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eqan · 2 years ago

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reminding myself we kept egan alive & happy with idiopathic megae (disgusting and evil disease) for almost 2 years. sacrificing literal time with family and friends. sacrificing holidays. sacrificing time together. so much money. and we did it happily, for him, and never in a million years would i have let him go if i didn’t know in my gut it was right. i would have sacrificed again and again for him. i don’t care

i need to stop listening to people who are like “i spent $1738283 on my dogs care and never gave up and now they’re okay again!” cause that’s 1) so privileged and 2) not the norm. if a vet recommends euth, and they’re a good vet, it’s usually because they’re right. it’s time. anything outside of that is an outlier

#text #made a mistake and watched julien’s video on peach #now i’m like. i should have tried.#even though i KNOW. i know. his chances were so fucking low #egan’s good days to bad days ratio was abysmal at the end and no vet. even the specialist.#thought that was going to change. no matter what we did #we COULD have tried. of course. but we had BEEN trying #we couldn’t keep him pneumonia free long enough to figure anything the fuck out!#what was i supposed to do. let him keep getting pneumonia just so i could maybe figure out a way to keep his body going #he was getting tumors in his mouth again. back legs were getting weaker. he would have #needed surgery (SO dangerous in megae dogs) and more diagnostics then what. MORE meds?#i need to be nicer to myself. i did a NICE THING FOR MY DOG #THE MOST LOVING THING I COULD HAVE DONE #i took his pain so he wouldn’t have to carry it anymore.

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