#loved Cillian Murphy yesterday

[tafutofu]

Became obsessed with this man. His face is so good to draw, I cannot get enough of it. 

Silly storytime on how I became obsessed under read more

So, a friend of mine is obsessed with DC. She invited me to watch a re-run of Dark Knight Rises and I fell in love with Tom’s Bane. This went on for some weeks, leading into me reading Fanfic, and there was a Jonathan Crane FF tagged as Bane. Read it, got mad because I got bamboozled, then I went down the Cillian Murphy rabbit hole. Started watching peaky blinders, re-watched the Nolan Triology, will continue to watch all his films and shorts and series and-

on an unrelated note, watched Across the Spider-Verse and I’m mad at the lack of Noir, but also loved Hobie

[lesbians4armand]

while i do love scarecrow designs that are explicitly scary and think there should be more of them, there is just /something/, a certain je ne sais quoi about nolanverse scarecrow with his doll eyes and bambi freckles simultaneously being so beautiful and unsettling. you KNOW he’s bad and you know he’s scary from the beginning but. isnt he so pretty? he cant be so bad, right? ….right?

[lovelytsunoda]

unsub! // logan sargeant

summary: this modern thriller star is a big softie for her boyfriend…if you squint really hard sometimes

pairing: logan sargeant x criminal minds! actress! reader

fc liana liberato

yn.yln

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yn.yln big things are coming, watch this space! criminalmindsevolution

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logansargeant hey sexy lady

-> yn.yln 😘

jennaortega she is the moment

user this is my gay awakening

user is it just me or does she seem totally wrong for an f1 wag? she’s all gloom and darkness and hard edges and logan is a ball of sunshine

-> user logan is happy so who are we to judge? I personally love their grumpy sunshine dynamic. I think he evens her out

criminalmindsevolution 👀👀

-> user please tell me my scream queen is going to be playing a hot new female unsub

user just one chance. that’s all I’m asking.

albon_pets she scares horsey

-> yn.yln I’ll bring extra nandos next time I’m around, that should change horseys mind!

-> alex_albon we all know you’re the biggest softy around drop the act

-> yn.yln i admit nothing. I have my image to think about

criminalmindsevolution and yn.yln

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criminalmindsevolution we are delighted to welcome yn yln as jade waters to the bau verse. she has stunned viewers with her roles in ‘scream’, ‘based on a true story’ and ‘totally killer’. meet jade on screen for the first time this friday, we think you’ll like her

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user I KNEW SHED BE A SEXY UNSUB!! whatever my wife did she’s not guilty your honor

yn.yln knife to meet you 🫣

logansargeant so proud of you my love!

user she is mother.

user is anyone else alarmed that she seems to only play unalivers and general psychopaths? sensing an alarming pattern

-> user are u dumb she literally played a slasher victim in totally killer

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f1wagsource Actress YN YLN spotted taking a break from filming Criminal Minds Evolution as she enters the Vegas paddock this weekend with boyfriend Logan Sargeant

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user are we sure this is the same woman who killed seven people in a Scream film? the same woman who said her favourite director was Wes Craven and her favourite film Cillian Murphys Red Eye?

user this is like a whole other side to her!!

user she’s so expressive! I was watching her through the afternoon as she decided to watch the practice sessions from the stands and she did the most adorable little cheer in her seat whenever logan’s car came past 🥺

user she’s actually the sweetest person I’ve ever met! I ran into her and logan at a franchised bar in reno and she was so chill- she even offered to take a picture of me and logan, not even realizing that I actually wanted a picture with her!

logansargeant just posted to his story!

[caption 1: help I think she’s house hunting out if our budget again caption 2: never get between yn and her nachos….love you baby]

y.n.yln just posted!

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yn.yln to my partner in crime, my script partner, the one who always encourages me to chase my dreams, even when I think they’re bigger than my body. without you, I never would have had the courage to send my audition tape to the producers of criminal minds. heck, I probably wouldn’t have even thought to audition for scream. we’ve been through so much together, and it feels like only yesterday I nervously asked you out in a crowded bar, palms so sweaty that I dropped my sprite and you had to help me clean the glass off the floor. I still don’t know why you agreed to go out with me, if I’m being honest.

happy three years my love 🩷

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kirstenvangness AWEEE MY BABIES ARE ALL GROWN UP

logansargeant has it really been three years already? what can I saw except I love you know like I love you then, but tenfold. you inspire me and support me and I am so lucky to call you my girlfriend.

-> yn.yln don’t make me cry!! people can’t think I’m a softie!

-> logansargeant lmao it’s too late for that one babe

kiernanshipka THREE YEARS ALREADY! that boy better put a ring on it soon

user my royal couple

user this was a sudden burst of emotions I wasn’t expecting

-> oscarpiastri get used to it, logan makes her go all soft and gooey inside

joemantegna happy anniversary kiddo!

jensonbutton petition to have her at every race? she’s so much fun to be around and she makes the garage a better place to be

-> liakblock ur only saying that because she was the only one who would do oasis karaoke with you

-> yn.yln I can neither confirm nor deny the presence of a karaoke machine in jensons office

[floralcyanide]

˚₊✩‧₊◜kinktober 2023! ―

― day fourteen ⛧ sex toys

Cillian Murphy x F!Reader

It's your birthday, and Cillian's gift keeps giving.

warnings: smut, sex toys, oral (f receiving), squirting, cum eating, nipple play, overstimulation, multiple orgasms, clit torture

word count: 1087

author's note: hello yes I'm alive lol I'm so sorry I'm so behind on kinktober. my mental health hasn't been the best and life is really stressful rn but I'm trying my best ((: I hope ya'll enjoy.

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ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴄᴏᴘʏ, ʀᴇᴘʀᴏᴅᴜᴄᴇ, ᴏʀ ᴄʟᴀɪᴍ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀᴋ ᴀs ʏᴏᴜʀs ��ɴ ᴛᴜᴍʙʟʀ, ᴀᴏ3, ᴡᴀᴛᴛᴘᴀᴅ, ᴏʀ ᴀɴʏ ᴡᴇʙsɪᴛᴇ. ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴘᴇʀᴍɪssɪᴏɴ ᴛᴏ ᴜsᴇ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀᴋs ɪɴ ᴀɪ ɢᴇɴᴇʀᴀᴛᴏʀs ᴏʀ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀʀᴛɪғɪᴄɪᴀʟ ɪɴᴛᴇʟʟɪɢᴇɴᴄᴇ. ʏᴏᴜ ᴍᴀʏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴜsᴇ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀᴋs ᴛᴏ sᴇʟʟ ғᴏʀ ᴀs ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴏᴡɴ ᴄʀᴇᴀᴛɪᴏɴ

Cillian is always adventurous when it comes to trying new things with you in bed. This includes different positions as well as various toys. So when your birthday rolls around, Cillian decides to get you a mind-blowing gift. He also decides his end goal is to get you to squirt, even if it takes the entirety of your birthday to do so. Cillian is almost beside himself as you wake up and shower, his excitement bleeding through his calm and collected exterior. While you’re washing up, he goes to his closet and retrieves the gift box with your gift inside. Sitting it on your end of the bed, he returns to his warm spot under the duvet and waits for you to finish showering. Without realizing it, Cillian falls asleep while you’re blow drying your hair, the sounds lulling him to doze off. 

“What’s this?” you ask loudly enough for your boyfriend to stir from his short slumber.

“Hmm? Oh,” Cillian rubs his eyes, sitting up, “That’s your birthday gift. Happy birthday, love.”

You quirk an eyebrow, the gift box in your hands, “I thought I said not to get me anything?”

“Well, you know I never listen,” Cillian chuckles, tossing the duvet off his legs, “Now open it.”

You sigh, glaring at Cillian playfully before pulling the box apart, revealing a contraption you’ve only ever seen on the internet.

“No way,” you gasp, your cheeks burning at the sight of the brand new toy, “How’d you know I wanted one?”

“I didn’t,” Cillian admits, “But I’m glad you’re going to enjoy it.”

“Oh really now?” you tilt your head, “And just when do you think I’m going to enjoy it?”

Cillian catches onto your teasing tone, “Today. Right now. Lay down, and we’ll see.”

You giggle, unwrapping the towel from around your body and letting it fall to the floor as you climb on the bed, the empty gift box now discarded and forgotten at the end of the bed. The toy, a clit sucker and massager, is in your hands only a moment before Cillian snatches it while you’re relaxing into the mattress. He climbs on top of you, resting himself between your legs as he puts the toy next to you for now.

“Got to get you a little ready first,” Cillian looks up at you through his lashes as he gives your clit a testing lick.

You hum, letting Cillian slowly circle the bud with the tip of his tongue to arouse you. Suckling on your clit, he lets his teeth graze against the sensitive flesh as a quiet moan leaves your lips. You can feel yourself gradually getting wet as Cillian teases your bundle of nerves with his fingers. He pinches you lightly, rolling you between his fingertips as your hips buck upward at the sensation. Cillian watches in delight as your clit becomes red and swollen, begging to be tortured. He sits up and returns to his side of the bed, beckoning you to sit in his lap. You quickly sit between his legs, your back pressed against his chest as he retrieves the toy. He made sure to charge it before placing it in the box yesterday to ensure it was ready. Cillian turns the sucker on, admiring the small piece inside the sucker that acts similar to a tongue, flicking up and down slowly. The speed of the “tongue” and the strength of the sucking can be turned up and down with buttons, much to your excitement.

“I’m goin’ ta make you squirt, kitten. How’s that?”

You shiver, moaning at his words, “Sounds good.”

Cillian spreads your lips apart, getting a perfect view of your puffy clit as he lowers the mouth of the sucker onto it, your entire body jolting at the initial feeling. You gasp, your hands flying to grip Cillian’s thighs as the little tongue inside torturously flicks your bud as the toy sucks it lightly. Cillian turns both up a notch higher, satisfied when you let out a breathy moan. After he lets you adjust to the first three settings, Cillian turns it up to the fourth setting, letting you squirm before pulling the toy off you.

“Noo,” you whine, breathing heavily, “Feels so good.”

“Be patient, love,” Cillian coos, “Wanna make you cum so hard you fucking scream.”

You cry out when he presses the toy back to your angry clit, the stimulation making your stomach clench. With his free hand, Cillian pinches your nipples, tugging at them as he turns up the toy yet again. He figures out that you absolutely lose control when he wiggles the toy while it’s suctioned to your bundle of nerves, adding friction to the other delicious sensations.

“Fuck,” you squeal, your legs beginning to shake, “I’m gonna cum, fuck!”

“Cum for me, doll. Fucking gush all over the bed like the messy bitch you are, I know you can.”

You feel an intense orgasm approaching, your entire body vibrating as the toy laps at your clit, your endless arousal seeping out of you and onto the sheets. Cillian turns the toy up as high as it’ll go, pulling on your nipple and twisting it, sending you absolutely delirious. You cum hard, your cunt clenching harshly around nothing as arousal gushes from you in spurts. Cillian keeps the toy on you, making your body convulse as another squirting orgasm comes over you. You’re screaming at this point, making a mess of the sheets as you release everywhere. Cillian is groaning in your ear, his hard-on pressed into your tailbone as he watches you come undone. He finally goes to take the toy off but doesn’t turn it off or remove it quickly. Instead, he slowly pulls it off your clit, letting it continue to suction the bud. You’re near tears in overstimulation as you feel yourself about to cum again, your cunt pitifully squirting the remainder of your arousal before Cillian pulls the toy completely off you. 

“God,” your chest heaves as you melt into Cillian’s chest, slurring your words, “Fuck. That was so good.”

Cillian chuckles at your state of euphoria as he turns the sucker off. He reaches a hand to your pussy, gathering your wetness with his fingers as he makes you jump from the light touch. Bringing his fingers to his mouth, Cillian cleans them of your squirt and cum. You moan at the action, and if you were able to, you’d be turned on again. But you’re absolutely spent. 

Happy birthday to you.

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[cillianmurphysdimples]

A Female Y/N / Cillian fanfic (Part Fifty Seven)

Absolutely not based on anything real at all, all totally fictional, fanciful and is all total bollocks.

Warnings for sexual references and language. Adult themes. Not suitable for under 18s.

We Got Issues

Part Fifty Seven: Y/N finds an article online after their shopping trip and isn't impressed, but Cillian is distracted. When she finds out why he's so distracted, she's met with something life changing. [Fluff/Anxiety]

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“Have you seen this?” You say, sitting on the edge of the bed. You don't wait for an answer, and you continue talking as you stare at your phone. “Peaky Blinders front man Cillian Murphy, who is expecting a baby with partner Y/N in the summer, was seen scoping out baby items at a local Dublin shopping centre. The couple were approached by eager fans, though the Tommy Shelby actor was less than willing to engage.” You shake your head, “Y/N was allegedly pushed by an all-too-eager fan which sparked a sharp reaction from Murphy, 48. The pair were then seen with shop staff as they loaded their car with baby items, before later being spotted enjoying lunch at Russino’s burger bar.” You scoff and finally look up. “It's bullshit, and it's not even fucking news.” You sigh. “Cillian?” You moan his name when you realise he isn't even listening. 

“Hand me that…fucking thing.” Cillian says, looking up at you. He's sat on the bedroom floor, legs spread wide, attempting to screw together the folding legs of the Moses basket you had settled on at Smyth's on Saturday. He had planned on getting Aran and Malachy involved yesterday, but when both boys turned down the usual dinner and asked for a weeknight instead, he had taken it a little to heart and moped around the house a little in their absence. But today he seemed past it, and had insisted he got on with the fairly simple job by himself. It's ten am, and so far he has been staring at the cross-over action of the legs for thirty minutes trying to work it out. 

“You know, I can do it if you're finding it impossible.” You say, standing up to hand him the small bag of screws, bolts and fixings. “Love?” You say when he doesn't respond. “You're terrible at this.” You add, smirking. 

He looks up at you again, where you're standing at the side of the bed, and the firmness in his eyes is hilarious. “I can do it.” He says, raising a single eyebrow. You want to laugh. His cheeks are flushed, he's clearly frustrated, but he's determined that he's building the stand. “He grunts as his hand slips, attempting to line the two holes up for the screw to be fixed, and he sighs with moan. “Fuck it.” He tuts. “Okay, I can't do it.” He does laugh at himself, though, as he groans and pushes himself up off the floor, but you can see he's annoyed at himself too. You don't know why, though - you both know he's terrible at this sort of thing. 

“I'll do it, Cill. Or, if you want, we can wait until the boys come on Wednesday evening and you can do it with them.” You suggest. 

“Ah, yeah I know, but…like, you said about wanting the place ready. If she decides she's coming, she needs this to be her home.” He says, looking at you with a strange frown. 

You give him a soft smile and set your palm down in the centre of his chest. Lifting your face, you kiss him softly. “I know.” You say quietly. “But we have the basket, so she has a place here now. And the dining room is full of boxes - her car seat, the pram, the steriliser, the bottles…” you smile softly. “She has a place here.” 

His eyes soften and he reaches up his hand, cupping it around the back of your head. “Yeah,” he inhales as he whispers the word, and it's still one of your favourite Irishisms. He smiles softly, and grants himself a kiss, kissing against your bottom lip with his mouth parted slightly. It's an insistent kiss, a needy kiss, a kiss that says ‘lets take this further’, and as his other hand settles around your back and quickly travels down against your arse, your inference is confirmed. He pulls your body as close as your bump will allow. But he pulls back his head, looking at you with wide pupils and a soft, alluring smile. 

“What?” You ask, brows twitching curiously. 

“I've to ask you something,” he says, and there's a nervous edge to his words. 

You laugh at him, “If it's for a threesome, then it's a definite no.” You tease. He smiles, but you can see he doesn't want to joke. You frown a little. “What is it?”

He takes a deep breath and swipes his tongue across his bottom lip. His eyes move side to side as he struggles to choose which of your eyes he'll settle on. “Will you marry me,” he says clearly. 

Your mouth bobs open and you struggle to find your breath, never mind words. “You…ma…w-what?” 

He smiles a little, “Marry me.” His hand against your backside moves up to the middle of your back, and he brings the hand on the back of your head around to your cheek. “There's so many reasons I would never want to do it again, Y/N, but you and this baby are the reason I do want to. I love you so fucking much. I want you to be my wife.” He raises his eyebrows slowly as you stare back at him, wonderfully dumbfounded. “Is that a no?” He smirks nervously. 

You shake your head quickly, “Of course it fucking isn't! Yes! Fuck, Cillian, yes! If course I'll fucking marry you!” you pull him closer and kiss him firmly, your hands cupping around his cheeks to hold him there until you've had your fill of snogs. “You're serious?” You ask him when you finally pull your lips from his. “You really want to get married?” 

He pulls a face, “No. I really want to marry you.” 

Somehow, that's an even better answer. You smile softly, but it soon broadens. “So I'm your fiancée now?” 

He smirks, “I suppose y’are, yeah.” He drops his arms from your and pushes his left hand into the front pocket of his jeans. “You'll need this then.” He says, drawing out a small blue box. 

Your jaw drops open, “Cillian…” 

He brings the box to his chest and slowly opens the lid. Inside, on the bed of black velvet, is a silver band with three emerald stones set side by side. He reaches his right hand into the box and picks up the ring. You hold your left hand out to him, your eyes beginning to fill with warm tears, and your fingers shake as he carefully slides the ring onto your finger. “You're definitely gonna marry me then?” He smiles at you, cupping your newly decorated hand in his. 

You nod your head, sniffling softly. “Name the fucking day,” you say, and you push yourself as close to him as you can. You kiss him tenderly, and his hand snakes around your back to hold you close. Waking up this morning, this would never have been on your bingo card. It takes mere seconds for your anxiety to hijack your happiness, and you feel the hard thud of your heart in your chest. Why is he asking now? He was against the idea before - look at your birthday gift! So why? Was it truly the cementing of his wants in the promise of the baby that had changed his mind? …or was this because Yvonne and Adam were getting married? You stare at his face as every thought passes through your mind, and you silently scream at every one of them to fuck off and stop ruining this. He wants you to be his wife, to give you the same surname your daughter will have… fuck off, every bad thought! 

“Will we take this to the bed, Mrs Murphy to be?” He grins at you. You smile at him, but you know your eyes must belie the gesture. His face settles into a concerned frown. “What's the matter?” 

You shake your head slowly, “Nothing, love.” You say quietly. You can't utter the silly thoughts - it'd ruin everything. “I'm happy.” 

“You are?” He asks, needing to be sure. 

You nod your head slowly and smile as convincingly as you can. “So happy.” 

[seiii-lnd]

Caleb Release

TW: Yapping

Since the game's release, Caleb's character has been a gold mine for arguments within the community and a testament of how cultural differences can cause you-know-what. But we won! And that's what matters... until his recent homecoming announcement yesterday.

Based from the latest PVs, I am worried about the devs doing a 180 degrees flip on his character. I personally do not sit well with the Myojin Aki vibe (you-know-what, don't ask), but I fw the part where's he's somehow Bucky/Vash the Stampede.

The trailer is good but I just hope they don't make him go full on yandere mode as people would definitely misunderstood his character. A little bit of red flags are okay, but I hope he will NOT pull off a Toma istg. He was introduced as the dependable easygoing gege, and I hope they kept that part of his character in his homecoming since that's one of the reasons why some players were pushing for him to be an LI last year.

His cards are top tier so far. It's really giving off that boy-next-door archetype so I can at least assume that we will still have the dependable gege from Chapter 4. The brown uniform he has on one of his 4-star cards is also giving Cillian Murphy from The Edge of Love.

For the lore, I think he's been secretly hiding his affection for MC since then. It was blatantly obvious from Chapter 4 (when they had an argument), his longing and concern were certainly genuine.

He's an anti-villain!

Caleb is at the other end of the Sylus stick (anti-hero). A Colonel is a high field-rank in the airforce, but there are still people above that rank. Following the military chain of command, it's most likely that he's working under a general's order or someone with high political power or influence which might explain the red flags in the teaser. It seems like Caleb has a military code of conduct to follow which may include a different treatment to trespassers (which MC may have done) or any opposition. Judging by how he can easily switch up between Colonel and Caleb in the trailers, it's possible that he's being controlled (not literally) by outside forces.

In retrospect, Sylus' release was also met with a huge hype about what seemed to be a "dark romance brat taming daddy" who's very possessive and into BDSM. But Sylus is not what most people expected him to be.

Overall, we were only given a glimpse of Caleb from the teasers right now. Currently, there is not enough material to further digest his character and making assumptions on his whole personality based on snippets is not really a pleasant idea.

[buffyfan145]

Surprised I haven't seen this over here yet but Morfydd Clark was at the BAFTAs yesterday and actually teased more about season 2 of "Rings of Power"!!! 😀 She talked about how there's "lots of villains" this season and then said "And I love villains". LOL 😏 Cate Blanchett was also there too and seeing a lot of posts of pics of both Galadriels. But also there was a moment where Morfydd was pictured close to Cillian Murphy with Fellowship of Fans joking it was Galadriel with her uncle as Cillian's been a popular fancast for Fëanor for years. LOL

[charliedawn]

I have no idea who Eddie is, but I like him so far...(Also, Cillian Murphy 😍)

Also, that part where he said he needs to 'get rid of Michael' made me laugh out loud! Like, good luck with that 🤣

Author: "As someone who doesn’t play video games and didn’t know about Eddie Gluskin’s existence until yesterday…I can relate. Lol. I just saw a few edits of him and was like…Wait a damn minute. That haircut. Those eyes. That insanity in his gaze…CILLIAN MURPHY ?! So yeah. That’s how it happened. And since I love that man. Well…He HAD to fit in my slasher AU somewhere. And whoever sent me that request just gave me the golden opportunity so I seized it by the horns."

Author:

[pennyserenade]

i just wanted to say that you’re the reason that i started reading books again after years of not reading. i just finished my first book in years (after nine months of trying to read it but we’re going to ignore that lol) and i forgot how fun it could be. so thank you <3

i'm so sorry this has taken me a day to reply to. i just started working full time again, but know that i saw this on my break at work yesterday and smiled ear from ear!!! sometimes the hardest part about breaking a long reading slump is that first book - and i'm so happy you've finally gotten over that! and i'm even happier that i could play any sort of role in that journey. reading is so fun and i want everyone who is capable of doing it to do it. cillian murphy said something like "you find so much empathy in novels, because there you are putting yourself in someone else's point of view" and i think that rings massively true; there's so much of the world i've learned from reading about it from someone else's point of view, and its an experience i wish everyone could have. i love that my love of reading inspired you sm <3333

[elk96]

Connection -Part 3 (Final Part)

Pairing; J. Robert Oppenheimer (Cillian Murphy's Portrayal x doctor reader)

Word Count: 1505

Warnings: mentions of depression, slight mentions of suicidal thoughts.

The rain was tapping on the glass loudly, creating a calming buzz, interrupted by loud thunder. His heart sat tightly in his chest, his mouth dry. That had to stop. He couldn't keep on spending his evenings like that, he had work to do. 

y/N sighed, rubbed her eyes. She looked at the book he had clutched in his hands.

"How did you like it"?

Robert sucked in a breath. "It was excellent. Most…most enlightening".

"You felt you could relate huh", she asked pleasantly, and he nodded. 

"Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep heart", she quoted. Her patient nodded, a small smile feathering on his face.

She shifted on her seat, crossed her arms infront of her. Light conversation was over.

"You're of unusual intelligence Robert. Perhaps a bit more than large. I see that very clearly. And…my honest opinion is that you will find your way, eventually. You'll find a way to heal and step up to the circumstances. I'm here to help you do it quickly and without further consequences. I can't do that if you don't let me".

I won't judge you, her eyes promised, and Robert felt the truth in her words.

"I shouldn't have done that", he whispered.

"But you did do it. Because you felt something".

He dismissed whatever he'd felt with a nod. 

"All feelings are valid, Robert".

"I respect him greatly".

"I know".

"He makes me look like an idiot. He's charismatic, he's…smart"- his voice cracked painfully- "and… he deserves his reputation…".

"I don't give a damn about Blackett".

"Then why did you meet with him"? he asked sharply. He lowered his head. "I felt jealous, I guess. And…this couldn't go on for much longer. All the shame, and, the…the failure,.…-he was cruel.…Punishing".

He drew in a sharp breath in an attempt to calm himself down. 

"I didn't want him to die"! he rasped out in desperation. "I just left the apple there…and after that the incident didn't cross my mind at all, but, while I was asleep…".

He swallowed harshly and wiped a stray tear.

She was waiting for him to continue, posture calm and inviting, the smallest of smiles on her lips. As if it was all alright. As if it was normal.

"You're not your thoughts or your emotions, Robert", she said, almost guessing what was on his mind. "You're the witness of them. Everybody at some point of their life has felt jealous and angry, and whatnot. The fact that some people do not know how to control these emotions is not their fault".

Tears had started streaming down his face. His voice was faint, like the feel of moisture on their skin. "Who's is it"?

y/N shrugged. "Perhaps your parents', your teachers', your professors', your friends', the butcher's in your neighborhood. It doesn't matter".

The knot in his stomach pulled again-but this time it was kinder. It was from sympathy. 

"We're all broken, that's how the light gets in", she mumbled softly.

"Did…someone write that too"?

Her smile broadened. "Ernest Hemingway. Start with "The Sun Also Rises". You'll love it. Did you do any laboratory work these days? ", she then asked. 

Robert shook his head. "I don't want to go back there".

"Understandable. You know…at some point, you'll have to forgive yourself Robert".

He let out an ironic chuckle, but when he returned his gaze at her, his eyes were pleading. 

He felt as if he was standing at the edge of a cliff and was teetering between jumping on his own volition or being pushed over. Better leave on your own terms, he thought. His teeth were chattering-weirdly, because, everybody knew he'd done something so much worse. 

  "Yesterday…", he began with a shaky voice, "I was in the same wagon as a young lady and her boyfriend,- and they were kissing and I just… I don't know why…When he left…I kissed her… ".

A small sob made his shoulders wobble. "I can't control myself anymore", he whispered  in a small voice and as if to prove his words, tears started streaming down his cheeks hugging the corners of his jaw. 

He pushed himself to stop-it felt dangerous to have a psychiatrist hear him talk, see him unravel in front of her, but it was easier with her. 

He felt as if a weight was lifted off of his shoulders, as if she was there, to help, to reach out…and-and guide him. 

He shouldn't have done that- he wasn't responsible for his actions anymore…! but-

A gentle, warm hand came to rest on the back of his head. Robert released his face from his hands, only to see her close to him, her expression one of…of sympathy. 

Unbelievable though it was for him…she was there. Even when he wanted to cut his skin open-be freed, finally, from all these thoughts…

He took her hand and felt her warmth carry inside him, the most precious comfort. 

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~2 Months Later~

The sweet days of April had arrived, and the sun had begun to shake off the winter's mist. Moisture didn't stick to people's clothes anymore, they could hold pleasant conversations in their walks, unafraid of stepping in dirty water ponds. Robert found himself squinting his eyes so as to protect them from the sunlight and smiled to himself. 

He'd learned how to walk with his head straight up again, his heart felt surprisingly light, all thanks to that young doctor he'd been seeing. 

Today, however, he had one more reason to be happy: he was finally free. Off, to make a new beginning. 

He observed the little park across Dr. y/LN' office, the heaviness of the wooden staircase that led him there. His stomach clenched uneasily-not because he was ashamed or…afraid. He'd gotten rid of those feelings. Because of her. 

And this would be the last time he saw her.

She couldn't afford a secretary, at the age of 23 she had little clientele and therefore small paychecks. He knocked hesitantly at the door of her office.  He closed his eyes heavily upon hearing her happy voice. Not often would she get an unexpected patient, he supposed.

He walked to the tiny reception room, but while he was three steps in she called out to him. Either by smell or the sound of his footsteps, she'd recognised him.

"Hello Robert, good evening", she said, and he followed her inside. 

This time he ignored the comfortable armchair, eyes focused on her face.

"Won't you sit"? she asked.

He nodded with a sight.

Chewing lightly on her bottom lip-she did that while she was thinking sometimes- she examined his features for a few moments.

He cleared his throat, divided the weigh between the left and right foot. "I'm leaving Cambridge", he announced awkwardly, and she smiled, as if she'd already guessed it.

"I'll be going to Göttingen. It's…a theoretical physics university".

"Good. You'll…you will thrive there, I'm sure".

"I came to say goodbye. I thought I should…"

"Yeah, I'm glad you did", she muttered, unable to escape the uncomfortable energy that had settled in the room. 

She reached for him, they shook hands. Robert closed his eyes, grateful for the warmth of her. His breath itches when he feels her fingers tangle with his own- it's a new feeling…more…personal.

And then-oh good god- he feels rather than sees her rise to her toes, leaning in to press her lips on his. He doesn't dare breathe, scared the moment will just shatter. He can't bring himself to move either, he doesn't know what to do, it's his first time, and what if she thinks it's rejection?

She doesn't; she knows him better than his mother, better than he knows himself. She pulls back, opens her eyes, smiles at him. Her hand comes to cup his cheek, but at the corners of her eyes tears begin to swell. 

He leans in this time, feels the softness of her lips, inhales her perfume. She parts his lips with her tongue, and then it's just wetness and warmth. She sucks on his bottom lip, he explores her mouth, and it's so so different from that stupid kiss he'd had with that stranger. She sighs in his mouth and before his heart begins to flourish from the happiness she pulls back again.

Tears roll down her cheeks.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that, I'm your doctor", she blurts out in embarrassment. 

She fidgets with the hem of her skirt, Robert just stands there, unsure of how to act.

"This doesn't change anything by the way-and don't think it's out of putty!-I-I haven't told anyone. I'll send my report on Göttingen, and you'll be alright. I promise".

"I'll write to you", he promises.

She swallows harshly. Her hand somehow finds his again.

"When will you be leaving"?

Robert hugs her by the shoulder, brings her body flush against his.

"In a three day's time".

She lifts her face to meet his lips, and this time his heart guides him.

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I just wanted to thank those who like and reblogged the first two parts and gave me the motivation to finish this silly little story.

I didn't particularly like it's development, but I guess they deserved to have an ending.

And this final sceneI love.

Please tell me what you think if you read it!!!

[wisebeth]

Watched Oppenheimer yesterday. Nolan never disappoints.

Goodness, the cinematography, the directory, the acting, the sound tracks, the execution of the documentary, IN LOVE with just how the movie was made.

Also Cillian Murphy 🛐 his performance was splendid, it was single-handedly the reason why i enjoyed it so much.

[thecommoncurator]

Top 10 2023

cuz I’m a nerd

10. Skinamarink

Ultralowbudget horror that really stuck w me. Architecture as horror.

Hallways that change size. Doors that disappear. Walls that inch closer. A disembodied voice coaxing you to horrific acts. Excited to see where Kyle Edward Ball goes from here!

9. The Holdovers

Newly minted winter holiday classic.

The core trio of Sessa, Giamatti, and Randolph kill it. Lots of faux 70s cinematic flair (complete w grainy mono audio) and a script that plays the familiar coming of age beats with enough cynical bite to keep it from falling into saccharine cliche, & a warmth for its characters that keeps it from falling into despairing melodrama. Just damn good all around!

8. Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse

What hasn’t already been said? Gorgeous animation, a fantastic ensemble of characters, and better action than any superhero movie I’ve seen in quite some time (kinetic, emotionally charged, and LEGIBLE!), w a soundtrack to match. this film takes so much care w its characters - Miles talking to his Mom/Dad, Gwen confronting her Father, Miguel bickering w peter, the downtime w everyone is just as compellingly crafted as the action. 💕

7. Anatomy of a Fall

Juicy French courtroom drama that is ostensibly about whether or not a renown novelist (a perfectly calculated Sandra Hüller) killed her husband, Justine Triet turns her camera’s gaze to a number of intriguing themes - the malleability of memory, the gender politics of the French court system, the existential dread of having the minutiae of one’s most private moments picked apart before a ravenous public’s eyes.

best dog performance in a film ever✨

6. Poor Things

Yorgos, my love, back with his gnarled, prickly sense of sadistic humor & a fully-activated Emma Stone (goddamn!) and THE Mark Ruffalo performance - what a fun prick he is here. The physicality of the absolutely bonkers sets and costuming, coupled with its maximalist approach to untangling the Born-Sexy-Yesterday trope by way of Frankenstein (or Frankenhooker, honestly), this film was an absolute riot and KILLED in a theater. A fascinating aesthetic leap for Lanthimos and a real treat.

5. All Of Us Strangers

A film that, like its protagonist (an achingly tender Andrew Scott) devastatingly grasps for the universal by drilling down into the specifics. Adam spends his time writing, channeling the dead, communing with the grief of his past, searching for an escape hatch from the isolating pits of depression and a lifetime of self-doubts, if only for a fleeting moment,which, once found in the form of a hot mess of a neighbor (a superb Paul Mescal), only reinforces that underlying dread w the all too relatable need to capture it in amber, like plucking a star from the sky and feeding its radiance with your tears, hoping that maybe this time…maybe this time it’ll stick.

Like so many great queer films, this will ruin your day 💕

4. Oppenheimer

Nolan finally cracked the code. I’m not sure how he managed to turn a 3 hour epic about the pettiness, vindictiveness, utter disregard for humanity that the movers and shakers of the U.S. imperialist machine have for us all into a blockbuster event…until I hit play again, and Göransson’s score starts up, and Cillian Murphy’s haunting eyes appear…and it all just, makes sense. A rare film that never lets up and doesn’t suffer for it. It doesn’t hurt that every actor under the sun shows up.

Robert Downey Jr. plays catty soooo well lol.

3. The Zone of Interest

There’s a long-running dialogue in film history revolving around the aesthetics of war films, and whether or not there can ever be a truly “Anti-War” film because, by virtue of being a film with purposeful framing/pacing/blocking, it aestheticizes it, rendering the message moot. I don’t know that Zone of Interest is an ‘Answer’ to that conversation, but it is the most compelling entry in the conversation i’ve yet to see. A horrific film with no violence shown. A building nightmare without catharsis. No aesthetic flourish. Just soul-numbing inhumanity.

What death cries are we tuning out as we go about our day?

2. Killers of the Flower Moon

Martin Scorsese, with rewrites and input from the Osage Nation, takes what was supposed to be a bog standard whodunnit about the founding of the FBI and turns it into a spiritual treatise on the rot at the heart of the American mythos. DiCaprio is at his slimiest here, a fantastic, thankless turn, De Niro is at his most diabolical, but Lily Gladstone steals the show with her radiant aura of a screen presence. This is a 3.5hr film w lots of talking, lots of loud moments, guns and bombs and screeching….but its most powerful moments come from stillness, silence. A glance from afar. The sound of rainfall. The pregnant silence of a confession left unspoken: complicity.

One of Scorsese’s best. 💕

1. Asteroid City

Asteroid City is the best film Wes Anderson has made, and feels almost like a confession, an introspective dive into the why’s of his aesthetic distance from his characters. A 50s television dramatization of a production of a fictional play, the levels of artifice that wrap around these characters keep revealing new facets of their souls to us, their grief, their joy, their quests for meaning.

It’s also got UFOs, atom bombs, laser guns, a fantastic Jason Schwartzman in hot-depressed-dad mode, and folksy musical numbers about aliens! It’s a ton of fun, and a damn fine picture, one that is wrapped in layers of cinematic thrills it slowly unravels to reveal a tender, heart-melting center.💕

[survivorsfm]

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[n-agiz]

watched oppenheimer yesterday and that movie did not disappoint !! really enjoyed it and definitely didn't feel like it was a 3h long biopic yk, the pacing and how the story progressed made it easy to watch if that makes sense. and i loved watching cillian murphy on the big screen hehe 🫶🏻

[claireandacat]

Barbenheimer weekend!

It’s Barbenheimer weekend and as a cinephile, I of course participated. Today was Barbie with my brother and yesterday I went to Oppenheimer. I bought shirts to wear to each one and went to my favorite theatre (I will never ever step into a chain theater with the exception of B&B bc it did start in MO where I am from)

This is a year for movies as a Wes Anderson movie and Chris Nolan movie came out this year. My two favorite directors. I know kinda contrasting. One makes serious, science-y movies and the other quirky indie films. I love them.

I got the guy’s name tattooed on my upper back, how super fan can one get? Next I just need a Chris Nolan tattoo and my super fan status will be extended 😂

I’ll start by talking about Barbie, now I’m not much of a fan of chick flicks, they’ve never really appealed to me but hey I’ve played with a Barbie or 10 in my childhood so this movie should be fun.

It was a fun movie. Margot Robbie was amazing as Barbie. The 2001 beginning scene was an awesome touch. I love that Will Farrell is the Mattel CEO. He is always so funny and dramatic with roles such as that.

I still liked Oppenheimer more.

I’m a HUGE fan of Cillian Murphy and have been waiting for Oppenheimer since I heard Cillian would be the star of the movie. Cillian is also in my top hot actors list, I’ve been in love with the guy since I saw 28 Days Later when I was 16.

I mean, have you seen the guy? He is up there with Sebastian Stan and Daniel Brühl in my opinion. 😍😍😍

Maybe I should make a post about my favorite hot actors?

Back to the subject at hand, Oppenheimer was a MASTERPIECE. Nolan never fails to disappoint. It is 3 hours long to do get a quiet fidget toy. I was pretty focused on the movie so it wasn’t too much of a problem. My favorite theater has a bar so I often saw people getting up for a 2nd and third drink based on the amount of cans I heard opening.

That’s what I hate about ASD you get in the focus of something and then you hear some measly background noise and the focus is gone.

Y’all Josh Peck makes an appearance.

I want to point out the scenes where Oppenheimer is overwhelmed/getting a sensory overload. I read another article that Nolan wanted to really capture what it’s really like to be in that situation. Like really really be in that situation. As someone that often (well not as often now that I left a stressful job) experiences being overwhelmed or a sensory overload Nolan was spot on. Especially with the amount of stress and trauma Oppie endured, the sounds and cinematography of it really had you feeling it. Heck for a minute I was feeling the feels of stress, anxiety and burnout I was feeling at my previous job.

I would definitely recommend doing some reading on the Manhattan Project before seeing. There is lots of awesome videos explaining the whole story. It will definitely give you a better understanding of the events unfolding.

Also, want to give a shout out to Gary Oldman (like he would see this post 😅) for playing president Truman the president from my home state and I even live half an hour away from his hometown 😂 and went to a school named after him. Oldman def got that Midwestern accent down 😂

I always forget that it was Truman that signed off on the big kaboom boom to go down. Makes me wanna say, way to go MO! We got buildings, streets, and schools named after this guy 😂 *I’m joking, the events of Hiroshima and Nagasaki were tragic*

I am definitely looking forward to seeing Oppenheimer again. I’ve yet to see it with my dad who is also a fan of Chris Nolan’s work. Heck the guy had not one but two professors that were involved in the Manhattan Project when he was at KU back in the early to mid eighties.

RIP my bank account buying all these movie tickets and snacks 😅

I hope you all can get a chance to participate in Barbenheimer fun this weekend.

Happy Friday!

[findalesia]

February. Stress. Deadlines

23:00. I should be studying I need a new album to obsess over Yesterday Misa Amane died To be loved is to be seen? (Was it like that) To be loved should be having someone laugh at my unfunny jokes for once I haven't missed one episode of the new Harley Quinn season. I started a smash book the other day, but I put Cillian Murphy and then laziness came. I have missed lost of my (ex)best friends lately It is weird when you need to comunicate when someone who just broke ties, leaving you just wondering what you did wrong. It is funny because that happened 3 years ago. We still coincide everywhere. It's no fun. They changed but I haven't that much. I miss my best friend. I miss going out. I miss going to McDonalds instictively with my group. I jokes about ending locked up in September but I literally am. I dream of travelling all the time. Nobody cares and nodoby will care. So keep writing and let it be.