#lyrics/ u want by ako

[sleephearts]

夢の中に誰かを想っ . . . (i think of someone in my dreams)

.⊹˙ cia, she/her, 21 ‧ angel in orbit ‧✴ 18+ diary .ᐟ

💿₊ᐟ don't be happy ⭑ aiobahn ft. nanao akari 💬₊ᐟ hiatus while i navigate some life changes, i will b back pinky promise !

[babylasagnafanph]

BL'S OTHER TRACKS

Check out this unreleased song by Marko entitled, "Jesen" (Autumn) found in SoundCloud website. Great song and the lyrics are beautiful!

I'm glad that he preserves his old songs - at least I wanted to listen more hits by him, hehehehe. 😁

P.S.: I decide as well to include a translation of the lyrics in one of my native tongues, Filipino - in honor to diverse the beauty of music in other languages.

Special thanks to lasagna.source - via Instagram - for providing the song lyrics and English translation.

ORIGINAL LYRICS: Kiša počinje i sve mijenja se Sunce zalazi još ranije More ledi se Smiješak nestaje Jesen dolazi i lišće žuti se Vjetar čisti sve Loše misli, prevare Probat ću još jednom samo da znam

Tko to skriva se Iza moje jeseni Da ti čujem glas Tko to počiva U dubini moga sna Više nisam sam

Tišina guta sve Grad prazan je, ali svako malo nađem te Misliš li na mene, kada svijetla gase se Čije ruke sada griju te?

Tko to skriva se Iza moje jeseni Da ti čujem glas Tko to počiva U dubini moga sna Više nisam sam

Gdje si sad? Izađi iz mog sna Pokaži se ili nestani zauvijek x2

Tko to skriva se Iza moje jeseni Da ti čujem glas Tko to počiva U dubini moga sna Više nisam sam

Ta kiša počinje I sve mijenja se Sunce zalazi još ranije

TRANSLATION (ENGLISH):

The rain begins and everything changes The sun sets even earlier The sea freezes A smile disappears Autumn comes and the leaves turn yellow The wind cleans everything Bad thoughts, deceptions I will try once more, just to know

Who is hiding Behind my autumn? Let me hear your voice Who is resting In the depths of my dream? I am no longer alone

Silence swallows everything The city is empty, but every now and then I find you Do you think of me when the lights go out? Whose hands are now keeping you warm?

Who is hiding Behind my autumn? Let me hear your voice Who is resting In the depths of my dream? I am no longer alone

Where are you now? Come out of my dream Show yourself or disappear forever x2

Who is hiding Behind my autumn? Let me hear your voice Who is resting In the depths of my dream? I am no longer alone

The rain begins And everything changes The sun sets even earlier

TRANSLATION (FILIPINO):

Nagsisimula ang ulan at nagbabago ang lahat Mas maaga pa ang paglubog ng araw Nagyeyelo ang dagat Nawala ang isang ngiti Dumating ang taglagas at ang mga dahon ay nagiging dilaw Nililinis ng hangin ang lahat Masamang pag-iisip, panlilinlang Susubukan ko ulit, para lang malaman ko

Sino ang nagtatago Sa likod ng taglagas ko? Hayaan mong marinig ko ang iyong boses Sino ang nagpapahinga Sa lalim ng panaginip ko? Hindi na ako nag-iisa

Nilamon ng katahimikan ang lahat Walang laman ang lungsod, ngunit paminsan-minsan ay nahahanap kita Iniisip mo ba ako kapag namatay ang ilaw? Kaninong mga kamay ang nagpapainit sa iyo ngayon?

Sino ang nagtatago Sa likod ng aking taglagas? Hayaan mong marinig ko ang iyong boses Sino ang nagpapahinga Sa lalim ng aking panaginip? Hindi na ako nag-iisa.

Nasaan ka na ngayon? Lumabas ka sa panaginip ko Ipakita ang iyong sarili o mawala nang tuluyan x2

Sino ang nagtatago Sa likod ng aking taglagas? Hayaan mong marinig ko ang iyong boses Sino ang nagpapahinga Sa lalim ng panaginip ko? Hindi na ako nag-iisa.

Nagsisimula ang ulan At lahat ay nagbabago Mas maaga pa ang paglubog ng araw

[jillaxkalangg]

sage, ivy !!!

sage: what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?

medj nahirapan ako rito since i like all of them BUT if i'll choose one, siguro music talaga. i focused more sa lyrics than tune din kasi at mas dinadama ko talaga music since palagi ko rin silang pinapakinggan. sabihin na natin na bias ako kasi mas madaling i-consume for me ang music kesa sa poetry and such hehe, but runner ups ko fiction and poetry bec i love reading!

ivy: what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?

i think they can easily tell if i am having a bad day or in a bad mood BUT can hardly tell if i am happy or in a good mood. palagi kasi akong galit hahahaha well kapag nakakunot na noo ko +++ mabilis na ko magsalita meaning galit na ko BUT i am really trying my best to manage my emotions hehe kahit mahirap dahil ang daming obob these days. i don't usually show if i am tired din with people kasi i don't want to be a burden to anyone pa kaya i don't think they can tell ( i am trying to be happier these days! :] )

thank u ! <3

[elysianymph]

interview music tag game!!

thank you for the tag @lesbianmckinnonn <33 this was so much fun to do !! most of these ended up being songs in my native language so excuse my awful translations 💀

RULES: put your playlist on shuffle. for each of the 10 interview questions, select a lyric from the random song that comes up. (skip if there aren't any lyrics and make sure to drop the name of the song in the interview answer!) <3

1. first off, how would you describe yourself in one sentence?

you were only 17 // so sweet with a mean streak // nearly brought me to my knees - cigarette daydreams by cage the elephant

2. what kind of [gemini] are you?

nema, nema, nema više vremena // čitav svijet pijan je // hajde, samo ljubi me (there is no more time left // the whole world is drunk // come on, just kiss me) - nema više vremena by crvena jabuka

3. you're visiting your favorite spot, what are you thinking about?

oh, won't you please take me home // i wanna go, i wanna know - paradise city by guns n' roses

4. if your life was a movie, what do you think the first review would say about it?

there's never been a greater since the burial of jesus - infinite by eminem (i thought this was hilarious i just had to)

5. say you get a book deal, what are you titling your memoir?

jesen u meni caruje // a u tebi proljeće (the autumn reigns within me // while the spring in you) - jesen u meni by parni valjak

6. what would you say about your best friends?

no one heard a single word you said // they should've seen it in your eyes // what was going around your head - runaway by bon jovi

7. think back to when you had everything all figured out in high school, what was your life motto as a teenager?

meni se ne spava (i don't feel like sleeping) - meni se ne spava by bijelo dugme

8. describe your aesthetic now:

iste smo snove sanjali // istom se nadali // ja nisam smogao hranrosti // da se odlučim (we dreamt the same dreams // hoped for the same // i couldn't gather the courage // to decide) - moja je pjesma lagana by parni valjak

9. what's a lyric that they'll quote in your euology?

a život leti, leti, mladost kraća je // sve će jednom da se vrati // samo ona ostaje (life flies by, youth is short // everything will come back // only she remains) - bolje biti pijan nego star by plavi orkestar

10. and for our final question, say we believe in soulmates, what do you think their first impression of meeting you will be?

a nikad niko nije ček'o // kao sto čekah ja do bola (but no one's ever waited // like i have waited in pain) - ako ima boga by bijelo dugme

no pressure tags: @aithusarosekiller @definitelynotttheo @moonagebooklover @ringaroundtherosier @not-rab @fefifofae and anyone else who wants to join in :D

[littleinfinitiy]

January 3, 2024

Those photos says it all hehe. We started the day that ur not in the mood and i felt it. Not knowing ganun pala yung nangyari sa inyo ng ate mo. Kasi kwinento mo na sya gabi na e. Kaya pala maaga tayo nag movie date kasi ganun pala mangyayari. I started from showing u a video of me singing not so perfect maging sino ka man a version of mine na sabi mo iba pag ako yung kumanta. Paos pa ko dun mahal sorry na hhaahaha and i even sing it in front of u mas iba pala yung feeling kada lyrics hehe so ayun na nga after ng movie date (50 first dates) it was a good movie but i think mas good yun kung magkasama tayo hayssss imissyou so much mahal! Nung lumalalim na yung gabi lumalalim na din yung usapan. Naopen mo na yung dinadala mo the whole day actually nung nakaraan mo pa yan dinadala e. Di ko na din naiwasang umiyak mahal nung nagkwekwento ka na kasi nangyayari sya sayo dahil sakin e. May part na ganun. Kaya naisip ko nga diba na what if lang naman magsama na tayo kasi ganyan na din naman. Alam ko hindi magandang idea. Pero kung nahihirapan ka na mahal kaya naman natin yun diba? Di ko din masabi sa ngayon pero diba sabi mo pag nandyan naman na magagawan at magagawan ng paraan? Pero hayaan mo mahal magreready pa din ako. Ireready ko sarili ko sa mga mangyayari. Para kahit papano di tayo mabigla. Alam ko something big is coming idk i just can feel it. Pero tatatagan ko para satin. Sorry dahil nakatulog na tayo while on call actually ako ata nauna plus nagigising gising ka pa dahil sa hilik ko hahahaha sorry mahal! Sorry for not being by your side sa mga gantong panahon pero just know na whenever u want me at ur side, magsabi ka lang ha? Luluwas ako. Miss na miss na kita kayo ng anak natin. Osha akoy papasok na hahhaha. Iloveyou so much! ❤️❤️

[rrxnjun]

that is a wild combination but i love that for ur friend!! u are actually the greatest person out there tbh listening to lovejoy and being a casual jack manifold enjoyer just shows how top tier of a person u are🫢

SHE SAYS THAT SHE JUST SKIPS THE BORING/FILLER PARTS BUT IM STILL⁉️⁉️she only finishes them cuz she wants to know how it ends but yeah stopping just makes the most sense in my opinion as well

well i looked up two translations but if it's not a lot of work for u i would appreciate ur translation cuz both of them were a bit just idk how to explain it a bit weird iguess idk?? oh my i just need something to ease the pain of essay writing💔 i hope u find some artist!!!! if u use tiktok u might find some there (i got to know all of the hungarian artists i listen to on tiktok from just random aesthetic hungarian tiktokers tbh)

OH MY LORDDDD I HOPE U WILL ENJOY UR TIME HERE IF U END UP COMING!!!! and i would loveeee to be ur tour guide!!! so i hope u will not end up coming here when i have my exams and when i will be away for like a week i think!! (although if this actually happens i probably should stop being an anon soon😶)

6essays sound like a nightmare oh my!!! i hope u will do well on ur exams too!! good luck with them!!!🥳🥳rooting for u as well!!💕💓💘

LMAO I LAUGHED A BIT AT THE END BUT I WILL NEVER STOP THE HEACHAN AND BAR AGENDA

(and i also want to mention that i followed ur main not long ago and i think we are actually the same person or sumn cuz i completely agree with ur take on zach herrons voice😶)

AND LASTLY I CANT WAIT TO READ UR NEW FIC SO EXPECT ANOTHER ASK OF JUST ME SOBBING AND YELLING ABOUT HOW MUCH I LOVE UR WRITING (liebestraum anon💕)

what can i say i have taste🤭🤭but we already knew that. so do u thats why we match mwah.

I DISAGREE W THAT SO MUCH OHGOD id just google the ending so i dont waste my time if im thAT curious ???

i think im gonna try looking for some indie slovak artists on spotify ?? sometimes it pulls through w hidden gems 😩😩 also i am gonna attach the translated lyrics under the cut!! hihi

DJDJD idk if it will happen for sure bc we always make so many plans with my friend for the summer break and never actually end up doing anything because shes w her boyfriend all the time so thats a lil :/// i WOULD come alone but even tho im 20 i still dont think my parents would let me AHAHA but if my friend manages to find time for me in her summer schedule im gonna beg her on my knees to come 😌 and dw abt being on anon!! we can figure that out later AHAHA i want u to be comfortable ‼💓

6 essays is indeed a nightmare but im done w one of them so thats a plus. i started working on another one for my history of psychology class and found a lot of references so i honestly think its gonna be easy to finish. like three of them are group work so im gonna have to push my partner to start working on them w me soon 😋

ALSO DONT JUST TELL ME U FOLLOWED MY MAIN LILE THIS AAAAA that blog is so unfiltered and annoyingly active im so sorry 😭😭 but i am glad u agree bc zachs voice is just. i dont think ive ever been attracted to a voice more (him and also brad simpson from the vamps because i am a typical boyband-obsessed teenage girl)

HOPE U LIKED THE FIC!! (i saw your ask im gonna reply in a bit)

anyways the translation!!

tried to translate it in a way that makes the most sense 😭😭😭 again i dont really know what he was trying to say with "tak ako ty, tak potom aj ja" maybe im just stupid

[ryuu-to-sobakasu-hime]

Ryuu to Sobakasu no Hime (Belle) Novel | English Translation | Chapter 4

**This is a machine translation. I put it together by extracting text page-by-page from a .pdf version of the Japanese novel, and running it through Google translate. I have only minorly edited some of the more confusing lines to make it more read-able. It is still a very rough translation, but it’s good enough to understand what’s going on. If there is anyone out there who wants to properly translate the novel, I am more than happy to edit it, if you’ll contact me.**

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Chapter 4: U

I went home and opened my MacBook. While shivering in the cold, I clicked on the link sent by Hiro-chan. The letter "U" slowly emerges on a pitch-black screen with a wave-like sound. ".......U?" My tattered face covered in vomit was illuminated by the light of the monitor. The invitation page will be launched and a message will be displayed.

[ "U" is another reality

"Az" is another you

Reality cannot be redone

But with "U" you can start over

Let's live another you

Let's start a new life

Let's change the world ]

I forgot about the cold and was looking forward to it. The smartphone placed next to it was linked and the app started automatically. A registration screen appears on my MacBook monitor. It says "NAME".

"Name...."

I hesitated. There was a feeling of resistance. However, contrary to my feelings, I reach out towards my keyboard.

"S" "u" "z" …….

I type in steadily.

"U".

At that moment, a strong anxiety arose. I impulsively press the delete key. I slammed the keys to erase it and closed my MacBook.

[............]

I curled up and sighed, shivering. "I'm next to Luka" I found Luka on the bench in the courtyard. The girls are gathering together and surrounding Luka-chan. The first grade is almost over, so it seemed like everyone was going to take a picture.

"Mr. Watanabe's Yokozaro"

"Eh~? No fair!"

"I like Luka-chan's soba." Ako was envious of the shining Luka-chan from behind the pillars of piloti. I was jealous of the girls who could be photographed with Luka.

"Mr. Watanabe, look over here. I'll take a picture," urged the girl who played the role of the camera, and Luka looked in front of her. Then she waved towards us as she suddenly noticed.

"Ah. Suzu-chan!"

"Eh?" Luca beckoned to me, who was scared.

"Suzu-chan is also included!"

The girls looked at me all at once. Why? Is written on the face. I'm in a hurry

I hid in a pillar, then I looked a little and turned my palm.

"No, no, I", but Luca continued to beckon me.

"It’ll be fast!” Later, the image was sent. A group photo of girls with cute V signs, centered on Luca. There is my face full of freckles mixed with it. The position just behind Luka. Like the spirit behind her, I have an awkward V sign. When I tried to register for "U" again, I was asked for a photo of my face. I don’t have a photo of my face. I don't bother to point the camera at myself.

So, I used the image at this time for registration.

Face recognition markers are displayed on everyone. Which one are you? I moved the cursor and selected the freckled face behind Luka.

The text "A / I automatically generates a new Az" appears. At the same time, there is an annotation, "What is Az?". << The name of the avatar in "U" and another you >>

Another you.

Soon, the rendered Az was displayed.

"That ...?" There was a terrifyingly beautiful Az, far from me. You can say it's just like Luka-chan, not me. "Luka-chan? Why ..."

AI was confused with Luca, who was right next to my image. If so, what an awkward artificial intelligence! While the difference must be corrected. I hit the back button repeatedly.

"No. Back, back. Cancel ...", but suddenly I stopped pressing the button. Red spot-like patterns were clearly drawn on both cheeks of the Az.

"Freckles ..." I put my hand on my cheek. Isn't it my freckles? "Maybe I .....?" I slowly typed in each character in the "NAME" field of the registration screen. This time it's not "Suzu".

"B" "e" “l” “l” “e”

"Bell" = “Suzu”

When I decide on the name "... Bell", the Az in front of me suddenly seems to be adorable. "Cancel" and "OK" buttons are displayed on the screen, prompting you to make a selection.

"What should I do..…"

To make this beauty Az me, I'm not courageous and I'm afraid. On the other hand, no matter how far she is from me in reality, I also think. Rather, it is the world of the Internet that is far away. There are many examples of flashy names and icons on SNS.

"U" is a virtual world and Az is a virtual personality. Privacy is strictly protected. It claims that anonymity is strictly guaranteed. Then no one should blame you. Then, at the next moment, I'm at a loss. In the first place, why did AI of "U" automatically generate such a beautiful Az for me? Is it just a coincidence created by uncertainty? Or is it deep inside my heart? Are you seeing through your true desires? Or ...

It's time to select "Cancel or OK".

A late-night study room with only desk lights. In front of the MacBook screen, I decided to take a slow breath and trim. --Now, let's live another you-in my head, the message of "U" was refrained. "Click" I clicked OK.

At that moment, as if you were preparing, the "U" app on your smartphone started automatically. You can hear the announcement of a calm tone voice.

"Please attach the device"

As per the instruction screen, take out the earphone type device from the case and take it out. I put it on my ear.

"I'm reading your biometric information ..."

The letter "U" on the device glows blue and shimmers. With just one vise, you can get all the information about human beings as living things. It seems that you can do it. And in a very short time. "Done," the announcement said. Then I continued as if I was checking.

"Start body sharing"

It sounds like something is spinning at high speed. Head circumference. There was a feeling that the surroundings were covered with dense air. It seems that it was brought about by the strong magnetic field developed by the device, and perhaps because of that, the hair lifts up softly as if it were in a weightless space.

"First, vision comes under control."

The feel of the magnetic field seemed to concentrate on the back of the head. I slowly open my eyes. "Ah!" A dazzling white light rushed into my eyes.

It's a cloth. White cloths that were more than 10 meters long overlapped, fluttering and fluttering in the wind. I looked at my body as if I were checking my body, and was shocked. My feet are floating in the air. The announcement echoes, as if it were an announcement from heaven.

"Other cognitive functions and deep limb sensations come under control."

What do you mean? There were no words in that unrealistic space. Sweat gushes from the whole body, and the heart beats.

"The feeling of physical independence and physical possession moves to your registered Az." Something slowly approaches from behind. Pink hair. It was the "shadow" of Az that I registered earlier. However, it’s face is flat and white like a plate with nothing on it.

[.........]

I'm just stunned. "Shadow" overlaps. The feeling that another body gets inside me is unpleasant. The shadow of Az was fine-tuned by moving the position back and forth so that it would be in focus, but it fits perfectly immediately. Immediately, the discomfort I had just disappeared somewhere. Beyond the fluttering white cloth, I saw a large white door. I reach out my hands as I slowly approach. The announcement announced. "Welcome to the world of 'U'"

I pressed my hands against the door and opened it vigorously. When I jumped out, I saw a group of skyscrapers that filled my view. "Ah!" On the bustling boulevard that intersects three-dimensionally, a large number of people, not humans, Az-- are floating in the air. Az that imitate animals, insects, marine life, vases and set squares, Az that imitate bicycles, half-beasts and goddesses that are likely to appear in fiction, Az that imitate warriors ... , Az in all kinds of shapes are flying around while chatting loudly. When I look up at the night sky, the lights of countless windows blink, not from the twinkling stars, but from the skyscrapers hanging upside down. Another reality. Another world. Is this "U"? Powder snow is dancing. It's a little chilly. When I opened my hands to take the powder snow in the palm of my hand, I saw a white arm and long, thin fingers in my eyes.

[...]

I was surprised at the difference in physical sensation and looked as if I was checking my body. Her slender body and long legs are wrapped in a white dress that looks like a newborn.

Is this me?

Let's live another you.

The message of "U" was refrained in my head.

[............]

There, I noticed multiple eyes and looked forward. Some Az in the crowd are looking at me. However, as soon as I glanced at it, I went there. You may be a little beautiful, but this is "U". To that extent, nothing is unusual here. That was convenient. No one cares. Then you might be able to do what you've always wanted to do. When I raise my face, I take a deep breath and try to speak out.

The voice was undeniably my own voice. It's much more relaxed than I expected. I tried humming so that the nasal cavity would resonate instead of stretching. Sounds smoother than I imagined. Is it conveniently corrected because the body is virtual? But I don't feel that the sound is far from my consciousness. Is it because the scanned biometric information is accurate? Anyway…

I can't believe it. "I could sing ...!"As the powder snow dances fantastically, my voice rebels against the skyscrapers. It is echoing. How many years has it been since you sung properly? It was irresistible that I could immediately make a voice as I imagined, even though there was a blank and I hadn't done any preparatory movements. It feels like I've got a lot of freedom, and at the same time I'm a little scared. How is biometric information transformed into this output? What is Az? Anyway,

"Oh, I finally sang ...!"

I was very happy about this. I decided to sit down and sing a song with the lyrics properly. Of course there is no accompaniment, but is it okay?

[ I want to see a world where such a small melody pierces through a happy song

I wake up every morning and look for a future without you

I don't want to imagine the unpleasant singing ]

The lyrics translated into various languages ​​around me. Many languages, it surrounds me as a belt. Gaelic, Thai, Persian ...

All languages ​​overlap. If a song is detected, will it be displayed automatically without any settings? In addition, the synthetic voice singing in some languages ​​sounds faint, although the types are limited. Maybe because of that, "Hmm ...?"

Az and others who should have ignored me, suddenly look back and look at me.

"Ah ...?" Many Az in the building area are standing in the air one after another. I didn't mean to do that. I was just trying to check the condition of the technology called body sharing. However, it seems that more Az are gathering and listening than I expected. It's very embarrassing to think of myself as a street musician in a virtual world. However, it cannot be stopped on the way. Let's sing to the end, for myself. I continued thinking so.

[But I don't know the correct answer anymore.

It seems that it's going well except for me. Will it still come tomorrow?

Song, guide me, whatever happens, song, beside me, love, approach ]

From the Az who were listening, balloons displaying comments one after another appeared.

"What is this?" "Who is singing?" "Mysterious song"

At first, the content was cautious, as if watching the situation.

However, it gradually became less reluctant. For some reason, the only people who made comments such as "noisy", "strange songs", and "don't be pretentious" were Az with a cute appearance that I couldn't say such a thing. Wearing a frilly pink dress, a little animal, or a baby holding a teddy bear.

"Her looks aren't bad" "What's that freckled face (laughs)" Various tweets fly while singing. I do not mind. I'm singing for me. However, I was hurt by the words thrown at me. It ’s hard to say that only a small number of people will say

You can see it from here as well. hard. It may have appeared on the face. Furthermore, the words escalated. "I feel bad" "Stop it!" "Stop it!" I managed to finish singing before my feelings broke down. The noisy Az sighed and sighed, sighing and leaving. I had no choice but to see them off with disappointment,

"Belle"

Called my name, I looked up.

"……ah"

Something slipped in, "Eh? ... Ah," once I sprinkled the glittering scales, and once I went all the way down, it slowly stopped on my hand. It was a mysterious Az, like a white fairy, like an angel, like a clionidae. If you look closely, you can see that the body is transparent with the delicacy of warabi mochi. While swaying the wings of both hands, he said in a slightly traumatic tone.

"You are wonderful. You are beautiful."

That said, I felt saved.

"....... Fufufu. Thank you."

When I woke up, it was morning. Before I knew it, I was lying on my bed. Was last night a dream? It still has a fresh feeling. I looked at my smartphone to make sure. I have a profile page for Belle. It wasn't a dream. If you look under the bell icon, there is a column showing the number of followers.

《Belle: 0 followers》

That number is zero.

"There are no followers ....." I muttered while staring at the screen. "The world doesn't change anything." I didn't ask for it, but I felt a little disappointed.

When I thought, a beep sounded. The number of followers became "1" in front of me. That angel Az. A comment balloon appears. It was a blank space with nothing written on it. I laid down my smartphone, lay on my back on the bed, and remembered last night. There were many unplanned things. However, "But I finally sang ..." Above all, my heart was refreshed. The light of the winter morning looked dazzling. It's been a while since I've had such a refreshing feeling. Then there was a second follow-up notice. It was Hiro-chan. A cute bird-shaped Az with a round hat.

In the comment of "Re: I tried it for the first time"

<< This is Hiro. Belle is the best. I'll do anything >>

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https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Dcx2NedPVBEdbfQaU-WC0pJMRmn20ASn7HSC0KY9R7E/edit?usp=sharing ~ Google Doc of the English-translated novel.

ryuutosobakasuhime.wordpress.com ~ English fan-site for Ryuu to Sobakasu no Hime where translations, scans, and other content is posted.

[nepoznati-poznanik]

11. i 100. <3

11. What song has the most relatable song lyrics to you? - pošto se ne bih nikad mogao odlučiti za jednu pjesmu, napisat ću ovdje par stihova koji mi se baš baš sviđaju.

Illenium - Afterlife

After we're gone Who will breathe the earth we lost We leave nothing but our thoughts And memories beneath the dust

So when this body fails to mend And all my demons they come crashing in Will I start to begin Or will I fade away with them

Trading Yesterday - Shattered

And I've lost who I am, and I can't understand Why my heart is so broken, rejecting your love Without love gone wrong, lifeless words carry on But I know, all I know, is that the end's beginning

Who I am from the start, take me home to my heart Let me go and I will run, I will not be silent All this time spent in vain, wasted years, wasted gain All is lost, hope remains, and this war's not over

There's a light, there's the sun Taking all the shattered ones To the place we belong, and his love will conquer all

Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real I wanna find something I've wanted all along Somewhere I belong

Dosta muzike za danas hahaha ako nastavim ode mi dan.

100. What’s one of your fondest memories? - nikad neću zaboraviti jedno junsko jutro od prije nekoliko godina. bio sam budan sve do izlaska sunca a jutro je bilo svježe, spokojno i mirno. noć prije je padala mala kišica i bilo je malo magle. sjećam se kako mi je duša u tim momentima bilo mirna, sjedeći na prozoru sam posmatrao prirodu oko sebe i slušao pjesmu ptičica.

hvala ti na pitanjima i na ovom "<3" na kraju 🥰

[neo-shitty]

reading drown made me remember how much music personally means to me. i used to have a hard time sleeping back in 6th grade to the point that it badly affected my studies bc for some reason im wide awake at night, felt tired but still fully awake which made me unable to focus in school. so of course i researched what i can do since i didnt want to tell my parents (nasa google kaya lahat 😌) long story short, try listening to music daw 😭 so i did bUT since listening to music wasnt really my hobby, i didnt know what type i should start off and at that time, kpop just recently became big LMAO it was like around 2017 i think. so i liSTENED TO EXO since it was the group that i have been hearing around school AHAHAHAHA the song was baby, dont cry btw. it worked surprisingly, music does calm one's nerves. i didnt understand the lyrics ofc but just by the melody, it made everything around me peaceful. whenever i feel anxious, sad, or stressed, music is the way to go :"> SO EON STORY KO PANO AKO NAGING KPOP FAN 😭😭😭 parinig aq ng iyo po 🙇

pero ofc there were times when it was pointless. there were times na listening to music just made everything worse, it would just be another noise that would frustrate me more. kAYA ANG NEED DITO IS ANO TALAGA U KNOW OO ung pwede mong sandalan hahahaha kaso wala ako non :"> so while reading napapa "sige chan ahhaha sana ol sige sana ol may y/n ng buhay nila hahaha" pero real talk, it would be nice to have someone you can share all your worries with without feeling guilty of wasting their time kaya stray kids hopefully you wont be afraid to love someone freely 😌

uy pati nakakaqiqil si jae dito >:( pero no, bias ko pa den siya sa day6 <3 and the scene where chan was guiding reader along while she was riding his skateboard is so cute huhu ,,, lia is the mc in checkmate, correct?

para akong ewan kc you posted this 11 pm right? i always like reading/watching while lying down sO humiga ako kaso pagkahiga ko, inaantok ako agad :"> enjoying something while youre at your most comfortable position feels so ✨heavenly✨ but it makes me too comfy that it drowns me in sleepiness. like i need to sleep muna bago ako maka focus 100% sa ginagawa ko lmao eh since end of the day eon, pagod aq :"< SMALL RANT LNGS KC BIGLA KO NAPANSIN KAGABI HAHAHAHAHA actually pati this afternoon, manonood sana ako hometown chachacha kaso pagkabagsak ko, tulog. kaya tinuloy ko na lang after an hour of sleep huhu

speaking of hometown, im on ep 10 and its the first ep where seungmin's ost was showcased ! im really excited marinig siya later pag finish ko nung ep na eon. BY THIS TIME EP 12 KA NA NOH?? HOPEFULLY EHE EHE and yes justice para sa mga nababastos >:( daming cases here in our school last f2f tbh. ewan like kadalasan, based on my experience, sinisisi nila sa pananamit ng mga babae 👁️👄👁️ i watched a video/show wherein a boy got caught sexualizing ung kaklase niyang girl tas he defended himself by saying na ang ikli ng skirt ni ate girl but thats literally their uniform , scary honestly

pati ify sa ipis, idk why but im more scared sa ipis than mga daga kc naman ang ipis parang gagamba, bigla biglaan na lang mawawala :"> AH SO UN NGA DI AKO NAKAPUYAT AHHAHAHAHAHAHAH PERO WANT KO NA ULE 😭 anong oras ka natulog?

i just realized then, almost all my feedbacks (?) rants abt your works, may included back story ko HAHAHAH like sa obliviate, harry potter kemene. sa on the ride home, yung untog series q. tas dito sa drown -> ^^^ syempre sa checkmate di ako relate kc di pa naman aq pumapanaw Y^Y

btw how was your day? pag gising ko sa umaga dumeretso aq proj, sipag i2. advance happy eating for dinner !

HAPPY CHANNN DAYYY ,, ayos na daw kurtina nila di ko pa nakikita pero inayos daw ni chan 😌👌

- 👻

glad i came home to a whole ass diary entry today omg owo

6TH GRADE HELP ISNT THAT LIKE TOO YOUNG TO HAVE AMNESIA ;n; hala baka magfalse diagnosis ka sa gogol ha, tell your parents next time kung may ano. oh yeah, mas better talaga kung di mo naiintindihan yung lyrics? bc you don't have to think of the lyrics too. music stopped working as a lullaby for me when quarantine started so i resorted to yt vids. but i still go for music whenever my self-esteem is low. noise music really boosts it *u* exo-l ka pa ba now? or you didn't stan? sinu-sino nga pala stinastan mo omg?

dude my story started in g2 when i heard fire by 2ne1 on the MIT top 20 of myx. i was quite a casual kpop fan up until late g10 when i started memorizing members (which i didn't do bc i was really just in it for the music not the groups).

HAJSHJAH truly tho it's nice to have someone around :'( namimiss ko na rin yung time na may 'y/n' ako but it's been so long that i'm fine on my own na HAJHAJ JAE IS MY BIAS TOO BUT ANTAGONIZING HIM WAS FUN. t'was bc of this vid (around the 28:18 to 29:20 mark; literally the inspo for the whole fic). yep, lia's checkmate's mc! the part abt guiding sa skateboard happened to me irl HIHIH #kilig #reminiscing kakamiss f2f

yeah at 11pm. i think i posted it too late bc it's not doing too well notes wise but whatever, it's chan day. HAHAH glad you slept easily though! MY BIGGEST SANA ALL. i slept at 3 na kanina bc i was either too hot or too cold.

how long is the kdrama? also i'm really proud of seungmin for scoring that ost :'( go get it, vocal king. NAUR I DIDNT GET TO FINISH THE ANIME BC I WENT AND WATCHED BSD KDJSKLJ i'll try and finish it tonight (bc i was out the whole day + i might be writing later) i fucking hate men. icb i'm at the point where i'm torn abt having a bf bc i kinda want a man but they're disgusting as hell???? it's hard to find the good ones nowadays.

mga ipis kasi feeling butterfly jsdhjfh at least yung daga aware ka kung asan ;n; IM SCARED OF SPIDERS TOO JDSKFJ wag ka magpuyat l8r kasi monday pero eh depends pa rin sau

oo nga pansin ko din yung back stories but they're interesting to read naman so i don't mind !! SANA DI KA TALAGA MAKARELATE SA CHECKMATE JUSQ do not claim the negative energy from that fic

we went to my mom's office earlier bc she wasn't feeling great and she couldn't come home yet kasi nakabubble siya doon. we just go thome tapos yown diretso answer sa ask HAHAH magtstsaa palang aq mamaya pa ata dinner namin mga 7 pero yeah advance happy eating din sayo!

AND YES HAPPY CHAN DAY <333 lol narealize ko lang both my ults had sunday birthdays this year o.O and OO HAJSHJAH i watched the chan's vlog last night (partly the reason why napuyat ako) and inayos niya yung curtain sa bandang huli <//3 can't tease them anymore HMP

[yuzurk]

[12.10.20] LIVE NOW : CHOI YENA 1ST SOLO VLIVE 

Yuzu is a little nervous as soon as she goes live. She had done this several times but vlive was a whole different platform she had to familiarize herself with first before being able to make it work as naturally as she did with twitch. Making sure her connection was stable and the frame well captured, she continued to hold on for several seconds, double checking everything and watching people pour in. “I feel so naked without my load out-,” she muttered under her breath in English, spotting most of the chat consisting of fans that had found their way here through her announcement on twitter.

She didn’t know how many fans of heartz would actually join this stream and it was a shame she had to talk in Korean for the most part through it even though her fanbase consisted mainly of international fans but she would have to work with the limited options she’s been given.

When she was sure that there was a good amount of people in the audience she leaned back and clapped her hands together after inhaling a deep breath. “Sup everyone, this is Choi Yuzu and yer not watching Choi’s Choice,” the ex-streamer joked, a laugh escaping her lips. “Before we begin- my vlives will be mostly in Korean. With me being an idol in the korean industry now, I have to re-shift my focus. To those who don’t understand Korean- do not worry. Each of these streams will be equipped with English subtitles eventually and I can read and translate your comments if you want to be a part of the life audience. Sadly, this is the most I can do as of now, I apologize,” she announces, her hands still folded together as she bows her head. When she looks up again, there are already comments pouring in from sad emojis to people saying they understand and some confused Koreans asking what the heck was going on and why she was talking in English. So Yuzu went ahead and really kicked off her first vlive als Heartz’ Yena.

“Alright. Here I go- Let me introduce myself properly-,” she begins in korean, her head nodded once. “My name is Choi Yena, I’m the October girl and final member of Heartz 1/3! I used to be a streamer in the gaming and variety field and trained under Samsung for about a year prior to debut. I was born on the 29th September 1999, blood type A, going by the nickname Yuzu. So dun hesitate to call me that! Born in Daegu, been to primary in Japan and middle school in Canada. I came to seoul ‘bout two years ago, straight after High School. I love Games and all sorts of performing. I speak Japanese, Korean and English. It’s a pleasure to meet y’all. Please look after me well,” she introduces herself, tossing the most important facts back at her new audience right after.

“I believe I got... all important things done...,” she murmurs, looking down at her checklist before gazing back towards the chat to see the comments pouring in. People greeting her, calling her cute and funny made the girl smile a little and grin to herself. “Heh. Oh- the other members? I think they went back to the dorm already. I stayed behind to go live... eh?” Right as she says that the door slides open, revealing Luda ( @rkxluda ) who tiptoed her way into the room with a box of food. “Eonni? For me? I thought you’d gone back- ye I’m already live,” she informs the other with a grin in her voice, waving her in and tugging her over. “Before y’leave say hi, real quick!” The two girls wave at the cam together, Yuzu chuckling at how embarrassed Luda seems to be for interrupting her solo vlive. So she lets the elder female scurry away quickly and looks at what she had left the streaming girl. “Oh.... this... I love this- eonni brought me one of my fav foods ‘cause she knew I’d stay back to stream.” Opening the lid carefully Yuzu tilts her head back in bliss after inhaling the beautiful, yummy scent. “Woah... hold on I gotta do this properly-,” she declares, placing her chop sticks down before rolling the sleeves of her jacket up and then putting her cap the other way around to have her face free of any possible disturbance. 

Only then she picks her chopsticks back up and claps her hands together. “Temporary mukbang intermission. I’ll eat well~,” the girl sing sungs before digging in carefully, the hot noodles tasting amazing but still hot in her mouth. “Hmm so hot- but so good.” Struggling through the first bite, she takes a moment to swallow the bite before she pokes her chopsticks into her noodles again. “Luckily the eonnis can cook well- I’m a huge mess in the kitchen. The closest to a good cook I am is playing overcooked,” she admits, a smile widening across her lips before she munches down another mouthful. While chewing she goes back to check the comments, one of them making her smile.

FoxyIrishka ( @rkirina ) : when are you buying me a box of premium grade beef

“Soon. I ain’t forget, Irishka. Dunno when I’ll have time now but it’ll happen,” the ex-streamer promises to her gamer buddy, holding up her pinky to seal the promise. Irina isn’t the only of her friends she sees in the chat and it warms her heart. Especially Chaewon ( @chaewonrk ) makes her almost snort out her next mouthful again. Instead she smiles, hamster cheeks on full display as they remain puffed up with food. “I see ya Chaewonnie~ This girl’s an amazing guitarist. We played in a band together- right! I forgot to talk ‘bout 6tunes!” The female sits up with a start, grabbing her own phone and pulling up one of the few original songs they released. “I used t’play in a band as drummer n’ vocalist. We released a few original songs before we had to disband. Chaewonnie was there- n’ my big brother too- Sungmin Oppa ( @rksungmin ) ... he’s- ah there he is! I saw you in the chat earlier, hi oppa~,” she greets, waving at the camera with a chuckle. 

“Yeees I’m eatin’ well- see,” she holds up her half finished dinner before looking through her library for a 6tunes song. When she finally found one, she held the cover to the lens, making sure people could see it properly. “If y’wanna give it a listen, go and check it out!” Not certain if she was allowed to play music not made by samsung artists she decided to not play it for now and instead continued on. On the topic of music it’s then she spots her namesake.

( @rkyena ) "hi yena-ya it's yena unnie~ congrats on your debut!! will you sing a song you've enjoyed lately?"

“Ah- Yena eonni, thank you-,” she can’t help but chuckle. “This still is so weird- people ain’t ever gonna find me with how popular Yena eonni is,” she states with a chuckle before munching down another bite. “Luxe sunbaenim is too powerful... eonni is it ‘kay if I tell my fans t’ tag my posts with Yuzu instead- otherwise I ain’t ever find ‘em if I wanna go lookin’,” she asks the idol, an amused smile on her lips while she continues to eat. Receiving an okay in return she pretends to breathe a huge sigh of relief. “You heard her guys- Yuzu it is! T’get back to yer question doe eonni,” she continues, reaching for her phone again. “I’ve been listenin’ to convex new release a lot lately. I really like Jinwook ( @rkjinwook ) sunbaenim’s solo ‘Simple’! It’s a really nice song- I love it a lot.” 

Watching the reactions she kind of pursed her lips together when various people asked her to sing the song right now. Inhaling and exhaling a long breath, she couldn’t help but feel like it was a request she should fulfill. “Ah- I can sing a little... I’ll do the chorus-,” she gives in, pulling the lyrics up and deciding to do a simple accoustic version solely because her voice was too soft to keep up with the instrumental and jinwook’s voice in the background. Towards the end of the chorus she gets shy at people calling her voice lovely and beautiful. She spots Xiao among them and immediately feels soft again how she can seemingly transition from one field to another and still keep some of her faithful fans. Hiding her smile behind her phone she can’t help but chuckle shyly. “Ah lleexiao ( @xiaoxrk ) enough y’gonna make me blush,” she admits cheekily, waving the compliments off before hunching her shoulders up as she cringes a little. 

She’d have to learn to get used to these kind of compliments.

Leaving people to gush about her a little longer she decides to finish her food and just peeks at the comment section once in a while. It’s during one of those times she sees Kiwi in the chat as well, his request causing her to snort internally. Of course he would. “KingKiwi ( @rkxkikwang ) - please do a kda cover... okay. I’ll get to that. Got just the person in mind I could ask t’help me with that. Keep a look on insta,” the idol teases, wiggling her brows. Next she spots Wendy ( @rkwendy ) as well among those commenting on her voice, praising her for her progress and that she was proud of her debuting at last. “Ahw eonni- thank u so much. Still got long ways t’go compared to u doe,” she tags on immediately. “Wendy eonni is such a great vocalist- Androma is full of so many beautiful n’ talented girls- if you’re not a fan of them- go check ‘em out right after this stream, okay?!” Insisting on this she points her finger to the camera, narrowing in on it before backing away once more to finish her food. “Okay, cool.”

“I’m planning to actually do more vlives if I manage to find the time... one of the series I’d like to get kicking is actually related to gaming and I’ll have an androma girl with me for those,” the ex-streamer continues to tease as she wraps up the empty box and her used chopsticks. “So y’can look out for that too!” Drinking a sip of soda the female comes quiet while she reads more comments. Among her friends still being noisy and her old streaming fans yelling about more gaming content she can see some new names and comments being tossed her way. One of them catches her interest in particular.

zuzuruhanyu: say "maganda ako" 

The female furrows her brows, head tilting to the side. “What does that mean? Can I even say that on a live broadcast?” For a second she ponders over it, typing the words into a google translator to see what it would spit out at her.

“I’m beautiful- is that what it means? Won’t that be a little vain of me to say,” she inquires with a chuckle. “I’m tempted to call someone who I know knows Tagalog to confirm Google Translate isn’t failing me-,” she wonders out aloud. In the end she sends him a quick message beforehand, just to warn him and ask if she could call him really quick to ask something. If she was already boosting her connections, she may as well continue to go and do that. With the okay given Yuzu calls up Johnny’s ( @rkjohnny ) number and puts him on speaker. She grins when he picks up and some people seem to actually get a clue who she just called.

“Johnny Oppa? You know Tagalog, right? Does ‘maganda ako’ mean I’m beautiful?” A grin on her lips she listens to him chuckle and confirm the information she dug up via google translate. Replying with a simple hum as he inquires if the chat asked her to say it, she lets the smile widen across her lips as he reassures her that she can say it live without getting into trouble.

“Ahh okay oppa, thanks!” Before she can hang up the call though, Johnny requests of her to do the ‘dalagang pilipina’ pose which leaves the female confused all over. “What’s that?” A pic of Johnny doing it along with an explanation follows not too long after and Yuzu can’t help but laugh. “Can I pleaaaase show this pic to the viewers,” she asks with a chuckle in her voice. When Johnny gives a confirmed chuckle right back she turns her phone to show it to the camera, still chuckling away. “Doesn’t he look like the perfect maiden?” 

Cackling at her own wording she turns her phone back to herself. “Are y’watchin’ the vlive right now? I’mma do it,” she announces before going ahead and doing it, wiggling her brows for extra added effect. “this good? am I doin’ this right?” When Johnny chuckles out a confirmation, Yuzu feels herself grinning back proudly. “Alright cool. I’mma hang up then now, ye? Thanks again, Oppa. Bye!”

Looking back at the chat and having people wonder how she knew all these idols, Yuzu had to think twice how she wanted to go about this. She had wanted to avoid being compared to Jieun but not wanting to look like she was flexing and flaunting all her connections right upon reveal she had to explain somehow.

“I know most of them from before they were idols through my cousin, Song Jieun. She used to be a Samsung trainee and her connections are crazy. She told people to look after me when I first came to Seoul ‘cause she was worried ‘bout me. Everyone’s been really kind to me and looked after me well, so I feel very spoiled and grateful.” A smile on her lips she nods her head calmly. 

She comes quiet again as she reads more comments, smiling at the reactions and responses she gets even if some of them call her out for riding on her cousin’s connections. To avert the topic she jumps at a comment from whom she knows to be her boyfriend ( @rkohsehun ) lurking on an alias that she admittedly has to sigh at internally. she really did love her stupid noodle.

"seahoney says: congrats on your debut !!! any new / laid back games you'd recommend?"

“hmmm,” she tilts her head, leaning back to think for a second. “with debut preparations and promotions I haven’t had much time to game much. I really do like the fall and halloween update for animal crossing new horizons but genshin impact has also been my go to game when I’m in the car headin’ to schedules. ‘s got everythin’ put together from what you’d love ‘bout open world games. the gacha ‘s a little annoyin’ but that’s gacha games for ya. the breath of the wild feel makes it a whole lotta different to any gacha I played doe. the controls are also easy to manage so that’s a plus as well,” she reviews with a smile on her lips, grinning as some people say they wish they could see her play. 

“maybe I’ll see if any of my friends plays it n’ once we all reach high enough levels we can coop and I could stream.” at the mention of friends she also spots yoojung ( @yccjungrk ) in the chat and can’t help but grow soft immediately. “yoojungie~ maybe it’ll be a game for ya too? I haven’t given up on tryin’ to find one we can game together besides ddr,” the gamer laughs. She wishes she could express how much she misses her old roommate and best friend but not wanting it to seem like she was ungrateful, she comes quiet instead.

A gaze at the clock does tell her that it’s rather late already and the staff member supervising her also looks ready to pass out in their chair so Yuzu slides an extra soda over towards them before turning back to her comment section.

“You guys are gems... I wanna stay around longer n’ talk to everyone more but I’ll be back soon. For now I gotta head back to the dorm too and get more sleep. Please look out for us and allow me to meet you at music shows. I would love, love, loooove to see you all and show y’all my appreciation for supportin’ heartz and our first unit 1/3. We got lots of great things planed ahead for the future and are ready to gear up good, so please anticipate the future girls as well,” she concludes, hands folded together as she tilts her head to the lens, gaze soft and adoration in her eyes.

“That’s all from me for today- Yuzu aka Heartz’ Yena over n’ out!” With a salute she squints her eyes, striking a cool pose that breaks with her exhaling a chuckle before the screen does turn black at last.

[heyemmaaaa]

I can't think of anything I can give you this valentines' day so I edited the playlist I sent u 2 days ago of some of my on repeat songs and here's its part 2 : my fave lyrics and a short message.

Intentionally di ko nilagyan ng title kasi inassume ko na tinapos mo pakinggan

P.S- recommended to play the playlist while listening. 🤭

#1

"Mahiwaga, pipiliin ka sa araw-araw.

Mahiwaga, ang nadarama sayo'y malinaw"

I'll choose you everyday. Even if there will be times na you'll think hindi ka na kapili-pili, I would still choose you. 😌 cheesyyyyy.

#2

"There is nothing I can ask for

There is no one else but you

You are everything I hoped for."

It's not a secret I liked you for 8 years and within those years, I kept on praying for u that sometimes it gets so frustrating cos I know it's useless. But I kept on praying anyway (read previous entries). Love na love pa rin ako ni Lord (or nakulitan lang kaya pinagbigyan. Hahaha 😆) kaya there is nothing I can ask for pa talaga. 😌

#3

"Sometimes I run

Sometimes I hide

Sometimes I'm scared of you

But all I really want is to hold you tight. Treat you right"

Sorry for those times you felt i'm pushing you away pero thank you for being patient with me and for understanding me. It's not easy on your part kasi I've made you feel many times na ayaw ko sayo and alam kong aware ka na I have trust issues pero you still continued pero despite everything, what i really wanted lang talaga is to be clingy and sweet and caring and loving and etc to u. HAHAHA 🙊

#4

"So close yet still so far"

Trivia lang. Ikaw first dance ko nung 4th year hs grad ball tapos eto yung song na yun. 🙈

Kailan ba tayo magiging so close and so near? Char. I can't wait to see you. Sana mahintay mo pa ko. Kasi ako sure ako na mahihintay kita. 🥺

#5

"You lift my feet off the ground

You spin me around

You make me crazier"

This is how I feel everyday knowing yung long time crush ko, gusto rin ako. 🥰🙈

#6

"It's you they add up to.

I'm in love with you.

And all your little things"

Trivia again. Ikaw first dance ko 3rd year social night, ito yung song na nag p'play. 🙊

Di naman obvious na between the two of us , ako yung head over heels sayo no? 😕

#7

"This is falling in love in the cruelest way

This is falling for you and you are worlds away"

Yung first ever relationship ko if ever, LDR. pero okay lang basta ikaw. In fact, it's the person not the distance. 😌 i play this song whenver i miss u so much and it's getting so frustrating cos wala akong magawa to see u personally kasi im not mayaman like taylor swift. 😔 take note lang po, pag lumipad na ko pa US, umaga sayo, gabi sa akin. I'm scared baka bigla kang umayaw in the long run. Lol. 🥺

#8

"Nothing I wouldn't do

Go to the ends of the earth for you

To make you feel my love"

I'll do anything for u as long as i can. (Except lang sa pag change ng habit when it comes to eating. hehe mwaa)

#9

"And today I'm officially missing you"

Hindi lang today. everyday. 😔

# 10

"You are my favorite. Everything"

Favorite asarin. Favorite iPrank. Favorite kwentuhan. Favorite person. Favorite in general. 😘

# 11

"And I could list a million things i'd love to like about you"

Tho I don't know if you love me. Hahaha char 😳 pero i like the way you care, the way you remind me and get angry after but still reminds me anyway, the way your voice calms me down and make me smile, the way you say i miss u when u're tired and everything in between.

#12

"At ngayon, nandyan ka na

Di mapaliwanag ang nadarama"

Nanuod lang talaga ko hello love goodbye kaya nasama to. Charot. Niloloko ko ni mega one time, eto daw yung theme song. HAHAHAHA funneh.

#13

"And I've been in a daze

Ever since the day we met"

I'm still amazed at you in general. The way you smile and everything. I still can look at you entire day and still caught myself smiling. Will always be ur no. 1 fan. 😏 gotchu

# 14

"You calm me down

There's something bout the sound of your voice"

I really do not know how it happens anyway. But I like how u do it. Effortlessly. 🥰

#15

"I take one step away

Then I find myself coming back to you"

It's was, is and will always be u po. 😉

You make me really happy. Thank you for making me the happiest, thank you for making me trust again and know that i'll always be here for u in every possible way. whether u like it or not. Balakajan. Wala ka nang choice. U need to bear with me and my toyoin days (na di ko na dadalasan as u requested) Hahahaha 😌

Here's to more Vday with u. LDR man o hindi. Official man or not. 🥺 char not char

I added Have you ever and never had a dream come true (fave songs when cleaning 🤭) and some westlife songs and other songs that I've been listening to these past days.

[barfinglaughter]

EVERMORE IS COMING!!!!!

I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS I NEEDED TO WRITE THEM ALL DOWN. LIKE NIBALIK JUD KOG TUMBLR FOR THIS LIKE OLD TIMES HAHAH

First of all kanang????/ I love her so much????? She didn’t have to do it, BUT SHE DID???? BECAUSE SHES TAYLOR SWIFT AND SHE CAN. Its weird kay we all probably thought at some point “and what if she releases another album lol” and i personally thought i wouldnt be surprised if she did smth this crazy again but. she actually DID IT. Like DID IT DID IT AND IM LIKE HALA?? this btch rly... Had the same chills I had when folklore dropped. This moment is amazing and im glad to be alive today??? COEXISTING WITH AN AMAZING ARTIST LIKE HER. LIKE. TWO FULL LENGTH ALBUMS BTCH TWO. WE GOT ABOUT 30 NEW SONGS THIS YEAR

also its funny kay she was gone for like 2-3 years after 1989 so the fact that shes releasing multiple albums now is like compensation for all the music we didnt get during those years hhhahhaha

Grabe jud I love her for doing this kay its just. Releasing music!! In all its raw and beautiful glory. Way tarong marketing. No tarong schedule. No full on strategy on when where and how to release it. No big pop singles that are supposed to be GP-friendly and all that strategic bullsht to make it sell. Knowing how amazing her brain works dghan ra jud syag drafts in her home studio probably and kept creating and creating bc whoever says when to stop making art honestly? She doesn’t give a damn at this point. Its just her creating new things and sharing it to the world kay its smth shes proud of so why not????????/ I LOVE HER CHAOTIC ASS. LIKE FCK IT GO TAYLOR

i know I said none of it is strategic but shes also very smart to release this during xmas kay that’s an old business move for artists dugay na hahahHAHAHA. Also with all the money they lost from the cancelled tours, releasing not only one album but TWO is a huge huge thing and could bawi all that money so lmao business queen gihapon JABFKHJS. Not only is she a songwriting genius for this but shes also gonna be RICHHHHHHHHHH. also this is good promo for the grammys too IM SO AHFAIJ

I NEVER SCANNED THRU A TRACKLIST SO FAST, I SAW HAIM AND I WAS LIKE TARGET LOCKED !!! but no paul mccartney feature so i hope she’ll feature on his album nalang instead huhuuuuu. im hoping WiLlIam BoWeRY contributed for this record again kay they really made quality bops together so. TAYLOR WE NEED UR BOYFRIEND’S BRAIN. I’m also super happy she’s making a song with The National themselves for this one honestly cant get enough of aaron dessner, he and The National are an a amazing band and im glad she worked with them. ALSO JACK!! HELLO WORK HUSBAND

Grabe gyud shes amazing. Haven’t even gotten over folklore yet!! and now its gonna be a flop bc of evermore HAHHAAH ALSO SHES ABOUT TO BLOCK HERSELF OFF THE BILLBOARD CHARTS WITH THIS????? NOT TAYLOR BEATING TAYLOR LMAO QUEEN SHT ONLY

Im cramming folklore right now while I type this hhhhhhhhhhhh

i dont want to overthink the titles though, ako nalang idiscover tomorrow sa youtube/spotify. HHHHH I LOVE THIS JUD I LOVE THE WAIT FOR NEW MUSIC I LOVE THE FEELING OF LISTENING TO SONGS FOR THE FIRST TIME AND GETTING SUPER ENGROSSED BY THE SOUND PRODUCTION AND THE LYRICS AND THE STORYLINE. YOU DONT GET TO DO THAT SHT AGAIN

AMBOT AMBOT unta ma ugma na shet. Naa koy deadline pero wa ko labot jud BYE

 hhh tayloorrr I KNOW YOURE LAUGHING IN YOUR VELVET CHAIR DRINKING EXPENSIVE WINE WITH UR CATS RN sge lang love u queen

[itsjusta]

WEEKLY UPDATE #6

Nov. 16

Felt sad today ngeokz 👁👄👁 just did acads then rest then play then acads again. i also over ate jd doe like i sobra A LOT i h8 myself for not being disciplined

Nov. 17

2:02 AM: Matulog na unta ko pero nag imagine kog scenario nga namatay ko!!!! gidunggab daw ko ni tala our working student atong kami ra 2 house!!!!!! nya naimagine dayon nako unsa imo reaction and nag imagine ko sa imo mga i say sa others naghilaka na nuon ko kay touching au imo mga gipang say sako imagination :(((( OMG I CANNOT WITH MYSELF AND MY IDIOT MIND

But overall an okay day lang went to the dentist my tooth is finally okay yaaay

Nov. 18

Woke up early doe i feel so sleep deprived aish

Had a final exam today and it was just sayon lang man may gani i didn’t study very hard for dis hehe i hope i get a good grade doeee

so mingaw the house doeee so silent cos kami lang ni tala and fri pa sila balik 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

also had my period today yay the pills making me regular na gyddd but sakit ako likod aish

Nov. 19

Just a boring daaay just watched kdrama and movies today

Nov. 20

My heart is heavy today and aish I cried for awhile doeee. It’s a boring day again and idk my idiot mind thought napd idiot thoughts. Almost 6 months na doe but wala paman gyapon ko uy. Bisag naanad nako gamay nga wala gyd constant ka storya kay naa gyd mga days like these nga makahilak gyd ko sa kamingaw and maka reminisce dayon ko. Up until now doe you really mean a lot to me gihapon and you’re still one of the people nga comfortable kyko makig storya but I try sad gyd to not samok2 you because i think it’s not okay doe. whenever i feel something i just write it here and then wait for u to read it nalang becos i know man pd nga one day, maybe di najd ta mag talk sa each other and i should prepare myself for that doe. aish pero until now if i have news in my life i still want to update you and i also want to be updated with ur life but its so hard for me to see u pd living your life without me aish u know dat naman i cant kaya pa gani watch your twitter and ig stories

Before, i thought ma okay nako at 6 months pero di paman gyapon oy. i feel luoy at myself sometimes cos i feel so left behind but i really dont know what to do para mapadali ang process. BUT I KNOW I’VE BEEN SO STRONG!!!!!!!! it’s soooo hard lang gyd to keep on trying :((( why am i such an idiot and why is it hard for me to just move on doeeee luoy nako sako self gusto rko ma happy pero dili pajd kaya ☹️

Nov. 21

Feeling better today doe but my body super tired just watched kdrama and slept a lot today 😴 also did a little acads but little lang cos im really unmotivated aish

also, hearing u go out with your friends kay makulbaan jd ko or like musakit jd gamay ako heart cos we really are living our lives separately now ana btaw nga feeling and until now i dont know why maapektohan gyapon ko 😩 but im super happy for you always!!! hehehe continue to just be with people that make u happy doe so u will also feel better 😊😊😊

Nov. 22

Today i was uneasy doe cos idk i knew you were traveling and it made me uneasy becos idk if you’re there na or what but aish i know i should not care na about dat so i distracted myself nalang may gani motivated ko today doeee i ligo the dogs, i finished editing our research, i made the script, and i recorded na

even though i get kulbaan to see stories of u or stories nga naa ka, it also makes me happy cos thats the only time i get to see u doe hehehe and u were so gwapo pa gyd kanina 🥺 i’m really happy na u had fun doeeee para ma relieve imo stress or whatever you’re feeling cos u dont deserve to be tired or sad hmpfttt

i also cried while watching a video doe hahahah its a song cover by a couple na schoolmates nako sa jhs and they covered the song kato btawng naay lyrics nga “if the world was ending, you’d come over right?” AND I CRIEDDD COS I REMEMBER I ASKED U THAT BEFOREEEE 🥺 and i also cried cos im so suya i miss being inlove ugh naol!!! 😡

[ohpretty-baby]

music tag!

hi i’ve never done this before! pls don’t make fun of my music taste even though it’s literally all over the place-

tagged by @yeojaa !

your favorite album: MOJO by evann mcintosh

your favorite music genre(s): kpop, opm, alt r&b, r&b, occasionally: indie and rap, vocaloid but we don’t talk abt it openly

your favorite song: yours by evann mcintosh

most listened to artists: evann mcintosh, bts, dijon, daniel caesar, sza, pink sweat$

an album that’s important to you: HYYH by bts, CTRL by sza

what makes you like a song: if it feels like a warm hug :)

your favorite instrument to hear in a song: drums are cool(?) i’m not very musically inclined...

a song to dance to: lo siento by super junior

a song from your childhood: kung ako na lang sana by bituin escalante

a song that reminds you of love (any kind of): nothing by bruno major

a song you love lyrically: all of taehyung’s solo songs pls n thank u

tagging

@chaijimin @outroguks @guccybangtan + anyone who wants to do this!!!

[herdiaryofloveandhurt]

OPINYON AT NAIS I-SHARE/ IBAHAGI.

Napanood ko ung __- A Day After Valentines-___. (Bella P. and JC Santos) It was really heart felt and everyone can relate to it. Its not just about Love (Pag ibig for someone) but also a love for family. Nothing really is perfect in this world. This movie is about Love for someone Love for family , how love will make u go over the distance, what can u do for the one u love, risk of love, the beauty of life and the beauty of self love. And because of this movie, i even admired myself more and realized that i am being strong the whole time. I cried (but im not broken just stressed LOL) anyway I cried at the part where they talked about how everything changed. Maybe some of us (makakapanood/nakapanood) will understand what was really the reason behind that ending. There was this song in my head na may lyrics na "Tell me how does a perfect love goes wrong?" (Dont know the song title hehe ) These part might give you the answer. And i believe the song How am i supposed to live without you (by michael b.) can be the story of the movie. LOL well thats my opion. Its really awesome movie. Broken? Messed up? Frustrated? This movie says you must love yourself and dont fake it before loving or getting to a relationship. You must be honest at the very first place to get rid kill joys when its the Mid part na ng rela. And also Marami kasi sa atin ngayon , we tend to portray ourselves happy jolly and doing amazing in front of other people and let the right people leave because they can actually sense that there is something wrong that you arent telling them. When they love you they can actually sense it. So its next to secrecy, lying, hidding whatever you want to call it. We try so hard that even when your alone we tend to cry, We look in the mirror every morning trying and pushing ourselves to fake it again. Also just to add up, Not because we fixed something broken will always function the way it was before. There will always be some adjustments. pipiliin mo bang mahalin ka dahil sa utang na loob na inayos mo sila nung broken sila or ur just going to make it slip (kalimutan ung feelings) and just be friends? Also this movie will give you some self tips in guarding your heart. I wont say anything more about the movie coz it will be best if you will watch it and relate. PROMISE! MAGANDA TALAGA SYA. And ang ganda ng OST/soundtracks. Naiyak ako ewan ko lang kung maiiyak kayo. Hehehe 😉 Kudos Bella Padilla and JC Santos .iba talaga! Ang galing lalo after ng 100 Tula Para Kay Stella. Sad ngayon ko lang napanood. Haha 🤣🤣🤣

Ps. Dahil dito nagkainterest akong pagaralan ung Baybayin . Hehehe 😅😅

[clicheyettouche]

CHING CHONG CHINA CHING CHONG THE BEST.

It’s already 7:00 pm on a Thursday night, and I’m casually scrolling through my facebook feed. A video of some old K-POP songs and K-dramas pops up on my screen. One word to describe it, nostalgia feels. It brings back lots of core memories, feeling ko senior citizen na ako pagdating sa pagiging fan. Pero it’s kinda sad actually, may mabigat na reason naman kasi talaga ‘kung bakit ako napadpad pagdating sa ganitong bagay. Imagine elementary days pa lang expose na ako sa mga koreans, alam ko na agad ‘yung meaning ng annyeong. Parang dati lang anyong lupa at anyong tubig lang ang alam ko. Kasalanan talaga ito ng Meteor Garden at Full House. I think I’m only seven years old that time, 2004 kasi ang Full House. So, it’s been 18 years? Anyway bobo ako sa math so ‘yun na ‘yon! Pero hindi pa ako totally fanatic noon, nag switch agad ako sa K-POP after Full House kasi nga nadiscover ko ‘yung group na Girls Generation, Wonder Girls, SUJU and U-KISS, around year 2007-2010 ‘yon siguro if I’m not mistaken. Panahong alien ka sa ibang tao kapag nahilig ka sa mga koreans, kasi feeling nila wala ka namang naiintindihan. Well, totoo naman 'yun kasi dati bihira pa ang subtitles kaya para kang engot nun. Pero when it comes to music naman hindi naman ganoon kahirap mag adjust utak ko kasi wala din naman akong masyadong kiber sa lyrics as long as maganda naman. Kapag it's a BOP no questions asked added agad sa playlist ko and I'll definitely stan the artists.

And truth be told, habang lumalaki ako nag iiba ‘yung lifestyle ko. Kung noon chinese garter lang ang trip ko sa life, chekwa din pala ang papalit. Medyo consistent ako sa part na ‘yan, very asian! Hindi ako nagka-crush kay Leonardo DiCaprio o kahit sa Westlife at Backstreet Boys. Pero that time hindi pa kasi ka-grabe hallyu fever noon, di pa nag flourish ang korean industry and culture nila unlike nung year 2012. I’d been a K-POP fan since about 2007-2010, but towards the end of my junior year I was starting to lose interest. On and off lang ako when I feel like it. Kasi iba ang hype noon sa korean songs. Kumbaga kung ano lang 'yung mag boom dati 'yun na 'yon unlike ngayon na maraming platforms para mag viral ang mga bagay bagay. Kaya ayun sa kalagitnaan ng mabagal na internet sa bahay, while waiting sa updates ng EXO. I happened to catch BTS’ Just One Day performance on M Countdown at ang pogi lang ni Jin dun eh kaya, I was curious enough to look up some of their music. 

And thank god I did.

I didn’t just “fall down the rabbit hole” immediately; it was a long process, but I think the biggest help was the combination of EXO era and the BTS universe.  They haven’t been like a magic light-switch that instantly fixed every problem I have, because that’s unrealistic to expect from anything or anyone but I feel like they’ve inspired me in so many ways with their messages, that I have been given not just one but 7 incredibly encouraging voices that have without-a-doubt helped me have the will to fight my own demons.

So, nawala na ako sa totoong purpose nitong blog na ‘to. Ang dami ‘kong hanash, so ito na nga. Noon pa man kasi I had trouble with feeling overwhelmed. I don’t really deal well with a lot of people and a lot of noise around me, which is laging nangyayari ‘yun during my early years. Sa dami ng ka-dramahan ko sa buhay. I don’t know how to explain it basta I was a loner and I just want to curl into a ball and I just don’t want to talk to anyone. Gusto ko nasa bahay lang ako. I've gone through some rough situations in the past couple years, and a very traumatic ongoing event and I think that caused my anxiety to be worse than ever. And so, K-POP and K-dramas provided an escape for me. Syang tunay nga. Medyo edgy teen ako noon. Pero it gave me peace, it became my outlet. ‘Kung para sa iba ching chong lang ‘yan, at mga baklang papogi para sa’kin iba ‘yung naging impact nila sa life ko. It has become almost like a stabilizer for whenever I feel like I’m losing control or becoming really stressed...

High school was bad and College was the worst, but my mental health worsened to the point that in the past I would walk to the library of our university, sit somewhere, and list as many reasons as I could for why I shouldn’t jump off.  The downside, of course, was that I really hated life at the time. I was plagued with negative thought after negative thought. BTS was essentially the only hope of my life, the only thing I ever looked forward to. I mean out of all the groups I've supported, BTS has a special place in my heart. They're different.I loved how funny they are and how much they truly seem to care for each other, and it seemed genuine instead of fan service. Their videos and compilations always made me laugh and feel happy for a while. They are crazy talented with amazing personalities to top it. Good thing I went down the rabbit hole just for them.

Even up to this day. With BTS I can zone out. I can put everything down for just a little while, weather it’s listening to their music, streaming their music videos or watching their youtube videos. It’s keeping me afloat mentally, although may negative sides din sya sa life ko pero mas lamang ‘yung positive para sa’kin. Walang exciting sa naging buhay ko noon eh, pero ‘yang mga sinasabi nilang baklang oppa na ‘yan they add more excitement in my life and give spice to my boring life. It gave me something to look forward to. Instead of my life being the same repetitive schedule every single day, I now have comebacks, new programs and new era that I can totally anticipate. Grabe ang solid ko pala talaga, ‘kung mayaman lang siguro ako puro ako merchandise, albums at nag around the world ako para umeksena lang sa bawat concert nila.

I’m just happy na nadiscover ko ang BTS.

I'm not exagerrating. It actually helped heal a part of my soul I didn’t even know needed fixing. Sometimes your happy place isn’t a physical place. My solace was art and music and with that, I was able to live life normally then. I’m doing much better now. BTS didn’t save me, but they were part of that healing process. I continue to learn from and be inspired by them; I appreciate all of their good and bad points, because it makes them seem more human like me.

The reason why I am writing this post is that I just realized how thankful I am to K-POP and BTS. It helped me significantly improve myself. As a 24 year old, it feels odd sometimes that this became my main coping mechanism but I guess life is odd sometimes.

Share ko lang din kwentong ARMY ko kasi wala lang. I'm also proud that I did grew up with them. I've seen them as the nugu's and I watched them become the underdogs who paved the impossible way and do amazing things for someone like me who need access to their magic shop. I mean if you are not an ARMY like me, it will be hard for you to understand what I'm trying to say. Hahaha! All I can say is that during my HYYH era until now, I knew I never walked alone because I have BTS.

Wala lang nag crave lang din ako sa shin ramen, hehe. Parang gusto ko ng kimchi na may kasamang Park Jimin. 

CHARIZ.