#lunar therapy masterlist

[howaboutcastiel]

If!!! And only if!!!!! You feel like it!!! Could you maybe do hcs or a Drabble about one or 3 of the moon boys with a reader with ocd 👉🏻👈🏻 like she feels self conscious about the weird patterns/habits/aversions she has? Like she can’t scratch down their back during sex and can’t handle spit, or it takes forever to settle into bed because everything needs to feel right

I know you don’t have ocd so maybe this is just hard or weird to write but I often think about the issues my ocd is gonna cause in relationships

Hey babey!!! Happy Hanukkah ❤️

I know you sent a similar ask sooner, I’m sorry I haven’t completed it!!! I will try my bestest to make these HCs accurate, but you’re right that I do not have OCD and I’m sure there will be some inconsistency. Anywhomst…

Lunar Therapy (OCD)

Steven Grant:

Is absolutely not weirded out by strange habits. Hell, the man has so many odd habits of his own that he couldn’t dream of judging you for it. He will ask and try to understand which habits are borne from anxiety, so he knows how to help you through potentially dangerous/harmful compulsions.

He will do whatever he can to accommodate your habits so that you aren’t ever unable to complete your routines, and so that you never end up hurting yourself in the repetition. He also will check in regularly about how your obsessive thoughts are affecting you. He never wants you to hurt in silence.

About the sexy stuff, Steven never wants to ask something of you that you don’t enjoy. All he ever wants is to make you feel good!! (Of course it is, have you seen the man??) No spitting and scratching? No problem.

That being said, he’ll ask a million questions about what you ARE into, then proceed to check out a dozen library books and read a dozen more blogs or online resources about how to do those things to the best of his ability.

As for going to bed. Have you SEEN Steven’s nighttime routine? You’re not going to bother him. Whatever you need, he understands. He’ll buy you one of those fancy stiffness-adjusting beds if he thinks it will help.

Marc Spector

Is kind of scared at first because he feels like anything he does to try and help will only make you feel worse. He asks a million questions, just like Steven, but they’re more tip-toey questions because he wants to understand, but not overstep your boundaries.

He’s a very methodical person, so he’ll take inventory of everything you tell him so he can learn your behaviors. He has an almost formulaic way of interacting with you sometimes, but it’s because he desperately wants to be helpful and never a burden (plus autistic brain sometimes means black and white thinking, coming from experience).

He tries not to mention your compulsions at all unless you’re hurting yourself, or you express to him that you’re self-conscious about them. He thinks no differently of you, and he will tell you this, but he is over-protective and you know it and so does he.

As for sex? Whatever you say, goes. Marc won’t have the long conversation with you that Steven will, but if you tell him no spit, he’ll remember that forever and he won’t do it again. He’ll ask more questions DURING sex to make sure you’re into it, but you’ll never sit down to talk about all your do’s and don’ts.

He’s also willing to have sex whatever way you desire. Because he’s so, so dreadfully horny and touch-starved.

Marc sleeps like the dead. He doesn’t care if you toss and turn or need the room a certain temperature or anything like that. He hits the bed, he’s out like a light. With that said, whatever kind of blankets or mattress you prefer are what he’ll get.

Jake Lockley

Is weird. He’s a weirdo. Have you ever seen him without that stupid hat on? That’s WEIRD.

No seriously, he doesn’t care how strange you think you are. He knows he’s stranger. In fact, normalcy is more uncomfortable for him. He doesn’t want you hiding any of yourself from him, especially the parts that you think are strange.

When Jake loves, he loves completely. He doesn’t just “tolerate” or accept your weird habits as part of you, he LOVES them. He thinks about the peculiar things that you do and he’s charmed.

Like the other two, he’ll make sure that you don’t hurt yourself. Other than that, he treats your compulsions as a fact of life. He’ll even joke with you about them, if you’ll let him.

When it comes to sex, Jake builds your sex life around your comfort foremost. He enjoys sex from very kinky to very vanilla, so whatever is best for you is what he’ll base your intimacy on. He’ll have a big, long conversation about it just like Steven. Admittedly, it will be a much more cheeky conversation than Steven’s more professional one.

Jake will never, ever fall asleep before you. Sometimes, if you aren’t having a cuddle session, he might not even come to bed until he hears your breathing steady. He’s a protector, he’s formed a habit of watching you fall asleep.

So, maybe he’s distressed when you take a long time to go to sleep, but not because he’s bothered or tired. He just wants YOU to have a restful night. He’ll do whatever it takes to make sure it’s restful.

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[storyofmychoices]

Laura Day

She/Her || Bisexual (preference toward men)

Book: Mother of the Year

Face Claim: Grace Park

Love Interest: Levi Schuler (husband)

Children: Lily (daughter with Guy), Lucas (son with Levi)

Quick Facts:

Birthday: June 22

Zodiac: Cancer

Personality: nurturing, affectionate, protective, loyal

Born: Seoul, South Korea

Adoptive Parents: Daniel and Emily Day

Hometown: Simsbury, CT

Hair: Medium to Dark Brown, medium length, wavy or straight, sometimes lighter when highlighted

Eye Color: Brown

Height: 5′ 9″

Background:

American couple, Daniel and Emily Day were unable to have children of their own. They turned toward adoption. The process was longer and more tiring than they expected but their hearts warmed when they learned they finally had been accepted. They traveled to Seoul to meet their prospective daughter, and couldn't have been more overjoyed knowing she would be theirs. Soon, they would bring Laura home and their lives would never be the same.

Her parents never hid her adoption with her. They were open with her and offered her help with any struggles she might have. They celebrated that she was different. Her parents made sure that Laura's teachers acknowledged her heritage and they didn't take it lightly when children made comments and if teachers tried to brush it off.

Laura does not know her birth parents. When she was in her teens she did look for them briefly, but she didn't find them. After she got pregnant, her focus became Lily and her life switched course.

Fun Facts:

Laura is an only child. Her parents considered adopting a second child but with Laura things felt complete.

Speaks English, Korean, and French

Laura plays the violin. She had a Korean-American teacher, Min-Ji Park, who taught her violin but also helped her learn more about her culture. She had a daughter whom Laura became close to.

Laura learned to cook traditional Korean dishes and shared them with her family.

Laura's parents helped her learn about and celebrate Seollal (Korean Lunar New Year) and Chuseok (Korean Thanksgiving).

Following the events of MOTY, Laura goes back to school and becomes a nurse

Does not have a lot of relationship experiences, Guy was her first serious relationship. After that, she focused on Lily and trying to get by. She did have a few brief relationships (with both men and women), but she never let them get too far. Only one of them ever met Lily (once). It went well, but Laura got scared and pushed her away.

Laura's parents were happy to help and support her with Lily when Guy left, but Laura pulled away. She had a hard time dealing with his betrayal in abandoning them. She eventually went to therapy to help her realize this wasn't about her. His actions were his fault and not of her. Unfortunately, due to the cost she wasn't able to continue therapy.

Levi was different because he got to know (and love) Lily while Laura was also getting to know him. Lily loving Levi and Levi caring for her made Laura's walls break down and give him a real chance.

Laura taught Lily to speak Korean.

Laura and Lily share a love of K-Pop, BlackPink is one of their favorites.

[Levi Schuler x Laura Day Masterlist]

[dilemmaontwolegs]

Heyy! Could you write loki x reader who going to have surgery for her endometriosis? (If you’re not comfortable with writing about it it’s perfectly fine❤️) thank you if you do<3

Hitting me with the feels on this one. I was put on hormonal contraception as a 'trial therapy' at 14 years old because of this and it fucked my body up and my mental for years so my heart goes out to all you strong women suffering the agony of this condition. This is for my yellow ribbon lovelies 💛

Find A Way || Loki

Warnings: period, period pain, endometriosis descriptions, medical terms, female anatomy, fluffy, loving Loki, mentions of Lady Loki WC: 2.5k

main masterlist || loki masterlist

Loki wished he could ease your suffering as you curled your body around the heat pack and bit back the tears that threatened to fall. Every innate part of him told him to pull you close and cradle you through your agony but he knew that would be more of a curse than a blessing. You needed warmth. He looked at his hands, watching them turn blue as he thought too hard about his frost giant heritage and he clenched his fists.

“I’m sorry I cannot take your pain away.” He whispered as he wrapped another blanket around you and scooted away.

“It’s not your fault.” You assured him as he tried to distract you with his pretty illusions that you found amusing.

“I am a god, I should be able to do more than…parlour tricks.” He frowned and lost the fireworks that he had created, the sparks petering out to nothing.

“It is what it is, and just so you know, I love your parlour tricks.”  Another wave of pain stabbed at your abdomen and you bit back the cry as it radiated through your body.

“No,” he growled as he saw your beautiful face pinch while you endured it all, “if there is anything I know it's that there is always another way.”

“Where are you goin-” You asked as he stepped off the bed and cut your question off with a kiss.

“Never you mind, my love. You stay here and rest until I get back.”

Loki had been gone for hours when he finally returned with a victorious smile. “I know this is going to be hard but, I need you to get up for me.”

“Loki…” You groaned at the idea of moving, the mere thought contracting your uterine muscles. “I can’t go anywhere.”

“I promise, it will be worth it.”

You wished you could tell him no, but the puppy eyes and the pout had you pulling the blankets back and his smile brightened his face. He helped you to stand but when you stood up your head spun and you felt the horrible moment where gravity had little regard to your dignity. Tears drifted down your cheeks as you felt blood running down your pyjama legs despite the maxi pad you wore and you tried to pull away from Loki’s hold.

“Hush now, it’s fine, darling.” He promised as he saw your embarrassment and wiped your tears away. “I’m a thousand years old and have seen more wars than you can imagine. I didn’t survive all that to have a fear of a little blood.”

He wrapped his arm around you, careful to keep his skin from touching too much of yours while your muscles were sore and he led you to the bathroom. You still couldn’t look him in the eyes and he lifted your shirt over your head and then his fingers paused at your waistband. He gave you all the time in the world to pull away if you were too uncomfortable but you held your breath and looked to the ceiling as he began to pull them down your legs.

You stepped out of the mess and into the shower, letting the water wash away the tears as Loki gathered your clothes up so you didn’t have to be reminded as soon as you were finished. When he returned his clothes were gone and he stepped in behind you, his hands slightly warmed beneath the hot water.

“There is nothing to be ashamed of, do you hear me?” He said softly as he massaged your lower back with his strong fingers. “Blood moon is a natural part of life, all over the universe.”

“Blood moon?” You frowned at the odd term for it.

Loki chuckled at your confusion and he held his palm up a lunar cycle illuminating the shower wall. “There was a time where every woman’s menses, across the Nine Realms, aligned with the moon, the new moon being the start of the cycle.”

“So when you were Lady Loki…?”

He nodded and traced your jawline softly as you realised he understood more than all of your past boyfriends combined, he had experienced it first hand. Perhaps not as bad but it still warmed your heart that he could relate.

“Where did you want to take me?” You asked out of curiosity.

“I found a highly regarded healer who specialises in such pain as you endure. His afternoon suddenly freed up so if you felt able, I thought we could see him together.”

There was no mistaking the glint in his eye and you knew it wasn’t a coincidence that the doctor's schedule was cleared. Loki had gone to such an effort you would’ve felt guilty not taking it so you agreed as you finished washing your body and watched the blood clots slowly fade down the drain.

“What is this?” You asked as you looked at the strange material sitting on top of the clean clothes he had brought you. They looked like underwear but they were like no material you had felt before.

“It is what the maidens in Asgard wear. I thought perhaps you may find it more helpful.” He answered. “It is also what our healers use for bandages as it helps the body heal wounds. What more is a menses than a wound that is reopened monthly?”

The material was so thin that you really weren’t too sure on trusting it but you stepped into them and hoped Loki’s faith in his homeland wasn’t misplaced. Already you could feel gravity working against you the longer you stood and you looked down expecting to see it escaping the thin panties but there was nothing. A short laugh bubbled up and you looked at Loki with wide eyes.

“I should be offended, really.” He chuckled, happy to know it worked but a teeny little hurt you didn’t trust him.

“I’m sorry but I’ve been ruining clothes since I hit puberty, you have no idea what a relief this is.” You admitted as you wrapped your arms around for a quick hug before shivering and pulling away.

You hated that you could barely touch him at this time of the month, any other time the three or four degrees difference between your body temperatures wouldn’t matter but any sense of cold when you were on your period left you doubled over in pain, cramping. With a rueful smile he sighed and focused his mind on helping you into your clothes so his body would forget how much it craved your touch.

You could feel the questions burning in Loki’s posture as he drove you home from the appointment. Test after test, that usually took months to do, were done in a matter of hours but ever since the doctor asked one question, Loki had fallen silent. In telling the doctor the truth you had practically admitted to the betrayal of Loki’s trust.

“Why didn’t you tell me it hurt to have sex?” He asked the second the door to your apartment closed. “I am not with you for the sole purpose of penetrating you.”

“Jesus.” You groaned at his abruptness. “I know that Loki but please, see this from my point of view.”

“Please, explain why it was so difficult for you to tell your boyfriend that every time he thought he was making love to you he was in fact hurting you.” His eyes shimmered with the tears that were surfacing and you hated that you were the reason for them.

“It wasn’t every time, Loki.” You sighed and reached out but he ducked away from your embrace so you dropped your hands in defeat. “I’ve had people who told me they love me leave when I couldn’t give them…that. I learned to think that the pain was a worthwhile sacrifice.”

“It wasn’t every time, Loki.” You sighed and reached out but he ducked away from your embrace so you dropped your hands in defeat. “I’ve had people who told me they love me leave when I couldn’t give them…that. I learned to think that the pain was a worthwhile sacrifice.”

“You shouldn’t have to make that sacrifice!” He cried as he turned away so you didn’t see his tears fall. “Not for anyone and especially not for me.”

“I’m sorry.”

You left him to his pacing as you made your way back to bed, hugging his pillow and wondering if getting a solution to your condition was going to cost you your relationship. The thought squeezed your chest and you buried your face in his pillow so he didn’t hear the sob that broke through, but he heard anyway. His presence filled the doorway and you knew he was there before you even looked up with your red rimmed eyes matching his.

“Please don’t leave me.”

Your whisper carried across the thick atmosphere in the room and Loki’s head tipped over with a small shake, his long legs quickly closing the distance until he knelt at the edge of the bed. His hands reached out for yours and enclosed them completely as he dropped his head to them.

“I’ll never leave you, ever.” He promised as his green eyes peeked up over his hands. “Not unless you ask me to.”

You shook your head wildly. “Never.”

Loki sat by your side until the very last moment, he even walked along with you until he reached the door that he was not permitted to pass. Saying you were nervous was an understatement but it wasn’t the only feeling you had at that point. After such a long journey, there was finally an end in sight and the surgeon was quietly confident your operation would be a success. Of course nothing was guaranteed but at least you had something you didn’t have until Loki stood up for you, hope.

“Now you understand that a hysterectomy would likely remove all the tissue, including what we can’t see during a laparoscopy procedure. Are you sure you don’t want that option?”

“I’m sure.”

Since the first appointment weeks ago, you had been more open with Loki and there had been a lengthy discussion after the doctor had given you the options for treatment. Although you weren’t ready for children, and you may not be able to get pregnant, you didn’t want to have that option taken away before you could even try. You had opted for the least invasive option and figured if it didn’t work then you could always try the next option.

“Alright, let's get you counting back from 10.”

You didn’t even make it to 7 before the world went black. Your head felt heavy and your eyes were blurry as you came awake in a different room with no memory of how you got there. You tried to move but found your arms too heavy to lift and a face moved into your line of sight.

“Just relax, love.” Loki soothed as he took your hand and held it gently so he didn’t touch the IV line. “The nurse said you might feel a little drunk, I believe she put it.”

“Ugh.” You groaned as you tried to move. “Wada.”

Loki’s eyebrows furrowed together and he looked across at the nurse who was with another patient.

“She wants water.” She chuckled. “I told you, pretend she’s drunk for the next hour, slurred words, uncoordinated, you’ll see.”

Loki grabbed the styrofoam cup of water that had been placed down before you had even been wheeled into the recovery room and he carefully held it up to your lips to sip.

“I wove you.” You smiled dopily as you watched Loki’s lips twitch. “You’re so bootiful.”

“Thank you, my dear.” He smirked, slipping his phone out of his pocket discreetly.

“If we ave kidzzz, I hope they have or looks. Nah mine.” You said as your eyelids felt heavy once again and you let yourself fall back into the darkness.

You blinked as the lights above you seemed too bright and you tried to roll over but the moment you moved you felt the stitches below your belly button tug and you froze. Remembering where you were, you found Loki holding your hand as his head rested on the bed beside you, eyes closed and hair hiding the rest of him from sight.

You freed your hand from his and ran your fingers through his long black hair and pushed it aside so you could see his face, his eyes opening the moment you touched him. He sat up with a smile then a yawn before he grabbed the cup for you. “Have a little sip.”

You didn’t know how he knew you were thirsty but you were grateful as you swallowed the water to chase away the dryness in your throat. “How long was I out?”

“Just a couple of hours.”

Your eyes widened with surprise, your memory was a complete blackhole. “Really? It felt like minutes ago.”

“Nurse Ratchet said we have to stay until you have used the lavatory.”

You gestured for another cup of water and he smirked as he got you a refill. He wanted to get you home as much as you wanted to go home, it was a far nicer place to recover from than the sterile room with the harsh lighting you were currently subjected to. Returning with a second cup and also a large jug of cold water, he cheers you with his own cup before raising it to his lips with a smirk. “Bottoms up.”

It wasn’t until the next day when you were feeling a lot better that you found his phone laying on the couch, a video paused while he went to the toilet. You frowned as you saw yourself on the screen, the hospital gown telling you when it was taken and you pressed play.

“I don’t like her, she looks like Nurse Ratchet.” You heard your voice but the words were slurred almost beyond recognition. “But I like you, Loki Dokey Artichockie.”

“Oh, love, you’re up.” Loki froze as he stepped back into the living room and found you with his phone. “Uh, yes, you see-”

“You filmed me while I was out of my mind.” You finished for him.

“You make it sound bad, but we have filmed far more sordid affairs than you repeatedly telling me what gorgeous children we would make.” He teased, weaselling his way onto the couch and swiping the video to the next one. “Now, this is a personal favourite.”

You tried to be mad but you couldn’t and he knew it too as he opened his arms and let you snuggle in close to watch the many videos he had taken. He was right, you certainly mentioned having his babies, multiple times, with explicit instructions on just how it was going to happen.

“Oh god, Loki.” You groaned as you hid your face before the heat of your embarrassment melted it off completely. “Why didn’t you tell me to shut up?”

His finger brushed under your chin and he tipped your head back so you were caught by this beauty once again, snared by his green eyes so full of love. “To hear you speak of our children is something I never want to hear the end of.”

“But there’s no guarantee I can even have them.” You sighed.

“Remember, I am Loki, Prince of Asgard, Odinson, the Rightful King of Jotunheim, God of Mischief, and I always find a way.”

[yoursecondfirstlove]

Mystery Mania p.11

(Y/n), a popular supernatural podcaster decides to cover the infamous town of Hawkins Indiana for her latest miniseries

MASTERLIST

Will Byers Interview. Raw footage

INT. THE BYERS HOME

Will sits in a chair in his bedroom.

He shuffled uncomfortably in front of the camera.

Y/n: are you ready?

Will smiles nervously and nods.

Y/n: can you please describe the night you went missing?

Will nods again.

Will: yeah, yeah of course. So uh-I was over at my friend Mikes house, we were all playing D&D, and me and my friends all left to go home. I lived the furthest away for there was a little while where I was cycling by myself.

Will looks to y/n for encouragement.

We hear y/n hum.

Will: So uh- I was cycling by myself and I like-I saw something in the road that spooked me I guess.

Y/n: do you remember what you saw?

Will shrugs and looks to the ground.

Will: I don’t know, it was just like-a shadow of something, it was probably and animal or something I don’t know.

Will looks off screen to y/n.

Will smiles to y/n.

Will: so uh, I get spooked and I just steer off the road into the woods. I feel off my bike and like rolled somewhere. I had no idea where I had just ended up so tried to find my way out but I just got more and more lost.

Y/n: how long were you missing?

Will: just uh-just a week.

Y/n: well a week is a long time for a kid to go missing in the woods.

Will nods.

Will: yeah, yeah I was uh-I was in pretty bad shape when they ended up finding me.

Y/n: what was it like coming back, finding out everyone already thought you were dead?

Will scrunches his face up a little, looking slightly tearful.

Will: it uh-it wasn’t great, I guess. I was already bullied but I just started getting bullied like…worse? I guess. That combined with-with all the flashbacks and episodes it was really…

Will begins to tear up.

Will: I’m sorry. I’m really sorry.

Y/n: no, no, no there’s nothing to be sorry for. You need a quick break?

Will nods as he smiles through his tears.

Will: yeah, yeah that’d be great.

Video cuts.

Video cuts back to Will drinking a glass of water.

Will: okay I think Im good now.

Y/n: are you sure?

Will: yeah, yeah Im sure.

Y/n: could you please tell me about any aftermath you went through once you came back?

Will nods.

Will: yeah, yeah of course so uh. I was going to some therapy session, some psychological evaluations after I came back for the uh-for the trauma I guess. It was really hard at first. I got really sick for a little while, which didn’t help.

Y/n: you got sick?

Will nods.

Will: yeah, yeah uh-glandular fever.

Y/n: oh wow…

Will: yeah but uh, things got a lot better, over-over time.

Y/n: yeah?

Will: yeah uh a little bit before the uh-the mall burned down, I actually got to feel like a kid again.

Y/n: so you feel like your childhood was stolen from you after this experience?

Will smiles nervously as he nods and looks into his lap.

Will: yeah, yeah I guess I do.

We hear the door swing open.

Will looks toward the sound.

El: Joyce would like to know if y/n would like to have lunch with us.

Y/n: oh, I wouldn’t want to intrude.

Joyce: oh honey, don’t worry about that, you’re here anyway, we’d love to have you.

Y/n: okay then, that’d be nice, thank you.

Joyce: oh! I’m so sorry, did we interrupt?

Y/n: no, no I think we were just about done anyway. Are you happy to leave it there Will?

Will smiles at y/n.

Will: yeah, yeah I think that’s good.

Video ends

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[princessselene126]

I’m Not Crying, You’re Crying

Yeah so... this ended up being longer than I planned. Not too long but still like 1.5k words. Anyway, Cinder finds out she’s pregnant with Peony (from my second gen universe) and freaks out. Super fluffy, please enjoy! TRIGGER WARNING: very brief mention of abortion. Literally it’s just in her thoughts and not talked about in detail, but I’m mentioning it now just in case that might trigger someone.

Second Gen Masterlist masterlist

Cinder was trying her best to keep her emotions in check, really she was, but every tiny thing set her off these days. Last week she got pissed off when the new palace mechanic mistakenly installed the wrong operating system in the serve-droids. Yesterday she completely shut down when Scarlet suggested they do Christmas at the farm this year--which was six months away. And now she’s getting a massive headache because, if she had tear ducts, she’d be crying over some stupid net drama. 

Really, since when did she cry over net dramas? 

Frustrated with herself, Cinder shifted away from where she was snuggled up next to her husband and started rubbing her temples. 

Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Kai frown at her. Dammit. That meant he’d noticed how weird she’d been acting lately. Hopefully he wouldn’t say anything about it. 

“Cinder, are you okay?”

Well, so much for that.

“Fine,” she said begrudgingly. “Just a headache.”

Kai paused the show and put a hand on her shoulder. “You’ve been getting a lot of those lately. Are you sure you’re okay?”

“I’m fine!” she snapped. And immediately Cinder regretted it, guilt bubbling up inside of her. She lowered her hands and sighed. “Sorry. I didn’t mean to bite your head off like that.” 

He gave her a small smile. “I know. But can we please talk about what’s going on with you?”

“That’s just it, I don’t know what’s going on. One second I’m totally fine, the next I'm an emotional wreck for no reason. It’s like I can’t keep myself in check and I hate it. I hate not being in control of myself.”

“Have you talked to your therapist about it?” 

Cinder pursed her lips. “No… I missed my last session because a meeting with Queen Camilla ran late.” 

It was his turn to sigh. And, aces, she hated that sound sometimes. It was his “I'm disappointed you’re not taking better care of yourself” sigh. “Darling, I know for a fact that meeting wasn’t worth missing therapy over.”

“It wasn’t,” she agreed, “but I lost track of time.”

“Have you rescheduled?”

“Yes. She couldn’t fit me in until later next week though. I know I could’ve played the Empress card but that doesn’t seem fair to her or her other clients.”

A smile tugged at Kai’s lips. It was the one that always made her heart melt and her body warm. “You know, you are allowed to play the Empress card every once in a while because you are the Empress.”

“I don’t want people to think I’m taking advantage. I’m already on thin ice because I’m Lunar.”

Now he rolled his eyes at her. “You know that’s not true.” Kai reached over and took both of her hands in his own. He kissed her knuckles--skin and metal. “The people love you. Sure, there are a handful that don’t like you, but there’s also a handful that don’t like me and Queen Camilla and President Vargas. No one can ever be liked by everyone. Also, your approval rating is way higher than Vargas’s and he’s been president for longer than you’ve been Empress.”

“Vargas is also an asshole.”

“And you’re not.”

“I can be,” she argued.

Kai gently bit the skin of one of her fingers. 

Cinder yelped in surprise. It didn’t hurt, but it was definitely unexpected. “What the hell was that for?” she asked, as she lightly smacked his cheek. 

“You need to be kinder to yourself.”

“So you bit me?!”

They bantered back and forth for a little while, the sarcasm and love in Kai’s eyes making her relax. Her mood swings were mostly forgotten by the time they collapsed into bed in a tangle of limbs and heated kisses. After a while they cuddled up in each others’ arms under the covers, Kai pressing kisses along her bare shoulder. 

“Cinder,” he whispered.

Cinder’s eyes were closed, on the verge of falling asleep, but she hummed in response. 

“Will you please go to the doctor tomorrow to talk about your mood swings?”

“Ugh,” she groaned. “Fine.”

Cinder was… stunned to say the least. The last thing she expected to hear from the doctor was that. At first she thought it was a mistake and asked the doctor to do more tests. She’d smiled knowingly at Cinder and ran the tests again anyway, even showing Cinder the paperwork on the hormone counts.

“Oh stars…” she mumbled to herself.

Heading down the hallway toward her and Kai’s suite, she paused outside the door for a second. There was no way she’d be able to keep this from him--not that she wanted to. He’d see that something was up based on her expression the second she walked through the door. The last couple years, she’d become really bad at hiding her expressions around him. Either that, or he just knew because he was Kai. And he was taught how to read people like books. 

Alright. Okay. She could do this.

Cinder walked into their suite and saw Kai sitting on the couch in front of the netscreen. He looked tense. “Uh oh,” she said. “I know that look.”

He didn’t turn to look at her, eyes glued to the screen. His brow furrowed a little bit. “There’s no look.”

She walked up behind him and settled her hands on his shoulders. She started working on getting the knots out of his muscles. “There’s a look.”

“I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

“Liar.”

He leaned his head back, ready to retort with some sarcastic comment, no doubt, but it seemed to die on his lips. His brow furrowed again, but this time it wasn’t over whatever was on the netscreen. One of his hands came up to rest over hers. “Hey, what’s wrong?” 

“Nothing,” she said a little too quickly.

“It doesn’t seem like nothing.” Kai pulled away briefly only to turn around and pull her onto the couch with him. “Please talk to me, darling.”

Cinder swallowed. She might as well get this over with so she stopped being so nervous about it. And besides, it wasn’t like Kai would be upset… Right? Right. She needed to stop stalling. “I went to see the doctor.”

“And?”

“And… remember a couple months ago when we had that, um, talk about kids?”

“Yes,” he said slowly, cautiously. “What about it?”

“We agreed to wait a couple years because, well, we’re still young and have plenty of time. And it seemed like a good idea so we could get more settled into our roles as leaders before adding in a baby which we both know would be a stressor and take up a lot of our time and--”

“Cinder, darling, you’re rambling to stall.” Kai squeezed both of her hands to reassure her that whatever she had to say would be fine. 

So Cinder took a deep breath, pushed her anxiety down, looked her husband in the eyes, and told him. “I’m pregnant.”

The silence was deafening. 

She couldn’t read his expression for a while. At least it felt like a while. The clock in the corner of her vision said it’d only been a few seconds. Her palm started to sweat and her heart beat faster and a warning flashed in front of her about rising levels of norepinephrine.

Then three seconds later she watched as a small smile tugged at the corner of his lips. And then it turned into a big smile. Cinder’s heart slowed down.

“Really?” he asked breathlessly.

Cinder nodded. “Really. Are… are you okay with this?” Even if he wasn’t okay with it, there wasn’t much that could be done about it now. Not unless it happened by natural means. As an Empress, the one normal human luxury she couldn’t have was to terminate a pregnancy or put a child up for adoption. Not that she’d consider that a luxury, it was more like a harsh reality to be faced with that choice. But as a royal couple they were required to have at least one heir and given this would be their first child, it didn’t leave them with any real options. 

Tears welled in Kai’s eyes. “I’m so much more than okay with this. But are you okay with this? It’s sooner than we planned and it’s your body. If you’re not okay with it--”

She shook her head, a migraine starting to form in her head. She wanted to cry. Stars, if only she could cry. “No. No, I’m more than okay with it too. It’s soon, but I’m happy.”

“Me too.” Kai pulled her into his arms and held her close. They just sat there in happy, blissful silence for a little while. Eventually Kai’s hands made their way to her still flat belly. “Did they say how far you are? When you’re due? When you’ll start to show?”

“Two months along. Due at the beginning of February. And I have no idea.” Cinder rested her forehead against Kai’s and kissed the tip of his nose. She noticed the tears had fallen down his cheeks. “You’re crying.” There was no judgment in her voice, only surprise.

“I’m not crying, you’re crying!” 

Cinder laughed. “I can’t cry.”

“I’m really happy, okay?” 

She lowered her lips from his nose to his mouth and gave him a soft, little kiss. “Me too. I love you. Thank you for not freaking out.”

Kai sighed, “I love you too.”

[yourlunarspice]

My Mature Fics Masterlist

This list only contains fics rated M for Mature Audiences.

General | Teen & Up | Explicit | Unrated

My favorite fics will be in bold while my beta reader's favorite fics will be italicized.

Songbird | 8,448 words, 4/4 Chapters Main Character(s): Hizashi Yamada, Shouta Aizawa, Nezu, Izuku Midoriya, Katsuki Bakugou, Neito Monoma

On their first day attending UA High School, Hizashi and Shouta discover they are too smart for their own good.

Smile | 522 words, 1/1 Chapters Original Work Main Character(s): Original Female Character

The smile stretches wide across her face like a mask.

Into The Shadows | 991 words, 1/1 Chapters Original Work Main Character(s): Original Character Now with music

Hunger leads to feeding. Ravenously.

Heaven And Earth Between Us | 31,763 words, 6/6 Chapters Main Character(s): Katsuki Bakugou, Hitoshi Shinsou, All For One mentioned

There is a short time when the Sun and Moon share the same sky. When the people below feel a strange sadness as dusk falls and moonlight replaces sunshine. When night turns crimson gold to silvery gray.

No one can explain it, and yet it is a universal sensation. A sort of wistfulness for something not quite recognizable.

However, there are two who know the reason for this melancholic feeling.

They are the reason behind it.

Silence | 1,648 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 25 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Main Character(s): Hizashi Yamada, Tomura Shigaraki, Dabi, Himiko Toga

Adrenaline roared through his veins, temporarily easing his massive headache. Hizashi felt around his mouth, hoping that his gut instinct wasn't true.

Unfortunately, it was.

A rough, metal muzzle was fitted snugly over the lower half of his face.

Dreams vs. Nightmares | 846 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 24 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Main Character(s): Hanta Sero

"Hey!" he shouted as he stepped out of the sunlight. "Hands where I can see 'em!"

He could hear something dripping deeper in the alley, but the visor on his helmet was tinted, making it seem almost pitch-black.

Cautiously removing the helmet, Hanta inched forward until he saw what had happened.

He froze.

Don't Worry | 2,579 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 21 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Part 1 of Broken Candycane Main Character(s): Shoto Todoroki, Endeavor, Touya Todoroki, Hanta Sero

Endeavor had been in one of his moods for a while now. It had been so long that his siblings had gotten hurt as well.

Then again, that was par for the course with Endeavor.

It wasn't their fault that Endeavor had a rotten day at work, or that one of his sidekicks irritated him, or any of the seemingly trivial things that angered their father.

But they all knew that Endeavor didn't see it like that.

Imprisoned By Déjà Vu | 2,094 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 20 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Part 2 of Kacchan needs therapy Part 5 of Denki needs therapy Main Character(s): Katsuki Bakugou, Shouta Aizawa, Original Male Character

In his head, Katsuki knew that he should be yelling at them, stomping up to his room, and avoiding everyone.

But his mind was numb.

His body wouldn't cooperate.

More tears trickled down his cheeks, but he didn't even have the strength to sniffle.

He could only stare at his classmates surrounding him.

A Selfless Idiot | 2,265 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 17 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Main Character(s): Shouta Aizawa, All Might, Katsuki Bakugou, Izuku Midoriya

Katsuki heard Deku's footsteps behind him, which made him grit his teeth. He knew he had to tolerate him, but it still felt like they were back in elementary school and he was chasing after him, no matter how many times Katsuki pushed him away.

The footsteps grew closer, and Katsuki balled his hand into a fist to keep from lashing out.

As much as he hated it, they had to at least work beside each other - because there was no way he was going to work with shitty Deku - which meant no attacking him.

To his great disappointment.

There was a heavy blow to the back of his head, and the world went dark before Katsuki had the chance to feel the asphalt against his face.

Inevitable Tragedy | 2,042 words, 3/3 Chapters Part 16 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Main Character(s): Hitoshi Shinsou, Shouta Aizawa, Original Male Character(s)

The lights of the city looked so small from Hitoshi's vantage point.

He threw the end of his scarf out, mirroring Aizawa's, and both leapt through the air again.

He was grateful that the underground hero had taken him on as an intern, but anxiety bubbled throughout his body, keeping him on edge.

It was his first time chasing villains with his mentor.

This Is Why | 1,504 words, 7/7 Chapters Part 15 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Main Character(s): Shoto Todoroki

I don't normally journal my thoughts, but Hanta thought it might help me. I hope it does.

Today, my father tried to contact me again.

I mention him continuing to train me once, and now he won't let it go.

I've started having the nightmares again. The ones where he's burning me alive and I can't do a damn thing about it.

I haven't told anyone about it, but I think some people have an idea that I haven't been sleeping well. Midoriya said I looked even more tired than Shinsou.

Desperate Times And Desperate Measures | 717 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 14 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Main Character(s): Tamaki Amajiki, Mirio Togata, Eri

"AH!"

A sudden pain deep in his chest brought him back to consciousness.

"Mirio...?" he gasped.

Something was wrong.

Tamaki wasn't sure how he knew... but he just did.

Breaking The Unbreakable | 1,736 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 13 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Main Character(s): Eijiro Kirishima, Daruma Ujiko, Shouta Aizawa, Nomu, Tomura Shigaraki

Eijiro groaned as he drifted into consciousness, the room bright around him.

Had he forgotten to turn the lights off before going to sleep again?

He tried to rock into a sitting position but found that he couldn't move his body. "The hell...?" he slurred, sleep making his tongue feel fuzzy.

Or, maybe that wasn't because of sleep.

Maybe it was because of the IV.

"It's all my fault" | 2,138 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 12 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Main Character(s): Denki Kaminari, Eijiro Kirishima, Ochako Uraraka, Toru Hagakure, Hanta Sero, Mina Ashido, Shouta Aizawa, Power Loader

Without warning, Sero marched up to Denki and punched him in the jaw.

The rest of their friends exploded, some attempting to restrain Sero, and others helping Denki to his feet.

Denki could only gape at his friend. "What the hell, man? What was that for?"

"This entire fuck-up of a midnight hangout was your idea, Kaminari! Now, we're stuck in here while the villains are outside, just waiting for us to come out so they can ambush us again. We're fucked!" He glared at Denki as he shrugged Uraraka's and Hagakure's hands off him. "'What could go wrong?' you asked after suggesting this whole damned trip."

Denki swallowed the lump in his throat.

"We should have never listened to you." Sero spat.

A Spark Of Hope | 1,347 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 11 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Main Character(s): Kyoka Jiro, Denki Kaminari, Original Male Character(s) A sequel to Toxic Love

The first thing that Kyoka noticed when she woke up was that her head was killing her.

She groaned and attempted to bring a hand to her head to assess the damage, but her limbs wouldn't respond correctly.

Prying her eyes open, she was met with absolute darkness.

Her Favorite Time Of Day | 1,749 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 10 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Main Character(s): Himiko Toga, Tomura Shigaraki, Ambiguous Character(s)

Himiko giggled as she skipped down the hall toward the special room. She heard Tomura's annoyed sigh from behind her, but she didn't care.

It was her favorite time of day!

Shaky Business | 1,256 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 7 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Main Character(s): Shouta Aizawa, Hizashi Yamada, Original Male Character, Oboro Shirakumo (mentioned)

As the group approached the ornate door at the end of the hallway, one of the guards sped up slightly so that he could hold the door open for Shouta.

He nodded a 'thanks' before entering Adachi's office.

The man was seated in his chair behind a polished wooden desk. He looked up and caught Shouta off guard with a bright smile. "Ah! You must be Shirakumo, right?"

Adachi extended a hand, which Shouta hesitantly gripped and shook. "That's right, sir. Oboro Shirakumo."

The Other Side Of The Hall | 1,164 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 4 of Denki needs therapy Part 6 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Part 1 of Kacchan needs therapy Main Character(s): Katsuki Bakugou, Denki Kaminari, Mr. Compress, Shouta Aizawa

Dammit, how the fuck did I get kidnapped, again?!

Katsuki wasn't sure where he was or how long he'd been here, but he was certain of one thing: Kaminari was here with him.

Lilac Insomniac | 2,336 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 4 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Main Character(s): Hitoshi Shinsou, Eijiro Kirishima, Shouta Aizawa, Eri

It took him a second to remember what had happened, but when he did, he cringed.

He'd been climbing up the scarf without a mat underneath him. He'd lost his grip and...

As if on cue, Hitoshi felt dampness making his hair sticky. He reached up a hand, startled when it came back bloody.

That wasn't supposed to happen.

An Honest Mistake | 710 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 1 of Lunar's Whumptober of Suffering (2022) Main Character(s): Tamaki Amajiki, Eijiro Kirishima, Fat Gum

"Yeah, our Suneater's got some serious talent. His mental game needs work, but he's as strong as a Pro! Right?"

Tamaki wanted to curl in on himself as the crowd around them erupted. The sound alone was enough to make him want to hide in his cape.

He almost did, then he heard Fat Gum's shout.

"He's got a gun! Down!"

Into The Snake Den | 3,392 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 1 of Pit Of Vipers Main Character(s): Hitoshi Shinsou, All For One, Tomura Shigaraki, Shouta Aizawa Inspired by art

Viper has lived his entire life with Father.

Father saved him.

Father cares for him.

Father loves him.

He owes Father.

He owes him everything.

"How does it feel?" | 1,410 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 3 of Denki needs therapy Main Character(s): Denki Kaminari, Mr. Compress

He moaned, low and pitiful.

Why weren't the heroes here?

Why weren't his friends here?

They had to be on their way... right?

My Moonbeam | 1,544 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 13 of Shinkami Month 2022 Main Character(s): Hitoshi Shinsou, Denki Kaminari

For the most part, Hitoshi's patrols were unremarkable.

That's not to say that they were boring. There was always some illicit activity that kept him alert through all hours of the night.

But usually, they were just that: illicit activity. Drug deals and drunk fights.

The Scars That You Left | 2,702 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 7 of Shinkami Month 2022 Main Character(s): Hitoshi Shinsou, Denki Kaminari

As long as he can remember, he's had his scars.

Although, technically, they weren't his scars, per se.

They couldn't be. His scars might be small, but they were noticeable, marring his face, mocking him every time he passed a mirror and dared to look in.

These scars were beautiful, running over his body like branching ferns, across his limbs and torso.

No, they couldn't be his scars.

He didn't deserve anything as beautiful as that.

Tidal Wave | 6,277 words, 3/3 Chapters Part 2 of Dysphoria in Rubies, Gold, Lilac, and Emerald Main Character(s): Hitoshi Shinsou, Denki Kaminari, Shouta Aizawa, Eri, Hizashi Yamada, Katsuki Bakugou Now with art

When a Ripple Effect goes unchecked, it can lead to disastrous consequences.

Quirk Accident | 5,665 words, 3/3 Chapters Part 1 of Dysphoria in Rubies, Gold, Lilac, and Emerald Inspired by art

Denki's Quirk goes out of control. But there's something much more sinister and destructive hiding underneath the surface.

"Don't make me" | 653 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 29 of The Merry Whump of May Part 2 of Denki needs therapy Main Character(s): Denki Kaminari, Mr. Compress

When Denki regained consciousness an indeterminable amount of time later, he was feeling much more alert.

Unfortunately, this had the side effect of letting him feel his impaled hand with disturbing clarity.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" | 1,639 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 27 of The Merry Whump of May Main Character(s): Oboro Shirakumo, Shouta Aizawa, Kurogiri, Tomura Shigaraki

Workstudies were hard.

That was the only thing circling through Oboro's head as he fell down onto his mattress at the end of the day.

"Please" | 1,173 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 23 of The Merry Whump of May Main Character(s): Eijiro Kirishima, Shie Hassaikai, Kai Chisaki, Shin Nemoto

When Eijiro debuted as Red Riot, he had shown off his Quirk at its maximum: Red Riot Unbreakable. The publicity from the fight had made his mind spin.

But, as all seasoned Pros knew - as Eijiro was about to discover - publicity had the tendency to backlash.

"Are you cold?" | 744 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 21 of The Merry Whump of May Main Character(s): Shoto Todoroki, Original Female Character Now with a sequel: "Are you happy to see me?"

As a 'present' for his seventeenth birthday, Endeavor gifted his son with a wife.

"Let's go back inside" | 1,154 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 17 of The Merry Whump of May Main Character(s): Hanta Sero, Mina Ashido, Katsuki Bakugou, Denki Kaminari, Eijiro Kirishima, Kyoka Jiro, Dabi, Toru Hagakure

The light above them flickered, humming faintly.

Hanta watched his classmates wake up one by one.

"When did you get so brave?" | 1,407 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 15 of The Merry Whump of May Main Character(s): Katsuki Bakugou, Neito Monoma

Katsuki growled at nothing in particular, straining once again to free himself.

He'd awoken to a dark room, strapped down to a metal bed. Normally he'd just explode his way out, but his asswipe captor had tied his hands to his thighs, ensuring that if he tried to use his Quirk, he'd just end up burning himself in the process.

How the fuck did I even get here?!

"Trust me, you don't wanna do that" | 821 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 14 of The Merry Whump of May Part 1 of Denki needs therapy Main Character(s): Denki Kaminari, Mr. Compress

The world drifted in and out of focus as Denki's head lolled. His eyes were blinking weird, one at a time and too heavy. it was too hard to try to keep them open, but Denki knew that he should keep them open.

He wasn't sure why though.

"Relax" | 1,220 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 7 of The Merry Whump of May Main Character(s): Hitoshi Shinsou, Mashirao Ojiro

Hitoshi set his jaw tightly as he walked up to the stage after his name was called.

He was finally done with high school. He's graduated from UA's General Studies at the top of his class.

It all felt fake. Like they were patting him on the back and telling him 'good job' for taking a step, while everyone else around him, everyone with blessed Quirks, flew through the air, leagues ahead of him.

Condescending assholes.

"Shoulders back, eyes on me" | 1,404 words, 1/1 Chapters Part 4 of The Merry Whump of May Main Character(s): Hizashi Yamada, Shouta Aizawa, Original Male Character

Hizashi leaned back on their couch, tossing a handful of popcorn into his mouth. "Okay, the next movie is better than that one, I promise."

"Sequels are rarely worth watching," Shouta grumbled, but turned his attention to the opening credits of their third movie. "And any movie after that just deteriorates in quality."

Those Damn Flowers | 32,459 words, 24/24 Chapters Main Character(s): Shouta Aizawa, Hizashi Yamada, Chiyo Shuzenji, Tsuyu Asui, Hitoshi Shinsou, Oboro Shirakumo, Nemuri Kayama

Shouta Aizawa is content with his life. He teaches, patrols, spends Saturdays with his best friend, then does it all over again.

This all comes crashing down when he coughs up a petal.

Who Is In Control? | 6,925 words, 7/? Chapters Main Character(s): Carlos de Vil, Jay, Evie, Mal, Cruella de Vil, Dude

Inspired by the song of the same title by Halsey. Carlos chose good with the rest of the Core Four. So everything should be fine, right? Well, not according to the voices that Carlos starts hearing. The whispers in his ears and the shadows flickering in his vision have Carlos questioning: Who is in control?

[howaboutcastiel]

Lunar Therapy: Losing Your Hair

Going to be honest… this lunar therapy session is entirely selfish because my hair is falling out and I’m freaking out. I just pulled handfuls of hair out of my scalp in the shower as I was washing it… and I don’t know how to cope with that. So I’m gonna write fanfiction. Masterlist. I think that:

Steven Grant

- would hold you and just let you cry. You come out of the bathroom after a shower or emerge from the bedroom after brushing your hair and… he just takes you in his arms and lets you sob through it.

- he’s very gentle and sweet-talking, right? He tells you that it’s gonna be okay and that you’re still beautiful and always beautiful to him. He strokes your face and rubs your back and just makes you feel loved.

- Steven will research hairstyles to hide the patches in your hair. He will learn how to braid, how to plate, how fucking knit your hair together if he thinks it will help. And he’ll sit you down in the living room and put on your favorite show while he sits above you and practices all of the styles.

- he will buy you whatever you want to cover your head: scarves, hats, wigs, whatever. He won’t let you spend a penny of your own money on it either. He gets you a whole wardrobe of things to choose from.

- and when you’re not wearing those, he makes sure to love on you just as much. He still holds you the same, he still kisses your forehead and ravages your neck and massages circles into your back. He still falls asleep in the crook of your neck.

Marc Spector:

- will love you harder. That’s all that he knows how to do. When you start showing insecurity, when you start refusing to go out without a hat on or your hair up in a bun, he showers you with so much love you could drown in it.

- he’ll shave his head with you, if it comes to that. He’s used to the buzz cut from the marines anyway, and knows that the gesture means more than his appearance anyway.

- He helps you with the practical parts of it all. When your scalp hurts too much for you to brush your hair, he’ll finger-comb it down, whispering sweet nothings and making sure that he’s not hurting you. He’ll plant kisses on your neck and back while you finish getting ready, telling you how beautiful you are and how he just can’t keep his hands off.

- When you cry, he’ll cry with you. He can’t help himself. But you can’t help but feel loved and wanted no matter how much it seems unlikely, because Marc loves you so deeply that he’s almost an extension of you. Everything you feel, he feels. He never wants you to feel unwanted. Ever.

Jake Lockey

- never, for one second, makes you feel any less beautiful. He doesn’t just shower you with affection, he lusts over you like a bitch in heat. Constantly, publicly, aggressively. If you aren’t blushing, he knows he’s got work to do.

- He will be the one to shave your head, when that time comes. He will pause several times through the process, to either hold you or kiss you, or just to take a breath and cry with you. When you’re finished, he’ll stand at the mirror with you and tell you how stunning you are. Forever and always.

- Somehow, he will make you laugh about it. He’ll make the air so light that you forget how to cry. The humor isn’t just a way to cope, it’s a way to heal. Jake makes you laugh not to mask your fear or grief, but to build something joyful in and of itself.

Listen… there’s a lot going on. I don’t think I’m going to have to shave my head or anything, I just needed to do this. It’s one of those things that you don’t mourn about publicly, I don’t know. It’s not something my friends or family really care about right now. It’s just scary to me. And my head hurts.

[howaboutcastiel]

Lunar Therapy: Strict Parent Recovery

Again, I don’t know what else to call this one. Perfectionism? Imposter syndrome? Crippling anxiety and fear of failure and abandonment that you carry your entire life? I believe that…

Steven Grant

Does not remember what that’s like. He has good self esteem and is able to be proud of all of his accomplishments and forgive himself when he messes up or falls short. That being said,

He’s got a lot of experience helping Marc with all of that, because he definitely does remember what that’s like. Steven has learned to praise the accomplishments of the people he loves and to never invalidate feelings of inadequacy. He has learned to notice the body language of someone who’s over-extending themself. Most importantly, he’s learned how how to notice the guilt and fear that eats at you.

Sometimes he’s overly sweet and he doesn’t understand why that makes you feel worse. He says things like “You’re allowed to not be perfect, you know. You don’t have to do things just because other people expect you to do them.”

He has to take a more dominant approach. Instead of saying “it’s okay that the dishes aren’t done.” He learns to say “Darling, you need to take a rest before you try to do any more work.”

Steven is better at helping with the bigger stresses. “It’s alright that you didn’t get that big promotion at work. It’s alright that you had to pause your plans to go to college. You’re doing so many good things. I love you just the way you are and I love everything that you’ve accomplished.”

Marc Spector

Knows what it’s like. He knows the panic of hearing the car door outside and cowering in shame because you know the chores aren’t done to their expectations. He knows the careful art of hiding failed quizzes or dodging questions about math class or hiding your baseball glove under your pillow because you know that homework always comes first.

And he knows that you know that it’s safe now. No one’s going to yell at you because there’s dirty laundry in the basket. No one’s going to make you skip dinner because you didn’t turn in your term paper on time. No one’s going to grab their belt from the closet because you should know better than this.

Steven has taught him what helps and what doesn’t. Toxic positivity can be just as bad as silence, so he resists the urge to tell you that you’re the most perfect person he’s ever seen. He’s so proud of you, so in awe of you and your strength and resilience and vigor, but he doesn’t say that outright.

He’s a man of few words, but he makes all of them count. “It’s okay, they’re just clothes.” “Don’t beat yourself up, you’ve been working hard.” And sometimes, he knows the most effective thing to say is “Don’t sweat it, baby. Everyone is lazy sometimes. You’re allowed to be lazy. You’re human.”

Marc uses gestures to calm you, too. He’ll hug you from behind while you’re cooking dinner. He’ll shut off your desk lamp if you stay up too late perfecting that last homework project. He’ll call in sick at your work, letting you watch from across the room as he dials the number, if he believes that you’re not allowing yourself the mental or physical break you deserve.

Jake Lockley

Remembers what it’s like. He remembers the crack of the belt and the slamming of doors and the hungry nights locked in his childhood bedroom. He never quite learned to feel guilty for whatever he was being punished for. Most of the time, he wasn’t around for that part anyway. Jake never spent time placing blame on himself.

That being said, he would never, ever, ever let someone else feel that blame. He would argue with you until his face turned blue if you ever expressed to him that you felt like you weren’t enough. That you felt like you needed to be more perfect.

Jake doesn’t take the time to praise your accomplishments, not during the time that you’re having these feelings. He chooses to focus on the fact that you must unlearn the feelings. You must learn to forgive yourself for your perceived shortcomings.

When you come home from a bad day, or when he comes home to find a sink of dishes or an un-mopped floor, he’ll make you celebrate. He’ll make the two of you get your favorite meal and watch your favorite movie and do whatever else you normally do to have fun.

“You can’t beat yourself up. You have to say instead “hey, I really sucked today, and the world kept on spinning. I disappointed myself and the sun still rose and set like it always done. If that isn’t cause for celebration, then nothing in the world is.”

When you actually do hit milestones and check off boxes on your list of goals, he treats you like the deity he already thinks you are. Forget food and movies, he’ll call you out of work or school or wherever and take you on an adventure halfway around the world. Jake will buy you a new outfit, new jewelry, anything to make you feel good about yourself. On the trip, he’ll tell everyone about your accomplishment as the reason you’re “celebrating” by taking a vacation.

Soupy, weird and specific thoughts. Idk I didn’t want to really get into the feelings and situations that stem from strict parents, because experiences are so different and also I don’t want to trigger myself lol. I find myself being a lot harder on myself than my roommates concerning how I treat our coming areas and shared chores, and I’m a very much perfectionist when it comes to school even though there’s no reason for me to need to be.

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Lunar Therapy Masterlist

Non-verbal episodes

Stress-induced anxiety attacks

“I don’t feel like I deserve to eat today.”

Strict Parent Recovery

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

Losing Your Hair

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HowAboutCastiel's Fic Masterlist

I guess I’ve written enough fics that I kinda need to make one of these now 🤷‍♀️

Request Rules

Currently, I have fics published from the Moon Knight, Daredevil, Mandalorian, and Last of Us universes. Feel free to request beyond these fandoms, though <3

Star Wars

Din Djarin x Reader:

Out of This World (18+): You only get to see The Mandalorian when he comes to visit your cantina in Mos Espa. He seems to be finding more reasons to stop by.

The Apostate (18+): Din broke the creed. He removed his helmet and, as a result, opened himself up to possibilities he couldn’t have ever conceived of before. (Plus an expansion)

And Also With You (18+): As an ex-Jedi, you had found a good planet to hide on, and you were satisfied with the quiet. That was, until a mandalorian with a reputation wandered into your quaint little village.

Din Djarin x Cobb Vanth:

Find a New Way (18+): For the safety of his son, Din attempts to escape the cult he was raised in, with help from the sheriff of the next town over.

Moon Knight

Steven Grant x Reader:

All I Desire (18+): Reader has not been in a relationship in a while and is scared to have sex with Steven for the first time.

On My Command (18+): You want to wind down after a bad day at work, but Steven is over-eager as always.

Let Me Take It: (CW) You had a bad day that leads to a spiral. Steven tries to help you through it.

Set The Record Straight (18+): In the heat of an argument you imply that Steven is a pushover.

Helping You Through II

Hold Me Together: Hey! Could I make a request for one of the moon bois (your choice!) helping you out after you get home from a particularly rough therapy session?

The Tour Guide (18+): The reader has never been in a serious relationship, and now things are moving forward in her relationship with Steven.

From the Ground Up… Again (18+): After you were injured on a mission, Steven helps you get back on your feet with some tender love and care.

Marc Spector x Reader:

The Silver-Plated Moon: An overstimulating day away from your boys leads to a meltdown, causing you to accidentally break one of the most precious gifts you’ve ever received.

How Do I Ask? (18+): You loved the way that your boyfriend Marc made love to you. That being said, sometimes you longed for something… rougher.

Keep Me Warm: it’s cold outside. Like, really really cold. Marc doesn’t seem to mind, and he likes to tease you about your intolerance to the ice and wind.

A Reminder (18+): Marc x Reader x Layla. Thats it. That’s the plot.

Helping You Through I

From the Ground Up (18+): Getting lost on a mission is a terrifying experience. Being found in the nick of time by the man you love most is a captivating one. (Marc x Male!Reader)

Uncharted Territory: "I was wondering if you could do something with the reader and Marc are going to make love for the first time and she’s nervous bc she has SH scars and her and Marc never talked about that part of her life?"

Jake Lockley x Reader:

Make Your Acquaintance (Chaptered): You’re in a committed relationship with Marc and Steven, but have only heard of Jake through their descriptions. Intimidated by his reputation, you don’t know what to do when a mission gone awry brings Jake right to the front.

The Teddy Bear: The reader has a stuffed animal that they can’t sleep without. Embarrassed, they hide it away whenever their boyfriend, Jake, comes over.

Just a Bit Closer (18+): I was wondering if you could maybe do something with Papi Jake? Soft (only for his princess) Where the reader is craving some on-one time with him.

The Regular Surprise: (Extreme CW) On the night of a big town festival, she reaches her breaking point. A familiar face at an unfamiliar time may just be her last hope.

The Birthday Fic: It’s your birthday. You hope someone will remember.

Moon boys x Reader(2 or more):

Lunar Therapy Masterlist

Not My Intention: "maybe they’re at an office party and some guy comes to her when she’s alone and the boys get jealous since it’s obvious he’s trying to flirt with their girl."

The Birthday Fic: It’s your birthday. You don’t think anyone will remember.

That One Angsty Fic (TW): Sometimes you're your own worst enemy. The moon boys understand that, even when you don't at first.

I Can’t Help Myself (18+): Jake accidentally touches a cursed artifact while on a mission.

A Threatening Paradise: “Could you do a one shot where there’s an unwanted pregnancy scare eventually leading to a marriage proposal?”

Where’s Taweret When You Need Her?: You start your period and you don’t know how the boys are going to react to it.

Looking Good, Four Eyes: could you pls do a fic with the three moon boys where they’d see the reader with her glasses for the first time? 

Two Steps Forward (18+): A fun night with Jake ends up backfiring as Marc is triggered to front mid-coitus.

A Change of Heart: The reader is kidnapped by Harrow as leverage for Moon Knight to hand over the scarab.

Carry me home: Kicked out of your parents house at 16, you find yourself under the care of a cryptic taxi driver. (Jake Lockley accidentally adopts a teenager)

A Reminder: Layla and Marc punish you.

Kinktober 2022 Masterlist

Non-Insert

Fire Within My Soul (Chaptered): Marc and Steven have a lot to contend with after they return from Cairo. The one thing on their minds, though, is Layla El-Faouly.

More Than Alright (18+): it’s Steven and Layla’s first time together. He’s nervous.

Marvel

Matt Murdock

Having sex with Matt in a stairwell (headcanon)

The Last of Us

Joel Miller

The Robe and Crown [18+]: Joel and Tommy are raiders. Not by choice, not for the thrill. They’re doing what they must to survive. So why, then, is Joel letting you tag along when you’re just another mouth to feed?

That Good Old Way: Picking up right where The Robe and Crown left off, Joel has decided to stay with you.