#lmao you're just always getting ever-deeper looks into my soul aren't ya

[justkindaoverhereobsessing]

okay hear me out - 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19 and twenty. for the ask thingy, please ma'am

Gonna go ahead and tag @wanna-be-bold here because your ask clearly had some overlap with Sofia’s mega-ask. XD 

1. who is the hardest character for you to write? Anyone outside of my normal ships, lol. I’m pretty comfortable with Tiva but you throw Vance (and his toothpick) in there? I’m gonna struggle. 

2. who is the easiest character for you to write? Ziva, I think, or an original character I wrote years ago. Characters I really feel like I understand! 

3. How do you know if your writing is “in character”? I don’t, lmao. I just write what feels right and then hope for the best!

4. Where do your story ideas come from? YOU SOF. And sometimes other places too, lol. But seriously, a lot of my ideas are sparked from the fics of other writers! I love a good “what if” that stems from a different “what if”.

5. Do you tell the people in your life that you write fics? Lmao. Well you know my mom read WAAO so you really think I keep any secrets after that? Everyone in my life knows what I love and I don’t hesitate to talk their ears off about it all! 

6. What has been the hardest fic for you to write? We Are an Ocean, definitely. There’s so much more range to it than anything else I’ve ever written, so I’ve had to figure out how to shift gears from smut to fluff to plot to angst and back again! 

7. What fic of yours makes you the most emotional? The Place Where the Light Enters, a very old collab I never finished, lmao. That story saw me through some tough times and we put our characters through some REAL TOUGH times, too! Actually, one of my tattoos relates back to it, lol. “I picked up a pen; I wrote my own deliverance.”

8. What is a scene you wrote that you are most proud of? Gotta be some scene from That We May Forgive, but I’m not sure which one. I just know that’s the fic I’m most proud of!

9. Is there one character that you refuse to write? why? Ehhhhhh not really. But there are definitely characters I don’t enjoy writing. Jenny Shepard, lookin’ at you! 

10. When you write fics, how much of canon are you willing to ignore/skip over? Lmao. Depends on the day, my mood, and the fic in question. I love AUs so really I’m willing to throw everything out the window. Suck it, canon writers. You don’t own me. 

11. Do you prefer to be cold or hot when you write? COLD COLD COLD COLD COLD. I’m allergic to the cold but I would love to be cold for my whole life, so long as I have a decent supply of quilts and hot tea. I can’t focus when it’s too hot... living in Ghana was a STRUGGLE.

12. What is your ideal writing area? I usually write in bed, laptop in my lap and my back leaning on a pillow propped against the wall. It’s not ideal but I don’t have a desk so it’s become MY “ideal”. 

13. How do you come up with your titles? I have zero creativity in my body so I’ll decide on a theme and then google quotes for that theme. For example, for a fic I referenced earlier, the theme was healing. I found the quote “The wound is the place where the Light enters you.” (Rumi) The fic then became titled as a shortened version of that quote, The Place Where the Light Enters. 

14. How do you come up with chapter titles? I never title my chapters, lol.

15. At what point in writing a fic, do you decide to quit? I... okay, I can’t truthfully say what I was about to say. I WANTED to say “I don’t quit fics” but I have definitely abandoned a few in my day. (Haven’t done that for years, though.) Unless this question really means when I decide a fic is finished and ready to be published, in which case my answer is that I throw a dart at my nonexistent plotting paper and end the fic wherever it lands. I’m terrible at ending things, lol. 

16. How much of your personal life do you put into fics? Oof. Enough to be offended by this question, lmao. I sometimes use events from my personal life to inspire or plot fics, but more often, I explore my own confused emotions by making characters feel similar ones and writing it out. 

17. What is the most supportive comment you have gotten? Definitely something from you, @indestinatus, the queen of fic comments (and also the queen of fics, shush). But I’ve gotten some really really nice ones from strangers, too, especially on ff.net. 

18. What is the most negative comment you have gotten? Well this is embarrassing to admit. My first ever fic when I was... eh, ten years old? I tried to post it on Mugglenet, the only fanfic site I’ve ever been on that needed fics to be approved. My fic was rejected and the mod who rejected it said my main character was a Mary Sue. I’ve never recovered. 

19. How do you handle negative comments? I genuinely don’t get them often, so I’m not sure how to answer. People are usually really really nice. 

20. What story that you have written makes you the happiest to re-read? That We May Forgive! I poured my heart and soul into it. 

[punkscowardschampions]

Ronnie & Joe

Ronnie: Been to busy too answer your phone, yeah? Ronnie: Not dead in a ditch, worse luck Ronnie: enjoying your model perks Joe: Ugh, sorry, that took much longer than she said it would Joe: trust, no blow in sight, not that professional a shoot, sadly Ronnie: No fun to rush an orgy like Joe: Lmao, again, if only Joe: you do know its Sophie and the trust fund massive, yeah? Ronnie: all the posh cunts turn you down, poor baby Ronnie: back to slumming Joe: I'm not interested, like Joe: Not saying there's a reason poor Dais needs to be shot from the back or nothing Ronnie: Go in from the back yourself then, why not Ronnie: there's no reason Joe: You're alright tah Joe: Give her your number if she's got you so affected here Ronnie: fuck it Ronnie: posh girls try hard Ronnie: worse ways to spend a night Joe: Can't say I ain't a little gutted myself Ronnie: she's hotter for you no need to try Ronnie: or for you to cry bout it Ronnie: not like im any stranger to a 3way Joe: No doubt Joe: also none that the wildest she's ever got is a mild freshers week and gap yaaah Ronnie: didn't realise you were fucking besties Ronnie: if you want me to bow out for the bonding give Soph a shout for my slot Joe: I told you it took forever Joe: Creepy as I look, couldn't actually loom over her shoulder silently for the best part of 3 hours Ronnie: much better to go for the eye fuck and one-liners Joe: If only I had your expertise Joe: have to show me how sometime Ronnie: you know where I am Ronnie: same place I've been all day Joe: come over? Joe: your gf ain't here but neither is Soph so Ronnie: gutted for you Ronnie: a posh accent ain't my thing Ronnie: have to hit up someone else for your roleplay Joe: No kidding Joe: No disguising that hacking thing you do Ronnie: Take it up with your ma Ronnie: Didn't drop me on the doorstep of no palace, baby Joe: Thank God, they lock up their undesirable kids for life in the loony bin, you know Ronnie: course you know that mckenna you fucking headcase Ronnie: get the warning did ya, golden boy? Joe: 'Course, can't use the care home as an empty threat without eye twitching like, could she Ronnie: not much of a threat unless you're a pussy Ronnie: even Charlie hacked it Joe: Didn't know you had so much faith in me Joe: N'awh, babe Ronnie: fuck off Ronnie: with how much they love a gay bash you'd be dead Ronnie: you and your artsy mates Joe: That's more like it Ronnie: calm down you fucking lezza Joe: How does that even work as an insult Ronnie: You're a pussy and you have one Ronnie: how many braincells did you wreck on your pretty little photo shoot like Joe: S'cool with me Joe: that's what you're about these days, appaz Ronnie: fuck you Ronnie: I've sucked plenty of dealers dicks doesn't mean I'm in love with them or their stash Ronnie: such a romantic soul, mckenna Joe: that'll be the pretentious art prick in me Joe: take that as you will Ronnie: put it where you want like, just wash it off before it comes anywhere near me Ronnie: i don't know where posh girls go Ronnie: or where they let lads put their pricks Joe: Sure, wash it 6 times, then once more to be sure Joe: That headcase life, remember? Ronnie: not on enough gear at the minute to be forgetting Joe: So, you want some? Ronnie: not got any cash have I, you pity fuck Ronnie: don't ask stupid questions Joe: Someone's gotta Joe: Since you ain't Joe: I'll drop it off, consider it on the house Ronnie: and go the fuck where? Ronnie: loads of better offers suddenly, yeah? Joe: Naturally, the posh orgy, remember? Joe: Would hate for you to inconvenience yourself on my account Ronnie: you're a cunt Ronnie: and you'd love it Ronnie: you inconvenience me on fucking purpose Joe: yeah? Joe: i assure you, nothing cuts me deeper Joe: that what you wanna hear? Ronnie: fuck off Ronnie: I called and called you, you useless twat Ronnie: wasn't hearing that was you Joe: no phones on set, like Joe: I'm coming now Joe: What more you want? I can't get a postmate to pick that shit up for you Ronnie: Get to fuck Ronnie: you're coming over cause that girl has more sense than to let you get your dick wet Ronnie: it ain't no love for me bringing you to the door, baby Joe: Which is it, either gagging for it or gagging fullstop Joe: Either way, I told you, I don't give a fuck Joe: Believe what you like but I also told you I ain't letting you near me so where's the logic in that? Ronnie: where's the logic in you playing student all day you junkie waster Ronnie: i ain't trying to tell you what to do about that like so don't talk down to me like im a fucking invalid that needs her shit delivered on tap Ronnie: postmate your fucking head if you keep on Joe: Gotta pay for it somehow, ain't I Joe: Ain't even what I said Joe: you asked, now you're pissy that I'm delivering Ronnie: I didn't fucking ask Ronnie: you offered to be a fucking savior as per Joe: Just calling and calling for a chat, was we? Joe: Don't chat bollocks, Ron Ronnie: I wanted to see you, you fucking doss cunt Joe: Yeah? Joe: Funny way of showing it, babe Ronnie: Fuck you Ronnie: If you want easy go text your other bitches Joe: I ain't asking for easy but not looking for so uninterested you make me out to be a rapist, like Ronnie: what are you on about Joe: I get that that's what you do, and it ain't judgment on yous but can't say the idea of you only fucking me for drugs does it for me Joe: s'what I'm saying, take the drugs, you don't have to if you aren't about it Ronnie: Jesus fucking Christ Ronnie: Go cry to your perfect flatmates about it like Ronnie: Not seeing you try and wine and dine me you hypocritical cunt Joe: Fucking hell Joe: I know that ain't what you're after either but Ronnie: But what? You can't hack not getting everything you want Ronnie: That's life, mckenna Joe: What, I've got such lofty fucking ideals? Please Joe: I've got what I need Joe: How 'bout you? Ronnie: Try sticking your dick in someone you ain't related to and say that again Ronnie: what the fuck do you think I need from you? go on Joe: That ain't what I want, even if you reckon I need it, and Jesus and the rest, yeah? Joe: I got no fucking clue, baby Joe: You tell me Ronnie: had a clue a minute ago when you called me out as a junkie hooker like Ronnie: what's the matter, not so sure now? Joe: Need your ears check if you heard that Joe: Never mind your head Ronnie: it ain't nothing I ain't heard before Ronnie: not bout to shed any tears over it Ronnie: that's your gig Joe: Yeah, you love it Joe: We get it Ronnie: can't all hate ourselves as a full time job, baby Ronnie: burn yourself a little more so we can proper get the picture of how bad you're suffering Joe: Ha ha Joe: Funny Ronnie: makes me laugh Ronnie: which is all I'm looking for Ronnie: out for number 1 Joe: I'm very happy for you, babe Ronnie: tears of joy, are they? Ronnie: fuck off you ain't capable Joe: I know you'd love it if I was about to kms but trust, I'm doing as good as I always am Joe: You don't have an effect either way, soz to say Ronnie: liar Joe: You reckon? Joe: Even if you didn't come with junk to numb me out, nah babe Ronnie: you don't get to go cold turkey from me Ronnie: even if you fucking wish you could Joe: says who Ronnie: you Ronnie: you're about more than you're not Joe: yeah Joe: why all this drama then? Ronnie: what do you expect? Ronnie: I hate you Joe: 'Course Joe: Whatever does it for you, babe Joe: at least I only need me for that Ronnie: like you give a shit what gets me off, like you've ever Ronnie: I don't need you for anything Joe: Bullshit all the rest but I know that's a lie Joe: then I'll keep the gear and stay away Joe: No big Ronnie: I get to fuck you over by fucking you, what's easier Ronnie: Bullshit you could Ronnie: you can't stay away, you're too much of a sick fuck Joe: You know how to make easy seem like hard fucking work, babe Joe: and you can? Ronnie: I can, I don't wanna Joe: At least we have that in common, yeah? Ronnie: You want something in common with me? Don't be fucking stupid like Joe: Want? Like its optional now Ronnie: You tell me, changing personalities to fuck with the art bitches Joe: Nah Joe: was an IOU for getting the rent in late Joe: like I really wanted to be there, fuck that Ronnie: got somewhere better, have you? Golden boy too good for the posh cunts now Joe: I told you where I wanna be but you kept arguing instead listening Ronnie: Cause you're a lying piece of shit Ronnie: Tell me the truth, it'd only kill ya, like Joe: You don't believe me either way Joe: So much for loving yourself when you won't hear how much I want you Ronnie: Don't say shit you don't mean Joe: See Joe: Even if I got on my knees and crawled to yours Joe: not having it, are you Ronnie: You ain't about to do that so what the fuck does it matter Joe: wanna bet Ronnie: don't be a pussy Ronnie: you ain't no comedian either Joe: What do you want then Ronnie: come over, fuck's sake Joe: now was that so hard Ronnie: Shut the fuck up Ronnie: just do it