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watchyourbluesturngolden · 3 years ago

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songs that make me think of vampy and why

this is for drea and leyla ONLY thank u

daylight- taylor swift "i don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw you, i don't wanna think of anything else now that i thought of you" bc vampy loves her so much he only wants her 😔 midnight love- girl in red "I know I'm the last one you try to call but I always give in to give you it all" "your silver is my gold" bc miss chiropractor treated him terribly but he loved her with everything and would have gone back to her no matter what watch you sleep- girl in red this one is obvious: bc vampy watches bloodbag sleep :) also "the scar on your spine, you fell off a roof when you were nine" is all appreciating the tiny details about someone and that is definitely something vampy would do :( paper rings: taylor swift "i hate accidents except when we went from friends to this" line without a hook- ricky montgomery "oh baby i am a wreck when i'm without you" bc vampy loves bloodbag so much he just wants to be with her always 😔 dead girl in the pool- girl in red this one is kinda weird but i feel like bloodbag is gonna die at some point and then vampy will just be like "theres a dead girl in the pool (or wherever her corpse is laying slfjskldfjkldsj) i don't know what to do" and then he's gonna make this face

bad habits- ed sheeran bc he was just slutting around before he met bloodbag demons- imagine dragons dont make fun of me for this I KNOW but fr it's vampy renegade- taylor swift "you wouldn't be the first renegade to need somebody" he needs bloodbag 😔 starting line- luke hemmings i can't really explain this one but it's like how you always talk about how his happiness is overshadowed by the fact that he's a monster or whatever million dollar bills - lorde "theres nothing i want but money and time" and vampy has literally all the money and time :) solar power- lorde this is harrys hot girl anthem idk happiness- taylor swift "there'll be happiness after you, but there was happiness because of you" this is him reminiscing on miss chiropractor i wanna get better-bleachers "i didn't know i was lonely til i saw your face" "I didn't know i was broken til i wanted to change" come on 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 good 4 u - olivia rodrigo this is his fuck u song for miss chiropractor my tears ricochet- taylor swift "if i'm dead to you why are you at the wake" it's ironic innit 😌 what a feeling- one direction "what a feeling to be right here beside you now, holding you in my arms" please 😔 "everybody needs someone around" 😔😔😔 "but i can't hold you too close now" bc he has severe attachment and commitment issues :) all you had to do was stay- taylor swift "had me in the palm of your hand, then, why'd you have to go and lock me out when i let you in" omg miss chiropractor really hurt him 😔 king of my heart- taylor swift "and all at once you are the one i have been waiting for" bloodbag @ vampy 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 cruel summer- taylor swift "I love you ain't that the worst thing you ever heard" bc he knows getting close to bloodbag will ultimately only lead to pain for everyone involved "i don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you" bc he can't tell bloodbag everything about him even tho he probably wants to :( thank u next- arianna grande this is weird BUT if miss chiropractor hadn't fucked him up so much he never would have met bloodbag tear in my heart- 21 pilots again don't make fun of me for this I HAVE AN EXPLANATION "you fell asleep in my car i drove the whole time but that's okay i'll just avoid the holes so you sleep fine" if bloodbag fell asleep in his car he would definitely do this :( shape of you-ed sheeran "now my bedsheets smell like you" his room probably smells like honey and lavender all the time now and he's probably foaming at the mouth constantly cowboy in LA "let's skip the club, lets skip the crowd, i wanna take you on a date" bc they both hate clubs!!!!! "I'll hold your hand I'll hold the door bc that's how i was raised" he's a gentleman 😔😔😔😔 & burn- billie eilish "i'll sit and watch your car burn with the fire that you started in me, but you never came back to ask it out" idk for some reason this has vampy and miss chiropractor vibes take me to church- hozier religious trauma babes 🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼 speechless- dan+shay "i'm speechless, staring at you standing there in that dress" love 😔 yours- russel dickerson "i came to life when i first kissed you, the best me has his arms around you, you make me better than i was before, thank god i'm yours" SCREAMING AND CRYING AND SHAKING tolerate it- taylor swift "i know my love should be celebrated, but you tolerate it" MISS ******** DIDN"T APPRECIATE OR CELEBRATE HIS LOVE MIA- anarbor "thinking about my life and everything i did wrong along the way"😔 lay low- josh turner for when bloodbag and vampy go to a cabin in the woods for a week and just love each other 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 who can save me now- anarbor "you stabbed me in the back" this one is pretty literal LSKFJLKSJFLKDSJ "you could have at least been kind enough to let me turn around" ouch 😔 dopamine- anarbor "i'm hooked on your dopamine" vampy and bloodbag ugh lie to me- 5sos this give me vampy and ******** vibes "i wish we never met, cause you're too hard to forget" "while i'm cleaning up your mess i know he's taking

off your dress" bc she probably cheated on him while they were together 😔 and he would have stayed with her if she told him she loved him, even if he knew it was a lie 😔 cotton candy- yungblud it's just a happy song with good vibes like bloodbag and vampy currently have :) small talk- niall horan i don't even have to say anything here pillowtalk- zayn "so we'll piss off the neighbors" chappy 9 vibes dancing with our hands tied- taylor swift "i loved you in spite of deep fears that the world would divide us" vampy rn 😔 once in a lifetime- one direction vampy will live a million lifetimes but he will only ever have one bloodbag 😔 holy ground- taylor swift "tonight i'm gonna dance for all that we've been through but I don't wanna dance if i'm not dancing with you" they've come so far omg 😔 since we're alone- niall horan "you can show me your heart, if you put it all in my hands no i swear no i won't break it apart" crying if i could fly- one direction "for your eyes only i'll show you my heart" rollercoaster- bleachers again i can't explain it but it makes me think of him 😔 so long- niall horan "so if we knew all along why did it take so long" good question bestie current location- LANY "i need your current location to be my current location" they're idiots in love and want to be together all the time 😔 why dont we go there- one direction "hey i don't want you to be the one that got away i wanna get addicted to you you're rushing through my mind i wanna feel the high i wanna be addicted" well hes already addicted to her blood so might as well like you lots- LANY bc they both have issues and can't say love lmao too much to ask- niall horan vampy though wanting love was too much to ask of miss chiropractor 😔 walking in the wind- one direction this one just has his vibes man 😔 heartbeat- carrie underwood "dancing to the rhythm of your heartbeat" bc vampy is obsessed with listening to bloodbag's heart (fan behavior if you ask me) idfc- blackbear this is vampy and ******** bc "tell me that you love me even if it's fake" city of angels- 24kgoldn "i sold my soul to the devil for designer" yes this made me laugh the woods- olivver the kid "waking up in the middle of the woods" "don't you wanna get out of here, out of the woods" flashback to when he was dead in the woods oop "you brought me down to the river, and you pushed me in, hoping that the white rapids would challenge my ability to swim" bc... she's a murderer omg this verse is talking about leaves and i'm freaking out it fits 100% this is crazy "You pick up two handfuls You tell me they're all dried up & dead You know that's nothing like us We'll live forever instead" just a little bit of your heart- ariana grande vampy bc he loves so deeply and completely that he will give all of himself to someone even if they won't do the same my strange addiction- billie eilish bc he is addicted to her blood :) cross your mind- niall horan this is vampy and ******** "love the way you hurt me and it doesn't even cross your mind" "leaving me in pieces (literally lmao) but i swear it's worth it every time" everywhere- niall horan that scene where vampy smelled some perfume or soap or something and it made him think of bloodbag 😔 everything makes him think of her now 😔 "swear it's hard to think it's hard to breathe when you're in the air" put a little love on me- niall horan "you're the only one i need" 😔 bend the rules- niall horan VAMPY AND ******** ALL THE WAY "i'm not saying that you're lying but you're leaving out the truth" heartbreak weather- niall horan "all of my life i've been sleepwalk living, running around the same bars i've been in, it can be so lonely in this city, but it feels different when you're with me" bloodbag and vampy 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 mr loverman- ricky montgomery "i miss my lover man" vampy is probably dramatic like this all the time now that they're official 😔 bad blood- taylor swift again, just for the irony 😌 vapor- 5sos "i want to breathe you in like a vapor i want to be the one you remember i want to feel

your love like the weather all over me" they're so in love like this 😔 catch fire- 5sos "all my life i've been waiting for moments to come" he's been waiting for bloodbag his entire life 😔 beside you-5sos "i wish i was beside you" they want to be together all the time 😔 black and white- niall horan "that first night i was standing at your door fumbling for your keys then i kissed you" ARE YOU KIDDING ME not in the same way- 5sos this is vampy and ******** just bc they were so toxic lkfjskldfjsdlkjf lonely heart-5sos "and i haven't slept in days" lmao ghost of you-5sos "my feet dont dance like they did with you" thinking about when vampy danced for bloodbag and what if they break up 👁️👁️ why wont you love me- 5sos vampy at ******** 😔 he just wanted to be loved 😔😔😔😔😔 fool's gold- one direction "i let you use me from the day that we first met" "i know your love's not real, but that's not the way it feels" STOP IM SAD last first kiss- one direction "let me be your last first kiss" i want them to be together forever 😔 truly madly deeply- one direction "foolishly completely falling and somehow you kicked all my walls in" bloodbag really snuck into his heart huh 😔 fireproof -one direction "nobody saves me baby the way you do" ugh 😔 long story short-taylor swift "clung to the nearest lips long story short it was the wrong guy" (or in vampy's case the wrong vampire) gold rush-taylor swift "and the coastal town we run around has never seen a love as pure as it" bloodbag and vampy are all i want 😔 no judgement- niall horan bc vampy would never judge bloodbag 😔 daddy issues- the neighborhood again im not even gonna say anything here new angel- niall horan "the touch of someone else to save me from myself" this is vampy 😔 god is a woman- ariana grande vampy after he brought bloodbag home the first time something like this- the chainsmokers "just something i can turn to, somebody i can kiss" ALL VAMPY WANTS IS LOVE sweater weather- the neighborhood idk this song makes me think of him all of me- john legend "all of me loves all of you all your curves and all your edges all your perfect imperfections" KSFLKSDJFKLDJSFLJSDKLFJDSKL i like me better- lauv "i like me better when i'm with you" she makes him a better person 😔 sex- eden "oh no, i think i'm catching feelings" vampy when bloodbag went on a date with someone else half a heart- one direction bc bloodbag completes him 😔 theyre so disgusting 😔 only angel- harry styles "turns out she's a devil in between the sheets" woman- harry styles vampy when she was on a date with someone else bc hes a jealous moron temporary fix- one direction this has chappy 1-2 vibes a.m.-one direction when they first started falling in love and he wanted to be with her more often 😔 something great- one direction "i want you here with me like how i pictured it so i don't have to keep imagining" through the dark- one direction just all of this song 😔 happily- one direction "you know i wanna be the one who holds you when you sleep i just want it to be you and i forever" 😔 electric love- borns "i can't let you go now that i got it" canyon moon- harry styles they're just happy like this rn 😔 sunflower vol. 6- harry styles "kiss in the kitchen like it's a dancefloor" "mouth full of toothpaste" when they brushed their teeth together 😔 adore you- harry styles obviously

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feelingsinthedark · 6 years ago

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Jem & Lunar New Year

it’s a little late but it’s still technically like the period of celebration for Chinese New Year so it’s fine whatever lol

PART TWO COMING SOON with qoaad spoilers :3 wanted to post these here first so i can screenshot it and post on instagram more easily lol

they’re kinda long and i figured out how to put a cut thing at least on a computer skdfsfdfkksk idk if they’re good but here ya go

and oh yeah disclaimer the timeline is messy but i tried ok here ya go i’ll shut up now lmao

The first twelve years of his life are perfect Chinese New Year celebrations

He helps his parents decorate the Institute with 福 signs everywhere and window hangings and all the things

He wakes up early with his parents the day of and makes dumplings with them that they feed the visiting relatives and random Shadowhunters

People come and go all day long to and from the Shanghai Institute

Older Shadowhunters give him 红包 (red envelopes) every year as well as his parents

1873 is the last of these

Chinese New Year in 1874 he spends in a state of delirium caused by yin fen

His father died not long before but he can still hear his mother crying out for him

新年快乐，儿子 he thinks he hears her say softly, exhaustedly, that day

A ridiculously ironic statement considering the situation they’re in

But it could be a hallucination brought on by the drug

He whispers 过年好 to his mother, though he doesn’t realize it in a surge of pain and delirium

His mother sobs at what were the first words she heard from her son in what seemed like years

Yanluo sneers at their interaction and deliberately gives Jem a larger dose of yin fen to torture him and his mother more

To take away from this day of fortune and happiness and prosperity

Not long after Chinese New Year of 1874, Jem’s mother is dead, and Yanluo has disappeared

Chinese New Year of 1875 is spent at the London Institute

Jem arrived a little more than half a year before

He remembers when he wakes up that morning, but he decides to keep it to himself

Especially considering how his last Chinese New Year went

And he doesn’t want to make Charlotte or anyone else feel like they need to do something for him

He’s sent out on a patrol with Will

He is quieter than usual and sort of draws into himself remembering past years

Will notices but doesn’t pry until Jem is giving him an iratze and it’s just kind of an awkward silence which never happens between them

So he quietly asks “Are you okay?”

Showing that gentle side of him that only Jem ever sees

Jem is silent for a little longer while he draws another iratze

Then he says “It’s the Lunar New Year today,” while drawing Will’s sleeve down over the rune

“Shouldn’t that be a happy thing?” Will asks

“It is,” Jem says as they head back to the Institute

And after another silence he says “my last one wasn’t”

Will puts the pieces together

Jem tries to add “it’s fine, I’ll be okay, I am okay”

Will ignores this and when they get back to the Institute he insists Jem train with him

He says he needs to brush up on his knife throwing

Even though he just dispatched a demon with a deathly accurate dagger to the head

The whole time he talks about nothing and helps to take Jem’s mind away from that

Later Jem has a bout of sickness and coughs blood

He makes a joke about the color red being the color of fortune

But he thinks he really is fortunate bc he has Will

Chinese New Year of 1876 had a little bit of celebration

He had told the inhabitants of the London Institute that year about some of his traditions when he lived in Shanghai

So that year they all try to make dumplings together

Really just Charlotte and Will, and Sophie and Agatha too

Jem is really the only one who makes them well but he tries to teach them

He takes over the kitchen which Agatha very much objects to

He still remembers how to make the dough, the filling, and how to roll out dumpling skins and wrap them

After a while Will’s given up and he sits there making sarcastic remarks

They start to make that a tradition in the London Institute every year

Just making dumplings which Jem insists is enough

Charlotte wants to do more to make Jem feel at home but they never get around to it

1877 and 1878 are like this

Chinese New Year of 1879 Jem spends in the Silent City

There is no celebrating, no dumplings, none of the music or decorating or family of his childhood

His emotions are still mostly there as he was only made a Silent Brother a few months before

But all he feels is a desperate loneliness knowing that he can’t be with the ones he loves most today

His days only get lonelier and lonelier as the years pass and he barely remembers what Chinese New Year meant to him

He asks Tessa to meet him on Blackfriars on Chinese New Year of 1890

He doesn’t set the date on purpose but afterward he realizes it is Chinese New Year

On the bridge he tells Tessa he wishes he could have gotten to experience a Chinese New Year with her

Tessa says maybe someday they’ll have a chance

They both know it’s impossible though

Every year he feels himself slipping away and Tessa feels him growing further from her and from humanity

And then

Chinese New Year of 2008 is spent with the love of his life

They are staying at Tessa’s flat in London

Jem had just come back a less than a month ago

Tessa wakes up and kisses Jem to wake him up

“新年快乐” she says quietly, smiling, “happy Lunar New Year, my love”

Jem asks her how she knew

After that meeting on the bridge in 1890 she started paying attention to the lunar calendar

“In case... in case there really was ever a day,” she explains

Jem smiles and kisses her

“Well, you were right”

Tessa asks what he wants to do to celebrate

He says just being with her is enough after so long in the darkness

And they have forever to celebrate Chinese New Years properly

They have a quiet, relaxed day in London

And it ends not so quietly

Chinese New Year of 2009 is spent with his fiancée

Tessa surprises Jem again

She had gone out a couple weeks ago and gotten decorations which she hung up that night

She also got ingredients for dumplings and she and Jem mess around with making them

Neither of them know exactly what they’re doing

Tessa’s never made dumplings from scratch and Jem hasn’t in over a century and certainly hasn’t had to even think about making dumplings

But they don’t look it up they just have fun with it and make things up as they go

They end up making a mess in the kitchen and all over themselves

The dumplings are okay and they eat them and make fun of each other accusing each other of making them taste bad

“You’re the one who made the filling, did you not add any soy sauce?”

“Well you made the skins so thick we had to boil them for so long that all the flavor leeched out. Just dip them in some sauce”

“That is an inconvenience for me, sir”

And they laugh a lot

The next day they watch the 春节晚会 together

Jem explains some of what’s going on to Tessa but she’s kept up learning some Chinese over the years so she knows a bit and can sort of keep up

Chinese New Year of 2010 is spent with his wife

They spend it by themselves in LA

*(Idk why they’re in LA sorry y’all make up a reason yourself lol Tessa has homes everywhere right so it makes sense right)

Jem sends 红包 for Emma and the Blackthorn kids to the LA Institute via a very grumpy Church

He and Tessa spend the weekend before Chinese New Year decorating and cleaning her house

(I’m like doubting if that’s an actual thing that Tessa has houses everywhere I feel like I just made that up but oh well they had to stay somewhere in LA in Lady Midnight right)

Jem had told Tessa about more traditions since coming back

She cuts his hair every year on Chinese New Year

And they go shopping for new clothes

Jem can’t remember everything he used to do as a child but they do everything he remembers

2011 and 2012 are pretty similar

2011 at Jem’s house in Devon and 2012 in LA

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