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[ishganytoja]

i think clancy is a bishop

yeah i think it's banditover, clancy may have realised that fighting dema is never going to work, he's realised that it's just a new cycle to get stuck in. he must live with who he is. he must live with his deepest and scariest demons. he's crossing the bridge between who he is and who he wants to be. dema never loses, but dema can become part of a symbiosis. stop fighting the part of you that craves death, live together with it - be in the position to control it.

[ishganytoja]

"<...> as if he had been here before."

"I've been here before and I've got time, I'll give you the tour, show you why I".

One big part of fearing the unknown is not knowing what's next, being unprepared.

Clancy doesn't quite know Trench, but he knows his own mind (Dema?). He's been there before and he can not only tell but show the many scary, horrible things that go on in there, he knows it is petrifying therefore he doesn't only need Torchbearer to navigate through Trench, he needs his help to get out of the terrifying cycle of Dema (the scariest parts of his own mind) as well, because it is not only the fear of the unknown that cripples him, it's the entirety of Dema that takes the soul out of his body too.

018 07MOON 18 // The Craving

[ishganytoja]

Pinned post. I've needed one for a while now.

Hello. My names are Ieva & Morta, but I mainly go by Ieva. I'm an artist and philology student from Eastern Europe (geopolitically speaking) and I do all sorts of things, from drawings to screenwriting to poetry to music (to a very limited extent), in-short, I try not to limit myself in that regard. I'm interested in loads of things, motorsports, literature, anything that has the word "goth" in it is probably hoarded somewhere in my liked posts, music of MANY genres & sub-genres (and ofc twenty one pilots <3) is also really something that tickles my brain. Furries too, I've left the fandom formally but calling me a furry prolly wouldn't be wrong, I just want to be a woman in peace and not belong strictly to any fandom, sorry not sorry my anthro friends. I also reserve the right to edit this post except for the red text. That stays always.

This blog has been a lot of things and I think it's cool for me to keep it that way, because it is a lot of things. I am a complicated person and I've got to make sure I allow myself to stay complicated, that's how people stay fun and interesting! This is why this blog is and will be quite chaotic. It's a stream of consciousness!

HOWEVER - this blog does not welcome: TERFs, LGBT-phobes, anyone who thinks LGB is a justifiable idea, I will not tolerate racism of any kind and same goes for xenophobia, I will shove a tailpipe up your ass if I see a sliver of a sign of any aforementioned adjectives interacting. This blog also loves gender non-comformity and complete gender anarchy, some say that the entire point of this place is to make transmedicalists vomit.

To those wondering why now, well, it's slightly impulsive, but life happens and life sometimes gives you a positive push. I've wanted to make this not only a pinned post, but also a manifesto. To commit and pledge to indulge in things I want, to stop restricting myself, I've wanted to for so long and for a while I was slowly, slowly inching towards it but never committing to it. Now I stand here, with hope, with hopefully more courage in my eyes. I pledge to be myself and to push on through, unlimited by the world around me, forever and ever until the day I die, I promise to accept my failures and understand that this is a process and that it will take time for me to heal & I therefore swear that I will in-fact heal and allow myself to heal for as long as it takes.

[ishganytoja]

post soviet punks

this was inspired by a shitpost but ended up becoming a high quality project which started boring me towards the end thus lack of effort on the background and fur feathers, i dond c a r e anymore.

also fyi there is no lore behind these two ocs and this entire piece is not that deep (it's based off of a shitpost whaddya expect)

brought back my very sanitized and straight artstyle for this one unconsciously because idfk this ended up being a gargantuan file size and with a high resolution i can't recreate my messier style that way ok bye

[ishganytoja]

"Heyy why are you looking at porn of your character?"

[me sobbing, looking at my character's beak and horns that I am referencing from that piece that I haven't been able to draw for the 789th time]: "s-skil issue..-"

[ishganytoja]

Velnio Nuotaka (The Devil's Bride)

CW: kink gear

This is a theoretical book, there's a movie under this name but the idea of this particular theoretical book would be a story about a very wild, sophisticated and kinky bride of... you guessed it, the Devil! (I haven't actually written a full story for this but I got this art idea in a dream once and decided to draw it & I have a rough idea of a character like this so I chose to connect the two concepts together)

[ishganytoja]

i just cooked a short 1400 (yes, exactly 1400) word novel for uni in like, 4 hours.

is it queer? sort of. if you read it right :)

i'll probably post it here if/when i translate it into english. might take a little bit.