#love: power of another world (KOS‑MOS)

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hi arii !! have u ever thought of xenoblade aus with ur other f/os? 🤔 i suddenly started imagining luna as a driver LOL but since uve been thinking abt xbc a bit more lately i wanted to ask since the concept is soo cool

Hello Clara!! Thank you so so much for sending this in, it really means a lot to me~

Ooh, I am not sure I have considered Driver Luna before, but I am now absolutely going to try to. Azami was my instant first thought for who she would resonate with, but that's more of an aesthetic thing. However, I also think Luna would work well with many healer Blades, though I can see her wielding Bitballs moreso than I can Knuckle Claws. (Which is perhaps ironic considering that there are no dark-element healer Rare Blades in XC2!) Did you have anyone else in mind from your sudden imagining (either in terms of who Luna would resonate with or perhaps how any other Reborn characters would be put in the game)?

Regarding Xenoblade Chronicles AUs with other F/Os, I have considered something like this in the past, but only for my selfship with Aqua, as far as I can remember. In that, the idea was less of an outright AU and more simply that Aqua and Aria had come to Alrest (hey, that's you) at some point after KH3, probably as part of their search for new potential Keyblade wielders in different worlds (partially because, while there's definitely scope for Heartless invasion, I'm struggling to think of how that would actually play out from like a game perspective). As part of their investigations, the two would pose as Blade and Driver, with Aqua pretending to be a Driver and Aria pretending to be her Blade, since - despite Gormotti being a thing here - Aria sort of has a few too many inhuman traits to properly pass as one, I think. Like the wings, and the seams, which may or may not be able to be mistaken for ether lines. She'd specifically be pretending to be a dark-element attacker Rare Blade of some kind, perhaps even being assumed to be Legendary considering the unique nature of her "Blade weapon" (which here would, I suppose, just be Aqua using whichever Keyblade she can summon that looks most like something Aria would have given her..?)

That is the only sort of AU-adjacent thing I can really think of having come up with beforehand, and even then it's more "XC in KH" than anything else. However, here are some other considerations, if you'd like them:

Calanthe and KOS-MOS getting thrown into XC1 instead of XC2 may not be overly feasible, but it's a concept and a half for a number of reasons. Like, imagine being Shulk and co. right after Citri and Fiora get captured at the start of the game - setting out to save them both and taking the fight to the Mechon, and then all of a sudden encountering someone who looks way too much like Citri and has a lot of her same interests (like tech!), alongside a potentially-mechanical? other woman who is incredibly powerful but whose abilities sometimes seem a bit too Mechon-like. Who are both apparently not from this world. And then starting to learn about Faced Mechon and their pilots. And then finding out that Citri and Fiora got turned into Face pilots. There's so much potential for an interesting up-and-down dynamic there, I feel!

My selfship with Zero feels like it could be pretty easily ported into XC2 with how Blades work there and how that can potentially be paralleled with voidsent pacts. You could either make Zero a Flesh Eater given her hybrid nature in FFXIV, or go down the route of her being a Blade that Zenos manages to steal and forcibly resonate with, then maybe Lorenza somehow restoring her memories to her after re-resonating with her? I feel like Lorenza could also fit well as a Blade, though, so hmm.. There are ideas there, but i'm not settled on either one yet.

I'm thinking about the recent Clio rambles.. I'm thinking about the whole "preserving her heart" aspect.. I'm thinking about how I literally described that as being able to take "the Sora route or the Jin route" (if you know then you know) and settled on something more like Sora's for KH.. I'm thinking about Aria taking the Jin route in XC2 and subsequently occupying a position like his in the story.. Yep, nope, that can fit, can't it

Both XC2 and DQIX have an Yggdrasil, and angel equivalents, and so on. I therefore really want to put Pavo and Ardea in here somehow. Maybe, Pavo and Aquila as the Aegis Blades (twin symbolism there would be fun), and then other Celestrians (so, including Ardea) as other Blades.. maybe Ardea becoming a Flesh Eater to represent her loss of wings and halo in DQIX? I feel like this could make Corvus Amalthus (he’s Aquila’s mentor, Amalthus is Malos’ Driver), but surely King Godwin would fit there better given how Indol is.. unless I say the Gittish Empire replace Torna..? Maybe Corvus would be better as the Malos equivalent (final boss and all), so maybe Pneuma could be Celestria - but then where do I put Pavo and Aquila, just ordinary other Blades like Ardea? Or would he be her Driver who then also pretends to be Ardea's despite her not needing one?? There is absolutely something here, I think, but I feel like I may be the only one with enough knowledge of both games to try and make it work. And I currently am not able to make it work, so.. take what you can make of my attempts, I suppose =P

It is now gone two o'clock in the morning and I have to be in the lab tomorrow (though thankfully not until the afternoon), so I should probably leave it there for now. Still, thank you very much for sending this in, friend, and I hope that these are alright as novel concepts ^-^

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Have some rainbows for any you have hcs for wahooooo

Hehe, thank you, friend!!

(source: this post by bewearships)

send me a 🌈 + one of my F/Os for my sexuality/gender headcanons for them! - Right, you've sent five rainbows, so.. let's give five headcanons!

Luna is canonically a trans girl, but in terms of her sexuality, I headcanon her to be an ace lesbian. I even made trans and ace pride flags by colourpicking from my headcanon design for her, look!

On the note of romantic F/Os from Reborn, I headcanon Elena to be bisexual! I think she does have a gender but could not tell you what it is if you asked; she's just rolling with being who she is, haha. I also tried making a colour-picked bi pride flag from her sprite, but I couldn't get quite as close:

Okay, now for some other romantic F/Os. I headcanon Skye to be largely agender, using he/him, they/them, and xe/xem pronouns - this is partially because I also headcanon him to be a changeling (because he can use magic when nobody else in the valley can and it's literally never explained), but also partially because I cannot easily believe a cis man would have his "monochrome leopard-print shirt with shoes to match plus purple trousers" fashion sense. I would also say he is bisexual.

I headcanon Pavo to be trans and also a lesbian! Although I do imagine that Celestrians may not exactly have mortal ideas of gender, being divine-created angels and all. I know that she and Aquila are twins, and I want to say they're said to be identical? But Aquila is male whereas Pavo is female (despite, fun fact, aquila being first-declension feminine where pavo is third-declension masculine!), soooo..

And finally.. oh, screw it, have all my Xenoblade ones again. Pyra is a lesbian demigirl, Vanea is asexual and panromantic (plus your description of her as a nonbinary woman also feels very fitting), Perun is trans (in a Blade way) and sapphic, Lora is cis and asexual and a lesbian, and KOS-MOS Re: is a lesbian who is far too overpowered for gender (though honestly I don't really have anything concrete for her yet). In my headcanons, anyway!

I hope that all of those were alright, friend! Thank you very much again for sending so many rainbows~

[tritemagicalsatire]

"The Scapegoat and The Villain"

A Tarot Reading by Ares

---A past collective reading from Sept. 19, 2024, posted at 3:22 pm---

Pic: Reversed Death Arcana from Persona 4 (a game screenshot)

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"One has denied of His voice, but not His actions to justify His way of faith."

- a line from my own poem, must gatekeep HAHAHA!!

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Good morning, madlang folks! 🥳

Maaaring late na ako sa balita, pero, how are you noong Lunar Eclipse in Pisces event? Lawit na ba ang mga dila sa kapaguran? Jonks! We must rest in peace sa katahimikan at kadiliman upang tayo'y magpahinga at manahimik sa ating mga kama in this bed weather season. The Lunar Eclipse in Pisces reminds us na matulog muna kung kinakailangan at susunod na yang mga gawain na yan. Even reflecting things can be tiring, make sure you are in a right state of mind to think about it. The world will wait, your health comes first muna. Batugan mode base sa POV ng burnout society, joke! 😉

Ingat sa s4kit, mga folks! Except sa problemang pag-ibig dahil love is everywhere and love is in the air (inutot ni Cupid), yikes charotski! Labyu! 🤘

Ito na, let's begin!

Since follower din ako ng Tarot Radio PH, something has made me thinking dun sa isa sa mga live na collective reading na noong isang araw ko lang pinakinggan. Something made me think of another own quotings in my writings na pwede maging topic for today's reading and at the same time, a poem pero tinatago ko muna for myself because I need to make it longer for a reason that me and myself is the only audience for that poem. A shadow work poem, in particular. Just a line will suffice pangdagdag info sa araw na ito. Hehe...

The scapegoat and the villain, both the madmans of the Uni-verse of collective hooman multiverse for me. Ang isang scapegoat na ubod ng self-sacrificial to the point of k1lling themselves "wisely" (because they justify it with "inhumane" respect to that principle, and with great optimism pa nga kung minsan kaya nagagawa nilang sumunod dito like it's some kind of duty to do so) while the villain presents themselves as an "incarnate of evil" or "Satan himself in human form" basta mga sumasalungat sa batas ng nakararami because they feel sh1t sa kasusunod sa layaw ng lipunan and they feel suffocated from it, like, they had enough from it. Both rely in their ways of thinking about faith and how they are so sure of it talaga to the point of forgetting their own humanity. Parehong may victim complex at may kanya-kanyang pamamaraan ng pagbubulakbol at pagpapasensyoso sa pinanghahawakang prinsipyo.

Stagnancy rises hangga't wala ring nakontrang matinong rationale sa isang prinsipyong matagal nang hinubog ng panahon at hindi natinag sa bawat sitwasyon. Matigas na makunat pa. Nako! That sometimes even the authorities and with their utmost power and tools na pwedeng magamit in every possible way can't help them kahit anong hila sa kanila palayo sa kanilang nakapako nilang kinasasadlakan.

Most of the unbalanced principles na meron sila ay nanggagaling sa kanilang unhealed wounds na hindi pa tukoy kung saan nanggagaling basta mostly nyan ay nasa nakaraan titingnan at nagmamanifest hanggang kasalukuyang panahon.

If there is one near you, or are you one, gaano kahaba ang pasensya mo sa mga katulad nila o katulad mo? At ano ang gagawin mo kung papaano mo sila panghahawakan? 🥱

Here... Susubukan kong bigyan ng emphasis ang point of views ng dalawang panig na ito and how they manifest in their own ways base sa interpretations ko, but still, ang complexity nyan ay syempre nakadepende sa bawat individual. Take what resonates and alisin ang hindi.

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The Scapegoat:

(8 of spades reversed, 9 of hearts upright)

Tell me why you did it

Every dream falling apart

Tell me why you did it

After the promise

Still aching, still aching

Oh, baby, I need your love

-Heartbeat, Heartbreak (Persona 4 OST)

Seeking refuge, and personal freedom by means of restricting oneself sa pagsalo ng pwetmalung bad karma ng iba and ang malupit pa rito ay sila mismo ang napag-iinitan, as if one lives for it while they d1e alone and gradually dahil sa totoo lang ay despite their God-given gifts (kahit ang pagpapasensya sa mga katulad ng ganito ay quite a feat naman talaga) on doing something ay wala man lang "sukli" sa kanilang kabutihan and yet, their so-called "nature" tells them to do it kahit naaagrabyado na sila o dehado na sila from their own limitations. Kung sumama man ang loob, wala rin sila magawa — o sabihin nating iniisip nila na wala silang magagawa dahil they subjected themselves to it out of love na alipin ng damdamin lang without basis ng logic or out of spite as if one is nasa isang hostage situation. Feeling or thinking na laging "walang choice".

Guilt tripping and gaslighting ang may malaking factors kung bakit nagmamanifest kay Scapegoat ang ganung klaseng mindset. Kahit degradation can give attention din naman talaga sa mga katulad nila, parang pagdila lang ng breadcrumbs sa lapag tapos inaamag pa masabi lang na "ok lang, panglaman tiyan din yan!" tapos hyping sa paligid na "sige dig in! Basta nakakain!".

Nako! Lalong pinagmukhang timang. Tapos ang tyaga-tyaga pang makisalamuha! 🙄😆

Tapos ito pa, paulit-ulit pa sa pag-asang may magbabago pa roon sa other party pero sige ang lapit dahil akala may mawawala. Welp, for your safety mga Scapegoat folks, better avoid or detach paunti-unti or stop na talaga sa mga taong mahilig mang-akusa at mambaliktad (tapos nan4nakit pa) nang walang sapat na basis para maging safe, secured, and sane ka pa.

Hays... There is freedom more than being free sa pagiging Scapegoat because you "chose" it and may "freedom to choose" naman, mga folks! Hindi porket may kalayaan ay tinatake advantage na ng mga oppressors (maski of the Self) ang magago sa buong lifetime. Wala ka sa BDSM set-up hoy! Make sure you know your rights as an individual person. 🤦🏼‍♂️😆

Pagsawaan mo na yang kadena na yan, lubid naman! Tapos sunod, goma naman. HAHA!!👌🤣

Charot...

A question... Mawawalan ba ng saysay ang buhay kung walang ipeplease na ibang tao na wala naman talagang essence sa life natin? Bakit hindi natin subukan ang ating mga sarili na bigyang halaga starting this day? Bakit ba? Paladesisyon ako eh. Ayusin mo buhay mo hoy! 😆🙄

Just one try... not once, but when it happens kapag umiral ang resentment dulot ng kasasalo sa bigat ng ibang tao. Baka sakali lang, try lang. Pagaanin din ang sariling buhay nang may tamang balanse at naaangkop. 😉

A quote to ponder:

"I am a cage, in search of a bird."

- Franz Kafka

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The Villain:

(8 of hearts reversed, 5 of clubs reversed)

Turning misery into meaningfulness

Changing day after day

Your affection, your affection, taking pride from fear

Past will tell you when to make yourself a hero

-Your Affection (Persona 4 OST)

A villain to many, a hero to some...

Why is that?

I'm gonna get myself cancelled sa ganireng wikaan, lols. We think of a villain as certified a-hole characters na hindi deserve mabuhay, maski kumain at uminom kung papalarin ang self-righteous selves natin just to freaking t0rtur3 them HAHAHA!!

Reclusion, repulsion, revenge... mga sawa na sa sariling kahinaan ang mga ganitong tao.

Eh, mabuhay ba naman sa oppressive household or lipunan na umaabot sa punto na ang lala na ng amats ng mga ganito na kailangan na nilang ilabas ang pagkabarumbado't pusong bato nila like you know, atleast they are being hero to themselves kahit minsan. There are times that others follow because of the confidence they have for themselves. People like certainty din talaga in the midst of unpredictable but certain kind of vi0lence. Sabik na sabik sa pagbabago, like they need to do it with utmost respect sa kanilang nature na may dapat mabago sa kanilang current shituation as per their personal POV. Hearts in so much self-indulgence along with mindless and reprehensible hedonistic anarchism may lead to reckless actions that will cause unfavorable situations and sudden change of course sa life na kung saan ay hindi na mismo macontrol ng Villain ang mga nangyayari sa kanyang buhay due to those "unfavorable" SHITuations na gumulo at patuloy na gumugulo sa kanyang "pagkavillain" dahil sa maikling sabi ay ang pangit ng kanyang pag-uugali at pag-iisip kasi, yung tipong ang mga self-righteous peeps ay mapapasabi ng "buti nga!". Charots. Masyadong pangkupal ang labas HAHAHA!

Hindi... ganito, ganito...

Kahit gaano pa sila "kasama" sa "moralist society standards", they don't deserve kung ano mang pangbabaldado ng pananaw na ininstill din nila sa sarili nila na nagmumula sa lipunang tinarantado at ginutom ang kanilang sikmura.

Plakda! Plakda! Ang barado't matigas na sistema sa mga katulad nilang nakatikim ng paghihingalo pamulat sa mundo ng kabilang parte ng moralidad at sosyedad 'pagkat ang mundo ay hindi lamang sa kanila naikot dahil bawat taong makasalamuha ay lubhang mga inosente at nangangapa lamang sa buhay na walang kasiguraduhan.

Nawa'y hindi na maulit ang malungkot na genre ng buhay na ito, bagkus, kaawaan ang kasamaang nanaig sa pusong pinuno ng pagkamasalimuot kahit sa totoo lang ay imposible ito dahil sa pagbabalanse ni Universe sa bagay-bagay. All we can do is to take it as a lesson if may ibang tao na naging ganito sa atin kung nasa Villain era sila, simply detach and motivate yourself to be a Villain of them naman, but with a twist of goodness and righteousness for the both of you and mas pabor syempre sa sarili dahil alam na ang tama sa hindi, not just feeling but by thinking kung ano ang talagang kasalanan na sumasalungat at prinsipyong sablay at wala sa hulog kaya wala rin sa tamang ayos. Wasak ang equilibrium ng individualism at collectivism, ayun naging individualism vs. collectivism.

Clash between two worlds na hindi naman necessary dahil wala naman talagang lalaban at walang kalaban in the first place kung hindi ang mga sarili tapos ang pangit ng delivery ng mga personal demands sa life. 🤣😅

Misunderstood parehong panig kung tutuusin tapos self-righteous world is ang lala ng mga binabatong interpretations. Ay jusmiyo yawa!! XD

Basta may moral grounding ka pa sa buhay ay kaaawaan mo na lang ang mga tulad nilang hindi nakawala sa sistemang gusto nila sila lang ang pakikinggan at susundin. Kung ikaw man ay pending malalang Villain ng masa, mag-isip isip ka na dahil malalang pagsasabotahe ang gagawin mo sa sarili mo dahil magiging katulad ka na ng bagay na kinamumuhian mo. Sige konti pa, destruction occurs and war will follow. Ano gusto mo? Ikaw ang magpapasimula o sila? Kaya mo bang dungisan ang mukha mo kung ikaw man ang magpapasimuno? Sana maayos pang maihatid ang pakikiaklas patungong kalayaang deserve mo, make it a peaceful kind of war. No need for bloodsh3d, sana ano? If may manipulation malala, need ng mga professional na mamamagitan like some mental health therapist or a spiritual counselor kumporme sa personal beliefs for some objective kind of knowledge — an unbiased one. 😅🤣

Ang tanong, sino ang totoong Villain sa inyo? Ikaw na pending bida sa sarili mong buhay (you must reclaim your power) o yung feeling bida at talagang bida-bidang other party na kinamumuhian mo. Good luck investigating that matter. Patulong kayo sa iba (at sana sa iba't ibang prinsipyo para mapag-isipan maigi) if needed para sa balanseng moral grounding while doing the deed. Hehe... 😉🥱

A quote to ponder:

"Being against evil doesn't make you good. Tonight I was against it and then I was evil myself. I could feel it coming just like a tide... I just want to destroy them."

- Ernest Hemingway

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The Eye of the World, Chapter 16 - The Wisdom

(THIS PROJECT IS SPOILER FREE! No spoilers past the chapter you click on. Curious what I'm doing here? Read this post! For the link index and a primer on The Wheel of Time, read this one! Like what you see? Send me a Ko-Fi.)

(Leaves and vine icon)(1) In which attraction is definitely in the air.

The young men enter the inn, and Min draws Rand aside to tell him that the woman that's just arrived is part of "it", what's to happen to all of them, and they're in more danger now that she's here.(2) Rand tells her it's impossible. Thom and Mat get impatient to go see Nynaeve and get this over with, so he leaves Min with a promise that Nynaeve means no harm to them.(3)

They enter the room where Nynaeve and Moiraine are sitting in chilly silence, Nyn tugging at her braid in frustration. Rand walks right in and takes a seat halfway between them, and the rest follow suit slowly. Lan and Moiraine are curious how Nynaeve found them. To this she replies that she can track as well as any man in the Two Rivers, and she followed their trail, though there was nowhere for them to go except Baerlon. Lan compliments her, saying few can track a trail he's taken pains to cover. She gets embarrassed and hides in her cup of wine.(4)

Moiraine asks Nynaeve to answer some of her questions, and Nyn asks why she should answer any questions or keep any of their secrets. Thom points out that the Whitecloaks would swarm the inn like angry bees if they knew what Mo was, and take the young folks with her for questioning.(5) Nyn points out that's just one more reason for the kids to come home with her. She doesn't believe a word of their story that the Trollocs are chasing the boys. There's some uproar as each in turn asks what their guardians thought of their leaving, and Nyn reiterates that they're all worried about the kids.

Rand speaks up to say that none of this changes anything. They need to keep going on. Nyn is about to tell him off, when Mo says that her use of the Power gives her protection. None of them can be hurt by a Myrddraal near her, and Lan can sense Trollocs a quarter mile away.

Mo asks Egwene to take everyone else and leave. They go out into the hall, Lan relaxing against the door once the rest move far enough away not to overhear. Thom keeps going to perform, and the youngins settle quietly.

When Nyn opens the door, some time later, Lan goes in past her, and she glares at Rand, who realizes the others have all slipped off while he was lost in thought. Nyn sees Rand, and she seems to accept that they think they need to leave, though she still hopes to convince them to come home.

Nyn says Rand has grown when he asks why she's there, and not someone else. She's as important to the town as the mayor. She tells him that the town was split on what to do about them, and she could see that it would be at least another day before they came to any decision. She knew somehow that it couldn't wait that long, so she came herself.(6)

Rand asks what Mo said in the room, and Nyn says more of the same, and she wanted to know if the boys were all born in Emond's Field, or if any was born away. Rand laughs nervously and says he hopes she assured Mo they were all born in the town. Nyn hesitates only a little before saying yes, of course. Rand realizes that if Nyn knows, then Tam's fever mumbling was true. He tells her what he heard from Tam, and she says that Tam left when he was Rand's age, and came back with a wife and a child, and Kari al'Thor looked at Rand with all the love any parent ever had for a child.(7)

Rand asks what Nyn is going to do next, and she says she's going to have a bath, and see about the rest.

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(1) A leaf, like woodcraft and tracking and Nynaeve's herbal remedies. (2) Oho, so Nynaeve was introduced as she was for a reason. What part do you think she has to play, besides the protective older sibling? (3) Clearly Nynaeve hasn't taken quite the precautions Lan and Moiraine did on her way north, she certainly wasn't likely to have done something like bribe Hightower, the ferryman, so that he wouldn't tell anyone where she'd gone. Make no wonder that Min's visions say they're in more danger with Nynaeve caught up to them: her goals didn't involve staying hidden, they only involved taking her kids home. (4) Nyn's not the only one a little flustered. Lan is quite shocked she could find anything to follow. And he paid her and her late father a compliment, unmitigated by criticism. (5) Since when does Thom defend Moiraine and her reputation? He's been her biggest critic on this trip so far, but here he is, defending her and her Warder and far too vehemently to be just for the sake of the kids. One of my favourite theories is how Ali on the Wheel Takes podcast has shipped Thom and Moiraine since Mo's "Master Bard" comment back in Emond's Field, it's subtle but there are pieces there to see if you put on 'shipper glasses for a minute. (6) So Mo waltzes into town and calls Nyn a child, hitting the pressure point she's already got sore from being in a position of authority so young for several years and looking young besides. Then Mo and the boys and Egg, Nyn's own apprentice, disappear in the night, and you might see here how Nyn is very much in the line of Terry Pratchett's witches as a Wisdom, since she protects what's hers, dangit. If the councils were gonna take too long, she was gonna take it upon herself to do the right thing and drag those troublesome youngsters back herself. Make no wonder why she's angry at Mo, but also look how soft she is with Rand after! (7) Blood isn't all that makes family. It's one factor that can contribute. Whether or not Rand was adopted, it makes no difference to how he was and is loved by his dad. I love how the story makes absolutely no question or ambiguity out of this.

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I just learned about the Save One, Drop One game so I'm going to try it out! Here's the video for the Exo edition.

I made some choices I did not expect I would make. I actually think the toughest decisions are between two songs I don't care for lol. The only time I really struggled between two songs I really liked was #60 .

Cream Soda vs. Lotto

Artificial Love vs. The Eve

Private Party vs. Ooh La La La

Butterfly Effect vs. White Noise

Candy (Baekhyun) vs. Bambi (Baekhyun)

Love Shot vs. Tempo

Hurt vs. Baby Don't Cry

Paradise vs. Touch It

Blooming Days (CBX) vs. Hey Mama! (CBX)

One and Only vs. What If..

Monster vs. Obsession

Oasis vs. Runaway

Trauma vs. CInderella

She's Dreaming vs. Fall

Jekyll vs. Going Crazy

Rover (Kai) vs. Mmmh (Kai)

Black Pearl vs. Machine

Unfair vs. The First Snow

Forever vs. Sign

Stronger vs. Lights Out

Call Me Baby vs. Love Me Right

Hear Me Out vs. Boomerang

Gravity vs. Baby You Are

El Dorado vs. Diamond

Promise vs. Cosmic Railway

Mama vs. History

Trouble vs. Damage

Chill vs. Cloud 9

Beautiful vs. Baby

Rose (D.O.) vs. Beautiful Goodbye (Chen)

Electric Kiss vs. Coming Over

Love Fool vs. Tender Love

Can't Bring Me Down vs. Transformer

Been Through vs. Let Me In

Non Stop vs. Heaven

What a Life (SC) vs. 1 Billion Views (SC)

Ya Ya Ya vs. Regret It

Smile on my face vs. Walk on memories

Power vs. Don't Fight the Feeling

Exodus vs. Lady Luck

Stay vs. With You

Ko Ko Bop vs. Growl

Love Again (Baekhyun) vs. Cry For Love (Baekhyun)

24/7 vs. Sweet Lies

Universe vs. Sing For You

Brand New (Xiumin) vs. Hurdle (Suho)

No Makeup vs. Groove

Playboy vs. Thunder

Bad Dream vs. They Never Know

Lightsaber vs. Overdose

Beautiful (Baekhyun) vs. Stay With Me (Chanyeol, Punch)

What U Do? vs. Another Day

For Life vs. Miracles in December

Ka-Ching! (CBX) vs. Horololo (CBX)

Don't Go vs. Lucky

Monodrama (Lay) vs. Curtain (Suho)

Lovin' You Mo vs. Into My World

Peaches (Kai) vs. UN Village (Baekhyun)

Lucky One vs. Dancing King (feat. Yoo Jaesuk)

Just as Usual vs. Day After Day

We Young (SC) vs. Young (Baekhyun, Loco)

[dexterortega]

10 FILIPINO UNCOMMON WORDS 1. Sulatraniko - A means or system for transmitting messages electronically (as between computers on a network)

Halimbawa: Pinadalhan ko ng sulatroniko ang kompanyang gusto kong pasukan. 2. Salipapaw - A powered heavier-than-air aircraft with fixed wings from which it derives most of its lift. Halimbawa: Namangha ako sa laki nung unang beses kong makita ang mga salipapaw sa paliparan 3. Panginain - A computer program used for accessing sites or information on a network (such as the World Wide Web). Halimbawa: Sinubukan kong buksan ang panginain ng aking kapatid upang tingnang kasaysayan ngunit wala akong nakita. 4. Lantay - Free from moral or guilt. Halimbawa: Naaalala ko pa noon nung isang lantay na bata pa lamang ako, miss ko na ang mga araw na iyon.

5. Marilag - Having an attractive quality that gives pleasure to those who experience it or think about it. Halimbawa: Isang marilag na tungkos ang binigay sa isang binibini noong araw nang mga puso. 6. Awangan - Unlimited extent of time, space, or quantity. Halimbawa: Hindi magbabago at awanggan ang pagmamahal ko sa’yong pagkatao. 7. Panghiso - A brush for cleaning the teeth. Halimbawa: Bumili si Immaneg ng soft-bristled na panghiso 8. Dumatal - Reach a place at the end of a journey or a stage in a journey. Halimbawa: Dumatal na ang in-order mong pagkainsa Mcdonalds. 9. Kalantare -  Is a social and sometimes sexual activity involving verbal or written communication as well as body language by one person to another, either to suggest interest in a deeper relationship with the other person, or if done playfully, for amusement. Halimbawa: Akala mo true love na, yun pala kalantare ka lang niya. 10. Baro - Is manufactured fiber and textile material worn on the body. Halimbawa: Nagpalit siya ng kanyang baro dahil basang basa siya ng pawis.

[tsukiyadori]

Reading Log 2024.05 - May

Previous: Reading Log 2024.04 - April

Trying to grasp the moon. Wonder if anyone would ever want to come over to my moon? Maybe we can try grasping it together?

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Reading languages: German, English, French, Japanese, not listing which was what. (There's also been some feeble attempts at Chinese.)

Titles are as I’ve read them either first or most and thus remember it for that title mostly

Not going to bother putting in the original titles of translated reads unless there is something worthy of note to it

Cursive titles have been completed

If it says a volume number it may mean it has been finished or is still in progress

Some notes’ content may be subject to repetition here and there, as I also copied some older notes from casual conversations over and didn’t go through any rounds of cutting things down.

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MAY

JNC (English) puts A Pale Moon Reverie into this month' Catchup Lineup, so there goes a subscription. You gotta make most use the buffet, do you?

I still failed to finish trying out all that was in the catchup...

Also struggled with the JNC Nina deadlines

The JNC quota of my monthly reads have not been counted, but they must make a notable percentage.

What does that tell me again? I get the most things done with a deadline leash.

The distinction between LN/WN regular novels is a bit fuzzy this time due to the potion of Rosmei previews...

Light Novels/Web Novels/Novels:

A Pale Moon Reverie v1-2

At the World’s Mercy Rosmei Preview

Brunhild v3p1

By the Grace of Gods LN v14

Chillin’ in Another World with Level 2 Super Cheat Powers v1ch1-2

Don't You Like Me Rosmei Preview

Fushi no Kami v1

Hell Mode v3p4-6

How to Survive as a Villain Novel Rosmei preview ch1-5

How to Survive as a Villain Novel ch137-235

Is It Wrong to Try to Pick Up Girls in a Dungeon? v10

Kaleidoscope of Death Rosmei Preview

Marriage, Divorce, and Beyond: The White Mage and Black Knight's Romance Reignited v1p1-v2p1-6

Mushoku Tensei v1p7-8

Nanchan Rosmei Preview

The Defectives Rosmei Preview

The Earth Is Online Rosmei Preview

The Killer of Killers Rosmei Preview

The Rebirth Of The General Who Always Sees Himself As A Replacement ch1

The Saint's Magic Power is Omipotent LN v3p7-8

Unnamed Memory LN v1p2-5

Wolf and Parchment v5-6

Zilbagias the Demon Prince: How the Seventh Prince Brought Down the Kingdom v1p1-5

Manga:

12 Jahre v18

A Livid Lady's Guide to Getting Even: How I Crushed My Homeland with My Mighty Grimoires (Manga) v2ch7-11

An Archdemon's (Friend's) Dilemma: How to Babysit a Crybaby Knight ch1-5

An Archdemon's Dilemma: How to Love Your Elf Bride v1-10, ch52-54, ch60-63

Are You Okay with a Slightly Older Girlfriend? ch16.3-21

Arte ch86-87

Bibi & Miyu v1ch5

Buta no Liver wa Kanetsushiro ch36.1-2

Daijuukou to Unicornis no Otome ch15.2

Dead Mount Death Play v6

Dekiru Neko wa Kyou mo Yuuutsu ch109, ch88-91

Domestic na Kanojo v9-11

Endo and Kobayashi Live! The Latest on Tsundere Villainess Lieselotte (Manga) ch1, ch6, ch10, ch14, ch18, v5ch23-26

Everyday Escape v1-4

Fragtime v1-2

Girl Crush ch85-87

Hari to Hitsuji no Fune ch10.2

Heart Gear ch4-10

How I Attended an All-Guy's Mixer ch5-16

I'm a Noble on the Brink of Ruin, So I Might as Well Try Mastering Magic (Manga) ch1-5

Is Love the Answer? ch1

Isekai de Ane ni Namae wo Ubawaremashita ch18.2-4

Just Because I Love You

Kakan no Oukoku no Hanagirai Hime ch13.2-13.3

Knitter's High ch27.3-4

Living With My Brother's Wife ch49-65

Loop 7-kaime no Akuyaku Reijou wa, Moto Tekikoku de Jiyuu Kimama na Hanayome Seikatsu wo Mankitsusuru ch32

My Not-So-Fair Lady is Doomed! (But Not If I Can Help It) ch4.2-9.2

My Unexpected Marriage ch10.3-14

Nagiko no Hanashi (re-read)

Okazari Ouhi ni Nattanode, Kossori Hataraki ni deru koto ni Shimashita ~Usagi ga Iru no de Hitorine mo Sabishiku Arimasen!~ ch26.5-6

Oshi no Ko ch145-147

Shinde Miro to Iwareta no de Shinimashita. ch11-12

Shuumatsu Touring ch38.1-3

Sleeping Moon v1

Solange wir zusammen sind v8

Sonna Kazoku nara Sutechaeba? ch68sample, ch69sample, ch70sample, ch70-71

Suicide Notes Laid on the Table ch35.2-50

The 6th Loop: I'm Finally Free of Auto Mode in this Otome Game ch3.3-10

The Girl I Like Forgot Her Glasses ch81-99

Unnamed Memory ch37.1

With the Light v1

Webtoons:

Closer Heartbeat ch0-1

Fall in the Night with You ch74-101

Ice Lamp: The Chronicles of Kira ch49-51

Taberare Usa ch102-105

The Goddess of Healing ch80-92

The Silent Concubine ch1-32

To be or not be ch95-101

Notes:

A Pale Moon Reverie v1-2: What a gob smack disappointment. I really (really) do like Unnamed Memory, but this thing from the same author is just… doing everything UN does right, not all that right. I'm kind of… just astonished. And makes me a bit wary of the rest of the author, which I had planned to buy and read in JP if it doesn't get licensed.

A Livid Lady's Guide to Getting Even: How I Crushed My Homeland with My Mighty Grimoires (Light Novel) v1: It's interesting how the hook is basically identical to 7th Time Loop, but the route it goes down is already so completely Anti-Fluff as can be. The hook is easily the least interesting thing, as it's a complete dumpster trope by now, but so far MC doesn't feel like a bad person per se, or more like not even really a person, but more like a completely OP mirror. She does not set out to do evil, but if you do her bad, she will reflect it, as she would honor you doing her good. And then the world is full of evil and incompetence, so it just winds up her mirroring all the mud and dirt of it. Which creates all the more of it in the process.

That's very much an Anti-Fluff spiral and kinda somewhat uncomfortable…. Tho, she remains a badass female MC with some brains and guts at least.

I think another issue probably is. This whole revenge objective. It's not even really feeling like it's genuinely her own. It came from her servant, who had a moment of being passionately full of hate. And she was like "oh you're right" and just adapted it. So she really just feels like a mirror, absorbing and reflecting what crosses her path. And she's unlucky that apparently she's not granted the blessing of meeting anything fluff on her way.

I suppose another bit that makes her very different to Rishe from 7th Time Loop is that Rishe got her OP cheat skills over time though effort and maturity, and she got it all through teachers who were nice enough to take her in. In this one's case, she is simply a prodigy, and it all came from herself. She knows modesty by advantage/disadvantage calculation, etiquette not really having any real innate greed and pride, but there is also a sense of natural condescension that comes out of it towards anyone else, even if she can honor people doing things for her.

German first impressions:

Uffz. Das Inciting Incident ist praktisch 1:1 identisch zu 7th Time Loop, aber die Route, die das hier einschlägt ist so Anti-Fluff wie es nur irgendwie sein kann. :NotLikeThis:

Es ist dabei nicht nur "nicht fluff" sondern geradewegs anti-fluff.

Die MC, mal abgesehen, dass sie viel zu OP ist, sie wirkt ein bisschen wie nicht wirklich wie ein Mensch, sondern eher eine Art gut geölte Maschine + ein Spiegel. Sie reflektiert quasi alles, was ihr widerfährt irgendwie in gleicher Art, und offenkundig hat sie nie was Fluff oder wirklich emotional Gutes erfahren, jenseits von Loyalität, die sie erfährt, weil sie es sich irgendwie erarbeitet hat. Und sie reflektiert das irgendwie und dabei verstärkt sie es noch mehr, was am Ende zu einer Spirale von evil begets evil führt. Und dann ist sie dabei auch noch vollkommen methodisch, effizient, ohne jedes Mitleid oder Verständnis für irgendwelche Motivationen, die dazu geführt haben, dass ihr widerfuhr was ihr widerfuhr (obwohl sie es z.T. auch genau weiß) und das wäre noch eine Sache, aber ihre ganze Rache fühlt sich nicht mal richtig emotional an (so wie bei Brundhild oder so), sondern geradezu Secondhand übernommen, nachdem die Dienerin einen emotionalen Rant voller Hass ob der Ungerechtigkeit (und auch Mitgefühl) abgelassen hat. Buchstäblich quasi "oh you're right" und dann zieht sie, ohne mit der Wimpern zu zucken ihre Konsequenz daraus und alle, die ihr im Weg stehen, kümmert sie nicht, egal was.

KA, irgendwie wirkt sie wie ein leeres Gefäß voller Skills, Wissen, Etikette und Macht. Sie hatte ihren Job, den hat sie wunderbar gemacht, wurde dafür aber nie honoriert und dann wurde der infrage gestellt und sie hat die Rache zu ihrem neuen Job gemacht und das ist irgendwie alles, was sie ausmacht und sie scheint auch nicht das geringste Interesse zu haben daran, großartig was zu ändern.

Am Ende vom Band ist sie geradezu teuflisch, aber irgendwie auch, das Teuflische wurde erst erweckt durch Missetaten und irgendwie ist das so eine Dynamik, die nur das Schlechte vom und im Menschen weiter propagiert.

Fushi no Kami v1: The Maika side of things are still extraordinary uninteresting. Unfortunately, you can't exactly skip them. Probably.

Marriage, Divorce, and Beyond: The White Mage and Black Knight's Romance Reignited v1p1, v2p1-6: Maybe skipping the rest of v1 because streaming has expired was not the most bright thing there, but it somehow worked out still decently fine??

Mushoku Tensei v1 finished: Aaand somehow there's now yet another pervy guy.

Side character: "He reminds me a lot of you [….] like stealing underwear or watching me while changing […] Maybe all heroes are just sex-addicted?"

This series is really…..

How to have some good moments and then just throw of pervy curveball to ruin it, and then it gets better again and yet another curveball….

It's kind of interesting how at first I thought it structurally was very much Hell Mode, but now I was thinking structurally it's a lot like Fushi no Kami, but obviously both are younger so much rather they got inspired the other way round.

Fushi no Kami's switches of PoV are definitely more obnoxious, tho. Cheese striken Maika is for the trash bin, but here there's a strange comicalness to it in MT.

The Rebirth Of The General Who Always Sees Himself As A Replacement ch1: From the same author of How to Survive as a Villain. I had read the beginning of the webtoon, but wasn't exactly wowed, but the novel is coming around with poetry, idioms and literature and everything, and I'm already liking it a hundred-fold more just because of this and how it's used to depict the MC's inner turmoil.

An Archdemon's Dilemma: How to Love Your Elf Bride v1-10, ch52-54, ch60-63: Sooo, this was also in the JNC May Catchup list.

Me, before reading: Nothing but a doubtful stare.

But I was being told it it would have fluff, and that came from the same one who made me read Otonari, so....

Me, upon noticing I've been binging this rather fast:

Me upon finding out, I'm liking this, despite, let's say a bit of a wacky beginning: (It screams cheese! It screams it!!)

If A Pale Moon Reverie was a complete flop, reading this directly afterwards immediately amortized the JNC subscription all on its already. And then it was pwoerful enough that sorta everything else tasted staler and worse than it actually was so I needed several days of a reading break to avoid souring me on the other stuff.

The series' primary draw definitely are the masses of good faces (especially Chastille is Lady Good Faces), but even behind that it has a really strong going Found Family aspect to it and while the romance bit is there from the beginning and a central part to it all, it considerably overlaps with found family in its most foundational aspects, which makes it that much less just your ordinary cheese. (And they are kinda doing things backwards, that's also a nice pattern I vastly prefer, but is seen all too rarely.) I also like it how the series has the girl coming from the slave trope, but quickly ties over all the apparent submission into a deeper going characterization and turns it all on its head. She is definitely not your a naive innocent something, not an obedient, subservient damsel in distress, if she exhibits it, it's out of self-loathing and self-punishment and there is a component of active choice and agency to it. And that conversation between her and Chastille about how she refuses to stand at the frontline (despite actually being more than qualified to be there), because she has decided upon which role she considers to be most needed by her and therefore leaves the frontline part to Chastille was such a great way to avoid the trap of both Damsel in Distress or OP Mary Sue. How she's fairly wary of her powers also implies an additional reason why she chooses to continue wearing the mana-sealing neck-chocker (and thus not engage with sorcery on top of her mysticism) aside it from being basically their the engagement ring-replacement. (Altho, her wearing it while confronting an unknown demon alone that turned out to be an archdemon may have been a bit silly.) Chastille's holding it somewhat together while on clock vs. a bit of a hopeless idiot when clocked out is also a streak I find, uhm, hitting a bit too home. She is a great dork in any case. The only thing that did me more in were the good question mark faces. Like, they are glorious. And despite all the dorks, fluff and compf, the thing also has an actual plot to follow, that is both having acute stakes (due to danger baring it fangs already), but also not (because no one knows about any sort of concrete time limit beyond it's coming). And there is a whole mystery component surrounding not only that, but characters themselves as well. The romance aspect comes off as downright simple in comparison, and that also makes for a decent balancing off the scales that gives even the more regular simpleton romance elements more flavor.

But in any case:

Question mark faces ftw!

And Chastille

is just adorkable.

Also this is such a mood, aside from the question marks:

An Archdemon's (Friend's) Dilemma: How to Babysit a Crybaby Knight ch1-5: This guy's dense, an airhead and a tsundere. Also, he's already very much done for. The spin-off is also having a fine amount of good faces, but beyond that I still find it a bit lacking. In part because the side characters aren't as engaging and the two MCs don't exactly have as much freedom for development due to constraints in the main plot (where still nothing much as happened). And kinda, it lacks a proper plot of its own to draw you in.

But it also has Lady Good Faces. And maybe it needs not be more. (It just makes me not so sure about its re-read value.)

"Erm, I'm... not here to listen to your lovey-dovey talk, am I?"

Domestic na Kanojo v9-11: I still do not know what I am reading, beyond that it is definitely a series about a bunch of idiots.

Reactions per volume as they were being read:

Volume 9: Somebody please isekai them to a place where bigamy is legal already…

While at Volume 10: This author really seems to have a thing for lingerie… The ecchi situations are a bit much atm, I'm stuck with this book for 3 days already :NotLikeThis:

As in the sense of them being extraordinarily dumb and feeling artificial. Like if Rui goes to undress herself while telling the guy to not look and then withdraws without him ever knowing that's kinda fine, it's clearly for the reader, but it's still making sense in character.

But like the whole thing around Rui's father's new daughter-in-law with the tripping and everything is just =_=

(Also the hell you go to shower yourself without preparing towels and change of cloth, or if you were dumb enough to forget, then just tell them to leave the room and get it yourself, instead of screaming kyaaa and hitting the other for being a pervert, draahhhh)

Across v11: [An assortment of screaming idiot at just about any of them one after another]

Endo and Kobayashi Live! The Latest on Tsundere Villainess Lieselotte (Manga) ch1, ch6, ch10, ch14, ch18, v5ch23-26: Good Faces and lots of tsundere tsun tsun, and I'll probably complete reading this (will it drop in a catchup maybe?), but I worry about its re-read value or general amount of being memorable. Considering how I could jump all those gaps and not feel too much like I missed out on a lot of plot, so there is that…

I still laughed at this.

Everyday Escape v1-4: It has nice covers. The art is decent and pretty at places. Its content for me, however, is kinda for the garbage trash bin. (Right, you can't get the feels of winter in summer, so turn the air conditioning on to freeze, and then turn on a heater, because it's too cold? Excuse me?) Also, I feel like I picked it up thinking it was GL, but if anything it's just GL-bait.

Fragtime v1-2: I didn't know anything about it beyond the Anime movie key illustration used as the Blu-ray cover, so kinda read into this blindly. From the manga covers I did not expect anything too great, but it was to a surprising level kinda garbage yet again. (What up witht eh GL grabs this month being bad ones?) Peeking panties in any case was not something I expected…

Girl Crush ch85-87: Tenka is great, but now there are even more clear signs of a budding potential romance and between her and that guy, that may get to be a male lead or not, there's now a very interesting dynamic: She's kinda tsundere to him and only him and part of it is she can't help it because his character's obnoxiousness just provokes it and in part because he's a total tsundere himself hiding behind arrogance (which has substance to it, as he is capable however) and she just does him the favor to be just like that in turn. He clearly enjoys it. And to her, it in a way widens her horizon as well as being silly like that just puts away the tension she tends to build up herself. This is a pretty interesting dynamic.

Is Love the Answer? ch1: Read the German sample as it came out, which is ch1. It's still good and authentic, but also just makes my face muscles go rather grumpy.

Isekai de Ane ni Namae wo Ubawaremashita ch18.2-4: These two totally are going openly dorks from now on, now that the cat is out of the sack.

Loop 7-kaime no Akuyaku Reijou wa, Moto Tekikoku de Jiyuu Kimama na Hanayome Seikatsu wo Mankitsusuru ch32: Pouts. Pouty Pouts!!

My Unexpected Marriage ch10.3-14: This… could have been so much more interesting. It had all the good ingredients, but in the end it just served up a decent, but nevertheless rather standard narrative dish, tho I am not particularly surprised, as it seemed more simple from the get-go. The court intrigue was still decently wrapped up, although it does feel a little bit anticlimactic. (And to have a fortune-teller have actual supernatural abilities was rather unneeded, especially as he was kinda painted and implied as a gross pedophile at first.) The entire supernatural bit at the end was kinda weird, but oh well.

To have a tsundere mother-in-law was definitely a kinda very interesting dynamic and the thing I'll probably remember from it most.

Nagiko no Hanashi (re-read): It's still just great, but this time I realized, having read Archdemon right before it: It also has the sort of good cute question mark faces! Apparently that latent preference has been there since forever, I just didn't notice??

Sonna Kazoku nara Sutechaeba? ch68sample, ch69sample, ch70sample, ch70-71: Ok, me messing up the time limited free reading deadlines yeet again and the gaps are not going it any good, but it's rather interesting where this has gone. The initial hook and premise is solved, for the time being at least, but the arc that is now ongoing is kinda dark in its own different way. I unfortunately missed the chapters where the new teacher characters explained themselves, but it really now has a plot surrounding someone nonbinary who has a few issues about that, while there's also somebody else with some entirely different issues herself, will be interesting where this is going.

Suicide Notes Laid on the Table ch35.2-50: finished. The ending twist reminds me a bit of Be My Slave in its mood, it has a sense of something quietly sinister but at the same time still being really human in its own way on the character, who turns out to be quite different from what was painted and then overturned twice.

The lesson it comes out with is still a nice thing, while also not and somehow it leaves me with a similar feeling Piece ~Kanojo no Kioku~ left me as well: That inconspicuous character has kinda ruined somebody else's life with their lack of care and manipulations, but also it was the ruined persons own choice as well to a good extent, and to a considerable number of people the learnings coming from the incident probably may stick and improve their life, although, you definitely can't do anything about human nature in itself either. And that's also interesting to just observe.

With the Light v1: The English omnibus vols are definitely bricks. I had read v1 in JP before, and it has been on the back of my mind from time to time, but I can see that this series will take a while to read. While it's informative and interesting in a learning something you maybe didn't know already way, it's also kinda just so very unpleasant to read, too. So far, at least.

How to Survive as a Villain Novel ch137-235: How to just shy away of reading the last chapter, because you don't want it to end, but then also you've long since read it anyway, because while reading you read out of order. So technically I had finished it already at ch223. In any case, everything I blurbed about it last month still holds. Xiao YuAn really is about as aroace as you can be at the beginning and even after he notices how important Yan HeQing is to him, he's just approaching the things is more directed by his rather misguided ideas of being that tyrannical president (that he never wanted to be, that is against his nature, but he still is proficient enough to be… until Yan HeQin who naturally is the real thing takes over). Like, aside from suggesting they could just have sex for him to "find out", he's also talking about it like "And then we do the things we should be doing". Should be doing? And there is this bit in the fan translation that has him consider him "attractive", but the Chinese word is more like dazzling. And it still just feels all too aesthetic whenever he looks at him and has his eyes stolen, because he's just, well, so dazzling. And then he also seems to jump at doing things spicy for reasons like, he knows Yan HeQing is weak to his seductions, so it seemed like a go to way for him for distracting from the thing at hand or a means of reconciliation, or later it sounds more like it's just become a habitual activity, and he feels "nostalgic" about it, and then maybe because he doesn't have this hunger and appetite he goes and does all the strange ideas he has about it and a playful way. It just comes off very different to Yan HeQing who really is very horny, knows it and therefore keeps trying to restrain himself. What, in the end, I find most interesting: it works out regardless. So at the end of the day: Same difference. And the series makes a good case just how much it complements each other's flaws or gives them what they need most in their life, even if some other aspects they may have liked as well may fall short of it. The novel also has none of the things I felt like were lacking when I finished the webtoon. I still find myself wanting more of it, the characters and the world, even as the main plot is over. And if the extra bonus stories prove, the characters alone are engaging even without an overarching big main story plot hanging around.

Also in terms of Isekai: I find is very pleasant that the narrative never flaunts Xiao YuAn's modern life knowledge as cheat skills. Something that gets frequently used to drive the plots forward in the genre otherwise. The extras do shortly reveal that he makes use of them, like suggesting the imperial exam system ancient has had, but other than that, the only modern knowledge ever gets to be shown is his first aid for saving Xiao Fengyue. Usually it's just his songs and weird words nobody understands that make him a oddball for the rest, but as for the narrative, trying to blend in bits of modern civilization does not drive it whatsoever, but character relationships and politics.

Speaking of him singing, the amount of poetry and idioms or also contemporal slang and tropes just needs another mention. I really do like how every single emotionally tangent thing is expressed in classic literature quotes. You have trouble to express things in your own words? Maybe just let the masters of old do it for you. It's not a new thing, is it? (And they still talk and act on their own, too.) Xiao YuAn's self realization and the nature of his love and how it was just there, there never was a start proper, but simply has sunk into his bones to notice some when just seems even more plausible with there not being any sort of Love at First sight for him, or any of the overtly deep infatuation and cravings that otherwise usually get sung and talked about over and over.

I am also quite interested how this will be translated officially:

Also, I finally found all the footnotes together, well, bar one, which I know on my own I think. (The Internet Archive ftw. Why didn't I think about this from the beginning?)

Anyway, Rosmei's official Singapore English one is coming next month or so, will be fun to have another re-read.

To be or not be/How to Survive as a Villain Webtoon ch95-101: Uh, well, this is a case of you read something liked it quite well enough, then read another version, and then it just falls from your graces a bit… And one of the scenes I found hilarious (the bit about Zhang Changson caughing because he knows they were doing the spicy stuff last night), suddenly makes no sense whatsoever. Yan HeQing wouldn't have done that and then even go to overtly humiliate him by spanking his butt, or like running away from him, leaving him alone all night while knowing he can't sleep without the breathing sounds. And them having done it already before he came back in his new body being all like he wants to sleep with him, also comes off considerably more different. (Like one is, he just comes off as irresponsibly unreasonably horny. While the other is he'd otherwise he'd regret it, especially if he considers it something that he should be doing. And then he's using the entire speech to mentally torment the guards and just generally he as a habit of elevating his anxiety of talking distracting nonsense.) Or like he realized his feelings, because he couldn't imagine Yan HeQing being with a woman? Oh come on, after all the shipping attempts and thinking it to be the natural state of things for him to have his harem? Mere jealousy as a realization trigger makes no sense at all here and more than that it really comes off as trite compared to how he realized it only in the cave in a life and death situation and the prospect of maybe loosing him for good and really really not wanting it.

It's still good when it's good tho, some other bits were just cut in a too bad way and I reaaaaalllly would have preferred the other extras over the AU arc, but oh well. The first third is still good and on the whole also what got me to the novel and that one has opened some gates to getting interested in Chinese stuff generally, something that has lingered in the back of my mind behind a bit of a blockade, so just that alone is a pretty enormous thing.

The Goddess of Healing ch80-92: The two MCs are just such nice fluffy dorks.

The Silent Concubine ch1-32: I saw this on the Monogatari Novels webpage (the publisher that licensed up How to Survive a Villain's webtoon for English release, but still has yet to release anything in English.) Then I noticed it's also up on Comikey, to trying it out it be. Uuuuh. So the premise is kinda the same as The Male Bride (aka Lala no Kekkon), but unlike The Male Bride which has ostensibly the MC make his own choices only to then get drugged, sexually assaulted, kinda confined only to then reveal his agency was fake, because he was being all kinda manipulated in it, while the other guy ostensibly is also a good guy at heart, just the other one is way to seductive to him so he's frequently out of his mind (i.e. your usual questionable BL tropes), this one……….. has all that, but it doesn't even try to put things in a better light. Things are happening to MC Shen Yu, because he's mute and thus disabled, because he's poor and at the mercy of those in power. He never had a real choice in the matter. And so his being all subservient is a literal matter of survival rather than just the trope. Even his winding up going all happy and romanticizing both the guy and his circumstances seems more like Stockholm Syndrome proper and desperately trying to find the silver lining in the hell he's stuck in, and it's delusive, and the plot never even tries to paint it differently.

And the other guy is a cruel, controlling, violent man and he stays it. He just finds out, that if he stays as cruel, his gonna break his latest concubine whom he finds himself drawn to, so he goes and does a few uncharacteristic nice things to keep him safe or humor him, but quickly enough the narrative makes it very clear: He did that with expectations. Nothing about it changes his fundamental nature. Of him looking down on everyone else, of him thinking that MC being subservient is what is to be expected. Ultimately, the romanticized dream pops as exactly that, just a dream. And Shen Yu actually goes to set out finding real agency using everything he can use, despite his handicaps. Which makes things interesting, because the plot is a power struggle between the Male Lead and the emperor, but at the same time it's also a power struggle between him and MC Shen Yu and also an internal conflict inside the latter, because of lingering attachment to the man that doesn't exactly do him good, but still gave him a few things he needed and wanted most in his life for the first time (and still isn't really getting from anyone). At the beginning I thought this was going to go terrible things happen, but the oh so holy grail of love is gonna reform the heinously cruel Male Lead and then everything's good afterward despite all the terror inflicted in the beginning. It put that one on its head, at least so far. It's quite an interesting read, but it's also rather very toxic in all the ways that be.

But then it also wrecks pouts like these:

Which looks almost like an entirely different series. Well, I suppose it's a scene from the middle of the delusive dream era.

Artwise it's solid, but it does seem to take 'shortcuts' by using real life images thrown through some filter and sometimes not even that, which at times feels a bit weird, because those and the drawings themselves don't always blend too well.

[benefits1986]

Kids or No Kids?

My dad seems to have his high hopes again. Kinikilig pa rin daw pala ako sa lalaki. I told him that it was just a basketball game and that it's purely transactional. I gave in to his banat this time around. Happy ako e and getting better na rin though pagod and brain fog pa rin. I asked, "Dad, seryoso bang iniisip mong may chance na mag-anak ako. 37 na ako." He replied, "Oo naman. Nanay ko nga 45 'yung bunso e. Ikaw pa ba? Saka puwede pa 'yan." I followed up with, "So, kung bibigyan kita ng apo, lalaki ba o babae?" Dad immediately whacked me saying, "Lalaki at babae." DAFUDGE. Hahahahaha. Okay. Bukas na bukas din, magpapabuntis na ako since wala naman akong porblema sa pagiging runaway single parent. Sana lang kamukha ko kasi ako ang nagpasan ng daigdig. Honestly, parang 'yun ang mas practical route. Parang mas sustainable kasi sanay naman akong gumapang sa lusak at umiyak-tawa sa complications ng life and beyond. Get laid. Get a baby. Raise a baby. Hustle. Breakdown. Bawi. Laban. Repeat. CHZ. Puwede rin naman patanggal ko na uterus ko bukas na bukas din. Para tapos na. Or puwedeng matupad wish ko na mag-menopause na for realzzzz. Ang tagal. Inip na inip na ako. LOL. My soul sister and have been talking about our quest to a NO KID adult life. She's happily married while I'm trying to give love another good chance (SHEMAYYYY. Nakakatakot.) Ako, nasa part na feeling ko talaga hindi ko kayang umire as in baka mamatay ako as an overthinker. Siya naman andun na sa after ng ire. Sabi ko mas advanced pa siya sa akin so I guess that's progress. :D LELS.

As we're in our "heal the inner children" era along with countless millennials and Gen X (kahit ayaw nilang aminin na may issues sila sa inner child nila) so, pasok na sa CHILD or CHILDREN 'yun 'di ba? Alagaan muna namin at pastulin. LELS.

And so, we're on a mega deduction and inductive reasoning like our Philo 101 class about why we choose not to have kids. Syempre, enter our favorite... because women take the larger shit pile kahit na super okay pa nung partner mo. Motherhood is not for all even though it is a rudimentary part of the social fiber. Not to dim the light of fatherhood ha. We're not as crass as before. LOL. I told you, I am trying. CHZ. Pero, now, moms usually need and want a life on top of unpaid work aka the shit show called career. HAHAHAHA. While it's actually ideal to have a mom inside a house to build a healthy, happy and humble home, it's but a rarity these days na may babaeng ultimate dream ang maging housewife. Even typing it is ugh. I remember cringing every time I write "housewife" sa occupation ng nanay ko. Hindi ko talaga nilalagay na N/A or none kasi I feel that being a housewife is a career path on its own; unpaid, horrid and self-shitting. 'Di ba? Parang any work lang din siya, but wait... ang KPI ng nanay walang kapantay. Society and its state, one kid at a time. So, motherhood success metrics don't compare to ANY job in the market; kahit 6 or 7 figures pa net annual income mo. Tabi.

Naniniwala akong dapat sa era na 'to or in my next lifetime, iba na dapat ang thinking and doing ng madlang people. Making a home should be a two-way street. Ayaw natin ng one-way in every sense of the word. Haha. Raising kids should be a collaborative session 24/7. Supposing co-parenting or may partner ka etong scenarios na 'to. Parenting must not be a nod to social constructs. It must be a constant choice and an everyday hustle. Kids must not be retirement plans, in the same manner that they should not be an instrument of parents with shit shows that they dress to the nines.

Ergo, ekis. LOL. Kasi ako, gusto ko na lang 'yung chill lang ako for once in my life naman as pilit na bidang-kontrabida po sa family matters and even my other worlds, na feeling ko may auto-immune dogshow na tayo sa ating system pero wala akong pake kasi I will fucking power through to make mother dragon proud and me, too. Too much cortisol levels na po nasynthesize ng ating system plus overthinker po tayo, opo. Gusto ko na lang maging let it be mom if and only if matripan ko mag-pivot. Ganun lang. Ayoko ng maging captain ball, timon, tambuli and all the shebang. LOL. Hindi naman ako magiging pabigat, definitely. Pero hindi ko rin sure because saltik is real. Kung may technology na 'yung sperm donor ko aka partner or whatever you call it ang magkaroon ng labor as in the contractions, I will reconsider. Para medyo hindi naman ako lang ang bibira sa labor session. Labo 'di ba? Sana may dystopian reality na 'yung ganun, soon. CHZ. Since we're already in the topic, when I came this content piece back when it was trending ages ago, huy. Eto na nga. Syempre, branded content and consumerism na naman po as a sweet ad game, pero what's not bound by consumption? Next time ko na 'to expound. Marami akong hugot dito. When I watched this alam mo 'yung okay... gets ko 'yung gusto mo maging parent because... pero 'wag mo akong idamay. Mula noon hanggang ngayon, ganun pa rin. Well, pinanood ko ulit just now and medyo may character arc development naman. Siguro if may window na maging mutant na okay 'yung anak ko, why not? LOL. Eto na naman po tayo. So, I am the tita of the bayan, zooming in and out in the lives of my kiddos. LOL. Will update that bit as well bilang lolollolloll ang mga Gen Z at Gen Alpha kiddos ko. Aba.

However, hindi ako anti-children ha. Kailangan natin ng bahagdan ng lipunan na naniniwala sa miracle of life, sa children are the future. Ganern.

[stitchedhart]

Always Be My Little Girl

July 24, 2023. Andrea Vanessa, you are there and i am here – you at 14, me the mother of a 14-year-old girl! While im sure you are thinking, "four more years and i will be an adult." Omo! thats way to fast to think about it yet! 😂

Seeing that you made it through thirteen, you can now walk the hallowed halls of teendom at fourteen. Enjoy this year, and be sure to get the most of it before hitting another lap around the sun, yeah?!

Here's some of the truths i know that you should hold close to your heart!

Choose your path wisely. There will be many. This is your life, your journey. Follow the route you think its best for you (ill be on bay though, if you happen to get lost along the journey)

Make lots of friends and surround yourself with people who inspire, understand, love you and make you feel good about being you!

Have confidence in yourself. Power, strength, ability, and value are guaranteed by a positive sense of oneself. You'll be able to accomplish your objectives and chase your wildest desires without any worry.

Take care of your body. It is the only one you have. Do not abuse it. Give your body the proper fitness and nutrition that will fuel you for success. And remember, no matter the shape or size, you are perfect the way you are.

Live your life with purpose and give purpose to your life.Do not hold grudges for too long, nakakapangit yown😆 Also, always practice kindness in maximum. If some people are not kind to you, just "kill" them...kill them with kindness.😁

Don’t be afraid to disagree with people, not everyone will think the same as you.

Continue to love yourself as you are – no matter what. Even if it goes against the grain. Be you. Be proud of who you are. Don’t falter with the wind. Don’t start liking a specific book because everyone else is reading it. Dont watch a movie just because everyone watches it. Stick to your guns, but learn how to listen. Embrace the things that you love most.

Love your people. Appreciate them and help them the best way you can. Most of all, love God above all else!

Live your life the way you want it to be..write your own story edit it if you must, but dont plagiarize mine or anybody else's.

Protect your heart and mental health.

I know, most of this will mean nothing to you..maybe just a long birthday post. Read it again in about 10 or 20 years, then it will mean a lot!

I love the time we spend together when im on vacation. Those moments when you are so clingy kahit na sobrang init..😂 I love your words of wisdom na minsan para kang 25 years old kung magsalita (may kasama pang roll eyes lol). I love that you like doing things with me, sumusunod ka sa mga gusto ko kahit minsan labag sa loob mo., dahil wala kang choice kasi ako ang Mama 😅 And im proud na ako ang Mama mo at ikaw ang bunso ko.

Although we may not always see eye to eye, you will always have my support in all that you do. I believe in you, and I look forward to seeing where this journey will take you. So keep reaching for those stars because someday, I know you will get there because you deserve everything that comes your way.

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY, my Vani! 🥰 You will always be my little girl. If this world ever becomes too much for you, my arms will always be here to embrace you.

May you fly your blue sky with grace, confidence and hope as you find your place in this beautiful and crazy world!

Loving you now and always.

Mumma❤️

[fzzr]

Spring 2023 Anime Wrapup

Original Post:

This sure was a season. I finished 14 full-length series, plus some OVAs and carryovers. Undisputed show of the season Oshi no Ko and underrated hit Dead Mount Death Play lead the pack, but there's a range of other content between hate-watchable and actually good as well.

New Stuff:

Oshi no Ko (My Star) - Holy shit. I don't want to say much to avoid spoilers, but it was a 10/10 candidate from episode one and still might end up there on rewatch. For now 9/10, you MUST watch this. There will be a post forthcoming when I process it for a while.

Isekai de Cheat Skill wo Te ni Shita Ore wa, Genjitsu Sekai wo mo Musou Suru: Level Up wa Jinsei wo Kaeta (I Got a Cheat Skill in Another World and Became Unrivaled in The Real World, Too) - They put the entire power fantasy in the title for your convenience. It's not a great message that all you need to do to become popular is inherit a bunch of money and literally magically change your entire body, but here we are. The power fantasy is truly stratospheric - for example, he accidentally seduces a model and is proposed to by a princess in the space of one episode. The "animation" (or lack thereof) doesn't give the at best mediocre plot the support it needs, alas. A very generous 6/10.

Jigokuraku (Hell's Paradise) - Samurai Suicide Squad with a hearty helping of EDGE and a surprising amount of heart. The action was good, even though it sometimes felt like they ran out of time to make things truly excellent. 8/10.

Kanojo ga Koushaku-tei ni Itta Riyuu (The Reason Why Raeliana Ended up at the Duke's Mansion) - Another villainess anime, this time with the twist being that she becomes a villainess on purpose in order to save her own life. Most of the time the plot foreknowledge twist was used to undermine typical shoujo tropes rather than heighten them. Between that and the nothing ending, I found it oddly muted. 7/10.

Kimi wa Houkago Insomnia (Insomniacs After School) - I didn't finish this yet, because I don't think I'm ready for the emotional punches it's setting up. Not dropped, just not done.

Skip to Loafer (Skip and Loafer) - A country-girl-in-the-big-city shoujo story, in which our protagonist good-natures her way through a whole stable of stock high school antagonists. I like that given only twelve episodes to work with they didn't speedrun to parts where relationships happen, and instead let the story take its time. This is the first time since Hyouka I've really liked something with this sort of sedate pace. Looking forward to more! 8/10.

Tengoku Daimakyou (Heavenly Delusion) - A trip through the post-apocalypse featuring spooky monsters, bioethics failures, and a mix of hope and despair at how people face life after the end. Worth a watch, but be aware there's some extreme content. 8/10

Yamada-kun to Lv999 no Koi wo Suru (Loving Yamada at Lv999) - Shoujo for gamers! Unlike Raeliana above this shoujo with a twist did it for me. For personal reasons I appreciated the respect paid to online relationships. Convincing characters and relationships plus distinct and consistent art make this a very honorable 8/10.

Otonari ni Ginga (A Galaxy Next Door) - A guy touches an alien princess funny and they're married now. Yes, another one. This time, she's his manga assistant. Very light and fluffy, despite the subtheme of family alienation. 7/10, though at the high end for myself.

Dead Mount Death Play - Reverse Isekai! With a name like that you'd expect some serious edge, and there is some. Surprisingly though the themes are very wholesome. This was the biggest surprise of the season. I didn't watch it in the first round of shows, but when I looked at it out of curiosity it blew me away. 9/10, you should really watch this.

Tonikaku Kawaii - This is a sequel, but I hadn't watched the previous season, so it's new to me. I added it later in the season mostly out of curiosity. It turned out to be another entry in the impossibly perfect significant other microgenre, like The Angel Next Door Spoils Me Rotten. As with Angel Next Door, the point is that you should be an actual good person. This time it's about the rewards of getting married as soon as possible, and here are step-by-step instructions. There's a subtle-but-not-subtle supernatural undercurrent that becomes increasingly obvious in season 2, as well. 7/10.

Sequels:

Birdie Wing: Golf Girls' Story Season 2 - What can you say about a show that introduces multiple dangerous forbidden techniques in the middle of a tournament arc... of golf? Anyway here's lesbians doing more wacky special moves. If you're into weird sports anime you're sure to be into this. 8/10.

Dr. Stone: New World - There was a lot more yadda yadda this time, so it fell a bit flat. The less they show Senku's work coming up with things the more they feel like instant win buttons instead of things they worked for. I had hoped the cast size constraint in the second half of the season would have let them go back to spending time on inventions, but alas no. 7/10.

Kimetsu no Yaiba: Katanakaji no Sato-hen (Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba Swordsmith Village Arc) - Yep, it was more Demon Slayer. I'm pleased that Demon Slayer has mostly maintained its quality, in contrast with My Hero Academia which fell off a bit in the middle there. 8/10.

Kidou Senshi Gundam: Suisei no Majo Season 2 (Mobile Suit Gundam: The Witch from Mercury Season 2) - The robots (and lesbians) are cool, but I don't see how it's possible to miss the "war (and unfettered capitalism) is bad" message. It's also a new take on Revolutionary Girl Utena, which I've been meaning to re-watch and write about for some time. No excuse now, I suppose. 8/10.

Uma Musume: Pretty Derby - Road to the Top - I forgot to put this on the first list because it's a four episode ONA that hadn't started airing yet. As one of the weird sports anime I actually enjoy, of course I was up for even just a small arc of it. 8/10.

Carryovers:

Kubo-san wa Mob wo Yurusanai (Kubo Won't Let Me Be Invisible) - Finally a bulli anime I can enjoy, thanks to it not actually being bulli for very long. In the end this was a sort of nothing-in-particular show, falling somewhere in the fuzzy area around impossibly perfect SO and teasing anime. As expected it's almost all frosting and no cake, but I did enjoy my time with it. 7/10.

Itai no wa Iya nano de Bougyoryoku ni Kyokufuri Shitai to Omoimasu. 2 (BOFURI: I Don't Want to Get Hurt, so I'll Max Out My Defense. Season 2) - This fell off a bit, and I think I know why. It suffered from the same thing as later Dog Days seasons, where it used its expansive cast by shuffling who hangs out with who. This provides less novelty than the original concept of "what will they get up to now" did, and it also necessarily slows things to a crawl as we need to see more perspectives on every event as a result. Still, the characters remain fun and the game is as busted as ever. 7/10.

Dropped:

Kaminaki Sekai no Kamisama Katsudou - Garbage. A fetish fest with godawful CGI. Rancid vibes. You'll never know where it's going. You may have trouble looking away. I did eventually, though. Dropped at episode 10. 6/10.

Isekai One Turn Kill Neesan: Ane Douhan no Isekai Seikatsu Hajimemashita (My One-Hit Kill Sister) - Lots of Rule D edging. The quality isn't the most consistent, the tropes are basic, and little of value is to be found here. When it's good, it's actually kinda good. Unfortunately it got boring. Dropped at episode 10. 6/10.

Edomae Elf (Otaku Elf) - Elf in real world! Wooo! A nice comfy show. Not much happens, but it's cute enough. Got boring in the end though. Dropped at episode 10. 7/10.

My Home Hero - It's hard to think of anything recently that used tension and suspense to this degree. That said, the every-episode cliffhangers eventually got exhausting and turned me off and I stopped keeping up. 7/10 not for me.

[morethanmyshare-blog]

Why you don't get loved the way you love

"KUNG pwede lang sanang i-USB ang passion, matagal ko na sanang ginawa..." she sighs with a frustrated expression on her face. You put on your sympathetic face, trying to find the most comforting words that you could say. "Well, ganyan talaga." After all your efforts of rummaging through ready-made quotes at the back of your mind, still the lamest words come out of you. Ganyan talaga? Lame. She starts eating her doughnut.

"Hindi naman sa hindi siya romantic. Nag-dinner date kami noon sa bahay nila. May kandila sa mesa. Sisig ang niluto niya. Pero candlelight dinner 'yun kasi walang kuryente. Pagtingin ko sa basurahan, galing pala sa lata ang niluto niya. Pinainit lang at nilagyan ng sibuyas tapos pinigaan ng kalamansi. Kaya nung nag-dinner kami sa bahay ko, nagluto ako ng carbonara. Bumili ako ng scented candles at naka-mood lights pa ang kusina. Pinakita ko sa kanya kung ano ang dinner date. Bakit hindi siya gumawa ng effort tulad ng efforts ko?" She finishes the doughnut and is now working her way to almost-licking her plate off of leftover frostings.

His EFFORT versus your EFFORTS - the battle between the SINGULAR and the PLURAL. Ganyan talaga, the thought keeps tumbling in your head. Ganyan talaga kapag sobra ang expectations mo. You position yourself to strike a verbal blow, "Ikaw kasi, ang galing mong magmahal. Ang galing-galing mo!" She pauses for a few seconds then stares at you silently for a few more. "Oo nga. Ang galing ko. Kung masalubong ko sa Parian (somewhere in Intramuros) ang sarili ko, iuuwi ko at pakakasalan ko. I am the most romantic person I know. I'd be lucky to have me."

Finding and choosing someone to love and have a relationship with is the easiest among the most difficult things to do in the world. Maintaining a relationship is far more complicated. But when expectations seep in, that is when everything becomes complex. The honeymoon stage becomes bittersweet and the promise land turns barren when you expect more than what you should.

"Para hindi ako masaktan, huwag na lang kaya ako mag-expect? Mahirap na talagang umasa na kiligin pa ako sa mga panahon ngayon. Gusto kong kiligin..." She signals the waiter for another serving of the same pastry. You take a sip from your cup of hot lemon grass tea. "Huy, ano na nga? Paano ako kikiligin? Gusto kong kiligin..."

Is it wrong to expect?

No, it is not wrong to have expectations. It comes as natural to us as breathing. What is wrong is when you expect nothing. What is wrong is when you expect something else from someone who has already given you what he can.

The truth is, when you give, you should also receive. You just do not always receive what you want to. Sometimes, it is not even from the same person that you gave to. Rewards come in many forms, not just one. Do not expect him to be someone else that he is not. Learn to see through his eyes. The answer might just be in how he patiently waited while lining up in the cashier's lane at the grocery store while waiting to pay for the three candlesticks he bought. It may be in the way he thought of you and how he knew you liked this particular brand of sisig from a can. It may be in the once-in-every-few-months chance that a power outage may be turned into a memorable quality time together while the whole world is blanketed in darkness. Well... maybe not the whole world - just his block of the neighborhood. Learn to see through someone else's eyes, not just yours.

"Eh ikaw, kamusta na ang lovelife mo? May nakita ka na ba?" She darts her own verbal blow. It takes you several minutes before you could recover but she overtakes you with a follow up. "Siya pa rin ba? Hanggang ngayon? Ang martir mo naman. Tragically romantic nga lang. Hindi mo pa ba nasasabi sa kanya na mahal mo siya? Torpe ka nga, bespren. Kung ako nga na bespren mo hindi mo pa magawang sabihin kung sino siya, eh 'yung ipagtapat mo pa kaya sa kanya ang nararamdaman mo?"

You start to mumble the words, "Kung pwede lang sanang i-USB ang passion, matagal ko na sanang ginawa..." but she does not hear you because the waiter interrupts and delivers her second serving of doughnut. "May girlfriend ka na, malamang hindi mo na ako masasamahan sa mga relationship emergencies kong ganito. Maganda ba siya? Kasing ganda ko ba?" She begins to laugh. Her cute little snort as she laughs amuses you even more. She suddenly stops laughing and ang takes a bite of the pastry. She looks at you with her eyes trying to recall something. She asks you, "ano na nga pala 'yung sinabi mo bago dumating 'yung waiter?" You just smile.

Ganyan talaga. You do not always get what you want. Either learn to live with it or do something about it.

[tiny-cloud-of-flowers]

I put Xenoblade Chronicles 2 in my Switch again for the first time in a while, in order to try and get a couple of screenshots quuckly

Said screenshots also included a KOS-MOS ^-^

[void-kissed]

Hello friend it's ya boi Berry I saw the post abt what fandoms would ship irt your SIs and as someone who spent hours looking at ships in this fandom I have thoughts.

Sapphire: Nia would def be a ship w her. Mythra as well, I tend to see most characters shipped w one Aegis often shipped w the other. Her excitable nature playing of Mythra being more guarded would intrigue people.

Calanthe: Shion/Koshion ot3 deffo would happen. That fandom is wlw paradise for ships lol. Helps she and Shion have a lot in common -- invested in KOS-MOS, glasses for reasons other than eyesight, Zohar shenanigans.... T-elos in saga and 2 both would also happen. Similar to the Aegis situation I find.

Aline: Def would be shipped w Haze as well as prolly her and Lora as an ot3. Her and Brighid also feels possible -- jewel of Mor Ardain and a village girl would go hard for ppl. Curve ball here but Avalon as well. Blade Driver pairings are super popular and I figure that'd extend here too -- they're friends so some ppl would ship em.

Citri: Fiora and Shulk predictions are spot on. Reyn would also be a potential one bc of the similar childhood friends angle, tho might be more popular w her in ot3+s. Melia also feels incredibly possible, actually -- people in recent years have really been feeling her wlw vibes and chances are she'd have cute interactions with Citri, making her a potentially popular choice. Linada might also be one of only bc she and Vanea are somewhat shipped -- ship her w one gf why not the other? Lots of ot3+s here specifically would happen I think.

This has been berry can't sleep and is autistic about ships in xc fandom hour. Thank you

HELLO BERRY THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR THESE and also I really hope you were able to sleep. Sorry that they took so long for me to write out responses to!

Sapphire with Mythra would be pretty interesting actually, especially with the context of Mythra first appearing in XC2 not too long after Sapphire joins the party in Chapter 3. Not perhaps the best of introductions Plus, with Mythra’s connection to Poppi, that’s another way the two can kind of come together despite being quite different personality-wise! And, I can also definitely see shipping happening with Nia, haha. Not only out of catgirl solidarity, but there's also a Blade Eater/Flesh Eater contrast, which is made more fun by the fact that the Blade whose Core Crystal is in Sapphire was a healer Blade~

Today I found out that Shion doesn't wear glasses to correct her vision either, huh. I didn't realise they were a sentimental thing for her (from what I read on the wiki)! Anyway - yes, you're right that Calanthe and Shion do have possibly a bit too many similarities, oops, but you're right that it would definitely make them fit ships! Shoutout to Xenosaga for all the wlw ships, honestly. t-elos is someone I had not considered, but honestly now you mention it I can absolutely see it. Calanthe is not an overly confident self-insert, so that combined with t-elos' general demeanour would be quite the contrast, hehe. Plus, if going by her XC2 version: glasses solidarity again!

I would definitely call Aline with Avalon a curveball for the reason that Avalon isn't attracted to girls (I keep considering shipping them with Minoth, or possibly one of the other two male Blades), but at the same time I can see it persisting despite that, given what some people are unfortunately like. I will readily admit I hadn't considered Aline with Brighid, but I can definitely see the logic in it, haha - you're right that that kind of trope can be pretty fun! And, yes, Aline with Haze does definitely sound very cute, I can definitely imagine it ^-^

Regarding Citri, I don’t know how I forgot about Melia! My first attempts at making an XC1 self-insert was to selfship with Melia, actually - that self-insert was a fellow half-High Entia, also called Sapphire but without XC2 Sapphire's energetic-ness. Citri has actually probably turned out somewhat similar to that initial iteration, now that I think about it, despite her lore now being different (and me thinking of her as an alternate version of Calanthe, not of Sapphire). In terms of the others, I can definitely see them happening through OT3s specifically, as those would give more opportunity for more dynamics to develop properly, you could say.

..Sorry that this took me so long to properly get to, but thank you so so much again for sending this in, friend!! It really means a lot that you took the time to write this out in such a way, so thank you ^-^

[heytoneejay]

(published on my social media nov. 29, 2022) it started with one song, "kasama kita." siguro yung iba sa inyo narinig niyo na yun nung pandemic, nung rinelease yung lo-fi demo version na earphones mic pa ginamit para sa vocals. it's a song about wanting to be free to love someone deeply. nung panahon na yun hindi pa natin alam kung kelan matatapos yung mga ECQ, MECQ, GCQ, at kung ano pang mga Q Q na naimbento. for me personally, feeling ko nakulong ako. not just physically but also mentally... yung tipong hindi mo alam kung kaya mo pang mangarap muli kasi feeling mo hanggang dun ka na lang. like for everyone else, it was a very dark time for me. i wrote a whole album on loneliness (my first album, beginning/end). then i went through a crisis of my personal beliefs about reality, relationships, purpose, even god. it felt like someone pulled the rug out from under me and i went into free fall, just questioning everything i once held sacred since i was a child. but as i went deeper, confronting the darkness around me and in me, i soon found that indestructible part inside of me. i dont know what to call it, and im still trying to understand it. but i guess we can say i found out who i was. and knowing myself better now, soon everything started to feel lighter. i no longer felt as angry or lonely or unforgiving. and before i knew it, i was happy. and i remembered that song "kasama kita." and i remembered all the old love songs id written from years ago. "kanta ni sam," "talinghaga," "alaala," "bawat piyesa." and then i wrote new ones. "simbahan," "ruth," "doxology." and they all seemed to say the same thing, like everything has been leading me to this point in my life: that i am not required to be anything but myself. i am not even required to be sure about who i am. there is nothing to prove. sometimes, i still feel like im proving something and i catch my own ego and i remember that it doesn't matter. because deep down, im okay. and if im okay, then im free to love others as i love myself. because understanding who i am, i understand that we are all the same. and if we are all the same, then we all desire the same thing--to love and be loved. so this album is about that: this album is about learning how to care. this album is about looking inwardly and mending our brokenness. this album is about remembering our connectedness with each other. this album is about honoring every part that makes a person and honoring the fact that we too are pieces of a bigger picture. that even though the world could be a terrible place and powerful forces are making us turn on each other for profit, for control, for dominion, we can choose to rebel and love one another. this album is about resistance through love. this album is about understanding more and more na kahit sino pa tayo, at kahit ano pang pinagdadaanan natin, sa dulo ikaw lang naman at ako. sa dulo, walang ibang totoo kundi kasama kita. -- listen to my new album "kasama kita": https://bfan.link/kasama-kita photo: Nukie Timtiman Art

[askadvancewars]

This is Callalily's album "Flower Power" which they released in 2012.

"Flower Power" is also a track in Advance Wars: Dual Strike.

I drew this in 2014. The lower right doodle is even a parody of the album cover.

The words "Salamat sa iyo kayo ay kapiliing" and "Ang saya ng bukas" are lyrics from the first track on the album, "Pasasalamat"

Pasasalamat means "thanks" or "gratitude".

Here's the music video.

Here's my quick and dirty translation of the song

Pasasalamat (Thanks to you)

Wala na akong ibang hihilingin (I’ve got nothing else to wish for)

Salamat sa Diyos kayo ay kapiling (Thank God I’m together with you all)

Puno ng saya ang gabi ngayon (Tonight is bursting with happiness)

Ang lahat ng ito'y pangarap ko (This is everything I’ve been hoping)

Na paulit-ulit na dinadalangin ko (And praying for, over and over again)

Sumabay kayo sa mga awit ko (You sang along with my songs)

Tungkol sa gabay at panaginip mo (About learning to lead and your dreams)

Dahil sa inyo tuloy ang ikot ng mundo (Because of you all the world continues to turn)

[Chorus]

Wala na akong ibang hihilingin (I’ve got nothing else to wish for)

Salamat sa inyo kayo ay kapiling (Thank you all for being here with me)

Narito na ang bukas (Here comes tomorrow)

O, ang saya ng bukas… (O, tomorrow’s gonna be so fun…)

Sa mga nagdaan sa buhay ko (To everybody who passed through my life)

May lungkot at saya ang dinanas niyo (You’ve all gone through sadness and happiness )

Ngayon alam ko na ang nasa puso ko (Now I know what’s inside my heart)

Sa gitna ng lahat ng pagsubok (In the middle of all the hardships)

Naniwala kayo na kaya ko (You all believed that I could do it)

At ngayon iingatan ko na ang nasa palad ko (And I’ll cherish everything in my palm of my hand

[Chorus]

Wala na akong ibang hihilingin (I’ve got nothing else to wish for)

Salamat sa inyo kayo ay kapiling (Thank you all for being here with me)

Narito na ang bukas (Here comes tomorrow)

O, ang saya ng bukas… (O, tomorrow’s gonna be so fun…)

[Chorus]

Wala na akong ibang hihilingin Salamat sa inyo kayo ay kapiling Narito na ang bukas O, ang saya ng bukas…

Alam kong kakayanin ko (I know I can make it through)

Basta't kasama ko kayo (Just as long you’re all with me )

Alam kong kakayanin ko (I know I can make it through)

Basta't kasama ko kayo (Just as long you’re all with me )

Alam kong kakayanin ko (I know I can make it through)

Basta't kasama ko kayo (Just as long you’re all with me )

Alam kong kakayanin ko (I know I can make it through)

Basta't kasama ko kayo (Just as long you’re all with me)

Wala na akong ibang hihilingin (I’ve got nothing else to wish for)

Salamat sa Diyos kayo ay kapiling (Thank God I’m together with you all)

Narito na ang bukas (Here comes tomorrow)

O, ang saya ng bukas… (O, tomorrow’s gonna be so fun…)

Wala na akong ibang hihilingin (I’ve got nothing else to wish for)

Salamat sa inyo kayo ay kapiling (Thank you all for being here)

Atin na ang bukas (Tomorrow’s ours for the taking)

O, ang saya ng bukas… (O, tomorrow’s gonna be so fun…)

Ohhh ohh ohh ohh… Ohhh ohh ohh ohh…

From the lyrics and music video, this is song is about Callalily thanking their fans for all the love and support they got over the years, making it possible to sing for them.

As for me, I drew these pics from Jake's POV, at the end of Dual Strike, thanking everybody for all the love and support he got that he even made it that far. He's singing it especially to Hawke, who made Jake's beloved Omega Land bloom again. It's song about "flower power".

"Pasasalamat" isn't a romantic love song, it's a "thank you for all you've done for me" song.

It's also song being sung by Hawke, which is why the characters on the right side are his connections; Lash, Andy and Jake. The ending of the song is about facing a brighter tomorrow together with everybody who's loved and supported you so far.

There's actually another song on this theme I drew that's more from Hawke's POV toward Jake that's a darker and lonelier take but I didn't find it while writing this post.

"Here comes tomorrow"

Pasasalamat

[moved-to-void-kissed]

Here is my post for the fourth day of September! ..I don't have a caption for these renders, I'm afraid, but they basically sum up my entire selfship dynamic with KOS-MOS in one go - KOS-MOS is being ultra-powerful and amazing and awesome and gorgeous, and my self-insert Calanthe is very in love with her because of this. Even in such dangerous places as the Land of Morytha (hence why the lighting here is so.. green).

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