#long post / vent hhhdhbfbsjsmdj uhhghhhh

[mistergoddess]

it's not even about wanting an injury suit payday like for the last 3 years it has JUST been about. wanting medical care. for my injury. which was not addressed correctly at the time and never healed right and has been injured and reinjured ever since. and they will do everything to squash even just giving me... thee LITERALLY LEGALLY REQUIRED... workers comp medical care... i have reached the point MANY times since then where im just like fuck man at this point i just wanna go to ANY doctor for it bc it's fucked up and impacting my quality of life and ability level, but if insurance providers and doctors find out it was a work injury and you aren't going thru the workers comp system they can deny you coverage and all sorts of shit because you HAVE to work with wc for everything relating to that injury. so it's left me COMPLETELY fucking helpless to even do anything about it on my own when amazon wc decides to just fucking ignore me when ive repeatedly requested medical care for it. so NOW i AM fucking mad and i do genuinely want them to pay me for the emotional and physical damages, the fact that this has literally caused me to not get jobs because i can't do heavy lifting.. like i genuinely think i have a suit and i have a paper trail of them in emails not working with me and the time it took between being injured originally and seeing a doctor originally and all the paperwork from it, and emotional anecdote about how emotionally traumatic it was, being sexually harassed by the safety manager while doing light duty there, and the stress and loss it's caused me since but i just can't handle initiating it yet and private firms have turned me away when ive tried getting consultations because none of them have wanted to fight amazon and the ombudsman process is way too bureaucratically dense and time consuming... it's fucking evil but i do need to try again someday but now im moving out of state which is going to make it way harder and uuugh :(

NO ITS GOOD I REALLY LOVE BEING CHRONICALLY INJURED BY A WORKPLACE INJURY THAT WAS NOT APPROPRIATELY HANDLED BY THE MOST MASSIVE PROFITABLE COMPANY ON EARTH I THINK IT'S ACTUALLY SOOOOO FUCKING FUN. i was modifying a tshirt and just BARELY started to tug on it to try to stretch it out some and heard and felt my bad elbow pop really bad and that instant shock of like. heart absolutely falling out of asshole fear of like oh great very good this is going to be weak and hurting for the next several days that's exactly what i needed right now. god i wish i had the time and resources and money and like. emotional tolerance for bullshit. to sue the absolute living fuck out of amazon for what they did to me lol i got injured at 24 and am now going to be injured for the rest of my fucking life bc of how horribly they responded to me breaking my fucking elbow at work and their refusal to give me followup care when it got reinjured. like if i had the resources and time to put in the insane amount of labor and fucking headache a workers comp suit would take i could probably get a gd settlement but i literally don't have the time or stress tolerance and they have fought me tooth and nail every time i have tried to push and fight and even just get a goddamn doctors appointment. which theyre LEGALLY required to give me and LEGALLY i cannot get care for this injury through ANYONE ELSE it HAS to be thru the job's workers comp and theyve just... literally strung me along for months and then ghosted me when ive asked for a recheck so hahahahahhaa.