#lumi has random thoughts at times. this is one of them

[lumenstellaris]

do akademiya students still drink water or is their blood just made of coffee?

[puripurin]

Yan! Llama Hybrid x SheepHybrid! Reader

— Recently, on the farm, a bunch of coyotes and wolves started to snag some sheep hybrids into the woods when they would get too close to the fences. It has gotten so bad that they would do it in broad daylight.

The owners decided that they would introduce a new addition to the herd to combat the coyotes. A male Llama named Lumi. All of the sheep were skeptical at first because they all thought that it was a little odd that the new sheep would have such a long neck and a lot bigger in size, but soon enough, they couldn't help but warm up to him.

Lumi, on the other hand, was still in his awkward phase. He'd recently entered into adulthood and was feeling sad and lonely without his parents there to guide him, but it wasn't until he saw your gorgeous curls and your small little tail that wagged in excitement. Just in that moment, he'd decided to be your life-long mate and started the process of courting you.

You did not give a shit about Lumi. You only cared about the coyotes that ate the rest of the flock. You wanted to start making sacrifices to grow your cult of small critters such as squirrels and rabbits.

This was because you heard from a passing by sheep hybrid that was being transported to another farm about how you could obtain everything you wanted if people devoted their lives to you.

However, you didn't expect Lumi to be so dedicated to you that he'd easily deciphered your messages to your devout followers and your weekly gatherings.

As you walked out of the dead of night, with the intention of killing a coyote that night. But it was oddly still, as if it was waiting for something. The trees didn't ruffle against each other, and the cool wind was nowhere to be seen

You stiffened up and silently walked back. If one of the other sheeps found out about this whole cult thing you had going on, you'd be ousted and killed by the coyotes instead.

But, you were immediately thrown down and turned over. Your eyes widened in panic and started to attack the person who held you down silently, only to realize that blood was dripping on your face.

"My love, I've killed one of those tainted and unpure coyotes for your sacrifice. I would hate to see your delicate hands get stained with something unworthy of your desire... but why... Why do you yearn and look at someone else with interest other than me? ... Only I shall be your eyes and ears, my love..."

Random and barely edit post after months of not posting. I was watch yt shorts and i came across a video abt guard llamas w sheeps. Its been on my mind for 3 weeks and i started this 2 weeks ago. I only decided now to finish it.

You can see the point where i went fuck it because i had no idea what to do with the reader's background so i was like "Ooh maybe they want to smash the coyotes... what's close to smashing coyotes... Cult." Cult leader YN it is.

Anyways below is for the rest of people who want to know what happened after that incident.

I feel better about my dog's death, but we weren't able to get him back due to the poor weather and the fact he was last seen in a drain. So there wasn't a proper burial, but I'm happy that we didn't end up with 2 losses. We had them since they were puppies, and its upsetting that the younger one died, but i understand why they had to kill him.

He's a dangerous breed of dog even though he's docile most of them time. He was a cane corso, and my older dog is a rottweiler and pitbull mix. So not the most safest dogs to be around, but what are you gonna do when your country is busy locking up a man for money laundering bcs they shit at their jobs.

Right, if I'm not lazy enough, I'll go back and redo every one of my ocs bcs im on the verge of deleting them all from embarrassment. Then that will hopefully be a small week long event for my tumblr as im not used to those things. But this might take months.

Also, no won't do kinktober, im lazy, and smut isn't my forte. Anyways bye-bye, see yall when my coffin feels too stuffy~

(soz if this is shit as well bcs i didn't do a whole lotta explaining abt Lumi's behavior)

[bluemoonjayy]

𝗥𝗢𝗟𝗟𝗘𝗥𝗖𝗢𝗔𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗥 𝗢𝗙 𝗘𝗠𝗢𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡𝗦

[𝕸𝖆𝖙𝖙 𝖘𝖙𝖚𝖗𝖓𝖎𝖔𝖑𝖔 𝖝 𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖉𝖊𝖗]

𝘚𝘜𝘔𝘔𝘈𝘙𝘠: ʏ/ɴ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ ʏᴠᴇ ɢᴏ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴀʀɴɪᴠᴀʟ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴇᴇᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏᴡɴᴇʀ'ꜱ ᴋɪᴅꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴀ ᴄᴀʀᴏᴜꜱᴇʟ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇʏ ʟᴏᴠᴇ

[PART 1] [PART 2]

PLAYLIST:

On dat bxtch by lumi athena

Swimming pools by Kendrick Lamar or lloyd version

The party and the after party (Sango remix) by the weeknd

All mine by plaza

Nightcrawler by Travis scott

On the floor by removeface

Swim by chase atlantic

Into it by chase atlantic

[I RECOMMEND THE SLOWED VERSION]

BEFORE READING

- I wanted to say that english is not my first language so if I make some mistakes tell me lol

- this is not really my first story but im trying to write something different and also hope you like it :3

IM GONNA MAKE A CHRIS ONE IF Y'ALL WILL LIKE THIS

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-Are you ready?- my friend Yve asks me after knocking at the door of my room

-yeah, almost done!- I reply -i just need to wear my pants!- I wear them as quickly as possible and open the entrance

-finally!- she rools her eyes quite annoyed by the fact that I made her wait a bit too much -We had to be at the carnival almost 15 minutes ago…-

-sorry, sorry, sorryyyy!- I take my bag and her hand -we’re gonna absolutely run there- and we do as I said, sprinting through the people that are in the streets trying not to hit them

Well…

it didn't work…

-oh my goodness, I'm so sorry!- i apologize as I head myself to my friend who is far from me

-damn, it took you hours to arrive-

-its already much if I'm still alive- I take deep breaths because of the long run I had

After some seconds I recompose myself and look up seeing the amazing carousels that I was waiting to go on since the end of the school

My favorites are the musik express and the tagada

They're the best!

My friend actually finds them boring but still goes with me for unknown reasons, maybe just to keep me company

-come on!- Yve runs leaving me alone

-oh, you bitch!- I laugh and follow her

We first go near the tagada

I notice two boys on it

They both look so alike but one has quite long hair and a hat, they're probably twins

-Yve? Why are they the only ones on it?- I turn my head to watch her

-they’re the owner's kids- she replies -they do this to test the carousel to see if it has some problems, you know-

I return my eyes back on the two of them

-Nick! Make this thing start!- the one with the hat screams at another person that looked like them in the control box

-okay, Chris!- he presses some buttons and the machine moves

The boys are still standing at the center of it

-Matt, are you ready?- Chris screams

-Yes, i am!- he smiles a little

The carousel starts to move and the brothers do the most insane things to not fall down of it

One of them does a backflip

-wow!- Yve whispers -they’re really good-

-i could never- I chuckle

I would probably be at the hospital if I even tried to stand on it for a second

After some other crazy backflips and shit the carousel stops

Matt looks at me in the eyes and I feel myself getting this crazy feeling that I almost never had in my entire life

He smirks and winks at me

“Wait…did he REALLY do that to me?”

-Matt, we gotta help Nick with the tickets- Chris points at the control box where the poor boy is being pressured selling tickets to hundreds of people

-yeah…- the brunette looks at me a last time and heads to the other brothers

“he's so fin-Y/N! Stop having crushes on random people that show you affection,okay?” my cheeks get red at the thought of the last gesture that the man did

“but still…what if he wasn't doing that to me? What if I'm just being delusional? what if-”

My thoughts get interrupted by my friend

-girl, are you okay? You're blushing like crazy right now!- she laughs

-stop! It's better if we go try the attractions- we head to the nearest one

*one hour later*

It's time to (finally) go on the tagada

Yve pays her ticket and sits on the first free place she found

-it’s 3 dollars- Nick tells me and I take the money to give him

-Wait!- I look at the boy's side and I see matt -i’ll pay her ticket-

At those words I smile -don’t worry it's just 3 dollars!-

-nah, you shouldn't worry- he hands me the ticket -come on!-

I take it a bit reluctantly and sit far from my friend since almost all the good places got taken

I begin to hold myself tight to not slip/fall

Like I said before, my friend is literally unbothered by all of this

She doesn't even hold much most of the times

Maybe I'm too scared, i should be relaxed like her

I'm not gonna die for a stupid game after all

SWIMMING POOLS BY KENDRICK LAMAR PLAYS

My favorite song starts and I smile looking at Yve that mouths "im here just because of you"

I rool my eyes and we both laugh

-okay, ladies and gentlemen or whatever! The ride is initiating so hold yourself and have fun!- Nick states in the microphone

The two brothers are the last to enter

They both positionate in the middle, Matt right in front of me

He smiles and i do so too

“I'm 100 percent sure now that he's flirting with me” I think

Nobody ever flirted with me, people always tried to avoid being near me

Except Yve

She sees the real me and Im really grateful for that

The carousel starts and I feel quite nervous

It first spins around not too fast but some seconds after it forces some thrusts

As always, I was about to fall from the seat

Meanwhile Matt and Chris where perfectly standing and occasionally jumping to avoid the thrusts

I was watching them thinking that I wanted to learn how to do that too

I manage to not slip for almost the whole time

The ride was about to end and Nick announces the last round

I turn to mouth to my friend “help me” and she replies with “its all right”

The carousel spins around really fast and I try my best to stay where I am

Suddenly Matt loses balance and bumps into me

It didn't hurt much fortunately and he sits beside me

The game stops, making everyone stand up and head to the exit

I was about to too but the boy takes my hand

-i…I wanted to apologize for what happened- he says -did I hurt you?-

-im fine, don't worry!- I smile -and thanks again for the ticket-

-no problem, babe- he smirks

I feel myself exploding mentally and almost physically

-well…I have to go, see you- I leave and he follows me

-can't you stay a bit more?- I turn to face him

-i should be with my friend actually…-

I stop to think

This boy is trying to flirt with me and he's also my type

Yve will understand

I take my phone and text her

•YVE• •YOU•

You can go without me,

I'll explain later

fine...

✅(read)

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-okay, now I can- his face seems to enlighten at my words

-great! Wanna take a drink?- I nod a yes and we head to the nearest bar

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PLEASE TELL ME IF YOU LIKED IT :D

SEE YAAAA

[pillow-talk-and-sleepy-cuddles]

I don't even know what to ask about or for. What's on your mind Rowan? Drop the thoughts.

omg... hi lumi.

what i'm thinking of rn? ooh... sex store and omegaverse aus. specifically the smut part of them.

in the sex store au: grian tuning into his first live show of scar's out of curiousity. he thought scar was pretty adamant that he tune in when he came into the store earlier, so who was he to deny his offer to watch him later? he may not be into sex, but he could get behind seeing a man make a fool of himself for money for a few minutes he supposed. he would just stay for a few minutes and then leave. then he actually starts watching and oh. wait, scar was handsome. how did Grian not relaize that earlier? he didn't know but he sure did notice now. oh and look at those abs, the way they flexed as he moved. grian wasn't even paying attention to what scar was doing to himself anymore, instead focused on those strong arms and abs. he couldn't see his face, it wasn't in frame(probably to keep random weirdos from approaching him on the street and doing whatever they did to cam stars), but he mulled over the vision of what it did look like earlier that day in his head as he sat on his bed looking intensely at his phone.

in the omegaverse au: grian's presentation suppressants run out. after being on them for over a decade, he knows he's about to go into a super bad heat. he doesn't have much time to prepare for it and he knows this. he hastily gets today enough food and water to last him during his heat as his head slowly gets fuzzier and his skin starts to get warmer. by the time everything is ready and he's sent out a message that he's sick and he doesn't want anyone to come over and help him to try to deter all his servermates to at least try to keep his heat a secret(despite the fact that he knows if anyone gets even remotely close to his base they'll know he's in heat), he's throwing off his clothes with frustration as he jumps into his nest(he's an avian so he has one) and fusses with it until it's just right, nice and pretty for any potential mates who may be interested in him. in his last moments of full awareness he fumbles around as he looks for the toys that he knew were scatter around his nest from all those lonely nights. he finds them fairly quickly and succumbs to his heat as he thrusts his fingers in and out of his wet, pliant hole, preparing himself for a dildo(just to hold him over until a mate found him, his brain would tell itself to keep him calmer).

enter scar.

fdjslkfjsdlkjf that actually didn't end up being too smutty but whatever take it or leave it ig LOL.

[nya-vivi]

in the end im replying to the oc ask in. another ask lol because 1. replying in comments is a pain 2. tumblr dms don't have the option to reply to a particular message and an ask will probably look more organized and better for you to read/reply because i got carried away and it's LONG (also i feel like we're gonna ping pong those long ass answers back and forth nehdhdhs not that i complain) but anyway,,

okokok im finally making a proper reply.

and im connecting in academical pain 🤝

about fandoms i'm interested in, my main ones at the moment are orv and honkai and afaik you're in neither so genshin is a perfect choice BUT im also kinda interested in the non fandom ones 👀 so if you'd like to talk about these ones too im all ears

for Lore:

ok so i had to point this out:

i suppose lore's lore really needs to be as correct as possible jdhdhd (i already love her name it's perfect for a travelersona 11/10)

anyway. so the whole idea is that what if there was another pair of siblings from which one was lost and another searching for them, yes? that's actually really cool, common goal, common adventure, like a better travel companion (sorry paimon). also aether mains unite and pretty boys so true

she honestly sounds like such a fun and positive person, i mean,, running around the teyvat, swinging the claymore back and forth, climbing to random places only to suddenly jump from them giving a heart attack the companions who only a second later notice that shes already gliding and laughing. like a chaotic moving source of serotonin a rey of sunshine etc etc, i think she would get along with amber!

OMG GOLD LORE TIED TO HER i love you for that this is literally my favorite piece of genshin lore. artifical heart is an interesting one i don't think ive seen this one that often actually, so more lifespan in exchange for altered body hmm does it affect her daily life in a way? or does it work the exact same way like a regular one but only works for a longer time?

omg omg so. lore and aether traveling together and at the same time lumi and lorena's sis ended up in the same place AND together together? now that's an interesting coincidence i wonder what lore and aether's reaction would be to finding out

the recent quest. did give us a lot of info about khaenri'ah indeed jdhdhd but that's good! you have now more insight into it

for Qinxi:

ok so this one thing is making me curious, how difficult was it to get a name for her? you listed the symbols that are part of it and was it that you first thought about words/meanings you want to include and then constructed a name, or firstly came up with a name and the symbols alongside it?

oOOoooooOo make up maker, i know absolutely nothing about make up HOWEVER it doesn't stop me from thinking that it's cool! and expensive one? so she's probably on her way to start a very lucrative business

it's nice she managed to combine the two without giving up on one another (if she had to then i hope she'd decide to follow the artist dream) and getting the best outcome. so: effective work ✔️ doing something she likes ✔️ man i wish that was me

omg so even the tianquan of the liyue qixing orders her products? damnnn so she's basically set for life jdhdhd im really curious how you're going to develop her further!!

for Vivi:

she's named like you!! i guess the reason is being self insert right? FAVONIUS LIBRARIAN OMG shes living the best life fr

owow the story has angsty parts im now really curious jdjdjd also a self insert not being involved in the plot has a vibe like when a player does everything in the game - all side quests missions etc EXCEPT the main story (like my friend tends to lol) ndhdhd. also #2: reincarnated villainess in a way she was one but died and now is just a girl or she reincarnated into a villainess character or something? because i read one (technically two if we count a guy version or three if we also count an anime) comic about the latter and that's what my brain associates with that trope jdhdh

geo catalyst so like ningguang, that's really cool of her

jshdhdhs you're also studying languages, right? im starting to see the self insert-ness.

oOOoO irminsul thingies, i must admit i really like the magic time/memory tree stuff in all hoyo games. also ok so this kinda answers my previous question, she was a villainess in a past life but now she's someone else yes? AND got enlightened about all the stuff from previous life when she touched the tree?

ah damn you student debt, but graduating also has its merits so ig it's not the worst scenario's especially that she managed to transfer to mond (truly ms worldwide, from fontaine to sumeru to mond)

honestly being afraid of celestia doesn't surprise me the slightest, everything regarding it is sus as hell. also getting a vision despite not wanting it is in a way suffering from success, she could bond with keqing over that ndhdhd

and mannn, living under celestia's watch sure must be stressful, especially considering all the irminsul and past life things. springvale in this situation you described made me think about the shire from middle-earth jshdhd a peaceful piece of land in a huge fantasy word and its schemes and secrets

please tell me when you come up with next events of her story because this does indeed sound intriguing! i wonder if nahida knows about vivi's past, now that you mentioned her

also #number idk which, we'll be getting fontaine soon, will you be adding more details to vivi's backstory now that we'll have more insight to how exactly life there looks like? or will you just focus on her in the current place and time meaning sumeru - > mond with celestia kiiinda involved?

and ok that's all thank you so much for sharing these with me!! you weren't bothering me at all i asked about that myself after all and to be fair im actually pretty interested in the creation process, because when i have an oc it's really chaotic and random but yours seem so well thought!

also, you know what. reading about your ocs and especially vivi since she's like your own special genshinsona made me think about what would mine be and. now im flooded with thoughts but. here it's not a place for that ksjdjd

also also, if you dont mind could i make a doodle of one of them for you maybe 👉👈 they seem cool and recently i got a sudden boost of motivation and have been practicing digital art so. yeah

Len my beloved I was smiling kicking and giggling silly at the ask fr ♡♡♡

Thank you for the sweet words! I'm not used to sharing original characters, since they tend to be personal and, well, I understand it's not everyone's cup of tea hearing about a random OC that doesn't have even a proper story yet hahah (not me tho, I'm not sane when ocs are involved,,, I love how creative everyone gets about them ♡) so it really made my day!!

I will be answering your questions (and some corrections because I did not express myself correctly ajbsiask English my beloathed) below the read more as last time, not to clog the dash ♡

Uhm, spoilers from Caribert & Act IV of Sumeru's archon quest??

So! Part by part:

About my other non-fandom ocs » so I once (a lot of years ago) made a story (a teeny beety dark) about a girl who could see ghosts and supernatural creatures and she could see her dead friend. In the end I made her friend, Anna, pass away, and I don't like killing my ocs ngl.

So I revived Anna and made her part of a blog idea I had, which was kinda restaurant-like thematic, so there would be a few ocs who worked as servers and the owner was a cat... That was before I found I was not meant to get into the spotlight LOL, but I still keep her in my head as part of the staff and occasionally play with her HAHA I quite like her, she's nice and I learned better of plot devices (so I try to kill my darlings the least I can).

About Lore, the idea at first was that both Lore and her sis were from another city but ended up in Khaenri'ah for one thing or another. Since Lore was the eldest of the two, she was the one to 'get to work' for both of them, but she was sick with a rare heart problem and it was difficult to work.

That's when Gold enters and makes the deal with Lore: Gold gets to experiment on her about artificial hearts (since it is before Albedo and, in my own supposition, she was perfectioning the art of artificial life) and she gets a good heart and money for her and her sister. In the end, the heart is perfectioned just before whatever happened in Khaenri'ah and Lore is sealed away to avoid her heart to be damaged.

That's when the timeline in my own story gets fuzzy, but roughly her sis ends up meeting Lumine and since she's alone (for Lore is asleep and secure), she leaves with Lumine and Dain.

The thing is, that in the Caribert quest they said everyone residing in Khaenri'ah that wasn't part of the nobles ended up turned into hilichurls, so I had to discard that idea </3

Most of the story is adaptable, but I have to get the most important thing very well thought before anything (I kinda need a bit more lore, ah the irony).

Her heart works like a motor: it works like a normal heart but it doesn't beat. It can stop if it is not properly maintained (and after 500 years, it needs revision) so as she's going to look for her sis, she's also looking for Gold (and Albedo) so they can revise her.

In an AU ending, Aether and Lore end up as in-laws LMAO they are friends but the surprise is there.

About Qinxi, the name was hard, because I don't know Chinese Hanzi (the logograms), but I usually use one website where you can see Hanzi combinations for actual names (I cannot quite find the website rn, but I will send it to you if you are interested) and found first the Qin logogram and then the Xi logogram with other combinations. Then, I copied the two and pasted them in yabla and liked how they sounded together. The name was primarily phonetic, then the meaning went along well and left it at that.

My main inspiration for her is the Song Dynasty, specially the make up (you can find there pretty designs of huadian) and also they seem to have pants? Pretty cool imho. But make up making is difficult to find ajdgajdja so I'm still searching for that 👀 (Edit 1: I did in fact find a bit on how chinese people used to do make up, so I have that more covered than before).

About Vivi, okay this is a bit difficult to explain: what I meant with the 'villainess' part was that Vivienne existed as a person before my self-insert inhibited her body.

Basically she died and was transmigrated to a body whose soul died at the same time (that's the mechanic, but it will not be explained tbh). So Vivienne (original) became Vivi. She is not a villainess nor was the previous host a villainess but that is what I informally call a 'villainess reincarnation' lol she still has her memories but they are fuzzy.

I'm thinking of making her transmigrate when Vivienne (og) was already into the Akademiya, simply because I'm not masochistic enough to go through college again HAHAH

I thought about making her catalyst because I detest combat aksboad but at some point I thought about making her ability/ultimate another weapon (since it has been increasing with more charas) but I'm debating, because it was when originally I thought of making her go through adolescence again. As I didn't like the idea of that, I think I might just scratch that out.

The geo part was because I got both geo/dendro elements/characteristics, but I really don't want to go through the academic system again (and honestly, I would be both curious but terribly afraid of finding something I weren't supposed to so a big nono) kavdoadb

To go through the last part of your ask: I didn't remember Celestia has in fact not appeared in 500 years, but because she ends up in the same timeline as the Traveler, she's still afraid xd I was thinking of making her a descendant, as she isn't quite of this world, and her information doesn't really appear in the Irminsul until she actually gets into the body (and thinking over a 'corrupted file' in the Irminsul 👀🤭), so Nahida knows something is up with her but Vivi really doesn't want to say anything important enough to change the plot, so in the end they get into a deal.

We will have to see what is cooking in Fontaine, but I already have a bit of a subplot (Vivi is going to become a wanted woman at some point HAHAH) the only thing left is to see if it isn't discordant with the world quest 👀 I also plan to include some info about her family! She has a brother and a father in-game, so both of them will appear, as she has a good relationship with them.

My goal is make her life difficult but not a disaster jagskadh my poor baby.

I would be SUPER excited if you decide to make art of Vivi 🤭🤭🤭 I have Vivi's info in my pinned post, but I have changed her design a bit 🤡 let me present the bust of her that I changed:

I changed a bit her hair and made her skin complexion darker, because the idea is that her mother was from Sumeru and her body got all the melatonin and I didn't quite knew what ✨color theory✨ was at the time because her base skin color is way lighter than it seems aksbaoxb

I want to change her outfit too, the idea of a sash tied around her waist as corsette type but not as rigid as one is still in my mind. I want her have something flowy (and ribbon-y) to match with both Sumeru's and Fontaine's clothing designs, but at the same time comfortable enough to be in the library or taking a stroll or fishing (because I haven't forgot about it. I have been making rounds and getting the fishing rods and I want her to have it as a hobby lolol). I'm looking for historical references (since it is theorized Fontaine is around the 1700/1800s France) but nothing concrete yet.

The reality of the well thought character (even if I feel she's still way underdeveloped for what I want) is my hyperfixation qjsnsoxb idk if that's good or not, but writing about her makes me think of her more solidly if it makes sense? More tangible than only a concept. Do you want to get mentioned if I ever decide her clothes?? (It's ok to say not don't worry fufu 🤭)

I am very excited for Fontaine (next month??) the only thing I know rn is what the npcs have told us but I'm super excited to see it (and the level of mechanical advancement, which I am obsessed with in genshin) to see what I can work with 👀

Oh! Don't forget to tell me if you ever think more things about your genshinsona 👀 you know I am very interested 👀👀 I feel like mr engineer and Vivi would get along as she's kinda of a mechanic and kind of a nerd about it too <3

[realjem]

Tell us about your blorbos!

oh god oh fuck! well first if you wanna see em, i have a lot of art of them over on @realjem-art and ive been (very slowly) setting up a toyhouse for them (i think ive only added maybe ~half my characters there so far whoopsies)

im gonna put the rest of this under a readmore cause i have no idea how long i'm gonna make this

so i have like... a lot of characters now. i've been building up a bunch of characters and a sliiight story (for some of them at least) since about early 2021, where i made my first actual characters: Ann, Trixie, Scarlett, and Cinnamon

yes i know i've got very generic names for my characters, i don't have the brains for cool names like some people do dgshgdgas

i think my character count is at 56 of them, not including any versions of my sona, because i don't consider that a character, but more of a vessel on what i feel or would want to look like in real life (or just a silly design sometimes)

It sort of shifts around from time to time which characters sort of lodge in my brain the most at a time, for example, at the very beginning, i was definitely showing favoritism towards trixie, and then after i redesigned scarlett a bit, she's been my favorite for a while. there's random bursts where a few of them front for a while, but it typically defaults to scarlett and lumie

lately, i've been drawing a lot of the group i call Halloween Bargain Bin, because they're silly and i really want to flesh them out and their group dynamic a lot more. i've recently plopped a new character into their group (by recently i mean just a few days ago (as of posting this) actually!

as the case is for most of the guys in hbb, a lot of my earlier characters (basically a lot of them made bewteen 2021-2022) were based off of/referenced songs i like. but, because i do want them to feel like more of my own creation, i have been starting to drift a lot of them from their source inspiration, with a few pretty much entirely being divorced from their original inspiration (such as Ann, who was originally a character for Amnesia Was Her Name, which i then couldn't write a story for her well, and now she's just the owner of a lab chock full of creatures, which i just like a lot more)

my characters kinda sort into groups, some small and some way larger, and im just gonna list off all the ones i can think of right now: Ann's Lab, Halloween Bargain Bin, the group of four people that i still don't have a name for (Lilac, Kasey, Fia, Tay), the poly catgirls (Ari, Stella, Savannah), and all the creatures currently within Ann's lab, which is a long list and im not naming them all here (ex: zed, goliath, etc)

because a good chunk of my time is being taken up by school, a lot of my drawings of them right now just look like this:

(^ lumie) since i can access a digital whiteboard on my school computer, where i just draw on that throughout the week, send the link to myself, and then screenshot everything over the weekend

but i do still save time occasionally for actual drawings, such as this one that i still really like

(^ ezekiel, one of my newest characters!) Lately, a lot of the actual drawings have been in this painterly style (procreate, gouache brush)

a lot of character development lately is just me drawing shitposts, small comics that are mostly just jokes but help me try and flesh out their personality a bit

(^ scarlett & lumie, stan and mason) Just quick doodles of stuff i thought was funny and wanted to make real

I do suppose this ask was about my actually talking about my characters, as, well, characters, but i am still bad at that. i will attempt? to talk about a few now?

^ Lumie!! she was made around the start of july 2021 (my first artfight run!) she's my main non-human character pretty much, since her actual story has her in the same role as the humans in AL, as opposed to the monsters. Character design-wise, the most important details are that: she has no eyes, it's just smooth skin where eyes would be on a human, she's larger than an average human (Scarlett is 6'1" where Lumie is 7'4", not much much taller but still), and she glows. she's fuckin bio luminescent! light blue glowing "freckles" break out across her whole body, and her dark hair has the same light blue glow from the bottom up! it's sort of emotionally controlled, so if she were real upset, she'd barely be glowing, and if she were real happy, she'd be bight as hell. As for story, hers is intertwined with Scarlett. essentially they met when they were 9, were best friends, scarlett had to move and you cant just take your bestie/other-dimensional girl you found in a cave along with you if you havent even told anyone about her, and then scarlett finally drove all the way back to hopefully meet her again. now they are girlfriends and work in AL, where scarlett works on "conspiracies" in the meantime

Trixie is another AL member, being the first to find the lab and start working for Ann. Trixie was supposed to just be a janitor or something, but being 17 and stupid, wandered into places where she wasn't supposed to go, and basically got mauled to death by one of the monsters. Ann finds her body a couple hours later and freaks out, but thankfully, being in a lab full of monsters and machines, there is some sort of experimental revival doohicky or whatever, and Trixie is brought back. Her body isn't all physically there sometimes, and it's changed in small, unnatural ways, but besides that she's mostly fine. Not including the fact that she's practically a zombie and she's stuck as a 17 year old. She can't really go anywhere else now, and she claims her life sucked ass before the lab, so she just stays and researches the monsters with Ann now.

These three (Scarlett, Lumie, Trixie) are the ones with the most semblance of a story so far, so it's easier to talk about them, lol

OKay, this is getting really, really long, and its probably already a pain to read (if anyone did read through all of this, which in that case thank you?) so im gonna leave this for now, but you are always welcome to ask about specific characters, or my favorite, you can ask me to talk about my characters in the sense of how they've changed over the past couple of years (in art, story, design, etc)

[lostacelonnie]

Oh hello holy shit i didnt realize that was gonna be such a soon thing for you welcome back. They can try to make aether canon all they want but for me lumine always will be. She has better smug expressions & the game is better with her. I finished the major 3.4 quests & jeht is still so gay for lumine. Same with ayaka during the event. I do not understand faruzan but she's the only 4 star i dont have currently & i want her. Even if she is wanderer support. Fish hangout is the one we deserve along with amber hangout. Monafish is so good i love that fischl is so comfortable with mona & sometimes makes her food. Fischl deserves so much she's my original genshin fave. Dr did irreparable damage to my brain but it was a fun time. My friend group cannot say the correct name anymore we just toss out random mixes of words that start with the same letters. Cryo hypo bad fight its the equivalent annoyance of monstadt's talent domain to me. I cheese rifthound with yoi/xingqiu/albedo/geo grandpa because i hate grinding it. Yo that all sounds so fun! Im jealous you got to see the lights ive always wanted to see them but they dont drop south enough here. Ahh thought that may be so. Avery seems cool i am simply bad at talking to people because social anxiety. I dont. Think i saw a eula ad but i saw her & the cryo ladies have so far been a weakness for me so. Bianka is worth it she's so good. A local used bookstore near me had up to book five of rangers apprentice so i decided to buy them because i can. Love those books.

ahsjfgkgjksfjjk fair. FOR REAL it just feels... Right. ik its supposed to be the same experience no matter which twin u play as but lumine is the superior one. i havent done the quest after the dirge of bilqis yet but yeah she is VERY gay for lumi. ooh havent seen the event yet so if its finished ill probably just check it out on yt. i dont have a BUNCH of 4 stars [xingqiu im sorry my son] but faruzan is interesting. OH MY GOD AMBER HANGOUT SO TRUE.... tho well probably never get it cos she has a story quest T-T but yessss they are so important to me. YEAHHH DANGANRONPA IS. something. but it IS very fun and some chars still kinda live in my brain rent free. fair lmaoooo. also god yeah. mondstadts talent domain is my Enemy. and very understandable, honestly. rifthound worst genshin boss frfr. addhfjkhn it WAS very fun!! and rip, tho im sure youll see them someday !! and yeah i also have social anxiety, but fortunately me and av have known each other for a. Long time irl. and realllllll actually pretty ladies are a surprisingly common reason for me to join new fandoms. bianka my beloved, not only is she pretty meta rn but i also additionally power her by my love. i got into rangers apprentice in like. 3rd grade? 4th grade? because of my classmate and yeah.

[cat3ch1sm]

🐸| AYO MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! LOVE YALL AND ENJOY THIS RANDOM DEATH NOTE AND HXH STUFF LOL

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death note x hunter x hunter

"Mm~" Hisoka slipped into the empty space beside Illumi, resting his chin on the needle-wielding assassin's shoulder. "Why so depressed, Lumi- not in the Christmas spirit?"

Illumi looked up from observing his nails, facing straight ahead with an expressionless gaze. "Not particularly."

"Mm, what a shame." Hisoka rolled his eyes upward, subtly wondering what, if anything, could shake Illumi- and then, peering northward, he caught the perfect thing to catch the stoic man off guard.

"How fun- it seems the two of us are standing under a mistletoe," Hisoka purred, pushing off of Illumi's shoulder and standing up straight. He subtly ran a sharp nail through Illumi's dark hair, twirling it around his finger before letting the strand loose and leaning back down to put his face in front of Illumi's, his lips beside Illumi's ear. "You know what that means," he drawled, his hot breath in the other man's ear-

-but before Hisoka could make a move, Illumi promptly turned his head, grabbed both of Hisoka's shoulders, and pressed the magician's lips firmly to his.

Hisoka's eyes widened.

Illumi broke the kiss after a few more seconds, then without looking at Hisoka again, began to wander off.

"Illumi-" Hisoka began, his face a mix of uncharacteristic surprise as well as a tinge of lust as his golden eyes started to darken.

"Hm?" Illumi glanced up, and turned back around to look at Hisoka one more time. "Oh, of course. Merry Christmas," he called back before finally vanishing into the distance.

Hisoka blinked and turned his gaze back up to the dangling plant above his head. Perplexed, he poked it with his clawlike nail, and watched it swing back and forth before tearing it down and holding it in his hand.

He'd thought Illumi would be the one thrown off- but it looked like the tables had been turned.

And to be honest, Hisoka didn't mind.

・❥・

"Misa. It may be Christmas, but it is still a work day. Kira will not rest just because it's a holiday, you know."

"Okay, but I don't see what that has to do with you wearing a Santa hat," Misa pouted playfully, patting the fluffy white ball atop L's festive red hat. "I'm sure you can still work with this on!"

Light, a short distance behind L in his swivel chair, chuckled, hands in his pockets as he leaned on one leg. "It doesn't look half bad on you, Ryuzaki."

L humphed and turned his gaze upward to begrudgingly peer at the Santa hat on his head, strands of dark hair still poking out from beneath the hat. "Hm. You won't be quite so cheerful when you're in reindeer antlers, Light-kun."

"Wait, what?"

・❥・

"Merry Christmas," Machi muttered, staring with a bored expression down at her feet as her legs dangled from the tall pile of wooden crates she sat on top of.

"Since when do we care about Christmas?" Nobunaga asked, glancing at Machi beside him. She only shrugged passively.

"Oh, is it maybe because-" Nobunaga began to straighten up.

"No, Nobunaga, I did not get you the chain user's head for Christmas." Machi clarified, exasperated, before promptly hopping down from the crate tower and walking away.

・❥・

"Seriously?"

"Look how adorable you are!" Misa cooed, dancing around Light triumphantly, who did not look amused in the slightest. "I'd totally let you pull my sleigh."

"Seriously?"

"Perk up, Light-Kun. After all, you really do look adorable," L deadpanned, reaching up and tapping the fake bright glowing nose attached to Light's actual nose.

"We're investigating a mass murderer, and this is what we're doing?"

"Precisely," L replied stoically as Miss bounced around the two of them, the bell necklace she wore around her neck jingling as she did.

・❥・

"

"Leorio? The star went out again!" Kurapika called, standing before the tall green pine tree in the living room. He had just emerged from the kitchen, having made a large pot of hot chocolate and many cookies, wearing a long red apron with a snowman on it per Gon's wishes- along with matching mitts.

In reply, there was a muffled groan from the back of the house. "Again? Sheesh, remind me to get a new one next year!"

"I'll fix it!" Gon burst from the hallway, sprinting towards the tree and preparing to throw himself in the air in order to reach the top of the Christmas tree.

"No, I got it!" A split second later, Killua flew out from behind Gon, getting ready to leap into the air.

"Wait, no, Gon, Killua, you're too short- you can't-" Alarmed, Kurapika rushed toward the two to try and grab them in midair, but it was too late. Gon and Killua smashed into the tree at once with a battle cry, neither of them actually reaching the flickering star, and down came the plant, shiny ornaments flying everywhere and sharp pine needles being thrown into orbit. The frantic Kurapika barely managed to tackle Gon and Killua from the path of the toppling tree just before it smashed into the carpet with a thud.

Upon all the racket, Leorio came rushing from the back, panting wildly and surveying the mess frenetically. "Holy crap-" His darting gaze turned to his friends, a gasping Kurapika sprawled across the ground with Gon and Killua squirming underneath him.

"Ow," Gon managed shakily, before looking up and smiling awkwardly at Leorio.

Leorio could only sigh as he stared at the scattered decorations, the knocked-over gifts, the fallen pine tree, and his friends on the floor.

But when he caught a glimpse of the star, resting a few feet from the tree, it had stopped flickering- and was shining brighter than ever.

・❥・

"Uh... Ryuzaki?" Aizawa questioned, staring quizzically at the detective's face.

Matsuda laughed gleefully, the tiny bell atop the red Santa hat he was wearing ringing above his head. "You look pretty, Ryuzaki," he cackled, slapping his hands on his knees, face blushing with mirth.

In front of the task force sat L, holding his knees as usual, but now he had on a full face of makeup- lips painted a gradient pale pink, complete with clear gloss, pink blush dusted across his cheeks and nose, and black eyeliner around his eyes as well as mascara brushed on his lashes. Misa had even clipped a tiny red bow to one of L's unruly black strands of hair.

Misa giggled joyfully and bent down behind L's chair to toss her arms around his neck. "I know, right? Thanks, Matsu!" she squealed.

a/n: as for light, his ass is in the back falling the fuck out😭

"Uh- mind explaining...uh, this?" Soichiro asked the detective questioningly, to which L shrugged nonchalantly.

"I failed to bring Misa-san a Christmas present after she so thoughtfully brought me a gift- so I offered to make it up to her by allowing her to give me a 'makeover,' and so... here I am."

"I can totally do everyone else in this room, too!" Misa exclaimed, straightening up and twirling back around to the front of L.

The response was a very collective "No!"

"Too late! Matsu, you're next!"

・❥・

"Wow, is this super big one really for me?" Killua stared in awe at the towering gift before him, at least three times taller than the boy himself was.

"Yep! Open it, open it!" Gon encouraged excitedly, clapping his hands rapidly in front of his face. Beside the green-haired boy sat Alluka, who appeared more excited than Gon for her big brother to open his massive gift.

"Okay, baka, I'm opening it," Killua mumbled, a faint blush fading into visibility across the bridge of his nose. Standing up and dusting off his pants, he approached the wrapped present, unsheathed his sharp nails, and cut through the paper as well as the box in a single motion, the remains fluttering to the floor like ribbon around him to reveal the gift.

"Whoa!"

"Big brother, look at that!"

"Well?! Do you like it?!" Gon demanded eagerly, practically bouncing up and down on the floor with his legs crossed. Alluka clapped her hands happily, waiting to hear the answer as she held a candy cane in her smiling mouth.

Killua's eyes shone at the present before him and his lips spread into an uncharacteristically wide grin.

It was nothing other than a giant chocolate robot- the biggest piece of candy Killua had ever seen in his life. Only his spoiled brother Milluki ever got things like this- and obviously, he didn't bother sharing.

"No way!" Killua looked from the robot to Gon to the robot and back to Gon. "Where'd you get this?!"

Gon's own smile threatened to split his face. "It's a secret," he whispered gleefully, putting his finger to his lips teasingly.

Killua frowned, tapping his foot impatiently, but as he glanced back at the robot it quickly faded back into a smile. "Thanks, Gon!"

"You're welcome!"

Killua wanted to express his gratitude to Gon some other way than besides just words- but he simply couldn't get himself to move toward his friend. Damn- was he still this bad with this friendship stuff?

Luckily, all of these misgivings evaporated when Alluka stood up on her knees, waddled in between Killua and Gon, and wrapped her arms around the both of them, effectively pulling the two together into a hug.

"Merry Christmas, big brother and big brother's friend!" she exclaimed joyfully, closing her eyes in bliss.

"Merry Christmas, Alluka- and Gon," Killua replied warmly before warily but surely wrapping his arms around his sister and Gon- whose smile was brighter than the newly repaired star on the tree.

・❥・

"Shall we?"

"You're on, Ryuzaki!"

Misa had to hit the deck to avoid being caught in the crossfire of L and Light's ridiculously aggressive snowball fight- Misa had brought the two outside for some Christmas snow day fun and admittedly pictures, but now here she was, nose deep in freezing cold snow so she wouldn't get her head taken off by the overly powerful throws of Light and L.

"Guys, it's- eee! It's only a snowball fight- it doesn't have to be World War 3-"

"Your boyfriend started this," L replied absently before hurling a ball of snow at Light, a distance away from him.

"Lies!" Light called as he threw a snowball as hard as he could in retaliation.

Misa groaned in exasperation and ducked down once more as a flying snowball whizzed so close to her head she could feel it graze her blonde hair.

Clearly, she was not going to see another Christmas.

・❥・

"Kurapika. What the hell are we supposed to do with so many cookies?!"

Before Leorio and Kurapika laid a tremendously large pile of steaming cookies- larger than Leorio could fathom, and definitely far more than he could eat.

"Uh- yeah..?" Kurapika ventured, a little timidly. "I may have overdone it... a little."

Leorio squinted disbelievingly at the shorter blonde boy beside him, then almost accusingly at the cookies. "A little?"

Kurapika chuckled nervously and put a gloved hand behind his head. "Oops."

・❥・

"What did I tell you guys?!"

L and Light sat on the side of the bed in the hotel, shivering uncontrollably with thick blankets over their bodies, including their heads. Their cheeks were equally red with frostbite and their noses were the color of Rudolph's; the two were pushed close together to conserve body heat.

"This is what happens when you turn a silly snowball fight into a death game," Misa snarked, her hands on her hips as she paced back and forth, fussing at L and Light. "Now I have to go get you idiots some hot chocolate."

"B- bring sugar cubes," L called after the storming off Misa.

The men hadn't been looking where they were stepping in the snow- and L had gone and slipped down a pile of snow. Light, pride-driven, went after the detective to confirm L's defeat- and met the same fate as he did. There had been a frozen lake below the snow pile, and the boys had gone and shattered it with their antics, falling straight into it the second they reached the bottom of the snow mound.

"S-s- still," Light shuddered, staring down at the floor, "I won. You fell into the water first."

"Y- y- you wi-wish," L stuttered in reply, quivering like crazy. "Th-th-this certainly w-won't be the last t-t- time."

[linawritesocs]

Hello hello lina! May I ask for XII, XVII, and XVIII for all of them + XIX for Hayden?

hello hello taruchi!! AND OHHHH I LOVE THE QUESTION YOU CHOSE FOR HAYDEN

XII. "what do they consider to be their greatest loss? how have they coped with it?"

avery: the loss of that childhood friend of his, who betrayed him and let the bullies hurt avery. he coped with it by becoming the tsundere boy that he is today, being more mean to others and refusing to trust people. he can't let anyone else hurt him again.

vance: the loss of his family's trust. the day he got that head injury, his family stopped letting him have fun and play without his brother watching. they were too afraid of vance getting injured again, they never were this controlling before. sometimes vance likes to imagine how different his life could be if all of this never happened. oh well, too bad he didn't save his game that one time, maybe he could unlock a different ending. and how did he cope with it? his whole personality is a coping mechanism.

merrill: the loss of his reputation as a "cool, mature and popular student" after people found out about his account. yes, he always had that playful and flirty side to him, but he never wanted people to learn that he actually really likes the attention and that him using his appearance to get what he wants doesn't end at him winking at someone or looking into someone's eyes. he's too ashamed of it, he can't admit it, he never wanted to become the person his parents wanted him to be. would they be proud of him now? he copes with it by finally facing that other side of his personality and telling everyone the truth about himself. he stops having secrets and he can finally show everyone his true self.

allen: he'd never admit it, but losing lumi really hurt him. it hurt him so bad, but lumi-chan doesn't seem to notice it! she has no idea how sad and lonely he was without her! he thought that he finally had a friend that he could spend time with and that he can trust her, but then she just abandoned him like that? how could she do this to him?like vance, his personality is his coping mechanism. he copes with his pain by going on dates with random people, getting obsessed with people that he doesn't actually care about and writing stories about being truly loved by someone.

roland: his ex-girlfriend. he really loved her, he did everything to make her stay with him, he was such a good boyfriend, but she not only left him, he wears that eyepatch of his because of her! he hates her, he hates her, he hates her so much! but it's fine, he can become a better person and more people will love him and he will eventually forget about that girl. he just needs to distract himself. taking care of flowers, knitting, talking to his club members, all of this to forget about her.

fake!jay didn't live long enough to lose something yet, but real!jay did. and if vance regrets losing his family's trust, real!jay hates the loss of his family's love. sounds cruel, but it really is what happened and the thing is that they don't even hate him. they don't treat him like garbage (*cough* hayden's family) and they don't have extremely high expectations (*cough* merrill's parents), they just.. they accept the fact that he exists, but they don't treat him like he's a part of their family. he's just there, they will give him food, they will buy him clothes, but they won't spend any time with him. and jay doesn't blame them, he pushed his family away and they just stopped trying to become closer with him. he doesn't blame them, but he just.. he doesn't want to be a burden to them. he created fake!jay not only because he didn't want to go to rsa but also because he actually loves his family despite everything and fake!jay is his "gift" to them. it's the version of jay that they'd love and they deserve a son/brother like him.

austin: i'd say that he lost the choice and opportunity to do something different with his life. he always was good with machinery, fixing stuff, all of that, his dad taught him and he's grateful to him, but.. eventually austin became so much better than his dad. and his family hopes that austin will follow his steps and he will make them proud, but he doesn't want to become a mechanic or anything like his dad. he wants to try something different, it's his talent, yes, but it's not his passion. but he's too scared to say what he really thinks. he doesn't want to disappoint them.

minnie: when she was younger, she'd say "the loss of my dad and my twin brother". her dad left the family when she and her twin were very young and their mom was devastated, she had no idea what to do without him. minnie had to do everything, she had to take care of her mom and help her deal with all of this, she asked her twin for help, but he refused. after that, her twin was basically dead to her. now that she's older, she doesn't consider it that big of a loss. she's actually grateful for it, because now she understands that her dad and twin brother were horrible people. she copes with it by thinking that all guys are irresponsible and unreliable and not having any meaningful and deep relationships with them.

hayden: he isn't sure if he even had something to lose. everything that belonged to him also belonged to his family. but if he had to choose, it would be the cute horse plushie he had when he was a kid and his parents burned it in front of him because hayden was "misbehaving". his mom tried to calm him down, she said that it's for the best and they just wanted to teach him a lesson, but he refused to listen to her. he cried in his room for several days and he didn't talk to anyone. he was punished many times for it, but he didn't care that much anymore.

XVII. "describe an alternate version or an au you have of them."

answers for minnie and hayden are here!

avery: the au where he and allen are switched. if you think about it, both of them have very similar problems, avery just coped with it by becoming a tsundere and allen became a yandere. so what if avery was the insane and obsessive one instead?

vance: the au where vance's reaction to becoming aware about being a game character isn't just accepting it and being happy about it, BUT PANICKING. he's scared, he tries to tell others about it, but no one believes him. bonus: the player is planning to delete the game from their device and they've also been vance's fan, so vance is both terrified but also sad because he doesn't want the player to forget him and kill him like that.

merrill: the au where merrill and iris are switched! iris is the one with a secret cutesy account and merrill is the one who wants to control the history and who also has a crush on leona. bonus: their personalities are the same.

allen: the au where he was the one who accidentally hurt lumi, but he didn't push her away and instead he became much more protective of her, to the platonic yandere/stalker level. he will never, ever hurt her again and he will never let others hurt her as well! so just continue being his best friend, okay, lumi-chan?~

roland: the au where he never left nrc and where he never tried to change and become a better person. he's still an extremely toxic and possessive boyfriend, he still bullies those who are weaker than him and he uses his powers as often as he wants (so, like, basically every day)

jay: the au where real!jay actually had fake!jay's personality and he became tired of being the family's favorite and he wanted some freedom, so he created his clone that had a real!jay's personality. why, you ask? well, he can explore the world and go on adventures while this other jay can go to rsa and actually try to make friends! wouldn't it be so wonderful to see how your shy and quiet "twin" learns to have relationships that make his life better and more interesting?

austin: the au where he's actually fine with becoming the person his family wants to see and in fact, he is SO proud of his talent, that this austin is much more cruel and arrogant than the canon one and he wants everyone to know just how great he is.

XVIII. "who is the closest person to them? how far would they go to protect them?"

avery: well, it's not like he cares about bubble-chan.. but if she asked him to fight someone for her, he totally would-

vance: all heartslabyul students! they are his friends, they are his buddies! also bobbie is very nice..

merrill: his cousin, most likely. he doesn't show it that often, but he cares about her a lot and he'd do anything to protect her from danger.

allen: if we're not counting lumi and hayden, then it's fake!jay. he thinks he's a great person and he likes spending time with him, he just wishes jay would show his true side more often. if anyone even dares to hurt his precious underclassman, then they will have to deal with allen and it will be very painful.

roland: the gardening club members! they are basically his children at this point and he's not afraid to do the things that he's done in the past to protect them.

jay: to fake!jay, it's allen, the senpai that he respects so much. he really did have a crush on him at first and even if he doesn't think of him in that way anymore, he still loves him platonically and genuinely wants allen to find someone who will see just how kind and understanding he really is. to real!jay, it's eureka, who gave him a home when he needed it the most and who supported him no matter what. he's weak and he knows it, but if she needs his help, he will do anything he can.

austin: his family, especially his siblings. he cares about them deeply and if you're lucky to become his friend, you will hear him talking about them pretty often. ALSO HIS CAT-

XIX. "how best could somebody manipulate them?"

hayden: his family manipulated him for all these years. and they used a very simple method that hayden learned from them: they hurt him, again, again and again, and then they told him that they still love him and forgive him and that they just wanted him to understand that what he did was wrong. he isn't as easy to manipulate now as he was when he was a child, but he still shows that vulnerable side of his. if you hurt him really bad and then insist that you did it because you love him and it was for his own good, he will quietly ask you to forgive him and then he will go back to his room.

[babuis]

Who Needs Memories? [Chilumi] - 1

Genre: Long Fic

Word Count: 2.2k

Synopsis: Lumine is not naive. Through her thousands of years living, she should know better. Should have learned better. She knew better then to trust someone who threw her insecurities into her face. So why was she here, standing in the room of the person who betrayed her while wanting to give him another chance?

Or

Events from before the Golden House between Childe and Lumine to the unreleased future.

A/n: I’m deciding on whether I want to pursue this as a long fic in my google docs. Tbh I can really only write for Genshin when I’m in this strange, dreamy, longing mood where I wish to leave everything behind and enter the world of Genshin- it just feels so inviting and like home for some reason.

Pulled this out of my ass Bcs I’m in that mood rn. Sadness makes me poetic (but I’m not sad? Genshin gets me in a very dreamy mood)

So imma test it out by seeing how it’s received. Should I make this into a longer series?

Story starts before golden house.

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Lumine couldn't go back to sleep. 

This wasn't a new development. Since arriving in Teyvat, she had fallen victim to many sleepless nights or sleeps that were interrupted by night terrors she couldn't quite remember until much later when it was no longer important. Sometimes when she did sleep, her dreams would be filled with fragments of memories from the thousands of years she lived with her brother from world to world before all of this that refused to leave her mind.

Tonight she had dreamed about the time when they weren't in a particular world, but rather the period in between where they simply existed in the clouds.

Lumine and Aether sat on a large cloud, staring into the expanse before them. They sat with their knees hugged to their chest, feeling the last rays of the sun brush over them before nightfall. 

"Hey Aether?'

"Hm?"

Lumine sighed as she lay lazily on her back. Her body sunk into the soft pillows of cloud ever so slightly and she stared up into the infinite abyss of the sky above their heads.

"Do you ever wonder what else is out there?' she questioned him, reaching her hand up, "We've been to so many worlds already. Will there be a point where we no longer learn new things?"

Aether scoffed lightly, turning his head to look at his twin, "We've been alive for thousands of years, have you yet to come to a world and not learn anything?"

"No," Lumine admitted, "But you said it yourself, we're so old already. What if one day..."

Aether sighed again, shifting to face his sister fully, "Don't worry about it. Worlds may be similar to each other. We may just arrive in them to fight a little, but there' always been subtle differences that make each special."

"Hmm," Lumine hummed, closing her eyes as a chill brushed over her body, "Do you think mom ever got bored?"

"Bored? She had twins."

Lumine chuckled lightly, "Yea, she did, didn't she?"

They didn't speak after that. Soon the vibrant colors of the sunset turned into the cool night sky and millions of stars twinkled around them, each representing a new world. Lumine shuddered slightly, wondering if her fears were silly. With so many worlds, surely there would be new things to see. A new purpose to have.

"We should go to that one next," Aether said, pointing to the brightest star to their left, "Burning up real bright."

Lumine nodded, shielding her eyes a bit from the light, "Sure is."

Aether lay down, settling beside her, "Go to sleep, Lumi," he said softly, "we got a new world ahead of that."

"Hmm," she hummed again, closing her eyes.

Soon, her brother's breathes turned steady as he fell asleep. She gave him one last peek before she too, succumbed to slumber. 

Even if they explored all the worlds there were and learned everything there was to know, she would be okay just as long as she had Aether by her side to navigate her life with her.

And then he was gone.

Lumine shuddered as the wind blew towards her from the water. It seemed to be particularly cold in Liyue that night on the harbor. She sat on the wooden dock, letting her slender legs hang over the edge. The stars shined above her, much like they had in her dream.

Except this time she was sitting on the hard dock instead of the fluffy clouds and she was alone.

Her hair tickled her cheek as she dejectedly thought about Aether. They had come to this world, the brightest one to their left, together, only to be separated. They had never separated before and the anxious heaviness that took permanent hold of her chest became heavier as she remembered her dream.

I miss you Aether.

This world had been shockingly new from the rest of the ones she had visited. With it's divisions between the archons and people, it seemed like this world was made up of multiple ones with a complexity that she kept getting dragged into.

It was something her past self would have marveled excitedly at- there was just so much to learn. But without Aether, without her rock through it all, it almost seemed meaningless. Her only purpose now, was to find him.

Perhaps this is what she got for wishing for a new purpose in life. If she could go back and take it all back, she would.

"Hey girlie, it's dangerous for you to be so lost in thought this late at night. A bad man could come and sweep you away."

Ah, Childe.

Lumine turned her head to see the blue eyes ginger standing behind her, a mischievous glint in his eye as he looked down at her. She licked her lips, turning away from him.

"What do you want, Fatui?" she asked harshly, "If you push me in the water, I'll blast you all the way to the stone forest."

Childe raised his hands up in surrender, a throaty chuckle making its way out of his mouth, "No need to be so hostile, I thought we shared a more intimate relationship than that."

"I'm warning you," Lumine said again, pulling her knees up to her chest.

Childe took a seat beside her, looking into the distance where she was, "I would never, girlie. I'm a bad man but I wouldn't push an unsuspecting lady into the water."

"Sure you wouldn't, Fatui," Lumine said with disdain.

"I wouldn't," he repeated, "What are you looking at? Actually, what are you doing up so late? It's well past your bed time."

Lumine snorted, "You're not older than me."

"I'll have you know I'm a young adult," Childe protested.

Lumine gave him a wry smile, "As am I."

"You don't look a day older 18," Childe hmphed, "Pray tell, Ojou-chan, how old are you really?"

Lumine finally glanced at the ginger who was staring at her with curious eyes, "Wouldn't you like to know?"

"I would, actually," he said, not looking away.

'You wouldn't even be able to fathom it if you tried,' Lumine thought to herself, 'nor is it safe for me to tell you.'

Childe stared at Lumine some more, refusing to be the first to look away. Her golden eyes burned with something he couldn't quite place, but were at the same time quite hardened. Her lips were pressed into a thin line and her eyebrows were softly furrowed into a stern looking pout. 

'How cute,' he mused to himself, 'too bad you're just a pawn in Tsaritsa's game.'

"You don't trust me," he settled on saying, his mouth quirking to the side.

Lumine finally looked away, making Childe celebrate internally, 'ha! I win!'

"Why should I?" she muttered.

"I get it, La Signora gave you a bad impression," Childe said, "But like I said, I don't particularly like her either. I'm the black sheep of the Harbingers you know, we're not all like her."

Lumine didn't say anything. If she learned anything from her extensive existence, it was to not trust a man like Childe.

"Fine, then answer this for me since you're unwilling to share," Childe caved, "What are you doing up so late?"

Lumine shrugged, "It's not late. If I'm correct, it's a new day."

"Fine smart ass," Childe sassed her, "What are you doing up so early?"

"I guess I'm an early bird then," Lumine said vaguely, not wanting to mention her lack of sleep.

"Great answer."

The two sat in silence again, the breeze blowing even harder. Lumine shivered again at the wind's caress which prompted Childe to shrug off his jacket to give to the blonde. Lumine noticed and put her hand up to stop him hurriedly, not wanting to create even more debt to the Harbinger.

"You're cold," Childe insisted, "Take it."

Lumine frowned, "No, you're cold. You take it."

"Ojou-chan," he said, exasperated, "I'm from Snezhnaya, a bit of wind isn't going to kill me."

Lumine raised an eyebrow, "I use Anemo powers, a little bit of wind isn't going to kill me either."

"But it'll make you sick."

"No it won't."

"Yes it will."

"No it won't."

"Yes it will."

"No it won't."

She knew it wouldn't. It had been a very long time since Lumine had gotten sick, the last time being in a world with giant man eating beings. The only reason for her sickness, of course, wasn't her health, but the disgusting stench of dead bodies.

Lumine stubbornly stood up and started walking down the dock back towards the center of the town where she was staying. She was done with this conversation- done with him. However, Childe seemed to have other plans as he followed the petite girl down the paved road.

"Stop following me," came Lumine's cutting words, not even bothering to look back.

'Charming,' Childe thought as he ignored her words, "It's dangerous for a pretty girl to roam around the town in the dark."

Lumine simply rolled her eyes, coming to a halt in front of a random building, "I'm not in danger of the Milleleth anymore, and I'm sure I could handle some petty thieves if I did a dragon."

"Ah, that's right. I'm talking to the Hero of Mondstadt here," Child said teasingly, 'and the biggest pain in the ass to Tsaritsa.'

Lumine gave him an unimpressed look, "I suppose that's right, so as you can see, I can handle myself."

'If anything, you're the biggest threat in this town,' she thought distastfully.

"Alright then, Ojou-chan, I'm off-"

Before he could finish his goodbye, he was cut off by a large growl emitting from Lumine's stomach. For the first time that night, Lumine lost her composure and blushed a bright red and her body burned hotter than the sun despite the chilly morning air. Childe paused, blinking twice, before busting out into laughter that caused the girl to further lose composure.

'Damn this near mortal body!' Lumine cursed, 'I never had to eat this often before!'

"Hahaha!" he laughed heartily, clutching his sides, "Did you perhaps eat the dragon to defeat it?" he teased her.

Lumine growled, "Shut up," she said hotly.

"Say, why don't I take you and Paimon to get some food then?" Childe suggested, "I'm sure you're hungry and you wouldn't turn down free food when you lack Mora."

Lumine grumbled quietly to herself, knowing he was right. She had very little Mora left thanks to Paimon spending so much on food and she was admittedly hungry. Hunger was a foreign concept to her body up until recently, and she detested the very idea of it.

"Don't be stubborn Ojou-chan," Childe persisted, "I did afterall, save you from the Millelith didn't I?"

Lumine begrudgingly nodded her head, "Fine," she said quietly, "Let me get Paimon first."

And so they walked side by side to her inn- that he helped he book- to fetch Paimon and go eat. They walked leisurely, as if they weren't two people that were on drastically different sides. They walked as if they were acquaintances- as if they were friends to the unknowing eye.

Lumine knew she shouldn't. She should have stopped all interaction after that one time he helped her out by clearing her name. Shouldn't have accepted the help nor the Mora from him- no matter how broke she was. She could have found a way or slept on the outskirts of the town. She shouldn't be accepting his invitation to eat.

What was wrong with her?

Teyvat had proved to be full of surprises, her behavior being one of them. It had been months since she woke up from her slumber. When was the last time she had stayed in one place for so long? Fought off monsters for other people rather than the thrill of the fight?

It didn't matter, Lumine supposed. What mattered was finding her brother and what happened after that would be a future Lumine problem. What else was there to do after finding her brother? What was the purpose of her world hopping?

Lumine no longer remembered.

As they neared the inn where she left Paimon, she could hear the floating girl's shrill and angry voice scolding her for leaving. Paimon's voice only turned more sour when she saw the Fatui next to her.

"Lumine!" the pixie exclaimed, "You can't leave to go rendezvous with the enemy!"

Lumine  gave the little girl an unimpressed look, "I did no such thing, he's cashing in a favor."

"A favor?" Childe interrupted, "Considering I'm paying for your food, I'd say I'm doing a service and you know owe me a favor."

Paimon looked angry for a second, "Lumine! You can't just- wait, did Paimon just hear you say food?"

"Sure did little one," Childe grinned, "Come on, it's my treat."

And just like that, Paimon's anger disappeared at the promise of something warm to fill her stomach. Constellations materialized around her floating body as she followed the ginger to a restaurant he claimed that he knew 'they would just love.'

Lumine lingered at the steps of the inn, staring up into the sky that was now painted with the vibrant colors of the sunrise. 

What was the purpose of her life?

Lumine basked in the warmth of the sun and found comfort in the lack of visible stars in the sky.

Lumine didn't remember.

Perhaps she never knew.

[gffa]

Hot take. You are a human being. Running a blog. Who also happens to like Star Wars. How dare your thoughts and opinions differ from any random single individual's in the fandom???? Lumi is problematic for THINKING THINGS! HoW DARE U????

LOL, OKAY, I’ll write a more serious response:  I don’t mind that other people disagree with me about stuff, I don’t even mind genuine attempts at discussion!  I do think that you probably have to step more carefully than you would with other topics--at least with some of us, because we’ve had enough bad faith bullshit to last us a lifetime--but that we’re not closed to all conversation, regardless of whether it’s good faith or bad faith.  I have had and do still have conversations with people who disagree with me! What I mind is when people come to me like I’m just here for them to argue with, when it’s clear they’re not engaging with anything I’ve actually said, when it’s clear they don’t want to have a discussion, but just want to tell me how wrong I am.  That’s only going to get shitpost meme responses from me because I think that’s far funnier and more productive.  I don’t owe anyone on this hellsite my time or energy for these things.  I will gladly give it to those who take extra steps to be considerate, but I don’t owe it to anyone. (I will say, however, that if you want to approach me to have an honest discussion about it, I promise to try to be as genuine as I can in such a conversation.  I can’t guarantee that it’ll be a fruitful conversation, but I can guarantee that I’ll give an honest shot.  You can send me an ask here or, if we’re in block with each other, over on mirkwoodings.) But also I think what you’re saying is important to keep in mind, too.  Yes, I am very loud.  Yes, I post a lot.  But also yes I am just one blogger on the internet.  I’m not obligated to agree to something or be some sort of blog-for-everyone-in-the-fandom, I’m here for the opinions I hold, I’m here for the things I like.  Disagreement is fine!  I follow plenty of people I disagree with on stuff!  But they’re kind and considerate people who recognize that disagreeing with stuff doesn’t mean you have to go around putting that on other people. (This is setting aside more serious issues of shitty behavior in fandom, that’s a whole other discussion.  I’m talking about stuff like, “I think it’s funny to make fun of Anakin for the things I relate to about him.”  Agree or disagree, whatever, but it has nothing to do with you, if it’s not your thing.) Ultimately, I have some popular opinions, I have some unpopular opinions, I’ll keep yelling loudly about all of them, and I’m happy to answer serious questions (when I have the emotional reserves for it, I’ve been cycling through a lot of mental health spirals lately, not worrisome bad, but definitely a lot of “I am not dealing with anything serious on tumblr today” places) and have conversations, but at the end of the day, I’m one person running a blog with the goal of entertaining myself.  I’m here for me.  Everyone should be on their own blog for themselves, you can’t light yourself on fire to keep others warm, even just virtually.

[amethystroselilith]

Intertwined Fates (Chilumi/Zhonglumi) - Chapter 1

Can be read in ao3 here

This chapter has a really small bit of mentioning ScaraMona (While I don’t ship them that much, I like how people write their little dynamic)

SUMMARY: After 5 years, Lumine had finally adjusted to her new life...

5 years…

5 years ago when she lost Zhongli

5 years ago when her world shattered

Lumine slowly opened her eyes as she felt an insistent poking on her cheek, vision blurry until her golden eyes met with wide magenta eyes.

“Qiqi, what’s wrong?” she asked sleepily, judging from her surroundings it’s still in the middle of the night. 

“Can’t sleep.” she simply said, “Mama, play. Let’s play.” she pouted as she tried to shake her mother awake.

The blonde woman sighed, glancing at the digital clock on the bedside table, 2:30 am.

“Qiqi, it’s a bit too late for playtime, why don’t we sleep and play in the morning? Mama has no work, so we can play all you want.” Lumine smiled, however, regretted it when Qiqi’s eyes grew more excited.

“Then play now! More time to play with Qiqi.” the purple-haired girl awed, “Mama, please, Mamaaa…” 

“Qiqi, please… Mama’s still a bit tired.” she sighed, guilt filling her immediately when sadness glazed over her daughter’s eyes.

Lumine was about to give in until she felt a pair of arms snaking around her waist, warmth on her back, and ginger hair tickling her face, “Hm? What’s happening here?” he tiredly asked though she can feel the smile on her face.

“Papa! Mama’s gonna play with Qiqi.” the young girl smiled.

5 years ago when Ajax started picking up the broken pieces…

“Isn’t it a bit late, princess?” Ajax chuckled as he sat up to pick up the child and settled her on his lap, “Mama’s still a bit tired though, and it is way past your bedtime and way too early for you to be up.” 

Lumine rolled over to watch the most important people in her life.

2 months ago when she fully got herself back together to start a new chapter with Ajax together with their daughter.

She watched Ajax convince Qiqi why they should go back to sleep, words didn’t really register in Lumine’s brain for it had gone to wander on the memories from the past 5 years.

~~~

“Lumi, it’s time to eat,” Ajax said as he entered the room carrying a tray of food.

“Not hungry,” Lumine answered, unmoving and staring blankly at the wall.

The man sighed, “Lumi, please.” he said as he placed the tray on a nearby table before walking to the bed, “You haven’t eaten much earlier.” 

“Just leave me alone,” she said, voice cracking just like her heart.

It was three days after the funeral and Lumine can barely take care of herself, her twin and Ajax had mostly been taking care of her, Aether being the one responsible for the formal papers related to Zhongli’s death as well as running their bakery, together with his brother in law, Xiao, who is also grieving for losing his only kin.

Lumine can’t help but admire how he could still function while she barely even have the energy to move from her current position. And that thought just made her feel worse.

“Lumi…” Ajax called quietly as he watches the familiar trembling of her shoulders. 

And that’s how it usually goes, Ajax climbing next to her and hugging her tight, giving as well as seeking comfort as he quietly let the tears slide down his own eyes.

A month later, Lumine began taking care of herself again, telling herself that she needs to take proper care of her unborn daughter, their little Qiqi, the name was random, to be honest, she and Zhongli are trying to come up with a name by blurting out random names they can think of. The name came from Zhongli, it was a completely random name, but it was the one that grew on them as days passed by trying to name their daughter.

Qiqi came a bit earlier than they expected. Lumine was in their bakery, trying to fall back into a routine without mourning for her husband’s death. Aether and Xiao have provided a good support system at work, even Ajax stops by during his break from work. 

Ajax, who had also picked himself together, even getting promoted in a powerful and influential company called Fatui, as one of the 11th Harbingers, the youngest who had been given the position. 

Ajax, who stayed true to his word by being Lumine’s side, supporting her in every way he can.

Ajax, who freaked out so much when Lumine’s water broke, Aether had to slap him to get him to focus.

Welcoming Qiqi to the world, was life-changing for Lumine. She expected that to happen, but with all the tragedy the transpired, it just felt so different. It’s as if she was reborn with new hope and dreams. 

So she worked hard for them. Worked hard until their bakery, Emergency Sweets, gained popularity. She won’t lie, she has a huge feeling Ajax pulled some strings, but customers don’t just stay for pretty words on an article, they stay for the twin’s speciality; Pie Mon, a fairy shaped dessert that would magically satisfy your sweet cravings. 

Lumine’s life was bright again as she raised her daughter. 

And so is Ajax’s…

He didn’t know why, and he certainly doesn’t even have to, but he never stopped himself going straight to the twins’ place where Aether had welcomed her sister back, every after work. 

Never stopped himself helping Lumine raise Qiqi.

Never stopped falling in a domestic routine with Lumine.

Never stopped the feelings growing back in his chest.

Never stopped himself leaning into a kiss after a particular emotional dinner.

They had a fight months ago before they got together, they don’t even remember what it is nowadays but Ajax could remember how he never stopped deepening the kiss.

Or how he never stopped the night from going to be one of the most passionate night he ever had.

It was wrong, it felt all so wrong, but at the same time felt right. 

For the first time in forever, Ajax felt like he had finally come home.

The day after that was a flurry of emotions for them, the guilt loomed on them. Both distancing themselves for a while until Ajax just had enough. 

It felt fucked up, but Ajax can’t help but crave for that feeling again. The feeling of being in her arms, the feeling of sharing and receiving something so intimate, the feeling of being loved back by the woman who had always been so close yet feel so far.

Ajax was mad at himself for having feelings for his best friend’s wife. But what can he do? He’s tired of wanting something he can’t have, and now that it looks like he has a chance, it was hard to control the desperation in his heart. 

It felt fucked up, but Ajax knows he can take the responsibility well. That he can give them the best life they could ever want, that he’ll protect them with all his life.

It felt fucked up, but Ajax selfishly gave in the thought. 

It wasn’t all easy on Lumine’s side. 

Her feelings are a mess, guilt from sleeping with someone else but Zhongli, but at the same time her feelings coming into terms that Ajax is also someone very special to her.

She had been feeling something different every time she sees Ajax. The same fluttery feeling she felt when she sees Zhongli before, the same feeling of longing when he’s gone.

Aether had felt something was off, he is her twin after all. He listens as Lumine poured her heart out, wiped the tears she shed, just like he always had, and always will. 

And like the great brother he is, he lifted Lumine’s chin to look at him, he smiled, “Let your heart lead you to your happiness, Lumi. I’m sure Zhongli would want to see you happy.” 

And so she did.

It took a bit of time but eventually, they fell back into their old domestic routine.

Ajax will never forget the night he had finally come back to the twins’ place.

“Papa, you’re back!” 

~~~

Lumine snapped back to her senses when she felt Qiqi settling down beside her, yawning before her eyes closed. The blonde smiled before tucking her daughter properly under the blanket, fingers gently caressing the child’s face to lull her further to sleep. She stopped and watched Ajax settle back down himself.

Blue eyes met her golden ones, he smiled before taking Lumine’s hand and giving it a soft kiss, “Are you alright? You seem to be lost in thought.”

“Just thinking,” Lumine said, her finger moving to gently caress her lover’s cheek.

Ajax leaned into the touch, “Something wrong? You barely moved until Qiqi’s laid down and that took 30 minutes worth of story, you know.” he chuckled quietly.

Lumine smiled, “It’s nothing bad, just late night thoughts, I guess.”

He hummed, “And may I know what these thoughts are?” 

Ajax may already have a feeling about it, there’s only one thing that makes her zone out like that. 

Their relationship was received with different reactions, Aether threatening him if he hurt his sister he’s dead, their friends happy for them and demand he showers Lumine with all the happiness in the world… Xiao, however, didn’t take the news well, only leaving them with a cold glare about betraying Zhongli.

It upset Lumine, but she hides it from their friends, even if Ajax offered to have a talk with Xiao. They decided to give him some space first, let him slowly warm up to the idea that feelings are unpredictable and that his brother is not being replaced and will always have a place in their hearts.

“Just… I love you.” 

Ajax froze, eyes widening at Lumine’s smile. It was unexpected, he thought Lumine will shrug it off as nothing and he’ll be left with anxious thoughts of Lumine being unhappy again.

He was the persistent one in pursuing their relationship, helping Lumine became comfortable with her feelings and accept the fact that she loves another man now. 

And while Lumine had finally given up and freely chose to fall in love again, there’s still a bit of insecurity at the back of Ajax’s mind.

Even if they moved to a new home, spent passionate nights together, and Qiqi being a huge Papa’s girl, Ajax still can’t help but feel insecure about his standing in Lumine’s life, did he push her too much? Forced and chained her with him?

Those words rarely leave Lumine’s mouth, only answering it back when Ajax started it, but now that Lumine finally said it first, Ajax can’t help but feel his eyes water, nonetheless, he said it back, “I love you too.” with another kiss on her hand.

~~~

“What is she doing?” Lumine asked curiously as she helps Ajax clean the dishes by wiping the rinsed ones and placing them back on the rack.

Ajax hummed before looking at where Qiqi was. The little girl was crushing some of her animal crackers in a little bowl by the window. 

“Oh, well, the other day we were watching the animal channel and it’s talking about birds, Qiqi seems fascinated by the finches it seems and wonders if they would like animal crackers. I’m assuming she’s trying to lure them.” Ajax chuckled.

Ever since moving together, Ajax had decided to start working from home, not just it’s more convenient, but he also thought it’ll help Lumine, who used to bring Qiqi with her to work. While her uncles don’t mind watching over her, their work environment isn’t the most ideal for children. Being separated from each other wasn’t as easy as she thought, well it’s harder on Lumine; the first day away was spent with her calling Ajax every hour to see how Qiqi is doing. Qiqi, on the other hand, is actually fine being left behind with Ajax, which still baffles her cause she could never leave her with a babysitter before. But then she remembers how Ajax is part of Qiqi’s life ever since she was born. He’s always been there enough for Qiqi to think she’s her father. 

While Ajax certainly didn’t mind the title, instead, welcoming and taking the role seriously, Lumine wasn’t comfortable at first and had tried to subtly make Qiqi call him something else instead. Ajax respected her wishes, even helping her introduce Zhongli as her father. 

Qiqi can’t quite grasp the concept yet, how can this man on the picture be her Papa when he’s not there to tell her stories about the Legendary Cocogoat and tuck her into bed and kiss her forehead? 

Ajax and Lumine had explained in a sugarcoated way that her Papa is in a better place now but he’s always watching over her.

It still didn’t make sense to Qiqi, nor thought it was a big deal due to her age and would continue to call Ajax as her father. 

Lumine was already considering researching about explaining life and death to Qiqi, but Ajax had expressed discomfort, explaining that a child’s innocence should be preserved. Lumine stated that Ajax won’t be able to protect Qiqi forever, but she did agree that it’s a bit early.

They gave up at one point since it’s starting to upset the child as well, claiming that Ajax doesn’t love her and her mama is mean even if she was just gently correcting her. 

It broke both of their hearts, causing them to apologise and just let Qiqi be, besides, isn’t Ajax basically another father for her anyway? They’ll just save the talk again once she’s at the appropriate age.

“When do you think she’ll start asking for a pet?” Lumine chuckled.

“Hm, I mean it wouldn’t be bad getting her some finches, they’re actually low maintenance birds. We can buy a spacious cage in our garden and appropriate food for their diet.” Ajax considered, “I think it’s perfect for Qiqi since she’s more fond of observing than petting animals.” 

Lumine hums, thinking about the time where Qiqi was fascinated by her Auntie Xiangling’s pet panda, Guoba. The little girl was in awe as her magenta eyes followed whatever Guoba is doing. Pretty much squealing in delight when Guoba does something silly, only daring to approach and pet the animal when Xiangling’s holding the animal to avoid any unexpected accidents.

“I think it will be good, I’ll ask Aether about it as well though,” Lumine said as she placed the last of the dishes in its proper place. 

“I’m pretty sure he’ll suggest getting a dog instead.” Ajax laughed before drying his hands and pulling Lumine in his arms, nuzzling his face against her neck, “I mean, I’m not opposed to that idea as well.” 

“Well, maybe we can ask Qiqi what she thinks, though I’m pretty sure she’ll choose the finches,” she said leaning back and sighing to his touch, he had always been a touchy lover, but Lumine doesn’t mind it one bit.

“I have that feeling as well.” Ajax chuckled.

“Anyway, don’t you have work to do?” Lumine asked as she turned around facing Ajax and poking his cheek, “I’m pretty sure I saw Scaramouche threatening you in your messages. Have you been slacking off your work, Mr Tartaglia?” she teased, the phrase coming from their college days where Ajax isn’t too keen on finishing an individual paper from a minor class.

Ajax rolled his eyes, “The midget is threatening me to go along with his story that the Tsaritsa made him stay overtime to work on a report about our branch in Inazuma, how he was so desperate to go home but his phone died and he couldn’t message his wife, instead of him actually being too focused on work he forgot their anniversary date.” 

“Hm, I feel like Mona will know either way.” Lumi said as she thought about it, “She always does.” 

“And she probably will still murder him even if I went along with it. His fault and not my problem.” Ajax shrugged.

“I’m pretty sure he’ll do the same when you’re in the same situation.” Lumine snickered.

Ajax gave her an offended look, “How dare you, I’ll never forget such an important date.”

Lumine raised an eyebrow, “Yeah? Well, when’s ours?” 

“November 11, at 4:22 pm if you wanna be specific.” Ajax grinned at Lumine’s surprised face, “Told you, ojou-chan~” he used his special nickname for her before kissing the tip of her nose.

Lumine was about to retort back, but Qiqi had walked into the kitchen with her an assortment of toys, “Mama, Papa, play with Qiqi now?” she asked hopefully.

They both smiled warmly before untangling themselves from each other, “Papa will just make a call then I’ll join you and Mama, yeah?” he said as he knelt down to Qiqi’s height.

“Okay.” she smiled brightly before Ajax left to his office, she turned to her mother with a smile, “Mama, let’s go! Qiqi thought lots of games to play with Mama.” 

Lumine smiled before letting her daughter drag her to her playroom. It’s been a while since Lumine had taken a couple of days off from their bakery, though she comes home at 6 pm every night, Qiqi would complain that she was gone for forever and missed so much playtime with her and while she loves her papa so much, she misses playing with her mama as well.

As Qiqi continues to talk about what they’ll do, Lumine can’t help but feel happily content with how her life is now.

~~~

White… Everything is all white...

He doesn’t exactly remember where he was, nor how he got there.

Hell, he doesn’t even know who he is.

Nor who the golden-haired girl is that sometimes appears in the distance.

All he knows is that if he finally reaches her, 

He’ll be home.

[atelier-dayz]

⭐star⭐

Beginning of chapter 4 :)

The sandstorm has passed when Jango wakes from his nap. He figures it’s a good time as any to do another patrol around their area, not to mention to stretch his legs. After refilling his water flask, he exits the ship, discovering the ramp has already been lowered.

He soon finds out why when he spots Kenobi in the shadow cast by the ship, seated cross-legged with the hood of his robe pulled up to hide his face from the glare of the sun. He supposes Kenobi is meditating, but he has to squash the instinctual unease he feels at the sight. There is no wind, and yet the edges of Kenobi’s robe and sleeves waft softly as if there is. Swirls of sand in distinct tendrils surround him, orbiting lazily. It’s strange, yet beautiful, yet terrifying. It’s such a casual display of a power Jango will never understand, it makes his gut want to squirm.

One of my favorite scenes that I’ve written!! I also want to draw this. Or someone to do it for me LOL I talked about this in an old ask so won’t ramble on here. <3 

Jango turns from the sight, takes a deep breath in and out, and puts it out of his mind. He sets off to begin his patrol. 

The landscape has changed, the sandstorm depositing new dunes where there had been none and flattening out other areas. There is, however, still no signs of life, just endless expanses of sand. Mos Espa remains barely visible in the distance, unchanged. He wonders about Jinn's progress on getting their parts.

He returns to the ship to see Kenobi has emerged from meditation. He has remained seated, but has his hands buried in the sand on either side of him, a bemused quirk to his lips.

“What is it?” Jango asks.

Kenobi blinks and looks up at him, shaking his hands free of sand.

“This planet has an...interesting Force presence. Old and...almost feral, I suppose.”

There’s no way Tatooine doesn’t have a unique Force presence. The planet where Anakin, The Force Baby, was born. The planet where Obi-wan chose to live for all those years. The planet where Luke grew up. Also I love the desert, and have a healthy respect for the...power it holds. ~u~

“...right.” Jango has nothing to say to that. 

Kenobi gives him a wry smile before getting to his feet. 

“Nothing alarming, just interesting,” he says. He brushes off the sand he’s collected on his leggings. “I am a little worried though that we’ve disillusioned Padmé, and by extension the Queen, about the Senate.”

Jango grunts. “Better now than later,” he says. “The Queen can think of contingency plans then, instead of just relying on the Senate.” He pauses, then asks, “Did she...pass any judgments?”

Kenobi hums, looking off into the distance with a thoughtful expression.

“She was horrified, of course. But I hope she understands better that Jedi are just like any other sentient being. We make mistakes, just like anyone else does. Unfortunately, with the power that we have, those mistakes come at terrible costs.” He turns to look at Jango. “It’s why we begin our learning when we are children. It’s why we make the sacrifices that we do and take the vows that we do.”

Lumi and others have said this in way better terms than me, but Jedi younglings are babies with incredible psychic powers. Jedi are individuals with psychic powers. Control is important if you don’t want a building coming down on you and people getting hurt. 

“How early do you start training?”

“We start learning the Code and our philosophy as early as we can understand it, through stories and songs. We start learning to control the Force through games," Kenobi says. "Coincidentally, we start combat training, among other things, at five years old.”

“Hm.” Coincidentally, because Mandalorians also begin training children when they reach five. Before then, they are taught the Resol'nare and other aspects of being Mando’ade. Apparently, similar to the jetiise. Jango doesn’t know how he should feel about that. 

He saves the thought for later, as Kenobi sends him a knowing look. 

I’ve said it before but I’ll say it again, I love the parallels between Jedi and Mando’ade. And I will cram in as many parallels between them as I can because I LOVE.

“And did you tell her who I was?” Jango asks. He had not thought Kenobi would, but wants to check regardless.

“No,” Kenobi replies, looking baffled at even the thought of it. “It’s not my right. It’s your decision if or when you tell her.”

“Fair enough,” he says. 

“...while you were resting, my master commed with news,” Kenobi says, though he strangely doesn’t look too pleased.  

“And?”

“Do you know about the Boonta Eve?”

“Yes…oh.” Jango puts two and two together. “He’s betting on a podrace to get us our parts?”

“The local boy he befriended has offered to enter the race on our behalf,” Kenobi says. “Master Qui-gon has submitted our ship in a gamble with the junk shop’s owner. If the boy wins the race, the owner gets the winnings and we get the parts. If he loses, we lose the ship.” He frowns, clearly not approving of the plan. 

Jango curses under his breath.

“Is your master mad?” he hisses. “He’s staking everything on a local boy winning a podrace? Not just that, but one of the biggest podraces in the galaxy?”

“He seems to have confidence that the plan will work, but yes, I understand that it seems quite...ambitious,” Kenobi says. He sighs the tired sigh of the long-suffering. It seems like his master is dini’la even by jetii standards. 

Okay, like we know Anakin wins, but from the perspective of the characters, Qui-gon placing everything they had (the ship, their only transport off the planet) on the chance that this random 9 or 10 years old boy they’d only just met, who has never completed a race, will come in first place in the podrace is BONKERS. 

Jango wonders how long Kenobi has had to put up with Jinn’s madness -- and if Jinn is either more or less infuriating to other jetiise than to non-Force-sensitives.

“Do you think it will work?” Jango asks.

“While I have...misgivings, I must trust in the Force. My master thinks this boy will win the race, so I must have faith that is the case.”

Jango grunts. Kriffing mad jetiise. He tells himself that either way, they are stranded without the parts. They’re also a resourceful group of people; they’d figure something out if they need to.

He and Kenobi head back into the ship, closing up the ramp behind them.

“Have you ever seen podracing?” Jango asks purely out of curiosity.

Kenobi nods. “On Malastare,” he says. “I’m grateful my master didn’t decide to hop into a podracer himself. Though I suppose he’s much too tall for it.”

Jango arches a brow at him. “He would have done it if he wasn’t?”

“Rumor has it, my master used to drag race in his youth. One of the many things that drove his master spare, I heard.”

I vaguely remember Qui-gon drag racing as a thing in a few fics I read during one of my fic binges and loved the idea so definitely had to include it.

“Drag racing? You jetiise?” 

“We have the reflexes for it of course, but it’s highly frowned upon for obvious reasons. I can neither confirm nor deny that he did, but I would not have been surprised.”

Jango tries to imagine a younger Jinn drag racing, and yes, alright, it might be plausible. 

“And what does your...Council  think of it?” Jango asks. “He sounds like quite a rule breaker.”

“Yes, he has a reputation,” Kenobi admits.

“What about you? Do you have a reputation?” Jango is genuinely curious.

Kenobi grimaces. “Probably nothing good, I imagine,” he says.

Jango frowns, feeling doubtful that’s the case. “Because of Jinn?”

“...in part…” Kenobi hedges, clearly not wanting to discuss it. Jango doesn’t press.

Obi has, in fact, a good reputation with the Council. He just thinks he doesn’t because he’s Obi. :< I headcanon that with all the troubles he’s had in his initiate years, and then with Qui-gon re: Melida/Daan, leaving the Order, etc, he tries to act more by the book, especially with the way Qui-gon butts heads with the Council.

aaand /END LOL

[lumiereandcogsworth]

Adam of course!!!

my BABY?? but OF COURSE. i’m gonna do it under the cut because this is my SON we’re talking about and i go insane.

favorite thing about them: oh GOSH. probably how passionate he is? about his feelings?? which is my kind way of saying how entirely dramatic he is. but like, you know? when he’s sad— HE’S SAD. when he’s angry— HE BE ANGRY. when he loves,,,,, he loves. there’s no one foot in one foot out with this man, he is So Stubborn about Everything. he’s loyal as hell once he’s gained trust, and he’ll defend those he loves with his entire life. also, on a simpler, lighter note: his humor as well.

least favorite thing about them: how little he cares for himself. he just, he does not think he has value. he doesn’t think he’s worth anything and it is heartbreaking. why do i write so much emotional hurt/comfort??? because i want my SON to SEE how IMPORTANT HE IS!!!! i want to grab him by the shoulders and tell him he is loved!!! and important!!!! but i can’t do that so i make his wife do it instead!!!!! he sees himself as so worthless and baby boy it aint true :(

favorite line: okay funniest line he says is “no? too... touristy?” and it kills me every time. i could write a whole essay about the Paris Scene™️ and the SIGNIFICANCE of that goofy line alone. but Anyway. a serious and gut-wrenching line is “you must go to him. no time to waste.” like. AAAHHH. the PAIN in his voice. i could write a whole second essay about what a phenomenal job dan stevens did in this film, BUT ANYWAY. the pain in his voice, you can SEE the heartbreak in his eyes. he thinks his time is up and it literally doesn’t matter anymore because the love of his life’s father is in trouble and he SEES how important that is to her, so he lets her go despite everything it means for him and the staff. and i just. AAAAH

brOTP: him and both lumiere and plumette make my heart go pew pew!! they are such an important part of his life and have been for so long and it’s like!!! GOSH!!! obviously cogs and mrs. potts are too, but they’re more like parent figures. which are JUST as important if not more so. but lumi and plum have been the important older brother and sister in his life that he has always needed and can now finally learn to just lean on with a heart that’s no longer locked up.

OTP: take a wiiiiiiild guess!!! yeah it’s adam and belle the loves of my life <3

nOTP: you know what. every once in a while i am cursedly reminded that there’s a crossover ship between the live actions batb and aladdin and it’s adam and JAFAR and i just want to die a little bit every time i remember it exists i just?? anyway. that and gaston/adam just cuz. that makes no sense they were both so narcissistic and unstable that is a terrible and shaky relationship dynamic my friend.

random headcanon: this is an oldie but it’s so dang soft: adam never held a baby until he held his own first child and he was so so nervous about it like he even thought about it before she was born and when she was finally there and finally placed in his arms he could barely move he just stared at his little child bursting with love and disbelief that his life could be so good after everything he’s done and been through.

unpopular opinion: i think it’s fair to say that adam being my fave is an unpopular opinion in and of itself. not that he’s hated but, i think there are very few of us who spend as much time as i do thinking about this one disney prince who doesn’t even have a movie canon name.... but i wouldn’t trade this boy for the world :)

song i associate with them: my eyes by the lumineers is THE adam song like. the amount of times i have listened to it, tearful eyes, imagining an amv that can never exist because it’s about him as a child and there’s like about five seconds of footage of him as a child so you just imagine it and want to SCREAM!!! and give him a hug!!!!! and set his father on fire!!!!!

favorite picture of them: sorry i literally could not narrow it down so have six instead.

they all evoke very specific emotions in me and i’ve already gone on long enough about my son so we’ll just leave it at that...

[luminashdawnwing]

B) What inspired you to create them? (Yes, ALL of them :P)

Luminash, my very very first RP character in the Warcraft universe was...a complete and utter whim back in high school whose name was determined by the random name generator on the character creation screen. I wish I had something more interesting to say, but that’s him! In RPGs, though, I’d always enjoyed the scholarly sorcerer types, which he’d been since the beginning, and has only developed more complexity from there as he walks the tightrope of wishing to go his own way, against authority if need be, and actually being that authority! His research interests were all over the place for much of his run as a character. His development into an expert on the Titans and magical theory as a science (much as the Titans seem to have approached it) came as Pandaria led to Draenor, which led to Legion. Each of them had lots of Titan lore, and delved into his favorite weirdness of chronomancy, which solidified who he was as a researcher a ton. His linguistic proficiency is, going to be honest again, a little bit of self-indulgence! Mason has been made and remade for the better part of a decade. He started out as a very, going to be honest here, bland human warrior, a complete blank slate of an alt. As I played, he became more of who he is: Westfall-born, appreciative of history, but ultimately did not move much beyond that. He settled down once in Redridge. Well... The current version of Mason (aside from an entirely new name) uses that old one as a template for his deceased brother, who died in Redridge! He came about again as something of a blank slate, but with more backstory describing who he was. He was paramilitary for a while through Draenor and much of Legion (shout out to @lynmars79 / @red-alynore for the Silver Dragoons!), which let him develop his dedication to protecting others and using his appreciation of history and studying tactics to actually be a tactician. With his paramilitary days behind him, the Valarjar gave him the perfect opportunity to re-invent himself in an entirely new way, as the warrior-poet and mercenary he is today! I like to think of him now, somewhat, as if...let’s say Superman were Clark Kent. Just being a Kansan farmboy going around being a hero, no special outfit, just folksiness and heroism. Therrine was a whim too! I loved the vineyard questline in Suramar, of course, and when I made my Nightborne alt, I thought, why not monk? They brew! She has since moved away from an actual vintner concept, and more into an exploration of rebellion, authority, and what happens when a people like the Shal’dorei, closed off for so long, are free to wander into the world. She had a more focused identity from the start than either Lumi or Mason, and was created so I could explore those ideas in writing! Elader, being newer like Therrine, has a more concrete concept behind him. I had tossed around the idea of a main timeline rangari becoming Lightforged for a while, and developed him as an exploration of determinism. None of my other characters particularly subscribe to this idea (aside from Lumi and his idea of some kind of cosmic “proper” order, though this doesn’t get into actual predestination), so I thought it’d be fun to explore through the eyes of a Lightforged! I also wanted him to buck the trend of the Light as an absolute, though, so drew inspiration from Classical philosophy (much from the Stoics, hence his title), making him essentially a questioner who leaned into a rigid, predetermined proper order. Lithendras was created originally purely as a foil to Luminash. I’d struggled with Luminash’s role in the faction war plot, and so created a nemesis. However, as time went on, I became disengaged with that, since it started to fall outside what makes Luminash interesting to me as a character. This left Lithendras...almost non-existent. His revival came from discussion with @syrielle / @cebinaruavin about Void Elf ideas! I wondered, what if his noble posturing with Luminash was him lying to himself? Why not make the dark reflection of Luminash I originally considered, seeking power not for a cause, but for power’s own sake? And so, Lithendras was revitalized! ( This was intense, and probably rambling! But thanks @thefugitivemango, and @zeehva, who asked about Mason too)

[seduceme-lovestruck-thearcana]

@megatraven

I’m at my grandmas bc I gotta stay the night with her and I’ve been thinking of some Thr Girl in The Blue Dress headcannons for Apollo and Rose and Melodyyy and other characters bc why not. So,,,here we go dnwbsb.

Apollo is an awkward person. Yes, he’s a God that is more powerful than mortals, can demand his way into anything...yet he is awkward as HELL. I just think of him as being anxious and a little awkward around people. The baby just wants to play his harp (and other instruments) in peace to others who will listen.

Apollo likes when people run their hands through his hair. He finds the action comforting and, depending on the person, makes him fall asleep instantly. It’s just so soothing to him and helps him so much.

Apollo doesn’t like singing too much, but he can if someone he cares for asked him too. Like, if Aphrodite (someone who comforts him so much when Rose dies in every timeline) wanted him to sing with her or sing something for her while playing, he would do it. And he’ll sing anytime for Rose. He may not be the best singer, but songs that need a lot of humming or only need low vocals, he can do for people.

Apollo may be a little harsh sometimes, but he does mean well. He sucks at explaining his emotions, but likes to try. And most of the time it’s only to Rose or Melody (Roses mom), so they usually understand it.

Apollo doesn’t always use his god powers when on the surface. He actually made a rule to himself to not use them when just helping people or living down there. The only times he uses them is when he’s in a dire situation or needs to save someone. That’s it. Other than that, he plays human.

Apollo isnt always smart. Especially, on the surface. He needs things to be explained to him and isn’t afraid to ask for help. He knows many gods are too prideful to ask for help or refuse to even ask the humans anything, but he isn’t. He likes to learn things and will take any chance to learn anything he can with the right help and guidance. He gets a little shine in his eye when he learns something new.

Rose likes to stay places, but she also wants to travel the world. Well, not live there, but just go there. She wants to see different cultures, see what it’s like living there, taste the food, and just experience everything.

Rose likes normal life. Having kids, going to work, waving kids goodbye while they go to school or hang out with friends, but she does like a little danger and spice in her life ;).

Rose loves singing. Whether it be in English, Greek, French, or whatever language. She wants to learn how to sing the song and would love to sing it. She sings while brushing her hair, in the shower, or when she’s alone doing some work.

Rose likes to make fun of the gods a little. If someone says something about Poseidon she’ll be like, “I CONTROL THE LOBSTERS!” If someone says something about Hades and how he controls when people die, she corrects them and is like “I control dead not the die!” She likes Aphrodite the most because of Love™️.

If she knew Apollo was a god in each timeline, she’d be asking him a lot of questions. Saying “Oh, how high is it up there? Can you hear us at all? Can I meet the other Gods? Are Pegasi really cute? CAN I FLY ON ONE?” Shes just rlly excited and curious,,,

Melody’s husband actually just left her and Rose. He left when Rose was born. He said he wasn’t made for fatherhood, but Melody believes he was just a little scared and worried he wouldn’t be a good father, so he just left. However, not knowing that that only made things worse. Melody told Rose that he died,,,trying not to hurt her with the truth...

Lucas and Rose would sneak out together sometimes. They’d go to the forest and play tag, hide and seek, or swim in the lake. Since pollution, wasn’t too bad (I think-) back then, the river was a little bit cleaner and actually shined, so they loved to go swimming. Even if their parents would get angry at them for sneaking out. Yes Rose can be a bit of a rule breaker sometimes

Vanessa and Rose were really close because both enjoyed helping people. Vanessa May have been a little more shy, but she did love helping people. She liked making fun of Mr. Sanchez’s mustache (he has one lol).

Both Rose and Vanessa are good and fast learners. It runs in the family.

Vanessa saw Apollo a few times and she really liked him. When she was dying, she wanted to hear him sing for her because she liked the way his voice sounded when he read her stories sometimes. Apollo cried when he heard that because it was so wholesome and he couldn’t help but honor that request and sing for her until his throat hurt.

Vanessa makes fun of Roses singing. Even when she’s dead, she makes fun of Rose because she’s her sister. It’s her job to make fun of her >:). You’ll see how she makes fun of her later

Lucas used to make fun of Rose for everything. Everyone thought Lucas was actually bullying her, but when someone else said something about her, he was aggressive and told them to stop immediately. Aggressive boi👀.

Rose would actually like to know Hades, the God of Death. She’s just interested in how things happen. Like, “do people know where to go when they die? Do you control when we die? Is Hermès nice? Is Hermès patient? What do we see when we die? Is it just darkness and then a random light, or is it something else?” She’d ask so many questions. AND about creatures that Hades has made/forced to make (like the furries in Hades season 1 in ALK. Not saying the Furries are real bc idk, but I mean like that situation). She’s just so interested in creepy things and wants to know what to expect when she dies. Not knowing that she won’t know what that feels like when she does die

The creature from the Underworld that cursed Rose and her mother in the first place, cursed her mom just to bring a little more suffering to Rose. They knew that Rose hated hurting others, so knowing that her mother was dragged down with her into this mess, it would ruin Rose.

The creatures name is “Lumie” bc their appearance (in my head) is based upon a girl named Lumina from the game Lighting Returns (a final fantasy game and it’s SO good but play Final Fantasy 13 and Final Fantasy 13-2 first to understand things...I think it’s 13-). This is what Lumina (and Lumie) look like and sound like and I always think of her and her voice when I think of the creature. And she’s adorable which makes it worse lol.

Okay that’s all I can think of for right now. Hope you liked this and found these interesting and I might think of more while I’m here👀👀