#luca.txt (out of character)

[azurescaled]

Full confession? When I was younger, my first mancrush was on Ron Perlman. Not the man himself, no. Because when I first saw him?

And of course, now that I'm older...I know that it explains so much.

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Took a photo of me hanging out at the zeroing range waiting to zero my weapon.

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Luca here with a sideblog for my ttrpg characters, Seraph De Vinter, Makoto Igarashi and Creed. I'll mostly leave this for interactions with people from my campaign or little drabbles I come up with.

I will write with people outside of the campaign, but due to the nature of my characters, plotting WILL be required for them. This blog is low-activity, and won't use much in the way of graphics.

[babylooneytunes]

seriously, can we all just like agree the new loney tunes has such a tumblr art style to it?

[azurescaled]

Hey, I'm alive!

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Feeling my pathfinder OCs more, so I'll be on @offrozenmemoirs for a while.

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So, uh, it's been a while, huh? Honestly, I'll come out and say that I've been burnt out because I've been busy with a lot of irl stuff, setting up new internet, getting a new phone, going on job searching and applying for jobs...It's been a hectic few...months? Let's go with months. It sure as fuck feels like it.

I miss writing with y'all but more importantly, I kinda miss chatting with all of you. I know I'm pretty bad with doing that, but still, I want to be better at that. Frankly, I miss getting really long plotlines developed with people and spending hours talking about stuff. Hell, I just miss talking stuff out with people in general.

That being said, I won't lie and say it's been kind of difficult to talk to people lately, because I've just been only really wanting to talk more with people I'm already close to. Granted, I think that's been happening since I got back from training last year. It's a weird thing to describe but I don't like my lack of energy for my hobbies, you know?

I want to write more, and I'll say that's been kind of happening on the pathfinder front, given that I've got three characters I'm pretty invested in and I've been writing for them. That being said, I want to come back and write with y'all too.

So, I dunno where to start right now, but I'll try and figure something out. I really appreciate everyone's patience with me and for sticking around as long as you have. Means a lot to me, even though I'm not really doing anything, you know?

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get to know me meme !

TAG NINE PEOPLE YOU’D LIKE TO KNOW BETTER !

1. favorite colors: Black, Red, Green (Listen, I never left my edgy phase)

2. favorite flavors: I love me some sweet, spicy and bitter flavors.

3. favorite genres: horror, angst, fluff, drama, adventure, occasionally smut

4. favorite music: i've long since figured out i have no defined genre, i listen to everything. Though if we're gonna go with one of my favorite bands? Nine Inch Nails

5. favorite movies: Alien, Aliens, Battle: Los Angeles, Dead Space: Downfall, John Carpenter's: The Thing

6. favorite series: Lotr, Metroid, Starship Troopers, Helldivers, Halo, Dino Crisis, Parasite Eve, Dead Space

7. last song: Sands of Time (Trap Remix)- JB Music

8. last series: Hell's Paradise Jigokuraku

9. last movie: Bigfoot: Lost Coast Tapes

10. currently reading: Dungeon Meshi

11. currently watching: Dungeon Meshi

12. currently working on: pathfinder drabble

tagged by: @astarab1aze, @eraba-reta-unmei tagging: You.

[azurescaled]

Something I kind of want to confess in regards to something I struggle with in writing, is writing people who aren't y'know, good people.

I'd argue all of my muses have sides to them that don't make them good people, but I suppose I want to focus on Serina, since she's the one muse here who's outright a villain.

When it comes to Serina, prior to her becoming a wraith, she was mild mannered, and resented her family (rightfully so), for essentially putting her to the side in favor of her brothers, she's the middle child, so what she wanted didn't matter to her, and why she took the opportunity to enjoy her time out of town and selling their wares. She's also (rightfully so) enraged that she was forced back to life, in a world that she was and to some extent is a stranger in. She still actively chooses to do what she does, and in some cases, that means causing misery for those like her, or not caring about the effects of her actions on those outside of her circle of influence and interpersonal relationships. She's a monster, and she embraces that fact about herself. However, she still has human qualities, there are people she cares for, and isn't afraid to admit that. She's capable of love, and isn't afraid to show that to someone in privacy where there are no prying eyes.

It's hard to strike the balance sometimes, because on one hand, Serina is a horrible person who actively chooses to be a monster and doesn't regret that. But I also don't want to woobify her if that makes sense. She's not the type of person who will change who she is just because she loves someone. Just because she won't be a monster to you, doesn't change the fact she has no issue with being a monster to others, you know?

Hell, sometimes I enjoy villains who are evil for the sake of being evil, because evil people don't need a reason to be so, but I also like to have substance to my writing, I want to write villains who while you can sympathize with them, it doesn't excuse their actions or cloud the fact that they're bad people.

I dunno, I want to be better at writing villains, and I know I got work to do on that front, because I think I strike a good balance with some of my more gray characters, such as Jensen, who has done terrible things, but uses that as a motivation to better herself. That being said, she doesn't have problem with taking lives if that means solving an issue either. I also somewhat struggle with that with a pathfinder character of mine, Makoto, who while a good person at heart, also has no issue with killing so many that he doesn't remember the names or faces of the soldiers he's killed in war.

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Gee Luca, what do you do when you're not working on drafts and blog stuff?

The answer is Halo Fashion.

[babylooneytunes]

Mum: are you developing an obsession with Mario games Me: [Felix voice] developing

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