#love him tho but stillllll

[marybatson]

the attempt at redeeming billy and mary and co to their old selves now at the cost of making shazam the wizard the bad guy somehow yet again makes me wanna cryyy thats their alfred penny worth u mfs!!! their sort of kind of ghostly dad… more present than their actual dead dad anyway. u know how in power rangers they had that big ole head in a jar telling them their quests and what to do etc. make shazam that guy again…. hands off but always watching santa claus wizard guy…

like ok he can prob do a lil manipulation here and there but so what. God forbid women do anything etc. he still loves billy like a son and cares for him feeeckkkk yeeewwww

[king-weasel]

more art of my bedudeiful rainbow sprinkles man 💅✨💕

I feel like my first one was better honestly, like I don't HATE it but. black line art. i need to stop using it. altho face wise I think this looks more like Kirk it's just the style itself declined TwT

I mean I didn't put as much effort in but stillllll I need to just grin and bear it

lookat him yes he luvs you who DOESN'T he love tho honestly

Klingons. Not them. He doesn't love them.

[bunycube]

!!! hi again (sorry in advance for the very long message ,_,)

wait so do you mean that there is not english translation of Lamento ? so like if i were to download it I'd need to play it in Japanese ? o.o and like find a translation and read from there at the same time !? heck :")

ominous yes!! but there's something really nice about it ??!!

💀💀 not me imagining Tetsuo as a cardboard box now ksndjdjdj i see what you mean tho still i love him nonetheless :') i think he's just a lil bit shy and quiet, keeps to himself alot.. i feel like he's never really had any close friends,, maybe any friends at all i liked seeing glimp of soft and gentle Tetsuo :') there were some really cute and tender moment with Youji too (well as cute and tender as it can be given the circumstances lolol) it's fun to imagine what they all could have been like without all this innerbeings stuff fuckin them all up

it's ok to feel so close to Youji even if you don't know why 😊♡ and YEAAAS i felt the same same same about Z!!!! :"))) very interested to hear more of your thoughts about him if you ever feel like writing them down 👀👀

skdjdjdj entire cities apart made me laugh but true :^) tho even if he left his dad and all that the hell within would still follow him,,, he can't help that he been dragged into all this by his dad and he literally has no escape ,_,

hahajjsjsjsjs i know now there are no sweet endings lmao i can't say i didnt know at first because i had been warned but STILLLLLL i wasnt expecting that from Makoto!!!!! for that end to be so unhinged x') i thought he'd be the less bad difjfjdj

i do like to also imagine something where they someone all get free from the nonsense and just get to have normal lives and happiness ;_;

LOL i dont remember the ugly outfit :"))) i wasn't sure about Rin at first like ,,,, what's his angle,,, he is just pretending to be nice,,, why so mysterious,,,, he did grow on me but idk idk

aw im sorry Nano's made you feel that way :'( i love him very much :'):

aaaa i wasn't sure what to think of Motomi in all the other routes i was very mmm🤔🤔🤔🤔mmm but when i did his route i was like !!!!😍😍😍!!!!!

yeah Akira was alright but Aoba probably remains my fav protagonist(is that the right word??) and and i loved Takeru alot too , before he died when he sees like his sister and his parents and ;_; made me cry lowkey wish he had a route too ~ aND IT'S OK I LOVE GUNJI TOO WOAA

i like Arbitro too a little for some reason there's just something about him ,,,,, but his route was really underwhelming to me ??? idk i was expecting more from him

NO NEED TO APOLOGIZE!! RAMBLE AWAY very interesting to read someone being excited about what they are talking about !! :)))))))

never apologize for long messages!!! i love em! response under cut

there IS an eng translation for lamento! its just a pretty long process to download it haha. i was saying that i had to download some dvd mounting thing to get it to work snfbsb the game itself is fully translated, no worriesbthere!!

yesyes its like kimda ominous but still calming w all rhe quiet sunset empty classroom vibez...you know....

😭😭 oh yeah i get u, i think tetsuo is just a reserved kid plus he prob felt like he didnt fit in very well? thats just me guessing but he seems like that kind of guy...i think hes the same as youji in that respect, both of them kimd of quiet n awkward n not teh type to easily make friends :) he does some pretty bad things but im like sigh well its this kind of game so ofc that happens...besides that i think hes just an awkward quiet kid who looks rly intimidating like hes not bad once u start talking to him. i lovednsome of his gentler scenes w youji, my favs when they were eating ramen and tetsuo picks out the bamboo shoots from youjis bowl bc he doesnt like them...it made me so 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i also loved when youji was showing him pics of his nephew ...idk idk sp is so dark but i loveee gentler scenes like this its so 💔 to me that they manage to find moments of peace despite everything around them...

oh true i thought abt this too...no matter how far zenya runs away he can never escape bc the thing thats causimg all his problems is his own body, so he just cant run away from it or do anything abt it ;___; poor boy he never asked for this n his whole life is just doomed from tjebstart bc of his shitty father...

if i started talking abt why i like zenya we would be here ALLL LDAY and rhis post would literslly never end lol i just like analysing him and how everythign hes been through shapes his actions and behaviour n all hmmmm

OH YES...sweetnpool normal au :))) i lvoe to imagine it i feel like tetsuo youji n makoto would hang our together n zenya is that one guy no one invited but he jsut joined in anyway n the others dont rlycwant him there but well. hes there now

lmaoo this is the ugly outfit

ohh yeah i was thinking abt this yesterday too and aoba is hands-down my fav chiral protag!,$& i jusr love him sm his personality design everything is chef kiss hes so fun and lovely and means sm to me. hes very comforting to me personally as well and hes just a special boy...tho i love the other protags as well haha

OH YEAH i loved takeru too wtfff i wasnso sad when he died bc he had never had antthing good ivhis life n thenche dies SO BRUTALLY...and he jsut wantednto help his family it made me v sad :( they spent sm time on him i fully expected him to atleast have an ending so when he died i was like huh, wiat what 😭😭😭😭

ngl, arbitro makes me sick 2 my stomach for reasons u prob already know but he surprisingly isnt relevant ti the plot st all? so i keep forgetting abt him. i liked how campy his design was but thats it. hecmakes me sick !!! yeah jdbfbd

same for u! i lovenreading lomg responses haha i always ramble a lot so i feel less guilty if the person also writes a long reoly, beside its very fun to read and respond to!

[goldenguillotines]

hold it.. does nakaou know how to ride a motorcycle?

"Yep yep. IM into that stuff. Heheh. Loads of fun! I taught Myself a sWeep or so ago. Just did it the old fashion style- like riding a bike. Fell off. Got back on. Rinse and repeat until I got the hang of it. Totally should've been there to see Me eat coMplete shit into a side of a seMi tho."

He seems rather amused- laughing fairly loud about it..

"I knoW a feW trolls Who knoW hoW to ride too! Alkiss is fuckin hilarious. Love to Mess With hiM When he's in toWn. Stillllll Waiting on a-lil-kiss on My boo boos froM the guy! If yall see hiM- lay into hiM for Me!"

"And then there's LaMMek. We go to the track together! Who kneW the guy liked high speed racing! He Mainly likes driving his fancy shiny car but the Minute he's on the bike- nyoooooooooM. Can't ever keep up With hiM on My rides! He dodges traffic real Well."

[fuckthisblog]

this year

january - brain death, spray painting, dating connor

february - brain death, got a new cat, dating connor

march -visited zoe, felt normal, came home, cried for 2 weeks straight still not sure why, fell in love with connor, went to Ri w him, brain death is way better

april -dog sitting, connor breaks up w me, brain death is basically all better but now just sadness, kinda wish brain was still dead

may -  constantly numb, eating crepes in bed and hating myself, finals, loneliness, telllng syd we cant live together anymore, stayed at parents house, hooked up w that kid cliff who was a piece of shit

june - manic, fucked cliff like one more time, went out w brooke to bars, attempt at normalcy w now (slightly) functioning brain, madly in love w connor, friends w him, started walking G daily, spray painted another circle nature girl, went to cambridge dance party w Norman (seriously, very manic), i think this is when connor slaps me?

july - dissociate and sleep w viktor and havent spoken to him since (literally i cant reply) and feel like a piece of shit about it still, spend the (next night) 4th on the roof w syd, manic, drinking a lot, start dating Elle (so manic srsly), stillllll in love w connor, still sleeping w him (Elle and I are poly so it cool but nvr told her so idk), Daisy dies on the 24th, connor helps me through it, basically come out to dad tho on the 19th and it is good

august - interviews w new roomie Andy, move in early, shit is good, fail completely at moving out and parents have to do it for me, got a new job helping Heather n quit within a week, actually normal and not manic or depressed, SO MUCH ART, my art, new good type of art w the circles and on big pieces of wood, drinking a lot, park night w connor on the 13th (before moving out officially so that was later), so in love w him, its really the whole year up til now even so lets just keep assuming that

september - school, maxs housewarming party on the 16th where i sob cause didnt get into a bar lmao, dont remember if i was already sleeping w mike in august but def am in september i believe, king richards fair, back to school, deciding on being a nurse, mary & g playdates, bonding w max, get to spend lots of time w mary cause she basically lives w me, andy moves her boyfriend in, max tells her not to smoke, shit gets dramatic, birthday is terrible, i drink and cry and paint and spend the actual day in a dissocaited haze, but parents r super helpful which makes it all ok because progress

october - school, got new job doing web design @ spa, manic-esque, connor john n i see lil peep, weird things w me n john, dont wanna talk about it ever 

november, school, job, manic-esque still, meet asa tho so confidence is apparently up, idk tired but ok, get tablet, start making more art, hang and bond w aunt sue,  that hang sesh w connor that makes my heart ache because too much love, ridiculous sex w the red light in the shower, sigh, also lil peep dies & i drop a class cause teacher is ridiculous, get hotel room for no reason & connor dissapoints (manic esque behavior), weirdly ghost work intentionally/unintentionally, start looking to move out cos shits dramatic but it causes my brain to peace tf out into manic territory, spend way too much money & dont do enough school work

december - momos birthday (shadi ditches, but otherwise fantatsic and bond w momo so much), art art art, weird trauma, matress shopping w nora, good hangs w max and his brother, snow, buy a bunch of new rings for myself, finals, then processing trauma trauma trauma, but brain isnt broken thank god for lamictal, but i do dissociate for like 2 weeks and fail math, christmas is awesome, new tablet, bonding w fam, amazing sesh w dr.p, max is moving out, im on break and now we’re in the present

the actual contents of the months dont matter that much (@ future self) just look at the amount of feeling in the rest of the year compared to the first few months. the reaction to those drugs was so intense and you’ll probably never feel that way again, but everything else, even sadness, is so much better than that brain death. reading it, it seems weirdly negative, but the progress and ability to claw your way upward is fantastic. i love u self. props to surviving this year. i know you didnt think you would for a long time.

[cherrymarks]

get to know me tag~

alkjsldf thank u @markhyucklee for tagging me ! ♡♡♡

Are you named after someone? I guess I was named after my mom + dad (basically their ship name lol) - Li (from the last part of my dad’s name) and La (from the last part of my mom’s name !) = Lila~  

When was the last time you cried? ........Wednesday??? I had a fight with my mom on Monday :\\\ but i made up with her!! so its all good now lol 

Do you like your handwriting? Yesss?? My handwriting has evolved so much so now its really nice ? haha

What is your favorite lunch to eat?  CHICK-FIL-A handS DOWN I CAN eAT LIKE 3 OF THEM 

Do you have kids?  Yea ! Jisung is actually my son™

If you were another person would you still be friends with you?  Depends....,, probably not lol 

Do you use sarcasm?  Um ??? No ? I ? Don’t ? dude sarcasm makes up like 75% of my conversations

Do you still have your tonsils?  I’m assuming bc i never had them surgically removed? my friend had them taken out when she was younger tho :oo

Would you bungee jump?  HECK YEA BTS DID IT !! I would also love to skydive!! at least like once before i die lol 

What is your favorite kind of cereal?  KRAVE i can finish a whole bOX but i really like Honey Nut Cheerios bc im basic :))))) 

Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? LOL noPE i just slip them off im extremely lazy 

Do you think you’re a strong person? I try ??? but I always end up crying in most situations lol i need to fix that :\\

What is your favorite ice cream flavour? Honey dew! I love Melona ice cream :’))) but if not...,, any fruity flavor w/out milk? I’m not into ice cream tht much tbh 

What is the first thing you notice about people? .....their fashion sense? Like I find myself saying “daMN he’s wearing SupREME???” or “*counts how many ppl in the room have tims*... smthing like tht-- wayyyy more than I should lol. if it’s a girl, normally her makeup if she’s wearing any ?

Red or pink?  Pink ! 

What is the least favorite physical physical feature about yourself?  My skinnnn omggg i’m ok with everything else on my face (lol tht sounded weird ?) but like my skin isn’t as bad as before but like :(( I wish i had nice skin lol.... so my height. ya home girl is like 5′0.5 istg i wish i was 5′2 *sigh* 

What color pants and shoes are you wearing right now?  Since im in my pjs... my pants are yellow nd im barefoot 

What is the last thing you ate?  Gummy vitamins haha 

What are you listening to right now?  “Wings Outro (full ver)” - BTS ♡♡♡alksjdf;lkajsf

If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Yellow bc im asian nahh i guess periwinkle bc i really like tht crayon color

Favorite smell? Anything fruity ! OmG lemon, apple, strawberry, peach,,,,,,,, i’m not into flower-y smells :\\\

Who was the last person you spoke on the phone to?  Idk...,,, I guess my friend from school? 

Favorite sport to watch?  Volleyball (partially bc i play it lol)..... or soccer ! i think basketball, football, and baseball are pretty boring to watch im sorry if i offended u! 

Hair color?  Dark dark brown 

Eye color?  Dark brown

Do you wear contacts?  Nope, but i would like to try soon!

Favorite food to eat?  omggGGGG i have a lot... but one thing i cannot live without is riceee i have rice literally every day tht filipino life lol but I reallyyy love ramen and i can eat a lot of pizza.... oh and samgyeopsal ! (istg i eat like the whole thing omggg) 

Scary movies or comedy?  Comedy.....,,,,, i cant stand scary movies literally the only scary movie I watched was The Shining nd it wasn’t even tht scary lol

Last movie you watched?  Alice Through the Looking Glass! (I cried omg whts wrong with me alsjd)

What color shirt are you wearing?  Dark blue~

Summer or winter?  Summer bc summer means no school nd binge-watching kdramas nd staying up late for live stages or vlives nd waking up whenever :”))))

Hugs or kisses?  Hugs from friends mean a lot. i dont really kiss ppl??? 

What book are you currently reading?  Frankenstein by Mary Shelley ! Its actually really interesting haha

Who do you miss right now?  @limitlesshaechan and my friend isabel... :((( ik i saw kena like last week but stillllll ALSO I miss Nana incredibly my heart hurts whenever i dont see him w/ the rest of NCT Dream </3

What is on your mouse pad?  nothing?? 

What is the last TV program you watched?  High School Rapper ep. 2 bc of mark :)))))) 

What is the best sound?  Music? If not tht then I guess silence 

Rolling Stones or Beatles?  Beatles!!! 

What is the furthest you’ve ever traveled?  Either Philippines or Malaysia? I think Malaysia is further away from where i live soo

Do you have a special talent?  Being able stay up rlly late no matter how early i wake up ?? is tht a special talent lol 

Where were you born?  US East coast eyyy 

People you expect to participate in this: **u dont have to do it if u dont want/ already did it ! @limitlesshaechan,  @donghyuckstudies, @suhween, @minhyunggf, @odetonct, @renju-n, @cu-ten-ess, @smolmarkhyuck, @fyforeignswaggers, @tenssvalentine and anyone else who wants to do this !!!♡♡