#lowk js a vent

[t0riiiis]

having a tree and presents for Christmas is still so weird for me, growing up at my mom's with "it's either a tree or presents" to suddenly having both and not having a painted tree gingerbread cookie as the 'tree'for Christmas is definitely something I'll never get used to, eternally greatful for what I have now 💕

[888amaryss]

sigh chat ok dis mightttt seem corny but I lowk needa vent💔

anywho,

I’ve lowk been notice been getting quieter everyday nd im usually rlly nice nd loud nd somewhat happy but now idek im js getting quite nd dat is weird for me and my bsf has been noticing it to but uhhhhhh yeah and I RLLY dnt wna get sent to a mental hospital again so I js lie nd say im fine leik lemme live I js wna cut on my own IN PEACE ty very much😒

ty for reading my yap

[tarncore]

29/10/2024

TW: Vent

Lowkey shit been tuff lately idek I'm so messy. I feel so emotionally unstable, I could cry at literally any moment.

Ngl I always hurt the people i care about, so maybe I should care for them more by not hurting them, but its not like i want to hurt them so maybe the best way is that I should exist alone so like I don't fuck up in my assholery cus I am lucky to have such nice people around me so idk maybe I should js fuck off so i dont cause them any pain... specifically one person who i think should distance himself from me before i do something dumb, i mean i alrdy did, but dumber.

I been up to some shit I know I shouldn't be, been playing fruit ninja on myself what can I say. You can take the girl outta the kitchen, but you can't take the knife away from her.

It ain't that bad though, I don't want any1 to see so like its itty bitty and only in the places no one will ever see (hopefully)

Ngl i still so shakey wakey and ears still ringing and tbh i been seeing shit lately... Like I was on a walk and I swear there was something there, but there wasn't and I'm so freaked... Also, I'm not dyslexic I swear bc like this is new, surely I would have noticed before, but like when I stare at words like the lines start wobbling its trippy as hell. Idk whats up.

My family all tells me i should eat more but i feel full even though ik i should probably eat moar ngl but like i dont wanna so idfk

I feel like I am really shit rn, I barely have energy, my priorities are all messed up, my emotions are all messed up, i feel like i am going(insane)

lowk all this is my own fault though, like i could have avoided it all. So like who am i too complain like brother its my own fault i should js thug it out smh

[t0riiiis]

wish u were as good of a mother in person like u are in messages, but we both know it'll last 2 days before it's the same shit as always ☺️