#louis is just figuring things out

[sincerelyforyouu]

Beta Wanted!

Right guys, so, not sure if this is going to work, I haven’t used tumblr in forever :(

So I am currently writing a Larry fanfic and I would love for someone to kind of help me out and be my beta, it would mean the world to me as I am super stuck with it but I really want to see it through! 

So, yeah, if you’d like to help, just let me know! 

[casualavocados]

#he doesn't want to fight with you ai di, he wants to Kiss🙄💘🥺

Nat Chen as CHEN YI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)

[srldesigns6277]

Smiley Louis

[rendnotmyheart]

Soulmate aus are so interesting in an iwtv context. Like for humans it's easy, right? They get their soulmate mark, they find their soulmate, or maybe they don't, and they live their life. For vampires though? Do vampiric soulmates even exist? How could they when the soulmate marks are relics of their human life? When the other person who has the mark will be dead before their life as a vampire has even begun? Or were they always fated to become a vampire? Did the universe take that into account? Will they have to wait some hundreds of years for their soulmate to be born? Their soulmate could be anywhere, any time. Hell, their soulmate could be the person they just drained. Who knows. Even if they were somehow able to find them, what are the chances they'd stay together for eternity? It is eternity after all. Not even the universe or fate can guarantee that.

[statementlou]

Thinking again about how the other day that anon wrote me wondering why Louis was so popular with older adult women and I had a couple ideas but was basically like idk IS he or is it just the same amount as any other pop star but then the other day BBC posted that video of 1D members doing 1D songs* solo without Louis in it and the post was like go comment on all these platforms and I was like what the heck it's not like I use my facebook for much else- but that meant I ended up looking a few times at the other comments (being mad about Louis' exclusion) and like I KNOW it's FB so ofc it's skewed by who uses that... but like damn, there ARE a lot of middle aged and older ladies for Louis! Like A LOT!! So again I am thinking about it and I would love to know what other people think might be the reason... my ideas plus footnote under cut-

~He’s so fucking SMART and the older you get the more appealing and necessary that is to appreciate someone. ~His music has always been in large part 90s style stuff which may draw in folks who already loved that kind of music because they’re old enough to remember it. ~We’re queer and were drawn into this fandom by crying our eyes out over how beautiful baby Harry and Louis were together and wanted to give them the world and protect them (is this age dependent? see below for why maybe I guess but idk) But my top theory is that ~it's based on the combination of him being this beautiful goodhearted boy all the shitty things we saw happening to him for so long and wanting so much to be able to DO SOMETHING, to make things better for him and give him everything. Not saying this is age based but maybe this works more strongly on older folks than on people who feel like they are in the same boat? Anyway would love to hear if other people think 1) there are more older louies than other celeb fandoms/ the other members of 1Ds solo fandoms and 2) if so what do you think it is about Louis? or 3) no, all these things apply to me but I'm only (whatever young age) so that can't be it

*I have since figured out why they did that and it isn't because Louis is blacklisted or whatever it's because they just pulled their footage that they own of 3 of them playing BBC Big Weekend which Louis hasn't done, and footage of Zayn from his public insta, which isn't something they could do for Louis- to include him they would have had to like get footage from his management or something they can't just use whatever off youtube and it was just a silly SM post they weren't gonna do all that

[jakeperalta]

not to bring up the taylor discourse again but I think it's an extremely shitty take for non-fans to respond to fans saying "yeah I'm disappointed and do not condone this and it sucks" by being like "well ACTUALLY she's always been a horrible bitch and her fans are all just too ignorant to see it and it's their own faults for being a fan of someone so awful" like ok congratulations! good for you for never having enjoyed a single problematic thing in your life! but you're annoying and I hate you

[elainemorisi]

like, the only true whopper in lo these two seasons has been Armand's credit-claiming for the (onstage) lifesaving, right. which was allowed to persist for not even the duration of a full episode. I don't think I'm forgetting anything here, right?

anyway, would be nice if more theorizing noticed that lol

[clowndensation]

i'm literally constantly thinking about sam reid's "when does he change? how does he change? how does his character develop? progressively, as the episodes were coming in, i was realizing that lestat wasn't changing at all. he keeps going back to his same patterns" comment btw. because it's true. a cornerstone to lestat's character this season is that he is utterly, painfully static. which is fascinating, because that ironically makes him one of the most stable, reliable characters in the show, in spite of outwardly acting as one of the most impulsive, volatile ones. it's also the cornerstone to what makes him such a tragic character.

because lestat is aware, to a certain extent, that there's something about himself that leads to him being abandoned. he's alluring enough to captivate, sure, but fundamentally deficit in some undefinable area that will grant him genuine, committed love. he has a way about him, but he's a lot. he's not perfect. and his own imperfections terrify him, because whatever it is, he's sure that it's at the core of himself, that it's something he can't change. and so he chases after love by throwing the worst of himself at it - because if he can find someone who sees his ugliness and loves him anyway, he'll finally have a love that he can keep. and once he finds that love, he devotes himself to it. it can not disappear again, it can't slip through his fingers. it's his, and he won't allow it to be taken from him.

and it works - for a time. preternaturally charming, occasionally thoughtful, he is so incredibly easy to fall in love with. and then something changes. and it has to be an outside force, because he hasn't done anything. he's stayed exactly the same, he's been that same person who louis fell in love with, he's committed to this love with all of himself. he is seen and he is loved and he is wanted, and he won't let anyone or anything take this acceptance away from him. so he clings, and he lashes out.

and it all, ultimately, leads back to abandonment. he's so busy keeping louis in his life, he's so busy making sure nothing changes, that he can never allow himself to grow. because change is rejection. change is the acknowledgement that he'll never be enough, that there really is some part of himself so unacceptable, he'll never be able to be loved in his entirety. and it's not until those last moments of the show, when he finally acknowledges claudia as a person unto herself, with a will and autonomy of her own - when he sees louis agonizing over what has to be done, that he begins to understand his own role in their lives. there's a sort of acceptance that he's pushed them too far, that maybe it's not outside forces, or their own inability to accept him, that's at fault for where they've ended up. that maybe he has some responsibility in how all of this played out. it's the first time in the entire show where we really see that lestat could potentially accept that he's not the victim of things beyond his control forever barring him from love, but that he has some responsibility in how others see him. which could, eventually, lead to change.

[casualavocados]

That's enough! I can't stand you being this drunk. Fuck. Chen Yi— Get up.

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 09

[13eyond13]

What's confusing me most about the IWTV show right now is:

-why certain characters are behaving the way they are, since the circumstances and relationship dynamics and vampire powers and personalities in the show have changed a bit from the way they were in the books, and the changes aren't always easy for me to keep track of or understand

-how much these different character behaviours and relationship dynamics are because of the show making actual real alterations to the books' story, and how much are due to unreliable narration and edited memories from either one or more of the characters involved

[salmoncakepls]

:0

[absoloutenonsense]

Sunday Snippet <3

Hiiiiiii I’ve been in editing- and rewriting-land with my (almost) exes to lovers fic, which has been wonderful and frustrating and fun and awful (as writing goes). Thank you @kingsofeverything, @crinkle-eyed-boo and @uhoh-but-yeah-alright for tagging me in your snippets recently! It’s hard to share much of this one without spoiling something, but here’s a bit I was rewriting yesterday:

The limited interactions over the last 42 hours is why Louis is surprised to hear the hotel phone ring. He didn’t even think it was active.

He pauses the video and walks over to the nightstand, picking up the phone cautiously.

“Hello?”

“Fucking finally,” Perrie’s voice says. She lets out a heavy breath, one that sounds weighted with frustration and tension. “I’ve been trying to call you for hours now since I heard, but I think they put signal blockers around the hotel. I had to set up like six different VPNs for this to work.”

“Pez,” Louis sighs.

“How are you doing? What do you need? I can’t physically get you anything but I can bully someone else into doing it.”

Louis gives a short laugh. “Nothing right now. I’m just reviewing the footage, and I’ve got enough coffee in here to help. Right now at least.”

There’s a pause. “They let you see the video?” she asks, clearly surprised. 

“Yeah,” Louis says. He nods and hooks a hand over the other elbow as he holds the receiver up to his ear. “I had to steamroll Horan into it, of course, but he gave in. I’m guessing because another girl got taken.”

“There’s another missing person?” Perrie asks, even more surprised than before, this time twinged with anger. 

“He didn’t confirm,” Louis clarifies, “but he was checking on me and got a call. He put Davis on whatever it is immediately, so it’s gotta be more important, and I know that’s our missing girls. After that he let me have the footage.”

There is a longer pause this time, so long that Louis wonders if the call dropped. 

“What footage are you looking at?” she asks.

Louis furrows his brows. “The bodega footage.” He pauses and listens to the way it’s so quiet on the other line. “What did you think I meant?”

“Nothing,” Perrie says too quickly. “Nothing, the bodega footage is what I meant.”

Louis narrows his eyes at the wall. That’s not right. “What aren’t you telling me?”

“Noth—”

“Edwards, we do not lie to each other.” He pauses so he knows she’s listening. “You’re one of the only people I trust in the entire world. Don’t you dare.”

Perrie sighs. There’s an antsy pause then, like she’s wondering if she really has to say it or if she should try to lie again, before she says, “A USB was delivered to the Bureau via TaskRabbit messenger. It had a video on it. It was… it’s of Harry.”

Louis hangs up immediately, then picks the receiver up again, smashing the buttons as he dials the phone. 

“Horan.”

At the sound of his voice, Louis absolutely loses it.

“You motherfucker,” Louis says — seethes. “You fucking asshole, shithead, motherfucking dic—”

“Fucking Edwards,” Niall mutters while Louis continues to cuss him out. “Tomlinson, calm down.”

“—lying, conniving, fucking-fuckhead—”

“Honestly, you can’t expect that I would have actually told you—”

“You’re supposed to be in charge,” Louis shouts. “You think this is leadership? You’re a fucking toddler in this job and you’re fucking everything up.”

“I am your boss, Tomlinson, you better reel it back, real quick.”

“Or what? You’re going to put me in lockdown and keep me entirely in the dark with what’s happening to my husband? The love of my fucking life is out there in trouble and you’re lying to me -- I’ll be however the fuck I want!”

“It’s because it’s you and because it’s your husband that I’m keeping you in the dark. If it were any other victim, any other spouse, we’d be doing the same thing as to not compromise the situation. Just because you don’t like it doesn’t mean this isn’t protocol and I’m not doing my job. I am doing my job.”

Tagging you three back, and @disgruntledkittenface @daggerandrose @lululawrence @littleroverlouis @allwaswell16 if you have anything you’d like to share!

[harrylights]

had the weirdest but coolest dream ever that i might have to turn into an au

[statementlou]

I think with these festivals there is the obvious benefit of exposing Louis to a general audience but also a financial one. Personally I’m curious on what the payment structure is for him. Does he get a flat fee or does he get a percentage of the gate. If he sells merch does he keep it all or does the festival get a percentage. This year is a good way to generate money without too large of an expense burden. I found it interesting that afhf is under his touring company and that financials for the touring company are a very abridged version for this years filing. Of course because the filings are always a year behind it hard to get a real sense of how things are going though truth is even with a more complete filing you really have no way of knowing the financials since not all expenses and deductions are disclosed and some things have a delayed payment schedule.

Ah more questions we will NEVER learn the answers to :/ really good point though it will be SO much cheaper than bringing their 5 trucks worth of stuff and staff around the world... everything will be built and waiting for them, they can just customize with a smaller crew and just bringing their decorative additions rather than stuff to build the entire stage and area. I don't have a clue but I can only imagine festivals take a HUGE chunk of merch sales though, with what we've learned recently about venues and merch cuts - except for AFHF where Louis gets to keep absolutely everything! Nice, that. And of course even with venue specific merch for as much as they sell at the shows (and have to hand over half the profit) they also sell it online, with no cut taken out.

[widowshill]

ummmmm my heart. they're SO CUTE now !!!!

[pynkhues]

re the last post, care to share with the class? at least in general 👀👀👀

Ahahah, it's still very early, anon!