#lu guang is the saddest wettest cat in a box in the history of fiction

[viciousbagel83]

Hehehe always glad to add to the pain agony and suffering

do you think lu guang thinks about the first cheng xiaoshi he left behind

about the cheng xiaoshi that died in the darkroom. that bled out in his arms and lies on the cold floor in the red light, in his own blood, alone among all the photos. a cold and dead cheng xiaoshi, that no one will or did ever come back for

does lu guang think about cheng xiaoshi in different versions? does he ache for the dead one that he left behind? riddled by guilt because he left in pursuit of another? does his heart break for his first cheng xiaoshi that he will never see again? never experience again a true first meeting, first friendship? a partnership that grows, in a timeline unmarred by the knowledge of what will happen?