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[anosrepasi]

33, 44, 55 for the spotify ask game?

#33

#44

#55

All very amazing songs thought my favorite out of these is how will i rest in peace if i'm buried by a highway?// Cause it just. goes so hard.

[lobstermatriarch]

Fandom: Baldur's Gate 3

Pairing: Astarion x f!Dark Urge

Rating: E

Warnings: graphic depictions of violence, rape/non-con

Perhaps if he were a better man, he would have stayed. He would have died on familiar docks, surrounded by his friends, standing tall over one of the greatest victories the Sword Coast had ever seen. The bards would never stop singing of him. He would be the vampire who chose to burn rather than let his love fall into madness on her own. ------- The Dark Urge couldn't kill her sister, and loses her mind in turn. Astarion finds it harder than he expected to let her go.

In which we enter Jaheira's basement and find much more than anyone signed up for.

Please mind the tags.

[eraserspiral]

snippet... monday

thank you to the lovely @kalmiaphlox for the tag <3

excerpt from the next chapter of the fall, which mayy be up later this week.

Lythra had been careless, the night before. Allowed herself to indulge recklessly in Astarion's solid, physical presence when he was in her bed and her limbs were loose from wine. Breathe him in. Inhale. Exhale. Feast. Drown. But the way he’d looked at her that morning, his eyes dark and dangerous with need. Pulled her to him and rocked into her, hard and wanting and so, achingly, real. A familiar dance, additional steps. Permission, her hands on him—finally, finally—the taut muscles of his abdomen smooth and unchanging. Every detail just as she remembered, and better. She’d shed her shirt like shedding her skin. And overstepped. Or something resembling it. It’s not about you. She knew that, sometimes. But if she didn’t maintain concentration she would simply hurt and hurt and hurt until there was nothing left. She knew that always. Such was her nature.

no pressure tags for: @gilded-glitter @koalamatcha @verbenaa @bloodinwine @lobstermatriarch <3

[aevallare]

ooooooooooooo @eraserspiral tags meeee uwa :3

rules: without naming them, post a gif from ten of your favourite films, then tag ten people to do the same.

these aren't in order i could BARELY remember ten films i like lmao

i taggg @again-please @dwarfsized @rainbowslinkyy @amoremagnificentbastard @eelqueen @lobstermatriarch @mrs-theirin <3

[hiboudeluxe]

I was tagged in a thing by @lobstermatriarch

rules: without naming them, post a gif from ten of your favourite films, then tag ten people to do the same.

I don't tag cus it makes me anxious. But please feel free to do this tag meme yourself! Yeah, you... that human person sitting in a place. do the thing.

in no particular order here is my ten favorite movies!

[antimonyantigone]

Tagged by @lobstermatriarch thank yuuuu

(My AO3 is sayler_antimony)

1) How many works do you have on AO3? 37

2) What’s your total AO3 word count? 119,005 (I tend to write many shorter things)

3) What fandoms do you write for? DS9, MASH, did a little stint of one-shots in ASOIAF, started with BNHA though

4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Lost in Translation (a real shock, never expected this one to get any hype)

All The World's a Stage

Featherlight Touch

Lightning and Incense

Thermal Shock

5) Do you respond to comments? Most of the time! I really really try.

6) What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Either 'Between Two Worlds' or just anything I wrote about Jaime Lannister but only because of Jamie Lannister general reasons. Maybe possibly "Do Synthetics Dream of Electric Sheep?".

I feel like I don't angst that hard!!

7) What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? I suppose "A Rose by Any Other Name (A Gift for Garak)"

8) Do you get hate on fics? Once! (they came to tumblr to do it though)

9) Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Yes. Usually kinks. M/M, F/F and M/F are all on the table.

10) Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? No, but an anime recently came out with the title "Cherry Magic: 30 Years of Being a Virgin Makes You A Wizard?!" which is a title begging (begging!) for a Gale of Waterdeep Crossover. (Bonus - you get to be a psychic thought-hearing wizard in this yaoi if you are a virgin for long enough, which is no so different from getting a thought-sharing tadpole in your head, really.)

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not to my knowledge.

12) Have you ever had a fic translated? Not to my knowledge.

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before? No but I would!

14) What’s your all time favorite ship? Uhhhh. I tend to bounce favorites. Garak/Julian is special to meeee. Currently on a Bloodweave kick. Clearly was on a Jaime/Brienne kick for a while.

15) What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? I have a Garak/Julian fic that is meant to follow along with The Divine Comedy but you see, I'd have to re-read The Divine Comedy again and.....

16) What are your writing strengths? If we're going by my comments, which we should, I think tone mimicry. Mimicking the tone of a source material. I love a little copycatting and I really, as a reader, need fics to fit the tone of their source.

17) What are your writing weaknesses? Plots. Long plots. :( :( :(

18) Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? I haven't, but I don't envy those who do. "Lost in Translation" uses some loan words, invented language headcanons, etc, and all of that requires enough thought.

19) First fandom you wrote for? BNHA

20) Favorite fic you’ve written? Okay weirdly I love "Major Indiscretion" because I got my husband (straight man who grew up on MASH) to read it and he was like "stop doing this in a way that feels canonical :<"

Tagging @thebreakfastgenie esp because of the tumblr sleepover energyyy

[longroadstonowhere]

lobstermatriarch hat auf deinen Eintrag geantwortet

mhm mhm same. the biggest issues i found were some contrived lore/worldbuilding aspects and that one piece of the main plot is pretty rehashed from other bioware games. but like you said, that’s kind of par the course mass effect? backlash was way overblown imo. The foundation for an interesting new setting and set of characters is absolutely there and i had a fun time writing fic for it a while back.

okay, yeah, that's pretty reasonable - how was the gameplay? was it interesting or tedious or just kinda there but not intrusive enough to impede interest in the story/characters?

[anosrepasi]

10 and 20 for the writing ask!!

Hello dear one! Thank you for the ask :D 20. How would you describe your writing process? Honestly, the best way to describe my process is web-weaving. Writing comes easiest to me when I can pull in a bunch of unrelated topics or content and use those to help create the structure of the fic around the plot points I want to cover. I'm mostly like this because I am a very curious person by nature and down to learn about almost anything, and also this is how my brain functions. I learn by connecting unrelated topics and finding overlap or differences in the material. This also means that I get stuck on very silly little things in fics because I haven't fleshed them out. A lot of my video game writing suffers because my brain refuses to want to cover the main plot points that show up in a video game unless i can put a spin on them and expand on the situation. However, if I just need that scene for a transition or to establish a piece of information I literally cannot get it written. Knowing this about myself has made me better about it, or better with being okay leaving things out unless i have something to say about them.

Other than that, I don't have much of a process beyond almost always having background music for my writing sessions curated to the fandom/fic/characters/pairing depending on what exactly i need to write.

20. Tell us the meta about your writing that you really want to ramble to people about (symbolism you’ve included, character or relationship development that you love, hidden references, callbacks or clues for future scenes?) First of all, I adore this question and want everyone to know they can ask me this whenever they want and I will write them a novel about whatever fic strikes their fancy. I have. I have so much "directors commentary" on all my fics.

First up is something from Kint because you're partial to Kint and I want to make sure you get a behind the scene that you enjoy. So in Chapter 2 where I introduced Shep, I have a section talking about "if someone ventured into the vault at this exact moment" and then use that section to set the scene for describing the setting of the vault and what Shep has woken up to instead of keeping it in her perspective for the entire chapter. I originally was inspired by a writing breakdown from a scene in one of Terry Prachett's books to describe a big traumatic event that way and Kint was my exercise in applying that writing method. The funny thing about that is I have never actually ready any of Terry Pratchett's books but everything i every read about them makes me feel like I'd learn a lot from his writing. However. I haven't actually gotten around to doing that.

Second is a director cut moment from Chapter 2 of Prima Lingua, which I realize I haven't shared except in a comment recently. So the formatting of that chapter is incredibly deliberate down to the page breaks from when Nicolo is shoved overboard down to the depth marker of (1090 ft). Every single line in that section correspond to one ft of depth in 20"ft"/page break increments so that the reader is experiencing depth along side Nicolo as they read. The depth of 1090ft comes from the most recent world record for deepest dive conducted by a human with only scuba equipment, which belongs to Amed Gabr who reached that depth (1090ft and 4.5 inches) in 2014. Thank you so much for the ask!

Fun Meta Writer Asks

[lobstermatriarch]

Fandom: Baldur's Gate 3

Pairing: Astarion x f!Dark Urge

Rating: E for violence and explicit content

His eyes trace the line of your pulse, healthy and strong after your revival. “If you need me to be that person," he says, "I could be persuaded.” Sometimes the only way to deal with cursed blood is to remove it.

Orin my beloved, I'm sorry.

[eraserspiral]

wip wednesday 2/2

thank you to @kittenintheden @lyzelky @verbenaa and @atsadi-shenanigans who have tagged me over the past few weeks - I really appreciate it <3 I am very behind but finally catching up.

the next chapter of the fall is coming later this week, so here's a snippet from a future chapter. astarion and lythra are being sensible.

no pressure tags for everyone who tagged me, plus @gilded-glitter and @lobstermatriarch <3

[mizurda]

@lobstermatriarch yes! let’s do that!

[cherrybaum]

lobstermatriarch replied to your post “NSFW POST SORRY MOBILE BLOGGERS PLEASE SCROLL ON[[MOR] So I had a...”

The attempt was a catastrophe from beginning to end, I'm not sure tutorials could save it

I mean... that’s very very true.  I think she was probably too drunk to absorb anything either way... and also probably wouldn’t have been happy about it.

But I just... sometimes you just see something so off you just want to take things into your own hands and fix it.

[longroadstonowhere]

lobstermatriarch hat auf deinen Eintrag geantwortet

I am one of this game’s 5 defenders, but if you’re willing to forgive a couple of odd writing choices I found it to be a ton of fun

i mean, forgiving odd writing choices is part and parcel of being a mass effect fan, isn't it? there's a lot of things i just... actively ignore in the actual games and substitute with the best version of events i've read in fics, ahahaha

i suppose it depends a little on what kinda writing choices those are, of course

[eraserspiral]

Rules: Pick a song for each letter of your URL and tag that many people.

thank you for the tag @pinkberrytea <3

E eraser - nine inch nails

R rain - sleep token

A asking for it - hole

S shake the disease - depeche mode

E everyone - mitski

R rid of me - pj harvey

S shadowplay - joy division

P pull me under - queenadreena

I in motion - trent reznor and atticus ross

R renholdër - a perfect circle

A ageispolis - aphex twin

L love you to death - type o negative

no pressure tags for some lovely people:

@mutualcombat @ghouliar0berts @koalamatcha @kittenintheden @aevallare @atsadi-shenanigans @brain-rot-central @again-please @bloodinwine @8catsinatrenchcoat @lobstermatriarch and @howlsmovinglibrary

Thank you for tagging me @saviour-of-lord 🥰 (i'm so so so late doing those, i'm sorry)

Rules: Pick a song for each letter of your URL and tag that many people.

S - Strawberry Fields Forever by The Beatles

C - California Dreamin by The Mamas & the Papas

H - Hall of Fame by The Script

U - Until I Found You by Stephen Sanchez

M - Material Girl by Madonna

I - (I Just) Died in Your Arms by Cutting Crew

N - Ne Me Quitte Pas by Jacques Brel

A - A World of Your Own by Timothée Chalamet

D - Demons by Imagine Dragons

A - Another Love by Tom Odell

L - La Symphonie des Eclairs by Zaho de Sagazan

I'm tagging @bluespring864 @game-set-canet @luzmyway @ofbooksandstardust @absolutebloodychaos @artemisalilianvesta @tennisprojediphilosopher and whoever wants to do it! (as usual, feel free to do it or not) 💗

[anosrepasi]

i am rereading MEA fanfiction and crying.

[lobstermatriarch]

Fandom: Baldur's Gate 3

Pairing: Astarion x f!Dark Urge

Rating: E for violence and explicit content

His eyes trace the line of your pulse, healthy and strong after your revival. “If you need me to be that person," he says, "I could be persuaded.” Sometimes the only way to deal with cursed blood is to remove it.

“I’m sorry,” you say, grinning as you rise to stand. “You’re right, that’s not fair. Even if Scratch is almost as handsome as you.”

“If you think you’re helping, I promise you that you’re not.”

In a surge of playful affection you plant one hand on Astarion's cheek, giggling as he grimaces at the feel of fur and drool on his skin.

“You’re disgusting, you know,” he says.

With that dog-scented hand you pull him in, kissing his clean cheek and pressing your nose against his skin.

“And yet here you are.”

“And yet here I am,” he sighs. “What has become of us both?”