#love their ryoji he looks so miserable

[saewokhrisz]

ryomina aggie collab i did with a friend

[extinct-fish]

Reaper's Bride Drabble

In the time it took for the Dis-poison to be in stock, Ryoji had Orpheus heal Makoto in the morning, then he would spend the day with Makoto, making sure to keep him company. It was strange for Makoto to be cared for, as he often took it upon himself to care for others. He kept trying to find reasons to be continuously wary of Ryoji, but the more that the god of death spent time with him, the more he felt his own barriers crumbling. 

As Ryoji promised, he administered the antidote as soon as the dis-poison came in. When it was administered, Makoto immediately felt relief, like he returned to his former health before the sacrifice. 

How coincidental for the snow to come as the dis-poison was administered. Makoto could see the snow attempting to lay a blanket of its cold white fluffy powder.

“Since you’re now cured, I have to show you around,” Ryoji said as he got up, “I do owe you a tour of the manor.”

“You sure?” Makoto asked.

“Yes. Since you’ve met me, the shadows won’t hurt you, I promise. They may pull pranks, so I can’t guarantee they won’t make you dizzy or amorous to say the least.”

“At least that’s better than being poisoned by a literal table.”

“You are not going to live that down, are you?” 

“Oh gee, ya think?” Makoto huffed sarcastically.

“I love when you’re sarcastic.”

“Oh, you’ll get sick of it.”

“Quite the contrary, funeral lily,” Ryoji pulled Makoto towards him, causing the boy to stumble a bit, “I actually like when people don’t really see me as a god and rather see me as a person.”

“So pretty much ‘what’s a god to a non-believer,’ huh?”

“Yep. Now c’mon! We’ve got so much to see!” Ryoji practically dragged Makoto enthusiastically.

“Whoa- RYOJI! SLOW DOWN YOU GODDAMNED PUPPY!”

“Oh- sorry, I’m just excited, since I’ve always wanted someone to be with me genuinely.”

“Geez, Ryoji, you don’t need to drag me all over the place. I’m the kind of guy to take things slow, y’know!”

“Ohhh, okay, sorry, I’ll adjust to your pace. Just let me know if I’m going too fast, okay?”

“Okay.”

“Alright, as you’ve seen when I brought you up here, this is the hall of the Gods.”

“Never knew it had a name.”

“Just about every room has a name,” Ryoji chuckled.

“Really?”

“Well, pretty much. I could talk about every god here if you want to ask about them.”

“Really?”

“Yes, I know each one.”

“Okay, so Orpheus mentioned the heart against the feather thing, what’s up with that?”

“Oh, the weighing of the heart against the feather?”

“Yeah.”

“Well, in Egypt, when you die, your body would be mummified with all but one organ removed: The heart. Your spirit went to the duat, which is the Egyptian underworld, and with it, you carried your heart. There, you went through various challenges to be able to come face-to-face with Osiris, the Egyptian god of the Underworld. The final one would be Anubis, the god of embalming and the judge.”

“Uh huh.”

“And what he does is that he takes the feather of Ma’at, which is quite a bit heavy in all honesty, and he weighs it against the heart. The heart represented your soul and if the heart was heavier, then that meant you were wicked and your heart was eaten by Ammut, which was a heart-eating monster. The reason is because it prevents the dead from going to the field of reeds, which is the afterlife.”

“So when Orpheus mentioned that you were looking for someone with their hearts lighter than the feather…”

“I meant I wanted someone who was good. It’s a common sentiment all mortals- even gods- feel, but it’s not often a good person comes around.”

“So��� what’s the Greek version of the field of reeds?”

“Well, we’ve got three levels: Tartarus, the Asphodel Meadows, and the Elysian Fields. Most mortals live a decent life, and they go to the Asphodel meadows. However, there are few that actually manage to get to the Elysian Fields. Tartarus is reserved for the miserable assholes that like to ruin people’s day.”

“Huh. So how would you determine that?”

“How good a person is?”

“Yeah.”

“Actions speak louder than words, and I like to see how others feel about you before completely judging someone’s character.”

Ryoji then turned to Makoto.

“But, there’s something that tells me that you're kinder than you seem.”

“Do I look stand-offish?”

“Well, no, you look like someone plagued with apathy, but if I had to guess, you’re someone who’s much less apathetic.”

“Is that supposed to be a complement?”

“Just an observation. I don’t know what you and Orpheus discussed, and frankly, that’s not my business unless you wanna talk about it.”

“Okay.”

“Anyways, moving on! Next to the Anubis statue is my office. I’m not really there often, but I like to go there for writing sometimes, usually for logging how my brides are doing. It’s all the same ending: they either leave or they just… nevermind, I don’t want to depress you.”

“I’ve heard. They either leave or commit suicide.”

“Orpheus?”

“Yeah. He told me that he’s pretty much sick of seeing you so depressed.”

“Sounds like Orpheus,” Ryoji chuckled, “Anyways- your entries are relatively new, so if you want to read the entries, I’ve got nothing to hide, I’m all for open communication.”

“Geez, either you’re shameless or-”

“‘Just too considerate?’ I’ve heard that one before, I can’t really help being selfless.”

“I can tell.”

“Anyways, over by the statue of the furies, that’s my room. If you ever feel like you need company, you can always come in.”

“No knocking?”

“I’ve got nothing to hide, so just feel free to barge in. Make sure to close the door on the way out, of course.”

“Jeez. That open, huh?”

“Yes.”

“Aren’t you worried about-”

“‘Someone taking advantage of you?’ Not a bit. I am the god of death, and if someone dares try to abuse me in some ways, their souls are mine to eat.”

“I thought only Ammut ate the souls?”

“Oh, every god of death eats souls,” Ryoji laughed, “It just so happens that the soul is in the heart, and each of us are able to rip out hearts.”

“Damn. Okay, yeah, I gotcha,” Makoto sighed, “Sheesh, how can someone so sweet be so deadly..?”

“Well, many things in nature are poisonous, but look beautiful,” Ryoji shrugged, “Pipevine Swallowtails are poisonous due to the pipevine plants they fed on as caterpillars, but are still beautiful.”

“Is that a compliment for yourself?”

“Oh, no, that wouldn’t apply to me. I’d say the butterflies share a similarity with mortals far more than they would share similarities with me.”

“Then what would you compare yourself to?”

“Hmmm… Probably a bumble bee.”

“A bumble bee?”

“I’m not benefiting humanity, nor am I detrimental. I’m mostly sweet and patient, but provoke me and you get stung.”

“Sounds about right. Though plenty of people would say you’re a wasp.”

“A wasp?!” Ryoji seemed offended.

“Well, people often say death is cruel, detrimental, yet a crucial part of life,” Makoto answered with no change of attitude.

“Is that how humanity views me?” Ryoji sighed with disapproval.

“Well, some people do. I think you’re more like a honey bee.”

“Why?”

“Well, you’re sweet, you’re protective, and frankly, people benefit from you a lot more than they think.”

[flyfish1999]

AO3 tag game \o/ !!!

thank youuu for tagging me @ragecndybars !!! best of luck with your wips ^_^ !!!!!!!!! without further ado ...

How many works do you have on AO3? 103 !! \o/ !!! i hit the 100 mark just at the end of december .. and then didn't post all january lol ^_^

What's your total AO3 word count? only 97,635 ! pretty unsurprising, everything i write tends to be a oneshot, and very short oneshots at that ! not even an average of 1000 words per fic though ehehe ; ; !

How many fandoms have you written for, and what are they? 33 ! ofc this is only ao3's number, some of these count for the same fic being tagged with multiple series tags, but (ignoring my .. eugh ... 6 2020 original work posts i refuse to look at ...) my top fandoms are: persona 3 [40] , persona 5 [15] , trauma center [8] , persona 4 [6] , pokemon [5] ! wow ... i'm honestly surprised, but i feel like i shouldn't be ^_^;;

Top five fics by kudos: all of these are from over three years ago, so i don't remember them very well ^_^;; and i'm kind of scared to reread them now, but here goes: we won't slip through your fingers - 763 kudos ! a cute p5 found family fic with akira, sojiro and futaba ^_^ i still see this pop up in my daily kudos email every so often ! it seems like the type of thing i like reading myself for p5, so i'm not surprised :p Indistinct and Incomprehensible - 515 kudos ! another p5 sakura family fic (sensing a theme?) but this time interrogation room flavoured ! i've always loved the interrogation room hook, probably because i'm such a huge fan of whump fic ^_^;; i'll never forget when a friend excitedly messaged me saying she was about to send me a great interrogation room fic .. only to realise it was mine :p The Days When My Father's Here - 402 kudos ! another- I PROMISE I DON'T ONLY WRITE P5 SAKURA FAMILY FIC LOL ...! cute and short, a shortcake biscuit of a read imo :3c (he left the town long before) yet his house is still standing in the same place - 400 kudos ! akira talking tatsujun ... i've always liked this premise, even as i tend to lean into the angstier side of p2 nowadays ^_^ but no matter what, i have always been a long title connoisseur ... i hope it's toned down in recent years ehehe ! Unconventional Naming Ceremony - 275 kudos ! yeah ... the truth come out ... i used to be a huge fan of the sonic movie >_< i was literally on the phone to my friend the other day getting bullied about how much i used to like it lol !!!!!!! they didn't even know me then ... c'mon ... i hope this is a cute fic. i'm too scared to touch it. lol.

Do you respond to comments? i try to as much as i can !!! sometimes i forget, and sometimes i just don't have anything i might want to say other than thank you for commenting, but all of them mean so much to me ^_^ rereading comments is probably about 40% of my fuel ehehe

What's the fic with the angstiest ending you've ever written? wow ...! that's difficult ! even though i write lots of angsty fic, i am a freak who can find joy in anything. the jolliest guy you could say. a mochizuki fan, possibly. in recent memory, i'd say disappearance, an alien heart beat ... even shorter than usual, but miserable the whole way through . ryoji and minato sit in a room and don't say anything. yaaaay ! (fun fact! it is partially based on a feeling i used to get when me and my ex used to sit in my room with the lights off but the tv on standby, because the overhead light was too harsh. i love watching people move under light; i love the sound of electronics that have been on for too long)

Do you write crossovers? not really ?! they're fun for crackfics, but i don't really honestly explore them that often. maybe i should !

Have you ever gotten hate on a fic? i .... don't think so ! i used to get hate anons when i was younger + stupider because i was quite literally asking for it -_-;; but rage -> if you see this, that zelda comment screenie you posted made me laugh for literally ten minutes [link]

Do you write smut? i would really like to !!!!!!! but i'm so shy >_< !!! but also i worry .. i did once, for OCs of mine, and sent it to a friend ... who immediately sent back laughing that it was 98% inner monologue, 2% actual smut .. which tracks for me lol !

Have you ever had a fic stolen? i sure hope not !

Have you ever had a fic translated? YES !!!!!!! it's always been my dream ^_^ !!! and just this year i had and then he looked right through me, as if i wasn't there translated into russian by a very kind regular commenter !!! if you see this: thank you so much, it means the world to me !!! apparently it was for a friend of theirs, who is a new fan of p3 due to the widespread translations of reload, and they really liked it ^_^ it makes me so happy to think that reload can really extend p3's reach and even more people can get a chance to experience it ...

What’s your all-time favorite ship? ryomina ofc ^_^;; ! kind of topical, but i recently scored the old kotobukiya minato figure that came with the episode "luck" drama cd ! i'll never stop talking about it, but reading episode luck's translations on the gekkouhigh livejournal is what made me love ryomina, and cemented my love of p3 as a whole ... such sweet memories ehehe

What’s a WIP that you want to finish, but don’t think you ever will? mostly things that were born of a specific emotion i was feeling when i drafted it, and don't really want to feel again if i can help it, or at least on purpose. it makes me pretty sad that i feel some of my most impactful work has come out of me feeling ... well, pretty sad ! so i just work harder every day to write just as well, if not better, than things i've written in that state :]

What are your writing strengths? aaa ... i think i'm good at laying running metaphors in a fic (which i love hearing when @p3ta says them back to me ^_^ !!!!!!!!!!!!) if that makes sense ?!?! probably because i love edgar wright movies .. callback fan writes callbacks eternally like the ouroboros lol :p i'm sisyphean !

What are your writing weaknesses? i need to buckle down and write longer fics goddamn it !!!!!!!!!! my latest work, the best beast ever is a boy you know, is also my longest work to date, at a measly 3,657 words. but i love it so much, and it's so amazing what i can do with just 2000 words more than i'm used to ! hopefully i can keep it up ^_^

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fics? it's interesting, and really enjoyable when done well (looking at some bebe writers tbh !!!!!) ... buuut, of course, it can also fall flat ! kind of related, but the closest i've ever gotten to something like this is using japanese honorifics . i know it's a little divisive, but i like it a lot when used responsibly (as i try to) ^_^;; ! overuse of stuff like -sama totally makes me feel like i'm about to tab into ouran high school host club part 1 of 13 on youtube though lol

What was the first fandom you ever wrote for? gravity falls, on a long abandoned ff.net account ! you know i was one of those guys writing it directly into the post box :]

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written so far? it's cheating, but i have two and an honourable mention. i am so happy to have returned to writing persona 3 fic ... it is one of my favourite things ^_^ first of all: alone but sane . alone but sane could be considered my magnum opus so to speak lol ... it is just one of those ideas that is so perfect. i don't know ... i am in many ways my own biggest fan. i do ofc owe my inspiration for it to @mymp3, the best messiah recipe 2008 attendee ^_^ i am so glad we're friends now :p second of all: when you're hollowed out and empty !!!! i hope to write many more fuuka and ryoji fics this year . she is so kind and so reaching in her kindness ... i aim to be more like her ..! fuuka asks, "i wonder what ryoji's doing... do you think he's still crying, like before?" and i write and write and write at last .. my honourable mention! my only zombieland saga fic, and you don't seem to understand (a shame, you seemed an honest man) .. i don't have anything to say here .. zls is a tragedy . to me

again, thanks for tagging me \o/ !!! this is ofc open to anyone who might want to play !!!! i hope you're all having a nice day :]c

[etgloria]

☼ - what I find most interesting about them (For Edward. I'm basically giving you free reign to ramble about your boy X'D)

Pop I don't deserve you.

EDWARD MY LOVELY EDWARD!

Edward is literally the most important character in my life so...there is indeed a lot. His determination, his drive, his compassion, his adaptability, his strengths and weaknesses, I adore this man.

However, If I was only allowed to talk about one thing that I think Edward perfectly encompasses...Guilt.

Edward holds so much guilt. A lot of guilt. Even though he is a young man he blames himself for nearly everything. Other than straight up Hohenheim abandoning them and Trisha, Edward from that point on blames himself. Obviously for the transmutation cause he was the one who talked Alphonse into it. He was the one that pushed them into training with Izumi only to defy her, to use Pinako and Winry's kindness so they can accomplish this taboo goal that in the end failed and sacrificed his brother's body. Of course, Edward would sacrifice his arm to bring him back. And even then, as a suit of armor Alphonse's life is miserable.

Edward looks at that suit of armor day after day being constantly reminded that he practically trapped his teenage younger brother (Edward is a teenager himself but he is slightly older) into a suit of armor from committing an ultimate sin of Alchemy that he chose to do that only spat on his mother's memory but wasted the kindness of three women who did nothing but care for them.

Yeah, he juggling a lot.

Only to become the dog of the military, the youngest soldier in Amestris history and again dragging Alphonse along with him. He can't lose Alphonse- he's all he has. But the guilt doesn't leave. And it's that guilt that fuels all of Edward in my personal opinion.

Guilt is so well known for being such a crippling feeling. Guilt tears you down and makes you stagnant but for Edward, Guilt pushed him forward. Guilt is what made him a soldier. Guilt is what made him study alchemy even more. Guilt is what drives him to search for the philosopher's stone. And it's Guilt and how more and more guilt he gets from all the people he lost and hurt along the way- it's that that pushes him forward.

Many of my muses are guilty (Ryoji is a great example) however, Edward's guilt is a motivator. It pushes him, this young boy, this 16 year old has the fucking weight of the literal world on his shoulders and God attempting to steal everything from him but he carries it in stride. He cries and suffers and struggles and fights and in all of that sacrificed everything he needs to for the people he cares about and the guilt that he feels for hurting them or failing them.

It's no wonder this is the boy that kept me going for almost all of my life at this point. He taught me to how to have a loving yet FullMetal Heart.