#logan probably called him a moron again and he panicked

[abusedog]

it's a SHIT SHOW , is all a shit show , his whole life is a shit show and nothing is ever gonna be okay again EVER . and the worst thing of all , the thing that ADDS salt to wound , is that the only witness of the whole damn ORDEAL seems to be fucking @asprinkle .

❝ the fuck are you looking at , freak ? ❞ he lashes out and is wrong , WRONG , wrong , but he can't help himself ❝ shouldn't you be sucking your boss' dick or SOMETHING ? ❞

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[purgatory-is-life]

Darker Then He Seems

This is a Sanders Sides fanfic I wrote a while ago, don’t @ me. The plot is kinda confusing.

Summary: Roman's dark past is slowly catching up to him, after Can LYING Be Good. Twists and turns are on every path, darkness threatening Patton and Logan's happiness, Virgil is panicking more than usual, slowly reverting back to how he was before... Pride left the Dark Sides, and Creativity came into the play.

CHAPTER TWO: THIS IS HALLOWEEN!

Previous//Next

Chapter TW; Mentions of skinning people, cursing (I think), arguing, let me know what I missed!

---Time Lapse---

Virgil

It’s finally time! Halloween! My favorite time of the year! Technically, it’s only October, but still! We were all decorating the Mind Palace for the holiday. It was Roman’s idea, he always goes all out for everything. Not that I mind for this one thing. Patton was making cookies, Logan was hanging around in one of the large spider webs Roman conjured reading, and I was decorating the Common Room. My pet spider, Aragog, was helping with spider webs. The Nightmare Before Christmas soundtrack was playing in the background as we decorated.

“Hey, Logan, how you doing up there?” I called.

“It is quite peaceful actually, as Roman is not here to disturb any of the peace.”

“You’re forgetting Patton.”

“He’s busy with the cookies.”

“They’re shaped like little cats!” Patton called from the kitchen. I rolled my eyes.

“Whatever, I’m gonna go check on Sir Sings-a-lot!”

“Alright, you do that, kiddo!” I walked upstairs and towards the bedrooms. Roman was being a bit extra and painting the hallways the colors of Halloween. As the paint dried, Roman hung up more webs.

“You really don’t have to do this, you could change the Mind Palace in a snap if you wanted,” to emphasize my point, I snapped my fingers. The Hallway suddenly darkened.

“Oh come on Brad Pitiful, now look who’s being dramatic!”

“I’m not being dramatic, I’m- I’m- not sure why the hallway darkened!”

“Well, whatever, we can’t keep this darker lighting, Patton’s afraid of the dark!”

“Of course he is, he’s the brightest Side around! He’s afraid of the Dark Sides Borders, the Dark Sides, the Dark Sides Realm-”

“What should we decorate the theatre with? And the Movie Room? We all spend so much time in the Movie Room downstairs, so there can’t be too many spider webs-”

“ROMAN FOCUS DAMNIT!!”

“Okay, but give me like five seconds,” the moron said sinking out. I waited there patiently for about five minutes. When Roman rose back up, he was going on and on about how he could attain purple light filters.

“No. Whatever, you say, no. No more glitter bombs, I think we learned our lesson last year.”

“THAT WAS REMY’S FAULT, VIRGIL!!”

“Was it? You two thought it was a good idea to decorate EVERY REALM WITH RAINBOW GLITTER!!”

“PICANI LIKED IT!”

“HE’S DATING REMY!! OF COURSE HE LIKED IT!!”

“THAT WOULD IMPLY YOU LIKE SOME OF MY IDEA’S!!”

“I DO, IT’S JUST THAT SOME OF THEM ARE DANGEROUS!!”

“WHY ARE WE FIGHTING, IT’S YOUR FAVORITE TIME OF YEAR?!”

“I DON’T KNOW!!” The lights flickered darker again, and a familiar voice rang out;

“Oh joy, oh joy! This place is looking festive! I love the webs, Virgil’s doing I imagine, hey Logan, how’s logic doin’?”

“Oh no.”

“Shit”

“We should go down and check our heads aren’t tricking us.”

“Yeah.” Roman and I walked downstairs to the Common Room. Of course, to my absolute displeasure, Envy and Apathy were standing there. Apathy, was wearing J.D. cosplay from Heathers (Roman forced me to watch both the musical and the movie). Envy, was in his usual outfit, but a… Black and blue cloak rather than the usual green one? Eh, whatever. It doesn’t matter that much. What did matter, was what they were doing there.

“Hey, calm down,” Roman mumbled, placing a hand on my shoulder. The lights were flickering, and my shadows were going wild. I took a breath and the shadows stopped and the light’s seized flickering.

“WhAt ArE yOu DoInG hErE?!” I said, around the same time Patton and Logan (how got down from the spider webs, I’m assuming it was Patton’s doing) walked into the room.

Envy turned to face me. “Ah! Anx, good to see ya, love the new look, very you, just the Sides we wanted to see! D- do you have the Heathers soundtrack album I let you borrow all those- nevermind, getting off topic-”

“En, dude, you’re talking too much again.”

“Apathy, you have no room to talk, on guys night, you and Rem talk up a storm, and you attempt to make jokes with Em.”

“And you and Dee argue about the biggest lies Thomas has told.”

“Lying to yourself is a form of lying! He was in charge of keeping Thomas closeted all those years, and before that, convincing him he was straight!”

“My jokes are acceptable according to Dee!”

“Do you see the flaw in that logic? Deceit is seriously bad at controlling his compulsive lying; and I thought Insomnia clouded logic’s voice.”

“Ah! I am offended!”

“If you were, you would be bleeding.”

“Is that so?”

“I can show you blood if you want.”

“You know me so well, who will we skin?”

“Anyone of your choosing, they’ll just come back, like that time we skinned the snake himself!”

“Um, excuse me, but you didn’t answer Virgil’s question,” Patton said.

“More like demand,” Apathy said. When was Envy in his arms-? He was carrying Envy bridal style.

“Oh, and we’re here for those two,” Envy pointed towards me and Roman. “We brought PRESENTS! It’s not Christmas, but, who cares?”

“What do you mean, ‘presents’?” Roman asked, pulling me closer to him.

“Oh, you know, the usual. We had-

“Have,” Apathy reminded him.

“-A tradition, back home, where every time something big comes up, we give each other a new article of clothing. Dee gets a new cloak, Apa get’s a new jacket, Nia gets a new satchel, and I get either a shirt or a cloak. Aaanyway, I’ve droned on long enough.” Envy jumped down from Apathy’s arms and walked over to us. He was a lot shorter than us, not very intimidating. He handed us two boxes. One was white decorated with a red streak and Romans calligraphy handwriting (forged, obviously, but surprisingly accurate) reading ‘Pride’. The other was purple with patches and my messy horror of a handwriting reading ‘Anxiety’.

Envy’s smile was… fangs and all. “I think you left these at home.” Envy walked back to the apathetic side in J.D. cosplay. “Now, let’s get home before someone dies, probably us by either Roman or Patton, I’m not sure, and talking too much again, let’s go.” Envy jumped in Apathy’s arms again and they sunk out. I’m pretty sure I heard someone say something about oversharing as the pair sunk out.

“Do you guys know what they gave you?” Logan asked.

Roman shrugged and opened the box. I looked over his shoulder, on top of some neatly folded clothes a note that read a simple message:

Happy Halloween, my kings. You’ll break eventually. I know the whispers well…

~Envy. (Apa signed the other note. I forced him too, :P)

Well, this was not good.

[acetarisborn]

Trust - Chapter 4

Summary: Roman wakes up and realizes that only fighting his insecurities will make him reunite with the other Sides.

Pairings: Moxiety and Platonic Logince

Content Warning: Self steem issues, anger attack, self doubt, blood

Roman opened his eyes slowly, he blinked a few times, thinking he still had them closed for a second because everywhere he looked there was nothing but darkness.

He tried to stand up but he felt a huge pain on his hip, he groaned and put his hand where he felt the pain, his eyes looked down to see blood in his hand and two stains in his white clothes, his eyes widened as he let out a panicked scream.

“What happened to me?!

The creative side took a deep breath and took his sash off to use it as a bandage. He stood up weakly, when he was on his feet again he fixed his clothes and hair.

“Wait...” The creative side looked up to see the same as the entire place seemed to be.

“Where am I?”

He looked down at his hands, one of them still covered in his own blood. Even if the place was entirely black it wasn’t technically dark, he was able to see himself.

Roman tried to rebember what happened the previous night to end up wherever he could be at that moment.

He remembered in a second. The fight, Deceit, how bad he felt and how that imposter was probably pretending to be him right now

“Oh no” He exclaimed while thinking how his friends could be in danger

“I need to get out of here”

He ran as far as he could, he didn’t even knew where but he kept running, trying to find any kind of exit.

“Ugh, what is this sick joke?! Where’s the exit, is it invisible or what!?”

his eyes widened realizing the simple logic of the situation

“Gosh darnit! Why didn’t I thought about that?”

He imagined a big door with an exit neon sign, clapped twice and it appeared in front of him

“Yes!”

Roman moved the doorknob and ran through it, only to stay in the same place

“Oh, Come on!”

Deceit was probably behind this, he was so mad at him, making him feel so worthless, an idiot, selfish.

He clapped twice and his sword apeared in his hands

“I know you did this, Deceit. Show yourself already!”

The figure weirdly appeared when Roman asked for it, looking at him with a fake grin. In the inside he was furious that his plan had failed for now, but Roman didn’t had to know about his facade.

“Well if it isn’t the fairest of them all” He said with a sarcasm so noticable, even for Roman.

“What have you done to my friends?” He asked with his sword in hand and a serious face, he wouldn’t let the events of last night happen again or never.

“You don’t want the answer to that, but I think someone else can tell you. Why don’t you ask him”

After he said those words another voice speaked

“Hey, coward”

Roman turned around and saw Virgil, wearing his old hoodie. He didn’t even cared about how he called him, he ran to him and grabbed his shoulders

“Virgil! Wait, what are you doing he-”

“You left us...” he interrupted him, the anxious side’s eyes glaring at him with hatred.

“I-I’m sorry, Virgil. I didn’t mean it! Deceit brought me wherever this place is!” He asnwered pointing at Deceit

“Shut up, Roman!” A new voice said, he moved to see Logan, angrier than he had ever seen him, with his arms behind his back.

“You are the only one responsible of today’s events! about what happened to Patton!”

“Patton? Where is he, what happeed? Is he hurt?!”

“He is GONE!” Virgil’s voice yelled in a deeper tone.

Roman was shocked, he thought sides couldn’t be ‘gone’ He knew that. It was impossible. No more kind compliments, no more cookies at night, no more hugs, his friend was dead.

“N-no, you are lying, YOU ALL ARE”

“He DIED, Roman! All because you were a dramatic crybaby like you always are!” Virgil punched Roman in the chest, making him fall and scratch his knees, his sword falling to the ground.

He tried to stand up but Logan kicked him again in the stomach.

“Always saying you are so brave when you are actually so fake and coward you couldn’t even just ignore Deceit and keep him from doing it!”

Selfish, moron,

 coward, fake,

 fragile.

 Logan and Virgil kept saying those words to him while beating him up, he wanted to fight back, he wanted it so much but couldn’t. They were his friends, his family, and them saying all that hurted more than the actual pain of the punches, tears were already staining his face.

“Calm down Roman. think, think for once!” He thought trying to pay more attention to his voice than to the pain, he needed to do something, anything to get out of the situation.

Then he looked at them:

The voice of reason, the fight or flight instincts...What would they do?

“Logan used that word one time, what was it? Cognitive distortions! thoughts you made up when you hate yourself...”

He kept thinking to himself, he wasn’t going to talk because he knew that would gave an advantage to his adversary

“Try to use common sense, Roman. You are in an empty, black place where suddenly Virgil and Logan appear just to insult you and beat you up? That’s stupid!”

“These are not them” He finally said outloud.

Roman stood up, pushing them aside with a strange easiness

“These are mothing more than illusions” He grabbed his sword again and looked at them

“A dirty trick made to weaken me” He said as he slashed Virgil’s body in half, making him to dissapear into thin air

“What you said might be true for once” He ran to Logan and did the same, ending the illusion

“Maybe I am a moron, selfish and even a fake piece of garbage” He turned around at grabbed his sword, facing Deceit, his eyes now clear of tears

“But I’m still Thomas’s freaking hopes, dreams, justice and bravery”

He ran to Deceit while lifting his sword, ready to end what he had created

“I’M A GODDAMN  PRINCE!”

He gave a war cry and just when Roman’s sword touched Deceit’s body everything turned blinding white and a door appeared in front of him.

He was panting, sweating, the pain from the punches and the still fresh wound came back; but he did it. He defeated his own hate.

His arms fell down again, suddenly feeling the right one broken, which was weird considering he was imaginary but at this point the not literal logic had been thrown out of the window. He grabbed his right arm and opened the door, going to a big familiar forest, the surroundings he made for the mind palace or at least where the Sides are usually, a house was visible on the distance. Home.

Meanwhile Patton had asked for a “Family Meeting” in the living room

“Alright kiddos, now that we have calmed down we need to focus again in the main problem. We need to get Roman back”

“Do you already have a plan?” Logan asked serious

“well, no... but that’s why I need you too, guys! Logan, you are realistic, with your intelligence and strategy, along with any information Virgil could be capable of tell us about Deceit we could find a way out of this”

Logan smiled slightly at the compliment, then adjusted his glasses and stood up, while Patton sat next to Virgil inthe couch.

“First of all we need to remember what we recently discovered about him”

“He is an idiot” 

“He is scary” The other two sides answered to the logic, who facepalmed after that.

“That’s why I don’t like feelings” he murmured “No, I mean the important things. Let’s review what happened yesterday.

“You tackled him when you knew it was him, he fought with Roman’s sword and took his time changing into his own form, also he tried to kill Patton” Virgil rewinded the events in his head, saying the last one in anger.

“That’s what got me intrigued. He was very close to cut your throath, Patton. But the question is... Could he?

Patton looked at Virgil confused, trying to know if he was alone in his confussion. Virgil’s eyes widened as he realized what Logan meant.

“Can a side actually die? Is that the question?”

“Correct. Since we are important facets of Thomas’s personality can those traits actually dissapear completely?”

“Well, when Virgil ducked out” Patton moved his arms like if they were duck wings “Thomas was without any reflex or caution. Then I think if Roman is dead by now then he would be without imagination”

“Then we need to call Thomas!” Virgil stood up and moved his hand in the air sumoning him.

The man appeared before them, looking confused but greeting everyone

“Oh, hey guys! Why did you called me? we aren’t making a new video yet-”

“There’s not time to explain, Thomas, think of anything that needs of creativity or imagnation”

“Like a dog using roller skates to chase a car?”

Patton smiled imagining how that would work and Virgil sighed relieved knowing what that signed.

“That was one of the most absurd things I’ve ever heard but thank you for your cooperation, Thomas” He said as he made him sink down

“Oh, okay! By the way,where’s Roman?” Thomas asked but he had already got out of the mind palace.

“Well, that tells us Roman is still alive but we have been wasting the entire time just solving that. It doesn’t matter if he is alive if we can’t find him”

Virgil was getting anxious, he wanted to go to the point already but part of him was scared of a possible question.

“In order to make a well defined plan we need to ask everyhting we can. But if you are so rushed to know everything then why don’t you just tell us what you know” Logan said, unintentionally in a threatening tone.

“Logan is right, Virge. You need to tell us if you know about any place Roman could be”

Virgil remembered all the places he had been, not always voluntarily when he hadn’t met the sides. All sorts of bad memories, fear, anger and panic came to him, which made him shake.

“I-I don’t know if I can tell you, guys” He said ashamed of not being able to porvide information even in a moment like this.

“It’s alright ki-”

“Wait, Patton” Logan stopped him in the middle of the sentence “Why not? we need this information to save Roman”

“It’s just too much to handle...” He was unaware of how to respond, all of that was hard to reviveand just spit it out.

“Ugh, your stupid emotional dilemas are something we can’t deal with right now, I’m sure you have been through a lot but you need to put your dramas aside and think of the bigger situation”

Logan was annoyed but those words were enought for Virgil to grab him by the necktie and reply.

“Listen smart guy, you have no idea of what I’ve been through. I mean, what can I expect from a thing like you?”

“At least I wasn’t the one who started all of this madness to begin with!” Logan said, pushing Virgil.

“Alright, guys. L-let’s not fight right now...”

“Your naive attitude doesn’t surprise me. You try to keep the peace because you don’t even know a thing about conflicts!

Patton got shocked at Logan’s words, he looked at the floor, thinking he knew that was true. What Logan did made Virgil furious.

“Don’t talk to Patton like that!” He tried not to punch him just because of Patton, knowing that would dissapoint him.

“We said we’ll be honest then I am!”

They started to yell at each other, insulting and arguing while Patton tried to stop them.

A knock on the door made them to suddenly stop, they all turned to look at it. Who could it be? If it was Deceit or other dark side it would be really stupid from them to do that and there was no one on the mind palace at that hour.

Then a groan of pain was heard from outside.

“Who could it be?” Logan asked quietly

“Logan. we should open, whoever they are they are probably hurt” Patton said more serious this time but a glimspe of sadness was still evident in his voice.

“Are you crazy? What if it’s another trick? What if they are taking advantage of our situation right now?” He tried to make Patton reason about the consequences.

“But what if it’s not? I think we should help!” Patton looked at Logan, Logan notices that his eyes were wet, realizing his mistake, then he looked at Virgil with concern. He grabbed Roman’s sword.

“This will be incoherent coming from me but I think I owe an apology to Patton later and we should do what he says, whoever is out there could be injuried and we should help. If it makes you feel safer I’ll be ready with Roman’s sword to defend if is necessary”

“Alright, I’ll open it. Stay behind if something happens” Virgil said walking to the door with Logan and Patton behind him.

He could feel his pulse racing, the sound of his own heartbeats invading the silence of the room. He turned around to see them and Logan nodded serious, his hands trembling wrapped around the sword. Patton also was trying to hold his fear

The grabbed the doorknob and opened the door. He gasped when he looked at the figure outside.

“ROMAN?!” They exclaimed at the same time while looking at the creative side.

His always clean white suit was now stained with blood and his face was bruised as well as his whole body, his red sash was now in his arm being used as a bandage for what looked like the blood as a deep cut and his hair was completely messy. 

He smiled weakly when he looked at his family, all surprised to see him in that state.

“Hey guys...”

After saying those words and being in the safety of at least the entrance of the mind palace he stopped struggling to stand in his feet and fell.

“Roman!” Patton shouted when Roman’s body fell to the floor. “Virgil, what do we do? He looks awfull!”

Virgil stood in shock for a moment, where the heck was he to end up like that? If he ended up like that what could happen to them? 

He snapped out of it when he ralized Patton’s question. He looked at Logan with a terrified expression, then back at Patton again, he pulled his hair and tried to say something, anything useful

“I-I..” He stammered as his voice sounded deeper.

He was panicking, Patton noticed but he needed to focus on Roman too, both were worried ad didn’t knew what to do until Logan’s voice broke the silence

“Virgil, grab Roman and take him to his room, I’ll help you. Patton, go for the first aid kit and then go there”

Virgil straightened up his back and nodded, Patton went running and they both followed the logic side’s orders.

Virgil grabbed Roman from his legs and Logan by the arms, carrying his unconscious body to his empty room. When they entered the room they saw the curtains ragged, the bed cut, the entire room was a mess.

“Sweet Sherlock”

“Something did happened last night”

Logan looked at the room in shock, the cut in the bed looked like one made by his sword. He put the pieces together and knew that Deceit had been there, he tried to  fight but the dark side’s manipulation was too strong and influent, specially in Roman. Knowing how it feels, being told things you think are true but don’t want to hear made him feel sorry for him, emphaty wasn’t a ‘feeling’ he liked to experiment.

“Roman is... probably weak. It seems he has been severly injuried, we should let him rest” He said, trying to act calmed, panicking about Roman is the last thing they needed.

“I’ll go get Patton, stay and tell us if Roman wakes up” Logan asked Virgil. Before he left he stopped, loking in concern at the fanciful side.

“I’m sorry, Virgil. I know this isn’t your fault and I got carried away I just... I worry that you are not strong enough to stand to a thing like Deceit’s manipulation and lies, your emotions could get in the way and I’m... scared, of any of you getting hurt by feelings”

Virgil’s eyes widened at the logic side’s confession, he was just trying to help, he was also dessperate, just as he was a few days ago.

“I forgive you. I know the feeling, pal.”

“And one more thing” Lgan paused for a moment “Don’t tell Patton what I said, having him know all this may be a pain in the back”

Virgil laughed while sitting in Roman’s desk table

“Alright, I promise”

“Thank you” He said to then get out of the room.

FINALLY!

Alright, I’m really, REALLY sorry for the eternal, an I really mean ETERNAL time I took finally finishing this but I’ve been having some important proyects in school, my school’s play is soon and I’ve had a LOT to read. I promise I’ll try my best for it to not happen again.

I would have posted something about it but I didn’t do it because of personal reasons.

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