#loaf tag

[lifeofloaf]

im nonbinary, born afab and still quite fem presenting (although currently it’s bc of my living situation that i cant dress how id like to), and all i want is to be called handsome or a pretty boy. ive even been contemplating using they/he pronouns for months and ive told my friends this, and they are absolutely great with using my they/them pronouns but it feels like they’ve forgotten that conversation ive had with them entirely.

ive brought it up a couple times bc ppl just consistently use they/them for me but the 2 times i heard someone call me he i was like oh i think i might like this! but then it stopped so i have no idea.

anyways im posting this on here to vent bc i deleted all social media and id usually vent abt it on my snap story but alas, no longer🫡

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

autistic people dominate AAC conversation on tumblr so for this AAC awareness month (October), let us also remember all non-autistic AAC users & autistic AAC users who not use AAC because or solely because autism.

people use AAC for from intellectual & developmental disorders to neurocognitive disorders to neurological to physical disorders. people use AAC for disorders from birth & acquired disorders. progressive & non progressive disorders.

some AAC users have mouth speech, motor, and/or sound clarity related difficulties, others use for language and/or cogntive difficulties, some for combo of reasons.

those with…

intellectual disability

genetic & chromosomal disorders like down syndrome, rett syndrome, angelman syndrome, williams syndrome, etc.

cerebral palsy

speech language disorders like aphasia & dysarthria

schizophrenia & schizoaffective & schizo-spec

brain injury

dementia

amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS), multiple sclerosis (MS), huntington’s, frederick’s ataxia, etc.

tracheotomy

locked in syndrome

n so much more not listed here

[lil-lemon-snails]

Happy Valentine's Day from the goobers!!!!! They are desperate to let you know they love u <3

A silly (and very rushed) little redraw of Steel Wool's official valentine's day card from a few years ago! I thought it was so cute I have been waiting for the season to try my hand at it!

[todaysbird]

Today’s Bird is: this pair of Eurasian Griffon Vultures (Gyps fulvus)!

[dizzybizz]

how long since the last magma dump

[lurking-loaf]

Surprise! They wanted to bring you this pumpkin and when I say they bring you I mean sun makes a cute pose as moon carries all the weight

Awww! Thanks for the pumpkin! I am sending Sun and Moon back to you with something we quickly put together over here.

Hopefully Sun will be a little more helpful on the return trip.

[acorncoffeeformysweetheart]

[ariadne-mouse]

For @mareastrorum's prompt, "what Caleb and Essek did with their cats while they off are saving the world."

(Incredibly bold assertion, I know, that Yussa is not already trapped in a jar on the moon or otherwise In A Situation, but maybe herding cats would keep him occupied.)

Detail shots under the cut:

Yussa, the aggrieved:

Mitzi, the unrepentant:

Assorted orbs and imminent danger to tassels:

[latenightsundayblues]

Give it up for adam faulkner everybody

He's been saving up money for the last two weeks so he could finally buy a cup of name-brand coffee that actually tastes good. It was supposed to be his lunch

[gomzdrawfr]

when in doubt, shiny au

[bestialflare]

i think, fundamentally, seeing a lot of valenwind relegated to “crackship” is so wild after being in these trenches for almost 15 years now considering how much subtext characterization we get with cid and vincent, especially from vincent.

vincent categorically doesn’t really say a whole awful lot, and trends towards being absurdly unhelpful/cryptic in certain circumstances. he’s semi-formal, uses wry humor sparingly, clings to the fringes of the group.

it is specifically when cid is involved, multiple times in the original game, where Vincent will just randomly use a nickname for him, consistantly check in on him, outright admits to admiring him at least twice, and admits to fighting by his side because it’s all he can give. dirge (i have my dirge defence preloaded) canonizes the two of them being drinking buddies between the two year gap— a time period where vincent was actively getting into scrapes with OTHER MEMBERS of avalanche (otwtas mention, your mileage may vary).

save for the novel, all of these interactions are in the games, and are exceptional examples of the sort of way that vincent defers to teammates and communicates with others. relegating it to just the hotel scene or standing next to eachother feels fundamentally crazysauce to me. there are cathedrals everywhere for those with eyes to see or whatever

[lifeofloaf]

about me:)

hi!

my name’s phi (pronounced fee) but u can call me loaf

im 20 and non-binary (so they/them prns)

im in uni studying to potentially be a librarian!

im a libra & infp & have adhd

i love making friends and mutuals so feel free to reach out anytime:)

i love making very specific playlists and associating certain songs with characters/ships/made up scenes

im also so picky with the formatting of everything so i will be editing this frequently bc i want to make it look better

(also just have no idea what i should be putting in this summary of me so i went with an amalgamation of everything ive seen others do)

while im no writer or artist, im a huge fan of the mauraders and love jegulus, wolfstar, and literally most of the ships ppl have come up with (involving the main mauraders at least bc i absolutely despise any ships w sn*pe) & love the fun mixings ppl have created of barty/lily or barty/james

^sneaking in that i offer my time to beta read if anyone would ever like:)

other tid bits:

i initially got tumblr in attempt to reduce my social media usage and to curate my feed to things that actually interested me instead of ppl i could compare myself to, and ended up discovering the incredible fanbase the maurders have on here

im still a relatively new user so im still learning how to navigate and understand everything tumblr has to offer

i chronically overthink and over explain everything so if ur here just know what ur getting into:)

i hope if ur reading this ur having a good day and thanks for being here<3

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[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

not be able communicate by words means… constantly be misunderstood. misinterpreted. not have any way show own perspective, your side of story. your story always written talked about interpreted read thru other people.

someone did something wrong you. someone hurt you. someone say wrong thing…

someone make up malicious thing about you. maybe that you rude ungrateful bad temper behavior problem. it now become truth it now become you because there no way you correct them.

you can’t educate them. you can’t explain it to them. nevermind that, for example, you severely disabled n having symptoms that impact quality of life, or have symptoms that dare inconvenience people - can only watch as people around you speak “for” you not with your interest in mind but of their own selfishness - that people who can communicate by word say you only do that because you lazy, you selfish, want attention, on purpose, just want to for no reason, faking, inherent personality flaw.

not just big things. more often it those small things that build up every day, happen tens n hundreds of times each day, every day, every week, every month, every year… more often it those small things that add up that break you.

imagine everything bad, incorrect, & bad and incorrect thing said about you in your life. n now imagine you not able defend yourself, explain yourself, or even say those wrong not true.

n any attempt of yours to maybe protest, not enough, people not understand, or downright not listened to, made fun of. at first you shake head make noise meaning no all calm. after while of it not work you get frustrate n it start showing. you get impatient n snappy, why none of you understand, is any of you even trying. but people around you with privilege of able communicate n defend self thus never have experience of not have that, find it such basic of skill that they no longer see it as acquired skill but instead see as innate, born in, natural, cannot imagine person not have it just like can’t imagine living person not breathing—they only see their perspective n only see their interaction n not the many, hundreds n thousands, of previous communication where no one understood you (or even tried to). so they mock you (sometimes they the one who on purpose provoke you to see your reaction like you monkey in cage for their entertainment), geez big reaction why can’t you be patient. n you get label, impatient, rude, explosive, anger issues.

you protest in only way you can without words. you do it by sounds n noises n movement. you raise voice you scream you smash thing around you you hit yourself in frustration you hit other people who don’t understand you because you frustrated at their incompetence n how much they failing you. because. show me another way person can communicate without words. show me way that one can continue do after tens n thousands of misinterpretations n miscommunications n malicious interactions, n still remain calmly, “appropriately.”

you communicate in only way you can with only emotion you can feel at this point: anger, frustration, helpless. be misunderstood, even smallest innocent one, become trauma become trigger. miscommunication alone can set it off, make you see red n see billion of previous miscommunication where everyone failed you n left you to fend for self. then the backhanded jab that sometimes follow, that make thing exponentially worse.

you communicate in only way you can with only emotion left you can feel that consume you. loud sounds, screaming, get physical. it not earn you be understood. it only earn you this: be called impatient, irrational, explosive, land mine, rude, ungrateful, annoying…

“behavior issues.”

and that’s another misinterpretation of you you can’t defend yourself against. cycle repeats.

n other verbal people only listen to other verbal people. so these descriptions of you become “your truths”.

n the true you left there. to rot.

a lot people with no functional communication (either because no ability, or because circumstances) labeled as have behavior issues. yeah, no fucking shit. try it for a while. anyone would “have behavioral issues” in these circumstances.

no one seem to care. so okay fuck yeah am difficult kid, have behavioral issues, make your life miserable. yeah am terrible person, have inherent personality flaw of no fault but my own. except now do it on purpose, make it true now, put ability to control own truth in own hand. because you all seem want me be that so bad. so now you get it. don’t complain now, you all asked for it really really nicely.

but deep down. at most basic. hidden beneath. really just. want be understood. want be helped. want people to learn my communication.

“many behavior is communication” yes, those kind of behaviors should be respected n valued n listened, but try behavior your way out of correcting n explaining everything just said in post to person who just don’t seem to get it

without rely on good grace of nice people around you who keep on play guess games n give out guesses in words you can nod or shake head to. now, that’s cheating.

people not nice to people who *have no choice* but to *only* rely on behaviors & vocal noises to communicate

n, even if every single person nice. behaviors n vocal noises alone, not enough.

this written with full time experience in mind

[lil-lemon-snails]

Happy Eclipse Day to all those celebrating!!! Please remember to wear proper eye protection ☀️🕶️💕🎉

[rogdona]

[shepscapades]

hello!! does joel have any sort of big role in the dbhc au?? just wonderin', since he's one of my favorite little block people! :D

(also your xisuma comics. ALL of your comics, really!!! SO, SO GOOD!! you kick my theory brain into gear and i seriously thank you for that, LOL <3)

TUMBLR USER I’M A LOAF!!!!! HI thank you for your ask, first and foremost: I’m obsessed with the tags you put on my comics and posts and everything in general, they literally always make my day and I’m sat giggling and kicking my feet every time without fail!!! Your commentary and theories make me so happy :D the feedback and the Game-Theorizing is honestly what inspires me to keep making art so thank you for your support and general insanity it means a lot to me :]

BUT ANYWAY your actual question— I don’t have anything “specific” planned for Joel as of now, though I definitely have a lot of thoughts about him as a character and his relationship with etho and bdubs (as per the brief posts I made about double life and bdubs’ attempts to get Etho to redeviate). I’d love to get more in the weeds about Joel’s double life and honestly, double life in general :D