#luvr mother diaries

[luvrxbunny]

i feel like such a loser sometimes

my sister has been sick for two days. all she has is a sore throat so we’re not actually sure she’s sick, it could be that she’s not drinking enough water. but my mom has told her to eat something before school, take some advil and drink some tea.

my mom even made it a point to tell me to make sure she drinks tea later because “your sis isn’t feeling well”..

i have been fully sick for a week. coughing, sneezing, blowing my nose w blood in the tissue and my voice is literally disappearing.. yet my mom hasn’t said any of this to me

so here i am.. jealous of the attention my little sister is getting. which is so fucking pathetic

and i have no one to talk to because my bsf doesn’t usually care abt anything i have to say and the guy im talking to is too self absorbed to even ask me anything about myself..

i’m losing my little community do to lack of motivation as well so it’s a matter of time before i’m completely alone again 🤩

i just love life sm

[prettybaby-inc]

i’m doing so bad rn guys my mom is killing me

she’s so fucking draining i wanna move out

[luvrxbunny]

my mom keeps yelling at me that’s it’s bad for my liver

*aggressive sobbing*

[luvrxbunny]

my mom: look at this meme

the meme:

if u see red you are dehydrated

if u see yellow you are in love

if u see blue you need to be tied up and pounded

then there was a photo of a blue banana

i just feel weird that my mom is showing me things like that

idk if it’s a me thing or maybe just cus i’m a virgin but it’s super uncomfortable for me

like… are u implying that i need to be tied up and pounded? why are u showing me this?

[luvrxbunny]

not horny!

my mom doesn’t worry about me cus im so self sufficient but she’s also seemed to have forgotten that— idfk

so my mom for christmas got my little sister more presents than me which wouldn’t bother me if i literally didn’t try my best all year to be the best daughter i can be meanwhile she’s constantly fighting with my sister… but she gets more rewards? okay

on top of that she pulls me into her room to lmk that even though she got my sister more presents than me, she still doesn’t feel like she bought enough and is asking me for suggestions…. wtf

okay and now i’m supposed to get my hair done (by her) and she was supposed to start today.. she comes home, i make dinner, and i ask her if she wants to start but she says it’s too late now.. tbf it’s 8:00 but she got home at 6:00 and we had no food so i had to make a whole meal.. if you had told me to have dinner ready before you got home i would’ve done that

but since she was supposed to start my hair today, and continue tomorrow, i cancelled plans with my bsf and we rescheduled to Sunday

but now my mom says that just because she didn’t start my hair today, she’s gonna do my sisters hair first and mine second, which means i have to cancel with my friend again. we usually see each other once a week but i haven’t seen them in 2 wks already

am i being sensitive? like idk i’m really upset abt this but maybe i should just chill

it just feels like.. because i try my best to not stress her out, to try and take care of myself, i feel like that suddenly gives me the short end of every stick just because i’m able to handle myself

like she knows i don’t want to seem ungrateful or anything so i’m not gonna complain but it’s still upsetting

[luvrxbunny]

i hate that i cry and shake when im mad cus i stg im gonna deck you if u don’t shut up

[luvrxbunny]

not horny!

you guys cannot comprehend how fucking weird my mom is

tell me why she just told me that she hasn’t touched herself in a month…

WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH ME??

like why would i ever need that information.. and she does this quite often actually.. like things of this nature

she needs friends her age

[luvrxbunny]

not horny!

my mom is accusing me of lying abt something but won’t tell me what i’m lying about 🫠

[luvrxbunny]

not horny!

so i’m gonna rant about my brother

here’s a list of things he’s done. now on top of that, he’s my older brother and when my parents divorced, my mother started working a bunch but my sister was still too young to take care of herself. so my brother and i kinda had to take over except my brother did not step up at all and used the freedom to sneak himself a phone, get social media (against my mothers rules at the time) and i ended up basically being a single mother to my little sister in 4th grade

i’d make sure she showered, i’d make her dinner and lunch box, i’d make sure she got her homework done and check it before bed and i’d make sure she gets dressed in the morning and make her breakfast— my mom knew i was doing all this but also assumed he was helping, he was not

on top of that my mom got stressed about the house being clean and so i took on a lot of those responsibilities as well! i was in a really bad place and i felt like if i wasn’t useful enough then my family wouldn’t love me anymore so i tried to take on any responsibility i could.

by sixth grade i was still taking care of my sister but i also started sweeping and mopping the house, doing all the dishes aside from his, and the laundry

so i kinda blame him for me not getting a childhood and all this happened before “ran away” on my list (it’s chronological)

so then there’s everything that happens afterward. and my mom recently decided to get in touch with him and make my sister and i hang out with him every weekend… just with everything completely forgiven

and it pisses me tf off because i wasted a lot of my childhood because of him meanwhile he got to live his life AND be the problem child. and my mom currently treats him better than she treats me so it feels like i wasted my whole fucking life for her approval when apparently all i needed was to be a royal fuck up to get it!

i’m going to fucking college because it’s what she wants meanwhile he’s a dropout with no intentions to go to college

he brags about all his friends— how some of them have been to jail, are accused sexual and physical abusers and she feels BAD for him???? and then get MAD at me for not wanting to be around him.

so she says she’ll hangout with him one on one if it bothers me so much (she said it so fucking sarcastically tho) but now i’m like… so you’re choosing him over us?? after everything we’ve done to make your add happy. my sister and i clean the house almost everyday trying to keep her happy

my poor sister knows how to pour alcohol so that it doesn’t foam because she does it for my mom just to keep her happy. like it’s all so fucked up

sorry for my LONG ASS rant guys ily all for giving my a little safe space

[luvrxbunny]

not horny!

i just found out my mom got annoyed at me behind my back for having an anxiety attack

here are some of the things she said:

“i don’t know why she’s crying”

“i swear to god.. this fucking girl”

“she needs to stop crying cus.. what?”

“there’s literally no reason to cry! What is her problem?”

and like— i wouldn’t care if

1) she didn’t make it seem like she cared in the first place, cus when i was there she was trying to comfort me but the second i leave, she starts talking to my sister like that??? girl..

2) you’re a grown woman talking shit about your child having an anxiety attack 😵‍💫

[luvrxbunny]

so i think my mom has been going thru my email and has my account so… idk what to do

my content might be more censored or less frequent cus my safe space seems to have been violated 🙃

[luvrxbunny]

not horny!

just updating on my general dislike for my mother at times

most times

like i can’t even tell u WHAT she did cus it’s so much to type i don’t even wanna get into it she’s just one of the most aggravating people i’ve encountered

like she really cannot conceptualize being in the wrong

[luvrxbunny]

why do mothers seem to hate their girls?

I can't even talk to my mom when my brother is around he always gets her attention and I always do everything for her but she just wants more and more

idk man… moms are something special i’m so sorry ur mom is like that omg

i think parents should have to undergo mental evaluation before having kids cus 😀

wtf

[luvrxbunny]

not horny!

my mom yelling at me cus i accidentally slept in when though i don’t even have anything to do today 🥳🥳

[luvrxbunny]

not horny!

sometimes my mom makes me feel like everything i say or feel is wrong and it’s getting really tiring 🫶🏾

[luvrxbunny]

You share it online it makes me feel less alone. I can’t my parents are really catholic ill shame the family if I did it

aww i’m glad it helps you! i feel less along by sharing so it’s a perfect pair 🫶🏾

i’m so sorry you can’t share. could you at least keep a journal, or have an anonymous account? i understand if you’re too scared cus my parents used to be SUPER controlling and overbearing but it’s really painful to keep all your feelings inside