#logged onto twitter for the first time in ages

[deswhomst]

GUYS WHY AM I SEEING PEOPLE SHIP REGULUS WITH UMBRIDGE ???? People just hate Regulus 😭

[i-likethesummer-rain]

It’s so hard for me to explain how I’m feeling. I just need an outlet and I haven’t been on this app in seven years but I remember the comfort and relatability and vulnerability tumblr had allowed me in my teen years so I guess I’ll try to type my feelings out here at the ripe age of 26.

I just want to start off by acknowledging that Liam Payne had made some mistakes. It’s really difficult because I feel guilty having such strong emotions about someone who I know has done some bad things. I guess I’m learning that grief and mourning are very strong emotions and feelings. Just because he did some bad things does not mean he deserved to die. I think what is very upsetting to me in particular is that Liam was never able to grow and heal. It just makes me so sad that he didn’t accept the help that he so desperately needed. Liam deserved a chance to right his wrongs. He deserved a chance at redemption. But in a way, he was set up for failure for a long time. I truly wish I was surprised but anyone could see he was clearly not well and had been using substances for a long time. His alcoholic tendencies that stemmed from one direction set him up for failure and inevitably put him on this path. But, I still don’t think any of this is an excuse for his abusive behavior. I am mourning Liam but I am in no way excusing his actions.

I’m not just mourning Liam. I am mourning the true end of one direction. I feel like I never truly believed one direction was over. Maybe it was delusion, maybe it was hopefulness that one day, maybe 10 years from now, we would have some sort of reunion. I hoped that these boys would heal from the trauma caused by one direction. I hoped they could all work out their problems and that with time and maturity it could be something healthy. The boys were so young in the band. Now that I’m older I can truly see how toxic one direction was. I’m so saddened that this time to heal from one directions trauma has just caused even more trauma for these boys. I’m saddened that Liam never truly found his place after the band ended. I’m saddened that one direction brought me so much joy, but being in that band killed Liam.

Part of me wishes this band never happened. The sweet loving boy I fell in love with through my screen would still be here. I’m so conflicted on how to feel about one direction now. I can’t even listen to their music right now. How did something that caused so much joy lead to something so tragic. I think of how much one direction changed my life. I was a lonely teenager. I had friends, but I never had a “group.” While other groups of friends would go out after school, hang out at each others houses, have sleepovers, I would spend time by myself. Watching one direction music videos, video diaries, concert videos, interviews, performances, funny moments, over and over and over again. I had blogs and instagrams and twitters dedicated to this band, and I would get to talk to friends online who related to me. It was like even if I was having the worst day at home or at school, I could log onto my laptop and one direction was there. And then there were the few friends I met at my school. I made a best friend and we were both going through horrible circumstances, but we bonded over one direction together. We went to their concert together. We had each other. Even if it was for a short time and we grew apart as we got older, I had someone who truly understood me. If it weren’t for one direction I truly don’t think I would have anybody.

One direction truly change my life ever after they disbanded. They made me realize I had a passion for live music. After I went to my first one direction concert, it was like I was addicted. I needed to go to more. I was lucky enough to see them twice in high school. Once I was in college and had the means to go to concerts, I was forever chasing the high of one direction. Even well into my 20’s, my passion for live music hasn’t changed. From going to music festivals, to following Harry around on tour, to still going to 5sos shows after I saw them open for one direction in 2014. I wouldn’t have any of this life that I live without one direction. Concerts have become my happy place. My comfort zone. My safe space. And I’ve experienced so many new things and discovered so many new artists.

It’s just really hard that one direction changed my life in such a monumental way, but brought so much pain to those in it. I’m going to zayns first solo show next week and I don’t know how I’m going to do it. I don’t know how he’s going to do it. My thoughts on the Zayn situation have also changed so much as I’ve gotten older. Initially I was angry and upset but now I see how these teenage boys were being controlled and emotionally abused for years. I’m worried about how this is going to affect Zayns confidence on stage and his anxiety about performing that he’s worked so hard to overcome. But I am mostly worried about Louis. This saint of a man has gone through so much. I just truly hope Zayn Louis Niall and Harry can get through this dark period together.

I’m just sad. I’m sad that Liam Payne is gone. I’m sad that Liam Payne never got to heal. I’m sad that the boys reconnected this way. I’m sad that it will never be 5/5 ever again. I’m sad that one direction is actually truly over.

Thank you Liam, Louis, Niall, Harry, and Zayn for everything.

Rest In Peace Liam Payne.

[satorena]

https://www.tumblr.com/satorena/771616112411656192/babessss-tut-on-ur-pinned-when

ma’am im sat.

this one is long so. . . stay with me now!

step #1: deciding aesthetics.

so! it’s been a while and i’m realizing i’m starting to hate my theme right? i decide it’s time to change. the very first thing to look into is what aesthetic you wanna work with. the past few months i’ve been following holiday themes, such as halloween and christmas ones. examples:

(i keep my themes on my side blog just in case)

this time, instead of following the frosty winter vibe i decided i wanted to base it off my latest obsession, sza’s deluxe album. from that point on, it was pretty simple. i typed “sza deluxe lana album” and pinterest gave me options (pinterest will be your best friend!).

step #2: editing/working on pinned

so technically i could’ve kept it as it was but i’m a complicated ass bitch so nothing is just simple with me lol. i decided to open capcut and add the parental advisory logo in the corner and added some filters/effects for an earthy vibe, because if you know sza then that’s basically her aesthetic. i also trademarked it for safety measures.

and since capcut works on making videos and tumblr is the shittiest app when it comes to videos, i opened a website to convert it into a gif.

i place it on my pinned (i run test trials on my side blog before putting it on this one) and usually add that glittery gif just to accentuate the image.

step #3: texts

this step isn’t too hard since i copy paste my texts (alias, age, etc.) but i do modify the caution warning based off my theme. since this time it’s based off an album, i used key words you’d associate with albums (tracklist for masterlist, deluxe for rules, features for tags and moots).

i then open picsart and identify the main colours of my main theme image to paste it onto certain texts, to make it more colourful (the draw button will help). the colours will come out in rgb so you’ll need to convert them to hex mode.

thennn, i open this website called stuffbydavid.com and place the hex code in the correct text box (the HTML option). it automatically shows the link you’ll need to paste the coloured text into tumblr. you’ll have to log into browser mode for tumblr, open your pinned, click settings and scroll until you see “rich text”, click on that and switch it to HTML. there will be different coding on your pinned and you can paste the link where you think fits.

(vegas made a post regarding it, i’ll link it here).

stay with me now! so when i’m done with pasting my links and i’m satisfied with the colouring, my pinned post is about finished. i’ll add in some tags related to my theme, throw in some more sparkles gifs and a thin divider. for the divider, i save the old one i had, open picsart and go back to the “draw” section, place in the rgb colour from earlier and just colour the divider, before saving it and putting it into my pinned. i also link my rules, masterlist and tags.

step #4: tweets

this is something i recently started in november, but i have this saved twitter template that i downloaded from a tumblr account (you can find these templates on tumblr). since it’s already in my previous works, i just click on them and modify them to my taste. my tweets will have something in common with my aesthetic (this time it’s lyrics off the album) and i’ll find a profile pic from pinterest.

i save them, then open background eraser to erase the background. on canva, the background colour i choose is red or green, that way the erasing app can easily erase the background colour without interfering.

then i save it from the app and open picsart to shrink their sizes. to do so, i open a blank space, click add photos and insert the first tweet. i make the image smaller by pinching the screen and move it to either the left or right side, then crop the image so the image can be saved horizontally (if you don’t understand what i mean, click my tweets and you’ll get it). i repeat the same steps with the second tweet.

after i’m finished, i upload it onto my pinned post, and then i’m finally done.

step #5: extra touches

first i’ll change the colouring of my background and accents. i often choose the colours i deducted from my main image in step 3, or if not, then i choose between black or white. i’ll paste the hex codes i feel fits the vibe.

after that’s done, i’ll work on my header. usually, i fuck around on picsart and slap images of gojo nendoroids and insert a silly text or sometimes a black girl as myself. but this time, since i’m following a theme, i remembered seeing an image for the lana album i knew i wanted as a header. however, it was in yellow and threw off the balance of the colours scheme.

so, i opened picsart on a blank space, filled in a blank text box and initially typed “lana sos deluxe”. but then, i realized rena and lana are pretty similar in writing, so i flipped shit around and decided to do that instead (sza if you see this don’t sue me thx!). i chose my fonts, saved the image and uploaded it on tumblr.

i always disable the stretch header button. it looks cleaner that way in my opinion. if the image ever looks too tiny, i crop it on picsart to adjust the size.

almost done! then i open pinterest and choose whatever profile pic i’m in the mood for. if i need to edit, i’ll open picsart. if i want a nendoroid character, i’ll open background eraser and erase the background. this time, i stuck with sza. i’ll then upload it as a pfp and choose to hide it, so you can clearly see my header.

nexttt, i choose what i want my description to be. again, i always base it off my current aesthetic, so this time i chose a song title. i’ll put in the hex code of the main colour of the theme so it changes to that. i like to stay on brand.

finally, i’ll change my inbox title. again, always sticking to aesthetics, so i chose the word “interlude” bc interludes are commonly found in albums. it’s also a pretty word lmaoo. and there you have it— a regular degular serena theme!

and then i move onto satorena and repeat most of these steps all over again ://

[circular-bircular]

Hi the childrens anon from like days ago.

Sorry for being an asshole and making a lot of assumptions. I was angry and I'll be angry in my own space next time not on your blog. The rest of this is abt that feel free to just delete. Idm.

It did take me days to get to what actually annoyed me and it's just telling teenagers on the platform you know teenagers are on to play roblox and get off the platform also made for teensagers feels pretty demoralising (for my own reasons)

Again, sorry

First off, thank you. I really appreciate you taking the time to review those thoughts and come back to me with them -- that's a lot of guts and thinking and reflection, and that's really fucking cool to see people do!

Second off -- yeah. No, I can absolutely be frustrating. My frustrations lie in the fact that... tumblr is absolutely not teenager friendly, and was never made for "family-friendly content." Well, sort of.

I've been a veteran of this awful place since I was a mere whippersnapper (shoot me). I joined for the first time in December of 2012, when the world was supposed to be ending and my keyboard sliding phone was considered all the rage in my rural high school. And, even back then, it was not child friendly.

This place used to have a policy of "go nuts, show nuts" verbatim in the TOS. But in recent years, they've tried to retroactively fit this place to be Family Friendly, and in the course of that, have failed miserably. Poor moderation, banning LGBT+ content left and write while letting hate groups on the rise, and porn bots galore unmonitored has led to one of the most toxic social medias I've personally witnessed (though maybe that's not saying much, I've not been on many, and I've avoided Twitter like the plague).

But I can see how me just shouting "go play roblox" isn't enough for a fully nuanced take, and how that can be frustrating to hear too many times. To make my stance as clear as I can think to make it right now, for anyone who might be reading:

Teenagers: I beg of you to log off and be a teen, if only to rebel against a system that is working against you. The world is trying to strip you of your safe spaces, and you are currently in deep, deep shark infested waters. And yes, you are doing a remarkable job of hitting those sharks in the face with wood, but you shouldn't have to be. You should be able to do whatever the fuck you want without having to worry about the atrocities of the world; go be a kid somewhere where you're still allowed to be. You're at the age where it matters the most to hold onto those times and make those memories. Do not let capitalism, discourse, and ageism rob that from you.

And adults? You need to listen to this as well. It's different -- lord knows I get how it's different, I'm one of the oldest in my friendgroup and that has me reeling -- but you need to hold onto that childhood with every ounce of your being. The world is built to tear that childhood away from you. Cling to it while you can, but leave the childrens spaces for those who were already robbed of enough. Find your own ways to have those memories, or at least keep childrens spaces for the kids in spirit.

[golbrocklovely]

A fair few people on twitter are now saying Colby and Sam groomed Katrina, that Colby 'had her' first then passed her onto Sam who groomed her until they broke up.

I am also seeing a handful of people saying Sam SA Katrina and I'm like 'so now we're entering the crazy train state of hysteria?' What are Twitter folks on? Why are they now making up lies? Is it because everyone is leaping onto the 'cancel Sam and Colby' train and thus believing everything they read on twitter now?

Not only are they inventing things now but the things they are inventing are horrific and honestly the people saying it all should be ashamed of themselves in my personal opinion.

i've seen the one twitter thread from an ex fan that said this and like…. it's actually funny to me how much they lied. like, full on lied, made shit up, not real at all lol

kat literally said so herself in a video that when she met snc she was only ever into sam. that her and colby became friends first, but that's only bc sam was so tired he barely even remembered meeting her. that's can be found in the how i met my gf video sam did years ago, around the five minute mark. that's when the story starts.

secondly, a lot of ppl continue to bring up the age gap that sam and kat had when they first started dating. kat was 16, and sam was 19. he didn't introduce her to the fandom until she was 17 and he was 20…. which would still be illegal in california but i guess is somehow more acceptable??? idk

and look, i'm not gonna comment on it. yall (as in those that want to discuss this, not you specifically anon) have your yelling matches somewhere else. bc i'm not gonna comment on a relationship that doesn't even exist anymore. not to mention kat's parents were very fully aware kat was dating sam at the time. so were his parents. so, if anyone had an actual problem with sam dating kat at the time, they should have done something.

this genuinely feels like it's coming out of nowhere. like the hate for snc on there has been constant for months now, but this uptick feels strange to me.

personally, i'm not gonna talk about it any further than this. bc i've made my opinions abundantly known at this point. i'm gonna enjoy my time, make some art, and keep it moving. and i suggest everyone else does the same.

log off of twitter, it's too much of a hellscape rn. plus snc themselves aren't on there - for good reason now, so it's not like you're gonna miss anything.

[scientologisabethmoss]

logging onto twitter for the first time in ages and seeing the tweets of all the catty, miserable people i used to hold in high esteem back in 2017, still catty and miserable

[jasvvy]

I just saw u on botchamania congrats you're famous!!!!!!!! That was kind of insane how the whole rig fell like that 😳

yeah it's pretty crazy lmao i logged onto twitter for the first time in ages and noticed a notification from maffew. been watching since it began so it's crazy to be on it lol I hope you enjoyed the clip! robbie fucking up the entire rig in the FIRST MATCH was insane to see live.

[behindtheireyes]

First off since this is my first time back on the desktop site in ages I feel the need to say how much I hate the changes that were made. If I wanted to see a website that's like Twitter, it will always be Twitter for me not this fucking X bullshit, I'd log onto my Twitter! Which I never do because I hate the fucking layout!

Also since I'm going to be on here a bit more often, in theory at least, I will not take sides in anything or be involved with drama. I will interact with anyone I connect with or can deal with my slow as fuck ass :P

I also want to thank the two people who have been there for me to talk to about this but I will not tag them because, again, not taking sides. You both know who you are and I appreciate you both more than you'll ever realize <3

Now it's time for an explanation as to why I've been in a shit head space since the end of July which I will put under a read more for those that aren't interested.

On July 30th I was at work and got pulled into the office to talk with my Store Manager, she had a few papers in hand and asked me to sit down. The day before she'd received an email about corporate restructuring and I was being told my full time position with the company was eliminated. I was completely thrown for a loop since I had been working at another store for a few days a week as of the week of July 9th and had only spoken to my district manager a few days prior about what needed to be fixed at the store I was helping. Everything had seemed good when we spoke so I was pretty shaken up by this news.

I was told I could continue on doing my job as part time making $9.75 an hour or take a severance deal and collect unemployment. I of course said I needed to think about it since it was a big decision going from 36-40 hours a week at $16.85/hr down to god knows how many hours at a shit wage. My SM, who was bawling like a baby along with me at this news btw, said she understood but FUCKING CORPORATE wanted an answer by Friday July 28th. The date this conversation was happening? Wednesday July 26th.

Yes, you read that right, Two whole days to make a huge decision and if I didn't give them one in time I was forfeiting my severance and it would be considered voluntary job abandonment so no unemployment for me! Also if I chose the deal I couldn't take any time off, use any of my PTO or sick time, or even call off because it would be considered voluntary job abandonment and I wouldn't get unemployment or my severance.

This happened company wide with even some assistant managers losing their jobs and being offered a similar deal. I will gladly send links to the Reddit subs talking about this if anyone wants to see exactly the fuckery this company is putting its loyal people through. I had almost three weeks of paid vacation and about two days of sick time built up that I lost.

I would have also been with the company for ten years in November and I worked through the worst of Covid being treated like shit by the customers for trying to enforce the company's and CDC's rules. I was also a manager for 7 or so of those almost ten years.

Then on August 1st I had a surgery consultation for a health issue only to be told it's worse that they thought and I would need a procedure that would land me in the hospital for a week with a TWO month recovery time. Thankfully my health insurance, as crappy as it is, is independent from my job so I'm not losing it but whose going to hire someone whose going to have to go out on medical leave in a couple of months? This wouldn't have been a problem before, you know sick time and PTO for the win, but now it is. I know my boss would gladly hire me back after I recovered but it's going to be at a shitty wage with shitty hours.

So do I put my health aside and risk my issue getting worse and try to find another job right away or hope my former company doesn't screw me over anymore and lets me collect until I'm fully recovered?

Thankfully, I won't be homeless but that's another issue for another day.

I'm not looking for sympathy, monetary help, or anything like that. I just felt like I owed the wonderful people I interact with here a proper explanation of to why I've been more out of it than normal.

Thanks for taking the time to read this.

Love,

Barb

[springtrapsspringlockedbussy]

logged onto twitter for the first time in ages since i got tumblr and saw a video of some guy getting ensnared inside a lathe and turning into a gory paste. 🫠

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[kidcozyboi]

omg hey i was just wondering what your prev fandom was? i logged onto tumblr for first time in an AGE and saw you on on my tl and i was like woahhh when did i follow atz blogs (bc i AM atiny but was not when i was on tumblr) and so it was just. super funny to see

omg 😭😭😭 I was kinda a khiphop/random kpop group hybrid blog but my main interest was khh which the fandom for was DEAD AND DRY on here so I moved to twitter for a while cause it was more prevalent there and i wasn't active on here at all, but then i got into ateez and they've basically taken over so now I come back on to reblog them sometimes and then disappear again lmao

[louiscassettes]

seeing everyone on twitter posting everything that is happening there is making me so happy. the staff is very polite, funny security. the cute banners, fans with signs. the energy is so good 🥺

[youbutstupid]

Here’s some George wins for the timeline as I feel people mainly focus on his losses and I wanna prove that he is good at things:

1. If you take the number of subscribers he currently has and divide it by the number of days it has been since his first upload, he has earned the equivalent of up to 13,737 subscribers per day

2. He was the first Dream Team member to be verified on Twitter in terms of both main accounts and alts

3. His alt Twitch account skipped straight past affiliate to partner just a few days after it was banned twice

4. He was the first person to ever log onto the Dream SMP

5. Up until MCC 14, he had the most kills on SkyBattle

6. Despite all of the teasing about him never making it to top 10 in MCC as he usually comes 11th or 12th, he actually did once in MCC 10 when he was on the team Red Rabbits with Dream, CaptainPuffy and Solidarity

7. He was awarded under YouTube’s Breakout Stars of 2020

8. When he was still a student, he was a part of many extra coding projects outside of university, one of which was an app for his friend that worked as a dating site for finding jobs: George was able to code it so that a bunch of randomly generated profiles containing different ages, personality types, qualifications and names were sent to different job boards. He was also able to code it so that a bot under his name would text his CompSci groupchat whilst they were taking their exam so that when they left they exam, they all read the text and thought George missed the exam.

9. Despite having failed one of his classes purely because he didn’t like it and couldn’t be bothered, he still managed to get the highest possible degree that he could get (a first) due to him doing so well in his other classes

10. He is able to code almost any adjustment to Minecraft on the spot: once during one of Dream’s streams he was struggling to make a thumbnail so within a few minutes he last minute coded into Minecraft a way for him to not pick up any items if he is holding a stick

11. He is able to recognise multiple languages despite not speaking them: this comes in very useful when playing GeoGuessr as he not only is able to identify what language is being spoken but he can also most of the time distinguish what the words mean. This is also shown when he speaks to Quackity and is able to identify what Quackity is saying despite not speaking Spanish properly himself

12. He has very random talents such as being able to play drums, recorder, he is able to juggle and is able to solve maths equations on the spot with 0 preparation

13. He was global elite at csgo

14. Whilst also being good at Maths and CompSci, he is also good at science, having taken A Levels (advanced levels) in Physics and Chemistry (two of the hardest A Levels that you can take in England)

15. Despite being unathletic now, in school he actually enjoyed sports: he stated that his favourite day was actually sports day at school and he would participate in high jump. He also said he played some football and did swimming for a bit

16. When on a podcast (forgot which one :() he was told he had a good voice for singing

I’m sure there are many more but it’s 3 am and I’m thinking on the spot here

[autismsam]

Not even kidding i’m logging onto twitter for the first time in ages for the express purpose of cyberbullying misha collins

[lueminous]

Reylos on twitter are logging onto tumblr for the first time in ages just to laugh at all the antis crying about it being the top ship of 2020. It's like everyone coming together for the holidays to celebrate and I think that's beautiful

[raindownforme]

Crush

Charlie Slimecicle x Reader [she/her used]

It had been hours since y/n had started her stream. At the beginning of it she’d been working on the origins SMP and grinding at gathering supplies and resources while everyone else was off doing other things. A few times someone had popped onto the VC she sat in, Niki had talked while eating dinner and Ranboo had came to recount his day, but otherwise she had remained alone in the beginning.

But it had been several hours since then. Now it was 3 going on 4 in the morning. She sat curled up on her gaming chair, her eyelids just barely staying open. She was exhausted, but she was determined to stay awake until someone else started streaming. To pass the time, y/n had been interacting with chat and reading aloud donations.

“Hello?” A voice came through her headphones and she jumped, nearly falling out of her seat. “y/n?”

“Oh! Philza!” He chuckled a bit. Her voice sounded light and she began to yawn halfway through her sentence. “How nice to see you. What are you doing up?”

“Well it’s roughly noon for me and I was about to start streaming.”

“Ah. Of course.” She began to tap at some buttons, readying to move around her audience.

“Have you been awake for long?”

“Yeah. But I had a few people visit me.” As the notification of Phil going live dropped, she sent everyone over with a wave. “Niki and Ran came by.”

“Aw you sound disappointed.”

“Well I wanted somebody to come by but I guess he was too busy.”

Philza laughed again. “Yeah? And who’s somebody?”

In her stupor she giggled and winked towards a camera that wasn’t on anymore. “I can’t tell you who I have a crush on.”

The man froze, watching his chat go by a mile a minute. They kept throwing names around, even if they didn’t make sense, and he knew this wouldn’t end up any where good if it progressed. “Is it alright if we talk about this later? Why don’t you get some sleep.”

She yawned and stretched. She slowly went to get out of her chair. “Alright dad. Goodnight. I love you.”

“Love you too.” The discord call made the familiar noise of someone disconnecting and y/n turned off her display. She went and slunk into her bed, nesting underneath the covers, and quickly drifted to sleep.

———

y/n woke up a few hours later. As she sat up the first thing she did was reach for her phone to see a missed call from Ranboo. She went to call back and he picked up almost immediately.

“You are so dumb.”

She groaned and wiped at the sleep in her eyes. “Can I be awake for five minutes first.”

“No actually. You’re trending on Twitter.”

She squinted, trying to recall anything. “Did I do something bad? Was it last night or....?”

“It wasn’t like. Bad. But it was last night. You told Phil on live that you have a crush on someone.”

She paused, feeling her face grow warm with embarrassment. “Did I say who it was?”

“No you didn’t.” She sighed and felt herself relax a bit. “But they’re trying to figure it out. You didn’t make it very hard.”

“Well I didn’t say a name.”

“Yeah so you let them pick from the six men your age who have been on this server. Like I said you’re dumb.”

She sat up and got out of her bed, letting Ranboo sit next to her on speaker. She went to her desk and booted up her computer. She pulled up twitch on one monitor and Twitter on another. Loading up the streaming site, she sorted through all of us Phil’s new clips to look for last night. She found it quickly and began playing it.

“Have you been awake long?”

“Yeah. But I had a few people come visit me.... Niki and Ran came by.”

“Aw you sound disappointed.”

“Well I wanted somebody to come by but I guess he was too busy.”

Philza’s laugh echoed through her monitor’s speakers. “Yeah? And who’s that somebody?”

“I can’t tell you who I have a crush on.”

The clip ended with Philza glancing wide eyed between the camera and his computer monitors. y/n sighed and looked over at her other monitor. Her twitch name was trending. She clicked on the tag and scrolled through countless tweets of clips of her and other boys from the Origins SMP. There were ones of her and Jack, her and Charlie, her and Wilbur, her and Sneeg, and even her and Tommy or Tubbo. She took the time to respond to ones of her and the younger boys, emphasizing that if anyone was going to speculate anything it wasn’t going to be with her and children.

“Ran, what do I do?”

“Ignore it? It’s not like you have an actual crush on any one right?”

She paused, chewing the inside of her cheek. “Ran..”

“Oh! Oh my god!” He started laughing and y/n could hear him fall from his chair onto the floor. He kept laughing as he got up. “Oh please tell me who it is-“

“No! I’m an adult! I don’t have crushes on boys.”

“Oh that is fake!” He kept laughing and y/n rested her head in her hands. “You know you might as well tell me who it is.”

“Yeah fucking right.”

“I’ll black mail you.”

“No you won’t!”

“I’ll show Tubbo your number and he’ll leak it.”

“To who.”

“The discord.”

y/n rolled her eyes. “Yeah yeah yeah. When are you getting on.”

“An hour-ish.”

“I’ll see you then.”

“Alright byeeeeeee.”

Ranboo ended the call and y/n sighed. If she told Ranboo who she liked, he’d eventually tell Tubbo, who’d eventually tell Tommy, until he told someone and so on so forth. They were teenage boys. It wasn’t a very lucrative group. And Tommy seemed to record with Charlie almost every week. It seemed impossible to get by without disrupting something.

y/n went on to busy herself around her home for the next hour or so, doing some cleaning and other chores that had to be done. When she finished, she made her way to her pc to begin recording. She wasn’t planning on a live stream today, but a recording session would still do her channel good.

As she sat to boot up Mojang, she pulled up discord on her second monitor. She saw the kids already in a call; Tommy, Tubbo, and Ranboo.

“Hey boys.” She slipped on her headphones as she entered the call, but they were all yelling.

“DON’T YELL AT ME.”

“I’L YELL AT WHOEVER I WANT WHEN I KNOW I’M RIGHT.”

“ARE YOU TOMMY? ARE YOU RIGHT?”

“Hi y/n.” Both boys stopped yelling as Tubbo pointed out that she had arrived. “Ranboo’s live by the way.”

“Thanks Tubbo. Are you guys on origins?”

“Yep!”

“Great, I’ll be on in a sec.” As she opened the world, she spawned somewhere she didn’t remember. It was dark around her, like she was swallowed by obsidian. “Uhhh, boys? I might be stuck.”

“I told you! I told you I was right! Chat tell Ranboo he’s an idiot!” Tommy started yelling again as Ranboo tried to tell him to shut up.

“That doesn’t explain why I’m surrounded by obsidian. I don’t have a pick!”

“Well, y/n,” she looked over to her discord call to see all the boys had their cameras on now. They all sat with their hands crossed while wearing sunglasses. Ranboo had his full mask on. Meaning he probably had camera on for his stream. Tubbo cleared his throat as he kept talking. “We have some questions for you.”

“If I answer can I get out of here?”

“If you answer honestly.” Ranboo leaned forwards a bit. “You told Philza Minecraft you had a crush on someone, correct?”

“Yeah. Sure. Might I add you’re all immature?”

“Is this crush, a man? Hmm?” Tommy tipped his sunglasses downwards slightly.

“Yes. How many more questions?”

“You’re not done. Is it someone on this server?”

“Does that matter Tubbo?”

“YES.” All the boys shouted in unison.

“Jeez fine. He has played on multiple servers, this could be one of them.”

Tommy slammed his fist on his desk. “HONESTY.”

“YES. HE IS.”

Ranboo gave a fake evil chuckle. “So it’s someone we know. A man we know. A gamer we know. One of us.”

“Yeah yeah.” y/n quickly pulled up twitch on her third monitor, making sure that he wasn’t watching Ranboo’s stream.

“Now y/n. I’m muted on my stream right now. Is it Wilbur?”

“Uhh…” He was there. He was watching the stream. Whatever she answered, he’d know.

“Wilbur! It’s Wilbur!” The boys started cheering as she realized that she didn’t quite answer. But as long as Charlie didn’t know the truth.

“Yeah. Can I come out now?” She watched charlie’s name disappear from the chat. In her game, Ranboo’s character came over to set her free from the obsidian.

“Thank you for your honesty.”

“Yeah no worries. I’ll see you later boys.” She logged out of the server and scooted away from the monitors. She knew she made a bigger problem for herself.

She walked over to her bedside table, taking her phone off the charge, and went to face time Wilbur. He picked up quickly, holding the phone extremely close to his face.

“y/n!”

“Are you streaming?”

“No not at the moment.”

“Great because I fucked something up.”

“Oooooh tell me.” Wilbur propped up his phone in front of him and took a drink of something in a mug.

“So the children- did you see the clip from Phil’s stream?”

“Absolutely. Continue.”

“They went and cornered me into telling who my crush is. And they said you and I was distracted so they assumed you-“

“Is it me?”

“No fuck off. But now everyone thinks it’s you and even worse, the actual person was watching! He thinks I have a crush on you and I don’t know if that’s good or bad.”

Wilbur nodded. “Well who is?”

y/n pursed her lips, thinking for a moment before admitting the truth out loud for the first time. “Charlie.”

Wilbur froze, then scrambled to pick up his phone. “I have to go.”

“WILBUR NO.”

The line went dead from Wilbur’s end and y/n groaned, chucking her phone against her pillows. She rubbed at her eyes with her palms, deciding she might as well continue recording.

y/n logged back onto the Origins server, keeping herself out of the active discord calls. She could see that the three boys were still in a call, and Wilbur was talking with Philza. She rolled her shoulders back, getting into the mindset to record.

“Hey everybody!” y/n went on start the recording, talking mostly to herself about finishing construction on her house. It was quite a tall house, built of mostly stone and cobble, but she was still proud of it. The bottom two floors were reserved for storage and mining, and there was one room of entirely water for Niki. The top floor was a large spread patio frames in by dark oak fencing with a glass roof surrounded by dark oak half slabs. Her being a skeleton in the game, having a vantage point helped her snipe enemy mobs. It was also conviennent for attacking creepers to get music discs. She had quite the collection growing already.

“Okay so if I-“ y/n paused, looking over at her other monitor. In the main chat of the Origins SMP server, Wilbur had a sent a singular message.

WilburSoot: dress formally for an event in 2 hours time hosted at the Pubé

y/n took a breath, a bit nervous of what that meant, but still responded to let him know she would be there. In the meantime, she continued on her video, taking the 2 hour period to build herself a lovely garden area and an additional storage area deep underground.

“Thank you everyone! I hope to see you all soon.” She ended the recording and took a breath. There were 15 minutes until Wilbur’s event, and she supposed she had to dress nicer than her pajamas.

A moment later, she returned to her computer wearing her favorite sweater and a comfortable pair of pants. Looking over at discord, she could see most of the Origins SMP members in a discord call together, excluding only Schlatt, Technoblade, and SMajor. She took a breath, thinking for a moment, then clicked into the call.

“Hello?”

“y/n!!!” Jack’s voice screamed through her headphones.

“Sorry he’s a bit loud.”

“OI. AM NOT.”

“Come down mate.” Philza cleared his throat. “y/n. Lovely to have you.”

“Thanks Phil.”

“Before we start, no one’s live at all.”

She paused cueing up the game, her mouse hovering over the server. “Before we start what?”

No one answered. Quietly, she entered the server and made her way to the Pubé.

“Welcome to event of the century.” Ranboo’s character jumped up and down. Every one stood in the Pubé facing her.

“Alright. And what kind of event is this?”

“A ball! With food and drink provided by Philza and music provided by Tommy.” Wilbur’s character ran over to the jukebox in the corner to show her.

“That’s lovely, Will. Was I supposed to be more dressed up?”

“I think you’re perfect as is.” Charlie’s character jumped up and down. She paused, trying to swallow the giddy feeling rising in her chest.

“Let’s begin! Tommy, the music?” Wilbur turned the the teen as he placed the music discs. y/n watched everyone pair off, leaving her and Wilbur alone. Wilbur walked over to her, hitting her playfully.

“Hey Wilbur.” y/n looked over as the two went into a separate call.

“y/n!!! How are you doing? Enjoying the party?”

“Well I haven’t been here very long.” She held her hands closed over her lap. “Wilbur, I feel like there’s something going on here.”

“It’ll be fine. Trust me?”

She sighed, a smile playing at her lips. “Fine.”

“Good.” She could hear the smile in his voice. “Maybe dance around a bit. I’m going to talk with Phil.”

They both left the chat, Wilbur entering a call of just him and Philza and y/n entering the main room. The music was still playing. Everyone seemed to have split off into groups, leaving her alone. She sat by herself, watching everyone mingle about. It was only her in the main call, leaving everyone else in groups, but it was nice. She turned her head to watch her second monitor, seeing Charlie move out of the call with Wilbur and Philza to the main room with herself.

“H-Hey there.” She watched Charlie’s small character bounce over to her. “How’s it hangin?”

“Oh. Uhm. Good I guess. It’s nice to see you back on the server.”

“Yeah I guess I haven’t played in a while. I mean I haven’t streamed that much either but I’ve been recording.”

“That’s nice!”

“Yeah. I mean I’ve been able to watch other streams though.”

y/n thought back Ranboo’s stream earlier in the day, knowing full well Charlie had been watching that one. “Right.”

“We don’t have to talk about it. I mean I know how you feel.”

“Oh. Oh no please tell me Wilbur didn’t say anything.” y/n rubbed at her forehead with the heel of her palms. Convincing the internet she was in love with Wilbur Soot had been a problem in its own, but Wilbur telling Charlie she had a crush on him? “Look Charlie I’m sorry I didn’t want him to tell you it’s just- god you’re so nice and funny and really cute and it’s a stupid crush I never wanted to ruin our friendship. I’m so sorry Charlie.”

The other end of the call was quiet for a moment, but then she head Charlie almost laugh. “You have a crush on me?”

The realization washed over like a tsunami. He’d been talking about the stream, Wilbur hadn’t said anything. “God no wait Charlie-“

“On me? You have a crush on me?”

“Okay now you’re just rubbing it in. I take it back.”

“You can’t take that back!”

“Why not?”

“Because I don’t want you to.”

y/n paused, a smile creeping on her face. “Are you telling me that you have a crush on me over a Minecraft server?”

“You said it first!”

She glanced over at the camera on her computer for a moment. “We could have avoided this the whole time?”

“I- yeah we could’ve.”

y/n giggled, resting her face in her hands. “Is this our first date then?

“No!” She could hear Charlie suck in a breath. “I mean, let me take you somewhere better. Just give me a few days?”

“Days? That’s speedy isn’t it?”

“Okay Maybe weeks. But I’ll take you somewhere. Anywhere. Trust me.”

“Of course.”

She could hear Charlie laugh on the other end of the call. “Until then, how much time do we have to make up for?”

She smiled, settling herself into her chair. “Charlie, more than you could ever think.”