#lonelygodscompanion

[scoobydoodean]

@lonelygodscompanion said: apparently sam and dean make some explosives out of medical supplies in croatoan? I didn't really remember it before looking it up but even if that isn't what anon is referring to, it is another instance of this occurring

I'll be on the lookout for this! Thanks for the heads up!

[samsrowena]

moogs!!! I saw in your poll that you had ~unpopular~ thoughts about Rowena’s ending being becoming the queen of hell and I would be really interested to hear them if you wanted to elaborate!!! <333 if you’ve already talked about it somewhere then ignore me, I must’ve missed it, just link me to that maybe? love hearing your thoughts bestie - jo

HIII i'd be happy to!!! apologies in advance if this gets kind of rambly or incoherent lol

but okay so my main problem with it is that it just feels really reductive (which is on par with everyone else's ending but i digress). in theory i guess i get how it could feel like a full circle moment; she was introduced wanting the throne for selfish, evil purposes and then her story ends with her having the throne and using it for good. but in execution, i was not a fan. to start with, in 15x08 she seemed to revert to season ten rowena (but this is buckleming writing her so i shouldn't be surprised), bragging about everyone being afraid of her and then saying she wished she died a long time ago, as if all of her character development up until that point meant nothing

because i honestly just don't see any scenario in which she'd ever even want to become ruler of hell after season thirteen. she didn't care about power anymore. she'd been completely broken by lucifer and all she wanted was redemption. and i really despise the idea that sacrificing herself to save the world but then still being condemned to hell anyway was her being redeemed (of course she's not the only character they do this with; the message that you have to die for redemption/forgiveness runs rampant in the show and it sucks)

then there's the whole destiny thing. which is just like. i'm sorry but why in the hell would a group of people who literally call themselves "team free will" just accept that someone they care about is destined to die??? the only time they even allude at attempting to change her fate is at the end of funeralia but then they never even try. and in a season where their whole goal is to free themselves from thee biblical god's control, you would think they'd push back on the idea that her fate is set in stone a whole lot harder than they did (which is basically not at all). i just know in my heart that is so so so unlike them, especially sam after finding out he was the one who would kill her. this is the same guy who spent a whole season trying to save dean from certain doom (not to mention the countless other examples of him obsessing over saving people he cares about), so there is NO doubt in my mind he would've did the same for rowena

but i don't know, i mean i definitely understand the appeal of her becoming queen and maybe i'd be more open to it if they ended up doing more with it (and to their credit they apparently planned to, ruthie said at a con she was signed on for more episodes but covid ruined that) but at the end of day i just truly think she deserved so much more than being relegated to an eternity of doing a job that even her own son despised at the end

[antigonewinchester]

@lonelygodscompanion replied to your post:

on the 'dean-is-a-killer' thing you touched on- yeah it's really a thing. dean is called out for being a killer the way sam is called out for being a monster, except that sort of drops off around s6. the 'dean-is-a-killer' thing is all the way up to the end baby. it's consistent. and yeah, it is indeed strange? for the writers to single out dean for this specific thing? the other characters have killed people too. 1/2 because this got long 2/2 but it's almost like it's supposed to imply something more about dean. I mean yeah, all the times they say it, they're technically right- but it's a condemnation that's never really directed at anyone else. it's not just an indicator of actions, but a statement about his inherent character. it's dean for who 'being a killer' is something he should feel ashamed of, as if he failed in something he never had much of a choice in in the first place

huh, the “Dean is a killer” thing continues through the whole show... I’d seen seen gifs of the moment from 15x19 when God calls Dean the “ultimate killer” but never made the full connection. given the way the show dropped the ball on its handling of the “Sam as monstrous” theme, I guess it kind of makes sense that the “Dean as killer” theme would become more prominent in the writing as a replacement? it is a through line the show started back in s1 and unique to Dean within that context (the moment in 1x22 where Dean says he didn’t flinch from killing the demon possessed guy or Meg to protect Sam and John, for instance). except I never got the sense in Kripke’s era that the writing wanted  to depict Dean as innately a killer. in s1 especially, it’s very clear that John raised Dean as a hunter & had to mold him to that life, so as you astutely say, hunting / killing wasn’t something Dean had a choice in doing in the first place.

there’s maybe something here in how the underlying worldview of the show shifted after Kripke stepped down as showrunner, and how later showrunners / writers took already established ideas in the show and put their own spin on them in some... weird and revealing ways.

[msjessicaday]

just wanted to say I really appreciate your psych blogging because I’m watching it for the first time rn and really falling in love with it. also because you’re one of the only intellectuals I’ve seen who appreciates the beauty of both Gus/Shawn and Jules/Shawn. either way have a nice day!

oh my goodness your first time watching!!! how exciting!!! i’m so so glad you’re loving it ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[kalia-taylorsversion]

oh this is so exciting! thanks for tagging me @sixofcrowley !

yes! family dog named coco <3

hmm probably just buttered spaghetti, but also the one lemon and sugar crepes recipe that i can make

fluent in english, technically "intermediate" in french (practically? :/)

i can like. i can stand with one of my feet turned backwards. if that makes sense lol :)

i got 100 on a presentation and i've literally never done that well on a presentation before

mutual tags, but ofc no pressure!!! @justbetweenus8789 @unreconstructedfangirl @lonelygodscompanion @angelkissesdean @bloodydeanwinchester (if you've already been tagged, lol oops ;))

Tag game because I want to know you better !

-Do you have a pet ?

-Comfort food ?

-How many languages do you speak ?

- Random fact about yourself

-Something you’re proud of

To begin this little tag game, I’ll tag @ebony-reine-vibes @freddie-77-ao3 @newobsessioneveryweek @thehaikuman and @miraclesnail

I hope the questions aren’t boring and love you all 😘

[deanwinchester-baby]

for the ask thing dean (of course 😈) with 11 and 14 maybe?

Hey! Thank you so much for asking! Ofc it’s about our beloved hahaha

11. something [other character] believes about them that isn't true

- I’m gonna go with “isn’t very in touch with emotions”. He might say that, and Sam sure thinks that, but he’s actually pretty self-aware, empathetic, able to charm and sweet talk and also inspire, be tender and honest or brutal and straightforward. That he chooses to not share or downright lie about his own traumas to certain people (cough cough, Sam) does not mean he doesn’t recognize them or copes with them, just that he does not shre on command, and the fact he’s stuck in some vicious cicles is not himdered by him actually recognizing that he is.

14. their worst memory

- He says at one point it’s Sam leaving for Stanford (which, considering it comes soon after Hell and everything, must have been… quite a spectacle of viciousness and violence). I’d also nominate the fire; Sam’s first death, and watching Sam jump into the cage for that spot and he might pick one of them as well depending on which is on his mind and hurting the most atm. (others such as hell itself, being a demon, purgatory, feeling abandoned by Sam might be contenders but aren’t singular memories and are more long-term events).

[humandisorderincarnatedean]

i was tagged by @freakwiththeknifecollection thank you Emily you’re a darling and a sweetheart 💗

Rules: Answer the questions and tag 20 a few blogs you are contractually obligated to get to know better!

Name: Jordan 

Star sign: Virgo 

Height: 1.60 m or about 5′3 

Time: 21:40 

Birthday: august 27 

Favorite bands/artists: I guess Of Monsters and Men, Marina, and Marianas Trench because I like a lot of songs by those artists 

Last movie: genuinely have no clue.. 

Last show: was just watching masterchef usa with my family :) 

When did I create this blog: April 2021 

What I post: exclusively supernatural; mainly Dean but other things that catch my fancy as well. also many many of my own impeccable opinions 

Last thing I googled: meters to feet and inches- for the earlier question 

Other blogs: @lonelygodscompanion (my main blog, where I post mostly doctor who but plenty of other things I like too), @babygirltroybarnes (my community-themed sideblog), @certifiedstar (which is like my aesthetic blog i guess 🙄) and I have like over 20 saved urls it’s truly gotten ridiculous. I also have @deanposting :) where I post dean :) 

Do I get asks?: once upon a blue moon 😔 i should get more attention 

Following: 97 

Average hours of sleep: I try for 7. I end up sleeping in way more often than I want to 

Instruments: no 😔 unfortunately. I got a guitar when I was like nine and broke off one of the snares that very same day 

What I'm wearing: jeans and blouse 

Dream job: writer 

Dream trip: oh to travel around the world by myself... see every continent, dozens of different countries... sigh 

Nationality: Dutch 

Favorite songs: Long Live the Kids by We Are the in Crowd, King and Lionheart by Of Monsters and Men, Welcome to the Black Parade by My Chemical Romance 

Last book I’ve read: Frozen Fire by Tim Bowler 

Top 3 fictional universes I’d like to live in: Doctor Who (I want to travel in that blue box so bad), Harry Potter (unironically. deep inside I am still an 11 year old girl), and Supernatural (which is an objectively bad option but idc I just wanna meet dean). 

Tagging: I'm bad at tagging people I never know who would wanna do this... um @bi-lullaby @sadforestdrum @jensenis-still-deansnumberonefan and whoever else feels called to do this I'm tagging you, yes you specifically too! no pressure to anyone though ofc <3 

[bisexualponds]

hey so I’m like more or less moving? I’m not deleting this blog but I most likely will not be active on here anymore. BUT ya girl can still be found on her new blog @lonelygodscompanion!

[samdeanjohn]

honest opinion on destiel

epic, fascinating, one of a kind ship that somehow gets reduced to generic friends to lovers slash ship of the monthdecade by boring shippers. their actual relationship development gets ignored in favor of contrived conflict like "repressed bisexuality" when dean knowing he's bisexual and it having no relevance to them getting together is far more compelling and canon compliant. i wish there was more acknowledgement of the fact that they're not even the same species. that despite the immediate terrifying intimacy present in their relationship, there will always be things pulling them apart and causing them to misunderstand each other. castiel expresses his love by doing things in dean's name because that's all he knows, when more than anything dean wants for him to stick around and treat him like an equal.

castiel finds identity with dean. he falls, degrades his status as an angel, kills his own kind, burns heaven to the ground, and it's all driven by a love for humanity that ironically brings him closer to what an angel was originally supposed to be when it was first created. over and over dean's been accused of corrupting him when what he did was ultimately redeem him.

all that AND they're best friends.

it's important to me that castiel does not come first for dean and that castiel understands that, no matter how bitter he occasionally is about it. i think in his relationship with castiel is where dean allows himself to be selfish. both in terms of not coddling cas out of fear of losing him and in terms of forgiving him for crimes nobody else would ever get a pass for. there's a debt between them that makes castiel's confession especially meaningful, since it was a long journey for him to let go of the idea he was owed reciprocation for what he's sacrificed.

and more petty opinions. i hate mundane aus. i hate when people conflate castiel's appreciation for human things with a desire to be human. i hate what j*ck's unacknowledged brainwashing did to castiel's character development. i hate bees and bee related content. i hate the idea that only dean's issues contribute to their communication problems. i hate the oversimplification of their s4 arc because the layers to all their interactions and shifting power dynamics are everything to me. i hate the oversimplification of their relationship in general. i hate. a lot of things fandom does but i love them💖💖💖 and always will💖💖💖.

[samsrowena]

for the ship ask: uh... deanalastair and... castiel/balthazar?

deanalastair -

oh man the torture scene in on the head of a pin permanently altered my brain chemistry. it's sooo twisted but like it IS sexually charged i'm sorry alskjflfkfk anyway i think they're super super interesting, like obviously alastair can get under dean's skin in ways no one else can. if he lived, i think there are many scenarios that could play out where he could've been dean's ruby lol like really pull him over to the darkside with having him succumb to the torturing. i don't know whether i actually ship it or not though, like the reason i have SO many dean ships is because i'm like "awww this person makes dean happy". which is NOT the case with alastair lmao but i do think they have an incredibly compelling dynamic

castiel/balthazar -

they're so fun!!! the way i see them is they have the sastiel chaos dynamic except that cas is NOT a willing participate so balthazar is just fucking shit up and cas is just like oh my god what have you gotten into now??? but man the fact that they worked together for so long and you can tell how deeply they cared for each other, it's like they really COULD have already had a thing maybe way in the past lol however i will say i go back and forth on angel ships in general because it's hard to get a read on whether they're brothers and sisters or not lol the show kind of retconned that so it's confusing

send me a ship and I'll give you my (brutally) honest opinion on it

[samsrowena]

saileen and also samruby for the ship ask?

saileen -

literally so adorable, like. i could go on and on about them because i think she's soooo good for sam after all the horror in his love life! they're just really wholesome and healthy for each other. however (since we're being brutally honest here lol) i didn't feel like they had a ton of chemistry together on jared's part so it's not my number one sam ship like it is most people's.... and i think it's pretty obvious by now which one is lmao

samruby -

oh super hot which is like their appeal right??? but i honestly believe ruby did care about sam. even as manipulative as she was. like right before they killed her, it seems like she still thought her and sam would be together to just serve under lucifer instead of being like "hey sam i tricked you the whole time i hate you". so yeah i like them a lot! they actually have some real cute moments too, it's not all kinky blood drinking sex alsjddldfgkjd

send me a ship and I'll give you my (brutally) honest opinion on it

[samsrowena]

for the emoji game: 🦋

thanks for the request! it's right here

[samsrowena]

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[antigonewinchester]

@lonelygodscompanion​

Thank you for your detailed response! My thoughts have always been to not take it as literally as one day being one year in hell-time... I’ve always held the idea that in a plane of existence where there’s nothing revolving around any sun, a ‘year’ or a ‘second’ can last as long as your torturer wants it to. This is part of why I’ve recently been wondering if the sort of time dilation in hell, in which dean speaks of 40 years in 4 months and alastair of 100 years in about one year, was only applied to the ones chosen as the ‘righteous man’, if we choose to believe alastair about this. Then the demons would have a time advantage when trying to break them, and perhaps others in hell would experience time relatively equivalent to earth. Not saying I believe thats true, but theres something there considering those are the only times we’re given “number of years” someone was being tortured. Also interesting because I’ve noticed that in two instances in later seasons, when referring to time passing specifically in the Cage, the characters used the same amount of time which had approximately passed on earth (the instances I’m referring to are 11.10 when lucifer says torture is “so five years ago” and 15.08, which I don’t think you’ve seen yet, where a released-from-the-cage Adam says he hasn’t eaten in ten years.)

Ha, I went pretty literal with my interpretation (in part from working on my Dean & Bela in Hell fic and being like, wait, how long has Bela actually been in Hell before Dean?? and then trying to estimate the time out) but definitely understand taking a less 1:1 approach, and tbh that would usually be more my approach, too. What does a “day” even mean in Hell when, as you say, it seems to be an entirely different dimension where nothing is actually revolving around the sun. The idea of the time dilation of Hell applying particularly to the ‘righteous man’ is a chilling intriguing interpretation, and really hammers home Dean being just a cog in the system, a piece that has to break to push the Apocalypse forward; Dean could’ve held out for 3 months in Earth time, but 30 years was another thing entirely. It would work better for Heaven and the angels, too, since it’s easier for them to ‘pretend’ to be rescuing the righteous man over months on Earth while letting him get tortured for years in Hell.

And I hadn’t even picked up on those later season comments—my inexact knowledge of the later seasons is showing through, lol. I might take Lucifer’s comment to be less literal, him basically saying torture was “so five minutes/years ago” as in out of style, but it does line up fairly well with how long Sam has been out of the Cage, and Adam’s 10 year comment also closely matches the real timing on Earth, too. In-universe, there are ways of hand-waving this discrepancy away (Michael protecting Adam from the time difference, for ex), while at the writing level, it seems like the writers retconning Hell’s time dilation because it would’ve been confusing for the audience in S11/S15. My hesitation with applying Earth time to Hell time for Sam’s stint in the Cage is that it would mean he was only in Hell for about a year and half, and the show definitely frames Sam’s time there as Very Very Horrible and arguably “worse” than Dean’s time in Hell, which doesn’t really fit with that short of a time frame...

But I suppose this is when the ‘logic’ of a story runs up against the emotionality of it, and while trying to get some specific timing for both Dean and Sam in Hell is a fun exercise, for me what’s ultimately most significant is how their time in Hell is framed by the narrative & how it each affected them.

[scoobydoodean]

@lonelygodscompanion

Vegan Sam truthers egos are going to take a massive knock. 

It will match the humble pie CW has been serving them for years now. 

Still, good luck, omnivore Sam deniers.  Fair warning though. 

Unlike the virginal and untouched  vegan Sam truthers, Boomerang scoobydoodean actually answers comments. 

So go ahead and call Sam your queen.  I dare you. 

Sam Winchester is a physical and sexual omnivore. A beautiful meat and veggie appreciator.

He is not shy, he is not afraid to consume meat into his body.

He is not a vegetarian. He is not made of meat substitutes.

He can and will eat delicious homemade burgers

and he—sure as shit—is not going to let a fine greasy meat man meal go to waste.

[deanwinchester-baby]

@lonelygodscompanion thanks for the love today hashuashua 💗