#lmao just realised how massive my eyes look 😭

[boba-beom]

I swear I can be cute too 🤭🧸

also, using nyx’s butter gloss in rocky road 🫶🏼

[whats-her-quirk]

hi juneee I hope you’re doing well because BOY have I got a thrift for you - literally had the most amazing dream about co-worker!jean this morning and arghh I have to share

*may or may not have spent an undisclosed amount of time thinking about this afterwards I order to achieve the perfect saucy scenario

*I just realised this is super long and one of the longest asks I’ve ever written so read when you have time lmao

Imagine, chilling on the roof of the fanciest hotel you can think but lo and behold your weekend plans are wrecked because some stupid intern fucked up the files you needed for the v important meeting next week and so you let your saint of a co worker know, who btw drops what he’s doing and practically runs to find to you stressed up to your eyeballs and offers to split the workload (because let’s face it, everyone including him but esp you would be royally and brutally fucked if your boss found out).

You also rightfully pop off over the phone at the intern (which sendsss Jean to places he shouldn’t be thinking of rn) esp when you pause just to clip your hair back and proceed to obliterate the person on the end (this man is simping SO HARD for you). Eventually, you both decide that you’ll fix the remaining files yourselves and get mad at the culprits tomorrow and so you order a couple shots and some good fucking food (did I mention this hotel is fancyy) and get started on the roof

Before you know it, the sun has set and it’s well past midnight when you both FINALLY finish. The drinks were finished, the plates practically licked clean because fucking hell you were both starving and you’re absolutely exhausted. You steal a glance at Jean who got up to stretch and damn it, you were far too tired to deal with another gets you hot-and-flustered situation tonight so you try and ignore him and starting pack your things but you still notice the way his veins decorate his forearms and slight sheen of sweat on his neck

Only Jean seems to have the same thing in mind as he sees you bend over and stuff your laptop in your bag, as he watches you slip your heels back on, as he watches your hair become undone after keeping it up all this time (not that he’s complaining - hair up meant he could that pretty neck of yours and hair down meant he could see just how perfectly it framed your face. But before he got caught staring, he decided to pack up too and finally get some shut eye because wow he was exhausted.

The two of you take the elevator back down to the floor you were staying on, said your good nights (but not before thanking this saint of a man for helping you out like that), and retreated to your respective rooms. When you were finally alone, you wanted nothing more than you pass out on the floor. Your plans for tomorrow, well technically today, were wrecked - you were bound to sleep in and so you decided to wash up and hit the hay. Except you couldn’t sleep - you were exhausted, mentally and physically, but sleep evaded you for some godforsaken reason and you just couldn’t understand why?Wasnt today eventful enough?

You finally decided to get some fresh air, maybe take in the pretty view you missed earlier and clear your head, so you grabbed your key card and your phone and moved to the door. Only when you opened it, a huge looming figure blocked the doorway, scaring the shit out of you until you realised it was Jean. Jean who was looking down at you in surprise, lips parted and an expectant stare.

Cue smut lmao

*Apologies this was so long, but I got so carried away with this dumb massive simp, I couldnt help myself😭😭

COWORKER JEAN what a wonderful fantasy. I adore an office romance and obviously if he’s crushing on you he’ll stay up all night if you need help with something.

I don’t even know what to add except 1. Jean in a dress shirt with the sleeves rolled up to the elbow and 2. I just want him to lay me down on that hotel bed and do whatever he wants with me. My body is yours sir.

I’m picturing kissing at the door until you pull him inside by the collar and drag him over to your bed, making it perfectly clear what you’re up for if he is too and of course he is. You get him on top of you for a lazy but passionate make out while you strip each other slowly because you’re so tired.

The less clothes you have on, though, the harder, faster, more desperate he gets until he’s inside you and the headboard is slamming the wall (pray no coworkers are in the next room). He’s just so overwhelmed to finally have the chance to fuck you that he gets lost in it and the pretty sounds you make just for him.

He makes you cum first, rubbing long fingers over your clit while he thrusts inside, and as you fall apart, he pulls out and cums on your tits and stomach. You’re both basically a mess, so you hop in the shower together for a quick rinse off and some back rubs before you both crash in your bed. You both wake up late into the next morning, once everyone out is probably out and about, probably have a lazy round two, and order room service brunch to eat in bed.

🥺✨🤍🥺✨🤍

[foreverethereal123]

IT’S HERE DJHCJKSHCKJHDSVGFJDGFKJGH

Btw I’m still not over Harper and Ethan! The way I’ve tried (and failed) to remove that awful imagery of Ethan buckling his belt from behind Harper makes me angry! I WANT TO FORGET! 😭😭

Teddy resisted the urge to roll her eyes as she met Chief Ramsey for the first time, already deciding that she didn’t like him.

“Already abusing your power to take what you want from the attendings? My, my, how the morally mighty have fallen.”

Okay I’m legit obsessed with how salty she is!! LMAO YES!! Call him out on his bullshit!! 😌😌🤣🤣🤣 HE DESERVES EVERY. SINGLE. HIT. 

“I just didn’t realise that the Chief of Medicine met with department heads in on-call rooms now. How silly of me to assume it'd be in the privacy of your own office or a boardroom. My mistake.”

I’M WHEEZING!!! Skshdkjshdkjsbckjsbgfjshdkshkjsgh!💀💀😂😂😂😂

“You knew?” The three doctors turned around to Ethan’s tense voice as Tobias bit back a laugh, his old friend as theatrical as ever.

aaHHHHH! I can’t find the screenshot but it has MASSIVE book 3 “You!!” energy when Ethan sees that Tobias is going to be in the diagnostic team Nnxhksbhjskjcvdkjdvsjdgh😂🤣😂🤣😂 He’s sucha dramatic little bitch, I love him lol! Not now but..maybe in the future when he gets his head out of his ass? Lmaoooo

“Stop with stupid games, Teddy. In case you’ve forgotten, I am the goddamn Chief of this hospital and if you’re working on a case here, then I’m afraid that makes me your boss, so spit it out.”

I’M DYING!😂😂😂

He’s all “i’M cHiEf yOu TeLl Me WhAt yOu’Re dOiNg” 

....just shut up, baby boy. And let Teddy do her job!💅🏻

Also I love that Teddy knows how angry Ethan is that she’s withholding information and she’s getting on his nerves...that’s exactly why she’s doing it😌😌😌

AND SIENNA! The ever amazing best friend!!🥺🥺😍😍

“Look, you’d still be pissed if I had told you. You’re just annoyed at yourself that she’s back here and acting as a constant reminder of your failures.”

Tobias be coming here with some HARD truth and we love him for it!😌😌😌

With that, he left Ethan and Harper in silence; an extremely uncomfortable one at that.

ASKJASKDSHKCJBSKJFGSJKDHSKJH!😬😬😬😬🤣🤣🤣

Naveen’s sick!👀👀👀💀💀💀

Okay I already told you this but Naveen being sick is better than Teddy being sick bshjsdjkghkjg! Naveen’s lovely and all...but Teddy’s more...important?

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA! OKAY I SHOULD STOP NOW HJDSGKJGSHFJSGH! This was amazinggggg! I needs the next chapter now!!

Both Sides Now

chapter two - chains around my demons

All characters belong to Pixelberry.

Premise: A sudden illness brings Teddy back to Edenbrook, back to the halls that haunt her, and back to the man she left behind.

Warnings: This series will contain NSFW content and possible character death. If you choose to read, you acknowledge that you are 18 or older.

Word Count: 2.7K

Pairing: Ethan x f!MC

Thanks @foreverethereal123 for prereading this for me. Love you.

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Heart thundering in her chest; head pounding with the onset of agonising memories; legs aching with the effort of holding her weakening body upright, Teddy’s mind was far away as she relived those dreadful last moments.

Until she was brought back to present day by another impatient call of her name, albeit this time being whispered far closer than before. When her eyes finally looked up, she met Ethan’s unfamiliar gaze, noticing the muscle of his throat working and swallowing heavily as his pained expression searched hers.

This close, he was able to admire the soft features of the face that he had spent the best part of two years trying to forget: the light dusting of freckles across her nose that spreads onto her high cheeks; the flecks of gold sparkling in her green eyes; the permanent lines etched in her cheeks from the deep set dimples that form when her smile radiates; even the small scar directly above her eyebrow that she’d had since she was eighteen, a result of her clumsy nature and hidden from afar.

She, too, found herself being drawn in. That inexplicable pull between the two was still there, an invisible string tying them together.

She was broken from her trance as she caught a whiff of the scent gracing his body, swallowing over the bile rising in her throat. She was overcome with a tidal wave of loathing for the man, crashing down upon her with every waking second.

There was a fine line between love and hate, and Teddy had crossed over it the day she walked out of Edenbrook.

“Nice aftershave. What is it, Chanel no. 5?”

His gaze turned icy as she tersely averted her eyes, forcefully yanking her arm free from his grip with a scowl. For the first time that morning, she was glad to have decided on heels as she took a step back from him. Commanding as ever, Ethan still towered over her as his gaze burned into her, already fuelled by rage and something else she couldn’t quite place.

“Might I ask what you’re doing in my hospital, Dr. Valentinos?”

Teddy resisted the urge to roll her eyes as she met Chief Ramsey for the first time, already deciding that she didn’t like him.

It was easier than trying to dissect why the deep timbre of his voice still sent shivers through her whole body.

“Already abusing your power to take what you want from the attendings? My, my, how the morally mighty have fallen.”

That caused him to stumble over his words, belatedly confirming what she witnessed as she walked down the hall. “That wasn’t-” He sighed, frustrated. “I wasn’t-”

“No need to explain, Chief.” She spat the words, impossible to miss the disdain dripping from her tone. “I just didn’t realise that the Chief of Medicine met with department heads in on-call rooms now. How silly of me to assume it'd be in the privacy of your own office or a boardroom. My mistake.”

With that, she took a step around him, finally walking towards the Diagnostics office; her original intended destination. After a moment, a blubbering Ethan turned on his heel to shout after her.

“This is my hospital, Valentinos, and if you think you can-”

Not even bothering to turn back, she interrupted his spiel of nonsense. “You always did have a flair for the dramatic, Ethan.”

Listening to her heels clink aggressively against the linoleum, she could realise how petty she was acting, but frankly - she didn’t give a fuck.

Maybe Ethan would get a swift reality check if she finally treated him with the same level of respect and maturity he had always awarded her.

Finally making it to the office, she was met by a shocked Harper and elated Tobias. Only after she had greeted the two of them did Ethan finally shake out of his frozen state and follow her in. Hearing Tobias exclaiming “you made it!” as he walked along coupled with the look of joy on his face as he entered only pushed him further into a pit of fury.

“You knew?” The three doctors turned around to Ethan’s tense voice as Tobias bit back a laugh, his old friend as theatrical as ever. “You knew she was coming back and you didn’t tell me?”

As Tobias shrugged with a devious grin, Teddy interrupted him with a glare. “She has a name.”

Ignoring her, he directed his fiery gaze towards Tobias once more. “That still doesn’t answer my question.”

Teddy sighed dramatically as she flopped into Tobias’ desk chair, rolling her neck as the nerves and stress of the morning already began to catch up with her. “T approved my request to make use of the team’s facilities if and when they’re needed during my visit.”

Ethan spun towards Tobias at the use of such a friendly nickname, hitting him with a questioning stare and earning a wink in response that made his blood boil.

His jaw tensed as he forced his attention back to Teddy, brows furrowing as he wondered what the hell she was talking about. “Needed for what?”

“A case.”

He glared pointedly at her. “Yes, of that much I gathered. What case?”

“A case I’m working on at Edenbrook.”

“Stop with stupid games, Teddy. In case you’ve forgotten, I am the goddamn Chief of this hospital and if you’re working on a case here, then I’m afraid that makes me your boss, so spit it out.”

She made a show of raising her eyebrows, smirking as she took pleasure in how well she could get under his skin after so long apart. “Well, boss, perhaps you’ve forgotten that you too answer to a higher power. The board approved the work I’ll be doing here and therefore, I need your approval for jack shit. And now that I think about it”, she made a show of craning her head to look at the large clock on the wall. “Best be off, old sport.”

She stood, dusting off her skirt and sending Tobias and Harper a smile as she walked out of the office, completely ignoring Ethan and leaving him dumbfounded in the middle of the room. She managed to make it to the end of the corridor and out of view of the office before chancing a quick look back to make sure he hadn’t followed her. Finally alone, she let out a deep sigh as she pressed her palm against the thunderous heartbeat in her chest, the threat of tears coating her lashes as her body broke under the heavy weight of her act.

She stood for a moment, letting the last ten minutes wash over her. Finally letting it sink in that not only did Ethan already know she was here, throwing an enormous spanner in the works alone, but he was back with Harper.

Feeling overwhelmed - and frankly, heartbroken - she ran to the nearest bathroom, struggling to hold back the tears any longer and thanking a higher power for the empty room she found.

Racing into a bathroom stall, she locked the door behind her and collapsed onto the closed seat as her facade quickly crumbled.

She’d known this trip was going to be difficult. She’d known that it was inevitable that she’d run into Ethan. What she hadn’t known was that all of the emotions she’d been pushing down for 18 months would come rushing back at the very first sight of him. She hadn’t known she would have to see him with another woman; a colleague, and she certainly hadn’t known that seeing him with said woman would feel like a knife to the heart.

She’d worked so hard in her time away from Edenbrook to overcome the trauma she’d been through there, only to realise in ten minutes that she'd overcome nothing. She’d been avoiding her emotions, pushing them down to the pit of her soul only for Ethan to take one look at her and rip them clean out. To make her realise that she’d used work as an escape, and wholly failed to conquer any of her demons.

Wasn’t this what she’d chastised Ethan about for years? Had she really idolised him so much that she’d turned into him?

She realised belatedly that perhaps they were a match made in heaven, after all.

She was shaken from her thoughts abruptly, the sound of the bathroom door opening and closing reminding her of where she was as she struggled to control her breathing, trying to stay silent.

Her eyebrows furrowed as she heard footsteps edging closer to her, a pair of purple crocs apparent in the gap between the door and the ground. Before it hit her, she heard a familiar, calming voice. “Hi, bear.”

She groaned as she threw her head back, questioning her friend. “How did you find me?”

“Did you underestimate just how quickly the rumour mill works around here?” Sienna asked with a hint of amusement lacing her voice, Teddy unlocking and opening the door as her friend’s warm smile greeted her, only growing with concern as she noticed the tears streaking her face.

She sent her a sympathetic look as she reached down to swipe a fresh tear away. “I heard.”

“I can’t believe I’m crying over a guy that was never even my boyfriend in the bathroom stall at work. I’m such a fucking cliché.”

Sienna took a step towards her, kneeling on the ground as her hands latched onto Teddy’s thighs. “No, you are not.” The fiery resolve in both her voice and expression made Teddy’s eyes widen. “You are a strong, independent woman, who needed a minute to herself after coming face to face with the love of her life.” She winced as Teddy glared daggers at her, looking at her helplessly.

“Not helping, Si.”

Her nose scrunched up as she smiled apologetically. “Sorry. Anyway, any normal person would need a minute after seeing their ex for the first time in that long. Just because you’re superwoman doesn’t mean you can’t allow yourself to feel a semblance of human emotion. You can’t let him put you off of what you came here to do. Ethan Ramsey does not control your life anymore. You are in control of yourself. Now I don’t want to hear one more self-deprecating remark or else there’ll be trouble. I might be tiny, but so are you.” Teddy suppressed a laugh as Sienna leaned back to size her up. “I’d say we’re evenly matched.”

That finally elicited a loud rumble of laughter from her, her head thrown back as Sienna smiled at Teddy’s signature loud cackle.

Raising her hands in surrender, she smirked. “Yes, ma’am.”

Sienna stood and offered her a hand, wiping the leftover tears with her thumb and pulling her out of the cubicle.

“Oh,” Teddy started, looking into the mirror to dab her face as Sienna waited by the door. “A little heads up on Ethan getting back with Harper would have been nice.”

She turned to walk towards her and leave the room, but was met with a look of utter bewilderment.

“Ethan’s with Dr. Emery?”

“You… didn’t know?”

Sienna’s wide eyes answered the question for her. Teddy watched her face enter a puzzled daze, clearly attempting to track back any signs she may have missed. Finally, she looked at her.

“I had no idea. No one’s mentioned anything. Naveen hasn’t even said anything and you know how much he loves to gossip.”

Teddy laughed fondly at that, thinking of her ‘grand mentor’ as he insisted she call him. With a sigh and determination in her step, she opened the door and strode out to the hallway, Sienna on her tail. “Speaking of, shall we?”

“I agree, Tobias. Ethan had a right to know.”

Rolling his eyes, he chuckled to himself as he raised an eyebrow at Harper. “Yeah, you would say that.”

“How could you not tell me?”

Ethan could use his lecturing voice all he wanted, but Tobias had known him for long enough not to be fooled. As angry as he was acting, he could recognise when the man was in pain.

He shrugged noncommittally as he lounged back on his wingback chair, feet on his desk and arms behind his head.

“Tobias.”

Sighing, he sat upright. In truth, he did feel guilty for keeping Teddy’s return a secret from Ethan. But he’d made fast friends with her during their year working together, and when she’d called him begging for this favour and making him promise to tell no one, he wasn’t about to break it, consequences be damned.

“Look, you’d still be pissed if I had told you. You’re just annoyed at yourself that she’s back here and acting as a constant reminder of your failures.”

Ethan’s jaw clenched as he narrowed his eyes at his old friend.

“I’m sorry, dude, but it’s true.” Standing up and stepping towards the door, he stopped at the last moment, the noise of the hospital beginning to fill in as Tobias turned his head back ever so slightly.

“For what it’s worth, Ethan,” he turned fully, catching Ethan’s eyes as he looked up from the ground. “if I was you, I’d be doing everything in my power to never fucking let her go again.”

With that, he left Ethan and Harper in silence; an extremely uncomfortable one at that.

Sienna and Teddy roamed through the halls of the hospital, shocked glances quickly morphing into friendly smiles as fellow doctors took note of Teddy’s surprise return to Edenbrook.

Making their way up to the paediatric wing, they walked hand in hand through the long corridors before they finally arrived at what appeared to be a dead end, a plastic sheet hanging from the ceiling and blocking their view.

Sienna nodded and took watch as Teddy slightly bent to lift it, taking a backward glance to make sure there was no one watching their movements before disappearing behind it.

“It’s like the building knows when to start a fucking demolition.”

The halls were eerily silent save for one recurring noise, the two women only able to take a few steps before Teddy could hear the telltale steady beeping of monitors, feeling her heart sink as reality set in.

At the end of the hall behind a glass window lay a frail man, and Teddy was instantly transported back in time to three years ago; feeling just like a clueless intern, holding the life of one of her medical heroes in her hands once again.

Only this time, she was doing it alone. Her inspiration wasn’t here to guide her. He was on the opposite side of the hospital, being kept in the dark about the health of a man he loved so dearly; a man whose near death broke him all those years ago. Teddy felt a twinge of remorse as she realised the gravity of the situation; just how much she was hiding from her past lover.

With a wave of conviction, she took a step into the room and flashed the familiar face a dazzling grin, knowing it was exactly what the situation needed. His expression instantly brightened as he attempted to return the same smile, albeit quite weakly.

“I was beginning to think you’d forgotten about me, dear.” He teased her with the signature crinkling of his eyes, the tales of his long life taking home in the lines of his face.

“Never.” She assured him. She walked purposefully to his bedside, the icy chill of his hands as she took them in her own sending a shock of dread through her system.

Taking a deep breath as she sat beside him, she could see just how fragile he was; making her more determined than ever to do her job.

“Now, tell me what’s been going on, and start from the beginning. I want to know everything, Naveen.”

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