mother raising you on her own as a single parent. There was always appreciation, but infinitely more now as you were also in the same position.Â
âI was hoping she could hang out with you for a little bit today. I have some business to take care of. If thatâs okay?âÂ
Your mother gives you the look, the look that indicates she knows thereâs more to what youâre saying but she wonât push out of respect for your privacy. And youâre grateful for that. You donât necessarily want to explain that you need her to keep an eye out on Callie while you attend your dick appointment.Â
Sucking her teeth, she starts walking to the back where her office is located. âWhen have I ever had an issue spending time with my only grandchild?â She has you there. Your mom would take Callie every day if you let her, and youâre so thankful for that. Not even for the tremendous assistance your mom provides but for the close relationship she has with Callie, similar to how close you were with your grandma. âWant me to do her wash day for her while sheâs here?â
At that, Callieâs eyes go wide as she starts to whine, ânoooo. I donât want to.â
You chuckle. âThatâs how mommy feels too, babes.â You dreaded her wash day as much as you dreaded your own. The women in your family were blessed with long, thick, healthy curls that Callie clearly inherited from you but also her fatherâs side cause the girl had some hair. âIf you donât mind, mama.â
She waves off your unnecessary added comment and starts to assess the state of Callieâs hair, murmuring comments to herself.Â
You lean down in front of Callie and move your hand to her knee. âYou sure youâre gonna be okay, sweetie?â
She nods and asks, âcan we get ice cream when you come back?â
âWe surely can.â You donât allow her to have a lot of sweetsâshe already has enough energy as it isâbut every so often, you two get the homemade ice cream cones at the local parlor. Sometimes youâll sit outside and just talk, sharing laughs and inside jokes over the best ice cream anyone could ever have. And considering sheâs about to endure a wash day, she deserves it. âI love you, Callie Bear.â
Putting her tablet on her lap, she leans over and hugs you tight. For such a tiny human, she always gives the best, most loving hugs. âI love you too, mama.â
Callie goes back to her tablet, and you issue your mom one more statement of appreciation before heading out so you can have your urge squashed and get back in time to have dessert with your little girl.Â
On the car ride there, you send up a quick prayer that this time will be different, that you can get what you need and be gone without being asked to stay. Itâs always the same answer, so maybe the last one finally stuck to where he wonât hope.
Wonât get his own feelings hurt.
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âYou know you donât always have to leave right away.â
Of course.....of course.
Youâre in the midst of hooking your bra back on when he hits you with the offer you were stupidly hoping heâd pass on this time around.Â
Bold of you to assume you could come get some dick without this man trying to turn it into a cuddle session.Â
Your smile is tight as you politely decline. âI donât want to leave Callie at the salon too long. You never know what sheâs hearing.â
Itâs a weak excuse, hence him poking a hole right through it. âYou know your mom would shut that down right away. Get back in the bed.â
âReally, Amir, I canât stay.â Once your bra is on, you reach on the ground for your panties, sliding them back on as well. The sooner you get yourself decent, the sooner you can dip.
âCanât or wonât?â
And here it goes. Sometimes, you wonder why you continue to put yourself in this situation. Amirâs stroke game is nice, but is it really worth this constant routine? You two fuck, he tries to make it more, an argument, silence on both ends for a little while until one of you needs that urge handled. Wash. Rinse. Repeat.Â
Itâs been roughly the same since you were in high school.
Amir was your first damn near everything: first crush, first boyfriend, first kiss, first time. It was a textbook small town romance. He was the quarterback, and you were the cheerleading captain. Everyone said you were perfect together and predicted at one point youâd get married after college. Truthfully, you once thought the same. But outside of aesthetics, your relationship was always rocky, borderline toxic.Â
He had poor boundaries with other girls but never saw an issue because it never went beyond flirting. And because you were young, dumb, and just as toxic sometimes, youâd intentionally flirt with other guys to piss him off, knowing it was wrong to drag innocents into your Bobby and Whitney of a relationship but more interested in making him see your side of it..Â
Still, young and dumb. Not an excuse, but definitely a reason.
Even as you both went off to college, each attending separate schools, youâd occasionally hookup during the winter breaks. More often during the summer. He was your constant, preferred over allowing random dick into you, especially as he was most familiar and you knew he was clean. The devil you know type of thing.
Post college was when you really ended it, deciding that it was time to put the childish things behind you, time to put him behind you.
And youâd done relatively well for a while, the two of you becoming damn near strangers. Especially when Joe came into the picture. Amir was good in bed, but Joe was heavenly. Just the thought of anyone other than him fucking you at that time was repulsing.Â
But, Joe is gone, has been, so now youâre stuck returning to the same nigga you just canât seem to get rid of because he has a decent sized dick he, mostly, knows how to use.
And your rose can only go so far.Â
âFine. Wonât. Donât. Not interested.â Standing up, you shoot him a look of challenge, of defiance. âBetter?â
Your words understandably tick him off as he cruelly asks, âHow long are you gonna let yourself be stuck on him? That nigga abandoned you and his kid, what is there to even be stuck on?â
Regardless of what happened between you and Joe, mostly with how it played out, you refuse to allow anyone to speak badly of him. Specifically when it pertains to his absence in your and Callieâs lives, especially since that was 100% your call. Only a select few know the full story, therefore the majority have no right to speak on it. âYou donât know what youâre talking about, so please just shut the fuck up.â
âWhere is he then, huh? Itâs been almost 5 years, Y/N. You need to move the fuck on. Heâs your past.â Moving out of the bed, he comes up to you and places one hand to your face. You fight the desire to pull away. His touch is suddenly uncomfortable, feels wrong and noisome. âItâs time to focus on your future.â
Not that youâd ever admit it to Amir, but thereâs a hint of truth to his voice. Eventually, random hookups to fulfill your sexual needs will become insufficient. Hell, even now, you still desire to be married, to give Callie that 'traditional' family. The problem is mostly lack of options, even if Amir seems convinced you two should give it another try.
 When hell freezes over.Â
Your voice is even and to the point as you finish dressing and pull out your key fob. âLike I said, thanks for the scratch, but thatâs all this is.â Without giving him time to talk more shit, you head out the door without another fucking word.
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âOh shit, is that ole girl Randy used to mess with?â Joe is only halfheartedly listening to what his cousin is saying, mostly focused on the work email heâs reading on his phone. Itâs far and few in between they actually have time off, let alone enough time to go home and be among the rest of family. Heâs trying to enjoy it and is enjoying it, but work is always on his mind, hence his inability to ignore the email notification that slid in mid-group conversation. âWhat was her name?â
âIt started with an M, didnât it?â Jey suggests. âMariah, I think.âÂ
It's when the correct name is stated that Joeâs attention is briefly redirected. Mariah was your friend, the reason he was ever introduced to you. Itâs a name he hasnât heard in years. If only that was the same amount of time itâs been since he thought of you. No, instead, youâve taken up real estate in his mind more than heâd ever like to admit or acknowledge.
âWait, isnât thatâ-â Jimmy is silenced, and out of the corner of Joeâs eye, he can see itâs because Jey gave him a look. That look you give someone when you want them to shut up.
NowâŚnow they have his attention.
âWhat?â Itâs when the twins share a look with each other, Jey shaking his head that Joe puts his phone to the side as Jimmy hits the lock button on his phone. âLet me see.âÂ
âLook, Uceââ
âI said, let me see.â One thing Joe canât stand more than anything is when people beat around the bush or try to hide things from him. He prefers people to be upfront and honest, damn whatever feelings come up. The truth is always better, in his mind.
And yetâŚâŚ
Shaking his head, Jimmy blows out a breath and hands his cousin the phone.
Joe looks down and instantly regrets ever pushing the matter.
Five years.
Itâs been almost five fucking years since heâs seen that beautiful smile, those deep dimples that were one of the first things he noticed about you, outside of your breathtaking beauty. You looked almost exactly the same, maybe a bit heavier, still in all of the right places. Hair a little longer but still the same deep onyx with streaks of purple. Youâre smiling and posing with Mariah who also hasnât changed much outside of a new hair color and the huge baby bump sheâs sporting. A baby shower, heâd guess.Â
But outside the shock of seeing you, Joeâs attention is also on the third person in the photo. A child, young in age, no more than 4 or 5, black, curly hair styled in two space-buns and a deep dimpled smile thatâs almost identical to yours. Her eyes are a beautiful light brown shade, a contrast to your chocolate colored eyes.
But similar toâŚ.similiar to his.Â
Brows furrowed, Joe is surprised to see youâre tagged in the photo, so he goes to your profile and is even more shocked to find it public. You were always such a private person, but he chalks it up to the fact that the only people whoâd really know how to find it would have to be those close to you.
You donât have a ton of pictures, but he clicks on the first one that has a set of photos of you and the same little girl from the baby shower. Itâs dated almost six months ago, so not the newest but better than nothing. The post is a slideshow, so he begins to scroll through the photos, each of them with you and that same child, clearly at various points in her life. The last one stops him for a moment, a photo of you, crying, in a hospital bed holding a newborn baby.Â
Swallowing back his emotions, Joe redirects his gaze to the caption:
my calista, my callie, my baby girl. God used one of the hardest periods of my life to bless me with the best gift anyone can receive. every day with you is an adventure. from your incessant questions about the most random of things, constant requests for disney movie marathons, to the way you refuse to part from me without giving the biggest hug and kiss goodbye while yelling âi love you, mommy!â. callie, you are my whole heart, and thereâs nothing i wouldnât do for you, sweet girl. hereâs to year 4 and many many more of having the biggest honor and privilege ever of being your mama bear.Â
So many things are going through his head right now.Â
You had a child.
You have a child.
Based upon the date of the post, you have a child who will be five years old in a couple of months.
A child who has your smile, but his eyes, his nose, and a complexion that looks the perfect combination of the two of you. She looks like the perfect combination of the two of you.
Itâs hard to not jump to the obviously glaring conclusion that all of this brings, and still, he tries to not allow his head to go there. You wouldâŚ.you would never do that. You would never keep his child from him, no matter how things ended between the two of you. There was wrongness to that that reached low levels of depravity, and he just couldnât conjoin that kind of deception with who he always knew you to be.Â
You were a woman who believed and tried to live by her morals. It was the reason you eventually cut him out of your life. Nothing about not telling him he has a child is moral.Â
He wordlessly hands the phone back to Jimmy and goes back to reading the email, acting like nothing just happened and he doesn't have a million and one thoughts running through the back of his mind.Â
Itâs after he walks away, giving off an excuse that he needs to call Hunter to discuss a proposed promo that the conversation commences.
âSo, we all just gon act like that lil' girl donât look like Uce? She even got his eyes, man,â Jimmy, being Jimmy, is the first to say it aloud, the only one to actually verbalize what the others are thinking.Â
âJimmy,â Naomi chides but canât help adding. âDo you really think that could be his kid?â
Jey decides to join in on the conversation. âItâs possible. They messed around for years.â
âBut would she really do that? Have his baby and not even tell him about her?â Naomi only met you a handful of times, but all of the interactions were pleasant, and she secretly thought you and Joe would have made a cute couple if the stars were aligned differently. âShe had to have told him.â
Jimmy gestures to the sliding door Joe walked through minutes earlier. âDoes that look like he knew?â
âThis is all just speculation.â Joseph decides to join the conversation, always the one who prefers to listen to all sides before adding his two cents. âSimiliar facial features donât mean theyâre related.â
âNo, but add in the timeline plus the way it ended, and you canât help but lean one way.â
âWhat did happen between them?â Somewhat newer to this circle, Joseph realizes thatâs a topic heâs never really heard much about. He knows his cousin basically has an open marriage and sleeps around, but heâs always heard whispers there was a woman he was with for years.Â
âShe just ended it one day.â Jey answers with a shrug. âUce really ain't say much outside of that. It was sudden though.â
âBut was it? Three years of waiting around for a guy to maybe or maybe not leave his wife for you?â Naomi serves as a counter, shaking her head and leaning forward to rest her chin in her hand. âSounds like more than enough time to me.â
âIt wasnât nothing like that though. They was just messing around,â Jimmy defends.
âHe cut off every other woman he was messing with when they were together.â Jey distinctly remembers how his cousin had one woman and only one woman on speed dial during that period, and it was you. It was always you. âI think it was more than just messing around.â
Joseph nods, taking in all this information. âSo, if she is his, do you think she kept her a secret to get back at him for not divorcing Jadah?â Itâs a bold question, but a valid one that Jey is the first to dispute.
âNaw, Iâm with Naomi. Y/N wouldnât do that.â
Jimmy shakes his head, starting to see how this is all looking to play out. âWell, if that is Joeâs daughter and thatâs how he found out he has a childâŚ.this shit is about to get real ugly.â
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Joe tried to tell himself it was just a wild coincidence. Reminded himself that you yourself said you wanted to get married, have kids. And youâd done that, had a kid. However, revisiting your Instagram pictures, in none of your posts did he see a man.
Or a wedding ring.
And just how fucking quickly could you have moved on? Doing the math, you would have had to have someone on speed dial to get pregnant as fast as you did. And that doesnât line up with who he knew you to be. You were fucking him and only him.Â
You were with him and only him.
So that left him and only him.
And like a man hyperfixated on trying to solve a puzzle, he looks at every single post on your Instagram, starting from the year you met up until now. He focuses especially on the posts that include your daughter, not that many, but enough.Â
And when itâs all said and done, thoughts vs counterthoughts, logic vs emotion, Joe is 100% convinced that this is his child.
That heâs just now found out heâs a father through fucking Instagram.Â
And now heâs pissed because who the hell were you to keep his child from him? He didnât give a fuck how you felt about him and his being married, that didnât give you an excuse to hide a whole kid?Â
His kid.Â
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âReady for your bedtime story, Callie Bear?âÂ
Reading with Callie has been a must since you found out you were pregnant. Your mom always told you how she read to you in the womb and to this day believes itâs why you always tested out so high with your reading abilities, even in the first grade. Youâre not sure how accurate it is, having read some studies and whatnot, but youâve followed suit, reading to Callie even when she was in your belly. Almost five years later, itâs now a tradition. She canât go to sleep without a story.
She nods happily. You laugh and slide into the bed next to her. Naturally, she cuddles close to you, book already picked out and waiting on the bed. Itâs one sheâs heard a dozen times before but one of her favorites, so you read it just as theatrically, voice changes, and everything. Her giggles of happiness and merriment warm your heart. You love these one-on-one moments, wishing you could jar them and keep them stored away forever.
Youâre a couple chapters in when she starts to yawn, eyes struggling to stay open, that you slide in the bookmark and promise to pick it up again tomorrow. You know Callie is ready to call it a night when she doesnât protest.Â
But, itâs after placing the book on the shelf and going to tuck her into her covers that she hits you with a question that nearly sends you into cardiac arrest.
âMommy, why donât I have a daddy?â
Youâre not stupid, far from it. This question was bound to come up, sooner or later. For your own selfish sake though, you were hopeful for later, much much later.
She continues, almost nervous in tone. âMs. Leah said you need a mommy and a daddy to make a baby, so whereâs my daddy?â
Curious how the conversation of where babies came from came about, you make a mental note to discuss this with your daughterâs preschool teacher before working to answer her valid question. Truth be told, you have no idea how to answer it. But if anxiety was the dominant emotion before, sadness and devastation easily topple that at the next thing to come out of her mouth.
âDoes he not love me?â
Itâs not until that moment that you truly know what it feels like for your heart to shatter into absolute pieces.
âOh, babyâŚ.â Crouching down beside her bed, you move your hand to her forehead, thumb gently caressing her soft skin. Youâre so damn lost on how to handle this, what to say to take away her obvious pain, that you go with the soonest thing that hits the forefront of your brain. âYour daddyâŚ..heâŚ.he wasnât ready to be a daddy.â
It could be the truth, it could be a lie. You never gave yourselfâor himâthe chance to find out, and up until this point, you never saw an issue with that. But nowâŚ.now youâre wondering just who you made that decision for.Â
And if it was the right one.
Callieâs frown deepens, the answer clearly not one that makes her feel any better. âWhat if Iâm a really good girl? Will he be ready then?â
The shattered pieces are now dust, granulated dust that you struggle to hold together in trembling palms. You bring both hands to her face. âCalista, you listen to me. You are the kindest, sweetest, most amazing little girl in the whole wide world. You donât need to do anything to be a good girl because you are already a good girl, the best girl.â
Her eyes glaze over as she sniffles and asks in a small voice. âSo why doesnât he want me?â
âOh, sweetieâŚâ You pull her into a hug, holding her close and tight, as if doing so will allow her to absorb all of the love and adoration you have for this tiny human who made your life have meaning. âIâm gonna talk to him, okay? IâllâŚ.Iâll talk to him.â Thatâs all you can say, even if itâs not a guarantee, even if you have no idea where such an offer came from. And you hate yourself for doing that, for getting her hopes up over something that may not even happen. You havenât spoken to Joe in almost five years, thereâs no guarantee the number is even still the same.
Still, you know you have to at least try, especially when you pull back and see the renewed hope in her teary eyes, the eyes she shares with the father sheâs clearly desperate to know about, to meet, to have.Â
You close your eyes and press your forehead against hers, speaking with all the love and affirmation in the world, âI love you, Calista. Always, baby.âÂ
Youâre relieved to hear her reply in a less saddened and more hopeful tone, âI love you too, mommy.â
Itâs after youâre certain Callie is knocked out and youâve exhausted every single step of your nighttime routine that you pace around your room, partially trying to avoid an action you know you need to take.Â
Especially when you find his number in your phone from an old text thread you could never find it in you to delete.Â
You go back and forth for nearly twenty minutes before deciding on a simple question.
is this still joeâs number?
You feel like a damn child, throwing the phone down on the bed and burying your face into your hands. This is so much more difficult than it needs to be, or maybe it isnât. You made the executive decision to not make Joe aware of your pregnancy for a variety of reasons that felt solid at the time.
NowâŚnow you donât know any fucking thing anymore, it seems.Â
What you do know is that you nearly jump off the bed when your phone begins to ring. Frowning, you look at the time, wondering who in the hell could be calling you at damn near midnight.
But, itâs when you lift your phone to see the caller you know exactly why someone is calling you at damn near midnight.
Ignoring it is so tempting, but the image of Callie in tears wondering why sheâs not loved or wanted is more than enough to trample your selfish desires. Sliding the green button upward, you place the phone against your ear, take a deep breath, and speak, âhi.âÂ
He exhales, your name leaving his mouth for the first time in years. Hearing his voice, let alone hearing him say your name, creates a heaviness you werenât expecting. Then again, you werenât expecting to speak to him at all tonight.
Or ever, for that matter.
Communication is suddenly incredibly difficult as you struggle to string words together to create a cohesive statement. âIâmâŚ.Iâm sorry for calling so late, butââ
âWe need to talk.â While your tone is soft and nervous, his is serious and borderline stoic. It takes you for a bit of a loop, but you try not to put too much into it. The real focus should be why he interrupted you so harshly with such a bold statement. Heâs not wrong, but why does he think you need to talk? âIâll get a flight out tomorrow.â
That breaks you from your thoughts. A what? âwaitââ
âYou still at the same place?â
Swallowing, still very much confused, you answer, âyes, butââ
âIâll see you tomorrow night.â
The phone goes silent on the other end, and you realize itâs because heâs ended the call. You must stare at that phone for a good five minutes in complete utter shock. Eventually, coming out of the catatonia, only one thought circulates around your mind.
What in the actual fuck just happened?Â
#roman reigns x black!oc#roman reigns x black!reader#roman reigns#black writers#roman reigns fic#arisnotebook
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I'm boiling inside my own flesh after that trailer, so please accept this old, maybe objectively too creepy Cole drawing while I find time for new DA art. I can claim that it has a Haloween vibe, at least...
The reason it's so weird, by the way, is because I drew it using the poem "Wodwo" by Ted Hughes as a prompt. My bff @klovharun gave me the whole poetry book at the height of my DAI obsession because she thought "Gog" had Solas vibes; and it occurs to me right now that this has to be one of the best examples of friendship ever. Not just "I was thinking of you", but one step further, "I was thinking of your all-consuming fixation". She also made a Solas breakup playlist for me, which I still listen to. That is love!
Poems below for anyone who might like them.
Wodwo
What am I? Nosing here, turning leaves over
Following a faint stain on the air to the river's edge
I enter water. Who am I to split
The glassy grain of water looking upward I see the bed
Of the river above me upside down very clear
What am I doing here in mid-air? Why do I find
this frog so interesting as I inspect its most secret
interior and make it my own? Do these weeds
know me and name me to each other have they
seen me before do I fit in their world? I seem
separate from the ground and not rooted but dropped
out of nothing casually I've no threads
fastening me to anything I can go anywhere
I seem to have been given the freedom
of this place what am I then? And picking
bits of bark off this rotten stump gives me
no pleasure and it's no use so why do I do it
me and doing that have coincided very queerly
But what shall I be called am I the first
have I an owner what shape am I what
shape am I am I huge if I go
to the end on this way past these trees and past these trees
till I get tired that's touching one wall of me
for the moment if I sit still how everything
stops to watch me I suppose I am the exact centre
but there's all this what is it roots
roots roots roots and here's the water
again very queer but I'll go on looking
Gog I
I woke to a shout: 'I am Alpha and Omega!'
Rocks and a few trees trembled
Deep in their own country.
I ran and an absence bounded beside me.
The dog's god is a scrap dropped from the table,
The mouse's savior is a ripe wheat grainâ
Hearing the Messiah cry
My mouth widens in adoration.
How fat are the lichens!
They cushion themselves on the silence.
The air wants for nothing.
The dust, too, is replete.
What was my error? My skull has sealed it out.
My great bones are massed in me.
They beat on the earth, my song excites them.
I do not look at the rocks and stones, I am frightened of what they see.
I listen to the song jarring my mouth
Where the skull-rooted teeth are in possession.
I am massive on earth. My feetbones beat on the earth
Over the sound of motherly weeping....
Afterwards, I drink at a pool quietly,
The horizons bear the rocks and trees away into twilight.
I lie down, I become darknessâ
Darkness that all night sings and circles stamping.
-Ted Hughes
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kinktober day six: cybersex!
I WANNA GET FREAKY ON CAMERA ⥠GOJO SATORU
fem!reader x gojo satoruÂ
ingredients: what's a girl gonna do when she misses her boyfriend who's a continent away?
what's it: smut
allergen warning/s: satoru talks to your pussy, fingering, mutual masturbation, cybersex
sugar level: 2.9k
regulars: @ventdavi154 @deobiforever @sugusshi @angelshub
parlor's note: inspired by this fanart by the amazing @/3aem
p.s: the guitar solo referenced at the end is in the song i don't wanna be me by the band type o negative. i recommend checking out that song, or at least that solo. it's so good and definitely one of my favorites.
bon appetit!
the only reason why you're here is because you were peer pressured to go.
most of the time, you would totally be down to attend parties your friends hosted, but you haven't been feeling like yourself lately. gojo was assigned to a three month long mission overseas and you were missing him dearly. funnily enough, that was also the reason why you were forced to go.
"c'mon, it's halloween." shoko rolled her eyes at you. "you can't not go just because gojo isn't here. besides, you clearly need a pick me up. you can't just lay around your bed, eating ice cream and sniffing his shirts that you wear forever." she gave you a pointed look. in defiance, you rolled your eyes, crossed your arms against your chest and gazed elsewhere, not caring about how childish it may have seemed.
you had no idea how she found out your daily activities since satoru has been gone. perhaps searching around your house for secret cameras that she planted would be a good idea. regardless, you sounded pretty pathetic when she put it like that, but still. were you not allowed to miss your boyfriend?
if that wasn't enough, shoko still had more to add. "plus, didn't you already buy a costume?"
and that's how you ended up in your current situation.
you could see how much effort shoko put into the party. her house, usually decorated with a minimalistic and classy aesthetic in mind, was home to countless realistic cobwebs and fake spiders all over the little items she had, like her clock and picture frames. there was also something dripping down the walls, though you couldn't tell whether it was supposed to be blood or some form of slime because of the red lighting that came from the few jack o'lanterns scattered around the house. the lack of proper lighting gave the room an eerie feel, and the scented candle that smells of burning leaves did not help. it was expertly made, including the songs that played. the playlist included songs from bands like bauhaus, siouxsie and the banshees, and lebanon hanover, then halloween classics like thriller and monster mash.
you're dressed in a less than appropriate black dress with red details which satoru chose. it's a bit plain by itself, but you added a corset that pushed your tits together nicely. the outfit's paired with black red bottom heels, gothic necklaces, and a makeup look that tied everything together.
"you're supposed to be here having fun, not moping around the snack table." shoko nudged you with her hip making you huff at her. "i'm allowed to miss my boyfriend." you said stubbornly. "he's been gone for almost three months now, we haven't spent that much time apart until, well, now." you looked at her with a sad look in your eyes that conveyed everything that you were feeling.
thankfully, it made her sigh in defeat, seemingly understanding what you're currently feeling. "ugh, fine, fine whatever." she waved it off. "just stop looking at me like a kicked puppy and try to have fun or something." she walked away.
a part of you felt guilty. after all, she was trying to make you feel better when you obviously aren't doing the best, but at the same time, she's been tugging you along to do different activities to keep your mind off of gojo's absence for so long now.
you're tired and you really just wanna be whiney and act like a lovestruck teenage girl.
thankfully for you, you didn't have much time to dwell on the feelings of guilt because you got a new notification on your phone -- satoru sent you a photo.
you really couldn't open it fast enough. with how you're missing him, you'd be thankful for anything he sends you, be it a photo of what he's having for dinner, a puppy he saw in the streets, a restaurant that piqued his interest, or a photo of him.
you cannot lie, you did heavily prefer the message being a picture of him. nothing could have prepared you for what you saw when you opened it.
nothing could compare to the sight before you. not a photo of the finest michelin star dish, not a photo of a puppy that's your favorite breed, not a unique looking restaurant, because it's satoru.
his face is turned from the camera, but it's definitely satoru. his soft white hair is the most obvious reason why you think so, plus why would he send you a sexy photo of another man. aside from that, you've spend hours tracing over the muscles of his back, his biceps, and even more hours grasping at the flesh, digging your nails into it as he fucked you.
you wonder if he knows you miss him, or if he misses you and the reason why he sent that wasn't to tease you and show off what you can't have, but to get a reaction out of you so you can set up a video call with him.
a gut feeling tells you that it's probably both. he knows what kind of reaction he can get out of you from flexing those muscles.
whatever the answer may be, the truth remains: you can feel the slick forming between your folds and there's a familiar ache between your thighs.
you quickly run to one of shoko's guest bedrooms. thankfully, because of your training as a jujutsu sorcerer, you're able to get there in record time without bumping into anyone in the process.
you look at yourself in the mirror there, fixing strands of hair that has been messed up in your haste as well as straightening out your clothing before setting yourself down on the available bed and clicking on the video call button on your phone.
and like you've expected, satoru accepts it without a second to spare, as if he's waited by the phone after spending the photo, waiting for your flustered call. he has a knowing smirk on his face, one you know all too well.
"hey there, baby." he drawls. "wasn't expecting to see you here this late."
"satoru," it comes out as a breathless gasp that was not caused by the running. "i've missed you so much." you wriggle on the bed, getting comfortable.
his answering smile was cocky, but you spot the hint of warmth in his eyes and longing in the way his smile is bigger than it usually is. he doesn't have to say it verbally, he's missed you too.
"aww, did you, pretty girl? 'm sorry for leaving you alone for so long." he coos at you. "i promise i'll be there in a week, kay?"
he transfers the phone from one hand to the other, but while doing so, he lowers the camera view a bit, giving you a heart-stopping peek of his abs, something he definitely meant to do to rile you up some more, as if your brain wasn't going a hundred miles an hour right this second.
you rub your thighs together to give you that friction that you so desperately need. "that's not enough though." your voice comes out painfully needy and you know satoru isn't going to let you live that down anytime soon. the moment he gets home and gets his fill of you - even before that, maybe - he'll hold it over your head for the coming months -- and knowing satoru, it's not a long shot to say the coming years. he'll keep on blabbering something or other about "remember that time i had to go on a really long mission and you were whining to me on the phone about how much you needed me?" but you couldn't care less right now. he would be right, you need him so bad.
"aw, does my sweet angel need me? 'm sorry, baby, but i just can't be there right now." he explains like you didn't know that already. "tell you what though, if you ask me politely, maybe i'll find a way to help you out a bit, then make it up to you when i get home, yeah?"
"please 'toru?" you pout at the camera and flash him your puppy eyes. you know that those will work already, but wanted to do more so that's what you did. you subtly pushed your boobs together, internally thanking shoko for forcing you to go to this party because if not, you wouldn't be wearing this dress satoru loved so much. "i need you so bad. can you please help me out?"
"that's a sweet girl." you see him look down and hiss. the camera moves a bit too and you wonder if it's caused by him freeing his dick from his gray sweatpants.
"i want you to play with yourself for me." he states. "start with pulling the neckline of that dress down and letting me see those tits." he breathed. you hear wet sounds from his side and now you know he's already jerking off to you.
you changed your position, getting on your knees and using the pillow you were using so you'd have something to rest your phone on. when that was stable, you did what he asked of you.
you let yourself get into the moment first, caressing the skin around your neck, your collarbones first, humming at the sensual feeling, louder than usual so satoru would hear you clearly before your hands moved to the straps of your dress and pulled it down.
the clothing was quite tight so you still had to pull it down to expose your lacey bra, but satoru didn't mind. as much as he wanted to see your body, he did love that tight dress on you, cursing whoever assigned this mission to him because he wasn't able to be with you right this moment. he adored seeing the quality fabric hug the shape of your body, adored seeing your silhouette.
next to come off what your bra, and you made a show of that too, albeit a short one because satoru was so loud through the speaker of your phone. to say your neediness increased tenfold would be an understatement.
"there you go," gojo said as he watched your boobs bounce out of the shed undergarment. his gaze was fixed on your body. the lust was pouring out of his intense blue eyes. "play with them for me, baby."
you took your hands and squished your boobs together once more, gave them a final squeeze, then paid more attention to your nipples, erect from your arousal. you rolled them between your fingers, noticing that every time your eyes fluttered shut while you pinched them, satoru would let a particularly loud whimper.
but "it's not enough, toru, wan' more." you whispered. it was something he agreed with, murmuring a small "yeah," under his breath.
"i want you to spread your legs for me, baby." he waited for you to adjust before saying anything else.
you could feel the beads of sweat forming on your forehead, but couldn't be bothered to wipe them away. you changed the way you sat, now sitting on your ass, planting your feet firmly on the bed while your knees were raised so satoru would have an unobscured view of your pussy when your legs are spread.
you lifted the skirt of the dress up and over your legs until it's bunched up at your waist, letting satoru see your crotch and the patch of wetness on your panties.
the view made him curse under his breath.
"touch your thighs, yeah, just like that." even the simplest touch had your eyes rolling to the back of your head. it's been such a long time since you've been touched like this, and that fact paired with satoru's breathy voice and the slick sound of him tugging on his dick was a combination that could make you come untouched.
your hips started to move back and forth though there was nothing there that could ease the ache between your thighs. his praises of good girl, and you're doing so well for me, baby had your cunt pulsing against the cloth of your underwear. "'toru, more, please." your not want, but need was palpable through the way your voice cracked at the last words. "need it 'toru, please, fuck."
"write my name over those pretty little panties, baby."
little did you know, he was so close to coming. even closer than you were. he knew he couldn't come though, not yet. he'll bring you to the brink of pleasure first so you can do it together. it's the least he can do after leaving you along for so long, so he slows down his movements.
he didn't plan to start touching himself so early on. he wanted to start doing it at the same time you sank your fingers into your pussy, but he couldn't help himself after seeing you in that pretty dress he picked out. upon seeing that dress on the rack for the first time, he already knew you would look gorgeous in it. he thinks that you can wear a garbage bag and he'd still be itching to put his hands all over you, but god, did you look absolutely irresistible in that versace dress. and to think that you discouraged him from buying it at first because of the price.
it's worth every single yen.
it took everything in him to not speed the motions of his hands up when he saw you spell out g-o-j-o s-a-t-o-r-u along with a couple of hearts on the crotch of your already wet panties. he constantly had to repeat "slow down, slow down, slow down," in his head before he completely loses focus.
he decides that it's enough teasing, at least for today when you're both so desperate for one another.
to you, his next words are like a life line.
"take your panties off, baby. show me that pussy i love so much."
you breathe out a sigh of relief and delight and it seems like you can't take the lacey undergarment fast enough. you toss it somewhere in the room, too intoxicated by satoru's presence to care where it lands or if you'll still be able to find it later.
"there she is." he moans, gazing at your cunt. "missed my girl so much. look at how wet she is, bet she missed me too, huh?" his eyes flash to your face for a second, before returning to your pussy.
"missed you so much." you replied, touching yourself without needing instructions from satoru.
you started with your clit, drawing gentle circles on it with your index finger, then slowly pushing your middle and ring finger inside you.
you and satoru moaned each other's names at the same time for the first time in what feels like forever.
your digits moved fast inside you, pushing in and out of your gummy walls at such a pace where you could hear the wetness and feel little splatters of the sticky liquid coating your thighs.
"fuck, you're so wet." satoru hisses, and you don't hesitate to tell him the truth. "it's all for you 'toru," you whine, throwing your head back with your back arched. you imagine that it's his fingers inside of you instead of yours despite the way he can stretch you out in a way that your fingers never could.
"satoru," he was addicted with the way you said his name; like it's the sweetest prayer that could cleanse you of all your sins.
the coil in your belly winds and winds, continues to get tighter with every stroke of your finger. it clouds your brain, letting you forget about every single thought you could ever have, like how there's a party right outside the door and shoko, armed with the key, can walk in at any moment. the only thing on your mind is the way that satoru sounds as he fucks his fist, pretending that it was you, and the way your fingers feel as they pleasure you.
it's so overwhelming, the way you feel. you can't even hold yourself up anymore, having to scoot up the bed so you can lay against the headrest while one of your hands stroke your clit and the other thrusts in and out of you.
you're shaking now, as you address satoru once more. "'toru, 'm close. s' fuckin' close. can i come? please. fuck! ah-need it so, so bad." you're almost at the brink of tears as you plead at him.
"go ahead sweetheart, i'm right behind you."
thankfully for you, the sound of an electric guitar solo drowns out the sound of you screaming satoru's name, and you make no noise other than pants as you struggle to catch your breath.
satoru recovers a few seconds before you do.
"fuck," he runs a hand through his sweat slicked hair. "we need to do that again."
"no," you disagree with him, but too tired to glare. "i don't wanna go three months without you again."
"this was so hot though, baby. i'd pay good money to hear you beg like that again."
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you get: a personalized gojo selfie
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BEL AIR â chris sturniolo. âŞ
warnings âş tooth rotting fluff. not proofread !
authorâs note âş i miss writing fluff :(. this is just a 3 am scenario but in writing. also, iâve been naming all my fics after the lana song iâm listening to as i write <3.
2:30 AM, JANUARY 5.
the feeling of your bed slightly stirring made your eyes flutter open, the small beams of light entering your bedroom making it harder for you to even attempt to go back to sleep. the light startled your eyes, causing you to rub your eyes slowly before yawning and looking over to your right, seeing your boyfriend still residing in a peaceful sleep.
he looked gorgeous, as always. something about watching him sleep was always going to do it for you. his messy hair from stirring in his sleep, his mouth ever so slightly open as he breathed steadily and rhythmically, and of course he was hogging most of your shared blanket, but that undoubtedly was the least of your concerns as you indulged in the sweet moment that was these moments with your boyfriend.
seems like he could feel your lingering gaze on his face, or he could simply feel the absence of your presence and warmth near him, because his eyes started to open, blinking a few times to fully wake him up.
a smile started to form on your face as you watched him wake up, and he mirrored it, a lopsided smile also starting to appear on his lips as he started to actually be aware of the moment.
âstop watching me sleep, creep.â his morning voice was so groggy yet so clear, a chuckle escaping his lips as he leaned in to press a gentle kiss to your forehead.
âfine, next time iâll just kick you off the bed.â your reply was quick, the tone in your voice still sounded like you were half asleep, and was followed by a roll of your eyes, then a quick kiss to his cheek.
âmorning.â he finally said, his tone dripping the sweetness that you loved. his lopsided smile and the sleepy eyes made it hard to concentrate on anything other than him. like the fact you both had places to be in less than two hours.
âmorning, i missed you.â you admitted, a soft giggle echoing in the room as you slightly moved closer to him, just enough to rest your head on his chest. being able to listen to his heartbeat was comforting, instantly making a wave of sleepiness wash over you once again.
âi missed you too,â he pressed a soft kiss to the top of your head, one arm rubbing your back gently, starting to trace random shapes and patterns into your skin with just his fingertips, causing shivers to run down your spine as your head laid comfortably on his chest.
âi donât wanna get up, seriously.â you let out a sigh, the warmth and feeling of safety he radiated was overpowering your will to fully get up, even though you were well aware you both had a busy day.
âme neither.â he groaned, placing another kiss on the top of your head once again, his hand moving to play with your hair gently. âwhat if we just stayed in bed all day?â
you couldnât help but giggle. he was truly the sweetest, and if he continued pleading you were sure he wouldâve convinced you to stay in bed with him for the rest of the day.
against all your wishes, you pulled away from his embrace and sat up on the end of the bed, still taking in the morning sun and the smell of the vanilla scented candle you left burning throughout the night, which you probably had to put out.
âcâmon, iâll make breakfast.â you finally stood up, looking for your slippers before actually even thinking about making your way to the kitchen.
âcome back to bed, iâll just push the meeting with matt and nick,â he whined, his arms reaching for you as you leaned over to him and placed a quick kiss to his lips. âplease?â his morning voice was still evident, and he knew this made it almost impossible for you to say no.
âfine. five more minutes.â
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Do I Wanna Know?
Featuring a prompt from @sorceresssundries who handed out song-based prompts and assigned me: "Do I Wanna Know?" by: The Arctic Monkeys. Rated: Explicit, MDNI, 18+ (Smut) Word Count: 3,165 Kudos/Comment on AO3
The air was thick and humid, it hung heavy on the city, clinging in all the worst ways â like a wet blanket. It had been like this for days now, with nary a breeze to grant them even a momentâs solace from the oppressive heat. Children ran down to splash in the Chionthar, while adults lounged in the shadiest spaces they could find and fanned themselves â hoping for a moment of reprieve from the sun. Baldurâs Gate ground to a halt in the face of a sustained heatwave, filling the long summer days with an unusually lazy energy for such a bustling city.
It wasnât the temperature that agitated the grouchy tiefling as he sat in his desk chair, a different heat had been consuming his body and soul. It had been weeks since the final battle and he hadnât seen or heard from Tav. Sure, he had heard of her survival through the paper and the gossip on the streets. But that wasnât the same.
The last time heâd seen her things had been awkward to say the very least. She had defeated, with his assistance, his abusive former master and the mantle of the Archwizard of Baldurâs Gate had suddenly fallen to him. Every moment since then had been filled with the constant demand from his new responsibilities but in the back of his mind, Tav constantly lingered. It had taken him too long to realize his obvious feelings. It wasnât until just before the final battle, when he considered losing her for the first time, that he became fully aware. He hadnât slept in the days that followed that, not until he was sure she had survived.
And yet, she hadnât stopped by to see him, there was so much to do he knew, rebuilding and resting, but her absence still hounded him like an itch gone unscratched. When his eyes closed at night, she was always waiting for him. He let himself dream of a reality where it was her, in the flesh, waiting for him in his bed each night. Hours of sleep were lost to imagining how she would feel against him, under him â imagining her taste or how she might sound as she cried out for him.
Heâd felt a twinge of guilt in the pit of his stomach when heâd started touching himself to these thoughts. Trying to turn his mind elsewhere had failed and the first time heâd come to the thought of her he had almost passed out from the pleasure. There was no turning back for him now and like a dehydrated sailor at sea who drinks saltwater, it had only worsened the problem and drove him to seek release to his fantasies of her more often.
Heâd become desperate for her, and he felt a little pathetic.
The worst part was the constant wondering. Could she ever feel the same? Did he even want to know the answer? Would he ever see her again? These damned questions nagged at him more than any heat could. After a few evening glasses of Arabellen Dry, heâd found he could think of nothing else and letting his questions consume him. It made him feel better to imagine that she was doing the same, in her cups and thinking of him.Â
In his imagination and even in his dreams, she comes bounding to his door to confess her love, all flushed cheeks and bleary eyes. Lately there seemed to be no escape from her hold over him.
His siblings had been nothing but helpful, always picking on his pining for her and the fact that he never acted on it. They had tried to take his mind off things, and heâd gone out with them, only for them to point out attractive people he might approach. Heâd even tried to be a good sport, tried to chat up whomever they pointed out, tried to find them interesting but there was never any spark. Before long heâd realized the problem was that in his mind, he was already Tavâs. Tears had brimmed in his eyes and a heaviness had set in his heart when he realized that even if he never saw her again, heâd always be hers.
It wasnât fair.
Surely, she had done some trick, some cheat to make him feel this way? How else could he explain this constant longing that he felt. He was an arch mage, for gods sake, he was resigned to pull himself together. Every time he thought heâd managed to banish the obsession he was humbled by failure once more, most recently by a street performer out in front of the shop.
Heâd been closing up after a long, steaming day and as heâd gone to lock the doors he spotted the buskers setting up to ply their trade for the evening. Even a city as lively at night as The Gate can fall victim to an influx of evening debauchery when the days had proven to be too warm for lifeâs pleasures. So, the performers in the heatwave had taken to setting up after sundown, better to catch a paying audience on these busy, sinful summer nights.
The musician was inconsequential to Rolan. It was the opening ballad heâd strummed that Rolan had overheard as he locked up that caught his attention. The opening notes stopped him in his tracks before heâd closed the doors, the song was one of the ones Alfira had played that night at the Emerald Grove, when theyâd spent the evening under the stars in celebration of their continued survival. Heâd spent the night trying to work up the courage to talk to her, not understanding then that the anxiety he felt in his gut was the beginning of all of this.
Finally, after some liquid courage, a few dazzling spells, and her adoring applause heâd approached her just as Alfira had struck up this very song.
âI love this one,â sheâd said
Heâd barely heard her, distracted by her eyes in firelight, how could he have not known then?
âBeautiful,â heâd said before he realized his mouth was moving.
âIt is, isnât it?â Sheâd agreed
In hindsight he was almost positive he wasnât talking about the song, but he had been grateful for the easy out. As his mind drifted back from the memory of her breathtaking eyes, the bard had finished the song and Rolan strode out with a hand fishing in his pocket for coins.
âPlay it againâ
The coins plunked into the case as the bard grinned at the handsome tip and began the song over. Rolan strode away slowly back to the tower, letting the melody hold him in that beautiful memory once more. In truth heâd have paid the musician a small fortune to play the song over and over until heâd drifted off to sleep if he was sure that Cal and Lia wouldnât have caught him. Heâd fallen asleep to thoughts of her and dreamed of her that night, and every night following that tenday.
The hot days continued, growing to an intolerable level. Maybe that was why heâd agreed to go out again with his siblings. This time instead of the Blushing Mermaid they were hitting up the Elfsong Tavern to visit Alfira and Lakrissa, Dammon, and the rest of the group. Alfira had reserved the rooftop for a special sundown party in the small but lovely space.
As the sun went down a cool breeze began to blow off the Sea of Swords for the first time since the start of the heatwave. It picked up the strands of his hair and lightly tossed them as the wind kissed his sweat soaked skin, finally cooling him off for the first time in days. He was already one glass of wine in when he spotted her coming up from the ladder that led to the roof.
Tav was here.
He tried not to notice her, instead engrossing himself deeper in his talk with Dammon about some ore or another â to be honest he hadnât been listening but was content to nod along. Out of the corner of his eye he watched her be greeted by their hosts, who were clearly thrilled to see her. She looked beautiful. It didnât matter if heâd noted a few new minor scars on her skin, likely from the final battle â she was a vision of beauty regardless. Her bright smile seemed to radiate light even after sundown. Her laughter, the very same sweet melody that haunted him.Â
When she finally approached him after a few minutes, he was already fighting to play it cool.
âIt feels like it might rain,â she said casually to him as a greeting, her bright smile forcing his heart to skip a beat or two.
âPreposterous, itâs been bone dry for weeksâ
âThen I suppose itâs high time for some rain, huh?â
He didnât respond. Thinking carefully about his words.
His eyes swept up and down her frame, admiring the curves and the toned muscle displayed in the minimal sundress sheâd worn against the heat. Gods he wanted her so bad and here she was, just a few inches away. But there was no way that she would want him too, heâd already convinced himself of that fact.
âYou havenât visited,â
âDid you miss me, Rolan?â
The blush that crept across his cheeks was only disguised by the evening as he glanced away to compose himself. Even though the rooftop was filled with at least a dozen other people he knew, whenever he spoke with Tav it felt like they were the only two people around. When he turned his attention back to her, he couldnât help but flick his gaze down to her lips for the briefest second. Gods how he felt the constant urge to put his lips on hers, threatening to plunge him into madness.
âCal and Lia miss you, is allâ
Before she could respond, a single fat rain drop plopped down on her cheek and she glanced up. After a moment a few more heavy drops of rain followed and people began to flee the roof to protect their drinks and fine clothes. The temperature dropped quickly but Rolan didnât move, maintaining eye contact with Tav as the roof cleared. All around them steam hissed up from the quenched streets and stonework. Heâd waited too long to see her, and he wasnât wasting this moment.
The rain had charged the air between them, or maybe it was the fact that they were alone â but something had shifted the atmosphere.
âRolanââ
âQuiet.â
She looked shocked, almost stricken until he blurted the rest out.
âCan I kiss you?â
The shock lingered on her face only a moment longer, replaced by a coy smile as she nodded in agreement.
He was on her in a moment, lips pressed to hers, fingers in her wet hair. The drinks theyâd been holding crashed to the ground as they lunged at each other with an unrestrained passion. He felt her tongue on his lips and opened up to her, angling her face to deepen their kiss as the rain came down around them.
âIâve wanted to do that for so long.â
He panted out the truth when they finally broke only for oxygen.
âMe tooâ
He pushed her up against a stone column on the roof with a sudden movement at her confession, claiming her lips with his once more.
âRolan ââShe gasped out, âAre you sure? We shouldnât do this if you arenât sure.â
He broke away and pressed his forehead against hers.
âI have dreamed of you, of this, every night for longer than I care to admit. Tav I missed you, not Cal, not Lia â I missed you. So much so that had I known where you were I would have crawled to be there by your side. I- I love you, Tav.â
The storm, the rain, it all faded away when he heard her breathe out her next five words with tears in her beautiful eyes.
âI love you too, Rolan.â
He kissed her hard, wrapping her legs around his waist as his tail coiled around her ankles to hold her there. She tasted like wine and fresh summer rain. Deceptively strong, Rolan lifted her easily from against the wall and carried her to the only slight shelter available on the roof. It was a small, covered area, safely out of sight of any onlookers or would-be voyeurs on the ground.Â
âMineâ he growled between kisses as he gently lowered her to the ground with him on top, supporting his weight on his forearms. His body caging hers against the elements.
âYoursâ she murmured sweetly in agreement.
Her hands eagerly shot up to begin stripping the wet clothes from his body, her soft fingers tracing the ridges on any exposed skin she could find. He groaned into the hot kisses he laved down her neck and ground his hard length against her core. She was so openly eager for him, and it drove him to the brink of a feral lust. She moaned as she felt his tail coil up and around her leg, up the skirt of her dress. Before long sheâd worked off his robes and his top, their lips never leaving each otherâs skin as her fingers traced down his ridged torso. When she began to untie the laces of his trousers, a wry laugh escaped him as pretended to chastise her.
âMy, my, greedy as always, arenât we?â
She bit her lip and groaned in response, his words having the desired effect. At the same time the spade of his tail made contact with her dripping cunt and Rolan was surprised to discover it was bare. A low moan of need followed her groan as she felt his tail begin to stroke at her folds.
âRolan,â she gasped
He covered her mouth with hers once more with another bruising kiss, still too eager for her and caught up in the moment. His tail gently teased at her entrance, swirling around and preparing her while his hands lowered her dress and exposed her breasts to him. Moving down to tongue at an exposed nipple while gently rolling the other between his claws, ever cautious of his horns at this angle.
Her hands stroked his hardened cock from the moment she freed it from his pants, applying a gentle but firm pressure as she worked him in her fist. He was groaning into her skin as he licked and sucked at every exposed part he could find. Meanwhile his tail pushed into her, slowly working in and out of her warmth as he prepared her. No longer could she contain her pleasure in small sounds, if not for the rain her moans would be heard clearly from the ground.Â
Surely the heatwave had driven him to madness over the previous weeks or heâd died of a related affliction and hadnât realized it. It seemed impossible that he could be on top of the Tav, fucking her with his tail while she jerked him off and screamed for more. But when he opened his eyes, she was still there, now begging for him.
âPlease, please Rolanâ she moaned as he worked her to her first climax with his tail, hands, and mouth.
âFirst,â He stopped and slowly licked from her belly button up to her sternum, tasting the fresh rainwater from on her supple skin, âcum on my tail, Tav.â
That was all it took. He felt her walls clench and flutter around him, as she called his name and drenched his tail with her desire. It had been lucky that in her pleasure sheâd let go of his cock. Otherwise, he was sure he would have finished just from her hand and the sound of his name on her lips as she came undone just for him.
Gently removing his tail, he lined himself up with her entrance, now better prepared for his size. He may have been shy about the many tiefling traits heâd inherited but heâd never complained about his size. Nor had he ever heard a complaint from any lover, for that matter. Leaning up to kiss her, he looked deeply into her eyes, finally not afraid to let his unabashed love show through â with a silent question he searched to be sure he wasnât going too far.
âRolan,â she mewled desperately
He plunged into her, gritting his teeth to keep from cumming on the spot. They moaned in tandem at the sensation, their bodies fitting together in a way that left them lightheaded.
âGods you feel perfectâ he ground out
âFuck,â she moaned, âYouâre hugeâ
He remained motionless, allowing her time to adjust to his size and fighting the growing urge to claim her roughly on the ground like an animal. Next time heâd have her in his bed and heâd fuck her through the mattress. But not on the hard roof of the Elfsong, and thus he fought against his instincts.
Once she nodded for him to continue, he began to rock in and out of her gently. Even with taking his tail first she was still tight around him, and he could feel the ridges of his cock drag against her walls deep within. He cursed himself for pining after her for so long as he began to fuck into her deeper, he already knew he wouldnât last long now that he was inside her. Determined to prove himself in body, he needed to make her scream for him at once more before he could finish for himself.
He dropped to put her knees on his shoulders, using his tail to hold them together behind his neck as he adjusted his angle to pound deeper into her. Gently, as to avoid his claws, he used the pads of his fingers to rub her clit â eliciting cries of pleasure from her that were so sinfully perfect, he knew theyâd fill his dreams until his last day.
âRolannnn,â She nearly wailed his name as her cunt began to clench and flutter around his cock. Â
âThatâs it Tav, do it for me, cum for me, youâre mine.â
He coached her over the edge into bliss and watched her eyes roll back in her head as she screamed his name and came all over his cock. That was it for him, he buried himself deep within her and came with a grunt. Filling her as he ground his hips into hers, he dropped her legs and kissed her again. Breathless from their collective ecstasy, only the sound of their pants and the delicate evening rain hung between them.
âI want this,â He finally broke the silence, feeling bolder with her in his arms.
âMe too, we could be together, if you wanted to.â Rolan couldnât help but smile into the next kiss he gave hers. After all this time of being hers, finally she was his too.
#holy rolan empire#rolan nation#bg3 rolan#rolan bg3#rolan brainrot#rolan x tav#rolan fanfic#rolanites#rolan smut#bg3 fanfiction#tav x rolan
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facetime call
pairing: tom blyth x bestfriend!reader x actress!reader
summary: you decide to ârelaxâ your body and your best friend almost caught you. this is a second part of this au.
warnings: mentions of past relationships, f!masturbation, suggestive conversations | englishâs not my native language | no proofread
genre: friends to lovers
word count: 733
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A few days passed after that âdateâ, where you and Tom shared the first kiss and confessed to each other. You feared your friendship might change after that, but actually it was going pretty well, at least for you. Tom still texted you, sending you memes and making facetime calls. The feeling was amazing, you really feel like youâre living a teenage dream, like that song. Unfortunately, past relationships still haunted you with your traumas. The fear of being left alone again always playing tricks on your mind⌠You didn't have the opportunity to meet your friends in common with Tom to talk about what happened between you both, but the last photo dump you posted on your IG account and the comments you've received from them might couldâve been useful for them to gossip about it in your absence. Youâve been really busy, finishing your drama school and preparing for the Christmas play which would be in a few days. Tom promised heâll be attending, so as the rest of your friends and the thought of that made you anxious. Tom is a really good actor, and it kinda intimidates you, since youâre still graduating.
You went home and took a hot shower to let go your anxious thoughts. Have you noticed youâve been thinking a lot lately? About everything? You can read the first paragraph again and take your notes⌠All the âwhat ifsâ was driving you crazy, so you decided to take a breath and take care of yourself this evening. Skincare routine while watching Stranger Things for the third time, moisturising your hair.
No matter how much you tried to distract yourself, all your thoughts came back to Tom. His sweet lips in perfect sync with yours, his big hands caressing your body, hot and burning with desire. It was innocent and romantic, but the memory somehow turned you on. Since you were alone, why not take advantage, huh?
Lying comfortable in your bed, you let your hands help alleviate this feeling, letting them run down your body until you found the source of the heat you were feeling. Your mind masterfully reproduced the few moments of affection you exchanged with your best friend until then. The desire for months of accumulated sexual tension, the heat of his confession and the good feeling of conquest made you more excited and you began to pant. It didn't take long for your movements to become more intense, your breathing more shallow and you reached your peak. Letting out a long - but low - moan, you recover on the bed. Until you receive a facetime from Tom and shame takes over your face. You decide to answer, why not?
âHeyâ - you say breathlessly. Damn, it would be hard to disguise what you just did thinking about him.
âHi!!! Where are you? Iâve got news for you, Billy the Kid was renewed for a third⌠are you okay?â
Tom was extremely hyperactive and when he was happy, he seemed to vomit his words. But his euphoric expression quickly changed to concern as he watched you move a little on camera, your forehead sweaty and⌠wrapped in a towel?
ây/n, are you naked???â he burst out laughing, and you tried to hide in your pillow, but soon joined in with the laughter.
âYeah, I am! I was showering!â giving up trying to hide it, you simply accept it and join in on his game. You notice his expression change to a more mischievous look.
ââŚâŚâŚ.. Well, I've never had sex via FaceTime, but if you...â
âTOM! Shut the fuck up!!â then you both laugh again. That's why you love him. The way he always makes things lighter, making jokes, being goofy. He is your comfort. It's simply impossible to feel embarrassed around him, he will always make the mood delicious.
Tom then finishes telling his news, that the series would be renewed for a third season and he would receive the text soon. He was happy and you could tell from afar. You tell him about your day and a few minutes later, the call ends. You hang up the call and stare at the ceiling of your room, not noticing the huge smile on your face. You allow yourself to feel what you're feeling, you allow yourself to fall in love, and you accept it. Whatever will be will be.
#tom blyth x reader#coryo snow#tom blyth imagine#tom blyth x you#tom blyth#coriolanus snow#coriolanus x reader#giowriting#the ballad of songbirds and snakes
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Speak Now (Hotchâs Version)
Chapter One: Enchanted
âAll I can say is it was enchanting to meet youâ
Word Count: ~1000 words
Pairing: Aaron Hotchner x Reader
Warnings: None I think? This chapter is pure fluff :)
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A/N: Hello hello! This is the start of my Eras Tour fanfic series, and we are starting with the album Speak Now featuring Aaron Hotchner! Every chapter in this series will follow a song from Taylor Swiftâs album being featured to tell a story of a relationship. I am super excited for this series! If you have any characters youâd like to tie to future albums, please let me know! Some series may feature canon couples, some may feature ships, some may be reader-inserts, so I hope at least one part of the series clicks with you đ This chapter is a shorter one, sorry!
Another FBI banquet. A perfect way to spend one of the only days off you got, you huffed as you took a sip of your champagne. You stood by your colleagues, surrounded by the same boring conversation, and you forced laughter and faked smiles where appropriate. Rehearsed answers fell from your lips as your gaze shifted across the room, and you paused when your eyes met dark brown ones.
There was an air of familiarity around the man and you watched as his expression molded into one similar to how you felt. Subtle, but a faint hint of questioning in his eyes. You were surprised as he started to cross the room, and you found yourself walking over to meet him before you realized you were. âHave we met before?â You blurted and his brows furrowed, and you were quick to continue talking. âIâm sorry. You just seem really familiar, like Iâve seen you before.â
���Iâve been to a few of these,â he said before he stuck his hand out. You took his hand in your own and shook it. âAaron Hotchner.â You introduced yourself before letting go of his hand. Hotchner, HotchnerâŚ
âFrom the BAU, right?â You asked and Hotchner nodded. âFrom Sex Crimes, myself.â You nodded over to your colleagues, where your absence was not noticed. âThey donât know it yet, but my transfer was just approved this afternoon.â You took another sip of champagne as Hotchnerâs brows raised ever so slightly.
âA transfer? Any reason you wanted to leave?â Hotchner started to edge away from the crowd and you followed suit.
âI love the work I did, donât get me wrong. I just⌠felt like my time there has reached its end. Iâd been eyeing transferring for a while, and when the opportunity made itself known, I went for it. I didnât think Iâd get it, to be honest,â you admitted, âbut somehow I did.â
âCongratulations on the transfer. Where are you transferring, if I may ask?â
âAnd ruin my mysterious appeal?â You teased and were pleasantly surprised to get a smile and a huff of laughter from Hotchner. âBut I want to keep it under wraps for a little longer. It just feels⌠surreal. Like if I say it out loud, Iâll wake up from the dream and lose it all.â Hotchner nodded in what seemed like understanding, and the two of you continued to talk for what felt like ages but seconds at the same time. You had no idea how much time had passed until the crowd started to dissipate, the largest group remaining consisting of some agents not-so-subtlety watching Hotchner. One immediately caught your attention, her outfit a bit flashier and brighter than everyone elseâs. Like a ray of sunshine between the sea of blacks and blues.
âYouâve got some admirers,â you said and Hotchner rolled his eyes lightheartedly.
âThat would be my team. Meddling children, all of them.â
âTheyâre lucky to have you, from my judgment.â You smiled. âI unfortunately should let you go, tend to your children. And I have a busy day tomorrow, finalizing papers and saying my goodbyes.â
âGood luck with everything, Y/L/N,â Hotchner said and you exchanged your goodbyes. You started to walk away, then paused for a moment before you called out his name.
âIâve got a feeling weâll be seeing each other again soon.â You winked as you walked off, missing the contemplative look on his face. As you walked back to your car, you couldnât help feeling like a school-aged kid with a playground crush. Aaron Hotchner. You didnât know much about the man, just the basics of his department and what you learned while speaking to him tonight, but you couldnât believe your luck to have met him. Cheeks flushed, you got into your car and drove home, smiling the entire drive.
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A week had passed since the Annual Banquet and you paced the floor of your apartment, talking to your best friend.
âYou donât understand, you didnât get to meet him. Thereâs no way heâs available,â you told your friend who sighed from their spot on the couch. âI canât believe Iâm this obsessed with a man I met once. Itâs pathetic, isnât it? Wait, donât answer that.â
âYouâve wanted to be in the BAU since your, what, second year in the FBI? In a way, you looked up to him. You wanted to be in his position. And then you got to meet him, and youâve always had a tendency of taking small things and running with them.â You scowled before you fell back against the couch, groaning.
âAaron fucking Hotchner.â You said and your friend laughed. âWhat I would give for him to just be on my doorstep, like âHey, I know weâve only met once and only spoke at a work event, but meeting you was the best part of my night.â
âEnchanting sounds better,â your friend corrected. âHe was enchanted to meet you. Who knows? Maybe this is the start of the story, not the end. And besides, youâll see him again soon.â
âNot soon enough.â
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Aaron.
You walked into the Quantico building a few days later, early Monday morning. You had greatly overestimated your commute and how long your meeting with the Section Chief would take, and you stood outside the bullpen, occasionally talking to the Section Chief to settle your nerves. The elevator dinged and you admittedly flinched at the sudden noise.
âAgent Hotchner,â Section Chief Strauss spoke and you lowered your gaze, suddenly finding the flooring very interesting until you felt a hand on your shoulder. âMeet your newest agent.â
Hour gaze slowly traveled up to meet familiar brown eyes, a flash of recognition in them before Hotchner stuck his hand out for you. âI told you weâd see each other again, Agent Hotchner.â You tried to get a read of Hotchnerâs face, unable to pick up any disappointment but not seeing any real contentment either. For just a second, it was so fast you may have imagined it, a small smile graced Hotchnerâs face and you took his hand in your own.
âYou were right. Nice to see you again, Agent Y/L/N. Welcome to the team.â
#criminal minds#criminal minds x reader#criminal minds fanfic#criminal minds hotch#aaron hotchner#aaron hotchner x reader#hotch#hotchner x reader#hotch x reader#bau!reader#aaron hotch fanfiction
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"How am I supposed to survive without my best friend."
It echoed through her brain, like a song she couldn't evict.
She'd pushed Jane to be with Casey, but she'd never thought he'd be stupid enough to propose. Never thought Jane would be stupid enough to accept - which she hadn't yet, not yet, but she was wearing the ring, and she was giddy. Maura dropped her scalpel and walked over to the sink, expelling more stomach contents, even though she'd already done so twice.
"You should go home, Doctor Isles," Susie said, looking concerned. She knew how observant Susie was, knew Susie had to know what had brought on this sudden and unfortunate nausea. Between Jane and Frost, it had been an awful, awful day. Maura nodded and made a call, to have someone come in to HQ to take over from her. She stayed until she could do an adequate handover. She pulled over twice on the way home, heaving and sweating. Maybe she was coming down with something? There had to be a physical reason for this response.
But her temperature was normal, so she took a nice, warm shower, took some medication and took herself to bed.
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When she woke up, Jane was sitting on the edge of the bed, her hand on Maura's forehead. It was still light outside, and Maura was disoriented.
"You don't have a fever, but Chang said you were throwing up. I got you this." Jane helped Maura to sit up, handed her some kind of green concoction in a takeaway cup. Maura sipped it. It was juice, heavy on the vegetables and would help her regain some of the nutrients she'd lost earlier, as well as hydrate her. She sipped again and looked around. It was only past lunchtime, yet Jane was here. "You need me to stay?" Jane asked, one of her hands rubbing absently over Maura's back. Maura could feel the metal of the ring touching her, and she retched again. Jane grabbed a wastepaper basket and held it as Maura threw up green into it, holding Maura's hair out of the way.
"I'm calling out," Jane said, once Maura had finished, pulling out her phone. Maura nodded weakly, lying back down, too worn out to go and brush her teeth again even though she knew she should - the enamel - but she was asleep in moments.
She woke briefly a few times, each time feeling the hand with the ring rubbing her back. Each time retching with nothing left to discard. Each time hearing Jane's voice say sweet nothings to her.
She woke properly in the evening. Her mouth felt like someone else had thrown up in it, and she tried to get to her shaky feet to go brush her teeth. Jane appeared from somewhere and helped her to the bathroom, loading the toothbrush for her, watching anxiously as Maura gagged again.
"I made you some soup," Jane said, when Maura was done, and she could smell it, even from here. It made her stomach turn again, and Jane looked disappointed. "You're dehydrated," Jane noted, looking at Maura's dry lips. "You have to have something." Maura shook her head and pushed Jane out of the room so she could use it in privacy. When she came out, Jane was holding Tylenol and a glass of water, and Maura took both thankfully, grateful also for Jane's arm slipping around her waist to help her back to the bed.
"Frost feels bad for yelling at you," Jane said. "He's been checking in every hour. Korsak too, and Chang." Maura settled under the sheets, and this time there was no ring on Jane's hand when it rubbed her back.
"Maybe I could... try the soup?" Maura suggested, and Jane jumped to her feet and scurried away. Maura checked her phone and sat up, feeling her stomach complain, tense and empty. She messaged Susie back, and Frost and Korsak. The same message for all three.
There were seventeen missed calls from Jane, and a number of increasingly distressed messages. Her absence had been noted - but then, she'd never walked away from an open case before, one that didn't involve the Doyle's at least.
Jane came bustling in with a tray, soup and toast carefully balanced, placing it over Maura's lap. She felt Maura's forehead again, sitting next to her.
"I watered it down and blended it up, so it shouldn't hurt if you can't keep it down." Jane looked worried still, her deep brown eyes creased at the edges, her smile a little too tight. Maura sipped at it; really, soup in bed was an unbelievably bad idea, but she managed to keep it down.
"Stomach bug?" Jane asked when she took the tray. Maura shrugged and lay down again, exhausted. She felt the bed shift, felt Jane nervously join her a few minutes later.
"I'm right here if you need anything," Jane said. "Stay on your side, in case you vomit again."
"You're not worried about me throwing up on you?" Maura asked, rolling over to face Jane, catching her face for an instant before she snapped the bedside lamp off. Jane's face was stricken and tender, and Maura didn't know what to do with that.
"I've had worse," Jane said, and rolled to face Maura, letting her hand stroke Maura's back again. "I can't marry him, can I?" Jane asked, and she couldn't be oblivious to the way Maura tensed at the question but her hand didn't pause at all. "He just likes the idea of me. He doesn't see the long hours, the long nights. And if I married him, I wouldn't have..." Jane trailed off, and the stroking of Maura's back became even softer, even gentler, more of a caress. "I wouldn't have this," Jane said quietly.
"You could go with him. You could have children," Maura whispered, feeling the bile rise in her again. Why couldn't she just be happy for her best friend?
"I can't leave Boston. Everyone I love is here."
"Except Casey."
"He's not..." Jane sighed. "When you said what you said earlier, about surviving without me, you absolutely would. You're not the same person I met. You have Ma, and my brothers, and my team, and Susie. You have Hope and Cailin and Constance. I'm just one person."
"You're more," Maura insisted.
"And you're just one person, and Casey is just one person, but I wouldn't trade you for a thousand Casey's. Not a million." Jane's hand gripped Maura's shoulder blade, fierce and possessive. In the morning, Maura might not remember exactly what was said, but she'd remember how it felt. "And that's what he was asking. I like Casey. I think I love him. But you..." Maura was drifting back to sleep, but she could have sworn she felt Jane's lips press against her temple as she did. "You're the only person I need."
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some of my favourite vids
lirazel expressed interest in a rec list of some of my favourite vids and I am very suggestible when it comes to rec lists so here you go! :D Unfortunately a few of the older vids that I remember fondly are no longer available online for me to share with you (the batman vid set to johnny cash's cover of hurt! the highlander vid about methos/lord byron! and more!), but there are still plenty of excellent vids up and about, and new ones worth watching keep being made!
Yes this rec list is 22 vids long, shush, I couldn't cut any of these out. I just got so emotional in the process of making this rec list at how wonderful an artform the fanvid is! It can do so many different things! It can be so powerful in such a brief space of time!
I've ordered the list below alphabetically by fandom. I go through a lot of different fandoms here!
And it was so fun too to work on practicing my skills at describing a vid and explaining what's good about it; I have many years of practice at talking about written narratives, but interpreting and talking about visual media is still a skillset that I'm not instinctively good at and don't have as much experience with. But I think I did pretty good with these vids. I hope you enjoy them!
(put behind a readmore to keep this post from being overwhelmingly long on your dash!)
1. Problem, by talitha78 Captain America: The Winter Soldier, Bucky/Steve Look I may be totally burnt out on the MCU at this point but damn did CA:TWS have some good fanworks. This is a vid that is gleefully and wholeheartedly throwing itself into depicting Bucky through the lens of of this natalia kills song with a straight face. I still sometimes find myself singing "girl is a problem" to myself about things, because of this vid.
2. All In Together, by odessie The Great British Bake-Off, ensemble This vid encapsulates the spirit of the show (âŚat least, the show when it was a BBC show, before it moved to Channel 4), which is about everybody being weird, dedicated, enthusiastic, imperfect, and all in it together despite it being ostensibly a competition. "Celebrate your oddities, your art, your own insanity." YEAH. It's so cheering!
3. All We Got, by anoel The Great Gatsby, Daisy/Gatsby One of those where I've read the book but not seen the adaptation, but I feel like watching this vid gives me everything I need from seeing an adaptation of the story! Sharply edited use of the beautiful visuals; really creates the necessary feeling of high energy glitz papering over emptiness, which the book honestly doesn't do a good enough job at lol.
4. Show Me Your Teeth, by Dogstar Hieronymous Bosch's artwork, all of Bosch's weird little guys It's strange, a bit surreal, energetic. My immediate reaction when I first saw this vid was "wtf in the best way." I'm so impressed with how the vidder could make such a compelling vid out of static artwork!
5. God's Gonna Cut You Down, by sholio Highlander, Methos & Cassandra & the horsemen There were so many excellent highlander fanvids back in the day but this is one of the ones that has really stuck with me, with its perfect encapsulation of the complexities of the relationships in the "Comes a Horseman" and "Revelations 6:8" pair of episodes, paired with exactly the right song.
6. In Which Sophie Expresses Her Feelings In The Absence Of Weedkiller, by ryfkah Howl's Moving Castle, Howl/Sophie The vidder took on the challenge of using the movie's footage to make a vid about the book's version of the story, and did an incredible job! I adore this vid and how perfectly it captures Sophie and Howl and their relationship.
7. A Tune Like the End of the World, by frith_in_thorns Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell, John Childermass Although I haven't seen the tv show, I have read the book it's based on a LOT, so I can more or less figure out which character is who in the visuals from context, lol. I love how good this vid is at getting the atmosphere of the story right; the atmosphere is such an important part of it!
8. Work This Body, by CherryIce Jumanji: Welcome to the Jungle, ensemble Just really encapsulates the sense of joy and fun that the movie is all about! I don't know what else to say about it, other than that I have rewatched this vid a ridiculous number of times and it keeps being fun. (Unfortunately the streaming version is no longer available, but it's still up for download!)
9. Let's Go (Young Men Dead), by sweetestdrain Lawrence of Arabia, Lawrence The vid that got me to finally watch the movie, and discover how the movie, despite the various critiques it's worthwhile to make of it, is a really brilliant work of art. And the vid, too, is a brilliant work of art! SO many feelings. It's got the vibes just right, of this enormous, larger-than-life story and the relentless grinding-down of everyone involved, the inevitable despairing end to everything. The way it uses juxtaposition and empty spaces! I get emotional rewatching the vid even now, 8 years after watching the movie.
10. Parachute, by thingswithwings Leverage, Eliot/Hardison/Parker I may not have ever seen the show but I've read enough fanfic to be fully on board for this ot3, and this vid depicts them in the BEST way, the way they love and trust and like and rely on each other, and the joy they have in each other! And it does a beautiful job of highlighting each of the three sides of the triangle as well as the three of them all together, too.
11. Under Pressure, by violace The Martian, ensemble It's a vid about the way so many people come together to save Mark Watney: working together, hoping together, caring together, celebrating together. Still able to touch my cynical little heart in these days of looking at the world around me in despair. Humans WANT to help each other!
12. Landsailor, by raven multifandom, ensembles The vidder describes this vid as an "ode to infrastructure" and that's like. what it is! It's about people coming together to do the hard work of building something bigger than any one of them, and it's so joyful and inspiring, tbh! I am familiar with very few of the fandoms it includes but you don't need to know them to get the gist, to follow the story being told.
13. Oh No!!! by findmeinthealps Nirvana in Fire, Prince Yu Prince Yu has a very bad time in Nirvana in Fire and I love to see it, beautifully framed from his point of view in this vid. Yes I grinned all the way through it. Sorry Prince Yu!! (not sorry.)
14. At Last, by eruthros Salt Fat Acid Heat, Samin Nosrat/food The canon is a delightful 4-episode cooking show. This vid of it is set to the most schmaltzy of old-school love songs, and it is about how much JOY both good food and good friends bring, featuring many loving shots of food plus Samin Nosrat's expressive face, and I just melt into feelings.
15. Soccer Practice, by bironic Stargate: SGA, John/Ronon A silly, delightful vid about sexual innuendo between two bros. Serious and emotional fanvids are so good but sometimes it's great to just lol.
16. Tik Tok, by MissSheenie Star Trek: TOS, ensemble It's a classic for a reason. How could I not include it? As I recall, even Kesha agrees that this vid understands her song.
17. dirty work, by voordeel-ts Star Wars, Obi-Wan Kenobi This vidder is one of the only ones I've seen who can include pieces of the original audio into a vid in a way that actually works for me, the audio incorporated into the music in rhythm so that it all feels of one piece. Their vids are always fast and stylish, and this one is no exception, as it takes a look at Obi-Wan and his use of violence.
18. Start a War, by ifshehadwings (sophie_448) The Untamed, Nie Huaisang and Jin Guangyao Nie Huaisang and Jin Guangyao do a lot of their worst stuff behind the scenes, out of the view of the camera, and this vid does an amazing job of bringing that forward and making it legible, focusing on the horrible things each of them do in the name of fulfilling their goals. This is also an excellent example of a vid that uses a slow song and relatively slow cuts and yet never loses its intensity and forward momentum. Hats off!
19. a love that won't sit still, by Aria The Untamed, Lan Wangji/Wei Wuxian Just the perfect vid of wangxian from Lan Wangji's perspective? holy shit. What DO you do with a love that won't sit still or do what it's told?! And I love the way it incorporates the pain and difficulties of Wei Wuxian's death and the years without him, leading into that last quieter gentler repeat of the chorus that slowly builds back up again.
20. Lose My Breath, by deirdre_c White Nights, Kolya/Ray Sooooo I've never actually seen White Nights BUT. This vid is such a beautiful encapsulation of a relationship between two men being told through the medium of dance. And the way all the dancing and other physicality in the video is made to feel like it belongs with the vid's song is just so seamless! The way the whole thing just feels so grounded in their bodies and the way that the two of them play off each other! I could watch it forever.
21. Such A Loser, by sandalwoodbox Yuri!!! On Ice, ensemble The show made me care so much about all the skaters, and want all of them to win, which of course is impossible. But this vid uses a joke song from a parody music duo to somehow perfectly encapsulate the way that all the characters' striving is worth celebrating, whether they win or not. Super heartwarming!
22. Never Look Away, by helcinda Yuri on Ice, Viktor/Yuuri Wow, the experience of watching this ship vid is just me making a heart-eyes face at my computer screen the whole time. Highly recommend the experience!
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No Mate, No Comrade Lucy Knew: part 1
The Hunger Games is my main special interest and Iâve just started writing again after YEARS of writers block. Iâm planning a series of THG fics all taking place in one AU. This one is called No Mate, No Comrade Lucy Knew and it begins right at the end of TBoSaS. Feedback is always welcome! Also posted on Wattpad and fanfic.net đ
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Lucy Gray kicked off the wet ground as the bullets sped towards her. As she dove underneath a shelf of rock, a bullet grazed her arm and a small cry escaped her lips. The pain was immediate and sharp like a burn, but she couldnât risk stopping to look at it. She crawled as far into the small cave-like structure as fast as she could without making noise. She could hear the footsteps coming towards her.
In a frenzy, she began to smear mud all over her clothes and skin, in an attempt to blend into the earth around her. She backed as far into the dark as she could and covered her mouth, not even daring to breathe. She heard him crashing towards her and he stopped less than 10 feet from her. After a few seconds, he called out, âLucy Gray⌠Lucy Gray, itâs not too late to work something out.â
Lucy Gray could feel her heart pounding so loud she wondered if he could hear it. Her worries laid to rest as he began walking in the opposite direction of her hiding spot. He now sounded at least 20 feet away as he continued, âLucy Gray, wonât you talk to me?â
Staying close to the rock wall behind her, she began to crawl out of her shelter. She needed to get far away from him, and more importantly, the gun he aimed to kill her with. As she moved away from Coriolanus, she spotted mockingjays resting on the branches. The birds gave her an idea- one small way to get revenge on the boy who had betrayed her. She began to sing,
Are you, are you
Coming to the tree?
Wear a necklace of rope, side by side with me. Strange things did happen here
No stranger would it be
If we met up at midnight in the hanging tree.
She continued to sing as she changed her course and tried to blend in with the world around her. As sheâd hoped, the mockingjays took up her song, spreading the melody far and wide across the woods. She ran from tree to tree, using them as cover from his eyes and his bullets. Frustrated by her absence, he opened fire. He was shouting now, adding another layer to the chaos.
She continued to use the trees as cover and stayed on high alert. After an hour of ambling through the woods, she came across a small pool. She decided to take a rest and wash off. The shock from the day had prevented her from feeling the bullet wound until she was ridding her arm of mud. While she contemplated what to wrap it with, the high risk of infection dawned on her. She knew mud and raw water both contained bacteria that could bring infection. As afraid as she was to return to the lake, she was more afraid to go on without any supplies. How far she had to travel was a mystery.
While she was familiar with edible plants, she would still need clean water. Matches too. She had made sure to pack everything they would need to get by for at least 3 weeks. Coriolanus and Lucy Gray had set out at around 6:30 in the morning, and she now estimated it to be half past 10. She made her way out of the water and found a log to sit on in the sun. She didnât mind being in wet clothes, but the late morning sun was so comfortable. She thought she deserved a moment of light in this dark day. It had been one of the worst days of her life, and it wasnât even noon. She hummed a soft tune and allowed herself to pretend it was a normal day. That Maude Ivory and the Covey were all with her. Maybe even that she had never met Coriolanus Snow.
#the hunger games#hunger games#fanfic#fanfiction#au fanfiction#alternate universe#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#lucy gray baird#coriolanus snow#thg series#thg#creative writing#the covey
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I Don´t miss you at all [C.A.]
Based on this song;
"Cassian Andor/oc" and it's originally in Spanish and i have to translate it to post itđđđ, I'm very proud of this one, but i have a bad English grammar so...
Also, please read it:(
Tw: a little allusion to suicide, spoilers of star wars and my bad English.
I hope you guys like it<3
Her mind has completely erased any trace of the man who told her the most romantic words she ever listened in her whole life, the man who own her mind, heart and conscience, the man who was her confident and her purest love in the whole galaxy.
She doesnât miss him at all.
She no longer remembered his voice. That exquisite accent that listening to it was as if the ears had been blessed, or the voice so beautiful that it seemed like a precious melody every time it sound it.
Besides, she had totally forgotten about his eyes. Those so intense and beautiful brown. Such dark eyes, but they always seemed to shine with their own light. The eyes that seemed to have stars instead of pupils, as if the creator had made them exclusively to be admired.
His smile was totally out of her memory. How he seemed capable of illuminating an entire planet, such a beautiful smile accompanied by eyes shining with happiness, a beautiful and perfect smile that could melt her without the need for fire.
Not to mention his determination, or his sweetness, or his joy. Concepts that she no longer had present. In fact, she had them so buried that she didn't remember how he frowned slightly when he proposed something, or the small smile that appeared on his lips when he did something good, or how his eyes narrowed when he was very happy.
She was totally over it
She was so over it, that she obviously wasn't now drinking the most horrible drink in the galaxy just so she could truly forget about him, at least for a few hours.
She also didn't often go looking for people who looked like him so she could fill the void she still felt for Andor, for Andor and his stupidly beautiful smile, for Cassian and his damn gorgeous eyes, for Kassa and his damned absence.
Andor, Cassian or Kassa was the brightness of her life. Someday she won't miss him anymore, someday she'll really forget him, someday she'll get over it, and hopefully that day never comes, hopefully that day will take decades, centuries, and eons to come, because when it does, she'll end with her life.
After all, what's the point of living when you forget what you're living for?
#I know i might get ignored#but here it is#I'm also proud to post one of my fics here#star wars fic#emia writesđď¸#phantom needs to shut upđŞ#Spotify
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***I just wrote this long ass post, posted it, and accidentally deleted the whole thing less than 20 min later. Here's a rewritten version.*** As long as I'm in the (ill-advised) habit of posting work-in-progress songs I'm writing and then rambling about the inspiration and writing process and things I need to fix... Here is a song I wrote tonight. It still has some work to be done on it. The recording is shitty... my voice and breath support have been struggling because of my recent bouts of anaphylaxis... but whatever. Song inspiration / spilling my guts about recent things going on in my life + songwriting nerdery + lyrics under the cut (it long):
My sister has been with a shitty abusive boyfriend for over 6 years now. He will do something fucked up and terrible, they will break up, and my family will be so excited that we are finally getting rid of him.
Each time, he will write her whining about how much he misses her, how he loves her, how she's the only one he has in his life so he's lonely and sad and he needs her... ... and she immediately goes running back to him.
About a month ago we were so hopeful that they had finally broken up for good. He had some manic break, kicked my sister out of their house, moved in some other girl, and cut off all contact with my sister. She moved back in with my parents, and started working on bettering her life.
She got a really good therapist to work with on her trauma (finally), she was legitimately sober for the first time in like... years, she got a job to support herself (he has purposefully made her financially dependent on him for years)... and in the absence of being yelled at and berated by him constantly, she became really pleasant to be around. I actually liked hanging out with her for the first time in... well... ever, and started to hope that maybe we could become friends and strengthen our relationship.
I have never been close with her. For most of our lives, I have felt more like someone who has to help take care of an incredibly fucked up and incompetent toddler than I have felt like a sister to her (at least from my point of view). But as she started to flourish and heal in her distance from him, our relationship began to strengthen. I even thought I may be able to rely and depend on her in the future instead of always being the one she relied on.
Of course, on the very first day of her new job, and after 4 weeks of ghosting her, he contacted her again. He said the usual things, how he missed her and loved her, and how lonely he was.
She immediately packed up her things and went running back to him, no matter how much our parents and I, basically her only stable support system, begged her not to (though we learned long ago that nothing we say to her makes a difference in what she chooses to do).
That was a few days ago, so I've been pretty upset about that. And tonight apparently that resulted in a song!
What I plan to work on in the song (since I do not want to deal with what I need to work on in the real life situation right now): The melody needs some work.
I need to get more comfortable with some of the vocal things (though to be fair I did just write it tonight). In the recording you can hear it's shaky in parts.
In particular, I think I need to start in a head voice in the pre-chorus and then switch quickly to chest voice. As my voice is pretty worn out right now, I am hoping after it heals and rests a bit I will be more capable vocally of making those voice switches more seamless and less shitty sounding. The bridge is similar to the pre-chorus and has the same issue. In the recording, I lost my place in the lyrics and ended up half-assing and shitifying the head voice part, so Future!Molly needs to work on that.
I'm also trying to find ways to make the verses sound more distinct from the chorus. They are virtually the same melody at the moment (and maybe the same chords). I think they need to sound more distinct. I don't know that I necessarily have to mess with the verse melody too much to do that. But that is a way I could change things.
I have been playing power chords on the verses and full open chords on the chorus to make them sound more distinct. I also think I could try to make the verses a bit quieter ... especially after the 1st chorus, so there's kind of an emotional jolt with that abrupt shift.
The song structure is a little wonky. I thought the song sounded too repetitive and that I repeated the chorus too much (you would think that since I have Tourette's I like repetitive songs, but they actually drive me completely up the wall). To deal with this I took out a chorus, made the 2nd verses go straight into the bridge and then from the bridge to the last chorus.
I don't know if that's the best way to do things for this song. It is certainly shorter that way... but doesn't drive me insane with the repetitiveness so that's a plus.
I also may change the very last line. I am playing around with the timing of it, and I also don't know if it's the best way to end the song with "I don't want to fall for you." My sister (if the song is about her) already fell for that motherfucker long ago unfortunately... so that's not a very logical ending (though is logic really necessary in a song about this shituation...). POST EDIT: wait, just realized âI donât want to fall for youâ has a double meaning. Weâre good. That probably works fine. Could even title the song âFallâ or âFall for Youâ
Anyway, after that long ramble about this song and things that Future!Molly is going to work on... here are the lyrics (if anyone is interested): Back 2 U (tentative title) I feel strong like my mind knows right from wrong I worked hard to stay this calm and clear-eyed Did my time even though my only crime was my mental decline running wild But you need chaos to thrive And you need to hurt to stay alive And you feel better when you're high and you want me to be flying by your side When you call I don't feel strong at all You know I'm gonna crawl back to you When you call you know I'm in your thrall But I don't want to take this fall for you Runs through my head that I'd be better off dead so all those pretty words you said would cast no spell They sink right in and pull me back to you again I think you're branded on my skin and you can tell All those little things you whispered to me All those little flaws you held over me All the dignity you squeezed out of me I'm terrified you'll never set me free 'Cause when you call I don't feel strong at all You know I'm gonna crawl back to you When you call you know I'm in your thrall but I don't want to take this fall for you I don't want to take this fall for you I don't want to fall for you
#songwriting#original song#songwriter#music#my music#i don't know what tw tags to put on this post...#tw domestic abuse#...about my sister... not me (don't worry)#tw abusive piece of shit boyfriends#lyrics#my writing#my songs#my writings
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Thursday, 14 September, 2023.
Coach's Note:
It is always a good idea to arrive early and do the warmup and all exercises in the sequence scheduled. That is especially true today since this involves a lot of SHOULDER work. Athletes are advised to use weights that they can easily handle for all the reps in unbroken sets. This is not your day for PR's.
Another absolutely perfect afternoon at the Barn.
Warmup
4 Rounds
5 PVC Squat Snatch's
10 PVC Shoulder Dislocates
Strength & Skill
Hang Snatch
Start Very Light And Progress If Quality
3 Reps EMOM For 3 Minutes
2 Reps EMOM For 3 Minutes
1 Rep EMOM For 3 Minutes
Nathan/Robert=115 Herb=95 Dana=85 Coach=75 Tom/Joe=65 Elisa/Kayla/Sue/Linda=55 Shannon=45 Faith (The Kid)=23 Tom/Timmy/Sammy D=did weird stuff Owen/Charrita/Jackie/Holley and several others failed to visit the whiteboard.
WOD
15 X 12 X 9
Hang Power Cleans ( 115 / 85 / 65 )
X 50 Double-Under's ( 100 Singles )
3 MINUTES REST
12 X 9 X 6
Power Cleans ( 135 / 115 / 75 )
X 50 Double-Under's ( 100 Singles )
Elite:
Dana=9:08 Robert=9:57 Timmy=10:57
The Rest:
Faith (The Kid)=8:53 Nathan=9:03 Joe=9:23 Elisa=9:33 Sue=9:45 Kayla=10:52 Herb=11:30 Linda=13:00 Shannon=14:08 Coach=14:45 Charrita/Holley/Jackie/Owen= did it Tom/Sammy D=stuff And others too shy to approach the whiteboard.
Cool-Down:
Wine and snacks around the picnic table. It was a perfect evening.
We had at least 15 assorted bottles of wine brought to the picnic table. A few were left for the next time.
Foods brought were in the extreme category. I always fear having to list them because I cannot remember foods and who brought them without error. But I'll try: Kayla brought a huge casserole of Ziti pasta/ meat, and cheeses. Shannon brought a "To Die For Dessert". There were a few bites left that she took home for Armando. There were fresh peppers and veggies with Hummus, a couple different popcorns, fruits, nuts, home made cookies, Chic Fil A Nuggets galore, and Mr Butler produced bags of Chic fil A pimento chicken sandwiches. There must be stuff that I am missing.
We never had Thursday's quite like these before Alicia returned from Pittsburg and we recruited Kayla from the California Hustler's Gym. Believe it or not, I think the atmosphere is much more sedate and cordial, and the food is hugely improved. At least 2 things are the result of having more GIRLS: better foods and better behavior. But sometimes I miss the drunks trying to leap over the fire-ring, and coming up to the house and falling through a glass table and not realizing I was hemorrhaging to death until Miss Linda unquestioningly served my morning coffee under said table.
Did anyone spot Faith (The Kid) meticulously listing the WOD in chalk on the mat she was using? Did you know that if a parent can't bring her, she rides her bike from home? There is no adult who comes here who has a more serious attitude than The Kid. In 3 years when she is 14 yo we will have a CrossFit Games Teen Champ on our hands. Many thanks to Coach Butler for working with her. I know he loves it.
Holley and Jackie returned after many months un-excused absence. Why do girls always get insulted when the near 80 yo Coach can't remember their names after a 6 months absence? Maybe that's not the fault of my memory.
Saturday at 0730 and 0930. It will be Kayla's 1 Year anniversary and 10 on-line romances since first coming to LHCF. The only appropriate way to celebrate would be to have a crew of male strippers come sing the Happy-Happy Anniversary song. After today, I promise to quit giving Kayla so much free advertisement in this blog.
Also, Rosh Hashanah may interfere with attendance. We cover all the news that's fit to print.
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