#loves her tea and loves her 👀 tea 👀 even if she refuses to admit she loves to gossip

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gonna go w ayşe for her name even if its two As cuz i love that name anyways im doodling away but like ok now gotta think of like..... idk i guess stereotypes this is the stereotype anime but like in a fun way....

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Hello which om characters do you like? 👀 If you don't mind sharing, why do you like them? Just curious.

Heya, Shion! Thank you for the ask and sorry for the very late reply!

(This has been gathering dust in my queue so most of these may be a bit outdated but I'm posting it anyway for future reference too, hehe ^^;;)

To give you the short answer, my current top faves are: Solomon, Simeon, Barbatos, Luke, Raphael, and Satan.

*Main Story spoilers under the cut*

I'm a HUGE side character enthusiast so most of my faves are among them. It's pretty obvious that Barbatos is one of my faves but despite all the tiny barbs I've been posting, my most favorite character is actually Solomon, which is also why I proposed a tiny sol series in this post. As for why I like him, I once sent @/everlasting-elegy an excruciatingly long ask about it so here's a link (Though you probably already know the extent of my simping XD)

For the others (just some crumbs because it would get way too long otherwise):

• Diavolo may be the next in line to the throne but he's someone who has the heart of a child and just wants to have fun, which is why he appreciates that you wouldn't walk on eggshells around him

• Barbatos has this air of mystery around him which makes you want to investigate what's beneath the surface and his formal facade, where you would find a sense of longing for your presence

• Luke is an innocent ball of sunshine who'd immediately brighten up your day once you see him smile

• Now where do I even begin with Simeon— he has the ability to smoothly deescalate difficult situations, his writing career is admirable, he's funny especially when it comes to dealing with technology, and he's literally an angel

If you were to ask me about the demon brothers, I think they're all charming in their own ways, too. Here are some of the many stuff I like about them below:

Lucifer often refuses to admit it, but he cares a lot for his brothers (and you, of course)

Mammon is probably the sweetest and most loyal despite occasionally being a blockhead (which also makes him more endearing in a way)

Levi is that one friend who you can share your interests to (and I relate to him because I tend to ramble a lot about stuff I like when I get the chance, too)

Satan, being the only pure demon among them, is painfully aware of the fact that you and him are of different worlds and races yet he loves you anyway (His HDD '21 UR card says it all)

Asmo has the ability to see the best traits in people even back when he was an angel and he'd probably be the one to pamper you the most whenever you're feeling down

Beel is a pure sweetheart who probably gives the best bear hugs and always makes sure that you're eating well

Belphie would make a great napping buddy and I don't really hate him for what happened in Lesson 16 because 1.) he's a demon after all and 2.) he did it out of a snowballed resentment towards humans since they lost Lilith in the Great Celestial War (I'm still a bit bitter about the fact that things somehow immediately went back to normal when they found out that we're Lilith's descendant, though)

As for the 3 future dateables:

• Thirteen seems like the type of friend you'd spill all your tea to and her chaotic energy makes her fun to be with (she's also quite the tsundere!)

• Mephisto has a caring side to him; likely because he has a younger brother of his own and I'd love to see the character development on how he'll accept us as a human in the Devildom

• Raphael, despite often being sarcastic and aloof, is a dedicated angel and always looks out for everyone, especially Simeon (he's also pretty funny at times)

They're all lovable in their own ways and I don't really despise any of them.

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@liz-allyn

G’dammit Liz! I changed clothes once already before I started reading… now I gotta change the fuckers again! 🥵🤯

Okay, I have a little bit to unpack here sooooo… here’s the tea…

First and foremost;

But I fucking love it and I’m deceased. 😵

Now secondly;

I love Miguel. I will want retribution for whomever ambushed him, but more so because his being ambushed interrupted one of the HOTTEST mutual masterb*tions I’ve EVER read!

I absolutely lived for this scene period. The praise/encouragement wasn’t just turning Honey on… 🥵

And the fact that he referred to himself as ‘Daddy’. Like holy fuck… 😵‍💫

Though they have a LONG way to go, I feel like these little moments are a step in the right direction for their relationship. Maybe I’m reading too far into it but I feel like these may be moments she’s shameful of in after the fact but maybe she’ll look back on them as more than what it was. This was her, yes maybe slightly manipulated, opening up to him. And not just in the dirty sense, but her soul bared as well. The most vulnerable positions to be put in and she initiated that!

Peter opening up about listening to her when she’s pleasuring herself was equally as dirty and vulnerable too though. Admitting to her how hard it is for him not to make a move and just be pinning Peter Parker with his hand on his dick…. 😅 someone stop me! I told you this scene was fucking phenomenal!

Next on the agenda;

Wtf John?? 😡

Can someone just kill this douchebag abusive asshole already!?

…I’ll gladly volunteer to be the perpetrator! 🙋🏻‍♀️👀

Just when I thought I couldn’t hate him anymore he goes and pulls those stops! Fucking dickhead makes it easy to wanna destroy him, that’s for sure! And I feel like this means he either has the whole penthouse wiretapped/bugged with hidden cameras… or there’s another rat besides Honey that they didn’t know was aware of what was going on on that couch…

Well, maybe strike the ‘another rat’ part. I refuse to believe she’ll continue to go through with this, and am praying eventually she gains the courage to be honest with Peter with John’s threats or at the very least stop John herself by feeding him the wrong information and throwing him off track… then when he comes after her to punish her for doing so, Peter can kill his ass then…but maybe I’m going out too much on a whim there…

I feel like things with Mr. Walker are about to get messier than what we all assume and tbh it terrifies me! I just want them to communicate with each other better and obviously Honey does too, but like how could she tell Peter the truth after all that has happened that she’s “to blame for” because of this Asshole’s threats and blackmail over her!

I also would love to know if Peter knows about John. Like I doubt he KNOWS about John in the sense that he’s puppeteering Honey to do his dirty work while he sits by sending idle threatening messages and pictures her way. But like, in the sense of him knowing she had an abusive past with her ex and that he’s still around to do damage to her mentally and physically?

I say this because I feel like his “Y’know I’ll protect you…” comments weren’t just directed at the fact that she had a run in with Danny the night before or that she has a toxic relationship with her mother. Or that he flashed back to her asshole of a boss that he did away with before he even had her to hisself. I felt like there was something underlying in his affectionate yet sharp toned admission that he cares for her more than anything and he’d protect her against anyone.

Which gave me chills and made me want to sob all at the same time, btw. 😫 I just wanted to hug him there and tell him how pure yet terrifying he sounded under the circumstances.

I know your warning was to NOT date a mob boss. But Peter is my exception to the rule because I just wanna wrap him up in a blanket and hold him when he’s going through it, while simultaneously wanting him to go feral and bend…. Well you get the idea… 💡

Whooooops! My wishful thinking made me put that there… I swear! 😬 (as well as maybe my unhealthy obsession with wanting to read about Peter and Honey finally being physically intimate… 🫣)

And Lastly;

Though I’m working on my fourth cup of coffee for the day, and it’s midnight, I think my brain is awake enough for me to put my feelings into words… so here it goes…

I’ve said this many times before, and I’ll probably say it again and again before you end this series… these two people maybe deeply flawed. They may have been burned one too many times and have massive issues with trust, communication, anger and many others. They may both have some highly toxic traits that reverberate off each other in waves due to the previous mentioned issues… but the one thing that is plain to see and I think they’re both beginning to see it too… they both care quite deeply. Not just in general, but about each other.

Peter telling her that she’s worth fighting for and that he wants her to see and understand that was one of those times that as someone who has survived an abusive/toxic relationship, I yearned to hear yet when I was finally presented with, I fought so hard to believe fully. That I was worth anything, really. He genuinely just wanted her to know that she has him. But he knows that she needs to believe that she deserves that, because he needs the same thing.

This whole series you’ve written these two so beautifully. So precise to their traumas and issues. And those little sneak peeks of one of them understanding what the other is going through and needs, shows just how accurately you’ve done that.

I know I say a lot about wanting to see what their happy ending (cause goddddd, I pray it’s a happy one! 😩) will be, but in all honesty I’m just excited to see their character development and growth from beginning to end. Because for as deeply flawed and toxic as they have been, I feel like that’s just an indication of how much they’re falling for each other and how damn hard they’ll love each other in the end. (I hope… 😅

Oh, and one more thing;

Pleaseeee let them fuck ASAP…. 🙏🏼 - signed Kacie’s Brain’s unhealthy obsession with needing this to happen

Also, I love you! ❤️ Please continue doing what you’re doing because you’re absolutely fucking killing it!! This whole series and specifically this chapter was just MWAAAAHH 😚🤌🏻 *chefs kiss*

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sugar and vice, pt. 13 [mob!tasm!peter x fem!reader]

summary: Peter teaches Honey a lesson.

words: 9.5 k

chapter warning: smutty dubcon spicyness (masturb*tion), references to drug use, manipulation, more john walker, graphic but brief reference to animal cruelty

series warnings: mob-typical violence, bang bang shoot shoot, whump. hurt/comfort. sexual situations. spousal abuse. family trauma. drug use. coercion. manipulation. kidnapping. gore. blood. toxic/yandere!peter (maybe, sorta), negative self talk, shameless forced proximity trope. ‘only ten one bed oops’ trope, imprisonment. slowest burn. a dash of questionable and/or morally grey intentions. extremely toxic relationships.

This version of TASM Peter is not canon. The relationships and characters here are not healthy.

Don't date a mob boss. Please. For real.

18+ You’re responsible for your own media consumption, but butterfly hair clips and stretchy plastic chokers are not a new trend and if you did not know that, this isn't the right time for you.

Back to Part 12.

Part 13

A vibration stirred Honey awake. She had been sitting on the floor of her room, back against the bed, and must have fallen asleep. Still wearing the bathrobe from the night before, she rubbed the drool from her mouth, only feeling slightly better than the first time she’d woken up that morning. 

Slowly, more pieces of the previous night were clearing up. She couldn’t remember the details or the context of what was said, but what she could remember terrified her. And that’s before she saw Peter shooting up in his office like a heroin addict. The sight deeply frightened her. Considering she was trapped in the penthouse with no one else, she did the only thing she could think of. 

Hide.

Another vibration jolted her into action. The sound itself made her panic, as she thought she had silenced any possible notifications coming into her contraband phone. She didn’t get texts often. Most of the conversations were one-way, her divulging sensitive information so that John could steadily build a case against Peter. Or maybe even get him killed.

It made her sick to think about. 

Even worse, if John was texting her, that only meant one thing. He was angry.

She dug her fingers beneath the mattress, in the gap inside the box spring. Once she pulled the device out, she glanced down at the screen. Her eyes were alert, blinking through the blurriness.

> u up?

She scoffed. “Gross.”

Before she could toss the phone, another message popped up on screen.

> someone had a wild night last night.

A chill shot down her spine. Instantly, her list of fears was renumbered, threats reprioritized in the correct order. John Walker was always at the top.

> of course i know. don’t be so surprised, peach. I know everything

> you looked like you were having a good time.

She swallowed back shards of glass as she gazed down at the taunting blue and white screen. 

> don’t forget. you have a job to do. 

Her eyes burned. Tears built up behind her eyelids. ‘A good time,’ he called it. It was an amazing experience, unlike any she’d ever had. She couldn’t remember a time she had ever felt so carefree. She recalled the blissfully warm memory as an overwhelming sense of peace. A feeling of euphoria. Of power, even. 

What a joke. She had no power. Never did. 

> where was eddie brock last night?

A knock at her door almost threw her into cardiac arrest. “Honey?” 

She dropped the phone immediately, the device clamored to the hardwood floor. She shot up, coming to a hurried stand, as the doorknob twisted.

The door opened. Peter was in the gap, having changed clothes into a different suit. 

He looked better than he did earlier when she spied on him in his office. ‘Better’ meant he didn’t look demonic. The whites of his eyes were visible again. The ‘tattoos,’ or whatever they were, had vanished. However, he didn’t look healthy; his skin was dull, an unusual milkiness to it, save for the dark shadows that carved out his eyes. His cheeks were sunken in, like he’d hadn’t eaten in days. The once-amber hue of his irises was faded, charred into blackened ash.

The sight of him pulled a slight gasp from her lips. She could’ve played it off as simply being startled. Truthfully, she was horrified; the mad fluttering of her heart gave her away. Not just at his presence, but at the phone hidden behind the bed, resting on the hardwood at her feet.

She clenched her fists as her sides. He eyed her with confusion. “What’re you doin’ on the floor?” he asked.

Rigidly, she dared not blink or avert her eyes. “Um... I... I don’t feel good.” That much was obvious, based on her appearance. Red-eyed, dehydrated, skin clammy. She fretted at her nose, finally breaking her unblinking stare. “Sorry, I... I’m still, um, I’m a little hungover. From last night. I think.”

When she looked back at him, a deep crease formed between his brows. He looked away, chewing his lower lip between his teeth. Nodded silently. “You need anything?” he asked, still not really making eye contact.

“Um... no,” she said, shoulders relaxing a bit. “I’ll be fine. I think I’ll just—” 

“Need you downstairs,” he replied with a flat tone. It was like all of the affection she felt budding between them had disappeared. Sprouts frozen and stagnated by a cold snap overnight.

“Oh.” Her stomach felt like it was made of rocks. 

His eyes were fixed on the doorknob, ever once reaching hers. “Get dressed. We have to talk.” Without waiting for a reply, he disappeared from the doorway, the door vibrating as it slammed closed again. 

It felt like she was 12 years old, being told that if she couldn’t keep up with her chores she didn’t get to eat with the rest of the family. Or to eat at all. 

Physically, the reaction was identical. She bit down to keep her lower lip from wobbling, dread twisting her insides. A loud rattle at her feet spooked her. It was louder than a cymbal crash in her anxious state. 

She dropped to the floor again to silence her phone, getting a look at the two new messages waiting for her.

> stop me if you’ve heard this one before...

> what sound does a bitch make in the microwave?

Heart thudding steadily, she gazed at the phone with confusion. “What?” she whispered, beneath her breath. Brows furrowed. Is this a joke? What kind of weird joke—?

> give up?

She had no time to reply. But that was the point he was trying to make.

> poor old mrs. nimitz could tell you.

It took less than two seconds for her to derive his cruel meaning, and her stomach lurched at the implication. She slapped her hand over her mouth, feeling bile crawling up. A shiver racked her whole body, budding tears spilling down her cheeks.

Peace. What a joke.

Walking through the penthouse was eerie. All of the motorized blackout shades outside of her room had been drawn shut, turning the day into night. The entire space was cast into a dark shadow with only dim lamp lights to guide the path. She had the urge to tiptoe, like she was sneaking around a funeral home.

As she approached the doorway to Peter’s office, her stomach began to clench with trepidation. She could hear two voices.

“You keep forgetting,” she heard a deep voice that was not Peter’s say, “the Rand name still holds weight. Now you’ve got the Meachums coming after you. They already had the club shut down, got the alcohol license revoked in record time—”

“I don’t care about that,” Peter’s voice responded, heavy with guilt. “I care about what happens to Miguel and Jessica. I didn’t know there was a gun.”

Creeping closer to the door, she spotted two figures in the lounge area of the dark office. 

Peter stood with head lowered and arms crossed, eyes downcast. Across from him, seated on a nailhead leather sofa, was a suited, brown-haired man wearing rounded sunglasses. The sunglasses were an odd choice to her, considering the room was so dark. As soon as she spotted the white cane in his left hand, it made sense.

Honey didn’t recognize the man, but Peter looked comfortable in front of him. The man wore a wine-colored, slim-fit tailored suit (Ralph Lauren, Purple Label, probably—she was getting better at this) with a black skinny tie, and a champagne silk pocket square.

“We can argue it was self-defense,” the blind stranger replied. 

“It was self-defense,” Peter answered firmly. “Miguel’s not a killer. Not like—” He swallowed hard, dropping the sentence. “They wouldn’t have fired unless they were firing back.”

“Doesn’t matter, Pete,” he answered. “There was a shooting inside of a nightclub packed with people, the sound of which triggered a crowd rush. People got hurt. One of Rand’s bodyguards was murdered. DA’s not gonna see it any different. He’ll try to come down hard on this. Not to mention, you have a friend at the police station with a personal vendetta—”

Peter spun on his heel, simmering with rage. “If he wants it, he can come and take it!” he boomed like a crack of thunder. His voice echoed in the large office, and she gasped beneath her breath. The blind man stayed quiet despite the outburst. 

Cooling his temper, Peter paced anxiously in front of the man. “Alright, what’s the hold up on the bail situa—”

The man on the couch gently lifted his free hand, bringing up his outstretched palm. Peter observed the gesture as ‘stop’, and he ceased his conversation. And then both men could hear it.

Her heartbeat raced just outside the door. “S’alright,” Peter announced, his back to the doorway. “Come in, Honey.” Her limbs locked up immediately, unsure how he could even see her. Regardless, her feet were already carrying her forward through the threshold, as if a whistle had been blown. 

She might as well have a collar around her neck, she thought. She crept in, tail between her legs, her eyes flicking anxiously between her master and the stranger. 

Peter looked up at her for the first time, and she had to fight to keep herself from shaking. “This is Mr. Murdock. He’s a good friend of mine.”

A pleasant smile had replaced the stranger’s grim expression as he came to a quick stand. “Call me Matt, please,” he declared, dripping with suaveness. He gracefully extended his open hand in her direction. She stared at it blankly before quickly moving across the room to return the gesture.

“Um, hi...” There was a squeakiness to her own voice that she loathed.

Matt nodded warmly, taking her hand and giving her a firm handshake. “Very nice to meet you, Miss.... uh...?”

“—Honey,” she answered, muscles rigid. 

Peter’s head tilted in her direction, and she briefly caught a glance of his eyes before he turned away. She clarified, feigning confidence, “‘Honey’ is fine.”

Matt raised his brows with surprise. “Honey,” he repeated, considering the response with curiosity. “It’s a pleasure.”

“Matt’s a lawyer,” Peter muttered, pocketing his hands, as he faced his body toward the window shades. “Best in town.”

Matt blushed at the praise. “Please. We at Nelson, Murdock & Page have been fortunate, that’s all.”

Nelson, Murdock & Page. She recognized the name from the billboards. Subway ads. TV commercials. And the 52-story building on 8th Avenue, overlooking Hell’s Kitchen, where the names of the partners were lit up by 25-foot letters. The name was synonymous with success, she had once overheard someone say so while working at the coffee shop. 

If Peter was a friend, all the law firm’s success came with a cost. Matt Murdock looked like he could afford to cover the bill and then some.

“What happened to Miguel?” Honey questioned warily. “Is he okay?”

Matt pursed his lips. 

Peter answered her, “He’s fine. He and another friend of ours... just had a little misunderstanding with the cops.” 

Honey spotted the way Matt shifted at the response. 

“But we’re on it,” Peter added. “Nothin’ to worry about. He’s safe.” 

Matt twitched again, gripping the head of his cane firmly. Honey didn’t need to see this action to know it was a lie. 

She glanced between the two men, unsatisfied. “What’s going on?” she asked nervously. “Is this about last night? About... that guy?” 

Tight-lipped, Peter looked away, pacing towards the window. Honey dug her thumbnail into her palm, wringing her hands anxiously. “If-If he wants me to apologize or something, I can—” 

It was like he was shocked with a cattle prod. Peter snapped his head in her direction, eyes stern. 

“I-I mean, if he’s pressing charges or something,” she mumbled. “I didn’t mean to-to make a fuss.”

“What the hell are you talkin’ about?” He spat out each of his words like rotten fruit, glowering at her.

The irate tone of his voice was familiar, but not from him. She wanted to swallow her tongue, staring back at him with wide eyes. “I... I don't want anyone to get in trouble—”

Brows pinched together, he stared incredulously at her for what felt like forever, jaw clenched tight. Subtly, she began to squirm under his hardened glare. “Matt,” Peter said softly, “could you excuse us?”

“Of course,” he said without hesitation, buttoning up his maroon suit jacket. He turned to Peter, “I have a car waiting for us outside. I’ll be ready when you are.” With a friendly bow of his head towards Honey’s direction, he took the cane and strode out of the room. 

Peter was dead silent until long after he disappeared from view. Moments before, he couldn’t (or wouldn't) look at her. Now, he roasted her with his gaze.

“Um,” Honey cleared her throat when the tension was too much. “Look, I-I want to say—”

“What do you remember about last night?” The question was thrown at her like she was in an interrogation. 

There were flashes of memories, some vivid, others blurry. Most of the words were cloudy. But the emotions were there, and they terrified her.

She gulped. Took a few shallow breaths. “I-I… I remember having a few drinks. And… and then I made Eddie give me something to-to take the edge off because there were so many people... and-and too many sounds, and I just don’t—I mean, I’m not making excuses. That’s—It’s my fault. Eddie didn’t want to, and I made him—”

“I’m not talkin’ about the drugs,” Peter snipped her sentence short, an edge of agitation returning. “I don’t care about the fact that you got high. I don’t care about any of that.” He fixed her with an intense gaze. “What do you remember about what happened next?”

She blinked, her heart beating hard enough to feel in her throat. 

What happened next? 

A hurricane of blurry images, punctuated by heartwrenching emotion. Like the fading outline of a nightmare. 

Which nightmare did he want to hear about first?

Was it her overwhelming guilt from spying on Peter? Was it the terror, like she was walking a tightrope across the Grand Canyon, every time her phone buzzed? Or the urge to run to the nearest church and pray away whatever evil possessed him when he stuck that needle in his arm? 

Was it confusion about what her heart wanted, one hand reaching out for him while the other sought to stab him in the back? Half wanted to dunk him in holy water, the other half of her wanted to reach out and touch—

A gasp caught in her throat. Another distinct memory came to light. 

Lust. Heated, unapologetic debauchery. It left a filthy sensation, a film congealing on her surface, like she’d spent a week locked in a room watching nothing but porn. Sin oozed from her brain, spinning her dizzy, bending her over, and presenting her cunt in the air to be fucked hard by any willing passerby.

She had wanted it to be Peter. 

Her face felt like it was on fire. He must have noticed because he broke his gaze, eyes suddenly downcast. A tidal wave of shame crushed her. 

“Do you remember,” he asked, more gently, “when you were assaulted?” She blinked, observing the concern in his gaze when he looked back at her. “When Rand put his hands on you?”

She blinked a few more times. Yes, she remembered that. Clear as day. She remembered the sudden urge to scream, cry and vomit all at once. She remembered Peter punching Danny and how scared and disgustingly satisfied it made her feel. She remembered Peter ordering his crew to protect her like she was Helen of Troy—not a slutty, mob mistress fucked-up on a little THC.

Her lower lip began to quiver. “I… I shouldn’t have been in there. I-I was out of my mind, and if I hadn’t—”

“Don’t,” his voice cracked like thunder. He sucked in a breath to silence himself, face contorting into a grimace. “Don’t finish that sentence. I swear to god, if you tell me that nothing woulda happened to you if you hadn’t been in there—”

“I’m sorry!”

“What are you sorry for?!” 

His voice echoed, crackling with ire. She flinched at the noise, tears welling up in her eyes. He fumed, and as if he spit acid in her face, he sealed his mouth with his palms. Spun on his heel and paced madly. The wolf was back, hackles up, canines dripping with aggression.

Her heart thrummed in her throat, her eyes like saucers. When he looked back at her, his face was twisted sourly. Exhausted. Heartbroken. He dragged his fingers through the scruff of his beard, and stepped towards her. 

“Why don’t you get it, huh?” he said, quiet and grim. Eyes desperate. “Why can’t you see it?”

As he leaned into her, she instinctively leaned back. Tears budded at the corners of her eyes. “I don’t—I don’t know what—” 

He held up both hands, silencing her. She hiccuped in distress. “Honey,” he said, calmly attempting to bite back his frustration, “when are you gonna learn that you’re worth fighting for?”

Her breath hitched. His dark gaze was fixed on her. 

“Why can’t you understand that there’s nothing on this Earth that I care more about? That I would do anything to protect?”

She stared up at him, wordlessly. He inched closer until she was within arm’s length. 

“I’ll fight for you. I’ll protect you. But Honey…” he sighed heavily, “I can’t save you from yourself.” Pity marked his features, eyes glistening. “I can’t fight the bad guys and the voice in your head. The one that tells you it’s okay for some prick to grab you and get away with it. For some asshole boss, your crazy mother, or anyone else to talk down to you. To make you feel unworthy of common fucking decency.”

Despite the affection of his words, all she could focus on was the way he hissed at the end of the statement. 

Her eyes fell to the floor in shame. Hot tears pooled behind her lids. “Did Miguel shoot someone?” she murmured mournfully. 

He nodded. “Yes.”

Wiping a tear from her cheek as it fell, she sniffed back her anguish, voice lined with disdain. “Because of me? Because I freaked out?” She sounded so small. Powerless. She hated the sound. “I don’t even remember what happened. Maybe nothing happened at all, maybe he didn’t even touch me—”

Like a thunderbolt, Peter slammed his fist on the edge of the couch. She let out a squeak as the pine frame cracked beneath his hand. She jolted upright and then ducked her head immediately. He fumed silently. Glared down at the floor. Nostrils flaring. Rooted in place for ages.

The sound of his heavy exhale compelled her to peek up at him beneath her lashes. He lifted his chin, eyes cast downwards, and tensely declared, “You can lie to yourself all you want. But I told you. Don’t ever lie to me.”

She hugged herself tightly, restraining a tremble. Mouth agape. Tongue twisted uselessly. He didn’t wait long for a response.

“I-I gotta go,” he said. Peter rubbed the back of his hand across his chapped lips. He looked disoriented, overwhelmed with conflicting emotions. He tugged on the edges of his slate-gray sportcoat, eyes focused on everything but her. “Won’t be back for a while. M’goin’ to the precinct.”

She tensed, eyes wide. “You’re going to the cops?”

Still, he kept his eyes down. She wasn’t sure whether it was defensiveness or disgust that prevented him from looking at her. 

“Don’t wait up for me.” 

Without any room for discussion, he marched out of the room. Stopping for nothing. Leaving her alone. 

Stupefied, she stood in his office feeling like the ground was trembling beneath her feet, and she’d be sucked into a sinkhole at any moment. 

Despite this, she couldn’t help but feel disappointed.

They were supposed to have a date.

Peter felt like he was sweating all over. Never mind the fact that it was a bitterly cold day. He shuffled from the elevator towards a blacked-out SUV idling in the underground garage. Every step was shaky, like he was balancing upright on a plank in the middle of the Atlantic. An ache radiated from his organs. Could’ve been starvation or salmonella. Never in his life had he ever been so ravenous and so wrecked by nausea.

One of his guards was already at the back passenger door, opening it for him as he approached. With little more than a tense nod, he crawled into the backseat where Matt was waiting.

“You feelin’ okay?” Matt asked. His tone was light amidst the heavy circumstances. “Don’t take this the wrong way, but you smell like a gym locker room.”

“M’fine.” The car lurched forward. Bile scaled up his tongue. Peter crouched in on himself, eyes fixed on the window.

“Yeah,” Matt scoffed. “Sure.”

He murmured coldly, “You let me worry about me.” 

“Hey, you called me,” Matt frowned teasingly, tossing his hands gently in surrender. “And for the record, I advised you not to go through with this.”

“Not gonna leave them to rot—”

“I’m saying we need to be strategic, is all. Chances are, we can get Jessica released today. Miguel is another story.”

Peter acknowledged that Matt was very good at his job. He could smell guilt. He could hear the pulse pattern of a lie. There was no hiding anything from the man, and it created a completely transparent relationship that Peter clung to. It was rare.

An uncomfortable silence fell between them as Peter contemplated his reflection in the glass. 

The lawyer spoke after a few moments, clearing his throat. “So. That’s her, I assume?” 

There was an ominous inflection in his voice. The idea of Matt’s attention being called to the woman in his penthouse made his skin prickle. Felt clammy. He squirmed in his seat, rolling his neck and shoulders. 

“Yeah.”

A pause. “She seems sweet.”

“She is.”

“That’s good. Great.” 

Another stretch of silence followed with Matt holding his tongue between his teeth. They both could sense each other’s distress, in the air and in their ears. Peter debated further attempts to conceal his fluctuating heartbeat. He needed to save up his energy. 

It was hopeless cause anyway. Matt saw everything.

The lawyer let out a heavy exhale, weighed by grim reality. “You know she’s hiding something from you, right?” 

Peter didn’t react. Brows furrowed, he simply stared into space. 

Matt was very good at his job. 

“Yeah. I know.”

Honey was making lists again. Montgomery. Juneau. Phoenix. Little Rock.

State capitals. Alphabetical by state. Sacramento. Denver. Hartford. Dover.

Fifty cities for fifty states. She counted to fifty and repeated the action, over and over, until she could sing them to a tune she composed.

It didn’t do anything to ease the dread in her belly.

The rest of the afternoon since Peter left her alone went by agonizingly slow. She purposely avoided her bedroom, where her phone was well hidden. She avoided the bed she shared with Peter. Avoiding any intimate space whatsoever.

The standard crew contracted to clean and maintain the condo came and left, as they did three times a week. Though she tried, the language barrier made having a conversation with anyone impossible. 

The more she thought about it, she wondered if the staff was capable of conversation all along, but they’d been instructed not to talk to her. The guards certainly didn’t, even as they lurked in the hallways like ghosts.

The best conversationalist in the entire house was Rex. 

She spent a good deal of time cleaning and rearranging the bearded dragon’s terrarium, despite the task having already been completed by a housekeeper. 

Honey felt like she’d seen him grow a few inches since she arrived. Peter explained that it was unlikely, he probably reached full size years ago, but she felt strongly about it. The reptile’s length spanned her entire forearm, from tip to elbow, and she was certain that it was an improvement. 

She needed to believe that something had been made better by her prescence.  

Rex was having an emotional time as well. He had always been on the large size for his species, but he had put on a few grams in the last few weeks, no doubt caused by the stress in their household. 

Honey wasn’t there to judge. She helped him get some exercise outside of the tank, letting him explore her arms and lap. His scaly embrace brought tears to her eyes. Rex was the only one she could actually care for. The only thing she had the power to protect. Perhaps the only unconditional love she’d ever experienced. 

Maybe the only love she deserved.

On a lighter note, Rex was a real riot once you got to know him.

That evening, Honey and Rex were enjoying a late night snack in the kitchen when she heard a crashing sound echoing from another part of the condo. She paused for a moment, trying to determine the source of the noise, curiosity stirring her chest.

Putting Rex safely back in his terrarium, she padded up the staircase towards the source of the noise. Just as she was ascending the stairs, one of the faceless guards rushed past her without a glance. Another one followed soon after, and she got the feeling that they were running from something. Like how rats scurry away before a train passes by. Or right before an earthquake.

Another sound—this one was just as sharp, but different. More animalistic. A roar. She tensed mid-step, jaw clenched tight, as she realized where the noises were coming from. 

Peter’s office.

Her instincts told her to run and hide, and incomprehensively, to go forward. Whatever it was, it was in pain. Or it was causing pain. Was Peter in pain? 

Bracing herself, she crept to the solid oak door and gently pushed it open. 

Like much of the penthouse, Peter’s office had floor-to-ceiling views of Lower Manhattan’s breathtaking skyline. Typically. On this night, the only thing outside the window was a terrace, which stretched around the condo, and a solid wall of fog at its border. Beyond the rain-streaked glass, it was nearly impossible to see through the black cloud. The haze made her feel trapped, suffocated. Blindfolded when an atomic monster could be lurking just outside of the windows.

The probability of a monster outside was steadily increasing. Despite the sounds she’d heard, concerningly, the inside of Peter’s office was empty. 

Swallowing hard, she wandered inside with her arms wrapped tightly around herself. She approached the center with bated breath, eyes darting towards each corner. 

She jumped at the sound of a clamour coming from the terrace. Searching from edge to edge, she couldn’t see the source, but didn’t need to wait for it. She glanced around the office, narrowing in on Peter’s desk. She darted behind the asymmetrical, functional piece of art, searching frantically for something that could be used as a weapon. 

Her fingers roved around the furniture, pulling open hidden drawers and extending pieces in search of something sturdier than a Bic pen. As she slid her fingertips beneath the table surface to search for a handle of some kind, she brushed over a latch.

A pressurized spring popped open to reveal a sliding compartment. Hidden. Secret. 

She stilled, mind struggling to comprehend what she was looking at. 

She obviously recognized that it was a handgun. A pistol built of black soulless metal. It looked fully assembled, as far as she knew. Another thing that holds bullets—a magazine?— was nestled tightly next to it.

Her fingers twitched, curled into balls. Her cells urged her to reach out and touch. With arms firmly at her sides, she gazed down at the weapon. Swallowed hard. 

This was a tool. A gift, perhaps. A new puzzle piece. Biting her lip, she debated how to use it, and if she even could, and fuck I don’t know how to hold a gun much less shoot somebody, and are you ready for that? Would you actually shoot someone?

As quickly as she could, she slapped the hidden compartment closed, obstructing the weapon from her view.

“Somethin’ I can help you find, kitten?”

She snapped her head around to see Peter standing near the windows, concealed in shadow. Her breath caught in her throat, and while her mind was spinning because where did he come from how did he get in here how did he get up here how long as he been there—

—and what the fuck did he just call me?

When Peter stepped out of the shadows, he looked like a different person. He was wearing the same face, even the same clothes (although they were drenched and clung to his skin as if he’d just come in from the rain). He looked alien to her, a skinwalker. Like his body had been stolen by an otherworldly entity that puppeted his movements as he prowled towards her.

Instinctively, she took a step backwards. He crept like the drizzle outside—languid, chilly and deceptive of the violence capable within. 

Honey opened her mouth to speak, but no words would come out.

“I asked you a question, sweetheart.” The lilt in his voice made her shiver. Peaceful rage. Gentle malace. It was like an unharmonius song to her ears, full of opposites and contradictions.

She had no idea when her lips started moving. “I... I... was...um... I-I heard...” 

“Why is it every time I come home I catch you creepin’ around in here?” he replied, like words whispered between lovers. He loomed closer. “Curious little kitten, aren’t you?”

Cold sweat beaded at her brow. Her voice was thin. “I-I... don’t like that.”

“Don’t like what?”

“I don’t like you calling me that.”

“What would you like me to call you then, huh?”  He sauntered nearer, a few strides away from her rigid stance. “You were never clear on that.”

She stood helplessly, frozen in the lights of his gaze, as he stalked towards her. She tensed her muscles, bracing for impact, expecting to be splattered across the floor. In a split second, she lunged forward.

Throwing her arms around his shoulders, she pulled him into a tight embrace. Heart thrumming loudly, she held him close to her body. The wet clothes soaked through her sweater. His fluttering heart tapped against her cheek.

Holding him was exhilarating and terrifying and terrible all at once. He went rigid underneath her touch, and she couldn’t see whether it was from rage or shock. She pressed her cheek firmly into his chest, stifling tears. 

“I’m worried about you,” she whispered. His body was tense and his skin cold, corpse-like. “’M’afraid, Peter. Afraid something bad is gonna happen.”

It was like embracing a statue. She couldn’t even feel him breathe.

“What happened to you?” she trembled with despair, her lip quivering. Despite the overwhelming confusion in her heart, her concern was genuine. She was afraid for him. She knew that. It just wasn’t the only thing she was afraid of.

After several more moments of silence, she finally felt him soften. Her shoulders slumped, feeling the slightest relief at the gradual rise and fall of his chest. With his next breath, his muscles loosened a bit more. Soon, he felt human again.

His Adam’s apple bobbed against the top of her head. “Y’know I’ll protect you, right?” he said. The sentence was feather-soft. And just as hollow. “From anything.” He didn’t embrace her in return.

Her eyes burned and glistened. “I know.” 

She pushed away from his chest, staring up at his face. The action forced him to meet her eyes. The color was missing from his irises, giving them an inky black appearance. But other than that, there was a glimmer of the man she knew looking back at her. 

“I... I want to protect you too,” she said, biting her lip. Clenching her jaw tight, she let her hands travel up the wet fabric of his shirt. She ran her fingers gently over the expanse of his chest, gulping at the feeling of marble beneath. 

When she met his eyes again, torment was etched onto his face. He was in pain, and he’d let her see it. That glimmer of vulnerability opened a gateway to the shy boy beneath her fingers. The charming young prince who stumbled over his words, and whose bright smile magnetically yanked her feet out from under her.

While she gazed up at him and felt his defenses slip away, a voice in the back of her mind drew crosshairs in her eyes. She looked at him like peering down the scope of a rifle. The devil on her shoulder urging her to go in for the kill.

Her whisper was breathless. Soft, like a butterfly teasing a flower. “Tell me what I can do... to help you feel better.” The lilt in her voice carried a suggestiveness that she watched spread like an ink stain through his mind.

He stared down at her intently, turning her inside out, pulling her apart in his gaze. His scrutiny unnerved her, but she forced her body to remain calm. To charm. She ran her fingers across the scruff of his beard, bringing her hand gently up to rest at his cheek. Felt the cords in his neck tighten as he resisted the urge to nuzzle her palm. She gazed up into the darkness of his eyes, heart aching, and vowing devotion.

His expression was hard to read, even for her. Regardless, she felt the air around her get inexplicably colder. 

“Yeah?” he breathed, his eyes glazing over. His mind was drifting somewhere else, listening to more voices than just hers. Unsettlingly, he stared down at her, inches from her face, and yet she got the feeling that he was simultanously looking at her from an outside window. “You wanna make me feel good?” 

The sound of him shifted. The sinfully-deep timbre of his voice sent heat rushing to her core. Ebony eyes half-lidded, swirling with lust, he trapped her in his gaze. Pinning her with just a look. She steeled herself timidly, restraining a tremor. Tension stretched her belly, as she pinched her lip and nodded.

“Say it.” 

The heat of his breath, combined with his scorching eyes that explored hers and suggested wicked thoughts, made her dizzy. Body and voice both firm against her. 

“Say you wanna make me feel good.”

Her mouth felt dry. She gulped. “I... I wanna make you feel good.” 

As he peered down lechorously at her lips, she kept herself from buckling beneath his gaze. He was panting, lips slightly parted, projecting lewd images of that mouth into her brain. 

His lips curved into a slight smile that didn’t reach his eyes. “Go put on that pretty dress I got ya.” 

He said it suggestively, although it was far from a suggestion. Her heart began to beat faster. “Um... which—”

“You know exactly which one.” 

It was a declaration. A challenge. A warning. She swallowed dryly at the intensity of his stare. 

“Go on.” 

Her instincts screamed at her again. Begging her to turn around and run. Instead, she stepped away slowly. Her retreat was tense, controlled and calculated, like walking on a tight rope. She willed her muscles to move, forcing herself to turn her back to him.

“Good girl.” 

She stopped. Trembled in the heat of his stare. Then, she complied.

When she returned to his office, she was wearing the lavender babydoll set, including the matching soft lace bikini-cut panties beneath. The open fireplace had been lit, casting him in a flickering, orange glow. When he glanced up from his desk, glass of bourbon in hand, the look he gave her stripped her naked. 

Her body shook. Biting her lip, she felt heat pooling between her thighs. 

Despite how much she disliked his new nickname, she regrettably saw how it fit her in this circumstance. Tight-lipped, she tiptoed through the threshold like a frightened cat. His gaze hunted her figure as much as it admired her, studying her every move.

On his part, he looked just as sinful. His slate-gray, houndstooth-plaid patterned blazer had been discarded somewhere, leaving only the wrinkled, damp, white dress shirt behind. He’d rolled the sleeves up to his elbow, collar loose with the top buttons undone. His hair was still damp around the edges, wildly sticking out in a rogue style. 

It wasn’t just sinful. He was the Devil incarnate, hiding behind an angelic face and doe eyes.

He lounged back in his chair, knees shoulder width apart. His posture spawned just as many lewd thoughts in her mind. He peered at her sideways, his eyes roving unabashedly over her body. It was almost too much when she connected with his eyes, her face heating with embarassment. He wore a shameless smirk, as if boldly daring her to object to his ogling. Challenging her to deny him access to whatever he wanted. 

“There she is.” He sounded gentle. Sing-song.

She stopped several paces away from the desk, but it was all posturing. 

There was no amount of distance she could put between them that he wouldn’t cross. No obstacle. No line. No mercy.

She gulped anxiously. “Wha-what... What did you, um... need help with?”

He watched her silently. Intensely. “You said that we were interested in the same hobby,” he answered dryly. “Figured I’d get back into it.” Setting the glass down on the table, he came to a stand. He sauntered around the desk towards her, a hidden object in his grip.

His old film camera.

Her stomach dropped out at the sight. Images of the ethereal blonde woman in Peter’s photos, strewn out salaciously in pornographic poses, flooded her mind. She knew nothing about Gwen. Except that she is the woman of Peter’s dreams, and didn’t want to lose her, and now he keeps her hidden in a box. 

At least they had that in common.

“No better way to learn about photography than to experience what it’s like to be on both sides of the lens.” She wrapped her arms tightly around herself as he stalked towards her, gazing crawling across her small form. “Want you to be a model for me.”

The blood drained from her face, weighed down by dread. It must have been recognizable, because after a moment, Peter’s voice softened. “It’s okay to be shy,” he said placatingly. She shyly peered up at him from beneath her lashes. “But you don’t have to be. Just me here. Nobody else.” His eyes lingered as they brushed up her thighs, dragged across the curve of her breasts, and caught her mousy gaze. “Nothin’ I haven’t seen before.”

The kindness in his voice would’ve been soothing in any other circumstance. In this scenario, she felt like she was basking in the warm glow of an angler fish hunting prey. 

“I... I don’t know, Peter, I can’t— I’m-I’m not a model.”

“Nonsense.” 

“I’m... I’m nervous,” she explained with a pleading voice. “I don’t even know what to do—”

“You do exactly what I say,” he answered, matter-of-fact. The words were soft but made the imprint of a demand. “We had a deal. Won’t even touch you. Not unless you want me to.” 

She blinked several times, shrinking at his dominance. A warm smile stretched his lips. 

“Just relax,” he cooed, a hot knife slicing through butter. “Now come on. You wanna help me relax, don’cha? Be a good girl. Stand over by the desk.”  

Her muscles felt stiff. Like a rusted axel on a locomotive lurching forward, she forced her legs to move. Slowly, she padded towards the front of the desk. He glided away from her, backing into the shadows.

“Put your back against the edge.”

Hesitantly, she did.

“Palms flat.”

She pursed her lips. Wiggled into position. Awkwardly. Slightly leaning her weight back on her palms, so her chest protruded outwards.

“Look at me.” As if there was a choice.

Click.

His gaze was ravenous. “That's it...”

Click. Click. Click.

“Perfect—”

Her mouth felt cotton dry as she glanced idly at the doorway. 

Click. Click. Click—

The rattle of the shutter ceased, and her eyes darted back to him. He gazed at her through slitted lids. Suspicious, but pointedly unconcerned. He paused the photo session as he drifted to the doorway. She watched apprehensively as he reached for the door, closed it, and locked it tight.

Her stomach clenched at the action. “There.” He looked back at her, self-satisifed. “No more distractions.” Her breaths came out short, teetering on panic, as he loomed closer with the camera raised. “Now—”

She sucked in her lower lip. “Peter, just wait, I can’t—”

Click. Click.

“Do that again. That thing with your lip.”

Click. Click. Click.

She swallowed hard. Whimpered. “Peter, please stop. Please, I—I’m scared.”

Either the phrasing or the vulnerability in her voice nudged him out of his focus. He glanced up at her outside of the viewfinder. Her shoulders were straight. Back like an iron rod. Her fingers were white-knuckled, clawing the wood veneer. 

“What’s the matter?”

She sniffed, trying to steady her voice. “I-I’m afraid.”

He tilted his head curiously. “Why are you afraid?” He spoke delicately, like chanting a nursery rhyme. “You think something bad is gonna happen to you? I told you. I’ll never let that happen. You believe me, right?” 

“It’s not that—”

“You trust me, don’t you?”

“Please—”

“Please, what?” His sentence was punctuated with force, all of his patience worn thin.

She gazed at him, wide-eyed and flustered, babbling like she spoke a different language. His expression urged her to just speak, to tell him what she wanted. 

All she wanted was to tell him the truth. She wanted to take a knife to the suffocating balloon of lies that bubbled up in her lung, letting it all spill free. But she didn’t speak. Couldn’t. She held her breath. Held his gaze. Hung her mouth open uselessly. 

He pursed his lips, letting out a frustrated huff. “Just say what you’re gonna—”

“I’m afraid of you, Peter!” 

He leaned back at the outburst, shutting his mouth closed. She fought to steady her breathing, lowering her volume back to normal. 

It was the truth, and the truth should feel good. But all she felt was trepidation. 

“I’m-’m afraid of what you’re capable of. Afraid... I’m afraid that you’ll hurt me. Just like—”

She bit her tongue to stop it from moving. Terror sealed off her throat.

Peter gazed at her expectantly, brows pinched. 

She drew her lips into a hard line, jaw locked tightly in place. “Just like everyone else.”

He studied her closely and silently, until his shoulders slumped. He stayed quiet for far too long. When he broke the silence, his tone was firm. “I’m a lot of things. I’ll admit that.” He fixed his contemplative gaze on her. “But I promise. I’m nothing like everyone else.” She swallowed, gulping at the implication. “Trust me. I wouldn’t lie to you.”

Heart thrumming, she eyed him back. Never before had the words ‘trust me’ been so ambiguous. The two sides of him were in clear view. Two lives. Two halves. Two wolves staring right back at her. 

One of them was desperate for her affection. Had an evolutionary imperative that drove him to win her over, to court her, to provide for and to protect her. To make her want to be his for life.

The other looked like he wanted to eat her.

“Don’t fight it,” he whispered, in a tone low enough to slide beneath her skin. It was soft, secretive. The way he crawled into bed with her at night. “Don’t be ashamed. Don’t be scared.” 

He said that, but the sound of his voice had the opposite effect. His words chilled her, she felt her stomach tumble with trepidation. Simultaneously, the heat of his voice roasted her alive. She must have been melting from the inside out. Dripping into a puddle. That could be the only logical explanation for the sensation between her thighs.

He leaned into her, his proximity alone could be felt. Gooseflesh broke out across her body. As if his presence could touch her without lifting a finger, with eyes that probed her flesh, breath that licked over her curves. Desire that radiated from him and forced its way through her supple lips.

“Relax,” he said. “Just let me take control of your body.”

She went light-headed, hyponotized and under his spell. Her breath caught in her throat, and her muscles fluttered as if she were freefalling through the atmosphere. She saw him step away from her. Physically, he put distance between them, she was sure of it. But being locked in his gaze felt like being restrained in his grip. He licked his lips, and his hands brought the camera back up back up to his face, finger on the shutter-release, and fuck how would those fingers feel wrapped around her throat—

“Just like that,” she heard him murmur darkly, voice heavy with desire. “God—you look so pretty like that—”

Click. Click. Click.

The shuffling of the shutter faded into a rhythm. A hypnotic drum beat matched only by the fluttering pace of her heart. Entranced, she set her fear aside, just as he’d wanted. The soft crooning of his voice, gentle gasps between gulps that he took in of her visage, drifted into her ears like a sacred chant. She fell under his spell, swaying to his song. Guided by his words alone.

Lift your chin... lean back, all the way... show me your throat... that’s it... good, bend your elbow... sit up on the desk...turn your hips the other way... bring up your knee... put your hand right there....

She was a puppet. Maybe she had always been. He pulled her with soft demands and invisible strings, making her dance for him. But unlike a marionette, she didn’t feel hollow. She felt whole. 

It felt good. Maybe it was residual from the drug taken the night before. Maybe she was cured. Maybe she was broken. 

She was a rose blossoming beneath his lens. Bathing in his praise.

Fuck, that’s perfect... so good... such a good girl... lie on your stomach right there, bring your arms up... yeah, just like that... fuck that’s it... gorgeous... look at me... yes... arms above your head... so good for me... so good at this... lie on your back now, bring up your knee, spread them apart just a little bit... hmm, you look so precious... your body was made for this...

Time passed. She no idea of how much. Could’ve been a few minutes, or a few hours. Under his lens, she felt microscopic and rare. A new species waiting to be discovered. A strange fruit waiting to be tasted.

Slow it down, leave your fingers soft... good, good girl... yeah, just a gentle touch... curl your fingers...  feel that?... so perfect... 

He drew in air steadily, rate increasing, and soon they were both breathing in short, soft gasps. 

Eyes on me... That’s it, that’s good... that’s—

They both froze, but his gaze was fixed on her shoulder. She followed his line of sight until she saw that the right strap of the lingerie had fallen loosely across her upper arm. Her hand darted towards it, compelled with a modest urge to fix the strap.

“Leave it,” he said with a throaty whisper and ragged breath. She stilled, a startled fawn. Slowly, he shifted his position to a different angle, this time entranced on a view of her chest. The lace brushed across her cleavage innocently. He licked his lips at the sight. “Look at me.”

She did, and oh— 

He could not look at her that way.

He wasn’t going to eat her. He was going to devour her.

She wouldn’t be mated. She would be bred.

Her flesh was burning hot. Scorched. Melting beneath that look. 

And in the back of her mind, over his soft demands, his gentle orders—arch your back...fuck, so beautiful... spread your thighs, wider... that’s it... god, so sexy, so perfect—she was also aware of the sound of her own breathless gasps and sharp, enraptured exhales. 

She felt the tickle of lace sliding back up her legs the more she angled her body. The delicate French chantilly lace of the skirt—treacherous snake—teased a view of the tops of her thighs. She felt her bare legs prickle in the cold air, despite the sweat beading on the nape of her neck. The hem of the dress drifted backwards into her lap, and his artful eye roved across her body, admiring the masterpiece of her form. 

And when she heard his breath hitch, she knew exactly where his gaze had landed.

The paper-thin, lavender lace covering her core was now darkened a deep plum color. The delicate fabric was slick with her arousal, clinging to her flesh. She was dripping wet, moreso than she’d been in years. She didn’t need to look down to see what he was seeing. She knew. She could feel it. Smell it. Taste her tangy sweetness on her own tongue. 

The way his ravaged-red lips parted as his eyes darkened, she knew he was thinking the same thing.

Breathlessly, she gasped, “Peter...” 

He looked down at her, eyes dazed as he braced himself on the edge of the desk. Possessed. A man driven mad by hunger. A rabid wolf, muscles tense, mouth watering at her scent.

No one had ever looked at her the way he looked at her. Like he was prepared to worship her and defile her in the same night, every night, for the rest of eternity. 

His gaze was intoxicating, his wrecked apperance was exhilarating. She was drunk off of it. High off of it. Basking in it, with caution thrown to the wind.

Unbidden, her her left hand sailed across the sea of fabric, smoothing over the lace, until it reached the hem of her panties. He watched her, eyes blown out with lust. Her hand drifted down past her waist. Fueled by an electric arousal and drugged with desire, her fingertips dipped beneath the waist of her panties, slipping through her wet folds.

He clenched his teeth, swallowing hard, eyes fixated on her hand as set a pace with her fingers. He snapped his eyes shut for a moment, as if processing what he was seeing. Or debating what to do about it. 

She watched his face intently, eagerly waiting for his eyes to open back up. She wanted to see the look in his eye as she came undone.

Every time the pads of her fingertips brushed over her clit, sliding shamefully through her slick, her chest fluttered in short gasps. The melody of her gentle whimpering was too much to handle, ripping his eyelids back open to look. The lewd sight matched with wet sounds twisted his insides into a thin wire. His dick jolted at the debauchery.

“Perfect,” he breathed as he drank her in.

Licking his lips, his eyes found hers. The heat of his gaze was relentless. 

“Y’like that?” he whispered, like a secret. One meant for the two of them. “You like playin’ with yourself?” She stifled back a moan, biting her lips to clamp them down. “Betchu do. Like playin’ with me, too, yeah? Playin’ filthy little games...”

She heard the clink of metal. The sound of his belt unbuckling. Her neck and chest flustered with heat. She was stricken with fear that he would facefuck her on the table, thrusting his cock through her lips at any moment. At the same time, the crude thought made her quiver with excitement, and she bit down into a desperate mewl.

He locked his eyes on her. She heard the rustling of fabric, but the sight dreadfully obscured by her position as she lay back on the desk. He covered her with his gaze, the hypnotic flick of her wrist, her thighs twitching wide. He ground his teeth. “You think I can’t hear you through the walls?”

She gasped, her hand going still. Her chest heaved from the growing pressure in her body, thrust into vertigo from her humiliation and sinful hunger. 

“Naughty girl. You think I can’t hear you when you touch yourself? But I can.” 

Her cunt fluttered at his words as her fingers jolted to soothe the ache. She clenched her jaw, dragging in each breath like crawling across a coral reef. 

He grinned lecherously, a challenge buried in his eyes. “I hear it. Every time.”

He shoulder jerked as his arm jolted into a steady pace. He winced painfully, grunting into each thrust. The sight alone could’ve been her undoing. Like being struck by lightning, her wrist sprang to life, rubbing tiny circles across her clit.

A gutteral groan rose out of his chest, his eyes darting between her hand and her dizzied gaze. 

“Drives me crazy, y’know,” he hissed as his jaw fell open. “Like p-pheromones... Like-like you're taunting me...” 

Tight lipped, he moaned beneath his words. She mewled at the sound. He clenched his jaw, picking up the pace. His hips jerked of their own accord, beginning to thrust into his palm. 

“Like you’re daring me... to come in and take what’s mine.” His breaths were ragged and dry, dragging behind the pace of his hips. 

Her jaw fell open at the sight, the coil in her belly twisting up. She was close. 

“I can’t help it,” he groaned, jaw tight. “I touch myself every time I hear you.”

His words ravaged her womb further, pulling her strings tight. She cried out at the pain. A hundred pornographic and sacreligious pictures flooded her mind, corrupting her thoughts. Peter was tied to every one of them.

“S’that it, huh, baby? You want me to fuck you like an animal?”

Her blood raced towards her core as she edged over the peak of the rollercoaster, dangerously near the drop. It’s like he knew exactly where she was, and with one raspy whisper, he pushed her over the edge.

“That’s it, baby. Come for Daddy.”

The cable snapped as she hurtled over the peak, plummeting through the air at breakneck speed. She cried out, back arching, tears budding in the corners of her eyes. Her climax shattered her. Wrung her body out as euphoria gushed from her core. She writhed desperately, a slave to the newfound pleasure spilling through her folds. 

Needing it. Willing to work for it. To sell her soul for it. 

Over the disembodied sounds of her orgasm, she could hear him breaking down inches away from her.

“fuckfuckfuck that’s it, that’s it—”

BOOM. BOOM. BOOM. 

The door rattled. Everything came to a grinding halt at the sound of a heavy-handed fist pounding on the door. “Sir! Are you in there?”

Brakes squealing, sparks flying, everything stopped. Peter jerked at the sound of the guard’s voice, like a dog whiplashed at the end of a leash. Honey gasped in horror, face filled with humiliation. He bit back an agonized cry, his finish ripped away from him by harsh reality. 

“Sir, we have an urgent situation that needs your immediate attention.”

Peter squeezed his eyes closed, as the words collided with him like a bucket of ice water. Chest heaving, he heard Honey scramble to sit up, while he remained doubled over with a painfully hard erection. 

“Sir!”

“Yes!” he snapped, his voice taut with anger. He stepped away, pulling together his pants, stomping towards the door. Concealing himself and obstructing any view into the room, he tore the door open, nearly ripping it from the hinges.

His face was flushed with rage. “Swear to god—”

“It’s O’Hara, sir.” 

Peter went still, brows pinched together. 

“He got ambushed in lockup. He’s in an ambulance as we speak.”

At once, his body went numb. Flesh made stone. Limbs into rigid, frozen steel. 

Peter said something wordless to the guard, and closed the door. As soon as it snapped into place, his head fell forward against the drain. Weariness and exhaustion overtook him. His legs felt like rubber, threatening to buckle beneath him. Limbs shaking. 

When he turned back towards his office, he was shaken by the sight. It was Honey, but now his vision was sharp. Cleared of the fog of lust. The thrill of limitless power.

The young woman he kidnapped trembled up on his desk, legs pressed tightly together, her dress askew. She folded her arms around herself, shame filling her eyes, sweat cooling her skin. Her thighs caked with her cum. Next to her, a roll of film in Peter’s camera was filled with images of her that he forced her to take, leading up to, and including her finger-fucking herself in front of him while he crudely jerked himself off.

He sealed his eyes closed, feeling his stomach turn inside out beneath his skin. The back of his eyes burned, pain contorting his face. 

“I’m sorry,” he muttered, voice nearly breaking beneath the weight. He swallowed hard, feeling more dead than alive. Empty. Soulless. Hopeless.

Mournfully, he locked glistening eyes with her for as long as it was possible. “I need you to go back to your room.”

To be continued...

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[dawn-the-rithmatist]

Did someone ask for more Zelink headcanons? No? Too bad take them anyway

Link falls in love fast but expresses it REALLY SLOWLY.

This boy is head over heels the moment he sees his Zelda for the first time. Instantly a goner, world slows down, heart goes doki doki, all of the clichés.

Except no one knows that except for him because he hides it so well. He’s great at controlling his expressions and doesn’t talk much if at all to the people around him.

(Something about being a hero and feeling like he should be carrying other people’s burdens, rather than burdening them with his own thoughts and feelings and struggles.)

The one thing that he can’t hide is the way he blushes when he sees Zelda- allllll the way up to his ears. Impa is the first person to notice. (The only other person who notices is Urbosa, and she teases him mercilessly.)

It takes a long time for him to express his feelings in any way (again, not wanting to burden anyone with something human in their perfect hero figurehead) but when he does it’s in a ton of little things. Small gifts that are worth next to nothing but are so incredibly thoughtful. Her favorite tea waiting for her at the end of the day even though she never asked anyone for it. A new copy of a scientific journal that got confiscated that somehow got onto her shelf. He never admits to doing it but once he starts he can’t seem to stop

He likes seeing her smile. Sue him.

Zelda is the exact opposite- she takes a long time to fall for Link (demi queen? 👀✨) but once she does? The girl is a disaster.

Sure she’s always known Link is attractive. She isn’t blind, thanks. But she never really cares much about him until she starts to notice the little things (which she had been ignoring before Blades of the Yiga).

There are so many little things, and with every one she falls a little more in love. Not that she calls it love for a long time, though.

When she finally does admit that she’s in love, she gets very flustered very fast. She and Link are a pair of blushy tomato faces, and Zelda goes from friendly conversation to stammered compliments, and she can’t hold eye contact for more than a second without her heart going crazy, and she keeps saying things without thinking-

She’s a mess, and unlike with Link, everyone can tell.

Somehow in spite of both of them being Disasters™️ it still takes a hot minute for them to make anything out of those feelings. (Something about not believing that they’re worth anything more than their destiny, Zelda not thinking she’s lovable without her powers, Link not seeing himself as anything but a burden and refusing to impose himself on her… you get the picture)

I always imagine them Pining™️ and either finally confessing right before the Calamity, or not wanting to “add to the other’s stress” and not saying anything until it’s too late

Either way, there’s a very emotional reunion after BOTW, and they’re both determined not to waste any more time

The villagers in Hateno will eventually describe them as the most sickeningly sweet couple in town, and Link and Zelda both bear that title with pride.

[chaos-and-cookies]

SymMcCree NSFW Alphabet

*absolutely refuses to admit how long this has been a wip in my drafts* 

HEY GUYS I FINALLY FINISHED A THING LOOK

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Jesse is so sweet and attentive to Satya he will do whatever she needs and go above and beyond while doing it. He will make her tea, start a bath, pick a movie, anything he feels he needs to to make her feel nice. Satya tries to get him things like water or start a hot shower but he always refuses or beats her to it because he thinks its not gentlemanly.

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Satya loves his muscles. His abs, chest, legs/thighs and ofc his butt. He loves her thighs, hips, curves, and rly loves her golden eyes and long raven hair. He thinks it makes her look more goddess-like. They also have a special kinda love for each other's prosthetics since they're missing the same arm, it's just nice to be with someone who knows what missing a limb is like. Tho satya would love to give him an upgraded arm he refuses.

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically…)

Jess is a messy boi and Satya is the pinnacle of cleanliness but even tho they clash they work out a deal. They both like when he comes in her, he especially likes to watch it drip out of her, but she's fine with him finishing on her ass, chest, or belly as long as he cleans it off her quickly which he'll happily oblige. There are rare times where she'll let him give her a facial which he always goes head over heels for. As for where she comes, he's obsessed with her coming all over his face, that boy is filthy.

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Jesse may have a few kinks that Satya wouldn't be ok with but he doesn't mind at all because he respects her boundaries. The kinks being on the more rough/painful side of bdsm, and he would never do anything to hurt her in anyway so he never brings it up. He's perfectly happy with their sex life as is regardless anyways. As for Satya she's completely open with him because she finds it important to be open with her partners.

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

Jesse never goes into detail about how much experience he's had and if asked he'll simply say “i know what i do and don't like and i know how to please you, that's all you need to worry about sugar”. As for Satya she doesn't have much experience but she's a quick learner and she's flexible (👀) and isn't afraid to do a little research when needed but Mccree will always happily walk her thru anything she's unsure about.

F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual)

Satya's a dom and McCree's a verse so their nights can get interesting. They love positions like spiderman, cowgirl, lotus, eagle, doggy, spooning/”forking”, and McCree has a special love for pegging so even something like missionary becomes a favorite when she's on top pleasuring him.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

McCree is a huge goofball but he knows to never take the jokes too far in the bedroom. He always tries to keep everything as light hearted and comfortable as possible. Satya on the other hand is a bit more serious but never too serious to not be her cheeky self and comfortable enough with McCree to keep everything nice and lighthearted..

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

Jesse is a hairy man but he keeps himself groomed. The downstairs is always neat and trimmed and he tries to keep his chest hair in check. He always has a happy trail too 😉. Satya doesn't mind his hair too much, sometimes his beard gets in the way but she loves it so much she would never tell him to shave it off. She usually shaves or waxes her downstairs to be completely bare but sometimes if life gets busy she'll have some stubble. Jesse doesn't mind either way, a meal's a meal in his eyes (😜) and thinks a little bush is cute.

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

They're very intimate even when they're taking turns being the dom they're never cold to each other. Their love for each other is too warm and inviting that even if one is tied to the bed blindfolded and has a vibrator hooked up to them while the other teases them to tears they sing gentle praises and coos as it's happening. Even if one is being punished by the other there's never and malice or cold feelings, nothing but warm mutual love for these two.

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

Jesse only rly jacks himself off when she's away on a mission and starts to really miss her. But he'll spend his time doing it, first he'll maybe find some of her dirty laundry so he can smell her again, maybe clutch or grind on a pillow a bit to try and imitate her body, search thru the nudes she's sent him on his phone, he pretty much makes a night of it. But this really only happens if she's been away for a while and he NEEDS his release. Satya doesn't really play with herself unless he asks her to so he can watch, she's doing it with a toy to tease him, or she's sending him a special video while he's away on a long mission.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

They're both into bdsm, toys, spanking, pegging… Jesse's REALLY into femdom, he loves when she's rough with him; she use to get nervous when he would ask her to do things like slap or spank him because she didn't want to *actually* hurt him but the damn fool is so in love with her he loves nothing more than when she ties him up and slaps him across the face. He always reassures her and made a safe word to use just to make her feel better about the whole thing.

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

Their bed or various furnishings in their house

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

Things that turn McCree on:

When she wears thongs or goes commando and wears short skirts and dresses

Seeing how well she fills out things like pencil skirts and yoga pants

When she ties up her hair exposing her neck (especially if she has hickies from him)

Knowing if she's wearing matching lingerie at work

Things that turn Satya on:

Watching him walk around their home scruffy and shirtless and very clearly going commando underneath his sweatpants

Seeing him well dressed and his hair actually brushed for once

His work out afterglow when he's glistening in sweat

When he nuzzles into her neck and his beard tickles just the right spots

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

As stated before in dirty secrets, Jesse won’t ever hurt Satya or do anything that makes her uncomfortable in anyway or do anything she finds gross. She doesn’t do any kind of anal play (receiving) and has her limits on how rough she’ll be with Jesse even if he asks to be punished in certain ways because it makes her uncomfortable and is too afraid on actually hurting him (even though he constantly tries to tell her he’s ok with it and likes it)

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

Jesse LOVES oral, giving and receiving. He’ll go down on her until she’s screaming and shaking in pleasure and will insist on multiple rounds, but Satya has her limits on how much she can handle before it’s just pure overstimulation and her legs are shaking uncontrollably. As for receiving he knows it’s hard for her to go down on him simply because of how big he is but god he just loves it so much, his favorite part being how she looks with her lips wrapped around his dick, and the look on her face with her eyes watering when she tries to take him in all the way, it gets him every time. Satya on the other hand loves receiving more than giving but again, that’s simply because of how big Jesse is and it’s a lot of strain on her jaw and throat. But she does it anyways because she knows she’ll always get rewarded for it and she knows how much he loves it so she’s willing to have a little jaw pain to please her man.

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

They prefer taking things slow and sensual, enjoying each other’s touch and bodies, but they may pick up the pace if they’re close to their orgasm. They know to be more careful with each other now than they were in the beginnings of their relationship, too many times would one (or both) of them be walking around funny for a day or two because they got to be a little too rough with each other.

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

Jesse likes them but Satya likes to take her time with her intimacy. They don’t do them too often, usually only during the mornings if they’re in the mood before work or a mission, or as a “this is what you have to look forward to when you come back home” if one of them is going away for a long mission.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

They love to experiment but they don’t take any risks. Satya doesn’t like being risky (outside her spy work ofc) and Jesse is trying to keep a calmer lifestyle now that he’s gotten older. Experiments are mostly fair game especially if they want to try out a new toy or product tho.

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

Jesse has unhuman stamina (probably thanks to Gabe’s strict blackwatch training since he was 18), Satya has tried and tried to outlast this man but no matter what he still somehow has energy to keep going. It’s VERY unfair if he’s being the dom for the night and he’s doing overstimulation punishment, he can take overstimulation punishments like a champ but Satya easily becomes a shaky screaming mess.

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

As stated before, they love toys, from nipple clamps to vibrating dildos to special massage oils they love to mess around with toys in the bedroom and spicing things up.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Jesse likes to tease but not to the point where it’s completely unfair, but Satya can be kinda mean with how much she’s willing to tease the poor cowboy. It’s always worth it tho and she’ll always make it back up to him if she’s being a little too mean

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

Satya tries to be quiet in the bed but Jesse refuses to let that happen and does things to make her yell and scream so loud anyone near their home can hear and has made Satya contemplate how to make their walls soundproof multiple times. Jesse can be loud but it takes a lot for him to really start yelling and saying anything more than the usually grunts and curses

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

Since there are 2 characters i’ll do 2 headcanons

Jesse likes to buy Satya lingerie and leaves it out on the bed for her to wear and is almost always choosing her underwear for her. Sometimes he’ll choose her entire outfit for her too just because he loves dressing her up and looking at how beautiful she looks in everything. (nothing will beat her wearing his clothes or surprising him in nothing but his hat and serape tho)

Satya loves cooking with Jesse, she was surprised how good he was at cooking when they first started dating. Her favorite is waking up to breakfast in bed from him ( this usually happens when he actually doesn’t sleep in for once and wakes up before she does)

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

Jesse, as stated previously, is a big boi. Definitely above average with a 8in long, damn near 3in thick girthy dick. Uncircumcised. Satya is a D cup, has big, slightly puffy nipples that aren’t very sensitive, and a darker labia.

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

Both have a pretty high sex drive but Jesse’s is through the rough. Satya is fine with one or two sessions a day but Jesse can and will fuck all day if Satya would let him.

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

They won’t sleep until aftercare is done. Taking a shower/bath, drinking water/tea, making sure each other is ok and they didn’t go too rough or hurt each other, then they’ll finally cuddle up in bed, maybe to a show or movie, and fall asleep in each other’s arms, usually with Jesse spooning Satya. Jesse tries to not sleep until he knows Satya has fallen asleep but sometimes the cowboy exhausts himself a little too much and falls asleep as soon as they lay down. That’s ok tho Satya thinks Jesse looks adorable and super peaceful when he’s finally sleeping and isn’t speaking lol