#lovefailed

[thecockysniper]

Starter for @lovefail

Right by the Thames, warm and inviting light spills out of the windows and open door of Trafalgar Tavern. The patrons' merry banter and laughter filling the place with a pleasant atmosphere.

Seb and his mates sit by a window that looks out onto the river. They've been joking and messing about, drinking their pints, when his eye catches that of a handsome stranger sitting at the bar. Downing the last of his drink for courage, he walks over to the bar placing himself next to him.

He eyes him from the side for a moment, getting a closer glimpse of his striking features. He reminds him of a Greek statue he'd once seen, a chiseled face with blue eyes framed by golden locks. "I don't think I've ever seen you round here?"

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@lovefail / continued.

His breath escapes him in strained huffs, cheeks painted in hues of red ( an indication for both the straining exercise taking a toll on his body and the embarrassment he feels to be panting already ) and he grins when he speaks, wiping the sweat off his forehead with his arm. But the reply he receives in turn has Valentin frown, concern evident in amber eyes. " Ah, no, I meant it is ridiculous how much of an effect this training has on me. Perhaps I've grown too comfortable in my role as a teacher. " His expression softens, his smile returning in attempts to comfort. " You're not ridiculous, Maurice. It's most impressive what you can do. "

[audaciiaearchive]

@lovefail from x

Then why don't you?

Clive swallows hard, his face turning red. He has to admit that he may have let this go too far, but how can he deny himself? He always told himself that his attraction to men was purely aesthetic, nothing else, nothing more, but then he met Maurice...and it seems to him that that isn't entirely the case anymore.

He stares at Maurice for a long moment, the seconds crawling by as the silence hangs between them, heavy and tangible. He glances over Maurice's shoulder, listens for a moment to make sure no one's going to barge in, and it seems he's made up his mind. Hands come up to cup Maurice's face, thumbs brushing along his cheeks...and he kisses him. It's soft and only lasts a few moments, and when he pulls away, his hands are trembling.

"I hope that was alright," is what he finally says, dropping his hands into his lap. "You can tell me if it wasn't."

[richardxoliverxmayhew]

II @vxctorx // @lovefail

jude law in wilde (1997) dir. brian gilbert

[amazonbooksauthor]

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[pxnandqxll]

❝ there is no one like you. ❞ [ for Alec! ]

song of achilles rp starters: ACCEPTING

II @lovefail

A curtain of darkened curls fell over his cedar gaze, framing a furrowed picture of concentration. Strong hands continued to busy themselves with re-planting the rehabilitated seedlings into the freshly dug earth. Alec may have been a games keeper by trade, but his vehement love of the wood and all things that grow spurred him to learn a tip or two about tending to the green. It wasn't until the gentleman's words that Alec's focus was stunted by a good natured scoff. "Now I know you're really pullin' my leg, you are," turning his head a moment to glance over his shoulder, dimpling towards the familiar figure of his love. His smile was playful yet unconvinced. "There's plen'y lo'ike me. Under different names 'course, but believe me, Maurice, I'm just a run-o-the-mill. I may know my salt more than some others, but doesn't do much to set me 'part at the end of the day, 'suppose. " he tut, shrugging his broad shoulders before turning back to such rural deeds. "Now, want me to show you 'ow to pro'erly pack the soil back in with the fertilizer?"

[richardxoliverxmayhew]

"it's been so long since someone held me."

PROMPTS FOR NEW INTIMACY: ACCEPTING

II @lovefail

"Oh?" Sincerity and concern bled through Richard's soft coo as his blue eyes gazed upon Maurice with nothing but admiration. Even in the man's loneliest state the Scotsman felt nothing but love for him.

"C'mere, love. Let's break tha' rule then, shall we?" soothed Richard, arms reaching out in bed to pull the gentleman close. He didn't know how long they were to lay like this, his arms cocooned round Maurice's frame, as he led the blonde's head against his chest. Frankly, Richard didn't care. He'd hold Maurice for as long as the other wished, all without a single ounce of selfishness to it.

[richardxoliverxmayhew]

@vxctorx II @lovefail

E. E. Cummings, The Complete Poems: 1904-1962

[ronmanmob]

HOW DO YOU NEED TO BE TOUCHED ? 

fervently.

you crave a hug that cracks your ribs... the feeling of your wandering soul being crushed back into the bones that can't seem to hold it. you need a hand gripping yours so tightly you almost fear it may leave a bruise, a reminder that you are here. and that you are not alone.

tagged by: @lovefail tagging: anyone who wants to play

[thecockysniper]

HOW DO YOU NEED TO BE TOUCHED ? 

cautiously.

your teeth are bared, as they have been, your jaw aching for so long as growls slip free. you always have to defend yourself. you lash out in fear. you need someone who does not shrink back... a hand falling slowly to your shoulder, however briefly, in a reminder that you do not have to lunge. there is no danger here, now.

tagged by: @lovefail

tagging: anyone who hasn't done it!

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HOW DO YOU NEED TO BE TOUCHED ? 

cautiously.

your teeth are bared, as they have been, your jaw aching for so long as growls slip free. you always have to defend yourself. you lash out in fear. you need someone who does not shrink back... a hand falling slowly to your shoulder, however briefly, in a reminder that you do not have to lunge. there is no danger here, now.

gently.

you need to be held as though you're going to break. you need someone to trace your scars like cracks in a wall, crumbling. their touch is almost painful; you've been without it for too long, without someone to hold you. but, you cannot bring yourself to pull away.

tagged by: @lovefail, thank you (: tagging: you!

[richardxoliverxmayhew]

II @lovefail

Herman Melville, Moby Dick (1851)

Walt Whitman, "When I Heard at the Close of the Day" (1867)

Edward Prime-Stevenson, Imre: A Memorandum (1906)

Bram Stoker, Personal Reminiscences of Henry Irving (1906)

E.M. Forster, Maurice (1913)

Romantic Friendship and the Birth of Gay Identity

[v-e-n-n-i-l-a]

#lovefailer #poetry #lyrics #vennila

[lindagakash]

Mood song : Zeal & Ardor - Götterdämmerung

[richardxoliverxmayhew]

His eyelids fluttered shut as Richard drank in the storm of kisses smoothened upon now swollen lips. 'This,' he thought to himself. 'If there e'er was a heaven, this must be wha' heaven feels like....' "Aye, to hell with 'em," he purred, cocooning his arms round the gentleman's hips, as greedy lips snatched one more deepened kiss. He tasted of earth and promise. "We lay Our life wherever we please. We don't need to play by there rules. To hell with their rules," beamed Richard, feeling the most intrepid he ever felt in his life. "In fact, whisk me away to wherever it is ye' please. It can be to the next town or the end of the bloo'y Earth for all I care, eitherway, I'll follow."

"And as for makin' our own life, I don't want ye' to worry. E'er. Y'hear me? I know there's a lot yer' leavin' behind, but I'll remedy tha'. I'm gonna work twice as hard... No... Four times as hard. As hard as I e'er worked in my life for Us." Warm palms cupped against the kiss-stained rounds of Maurice's cheeks; gentle thumb caressing upon his love's skin. "The point is, I promise yer' ne'er gonna want for nothin'. I'm gonna take care of ye', Maurice. Trust me." Maurice. The divine taste of the gentleman's Christian name stained upon the edge of his tongue. To think, not so long ago this man held the title of nothing more and nothing less than an employer... Then again, perhaps even then it was something more. An unsung coupling. Eitherway, if there was one thing Richard knew it was the fact that he could utter the true name of his love a thousand times and still adore its golden hymn. Maurice. Maurice. Maurice.

❛ You have conquered me, I am yours. ❜

@richardxoliverxmayhew BOOK STARTERS VOL.11     ANNA KARENINA

Richard could not know that he had conquered Maurice in kind; that he had utterly and completely took possession of him—heart, mind, body and soul. For Maurice's clumsy tongue did not bear the words with which to express such a profound and joyous sentiment. Yet he held Richard in his arms, as a man would hold onto a rock amidst a hurricane, and kissed his lips again and again.

❝—And now, I shall never let you go. We will make our own life, and to hell with others. All we ever needed was the two of us.❞

[galacticrainbowprincess]

Damn I just got turned down in a dream 😄