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#YOU UNDERSTAND#I LOVE ???% SO MUCH. YOU DONT EVEN KNOW.#???% posting#mp100#yes ???% is mobs flaws that he has distanced himself from so heavily hes dehumanized them into a separate Entity#but he is also the part of mob that drags his feet and screams I DESERVE BETTER.#he is the part of mob yelling what about me? what about me? when do i get to choose?#and this part can make him be incredibly selfish. but its also what saves him. what keeps him from putting up with unfair treatment#and its what remembers all the horrible things people have done to him and expected him to forget#and expected neverending forgiveness for because hes never put up boundaries#until it all builds up and he Snaps without warning#but doesn't that make sense. he almost dies because he put everyone else before him. and suddenly its too much.#āi cant die here. what about me. what about MEā#and he cant take it anymore. hes done.#sorry. that was long#shigeo kageyama you will always be famous
I love the concept of Shigeo/???% because, to me, he embodies the inevitability of self love. It is not always quick, it is not always easy, but it always comes in the end. You can let yourself be beaten down, broken, and not even try to save yourself or get up. You can convince yourself that you deserve it, that it must happen, and that you welcome its arrival. But there is an eternal, unkillable seed of stubbornness residing in the body that will try its fucking hardest to heal your wounds, to seek out pleasure, and keep you alive at all costs. There is something hallowed living in the body that will outlast the death of every goddamn star in the sky just to keep you safe. Because it loves you. Because it IS you. Because you are an irrepressible miracle of life and you cannot be separated from the impossible hope of it.
Mob has violently suppressed this part of himself for so long and let it build up and up and up through all of these near-death experiences and pain and torture. He let it get restless, afraid, and desperate, like a trapped animal; teeth bared, vicious, and alone. Shigeo loves Mob and IS Mob and Shigeo is tired of the suffering and the pain and ignoring every survival instinct he has. Ignoring the instinctual urge for justice and retaliation. Resisting his own need for happiness and relief.
When Mob is badly hurtāpractically killedāand a breaking point is reached, with Shigeo crawling out of the prison of Mobās heart and finally finally finally finding a release to the tension and the anxious, angry, devastated energy, he is hurting people. He is destroying property. He is Lashing Out at potential threats and old pains. He is protecting Mob at all costs, stuck in survival mode. Even then, with blood and destruction at his feet, worst nightmare realized, Mob still loves himself. At least a little bit. Because it is inevitable. It is built into the body. It is a requirement of being alive. It is cradling his face in its hands, bringing him closer and closer to the delicate hope of love.
He is staying alive, no matter what destruction awaits, because Shigeo loves himself and wants a second chance at authenticity and happiness, starting with Tsubomi. Against all odds, he desperately, incredibly, impossibly, amazingly still loves himself. And it brings him to his feet in the face of death itself.
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EN-Drama Heeseungās sequel please (itād be great to have smut and angst, HE or BE anything is good š)
- I love you
į„«į” f!reader x Lee Heeseung āā š¢enre. Smut. fluff, Angst non idol enha. not proofread. Wc 4.2k feats. ot7 [reqs are open] į°.į šibrary
authors notes. I hope this is to your liking, Iāve been lacking the motivation to write lately so everything I have written as of late Iāve felt love itās been lackluster. Iāve started and deleted this at least 4 times so Iām hoping this final draft will be worth the read.
IN WHICH an old crush makes their way back into Heeseungs life and old feelings start to spark
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āI dont wanna be in love with another even in another lifeā
Heeseung had been the quiet type, heād found delight in sitting alone or spending his time in the serenity of his own peace. Though many found him boring due to his silence and nonchalant attitude he had fit in quite perfectly with his friends. Six guys that he had known so long it felt as if heād known them his entire life, it had been hard to picture times when they hadnāt been there. As much as Heeseung had loved being alone, they made his life all the more enjoyable.
Heeseung was quite the simple guy, so while many of the girls in school had found him attractive theyād also found him extremely boring. Soon enough rumors had gone around the entire school that not only was he boring in a general sense, but that heād also been completely vanilla when it came to sleeping with him. Though Heeseung was unsure how the rumors had ever started, considering heād never even been with any of the girls at school, or any girl for that matter. He shrugged it off as he would everything else, people were going to talk, people were going to assume things about him regardless of whether or not it was confirmed or denied by him.
That exact same aura seemed to trail Heeseung from his high school days, to university and onto his fully adult life. He often found himself thinking back to the days when things were far more simple, When he and the others had no worries and no responsibility.
Heeseung was quickly snapped out of his thoughts as he heard someone tapping at the glass of the studio. Though it may not have been where Heeseung had exactly seen himself after high school, his new job had been a start. Heād luckily scored a job at a radio station in the city and had been working it for nearly a year.
āYouāve got a call in the main office, seemed urgent?ā
āWho was it?ā
āDonāt know they just said that they were looking for you and seemed like it was something important. I'll take over until youāre back.ā Heeseungs brows crease together as Sohee pats at his back, sending him off to answer the phone. It wasnāt like his friends to call when they knew he was at work. Though when Heeseung had answered the phone he was surprised to hear, not the voice of his friends, but an old acquaintance he and the others hadnāt heard from since the day theyād left to go overseas.
That was exactly why Heeseung found himself sitting at a big round table waiting for the others to arrive, the last time all of them had gathered together being valentine's day of last year, but since then theyād all kept in touch but had been tackling their own endeavors.
Heeseung hadnāt exactly been sure what to feel about seeing one person in particular after so long. The girl heād found himself falling for long ago, the first girl that had captured his heart, but she had also been the one that got away.
She had come to him at a time it seemed that no one bothered to understand him. There had even been times where he felt even those closest to him wouldnāt understand the works of his mind like heād wanted. Though she was the one that stayed, the one that listened to him even when he had nothing to say, sheād waited. One of the first in his life that werenāt his friends to actually stay and try and get closer, not because of his looks but because she was interested to know the world of his mind.
Though back then when he had finally thought heād been getting closer to her, everything had seemed to fall apart, others had grown feelings for her and complications had arisen that had made him give up on pursuing her. Looking back on it though he found it quite ridiculous that the seven of them had gotten themself into such a mess but sometimes it made him laugh.
He had now seemed to be the odd man out other than Jay and Jungwon who chose to focus on their careers rather than relationships. Leaving only him who hadnāt eventually known where he wanted to go with his love life, he never approached anyone and his calm and aloof demeanor made others too anxious to approach him themselves.
Soon enough the others had joined him, all of them catching up with one another and reminiscing on old memories with one another. Remembering the times theyād all shared with one another before theyād gone their separate ways. The conversation had been full of laughs and smiles, though the atmosphere slightly shifted the moment sheād walked in.
āEunjinā
The moment sheād entered the building it was like some form of magnetic attraction, his eyes had found her in an instant. Taking in how much she had changed in the five years that none of them had seen her, he thought heād gotten over it but the moment his eyes had set on her he felt his heart beat again for the first time.
It was like in the movies when time would stop and cherry blossoms would come raining down on the protagonists. She was always beautiful, though the amount of growth and maturity level sheād possessed now was inevitably visible. The only thing that he could say hadnāt changed about her was her height, he was sure if heād stood from his seat heād still tower over her just as he had all that time ago.
Upon hearing her name spill from his lips the others turned until their eyes found her sauntering over to their table. The reason for them all having gathered there in the first place.
āItās been a while.ā There it was that sweet voice that had once been like music to his ears, it had all the memories and emotions he once felt for her flooding back in.
The night carried on smoothly, it was as if the group had missed no time with one another, each of them reliving moments in their life and the others listening and reminiscing as if they themselves had been with one another through every step. Heeseung found himself a little far too immersed whenever sheād speak. Heād wanted to know everything, everything sheād come to like, hate or be interested in within the last five years. He found that that spark she had once lit within him long ago was returning upon having her say there before him.
Eventually the gathering had slowly come to a halt as everyone had either gone home, or had other inquiries that kept them from staying longer, which meant that left Heeseung and Eunjin alone. Since the restaurant had neared closing time the two had decided to continue their conversation on a stroll through the city.
āYou look good seung.ā The first words to leave her mouth upon the two of them being left alone. His heart had been thumping so hard in his chest heād sworn hee could hear it beating in his ears.
āStill as pretty as ever, haven't grown much.ā He teases, earning a laugh from her that made his heart shake in his chest.
āIt really is nice to see you again, all of you. I found all of the notes youād all left for me and the old candy wrappers from all of those chocolates youād brought to class to share.ā She laughs, brushing her hair behind her ear as she pulls out an old folded piece of paper. Heeseung couldnāt deny that he recognized it, after all heād written it himself.
āAh right, the letters. Guess we all embarrassed ourselves at that time?ā He chuckles, forcing honestly to hold back a wince at the absolute cringe worthy memory.
āI thought it was sweet, though it was a little overwhelming. I just thought Iād ever expected all seven of you to confess to one another. It did make things a little confusing.ā
āI guess we just all thought we were doing the right thing, not being selfish.ā
āIf you all had known my feelings would that have changed anything?ā
āWhat do you..mean?ā
āIf you all had known how Iād felt about each of you then would it have made a difference? Would you have confessed then?ā As she stops and turns to look at him, her eyes scanning him curiously, he himself didnāt know what to say, it prompted him to take a moment and think.
āI canāt speak for others, but if Iād known your feelingsā¦if youād liked anyone else then things would have remained the same. Though if the feelings you had were for me then..Iād have not given up as easily as I had.ā
āWhat about now?ā Heeseung had completely frozen in place, her words having caused his body to completely shut down right where he stood.
āWhat if I told you now how I felt then?ā Her eyes seemed to scan him for any sort of signs that she should speak no further, but he remained locked in place.
āIf I had told you I liked you then would things have been different now? If I'd told you the moment we ran into one another outside of the nurses office then where would we be now?ā
Heeseungs thoughts had been circling his brain like the sun and moon orbiting earth. Hearing something from her heād thought heād gotten past years ago. Though now hearing those words spilled from her lips it was as if heād been reliving the emotions he once felt all over again.
āSo youāre saying..ā
āThat iād have chosen you Heeseung, if things had been different and only you had confessed..Iād have accepted your confession.ā
āWhat about the others?ā
āWe were friends, just like Iād told you all last time we spoke. Iād never want to compromise the friendship each of you had with one another or myself. After each of you had given a letter I thought it was best I rejected all of you.ā
āSo all this time it was me?ā She nods in response, leaving Heeseung somewhat dumbfounded by the revelation. Of course it was something he had pictured countless times but heād never seen it actually happening.
Closing the space between the two of them she steps closer to him, her boba eyes staring straight into him.
āThough itās 5 years late, is it too late to say that I like you Lee Heeseung? That you were the one that got away.ā
As if it had been natural, his fingers reflexively tangled within her hair, pushing the loose strands from her face behind her ear.
āMm 5 years is a long time but Iām sure we could work it out.ā He responds playfully, making her laugh as she leans in to wrap her arms around his waist.
From that day on Heeseung had found himself smiling more. She's encouraged him to be the best version of himself that he could be. She was the reason heād gone into work with a smile on his face every day. How could he not wake up with a smile when heād get to wake up and see her beautiful face on his phone every morning. It had taken five years for him to take her on a proper date but it had been completely worth the wait, their first date leading to months of then being together. In his eyes it was all perfect, there was no way he could have known the secrets sheād been keeping from him. The true reason that she had gathered them all together, the real reason she had decided to finally confess all the things sheād once felt.
āHeeseung I need to pack for my flight tonight, I wonāt get anything done if you donāt let go.ā
Heeseung had been holding onto her waist, his face buried into her back as his other hand rested upon her hip.
āYou could always just stay home, Iām sure that work could wait another day, they canāt open an exhibit without the artist.ā Heeseung responds, his voice muffled against the nape of her neck as he speaks. Only pulling his face away momentarily as he scoops her up and carries her over to the bed
āAs much as iād love to stay and lie around with you I canāt push off this event Seung, Iām running out of time.ā
āYou say that as if they could open the place without you.ā He responds hovering over her, his arms caging her in and trapping her against the bed, forcing her to give in and succumb to his temptations.
āI know they canāt, but Iāve been waiting for this moment, Heeseung, I canāt push this off further than saturday.ā Heeseung responds with soft hums as he begins to press soft loving kisses against her exposed skin. His hand slipped past her crop top until it rested against the bare skin of her stomach.
She was already quite familiar with this tactic of his by now, heād always found ways to distract her whether that be with his sweet kisses or something far more dirty and pornographic like shoving his fingers so deep into her cunt that she was a complete mess, agreeing to everything heād said.
āWell if youāre going to go, Iāll make sure Iāll leave some art of my own since I canāt join you.ā
That was all that needed to be said before he had his lips on her skin once more and she had her fingers tangled in his hair. As he peppered slow, loving kisses along her neck and chest she couldnāt help but feel true peace in that moment of being with him.
Heeseung completely worshiped the ground she walked on.
To him she was completely intoxicating, her scent, her voice, her body, her touch; All of it was like his drug. Bringing her hand to his lips he placed loving kisses from her wrist up to her shoulder, a gesture that made the butterflies in her stomach go frantic . He felt the way her body relaxed and temperature had risen at the contact and it went without saying he was satisfied with the reaction. A reaction he had earned from her countless times yet would never tire of it.
Soft hums spilled from his lips, as he began to undress her while adorning her beautiful skin with kisses. It wasn't until she felt his fingertip trail down the soft skin of her stomach that the urge to be entangled with him had become more urgent. As Heeseungs fingers slipped beneath her pajama bottoms and past her underwear her body shivers. Sheād no time to register his actions because before sheād known he had already been rubbing circles around her clit. Heeseung was absolutely content with this moment, having earned soft moans from her, watching as her hand clasped onto his wrist.
The way her back arched and her nails dug into his soft skin. The combination of her moans and her soft skin against his tongue was enough to drive him mad. He had barely even touched her yet her body had already been so responsive. He knew it would only be a handful of seconds until his name would spill from her lips in that sweet melodic tone like always. Seconds later he slipped in two fingers, taking the time to stretch her out and feel her out before he began to thrust them in and out slowly. Her desperate whining for him to move them faster only causes him to slow them down, he was completely blinded by his desire to hear his baby from her lips once more. The way his name fell from her lips always sounded so sweet.
āSeung, baby please, please my love.'' Sheād choke out, her words barely audible but it was good enough for him because no matter how sheād said it the sound of his name from her lips was something he always loved to hear. Slipping in yet another finger he watched the way her expressions changed as he thrust them into her with feverish haste. He wanted desperately to read her thoughts and know the desires that swam around her pretty head when he had her like this, but it seemed that at the moment nothing was there. She was completely consumed by the mere thought of him and all the things that he was now doing to her.
āSo beautiful, everything about you is so fucking beautiful, your smile, your eyes, your hair your voice.ā His hand roamed over her body, leaving a fiery feeling over every place heād touched. A touch that always left her longing for more no matter how many times she felt it.
He on the other hand always found delight in the way she squirmed and her body convulsed when he continued to stretch her out and pump his fingers inside of her. His eyes caught her gaze as he stopped to remove his fingers and bring them to his lips.
Her boba eyes that were usually so cute and sweet, now full of devilish desires thatād make angels weep. As sweet as sheād tasted there was nothing sweeter than the sound of her begging and pleading for him to give her more. So this time rather than shove his fingers deep into her clit he finds himself scooping her legs up and going between her thighs. His eyes gazed up at her beautiful face as he left kisses and hickeys on her inner thighs before sinking his teeth into them. His action earned a small yelp from her before and a tug on his dark locks as her fingers grasped at his hair. He was taking his time with her this morning, he needed all the time in the world to worship her before sheād leave, to treat her body like a goddess that only he could touch.
Heeseungs eyes remained glued to her seconds after his lips met her clit, the lewd sounds that spilled from her mouth following his actions made him desperate to hear more. His tongue slithered past her folds and as her head fell back against the bed he thought heād go crazy at the sight. The blissed out look on her face and the way sheād pulled at his hair. Every now and then pushing his face deeper between her thighs it made his hunger for her all the more insatiable.
''So pretty like this, my beautiful work of art, so fucking beautiful.'' While his tongue abused her clit, he slipped in two fingers, stretching her out and shoving his tongue further than before. He gave her no time to respond before he was attacking the heat between her legs as if he himself was desperate to touch her just as she was for him to touch her.
Her fingers tugged at his dark locks as his tongue played with your sensitive cunt. It was a feeling she had felt time and time again with him but each time it seemed to be all the more pleasurable. The way his tongue and lips attacked her clit so vigorously made her thighs tremble. Having sensed her body's attempts to lock his head between her thighs, Heeseung immediately forces them back down against the bed. Her moans like music to his ears, simply hearing the way she whines and cries out for him and him only. As if he had been watching a film his eyes locked onto her, admiring her expressions as her face contorted at the pleasure. The moment he felt you clench around his tongue and fingers he became well aware that you were reaching your breaking point.
"Go ahead baby let it out.'' he hums against her, his face still buried between her thighs and as she squirms beneath him. Then finally she came on his tongue he couldn't help but stare up at you proudly.
āThatās one.ā Heeseung had given her nooo time to breathe before heād been switching her positions preparing her for a near endless session with him before sheād need to rest and pack for her long night that awaited.
Heeseung traced circles on her bare skin as she rested against his chest. Having fallen asleep after their earlier escapades, sheād needed all the rest she could get before she had to get up and pack to catch her flight.
Heeseung couldnāt help but stare at her sleeping frame proudly. The girl heād thought he let get away had come back to him, and was now all his.
The sun had been peeking through the curtains and Heeseung sighs remembering that heād have to go without seeing his beautiful girl for three days. Sheād only gone last night but it had already felt as if she had been gone a lifetime.
Forcing himself out of bed he made his way into the bathroom, readying himself for the day ahead, that he knew would drag on since he would be returning home and see wouldnāt be there.
His day had gone on normal, as per usual heād enter the studio, starting off with simple beats and tracks heād thrown together for his artists. Everything seemingly in place until his phone vibrates in his pocket and a smile lights up his face as he sees her name appear on the front screen. A smile that had gone as quick as it had come as he answered and heard another womanās voice on the other line. It was as if life had completely slowed and his heart had stopped beating in his chest, surely what he was hearing was a joke, some sort of twisted, sick joke or ploy to get him to fly there and hold her in his arms. No matter how much he tried to spin it, how hard he tried to deny what heād heard, it all became far too real the moment heād stepped off a plane and into a New York City hospital.
Heeseung had felt numb the moment heād entered the place. He couldnāt register that anything that had happened beyond the phone call, had even been real. He sat on the opposite side of the glass watching as they covered his girlfriend's body.
āLee Heeseung?ā Heeseungs eyes met the nurses, no life behind them after having just realized heād never get to hold his girlfriend in his arms again beyond this point.
āI know this may not be the best time, but she left this for you. Iāll leave you alone to open it.ā After placing a box into his hands the nurse had left him alone.
It was a small box, inside was a letter and a few other things tied together with a fuzzy white string. Up until now Heeseung had completely held it together, that was until he pulled the letter from the box and could no longer stop the tears from spilling from his eyes as he read.
Heeseung,
If youāre reading this then, it means I finally was able to open my heart to you. Iām not as good with letters as you and the others but, I want you to know that I love you. I love all of you but especially you. Iāve loved you since then too, since the day I found you sat in the classroom with the others and you accepted the candy I'd given you even though you absolutely hated sweets then. When iād gathered you all that day it wasnāt simply because I wanted to see you all that day, Iāve known for some time now that I didnāt have much time. Though I didn't know when I knew eventually Iād go and that you all would never hear from me again. I simply wanted to see you all one last time. Though I found myself being far happier than I could have ever imagined with you. My heart is now so full of you I could hardly know my own. I know that this is selfish of me, allowing myself to love you and you to love me when I know that the outcome can only cause you pain, but I wanted the chance to love you before Iād never get to love again. Iām sorry to leave you in such a way but I let my selfishness get the best of me. I hope that you will continue to live in Heeseung, to live without me even though youāve waited so long to have me as yours.
Paper clipped behind the letter was a ticket. A ticket in which Heeseung had hesitated to use for days to put to use. He had become so numb that nothing mattered and eventually he had completely forgotten about it until he had been helping his mom clear things from her old art studio.
Though the date on the ticket was long gone and had expired, heād finally put it to use. Putting his grief aside he found himself standing outside of the building where she had just opened her exhibit. As he stepped inside every one of his emotions had come crashing down as heād found himself not only surrounded by art, but art that had symbolized the love the two of them had shared in just those four months alone, for every art piece had tied to a memory of hers
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okay so likeā¦ imma say something maybe perhaps perchance controversial and hot-takey relating to sonic. and iāve wanted to say this for awhile but didnt wanna get canceled becus itās something thatās sorta difficult to convey through textā¦
i remember seeing a year or two ago that quite a few people thought shadamy was wrong simply becus amy reminded shadow of maria in SA2. so basically implying that like if amy is reminiscent of maria, this āinherentlyā means that shadow thinks of her also as his sibling of sorts.
but i honestly think this way of thinking isnāt correct. if you think about this in any context rather than this fandom then my point will be simpler to understand. for example, you can think to yourself āwow my partner has similar traits to {insert person here} in my familyā WITHOUT thinking of them as the same person. acknowledging a parallel in personality should not be off limits when comparing someone you share romantic love with and someone you share platonic love with in my opinion, unless youāre the one constantly choosing to say/act upon that fact in an intentionally weird way.
we also donāt really know *exactly* what shadow was thinking in this exact moment, other than the fact that amyās kind words changed his perspective and motives, which was the main point of that cutscene overall. it could very well be possible that shadow is experiencing some form of underdeveloped love for amy in that moment, but even he doesnāt know what kinda of love that may be becus heās spent his whole life just traumatized and not exposed to relationship and friendship status quo of the outside world.
and may i remind you that shadamy is not the only ship to do thisā¦ so that argument really doesnāt even work?!? sonadow, probably the most popular ship ever in sonic, does this too. that official japanese art/story with shadow looking at the blue shoes references the parallels between sonic and maria i believe, along with MANY fan works i see regularly.
iām glad the shift in shadamy has become apparent after TMOSTH and the twitter takeovers. i honestly change my opinion quite frequently between seeing this ship as more platonic or more romantic, but i wanted to still defend it nonetheless becus i find it quite ridiculous how much backlash it got for the stupidest things.
and in case this wasnāt clear- I DONT SUPPORT INCEST AND THIS POST IS NOT TRYING TO EXCUSE INCEST IN ANY WAY. i really just think that characters can be more complex than some people initially interpret them and so to quickly shame others based on these conclusions feels very odd to me.
#shadamy#sonic ships#sonadow#sonic rant#sonic fandom#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#shadow the hedgehog#amy rose#amy rose the hedgehog
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Ask game here!!! ^^^ (Iām on IPad so it looks like this unfortunately š)
(Oh gosh three asks asking me about the same character (Iāll just put them together and answer it as a singular post!))
(Also this turned out way longer than Iāve expected so Iām gonna put a cut here!! To save scrolling time!!)
FAVORITE THING ABOUT THEM
Probably how open Smitten is with his emotions!!! He feels so so much with his whole heart and I really love how heās not afraid to share them! He is a really honest and earnest character and I donāt really see him lying in any way (and if he does, heād probably do a really terrible job at it because of how he wears his heart on his sleeve andnsjsm). I canāt help but feel that his earnestness is something worth admiring!
Oh! And of course of how gentle he can be! Despite his bravado he really knows how to lift someone up with his soft words. He can see how someone is hurting and would attempt to lift them up by reminding them that they are loved and is worth loving. I especially love him in Thorn because of this reason. Heās really just love personified (even if itās towards his own deterrent (donāt do that Smitten))
Also also! I love the way he speaks! Heās so dramatic with his speech patterns that it gives me the giddiest feeling whenever I hear him speak. His princely flair got me alrightā¦ heās so cute,,,.,,ā¦
AND!!! How he subverts the expectations of how love is a purely good thing!!! Love can hurt really really bad as well as heal!! Both the giver and the receiver!!!! And how he is a representation of using fantasy as a coping mechanism!!! He has a lot!!! Of stuff!!!!
(Ik it said āfavourite thing about them (singular)ā but I canāt help but give him appreciation by yapping)
LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT THEM
(I do have some things to say about that despite you occupying 90% of my brain space Smitten </3 itās out of love tho I promyā¦)
To mirror what Iāve said at the beginning, itās of how self-sacrificing he is. My guy has zero self-preservation and self-love despite being the personification of love and emotion. He would literally die for the one he loves and like,,,, NO!!!! SMITTY!!!! SOME PEOPLE WOULD WANT YOU TO LIVE!!!! FOR THEM!!!! SOME PEOPLE WOULD TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOUR DEVOTION!!!!! DONT DO IT!!!! SHAKING YOU ON THE SHOULDERS /AFF
FAVORITE LINE
He has a lot of great lines tbh sbsnsjs
A lot of them are really good, but I just, canāt remember a lot of them, so Iāll just put down those that I actually remember
āMy wrath will echo the depths of my bereavement.ā
āIf we just showed her the contents of our heart... She'd be happy here." ABSOLUTE CHILLS
āYOU SMARMY ASSā
"By cruelly turning on the Princess on her moment of vulnerability we made ourselves an enemy. But, by mastering our fear and insecurity and handing over our power, we've begun a journey to something so much deeper"
BROtp
Smitten and Skeptic! As well as Smitten and Stubborn!!
The Heart and The Head!! The Grey Brothers have a special place in my heartā¦ Theyāre like the two people whoās really different from each other but enjoys each otherās company regardless of that difference. They balance each other out rather nicely despite them never meeting each other officially in game: like, Skeptic could teach Smitten to think before he act on his own emotions and be more sceptical of the intentions of other people, while Smitten could encourage Skeptic to feel with his heart! I see Skeptic as the type of person to have a hard time empathising with other people and would rely heavily on his logic to help solve the problem for them instead of simply listening to them (he cares, just doesnāt know how to do it in a way thatās unfamiliar to him/not his nature), so I think having Smitten be there to teach him how to do that would help him greatly. They would probably understand each other in the ending where TLQ kills Shiftyās heart and becomes a god himself, since Skeptic knows whatās it like to not have a grounding presence to catch him (for Smitten itās the Princess). Him and Cheated would comfort Smitten during those times.
And hereās Beauty and Brawn! Aside from their shared appreciation for the Princess, they are also both really passionate characters who are extremely open with their emotions. Smitten would appreciate Stubbornās showcase of passion towards the Princess, while Stubborn would see strength and potential in Smitten as an opponent! Stubborn would probably rather head straight ahead towards violence instead of using words like Smitten does, but he likes the guy so what the hell
Stubborn would try to get Smitten to fight him, but Smitten just, doesnāt fight him simply because being violent is really not in his nature (unless Stubborn intentionally gloats him into fighting him)
They would be the duo that hugs and cries together whenever thereās a touching scene playing in a movie
OTP
You already know,,..,,,, (itās Burned Bridges)
Funnily enough the infamous Burned Grey lines arenāt the reason why I ship them in the first place
Itās the fact that I remembered a line Cold had said about Smitten would one day want the emotions to go away completely despite how strongly those emotions burn at the current moment , and then telling him to trust him on it.
It just. Reveals so much about Cold as a character.
Not only does it imply that Cold isnāt completely emotionless as he oh so often tells us that he is, and that he had felt strong emotions at one point but had chosen to repress them completely due to how much it had hurt him, but it also reveals that he doesnāt seem to hold the same animosity towards Smitten as the other way around (at least, not the level of hatred Smitten holds for him),as he actually gave him advice on the subject matter. He seems to be more amused by Smitten then anything. Burned Grey is a route where Smitten was denied of his purpose with us deciding to kill the Princess, and Coldās whole thing is about his purpose being denied, and hence the numbing ache in his heart that he desperately wants to fill. So I feel like he would probably understand Smitten in that regard of having his purpose denied. He just, find Smittenās anger really freaking amusing due to the fact that Smitten is usually really chipper. And also the fact that Anger is the rawest emotion there is.
They would definitely start on rough terms though. With Smitten actually fulfilling his promise on letting Cold feel what he had felt (via hurting Cold) and Cold just becoming more and more interested in how far Smitten would go in his pursuit of vengeance. How far would he go? How low would he stoop? He would love to know, and so he would gloat him more and more and see how he would react.
But knowing Smitten, he would probably get really tired of hurting Cold over and over again. He is. Just not a violent person at heart. His starring chapter two is literally one of the three routes that doesnāt have a chapter one that ends with violence(it technically does but you know what I mean(Damsel, Prisoner, Stranger)). Eventually it would reach a point where he would just tiredly tell Cold off without it ending with violence, and that would make Cold feel surprised about the change in his usual pattern of behaviour. Iād like to think that Cold would be the person to reach Smitten out to soothe him on his hollowness and aimlessness when Smitten would deny him over and over until he eventually lets Cold do his thing (heavily influenced by @pink-november ās fic btw) and Smitten coming to a realisation that Cold might not be as emotionless as he thoughtā¦ and then the two deciding to start over on their relationship and become friendsā¦ and then learning that wait, theyāre actually quite similarā¦ and then they unknowingly fall for each other for real the more time they spend with each otherā¦. oughhhhh slowburn Burned Bridges my beloved
āWho needs violence when you have love?ā
āWho needs love when youāve mastered yourself?ā
Also also, fire and ice, pink and black, pillow and blanket, āheroā and āvillainā (but not really), emotional doofus and stoic fella????? ENEMIES TO FRIENDS TO LOVERS SLOWBURN?????? Thatās a lot of stuff!!!! (And the comedic whiplash of āGRRRR I HATE YOU!!!!ā to them cuddling together is just. Really funny to me ok.)
Again, this ship can either go down an even more toxic route then it already is (yummy toxic yaoi) or it could become something really fluffy and tender. It really depends on what direction the writer wants the ship to go. Iām fine with either though. Both are really fun routes.
NOtp
I donāt really have a NOtp for him tbh,,..,,,,.
RANDOM HEADCANON
Iāve already said this in another post, but Iād like to imagine Smitten would abuse nicknames and name the voices with the positive qualities he sees in them. Also this is a headcanon for the Voices in general, but Iād like to think that heād struggle acting away from his nature. Much like the Vessels, the Voiceās nature is all they knew. A part of him would always yearn for the presence of the Princess, since she was literally who he was made to love and dote upon. Even though he would feel genuinely happy that TLQ had found his one true love, a part of him would always feel that emptiness She had left behind, and his heart would ache more and more. Broken in Apotheosis had proven that the Voices can in fact grow their perspective and in turn become more complex, so I feel like Smitten would definitely have his own arc as well once the Voices learn to become their own person and not just a singular facet of TLQ (and especially Oppy and Cold but this aināt about them).
Smitten would be really affectionate with his show of affection (depends on Voice to Voice though!!!! He wouldnāt want to make them feel uncomfortable). If you ask him which showcase of affection his likes most, he would tell you that he loves all shows of affection equally! Love is love and should be showed proud and loud across your heart! Heās the type of guy to casually give platonic smooches on the cheeks (again, depends on Voice to Voiceāif the Voice is uncomfortable with smooches, heād probably just do a handshake or something). He doesnāt really put a line in love. To him, love is just thatālove. There is no need to put a line between platonic, familial and romantic love. As long as the parties are comfortable with how that love is expressed, there is no problem!
Also can we all agree he would write the corniest love songs ever?? Thanks (Cold would be amused by him and listens to Smitten perform despite his comment on the corniness of it all ahahahahah anyway)
UNPOPULAR OPINION
I can agree on Smitten not being a d!ck but saying Smitten is completely harmless and lacks any malicious intent is where I have to disagree. I dunno if this is an unpopular opinion though.
Him wanting to hurt someone in the name of love IS malicious intent despite the motivation. And he has proven that can AND will do what he had said that he would do with him literally killing us after we killed Damsel for seemingly no reason. He is love as much as he is emotional.
Also he seems to care more about how you AND the Princess feels more then his own opinions. He reads as a people pleaser to me. He genuinely just wants you and the Princess to be happy, but then that mixing with his own perception that he is supposed to be the knight in shining armour for the Princess makes for a weird complex.
SONG I ASSOCIATE WITH THEM
We Become We, but specifically that one part of the song with HEA Smitten. I do love me some angst.
(Again sorry about the format!!!!!)
Full song: https://youtu.be/hRllUeany_Q?si=AJHdP-dJUHdf-r30
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That one part: https://youtu.be/mwnXg6GXCk8?si=G1hzN_EG93ulKAhN
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FAVOURITE PICTURE OF THEM
Ohohohohoh I have a couple of those teehee
(I love it when I just draw him like a ball)
#slay the princess#black tabby games#stp#stp voices#voice of the smitten#stp voice of the smitten#stp smitten#slay the princess insight#stp ask
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ź§Blossoming Love ź§
Summary: It was a normal day for you: tending the garden... painting... taking care of your aunt... being the healer of your village... amongst other things. That's until you find a dying kitsune close to your village pleading for your help; in a world where mythical creatures marginalized humans and humans tried their best to live hidden from them all. But you weren't just going to leave him there to die (even if you were full of fear). As always... empathy was one of the biggest weaknesses a human could have. And sadly you were one of those humans.
Rating: š mature bruh
Coupleš: Jeon Jungkook/Reader
Tags/Warnings šØšÆļø: Fluff and Smut, Spit Kink, Hybrid Jeon Jungkook, Kitsune, Fantasy, alternate universe, Light Masochism, Dirty Talk, romantic, Animal Instincts, Past Lives, Oral Sex, Loss of Virginity, healer of the town, human and kitsune, Painter Jeon Jungkook, Painting, draw me like one of your french girls lol, Fox, Masturbation, some choking, He loves the smell of your arousal, Creampie
Word count: 15,541
Side notes: i usually write about dreams Iāve had. This is one of them. And if you see typos or something similarā¦ english is not my first language; sorry š¤” Im just testing the waters hereā¦ i usually post only in Ao3ā¦. Meh hope you dont hate it lol
Pic of JK by @jkxxth1 (tiktok)
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Your hometown was small; it only consisted of a few houses and a small plaza where everybody gathered to do their activities or do festivals. All of you were part of the small percentage of humans who still resided in this world full of mythical creatures; looked down upon because of your āweak useless natureā.
But the majority of you didn't care much for the opinions of the other races. You all knew you were so much more than what they had stamped on your foreheads.
You smiled to yourself as you painted the mountains on your canvas, thinking how lucky you felt to be part of these people. But that was not the only reason you were smiling right nowā¦ you were also smiling because you could hear your aunt fighting in the background with one of your chickens because it had pooped on her balcony.
You were laughing now as your aunt kept arguing with the chicken as if she could understand her. She quickly noticed, giving you a glare. But even though she was trying to be intimidating at first, she ended up giving in with a smile.
āDon't laugh, _____. This is a serious situation.ā
āYes, auntieā¦ it's very serious that one of our chickens shat on your balcony.ā You nodded and continued laughing.
She shook her head with a sigh and a smile, accepting defeat. āCould you at least bring me a bucket of water to clean it? My ankle still hurts from the fall. You would do me a great āā
āOf course, auntie.ā You cut her off, giving her a reassuring smile. āNo need to explain yourself; I understand.ā
āThank you, darling.ā She returned the smile.
āI'll make sure to watch over your painting so the chicken doesn't leave hisā¦ āsignatureā on it.ā She said, side-eyeing the chicken.
You laughed once more before making your way to the villageās well.
Your aunt wasn't the type to ask for favors; she always believed in being independent and doing things for her own growth as a person, and of course so she could give her all to the family and dear friends. So on rare occasions like these, you and others close to her, were always glad to help and return all that love she had always given you throughout the years.
For you, she was a role model you aspired to be.
āGreatā¦ There is a spider on the edge of the well. And itās a big one.ā You sarcastically smiled as you kept your distance; your bucket now placed on the floor as your hands rested on your hips.
Your village was in an open area where there were no trees. But around it, a forest resided and so did the well of the villageā¦ and spiders. Which was one of your biggest fears.
You didn't want to kill it. You may be scared of them but you know they are part of nature and you have to learn to live with them.
You thought of using a stick to get it off but you knew that was just going to be chaos: not knowing where it was going to run to. And you certainly didn't want it crawling up your legs or arms.
A chill ran up your spine just at the thought.
So you just decided it was best to ask someone else for help.
Grabbing your bucket, you turned around to go back to the village.
āP- Ple -ease help m-me.ā
You had only taken a few steps when you heard the pleads; the voice was not recognizable to you. It was a manāsā¦
With your heart almost popping out of your chest, you quickly turned around to be aware of where the man was just in case you needed to defend yourself. Butā¦
You were faced with a pale weak man whose face was covered by a fox mask and hands were placed over a wound under his ribcage, which had and was noticeably bleeding.
āA kitsuneā¦ā you spoke under your breath.
How many hours had this man been bleeding? And why hadn't he been healed? But most importantly of all: what was he doing here alone? He was a kitsuneā¦ a mythical creature that was supposed to be with his kind right now; not here which was really far away. Was he running away from someone? Was this a hoax?
āPlease. I-Iām not here toā hurt you.ā
He had noticed your uncertainty and alertness.
You didn't want to believe him.. you really didn't. You were scared of what could happen and the dangers you could be putting your village in. But you could see the sincerity in his eyes that stood out through the mask. Plus he was bleeding to death, what more proof could you ask for?
Dropping your bucket once more, you hurried up to him, placing his arm around your shoulders and letting him lean on you. You were struggling obviously; you weren't as strong as a man. But you could get through. And, thankfully, the village wasn't far away.
āThanāargh!ā Thank y-you, madam.ā He grunted as he tried not to put so much weight on you.
āDon't force yourself to talk. And you don't have to thank me; it's immoral to leave a man to their death per se.ā
Plus you don't have to address me formally either.Ā You thought to yourself.
You could tell he wanted to say more but kept quiet.
As soon as you were back at the village, you immediately began to call for help. Only a few of them came to help since others were intimidated that he was a kitsune; it was understandable. Kitsunes were known for mischief, being playful and deceiving. But you knew that was not the main reason they were intimidating. It was mostly because of their high rank amongst you living creatures; they were known also for their riches alongside other mythical creatures.
One of the villagers saw you struggling with the injured man, so he rapidly went to his other side to help you carry him. Your aunt was also one to respond, quickly going inside your house to prepare the necessary materials to help with his wound before you got there. She also prepared the large table you had for these types of emergencies to lay him on.
āDo you need anything else, ____?ā Your aunt pointed at the items she had placed for you to work with.
You shook your head. āNo; itās all I need; thank you.ā
She left the room quickly with the man that had helped, knowing it would be more comfortable for you and him that way. But even so, she stayed close by just in case.
Your hands began working instantly; cleaning up the area first. There were a lot of questions in your mind and they all involved the kitsune. How exactly did he end up here? Who was following him? Who or what attacked him? Who was he?
But you reserved the questions for later; making him talk in this state wasn't a very bright idea. Right now you had to focus on patching him and making him feel less pain.
Surprisingly, he wasn't flinching as much as you thought he would be; this is definitely not his first time being injured like this. Only some low grunts and furrowed eyebrows could be seen and heard.
After cleaning up, you grabbed your well-known elixir that you used for wounds like these. Us humans didn't have magic nor any special abilities. But you did have the desire to innovate and progress.
āW-what is that?ā He asked, still having some difficulty breathing.
You momentarily looked up to him, eyes more visible since you are closer now. You gulped, remembering what you were treating.
You felt intimidated for a second, remembering all those tales you had heard and moments you had seen with your own eyes where creatures like him would take advantage of your people.
He noticed.
āI a-al- mm- already said, I-Iām not going to h-hurt you.ā He gulped with his eyes closed as he tolerated the pain.
āTrust meā¦ā he opened his eyes to look at you. āI would never hurt you.ā He reassured you.
And, again, you could see the sincerity through his eyes so you relaxed once more.
āThisā¦ this is an elixir I made using an old recipe my village has. Itās for curing wounds like you have. But I will have to add something else for this one.ā
āWhy?ā He asked.
āBecause I can tell this was made by another kitsune by the shape of it and because it doesn't want to close. A kitsuneās main weakness will always be their own kind.ā You replied.
āHowā¦ do you k-know this?ā
āBecause Iām the healer of my town.ā You smiled at him as you opened the other elixir. āAnd I've treated a few like you before.ā
āLikeā¦ me?ā He weakly pointed at himself.
āYes. But those were already friends or family with the village people. We don't usually allow Kitsunes hereā¦ or any other kind of creatureā¦ you knowā¦ for safety reasons.ā You nervously laughed; still trying to make peace with him as if he hadn't stated enough that he is not going to hurt you.
Again, he noticed the way your eyes immediately averted to his wounds after speaking. He didn't say anything this time; he knew he'd have to instead show through actions his words. He just remained in silence as you finished with his wound; not wanting to stare at you so much to not make you nervousā¦ even though he wanted to; the reason why he would take occasional sneaky glances.
But he couldn't watch you finish, as he soon fell asleep from exhaustion.
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Your people were quick to ask you questions in the morning, worried about the unknown kitsune at their village; except for the few mythical creatures that resided there, since they didn't feel the right to judge. And you explained to each one of them about the situation, trying to remain calm as you did to not freak them out even more. You, yourself, were also a bit worried. But you had decided to trust and have the faith that the kitsune wouldn't take advantage of your village. His sincere eyes still hadnāt left your mind; you knew they were real; you felt it. So it was better to trust your heart rather than your anxiety.
As you finished explaining to one of the villagers, your aunt called you from the balcony of your house.
āHeās awake. And he is asking for you.ā She called.
You gave your goodbyes to the villager and went rapidly to your house.
āThanks for letting me know, auntie.ā You smiled as your hand reached the door handle, but it was stopped by another familiar hand.
āYou sure youāll be alright all by yourself?ā She asked with concerned eyes.
āI'll be fine, auntie. I'm still going to be careful so don't worry.ā
āOk.ā She nodded, still noticeably concerned but decided to trust your words, leaving the area. But letting someone know to be attentive just in case.
As you entered, you noticed him standing as he curiously inspected the medicines on your shelf, one hand pressing on the wound.
But that was not the only thing you noticed. There were scarsā¦ old deep scars on his back. As if he had received some sort of punishment. You let it go; it was not the time, place nor situation to ask something so personal. It was not like he was going to stay for long anyway; getting close to him was unnecessary.
āWell you healed quickly.ā You spoke with a smile, coming closer to him. But not too close.
āAnd that is thanks to you and theseā¦ potions? Are you a witch?ā He asked as his eyes now laid on you.
You chuckled. āNo, I'm not a witch. I'm just a plain human with very intelligent ancestors who crafted all those medicines and I happened to perfect them.ā
āThatāsā¦ incredible!ā
There it was again: that sincerity.
You blushed. āThank you ummā¦ā
āJungkook. Jeon Jungkook.ā
He still had his mask on. You were so curious of what was underneath, but did not want to disrespect him so you remained silent.
āCan I check your wound?ā You asked him.
āY- yes, of course.ā He replied as he snapped out of a trance. A trance you had put him on since he arrived there.
He was already shirtless so you were quick to get to the wound, removing its bandages first. As you did, you became really conscious of how close you were with this kitsune, feeling his breathing collide with your face occasionally. You were trying so hard not to touch him. But it was inevitable.
āSorry if I'm being inappropriate.ā You said nervously.
āNo, not at all.ā
āI don't mind.ā He added.
You ignored his last comment, not wanting to think it had another meaning behind it.
He just said it casually, thatās all.Ā You repeated in your mind.
After finishing checking his wound and adding more medicine, you patched him up once again with clean bandages.
āOk soā¦ā you clapped your hands together.
āGood news is, you have healed almost completely; which not only has to do with my medicines, but because you are a kitsune and kitsunes heal faster if treated properly.ā
He nodded.
āBad news isā¦ youāll have to stay a few days more to make sure it heals completely.ā You added with a sympathetic look, knowing he probably wouldn't like the idea.
āBut you don't haveāā
āI'm ok with it.ā
You didn't get to finish your sentence; he already had the answer as if he had been expecting your suggestion.
āOh! Ok. Ummmā¦ Jungkook, right?ā
He nodded; sparkle in his eyes as excitement ran through his veins knowing he would get to wake up to your presence.
āYou can keep resting on the couch; that will be your bed for now if you don't mind.ā
āI don't.ā
āPerfect then let me notify the village.ā
You were about to leave when he stopped you.
āWait! Can I come with you?ā He asked.
āS-sure.ā You replied, taken aback by his sudden request.
āLet me take this off first.ā He added as he took off his mask.
Your lips fell apart, taking in the beauty the kitsune held as he laid the mask on the couch. It was true what the rumors said: kitsunes were born with undeniable and inexplicable beauty. But it was understandable since they were born to charm. They always got their way; it was rare to see a kitsune who wasn't able to seduce or charm their target; they had a gift.
āDon't wanna scare anyone more than they already are.ā He nervously chuckled as his hand ruffled his hair.
Your curiosity had been fed. And you couldn't help but to become shy and self conscious. Being around an attractive person always makes you feel nervous.
āItāsā it's ok.ā You struggled to speak for a second. āThey will eventually warm up to you; weāve had kitsunes before so don't worry so much.ā
As he saw your reassuring smile, the kitsune wondered if the rumors he had heard about humans were true: that they secretly possessed the ability to enchant or seduce other creatures like himself. As time passed, more and more creatures of high rank were eloping with humans to the point where it was getting normal. Things were changing, but the hate and contempt against humans was still there. And all of you knew it was going to be hard for it to leave. But he didn't care about what other people thought; he saw all creatures as equals even if they were mortals. And right now, he was ready to risk it all for you.
You both went outside to greet the villagers; you being up front and Jungkook following behind like a puppy, trying his best to make people like him.
You introduced Jungkook to each one of the villagers, also explaining the situation and why he was going to stay a few days more. It was necessary and it was also common courtesy; it was a random stranger that had entered the village and the ācherry on the topā being that he was a kitsune. This way people could be alert for any weird movements from the kitsune.
Jungkook bowed multiple times to each one of the villagers with a āthank youā and āsorry for the inconvenienceā. He had already conquered the hearts of many. Not only because of his cuteness but, of course, because of his beauty. You could tell some of your friends were already trying to flirt with him. And you just couldn't help but to shake your head at them. Of course, there were always the doubtful ones that still didn't trust him. But did not treat him badly either.
The two kitsunes we had were the quickest to bond with him, for obvious reasons.
āNice to meet you, Jungkook. Iām Jimin and this is Hoseok.ā Both bowed to him and Jungkook did the same. It was a common thing between their kind.
āGlad to see there is another kitsune as handsome as us staying here too.ā Jimin said, making Hoseok roll his eyes.
āHe is only staying here for a few days until he gets better.ā You quickly intervened.
āOh, ok.ā Hoseok said, a little bit disappointed he wasn't staying; he could feel he wasn't a bad guy. But it was understandable to him and Jimin.
Jungkookās expression changed as soon as you said those words and both of them saw right through their fellow kitsune. They both looked at each other, knowing all too well this situation: a kitsune falling for a human. They both had eloped with humans after all.
Well at least they hoped this was the case. They truly wanted you to be happy and being taken care of; both of them knew how devoted you were with your people. So they saw this as an opportunity for all that love to be returned to you.
After Jiminās fanboying over Jungkook, you said your goodbyes to them and ended up in front of your house once again. But before you both entered, you remembered the painting you had left outside to dry. You needed to take it inside; chickens, pigeons and kidsā¦ they were all hazards to the painting.
āOh! Give me a second.ā You said to him.
The painting had turned out satisfying enough for you to showcase and you were proud. Even though you had some interruptions while trying to finish itā¦ you were able to finish it on time.
Jungkookās eyes followed you as you grabbed it and went inside the house, following behind.
āWere you the one to paint that?ā He pointed, as you placed it on the table.
āYes, I did.ā You smiled, proceeding to cover up the painting with a blanket to protect it.
āThen teach me how to paint.ā
You quickly turned to him, mouth falling open at his bold unexpected request.
āPardon?ā
āI want you to teach me how to paint, madam.ā He said, taking a few steps closer to you.
āIā¦ Iām no teacher, sir. And you are only staying for a couple of days.ā You backed up a little.
āWhat if I wanted to stay longer?ā His eyes sparkled.
Silence.
You had a lot of doubts at that moment. A random stranger had appeared out of nowhere and now he wanted to live there. And it's not like he seemed to not have money nor a home. You could tell that he was from a wealthy family because of his clothing.
āWhy do you want to stay?ā You asked.
āJust a hunch.ā
āA hunch?ā You repeated him, and he just nodded with a soft smile, showing one of his dimples.
Kitsunes were known to be very intuitive and spiritual, and you knew this very well. But you didn't think there was any purpose in him staying here when he clearly had it all. But you also knew that was a very ignorant thought. Stillā¦ why stay here?
A chuckle couldn't help but to escape your mouth at his absurd response. āYou are a wealthy kitsune Jeon Jungkook, why would you want to stay here?ā
āI may look like I don't, but I prefer simplicity over luxury.ā
āAnd how can I trust you?ā
āGive me a month and I'll prove to you and your village that I am worthy of staying here.ā
You took a deep breath and exhaled, fear and worry crippling on you.
It wouldn't be fair to not give him an opportunity like the other kitsunes had. And besidesā¦ if he were to turn against you allā¦ you not only had two kitsunes as your allies, but also a werewolf, a nymph and a fallen angel. It was a weird combination you had to admit, but a powerful one.
āIāll talk to the village. But I do not guarantee anything.ā
And his smile grew into an enthusiastic grin.
. . .
āI think we were wrong about him.ā Your aunt said as you both sipped some chamomile tea on her balcony, watching the kitsune before you try to convince a kid it was time to go to bed after playing with him for hours. It was a funny sight indeed.
āIt's only been a week, auntie. At least my trust isn't there yet.ā
āOh, come on. He has bonded with the village so well as if he had lived here for weeks already. People love him; he has helped with so many things.''
āI find it highly amusing how you were the most defensive about him staying here and now look at you.ā
The kid had now started to run with Jungkookās mask and he was now not only trying to get him to bed, but also trying to save his precious dignity.
You snorted out a laugh, making you cover your mouth with your hand, not being able to hold it in anymore.
āDon't come at me with that poop, darling. You like him too.ā
āPoop? Seriously? And I do not like him, I only find him amusing.ā You shook her head at her with a chuckle.
āYou know I do not curseā¦ and you do like him; just with the smile you're making at him right nowā¦ it says it all. Maybeā¦ even more than a friend.ā She sipped the tea right after.
You choked on your tea. āI do notāĀ coughĀ like him likeāĀ coughĀ that.ā Eyes watering.
She just shook her head at you knowingly; your reaction was enough for her. You weren't the type to get flustered easily. āEnough with the lying and go get me some apples so we can bake that big apple-pie for tomorrowās showcase.ā
āBut I'm comfy right now.ā You whined.
āAnd you are younger than me, so get going. Just ask Jungkook to accompany you like you always do when you are scared of finding spiders.ā
āHey! I can happily go alone.ā
āYeah, and the Earth is flat. Go on now, I'll be waiting inside.ā She said, standing up and going inside as said with both of your teacups.
āUgh!ā
Reality was that you did want Jungkook to accompany you. Not only because of the spiders but because you actually liked his company as much as you hated to admit. He was funny, intelligent, caring, sensitiveā¦
What the hell am I even thinking? Remember _____, he is a kitsune and they have the ability to charm; snap out of it.
Still, it wasn't that bad to indulge in those wantsā¦ right?
āKai! Give him the mask back!ā You scolded the child.
The kid immediately stopped running and stood straight as a stick, quickly handing the mask to Jungkook.
āApologize and go to your motherās house.ā
āBut I don't wanna go to sleep! The sun is still out.ā The kid whined.
āItās setting down already so you need to go get ready for bed; motherās rules.ā
The kid whined one last time, apologized and left for his house.
āThanks for that. That was nice of you.ā He cleared his throat. āā¦ and hot.ā That last part wasn't heard by you.
āAccompany me to the apple trees and we will call it even.ā
āScared of the spiders again?ā Jungkook laughed.
You began mocking his laugh. āAnd do you wanna talk about how a kid took your mask and you couldn't get it back?
His laughter immediately toned down. āHey! I almost had it in my hands again!ā
āYeah, right.ā You started laughing again, remembering the scene.
āHave a nice time with the spiders then.ā He smiled knowingly, turning his back at you as he began to walk away.
āNooo!ā You exclaimed at him, grabbing his arm.
You didn't see it. But he was smirking while he had his back turned to you. He liked knowing that you needed him. He wished you needed him more; In all types of ways.
Where the trees resided, wasn't so far away. But it did take a bit to get there. And since the night was starting to set in, you had a little more difficulty seeing even though you brought a lamp with you.
Jungkook on the other hand didn't have any problem with it since he could see at night, he was a fox after all. For that reason he didn't take his eyes off of you, worrying you might fall. But you didn't gladly. Even though he wanted an excuse to touch you.
There were already some lamps surrounding the trees and other crops since sometimes our people needed crops during the night for emergencies or just random hunger.
You quickly began to work using a ladder to lower the apples as Jungkook stayed on the ground waiting for you to throw him the apples so he could put them in the basket. At one point an apple fell on Jungkookās head and you couldn't help but to laugh at him as he looked at you annoyed. But at the end he couldn't resist laughing too.
After you finished, you decided to take a break close to the nearby pond, drinking some water while you were at it. But Jungkook had other plans, he wanted to take revenge because of the apple on his head.
āOh my god, _____! There is a big spider crawling on you!ā He shouted.
You gasped. āWhat?! Where?!ā
You quickly stood up trying to shake off whatever you had on you. But then you heard Jungkook laughing so loud, tears were forming in his eyes. And that's when it clicked.
āYou assā-ā But your words got cut off as you tripped on a heavy branch and fell on your knees.
āShit, _____. Are you ok?!ā Jungkookās laugh immediately stopped, quickly going towards you to help and check on you.
You sat on the ground and you raised your skirt up till you saw the knee that was hurting. And that's when both of you noticed you were bleeding.
āFuck. I-Iām sorry, _____. Let me cure you.ā he quickly grabbed your knee regretting ever scaring you like that.
Your anger had toned down; now you were more embarrassed than angry.
āIāll cure myself at home, itās ok.ā
āThatās nonsense when I can just save you some pain by using my powers.ā
āPowers?ā You tilted your head to the side with a thoughtful look on your face, not remembering anything about kitsunes being able to heal. But, again, you only knew the basics.
āHere, I'll show you.ā He said as he carefully straightened your leg for you to be more comfortable.
One of his hands went on top of your wound, being careful not to touch it, while his other hand rested on the backside of your knee. And a blue light began emerging from his hand to your wound.
āIt will take a minute or two, so bear with me.ā he said as he focused on your knee.
Gladly you didn't feel any pain. But the adrenaline from the scare and the fall began to dissipate and you were now conscious of where he was touching. You didn't want to think of it as anything else so talking was the best option to distract yourself from your bodyās reaction.
āYou know your little prank is going to cost you an art lesson, right?ā
āOh, come on. Iām healing you. Iām making up for my sin.ā
āPffft.ā You laughed. āDon't say it like that, it wasn't that bad.ā
āWell I am trying to convince you not to take an art lesson from our week.ā
āI don't know why you want them so badly. You already know how to paint. Besides, you never pay attention to my lessons; youā¦alwaysā¦ stare at my face. I don't know why.ā You chuckled nervously. Recalling all the moments he would drift his attention from his canvas to you, making you feel insecure. You kind of wanted an explanation of why he did that so maybe you would stop feeling so self conscious at your lessons.
His eyes lifted up to you for a moment, as if he wanted to say something, but went back to your knee. āIā¦ still need work and you know it.ā
āTrue.ā You responded, feeling even more insecure since he didn't comment on the āstaringā.
The atmosphere had turned serious and you could feel it, mainly from him. You felt a little bit awkward because of it.
āDone.ā The blue light faded and the wound had disappeared; you were completely amazed by it.
āThat is amazing. I didn't know kitsunes could do that.ā You said, staring at your now healed wound.
But Jungkook didn't say anything back nor did he take his hand or eyes off of your knee; you noticed quickly.
āJungkook?ā You questioned him, nervous you had said something wrong.
His eyes were trailing now to your still covered thighs as his thumb caressed where the wound used to be. And you could feel your heartbeat starting to accelerate.
Your skirt was now being lifted up centimeter by centimeter, slowly and steadily; thigh becoming bare to him before your eyes.
A broken gasp came out of your lips as his hand went up, making him look up at you. Both of you know staring into each other's eyes. The coldness of the night being ignored by your lustful warm body. Your leg was now fully exposed to him to do as he pleased. He didn't stop looking at you as his hand went up and down your thigh with a firm grasp, teasing you; getting dangerously close to your slit with some strokes.
āYou still don't get it, huh?ā
His head lowered to your inner thigh and began sucking on the skin.
āFuckā¦ā You said under your breath.
This feeling was new to you; you had never been with a man despising occasional confessions. Yes you had touched yourself, but this was different. You felt your chest fill with an overwhelming lust and slit starting to ache.
After leaving a noticeable red spot, he began kissing the rest of your thigh, momentarily licking a stripe from your knee to your upper thigh and rubbing his forehead against it, ending with a soft bite. After doing so, his eyes returned to yours.
āI stare at you because I think you are beautiful.ā
āNot only because of your body but because of who you are.ā
āI want to be around you every minute of the day.ā
His hand was now stagnant as it laid dangerously close to your slit once more. āBe mine, ______.ā
Be mine. You repeated in your head. And that's when you snapped out of it. You remembered they had the gift to get anything they wanted and for you this was an attempt to do so. So you immediately pulled your leg off of his grasp, leaving him with a confused look.
āI-I canāt.ā You shook your head scared.
āWhat?ā his eyes were now full of preoccupation as he saw you stand up and walk away from him.
ā_____! Wait!ā He said as he stood up and grabbed the basket with apples. But you began running, not wanting him close to you as you were scared of him and yourself.
He also began to run towards you calling out to you. He could easily outrun you but he decided to not overwhelm you and just call you from afar.
You continued running despising his calls, eyes blurry from the tears, confused on what to feel or do. It felt like an eternity running, even though it wasn't. That's until you collided with another body, you were going to back away immediately thinking it was him again. But when you were about to run away, the body held you still forcing you to look up and that's when you calmed down a bit.
ā____! Are you ok?!ā Jimin asked worriedly.
āIā¦ I don't know.ā
As Jimin lifted his gaze up to see what you were running from, he saw Jungkook. He was going to confront him until he noticed he was equally as confused. So he decided it was best to leave it like that until he heard you talk.
āLetās go to my house, Erika is there too so you can talk to us.ā
Hearing one of your best friendās name gave you another reason to calm down.
You nodded.
Before taking you to his house, he gave Jungkook one last look. And he could tell he was worried and at the same time scared. And that gave him the confirmation he needed to wait it out.
As soon as Erika saw you entering through the door, her expression changed.
ā____, is everything ok? Did something happen?ā she worried as she guided you to the living roomās sofa for you to sit and relax.
āDarling, please bring me a glass of water for her.ā She told Jimin and he instantly went to the kitchen to prepare one.
āPlease tell me what happened, _____. Donāt leave me worried like sometimes you do. Give me the opportunity to help you once in a while.ā Erika said, hand resting on your shoulder.
She knew you very well, how sometimes you would hold onto things to not bother anyone.
Jimin returned with the glass of water and gave it to you.
You drank up a little bit before pondering over what to say. But in the end you concluded it was best to open up to them. One, because you didn't want them to think they were untrustworthy to you. And second, because your best friend was married to a kitsune. And what could be better than advice from a kitsune, himself, and his wife on this situation?
āErikaā¦ Jiminā¦ howā how do you know when a kitsune is mind controlling you?ā A mixture of worry and shyness was evident on you, so your eyes stuck to the glass of water to hide them.
But silence was your response. And anxiety was quick to show up.
Is the situation worse than I thought? Did they already realize who I'm talking about? Did I offend Jimin and their relationship? Was I wrong?
Your mind was spiraling with questions. Thatās until you decided to look up and face them. And instead of anger or worry, you were greeted with a Jimin who was trying his best to hold his laughter in. But in the end failed.
And all that could be heard was his laughter.
āWelpā¦ prepared to be bullied for the rest of your life.ā Erika said to you.
āWhat?ā You were dumbfounded and confused. You just wanted him to finish laughing so you could finally hear his answer.
āPfffft, it's that what you think we do?ā He just continued laughing.
āJimin, I'm serious. Please answer me.ā You grew impatient.
He calmed himself down, whipping tears off of his face. āFine, fine. I'll calm down now.ā
He sat to the opposite side of you; now you were in between them.
āLook _____, I don't know from where you got that information but it's incorrect. Kitsunes do possess the ability to charm but it's because of their natural beauty and art of seduction. It comes natural to us. And it doesn't always work on everybody. Erikaā¦ She would be an example. Remember? She was a pain in the ass to conquer.ā He rolled his eyes at her.
āWhat can I say? I just don't give up this piece of ass that easily.ā She shrugged and Jimin just shook his head at her.
Redā¦ you were completely red from embarrassment. All this time you were only listening to assumptions from other people and anxiety instead of doing actual research. Like for fuckās sake you had two kitsunes as you friends. But you just felt embarrassed to ask. Even so, the result was the same: embarrassment. You had learned your lesson.
āHeyā¦ does that mean you never trusted me and Hoseok?ā His eyes went into shock mode. As he slowly realized that maybe you never even considered him or Hoseok a friend.
āN-n-noā¦ w-wellā-ā
āIām hurt right now.ā Jimin said standing up with a pout that was more adorable than intimidating.
āListen to me! It was only at the beginning but as I got to know you guys I began to trust you with time. And seeing how Erika and Delilah took time to be in a relationship with you guys, then I thought: hey, they are actually trustworthy; they didn't use their powers to make them fall in love.ā
āDo you understand what I'm trying to say?ā You added.
āNext time just ask us, please. I know us mythical creatures have a bad reputation among humans, but I can assure you, not all of us are snob assholes.ā Jimin replied and you just nodded, not able to look him in the eye from the lingering embarrassment.
āRemember, we don't bite.ā Jiminās gaze landed on his wife: Erika. āUnless you want us too.ā He winked.
āYou are cringe.ā Erika replied to his not so subtle innuendo, making you laugh for a moment.
āI agree." An unexpected, but all too familiar voice spoke. All eyes were now on one of the open windows that looked to the balcony where a Hoseok now stood resting his body on the edge of it.
āWhat the fuck? You were eavesdropping?!ā Jimin exclaimed.
āYes, but that's because I saw the whole thing and got worried.ā
āWaitā¦ who else saw what happened?ā You quickly asked as embarrassment began to cripple on you once more. You only remember running until you collided with Jimin. But you didn't pay much attention to your surroundings.
āWho cares? What you should be worrying about is how you are going to repay me for defamation and violation of the friend code. Try making me noodles for a week and then maybe I'll forgive you.ā Hoseok said.
āOh! I want too!ā Jimin added.
āYou guys are asses.ā Erika shook her head but then turned her attention to you while the two men planned on how to bother you for the next week.
You had gone into deep thought, analyzing yourself and trying to decipher your feelings towards him. If he wasn't ācharmingā you, thenā¦
āDo youā¦ do you like him, ____?ā Erika read your mind.
Your best friend had deciphered the situation better than you; of course, she was your best friend after all. Butā¦
āI don't know.ā you responded as you got up.
āThank youā¦for everythingā¦I have to do something now. Iāll see you later! Thank you again!ā you said as you rushed out of the door.
āWhere are you going-?ā You heard Jiminās faint voice just before you closed the door behind you.
You didn't answer, you just wanted to get to your destination which was anywhere where Jungkook was right now. All you wanted was to apologize even though you still felt ashamed for your previous thoughts.
Your feelings were unsure. But you were sure about one thing: you wanted him to know you were sorry and that things were ok between the both of you.
How do I really feel?Ā The question persisted in your head as you stopped half away, pondering on it, but your feet picked up speed again down the path.
No, I had to see him, I didnāt have a plan of action but I felt after seeing him it will make sense.
Nearby you saw your aunt with the basket of apples heading to her house, which meant Jungkook had been with her. So you immediately went to her and asked if she knew where he had headed, but she also didn't know.
She caught up quickly to the situation, asking you. āWhat happened between the both of you?ā
āN-nothing.ā You brushed off as you turned away and left to keep searching for him, ears blocking out your aunt's voice.
You went to your house and searched other parts of the village but he was nowhere to be found. Anxiety had started to creep in and cloud your mind with the possibility that he had left or something had happened to him.
Taking a deep breath in, you continued down the path to the nearby onsen the villagers sometimes visit but at this time most people would be in their homes, it was actually mainly you roaming this path tonight like a suspicious person. But you needed to take a break and calm yourself.
You pushed the bushes away from your face as you peaked at the back entrance of the onsen, the sight took your breath away and stopped your heart momentarily. The sun was setting, painting the sky with warm colors, the smoke from the onsen rising into the air and into the last rays of the sun, gold tinting the onsen and the shirtless man drying his damped hair after he had taken his bath. It was Jungkook, although there was no one else in sight he was wearing his kitsune mask; his hair was in a half up do and his bottom hair was still wet. His torso was still bare; he only had placed a towel around his neck as he gazed at the moon. You could sense the sadness, even though you couldnāt see his expression. He whistled a sad melody, the sight appeared almost like a kitsune crying out to the moon for it to come out.
The shame had returned, killing your determination and making you unsure if to approach him or just leave. But the universe had other plans. Because as the thoughts ran through your mind, something else ran over your hands from holding the bushes, and of course, it was a spider.
You immediately shrieked at the spider, rapidly moving your hand to shake it off. After successfully shaking it off, you noticed the whistling came to a halt and your eyes locked on Jungkook who was now staring your way, so much for stealth.
You needed his mask more than him, to hide from the embarrassment.
Trying not to show embarrassment and reveal your racing heart as you neared him around the onsen.
ā...Iāve been looking for you.ā You mumbled, not fully being able to look at him fully just yet.
āAre you ok, though?ā He stood up and went to you, examining the hand where the unwanted visitor had been.
You nodded and he relaxed.
āIt was a spider, wasn't it?ā
āYeahā¦ā you chuckled nervously.
He laughed but his expression dimmed as he remembered. So he backed up and went to sit in one of the benches and took his mask off putting it to the side.
āYou ran away from me, I didn't think youād be looking for me.ā He said quietly.
āI know...ā You replied quietly too.
āYou can sit if you want.ā He offered.
You thanked him and sat next to him. Your eyes couldn't stop themselves as they slightly glanced at his body, you had seen it many times before but why was it suddenly making you feel this way, as if you shouldnāt look but also canāt look away. You watched one drop of water slowly making its way down from his chest to his abs.
āItās pretty, isn't?ā he said as he looked at the moon that glanced at you both and the now hidden sun.Ā
āMhmā¦ā Is all you replied as you secretly referred to his body.
ā-about earlier..ā He started, startling you out of your intrusive thoughts, making you blush even more.
āAh..uh..um yesā¦ā You stuttered.
There was a pause.
āIām sorry.ā You both spurted out at the same time. You looked at each other for a second until you both chuckled.
āYou don't need to be sorry; I was the one who made you feel uncomfortable.ā He smiled as he gazed at the water.
āYouā¦ you didn't make me feel uncomfortable. On the contraryā¦ Iā¦ā You bit your lower lip as you blushed trying to finish the sentence.
āYou liked it?ā he finished for you; his eyes searching yours hopeful as yours shied away.
You nodded, staring at your fingers, not being able to look at him; taking advantage of the hair that fell on the side of your face so he couldn't see you blushing.
He bit his lower lip to keep his pleased smile from showing, gaze going to your legs, tempted to continue what he left unfinished earlier. But held himself back, not wanting to scare you again. So he looked away, taking a deep breath to compose himself as his grip on the edge of the bench tightened.
āI owe you an apology, Jungkook. I got scared because of ignorant beliefs.ā You continued.
āCan I ask what those were?ā
āIā¦Iā¦ thought you were hypnotizing me orā¦something.ā
āWell thatās a compliment.ā he smirked.
āIdiot.ā you pushed him to the side playfully as he laughed. āIām just happy I have other kitsunes in my life to explain stuff like this to me.ā
āIām also glad. Because if you didn't, I would've probably lost you after that.ā he pushed the strand of hair that had been hiding you from him, behind your ear.
āNoā¦ I would've still come to you.ā You chuckled. āYou are too special to me to lose.ā
Oh, how much he wanted to kiss you, but couldn't; not yet.
Your gaze then landed on his mask. āWhy were you wearing your mask again? If I may ask?ā
āI have a tendency to hide my face when I feel ashamed or angry.ā He chuckles a little bit embarrassed. āI guess I use it to hideā¦ my feelings and myself.ā He said quietly.
You nodded in understanding; knowing the situation all too well; on your occasion, it was painting that helped you vent those emotions, turning them into something only you understood the entirety of.
āMay I look at it?ā You asked and he nodded, giving it to you.
You traced your fingers delicately on every feature of the mask; it was as beautiful as him.
āMay I put it on?ā You asked and he complied once again, never wanting to say no to you. But also because he was curious.
Placing the mask on your face you could smell his scent which made you very pleased.
You giggled. āI like it.ā You looked at him, seeing he was smiling at you fondly and intrigued by you. Butterflies filled your stomach and thanked the mask for hiding your blush.
Not knowing how to deal with the emotions, you took off with the mask to tease him and avoid your feelings. āNow itās mine!ā You shouted as you giggled maliciously while running as fast as you can through the trees.
It took him a few seconds to react, not expecting at all what just happened. He wasn't surprised though, as he knew sometimes you could pass as a kitsune because of how naughty you were, especially with him and he liked that the most.
He followed behind you, not even caring to use his powers to outrun you as he was enjoying the chase and hearing you laugh.
But your running was brought to a halt as you encountered a nearby pond you had forgotten about and almost fell into it.
āShit.ā You cursed to yourself. You were about to take another route when a pair of arms grabbed you by the waist from behind abruptly, stopping you.
āCaught you! I won!ā He exclaimed happily as he tried to take his mask back but you wouldn't let him.
All that could be heard was the sound of laughter as you both wrestled for the mask. At one point you lost balance and almost fell on your knees, but this time Jungkook softened the fall by holding you tightly, not wanting you to get hurt like last time.
You were about to stand up again but he went on top of you, trapping you.
The atmosphere had changed in a matter of seconds.
āI saidā¦ I won.ā His voice turned suddenly low, his eyes turning lustful as they bore into you, loving the way you looked underneath him. āNow what do I get in return besides my mask, madam? Surely there must be more prizes for the winnerā¦ or does the winner get to choose? Because if soā¦ the winner has a few things in mind already.ā His eyes then went to your lips, casually licking his own.
You were flabbergasted by the situation and not in a bad way. Your eyes also went to his lips, but since you were shy, you took the mask and placed it on his face and gave him a kiss on what supposedly was his lips instead and chuckled afterwards oblivious to the tremendous effect it had on him.
āThereā¦ that was yourā-ā
Your mouth couldn't finish the sentence as his lips went for yours immediately after taking his mask off.
The kiss was heavenly for you. It was your first kiss so it was a little bit hard to keep with his needy experienced lips. But, even so, you found your way to reciprocate his kiss and feelings; it was something you wanted as much as he did.
You whimpered softly on his lips, making him stop and rest his forehead on yours with his eyes closed and eyebrows furrowed with his jaw clenched.
He took a deep breath and exhaled, relaxing himself. āYou make me go insane, ______. You know that?ā
Still on cloud 9 you just proceeded to caress his cheek and scalp. There was a brief moment of silence as he enjoyed your caresses.
āI have something for you, _____.ā He broke the silence.
āAnd what would that be, sir Jungkook?ā you playfully responded.
He laid beside you, facing you. Your eyes then went to his hand that was in a fist, blue light grabbing your attention as it went through the open spaces. Once the light vanished, his hand then opened, revealing a necklace with a little crystal jar as a pendant.
āWhat is that?ā you asked.
ā_____ā¦ I chose you as my mate.ā
You sat up as soon as he said those words. You knew what that meant. It meant he couldn't be with anybody else after this, only you. Every tribe of kitsunes had their own ritual to choose a mate; you didn't know what his tribeās ritual was but all you knew was that you were irritated by it. You never liked the idea of marrying an immortal to later leave alone to suffer for an eternity. It's not that you didn't agree with those types of relationships but it's just something you didn't want for yourself. You knew you were going to be constantly worrying about the future. Hence why you always admired Erikaās relationship by how fearless and in the moment they were.
āJungkook, why would you do that?!ā
āYou already know the answer: because I fell for you, _____ā¦ and hard.ā He sat up too, surprisingly calm to your reaction.
āAre you crazy?! Iām a mortal; I don't even last one century! You shouldn't have done that!ā You were now standing.
Tears accumulated in your eyes, making your vision blurry. It was a reaction that even for you was unexpected; it made you realize how much you cared for him.
āWhat if I don't love you back, huh?! And what if I die tomorrow? What are you going to do then?!ā
The tears were falling freely now. But they were interrupted by the pass of his caress.
āI already know the consequences, _____. And I donāt mind facing them.ā He laid a kiss on your cheek, calming you.
āHowā¦ how are you not scared?ā You hiccupped, wiping your tears away.
āBecause my heart is where it belongs. And I knew from day one that you were my person; I could sense it as ifā¦ I had met you in another life; and I wasn't in the wrong.ā He calmly assured you with a smile. āNow hold your hair up.ā
You hesitated a bit but complied.
āThis signifies my commitment to you; I want to marry you, _____.ā Jungkook explained as he went behind you and placed the necklace on your neck.
āJungkook, I don't think I'm there yet.ā You shook your head and eyes began to water again; scared. But he continued clasping your necklace.
āThe jar contains seven flowers. Each time you experience romantic love for me, one will bloom. Once the 7th has bloomed, that means you have fallen deeply in love with me and thatās when I'll marry you. In other words: Iāll wait for you.ā He continued to clean your tears. āAnd even if they never bloom, and you want someone elseā¦ it will be ok. Iām not gonna lie to you, it will hurt.ā He chuckled. āBut knowing I'll still have you as a friend, would be enough for me.ā
You couldn't understand how he was so sure after spending such a short period of time with you. You were scared for him; you didn't want him to live an unhappy life because of you and his decision.
Butā¦ At the same time, your heart couldn't resist feeling overjoyed at his words and the thought of spending the rest of your life with him.
Your hands then went to the pendant to examine it. It had flowers inside of it, seven different types of flowers about to bloom. You found it incredible how small they were; it was like a miniature garden inside of the jar.
āCan this be undone, the mate thing is only if i wear it, right?ā You spoke more calmly now.
She is so cute.Ā He thought to himself, chuckled and wrapped his arms around you, hugging tightly.
āYou know... I have many things I love about you, but you worrying about us and our future, just drawns me even more." He smiled. " And no, it can't be undone because the necklace was made specifically for you; I've already committed to you to my creator: Inari.ā
āPlease ____, stop worrying. I've lived long enough to know that you are the only one for me. Iām going to be ok regardless; I just wanted you to know that my heart belongs to you.ā He added.
You took a deep breath and exhaled, closing your eyes as your head rested on his chest; hearing his literal heart beat. You were overwhelmed and scared but you knew it was just anxiety talking. He was determined and you needed to remind yourself that he had lived centuries before you; that he had lived almost through every trial in life and that he was mature and wise enough to make this decision. You also reminded yourself that as long as you had each other, it was all going to be fine. And that living in the moment is what truly matters.
āLetās go back before my aunt sends Jimin or Hoseok to find me; she knew something was off when I last talked to her.ā You broke from his embrace. āā¦Or worseā¦ Yoongi.ā
āWho is Yoongi?ā Jungkook asked, amused by your reaction to his name.
āHe is a fallen angel and he is scary when he is mad.ā You said as you walked the path back to the village, Jungkook followed behind.
āWhy? He gets violent?ā He asked, concerned.
āNo! Not at all! He is just very strict. But let me tell youā¦ he is very sweet under that hard shell he has and makes the best apple pie in the villageā¦ donāt tell my aunt I said that, please.ā You said making him chuckle.
āIs it that good?ā he asked, intertwining his hand with yours.
āOh, yes! Wait till you try it! Yoongi has made it for me since I was little.ā You squealed in excitement.
āIs that so?ā he asked, intrigued but also in a trance with your beauty, like always.
And so the conversation continued to the village, without you realizing a flower had already bloomed: a Larch.
. . .
Everything was under a different light now. Every gesture, action and affectionate words were now felt differently. The feelings of love you neglected of him were now finally showing their colors, blossoming into something beautiful just like the flowers that rested on your neck.
Seven flowersā¦ And one had already bloomed.
The second one, a Rumex, bloomed as his hand caressed your hair, both laying on your bed while he told you various stories from his childhood; one of them being how he had learned how to paint; and the others just showed you how naughty he was of a fox when a kid. All so you could fall asleep during the raging thunderstorm.
The third flower, a Spirea, bloomed when he told you how beautiful you were as you focused on your painting.
The fourth flower, a Buttercup, slowly bloomed as you both splashed each other with water in the nearby river and later on played hide and seek with the kids from your village; laughter and joy not seeming to cease.
The fifth flower, a Clematis, bloomed after reconciling on your first fight; making you understand that love isn't always perfect and that was ok. Because if the love is truthful, it is always bound to prevail over any circumstance or pride. That's what makes it so beautiful.
The sixth flower, a Sweershrub, bloomed when you saw him help an elder of the village to find and pick her favorite flowers for her balcony. Later on, bringing one for you too; one that he had found and had āthought of youā as he admired it.
The seventh flowerā¦ the last oneā¦ had bloomed as your hands cupped his cheeks and eyes went to his lips right after you had hugged him because he had finally shown you the painting he had been making; a painting where he had drawn you so beautifully as you concentrated on your own painting; it was so detailed and colorful, full of loveā¦ you just wanted to kiss him at that moment. But timidity overshadowed the courage to do so once again. And he himself had to restrict himself from kissing you as he knew very well that that kiss was just going to be fuel to the fire, and his body wasn't going to be able to be stopped from taking what it had been wanting. So he gently removed your hands and gave them soft kisses; apologizing before leaving you alone, wanting more from him; for him to love you.
āA tiger lilyā¦ā You stared at your reflection on the mirror of the vanity table, holding the pendant.
You sat there, amazed how all of them had bloomed so quickly. You also debated on when to tell him; for you it was a little bit embarrassing that your feelings were out there like that physically. For that reason you didn't always have it on your neck; sometimes it was in your pockets or as a bracelet. Althoughā¦ he never paid much attention to it; he was more focused on just being with you. You did sometimes catch him looking but he would immediately look away. As if he reminded himself to not put pressure on you and just be happy that you were together even as friends.
There was a knock at the door, startling you since it was in the middle of the night. But then you remembered that Jungkook usually likes to sleep over. So you wrapped a blanket around you, not wanting your exposed skin to be seen, and went to the door to open it; revealing what you were already expecting: a smiling Jungkook with a pillow under his arm.
āI should start charging you for the overnight stays.ā You joked as you walked towards the kitchen leaving him to close the door.
āBut you won't because you like me being here.ā He teased back as he entered, following you.
āWell maybe I don't; you always leave a mess on the couch.ā
āBut you enjoy my breakfasts so you won't kick me out. And I don't always leave a mess, madam.ā He smiled.
You rolled your eyes playfully. āNot after the over-salted eggs you gave me last time.ā
āHey! It was an accident.ā He immediately started tickling your belly as punishment, making you laugh hysterically. You tried to escape his grasp but he held you from behind to not let you escape.
āJungkook stop! Iām going to pee myself.ā You laughed as your eyes watered; he grew weak as he began laughing at your comment and you took the opportunity to escape, and in that attempt to push him off, your blanket fell off, leaving you only on your satin nightgown that exposed your breasts through the fabric while a strap fell off your shoulder, making it worse for you.
As soon as your skin came in contact with the cold breeze, you realized what had just happened and gasped, backing away a bit, lifting the nightgown strap back up. You quickly looked at him, embarrassed. And you saw how his eyes had just finished scanning your body, going from your perked up breasts to your face. You couldn't take any longer the insecurities so you went to grab the blanket to cover yourself up again. But as you pulled the piece of fabric, something interfered: Jungkook's foot, stepping on it.
You stepped back, letting the blanket fall, looking at him with an arm around your breasts as you tried to decipher what he was thinking.
If a needle were to fall, it would be heard; silence and tension was all there was. But not a bad kind of tensionā¦
He walked to you, taking extra steps as you instinctively stepped back, colliding with the kitchen counter. Even though you wanted him, it was your first time and it was instinct to hide yourself.
He removed your arm that covered your breasts, exposing them to him again. You hesitated a bit.
āLet me see you.ā He stated.
Your eyes were glued to his lustful gaze on your breasts; his eyebrows slightly furrowed as he tried to restrain himself.
Softly he grazed your neck moving to your collarboneā¦ finally landing on your breast, grasping it firmly; and without warning, his mouth went to your bud and began savoring it, despising the fabric that was in between. Your gasp was followed by a moan and slight twitch of your body as pleasure was felt.
Hearing you moan made his movements more passionate and rough, switching between breasts. He wanted to see and hear more. His sucks were loud and licks were lewd; flicking your exposed nipples and nibbling on them occasionally; all while he massaged your breasts aggressively.
As your lips parted from pleasure, he took the opportunity to collide his mouth with yours as your lips looked too pretty like that to pass the invitation. His hand then traveled from your breast to your neck where the necklace resided. And as soon as his hand brushed the chain, that's when he remembered.
His jaw clenched as he forced himself to remove his lips from yours, It took him every ounce of self restraint to complete that task. But went through it successfully, making you whimper softly from frustration at the loss of his sweet sinful mouth.
He rested his forehead on yours with eyes closed and untamed breaths as he tried to control the animal inside of him that only wanted to claim you before anybody else could.
āIt was a mistake for me to come here. And I should stop coming over; it's dangerous for me and for you; I apologize.ā He states due to the fact that it was getting harder for him to hold himself back, before stepping away and going towards the door at a fast pace.
āThe flowers bloomed, Jungkook.ā You made him stop on his tracks.
You wanted this too.
āWhat?ā He asked, not because he didn't understand you, but because he couldn't believe it for a moment.
āAll the flowers bloomedā¦ yesterday, the last one blossomed; I noticed it today.ā You smiled, excited but nervous at the same time.
He went back to you and picked the pendant, seeing every flower grown and colorful.
He smiled and lightly chuckled, placing his forehead on yours and hands on the counter behind you trapping you, relieved he no longer had to hold himself together when he was around you.
His fingers now held your chin, making you look at him. āYou don't know how fucking hard was it to hold back and not fuck you like you are meant to be fucked, _____.ā He said so casually; eyes physically changing and a pair of fangs now visible.
You weren't surprised by his choice of words since you knew how they behaved when they were in heat or just needy; sadly you know about this because you had to hear your friend, Erika, talk to you about her and Jiminās sex life occasionally; more specifically when she had an āamazing nightā; you always had to shut her up mid speech before you puked. But at least it helped you get to know a little better how kitsunes worked, or any other hybrid that was part animal.
His eyesā¦ You thought to yourself as their pupil was now slit. Just like a fox.
āBeautifulā¦ā You thought out loud, boring into his eyes; finally being able to see part of his fox side.
And that was enough to send him off edge.
āThis nightgown doesn't hold any sentimental value to you, correct?ā He asked.
āNo, whyāā
You gasped as one of his now exposed claws had cut through the middle of the night gown, ripping off the rest with his hands and pushing off the straps from your shoulders and throwing the gown to a side. You were now fully exposed to him. To you, it felt so weird to be naked in front of a man and you also felt self conscious. But the man that was in front of you was one that you deeply loved and trusted your body with; you wanted to give him all of you and you were ready to face and overcome your insecurities with him.
Your arms went to your breasts, but he was quick to remove your arms and place them on your sides, whispering to your ear, āStop doing that or I'll tie your arms.ā
He began tracing his fingers slowly starting from your hipās stretch marks to the curve of your waist, passing your aroused nipple (making you shiver); ending on your neck followed by grasping it.
āBeautiful.ā He repeated your words. āJust like imagined.ā
You blushed once more; asking yourself if he had touched himself to the thought of you; the thought alone made you even wetter and wanting to hear more of what he wanted to do to you. Oh, how dirty you felt.
So the words came out of your mouth intrusively, āWhat else do you imagine?ā
He was also taken back by your sudden loss of shyness. But reality was that, you were still scared. Nevertheless, you wanted him even so.
āDo you really want to know, darling?ā The grip on your neck tightened, playing with his prey.
āYe-es.ā You almost moaned, loving his hand over your neck.
His mouth attacked yours desperately, connecting your tongues. The hand that held your throat, now positioning your head for easier access; his other hand pushed your crotch towards his so he could grind himself on you and get some relief from his aching cock.
āGo to the couch.ā He broke the kiss, his loud pants overshadowing yours.
He had so much control over you; you complied so quickly. Yet, what you didn't know was the amount of control you had over him. Not only because of the smell of your arousal or your naked body, but because of the way you looked at him as if you were high on him; it was driving him nuts. He wanted to be gentle with youā¦ oh how he wanted to. But you just made it so difficult for himā¦ always.
Your living room had two sofas on either side of your wooden coffee table; facing each other.
He followed behind, eye-fucking your ass. He also grabbed the nearest canvas and some paints and pencils, making you curious of what he was going to do.
You stood awkwardly in front of one, waiting for him to give you instructions.
āYou do not get to be shy now after you asked me what I think of when I touch myself.ā He softly chuckled.
āD-donāt be an ass.ā You retorted; somehow enjoying that you could still tease each other even during sex.
He chuckled again. But his expression went back to the previous one: fox eyes full of raging lust. It was like two different people.
An easel was already in front of one of the sofas since you had decided this morning to paint an idea that had come to mindā¦ so it made it easier for him.
He placed the canvas on the easel followed by the words, āSit.ā And you complied.
He was on the other couch facing you as he grabbed a pencil.
Is heā¦ is he going to draw me naked?Ā You thought to yourself, only to be answered afterwards as if he had heard you.
āYou asked me what I thought when I touched myselfā¦ then Iām going to show you; don't know how much self control I'll have, though.ā He said sincerely as he took out his cock out of his lower attire.
You loved the way it looked with cum already dripping from the tip.
āIām going to paint you bare before me while I touch myself.ā He said, already beginning to stroke his cock, breaths of air longer and broken. āAnd I don't want you touching yourself, do you understand?ā
You nodded, rubbing your thighs together, needing some kind of friction.
āBut you are going to spread your legs.ā
This is going to be hard for me to not touch myself.Ā You thought.
And slowly, and a bit embarrassed, you exposed to him your dripping cunt.
He swallowed hard, thinking to himself that this was going to be harder than he thought. But he still wanted to show you how fucked up you made him all the time. Plus he was enjoying the anticipation before he fucked you like he wanted to.
His other hand gripped hard on the pencil as he began to draw you. He began doing the basics of the paintingā¦ your faceā¦ the form of your bodyā¦ and then began adding some details. But the truth is, the drawing was sloppy since he was enjoying more tracing your body with his own eyes; admiring it; memorizing it and plotting ways he was going to fuck you. All while he was stroking himself, squeezing his balls occasionally.
He looked so beautiful: eyebrows furrowed and mouth opened as he cursed and breathed heavily while giving himself pleasure. You wanted to touch yourself so badlyā¦
āSpread the lips of your cunt for me.ā He panted. āI wanna see your hole begging for my cock.ā
For you that was even more torture since you just wanted to rub your clit or have him touch you or be inside you. But you did it anyway, making him hiss and grunt as his hips thrusted forward instinctively as he saw how it was pulsating from need.
āFuck.ā He clenched his jaw.
The painting was long gone, abandoned. And all that could be heard was the sound of his moans/grunts and hand stroking himself.
This was too much for you, seeing him like thatā¦ and your slit aching for himā¦ your fingers just slipped inside you without you noticing as you looked at him touching himself to you.
āJungkook...ā You whimpered as you closed your eyes for a second, focusing on the feeling; your other hand now touching your breast.
The crash of the easel, canvas and pencil with the floor made you open your eyes again. Jungkook had pushed it to the floor and was now moving towards you.
He pushed your back to the couch and held your legs while he aligned himself on your entrance, spitting on his cock to use as additional lube.
āJungkā-ā you were going to protest because he was going too fast but it was already too late. His cock was already inside of you, pounding you hard.
āShit!ā You yelped as your eyes watered from the sting.
āI wont be gentle, _____.ā He grunted as he pounded into you. āBut Iām going to make you feel good, I promise.ā
It felt so different from your fingers for obvious reasons. There was a mixture of pain and pleasure and you didn't know how to react; you were confused. But one thing was for sure: you felt full and in ecstasy with him finally inside you. And you just wanted more even on uncomfortableness.
Had you just discovered you were a masochist? Probably.
One of your hands went to his and grabbed it, guiding it over your neck. You wanted him to hold you there; you liked the feeling.
āYou keep playing with fire, _____. Do you want me to break you?!ā
You nodded, too overwhelmed by lust and pleasure to speak.
He cursed.
Your arm was grabbed and in a matter of seconds you were flipped over. You were on your knees, forehead pressed to a cushion by his hand on your nape. This position allowed him to go faster.
Since you were looking down, he grabbed you by your hair and positioned your head sideways.
āDon't want to miss those pretty reactions you make while you take my cock.ā You moaned at his words as he thrusted harshly into you, making you yelp.
āTouching yourself and then asking me to hold you by your neck? What a dirty virgin you are. You really don't want me to go easy on you, huh?ā He added.
Every word he said, your body reacted to it. And he knew by the way you were squeezing in on him, which you could tell he loved by the way he cursed under his breath.
āSuch a slutā¦ my slut.ā He commented; his hand never leaving your nape as he fucked you.
He then lowered himself on you, pushing you down to the sofa, your bodies now touching as he pounded you deep. His thrusts were now more paused but each thrust was harsh and loud.
āFeels so good.ā You whimpered.
āI know, beautiful.ā He whispered into your ear and licked a stripe of the shell and bit it softly.
You were drooling at this point; so focused on him, his sounds and touches. You also knew for sure that your ass was going to be bruised and red as fuck after this by how hard he had be fucking you. Not only were you probably weren't going to be able to stand up tomorrow, but also sit. You were fucked. But it was worth it to you.
āIām close.ā He grunted as he picked up the pace again, lifting your ass up again; both of his hands digging into your hips; more bruises you knew you were gonna have tomorrow.
You turned your head sideways to watch when he came. But you were also enjoying how his eyes never left your cunt as it took him so nicely.
āYou were made for me, _____. Your pretty little tight cunt was made to take my cock.ā He panted, high on you.
Suddenly, one of his harsh thrusts came with a sharp pain on your shoulder, extending to your neck; feeling drops of a warm liquid dripping from it; it was your blood. He had bitten you as he came inside you. You were now full of his cum, scent and with a mark claiming you as his.
It was so fast that it didn't give you time to react. But the pain was still there, he could see it on your face. So he licked the area to soothe you and clean it, giving your neck and shoulder kisses afterwards. He still didn't pull out.
āMine finally.ā He said burying his nose on your neck, smelling the mixture of your scent with his; he couldn't get enough of it. He couldn't get enough of the idea that you were all marked up by him; it was satisfying.
āYou ok, love?ā He asked, checking your wound to see if it stopped bleeding.
āY-yes.ā You replied, still surprised by the bite. You had forgotten when Erika had told you about the bite they give you when it's your first time together; it injects the pheromones into you; marking you as his not only by smell but physically.
āYou haven't orgasmed yet, right?ā He asked, still inside of you, laid on your back as his breathing returned to normal.
āNoā¦ sorry; I thought that was going to be enough.ā You apologize, somehow feeling guilty that you didn't come during the intercourse. But again, you were new to this. You only knew some things because of Erika.
I shouldāve listened more to her even if I puked afterwards.Ā You thought.
āLove, why are you apologizing? That is perfectly normal; please don't force anything; just enjoy my touch.ā He said, finally pulling out, pleased to see that you were filled to the brim with his cum.
You relaxed at his words but whimpered as he pulled out, missing feeling full.
āTurn around for me.ā
You were facing him now as he hovered over you. He kissed youā¦ lips now more gentle but full of passion; occasionally licking your lower lip.
His hand then slipped to your cum dripping cunt, playing with your folds before going down on you.
āW-wait! What are you doing?ā You quickly questioned as his head was now between your legs; still insecure of your body.
But he ignored you.
āWhat a pretty sight.ā He almost moaned seeing your hole still filled with his cum.
āI'll paint this next, what do you think?ā He smirked at you and you blushed looking away.
His thumb circled your clit a bit before spitting on it, making it easier for him to pleasure you. But he did not miss the almost silent moan you released seeing him do that.
He smirked, once more. āYou really like that, donāt you? When I spit on you.ā
āCanā Can you stop teasing me?!ā You said annoyed/flustered and he giggled.
He chuckled. āI knew itā¦ that look you gave me when I spat on my cock was enough to let me know.ā
He gave your clit more rubs while he hovered over you again.
āOpen.ā He gestured to your lips with his eyes.
Confusion was evident on your face, not understanding but you still complied.
āMy slut is so well mannered; now stick your tongue out for me.ā
A ball of spit fell from his mouth into your tongue.
āSwallow.ā
It was embarrassing for you how quickly you complied and wanted more.
What is wrong with me?
You were discovering things about yourself that you never imagined existed.
āYou want another one, doll?ā He asked, begging for you to say yes as he was also enjoying every second of it. He never knew he was going to like this as much as he does right now; but maybe it was just because this was another way for him to mark you.
You nodded, opening your mouth again. And he smirked.
Another ball of spit fell into your mouth. And this time he continued with a kiss, connecting your tongues.
Every touch, kiss, actionā¦ was guiding you towards your high and you were starting to feel it. And he could see it by the way you were grinding your hips on his hand.
He lowered his face to your cunt, taking a whiff of it. āSo good.ā He moaned before sucking your clit.
You were a moaning whimpering mess by the way his tongue was going so fast on your bud; taking a few whiffs in between as he loved the way you smelled. At this point all his lower face was covered in your fluids. And he didn't mind one bit.
His other hand was now stroking his cock.
He is hard again.
You wanted to touch him so badly too but you were about to come.
Maybe next time.Ā You thought.
But you did have one request. āJungkook, Iām close. I want you toā to touch my clit with your cock.ā
He didn't think twice to do so, wanting to make you go crazy for him, to lose all sense of reason for him, to just think of him only him. He wanted to break you.
āFuck, I love you so much.ā He cursed loving how lewd you were when about to climax.
Occasionally he would slap his cock on your clit as he rubbed himself on your clit, making your body jolt from overstimulation.
āfuā uck, Jungkook!ā You grabbed onto his arm while you rode your high on his dick.
You had come before by your own hands but thisā¦ this was way different.
Jungkook, seeing your climax, also came on you, strings of semen landing on your belly and tits.
As you came down from cloud nine, he left wet kisses on your neck and then switched to your lips, connecting them.
He broke the kiss, resting his forehead on yours with his eyes closed as he caressed your cheek with his thumb. āFinallyā¦ mine.ā He exhaled in relief as if he had held his breath all these months that he was with you. Because even though he told you that it would be ok if you didn't feel the same way, reality was that he knew very well it wasn't going to be ok for him; he knew that being with you and not being able to touch youā¦ kiss youā¦ hold youā¦ make love to youā¦ or just watching you with another manā¦ was going to be torturous and unbearable pain. But he was willing to go through it just so he could see you everyday and make sure you were ok.
āI love you.ā You said to him, wanting to reassure him you weren't going anywhere and that your feelings were true.
He chuckled as he sighed. āThat just makes me want to go for round two. But I know you are tired and sore already so I will save that round two for later.ā
You lazily chuckled; body so relaxedā¦
He noticed your heavy eyelids so he picked you up bridal style and took you to your bed. The sudden gesture shocked you a little bit but later relaxed in his arms.
After he gently laid you on the bed, he left the room and came back with a damped towel and proceeded to clean you up. As he did, your enamored eyes went from his face to his beautiful body, focusing on his caring actions. But the scars of the injury you cured grabbed your full attention after. Till this day you hadn't asked him what exactly he was running from and who had hurt him; it had been four months already. There were some times where you wanted to speak about the subject, but decided not to; scared of making him remember something he didn't want to. But right now, you felt so in tune with him; like your souls had reached their peak in connectingā¦ that it gave you tranquility; you just knew he was willing to share his vulnerability with you.
āJungkookā¦ what were you running from that day?ā You finally asked, his eyes quickly going up to you.
He was definitely not expecting that question now but he was already preparing for it; he knew you both would eventually talk about the subject. But he didn't mind; even if it meant going back to such a miserable past. You were his and he was yours, and he wanted to share everything with you.
āMy family.ā He said as he kept cleaning you.
You were shocked; that was an answer you were definitely not expecting. You were expecting maybe thievesā¦ someone who just didn't like himā¦ or just bad people in general. But his own blood? No.
āWhy, if I may ask?ā You said, now sitting on the bed.
āYou can ask all you want, beautiful.ā He smiled, rubbing your thigh as a sign of reassurance.
āThey justā¦ didn't like the idea of me going against theirā no, her word.ā He chuckled softly, but there was pain evident in his eyes.
āHer?ā You asked curious of who he was referring to.
āMy mother, it was always her and everyone followedā¦ my whole childhood consisted of her controlling every little thing of my life; even the way I dressed. But as i got older, I began to rebel; starting with my hobbiesā¦ that's when I learned how to paint.ā
It's incredible for you how well he hid the pain and reality of his childhood when he talked to you about it. He always told you the nice memories but never the bad ones. And you could tell there were a lot of bad ones.
āI changed the way I dressed; I got piercings and tattoosā¦ I always got shit for it but I didn't care; I could take itā¦ that's what I always said.ā He continued.
And damn does he look goodā¦ You were happy he got the courage to be himself.
āBut my tolerance was cut short when she forced me to marry a woman from a well known vampire clan. Apparently she got interested in me at one of the many balls I attended. And since she belongs to a very rich and powerful clanā¦ it was all about gain.ā
He threw the towel away and went to rest beside you, laying his head on your thigh. He took your hand and placed it on his head. And you already knew what it meant: he wanted pets.
āSo I ran before the wedding could take place. But she found out and went looking for me; she sent my two brothers to search for me. The commitment they had to find me was astonishing because I was already far far away when they found me. And that'sā¦ that's when my own two brothers that I grew up with, almostā¦ killed me.ā
His last two words sounded doubtful, as he still couldn't believe that had happened.
āThey tried to talk it out at first but when I kept refusingā¦ all they said was that they didn't have another choice. I was always the strongest one out of the three so thatās the reason why she sent them both. Butā¦ even so, I managed to escape and lose them.ā
You wiped the tears that had not gone unnoticed by you.
āDamn, I'm crying?ā He chuckled and you nodded.
āItās ok.ā You reassured and kissed his hand that cleaned his eyes.
That action secretly drives him crazy.
āI ran all I could; I remember passing a lot of trees. And thenā¦ I saw you. Even though I was in pain, once my eyes laid on you I felt that you were someone who was going to be really important to me; I could feel it; as if we had known each other in a past life. But at the same time I was doubtful; probably because my intuition was being clouded with my fight or flight instinct; but once I saw you turn back because of a spider.. I knew I was ok and that you weren't going to hurt me.ā
āI don't know if to feel flattered or insulted.ā You said making him snort out a laugh.
āSo that spider technically made you trust me?ā
āYeahā¦ I thank that spider every day. Because otherwise, I wouldāve probably just bled out.ā
That was scary just thinking about; knowing that there couldāve been a possibility where you didn't meet each other. You look back and you for the first time in your lifeā¦ feel thankful for a spider showing up.
āIn that case, I'm grateful for the spider too.ā You both laughed.
Your fingers kept running his hair while his eyes closed, enjoying your touch like always. There was silence but it was a comfortable one. As you sat there giving him affection, your eyes scanned all his features. Still admiring his beauty as if it was the first time you saw him.
āYou are so beautiful.ā Those words just needed to come out from your mouth.
His eyes opened with a shocked flustered expression; he was blushing and moved one of his hands to cover half of his face as if it was helping cover the obvious blushing cheeks and ears. He always did that when he got shy.
You chuckled at his cuteness. āToo bad I'm gonna get old and won't match your youthfulness.ā You chuckled again but this time a bit more sad.
His expression changed to a more serious one. āWhy are you thinking like that?ā
āBecauseā¦ my body will change andā¦ I won't be able to keep up withā¦ you knowā¦ your needs.ā
The harsh truth; one that had been bothering you for a while now but tried your best to ignore it; you wanted to live in the moment after all. But the problem was that you wanted to make him happy always; to please him and be there for him when he needed you just like he does for you now. You didn't want to lose that ability. Because you knew for a fact he was going to love you unconditionally but it was still going to be hard for you.
He sat now, placing a hand on your cheek. ā_____, look at me. Your hair will turn gray and your skin will prune. But your smile won't change, the way you make me laugh won't change, the way you love won't change, your fear of spiders probably won't change either.ā
āHey!ā You protested.
āAnd your way of knowing me so wellā¦ the way you have me at the palm of your handsā¦ the way you turn me onā¦ won't change either. All those things are what made me fall deeply in love with you.ā
āEven if my ass and tits drop?ā You raised an eyebrow.
āOh my god, ____. Yes, I will love you even if your ass and tits drop.ā he rolled his eyes and began to laugh and you joined.
You were in love; mad, mad in love.
āIn other wordsā¦ Till my end comes, you will always have my heart. Even after our inevitable parting happens, I'll never let go of you.ā
Tears unavoidably fell from your eyes as you smiled; feeling so lucky and so loved. Was this the world reciprocating all the love you gave to it al this time?
āBesides, we can just make potions for stamina and endurance. If you know what I mean.ā He winked and smirked.
You slapped his arm and began laughing. āYou had to ruin the moment you fucking degenerate.ā
āOnly if it's you.ā He stuck his tongue out, stopping it between his teeth with deviousness in his eyes; a playful flirty expression he tended to make.
He really never failed to make you flustered, shy or blushed even if it was sometimes corny. It was something that you knew that even if decades passed, you would still experience.
āI hope I get to see you in my next life too, Jungkook.ā
āOh believe me, I will always find my way back to you.ā
And as always, that sincerity in his eyes was undoubtedly one of your biggest weaknesses. Your lips couldn't help but to reach for his.
Now the next thing was to plan the wedding. You didn't have any ideas yet. But one thing was for sure. And that was that Yoongi was going to make the pastries. It was a perfect excuse to make him do pie.
Sorry Yoongi.
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Reality shifting and My kind of love
Thinking about shifting and how I have too much love to give just for one life and how shifting has shown me an open door into a world of opportunities for me to show my eternal love and not just to have it overlooked. I'm a motherly lover, some would call the mother friend. So I have a craving to show my loved ones a personal kind of love that makes non-believers believe in love again.
Because all I've ever done in this life is want to show my love for my family; my loved ones, what I have to offer but never been able to its full extent because I feel too closed off, too over-looked and too misunderstood to really express all my love to them.
It's the kind that is honest, understanding, and is forgiving. It's the type of love that seeks to understand more than it does winning in an argument.
It is nurturing, it is kind, and it is selfless, but it is also vengeful, it is just, and it is unapologetic.
It is light-hearted, it is playful, and it is passionate and It is affectionate and accommodating, and it is comforting. It is that kind of love that is unfiltered and real. So it doesn't hide who they are, and it definitely doesn't try to change who you are either. It's the kind of love that lets you be you completely and naturally and quickly matches your energy. But it corrects you when you know you're in the wrong because it takes no bullshit
It is the kind of love that prioritises words of affirmation, physical affection, quality time, and acts of service. So although it has its own unique combination way of showing love it still finds ways to adjusts itself to better suit the loved one without thinking twice.
ā It mentally and literally takes notes of your habits, your hobbies, your likes and dislikes, your special interests, what pisses you off and what calms you down and it immediately but subtly starts catering to your unspoken needs. It is attentive and observant so it immediately notices and remembers the smallest details about you. Subtly because it doesn't want to startle you or make you feel smothered and exposed.
ā It loves to do simple gestures like sending you a good morning text, asking you about your day, did you have a goodnight sleep? If not, what was holding you up so late? It'll take pictures and buy things for you because "it reminded me of you". It loves to make your life a little easier by remembering things you most likely forgot, keeping an extra batch of essentials just for you and brings those snacks you love that you mentioned once.
ā It has a habit of referring to you with cute petnames and nicknames based on what it recognises you for. It is a suckered for teasing but knows when to knock it off. It loves to spend time with you, it loves to listen to you, and it loves to just be in your presence even if you dont want to talk. Its presence is warm, inviting, and reliable; in the sense that it believes comfortable silence is so precious and important, and it knows how to make the anticapated awkward tension after a conversation between us slip. without even saying a word.
It's that type of love that leaves no room for doubt. Theres no chance for you to feel insecure and It is near impossible for you to second guess whether it means it or not. It is stubborn but it isnt petty. It doesn't go away just because you say you dont want it in the moment, but it does give you space and comes back when you need it again even if you dont want to admit it.
It's that type of love that treats you based on who you are, not who you show everyone. Because it understands you further than what the surface leads on. And it wants to know you at your core, no matter how much trauma it has.
ā And as much as it wants to get ALL of you, it understands there is a line. So whenever you have a problem to share it is always ready to pay attention. And it knows when to mind it's business when you don't want to talk about it.
It's the type of love that loves to give and never expects. The type of love that never runs out. My kind of love.
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GREETINGS first time asking on tumblr but if your taking drabble request i dont have specific plot but just say it with me: DAD KINGERRR
Oh? Oh you want dad Kinger? WELL I'LL GIVE YA DAD KINGERRRRRR
Her Love
Caine is writing in his emotions journal and asks Kinger for help on writing about Queenie.
Characters: Caine, Kinger, Queenie (mentioned)
Word Count: 500-ish
The soft glow of the digital sun filtered through the gaps in Kinger's pillow fort, creating a cozy, almost ethereal atmosphere. Caine, his chattering teeth head bobbing slightly, sat cross-legged amidst the plush landscape, a small notebook clutched in his hand. His usual boisterous energy was dialed down to a quiet hum as he scribbled with his pen.
Kinger, draped in his familiar purple robe, leaned against a wall of cushions, his gaze soft as he watched Caine. āHaving trouble with the journal, Caine?ā he asked, his voice a low rumble.
Caine looked up, his big, expressive eyes wide. āI keep having theseā¦ feelings, Kinger,ā he confessed, tapping his pen against the notebook. āTheyāre fuzzy, like looking through fog, but I feel them intensely.ā He gestured to the open page filled with messy scrawls. āI was hoping that writing about them would help me unravel them. But itās not much use if I can't clearly remember what caused these emotions in the first place. ā
He paused, then his usual, bright enthusiasm returned. āThatās why I wanted to ask! Could you tell me about Queenie? I need to write down things about her so I can look back and understand.ā
"Ah," Kinger replied, a flicker of sadness passing through his gaze before being replaced by a gentle smile. "Well, your memory might be a bit jumbled, but Queenie was a force to be reckoned with, that's for sure. She was funny, always had a joke ready, even if it was a littleā¦odd sometimes," Kinger chuckled, a fond memory surfacing. "She was also incredibly creative. She could turn anything into a work of art, especially with bugs."
Caine's eyes widened. "Bugs?" he echoed, his head tilting.
Kinger nodded. "Yes, bugs! She adored them. I used to hate them, but her infectious enthusiasmā¦ well, it got to me. She had a way of making everything interesting, even the creepy crawlies." He paused, his voice softening. "And Caine, she loved you very, very much. She always was so proud of all of the things you did, even back then."
Caine listened intently, furiously adding to his notes. He paused, looking up at Kinger with a quiet intensity. "Do you thinkā¦do you think she would stillā¦like me? Even after how much Iāve changed?" he asked, his voice barely a whisper.
Kingerās heart ached at the question. He reached out, gently scooping Caine into a hug. The AI was surprisingly light in his arms. "Oh, Caine," Kinger murmured, "without a doubt. Absolutely, without a doubt, Queenie would still love you. She always did, and her love for you wouldn't ever fade, even after all this time."
He looked down at Caine, holding him close. "And just like Queenie, I still love you too," he added, his voice thick with emotion.
Caine melted into the hug, his usual sprightly demeanor replaced by a rare moment of quiet vulnerability. He didn't speak, but Kinger felt the slight tremor in the way Caine held onto him, which told him all he needed to know. For now, enveloped in the warmth of Kinger's embrace and the memory of Queenie's love, the chaotic cogs of the Digital Circus seemed to slow, and Caine felt a profound sense of belonging, a fleeting glimpse of a family he had once known, and a love that still remained.
#tadc#the amazing digital circus#tadc fanfiction#tadc caine#tadc kinger#tadc queenie#consider this a preview for Way Back When#This was the last drabble request so I had to come out SWINGIN'
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Phaindei x Chubby! reader oneshot
Phainon and Mydei are definitely the types who dont care what their partner looks like, if she alittle thick than she alittle thick! Who cares right?
Unfortunately some people care than you realize, including yourself. You started trying to make an intense work out routine for yourself, desperately trying to lose weight, this included jogging through Akenma Market. There were these 2 guys lounging about talking about how they could lift practically anything, 1 of them saw you and stopped you in your tracks.
Guy 1: Hey! Think I could lift you real quick? you dont seem that heavy
you: Uhh, I don- AH!
The guy doesn't even wait around for an answer before practically ripping at your waist trying to pick you up, only to buckle to his knees panting and wheezing, his friend laughing at him
Guy 1: Dont laugh at me! this one is made of bricks! How do you even stand upright when you way the same as the droma's?!
The crowd around you stares, some quietly laughing, some unamused by the 2 "bodybuilders". You were about to run away and cry, humiliated when you heard a voice beyond the crowd.
Phainon Route
Phainon: Do you really think that insulting someone because of your weak capabilities make you any better a man than the rude onlookers of this crowd? Nonsense! I know for a fact that my sweetheart here is not such heavy as you claim, Dont believe me?
Reader: P-phainon you really dont have to- GAH-!
Phainon swoops you up in his arms, holding you in a bridal carry, the onlookers applausing him while the 2 men turn red in the phase
Phainon: Well? Still wanna say that my dear reader is.. "Heavy"? *he spits out with such a smug smile, The 2 men excuse themselves and gallop away, only then does phainon put you down*
Reader: Thank you phai-
Phainon: No more exercise for a week.
Reader: Huh?
Phainon: Im going to make you eat proper and delicious meals so you enjoy yourself, this routine you have currently only stresses you out
Reader: But, phai... im.. ugly like this.. Dont you think?
Phainon: Fuck no! *ahem* excuse my language, but, baby.. My moonlight! You must understand, I love you! I love, every bit of you, frankly I dont want you to lose weight, your perfect with all of these extra essentials, It just means I have more to love! But... I know this is something you want, all I ask is that you atleast let me monitor you
Mydei Route
Mydei: You dare shame our gods by using such foul descriptions against such a divine beauty as them?!
Reader: Mydei?
The crowd goes quiet, fear settling from Mydei's trembling aura
Guy 2: Whoah! M-Mydei??!
Mydei: You wanna repeat what you said now that im closer in earshot? *He says grabbing the first guy*
Guy 1: U-Uh... I uh.. s-said that they weighed as much as a Dromas??
Mydei: Oh really? *with one hand he effortlessly picks up your chubby body and plops you on his shoulders* Or your just too weak to be a real man~ *he smirks triumphantly*
The crowd gasps, then roars into applause, ashamed, the 2 guys run away.
Mydei: You confuse me as to why weight is such a problem. Your fine just as you are *he says finally putting you down*
Reader: Oh yeah? And just how do I benefit you when im so... round?
Mydei: Pillow, for 1~ *He says smugly*
Reader: I.. Shut up.. -//////-
Mydei: If you really are serious about losing weight, atleast let me train you, make sure that your healthy. *His words laced with adoration and genuine love, kissing your forehead tenderly*
Phaindei Route
Mydei: You dare shame our gods by using such foul descriptions against such a divine beauty as them?!
Phainon: Do you really think that insulting someone because of your weak capabilities make you any better a man than the rude onlookers of this crowd? Nonsense!
Reader: G-guys, please, its not that ser-
Mydei: Of course its serious. You are NOT too heavy.
Phainon: I strongly suggest you take back such vulgar words against them, what would our gods think of your behavior?
Guy 1: Why are you 2 so upset about it, if you think you can lift them no prob, YOU TRY IT!
They look at each other, smirks eminent, before Phainon swoops you in a bridal carry, as you try to process the situation your hoisted into the air more as Mydei carries you both on his shoulders, none of them breaking a sweat
Phainon: Ha! Just like old times eh Mydei?
Mydei: heh, seems ive gotten even stronger!
The audiance roars into a screaming applause! And the 2 guys dont dare to look up, silently disappearing with the crowd.
Tribbie: aww! they really love reader!
Castorice: Such a thing is very warming.
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"i wish i could be someone that will help you guys"
[army, you can find me on twitter here: tanniessketches ā» ]
#ohlittlefox#namjoon#digital art#indigo#bangtan#kim namjoon#bts#bts art#bts fanart#army#bts army#bts namjoon#blue#flowers#procreate#quote#love you so much you dont even understand#<3
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you guys know butch =/= taking T right? you guys know dyke masculinity is not correlated to being transmasc right? you guys know that even your silly jokes where you flatten butchness to taking T/being transmasc is extremely transmisogynistic right?
#ok to rb#rolling my fucking eyes that every 3 weeks at LEAST someone has to fucking say something like this#cause it's all āoh we love transfem dykes we love transfem butchesā but then some fucking bitch comes out of the woodwork going#āhaha butch is when on Tā and all the TME dykes clap incessantly and hoot and holler while Actively showing that they are not safe for#any trans woman who is not Hyper Feminine š#a d no im not gonna be nice about this. you guys know better. do better. seriously. why is the joke funny?? think for 2 seconds??#and im feeling really bitchy about it as someone who loves transfem butches so much that it hurts and i dont understand how you guys can sit#here flaming over the most Obvious Expressions of transmisogyny while REFUSING to unpack the fact that YOU ARE PERPETUATING THE SAME#TRANSMISOGYNISTIC RHETORIC IN YOUR āNOT THAT SERIOUSā āāāJOKESāāā#and the fact that a bunch of ppl who engage in this shit will inevitably interact with this post and lat themselves#and not even fucking examine ur behaviors. if u arent a trans woman reading this frankly you NEED to examine ur behaviors. idfc how many#trans girls youve fucked or dated or sexted or are friends with. put ur personal stats and ego to the side and DO BETTER#celebrity bun
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im on a konbart kick rn so have a low effort meme š og screenshot i got the texts from below
#i love them so much guys you dont even understand#konbart world domination#konbart#bartkon#kon el#kon el kent#conner kent#konner kent#superboy#superboy 94#bart allen#impulse#impulse dc#impulse 95#bart allen x conner kent
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falls over. remembered the record feature on clip studio too. bonus:
#rain world#seven red suns#spearmaster#eyestrain#i love coloring like this so much you dont even understand#except im always too tired to get anywhere past sketching so#my art
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thinking about this scene from the adventurer's bible from kabru's perspective...
#and even the fact that after a moment he just smiles and is like 'yeah laios youre so right' this guy is insane#this can probably be interpreted many ways#i personally am neither here nor there about that its for you lot to do what you wish#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#kabru dungeon meshi#kabru of utaya#laios touden#laios dungeon meshi#eek i love kabru so much you guys dont understand
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the recursive nature of fractals typically means it's bound to get crowded when you're the pattern
#animator vs animation#animation vs education#animation vs geometry#ava the second coming#ava tsc#avm the second coming#avm tsc#avm orange#ava orange#why do you have so many names little guy!!#besides that though. clearly i have a favorite concept in geometry. even if i dont understand much about it#fractals are genuinely so cool though#the whole video was so beautiful and fun and ohhhh second coming we're really in it now#love love LOVE the whole video#sprout art#I FORGOT TO TAG THIS INTO MY ART TAG... anyway...
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guess who finished tlok tonight and immediately had this come to him in a vision!!!!
#i. really like tlok. like a lot#i understand why people dont like it#and i can accept that OBJECTIVELY its not that great#but i had a fantastic time with it#anyways yeah. gay people#tbh. would not call zhu li and varrick normal. most queer straight couple on the planet.#hes a gay man. shes a lesbian. theyre in love. do you get it.#i dont have that many thoughts abt wuko. i really really like it though.#wu is like the webkinz milk cat to me. i need to throw him against a wall really hard.#and of course. korrasami. what is there to even say there#one thing i will say is before watching it i TOTALLY thought asami was a fire bender and also evil#like i kept thinking āyep this is when she turns evil and then theres enemies to loversā but nope#not a bender or evil and honestly im glad#she totally wouldve been justified in becoming evil though. i sure wouldve#love her.so much#korra too ofc#i have SO MANY more thoughts but im gonna run out of space#last thing i will say is i am a guy who will just always prefer media i can criticize#love atla. but theres nothing there for me to really sink my teeth into or like bitch about#i love it when media is KIND OF BAD and i can RANT ANGRILLY about it#the legend of korra#tlok#legend of korra#korrasami#wuko#zhurrick#korra#asami sato#mako tlok#prince wu
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cassandra & clytemnestra
class doodles <3
cassandra: super proud of how she turned out!! i love noses so much and ive managed to give her a really glorious one today. she got a few compliments too hehe
clytemnestra: idk how well ive managed to depict it lol but cly is both mourning iphigenia and planning out her vengeance. its going to be a long 10 years but she will have her killers blood.
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i still have a long way to go till i finish the iliad so i dont know everyones story yet, i do know however that cly like many before and after her arent often portrayed with the complexities that make them them, that make them human, but instead as paragons or pariahs. and i think theres lots to be said on the matter, but i dont want to get ahead of myself lol. anyway enjoy :D
#cassandra#cassandra of troy#kassandra#greek mythology#paris the musical#the iliad#my muffin#i love her so much#yall dont even know#clytemnestra#tragic mother figures of the mythos#they could never make me hate you#as i understand it she neglected her kids in favour of iphigenia. which isnt great parenting#so she isnt free of sin#and yet between her and agamemnon its quite clear who ruined more lives.#or is it?#(or is it?)#jokes aside lol#im still reading & learning but there seems to be a big divide between the mythos and modern perception#influenced by pop culture and adaptations sure but also a lack of critical thinking and the innitative to go fact check for oneself#which is several essays on its own lol#kinda lost where i was going with this :')#āØnuanceāØ#and go read the source materials pls#godbless#my art#my ramblings#everyone is entitled to their opinion#this is (part of) mine#pls feel more than free to share ur own thoughts and stuff
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