#lyrics from spit in my face! by thxsomch

[evans-art-madness]

Theo and Boris - The Goldfinch

the lighting in this scene was too pretty to not draw a couple of frames

[williamlandon]

fanart of that one Sanji angst edit🤭

(Lyrics from SPIT IN MY FACE! - ThxSoMch)

night version! ⬇️

[crisiscutie]

Yandere Seph vibes

Content Warnings: Emotional Manipulation/Gaslighting, Implied Physical Abuse. 

Spit In My Face by ThxSoMch, I don’t care too much for most of the lyrics (absolutely love the vocals, instrumentals and tempo though) but I think the chorus/pre-chorus really nails how a Yan Seph feels about his darling betraying him and how his darling feels about the monster Sephiroth has become. Related to an ask I answered. 

(Pre-Chorus)

You crush my heart and say it's nothing You broke me down, I kept on cutting I bleed for you and now I'm gushing I bleed for you, but you never cared

For Sephiroth, this is definitely his initial feelings about his darling betraying him. Sephiroth tries to cope with that his darling has somehow left him and that she is daring to work with his trusted enemies to stop him. He doesn't understand why he still loves her, when he should despise her more than any other human parasite.  

For the darling, it feels Sephiroth is only in love with an idealized version of her, created from his deluded mind. He’s not the man she fell in love with. The pain she has suffered due to him seems so insignificant in his eyes. He would often do things like continuing his deluded rambles even as she cries or wipe her tears away as he forcibly induced twisted happiness within her, through their connection via Jenova cells. The poor darling was close to breaking until the stars aligned and she found an escape in joining Cloud’s party. 

(Chrous)

Spit in my face, my love, it won't phase me Spit in my face, my love, it won't change me Spit in my face, my love, I've gone crazy Spit in my face, my love, I've gone mad

Sephiroth's emotions swirled like a hurricane, raging and sorrowful, as he begrudgingly accepted the treason his darling committed. She had caused him immense hurt, yet his unyielding resolve enabled him to accept his ongoing love for her. He just hates what his darling has DONE, and he will punish her for it. After her correction, she will come to love him and his twisted ways. 

This could also apply to a broken darling. Sephiroth had infiltrated the darling's mind and emotions, finally achieving the control he had been seeking. At this point, all she wants is just his love and affection. His darling revels in the darkness, content to be surrounded by the monster lurking within. Oh, the rush she feels when Sephiroth cradles her against his blood-splatters form after he finishes eliminating the last of the human parasites that defied him...

Please share some Seph song vibes...

[spoiledleaff]

tagged by my favorite charming little guy, @autisim-ghost-flavored! thank you, my love. you’re a real proper sweetheart, haha!! mwah! ♡♡

✿ first artist you remember liking ; oh my goodness, i used to practically live and die by three days grace and breaking benjamin!!

✿ middle school anthem ; ohoho, ‘operate’ by three days grace! and just about anything off the three days grace album, haha! i… i was a very angsty child. walking nightcore edit, if you will uwu

✿ road-trip must have ; ooh, nowadays? sprinkle in a little bit of ghost, maybe some token, depeche mode, and IDKHOW and i’m pretty much all set, haha!

✿ song i know all the lyrics to ; almost all ghost songs, to no surprise, haha! most sleep token stuff as well :) oh! a, maybe, out of pocket one would be i know all of the lyrics to ‘they’re only human’ from the death note musical! oh! and a lot of depeche mode songs as well!

✿ song that makes you cry ; aw shucks, i actually haven’t cried to a song in quite some time, to be honest. i don’t really have a vent playlist or anything like that, but! the very first times i ever heard them, I did tear up listening to ‘darkness at the heart of my love’ by ghost, as well as ‘jaws’ from sleep token.

✿ song to yell to ; oh! definitely ‘SPIT IN MY FACE!’ from ThxSoMch! :)

✿ current favorite music video ; ‘he is’ from ghost. don’t look at me like that, wait, w-wait, where are you going—

✿ current favorite band ; i feel like this answer is a bit obvious… gh-ghost and sleep token…

✿ would kill to see them live ; haha! for this one, i would also normally say ghost, but i’m actually gonna go see them aug. 18th!! :D i don’t do very well with loud crowds, and this is my first concert as well, so… check back with me later! :’D

✿ if you could listen to one song on repeat for the rest of your life ; oh, oh! ‘per aspera ad inferi’ by ghost!! stop lOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT—

✿ stuck on repeat ; uhm, ‘prime mover’, and ‘jigolo har megiddo’ from ghost, and ‘descending’ from sleep token are in a constant cycle through my head for… no particular reason. at— at all…

thank you again my love for tagging me, my love ♡ ahh, i actually have a bit of a list of people?? to tag?? when did this happen, haha!! anyways!! my favorite little silly people in my phone, hehe, i’m gonna tag @finding-jinx , @dewymorningstar , and, of course i’m gonna drag down my other favorite silly guy whom i do treasure dearly!! @everybodyshusband!! ♡♡ of course, no pressure if i tagged you, and if you want to do it?? knock yourselves out, my friends!! haha!! ♡

[time-is-standing]

top 10 songs of december

aka end another year with me :)

1. SPIT IN MY FACE! by ThxSoMch

well... this song stirred up so many emotions in me through the last month of the year. therapy has been going places and I've been trying to feel anger and all the things I never could before. anyways it helped me and I am real thankful for that.

2. astrid by glaive

this song is in the top 5 of my yearly recap even though I only found it in autumn. this describes how much I love it, I could listen to it all day long and never get bored of the song.❤️

3. I'm Okay I Swear by Presence

oh, this one. I have been feeling pretty low and there were tough times where I only found comfort in this one. I'm not really sure why, but I became addicted to the beat and the melody.

4. engravings by Ethan Bortnick

this one I found accidentally and was mesmerised by the first few seconds. such a special song with so much meaning behind the words.

"i'll put my hand up on your chest, so you forget your engravings"

5. too much by Softheart, guccihighwaters

this one is still on the list and I still love it to bits. I have some kind of attachment and love the lyrics so so much.

6. Miss You - Sped Up Version by Oliver Tree

I listened to some songs from my recap and fell in love with them again. this is one of the gems I rediscovered when the wrapped came out.

7. Sick of U by BoyWithUke, Oliver Tree

boywithuke stole my heart a couple of years ago and from time to time I search him up again to catch up with his songs. I love this one just as much as the others. it's quite unique and has a great vibe.

8. NDA by Billie Eilish

I found this one again after the recap and though about some crazy memories. isn't it strange that some people who were my "closest friends" and even more than that just vanished this year and we're nothing more but strangers... yeah.

9. No Wind Resistance SPED UP! by Kinneret

this is a strange concept & song but I fell for it. I listened to it almost all month over & over again. this is from the times when I first started "feeling my emotions" and somehow I find it easier to try while listening to songs that I feel a deeper connection to.

10. Happier by Marshmello, Bastille

"I want you to be happier"

I was counting down the days when we could start the holiday and get to my bf's house for a couple of days. this boy makes every single day a bit easier and gets me so well that I don't really want to spend time with other people anymore.

[dancingisdangerouss]

Spit In My Face by ThxSoMch

Some of the lyrics definitely reminded me a bit of Al and Reader from BA 👀 especially from Al's twisted pov

-@wayward-persephone

Omg it does fit them!! Particularly from Al’s POV. Yet another song to add to their list 😂