#literally lestat saying i love you a million times and louis never saying it back but he’s still the loss of his life

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okay but ttpd is the perfect loustat album

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Part 2:

11. Chloe or Sam or Sophie or Marcus - POV Louis

Ep 1x3 + 1x6 Your hologram stumbled into my apartment. Hands in the hair of somebody in darkness named Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus and I just watched it happen. Louis knowing Lestat is cheating with Antoinette and (LITERALLY) just watching it happen.

You needed me but you needed drugs blood more. And I couldn't watch it happen. Louis not being able to stomach killing.

Ep 2x8 As the decade(s) would play us for fools, and you saw my bones out with somebody new, who seemed like he would've bullied you in school, and you just watched it happen. Armand does not seem like he would've bullied Lestat in school but he did torment him and force him to be part of the play that burned his daughter alive. Louis then spent 77 years married to the man who orchestrated his daughter's death. All to spite the man who did not. And Lestat just watched it happen. The decades really played them for fools.

12. The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived - POV Louis Ep 1x7 AND YOU DESERVE PRISON BUT YOU WON'T GET TIME!!! The killing Lestat song. This one is mostly vibes because he deserved to get swamped. And Louis does want him dead at this point. Otherwise I would claim it's more of an Armand song. But Louis doesn't know that he is yet to meet the actual smallest man who ever lived so Lestat gets to keep that title for now.

13. my tears ricochet - POV Lestat Post 1x7 The aftermath of Lestat's death.

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace, and you're the hero flying around saving face. The interview. Louis being an unreliable narrator and diminishing his role in everything that plays out.

And you're tossing out blame, drunk on this pain, crossing out the good years. "I talked shit about him the whole time!" Louis not wanting to acknowledge any good parts of his relationship with Lestat.

Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe, all the hell you gave me? "I tried to make nights awful for you. I wanted you to suffer. Because I was suffering."

'Cause I loved you, I swear I loved you 'til my dying day. "I have loved you with all myself."

But if I'm dead to you why are you at the wake? Louis being haunted by Lestat in his mind.

You had to kill me but it killed you just the same. Cursing my name, wishing I stayed. Louis crying over Lestat's dead body. Being unable to burn him.

14. Haunted - POV Lestat and Louis Post 1x7 You and I walk a fragile line. I have known it all this time but I never thought I'd live to see it break. C'mon c'mon don't leave me like this. I thought I had you figured out. Something's gone terribly wrong, you're all I wanted. Lestat POV at having been killed by the love of his life.

Season 2 He will try to take way my pain and he just might make me smile, but the whole time I'm wishing he was you instead. Louis being literally haunted with visions of Lestat throughout his relationship with Armand. "Romeo? He's barely Balthazar."

15. The Prophecy - Lestat POV Season 2 Thought I caught lightning in a bottle. Oh, but it's gone again. And it was written, I got cursed like Eve got bitten. Oh, was it punishment? Please, I've been on my knees. Change the prophecy. Don't want money, just someone who wants my company. Let it once be me. Who do I have to speak to about if they can redo the prophecy? I'm so afraid I sealed my fate, no sign of soulmates.

Lestat losing his great love. Twice. First Nicky and now Louis.

16. Better Man - Louis POV Season 2 Sometimes in the middle of the night I can feel you again, but I just miss you and I just wish you were a better man. Louis seeing such strong visions of Lestat that he can feel his breath on the back of his neck.

We might still be in love if you were a better man. You would've been the one if you were a better man. Maybe if he were a better man he wouldn't have been murdered.

17. loml - Louis POV Season 2 You said I'm the love of your life. About a million times. Louis never saying it back but finally settling on You're the loss of my life.

I thought I was better safe than starry-eyed. Louis choosing the "safe" option that is Armand.

18. The Way I Loved You - Louis POV 2x5 He can't see the smile I'm faking and my heart's not breaking 'cause I'm not feeling anything at all. Louis being suffocated by the world's softest beigest pillow in his relationship with Armand so now he misses screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain.

19. You All Over Me - Louis POV Ep 2x7 But no amount of freedom gets you clean, I've still got you all over me. Louis being haunted by Lestat even 70 years later. He knows Lestat's not even dead.

20. Fresh Out The Slammer - Louis POV Ep 2x8 Now pretty baby I'm running back home to you. Fresh out the slammer I know who my first call will be to. Louis returning to New Orleans and Lestat after the Loumand divorce.

I made a post a while ago about how ttpd is the perfect loustat album. Long story short it then evolved into this playlist.

Notes on each song choice under the cut (because I'm insane and they're long):

1. Guilty as Sin? - POV Louis Ep 1x1 In throes of increasing wonder... it's all about desire and religious guilt.

2. But Daddy I Love Him - POV Louis Ep 1x1 "He ain't white, he french." Ep 1x2 "He had a way about him" He was chaos, he was revelry. Ep 1x4 I'm having his baby! The obvious forever iconic baby trapping.

Crazier - POV Louis (not on the list because of vibes but still an honorable mention) Ep 1x1 You lift my feet off the ground, you spin me around. Levitating vampire sex. Ep 1x2 You showed me something that I couldn't see, opened my eyes and you made me believe. Lestat trying to free Louis from the trappings of his life and Louis literally seeing the world differently as a vampire.

3. I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can) - POV Louis Everything about them. Ep 1x2 Louis starting to see that he cannot stomach the way Lestat enjoys killing. Lestat humiliating and killing the opera singer simply because he was a bad singer. Ep 1x3 The jokes that he told across the bar were revolting and far too loud. "What is wrong with that man?!" and then add Louis actually trying to fix Lestat by having him only kill evil people.

4. False God - POV Louis and Lestat We were crazy to think, crazy to think that this could work. But we might just get away with it, religion's in your lips, even if it's a false god. I know heaven's a thing, I go there when I touch you. Honey, hell is when I fight with you. I can't talk to you when you're like this, staring out the window like I'm not your favorite town. You can't talk to me when I'm like this, daring you to leave me just so I can try to scare you. Self-explanatory.

5. Renegade - POV Lestat Ep 1x1 I tapped on your window on your darkest night, the shape of you was jagged and weak. There was nowhere for me to stay, but I stayed anyway. Louis running away from Lestat to the church to try to exorcise him from his mind and heart. Trying to keep him out rather than let him in. Ep 1x2 After the phantoms of your former self. Are you really gonna talk about timing in times like these? And let all your damage damage me? And carry your baggage up my street? And make me your future history? Louis trying to continue his life as it was before he was turned but finding it difficult in a multitude of ways. "I almost ate my nephew, Lestat!" You've come a long way, open the blinds, let me see your face. You wouldn't be the first renegade to need somebody. "You are a challenge every sunset, Saint Louis. And I'd have it no other way." Ep 1x3 You fire off missiles 'cause you hate yourself, but do you know you're demolishing me? "This is not a life!" "That's because you TOOK my life!" Louis leaving Lestat because he hates his own vampire nature. Ep 1x5 Is it insensitive for me to say "Get your shit together so I can love you?" Louis' depression after Claudia leaves. Is it really your anxiety that stops you from giving me everything? Or do just not want to? "Say 'Lestat, I am never going to love you.'" Louis never telling Lestat "I love you" during their 30 years together.

6. Bejeweled - POV Lestat Ep 1x3 and onward. Don't put me in the basement when I want the penthouse of your heart. Lestat starting and continuing his affair with Antoinette whenever he feels neglected or rejected by Louis.

7. High Infidelity - POV Lestat I just think the cheating blondes Lestat and Taylor have a lot in common. Ep 1x5 Put on your records Read your books and regret me. Lestat being ignored by Louis who is only staying inside and reading his books since Claudia left. Ep 1x5 (with additional 2x7 context) You know there's many different ways that you can kill the one you love? The slowest way is never loving them enough. "If every word coming out of his mouth is vitriol or disinterest for seven years... you don't want to. You still hope that he'll emerge out of his melancholy. That he'll love you like you love him." But in the meantime you cheat. I bent the truth too far tonight, I was dancing around, dancing around it. Lestat keeping up his affair with Antoinette after he had promised to end it. You said I was freeloading. Not related to the show but in the original novel Louis keeps saying how Lestat was exploiting him for his money.

8. My Boy Only Breaks His Favorite Toys - POV Lestat Ep 1x5 The Fight™️ Oh, here we go again. The voices in his head called the rain to end our days of wild. The "Claudia has left" depression spanning for several years. Lestat hoping he'll "emerge out of his melancholy" but also just being sick of it because he wants to bejeweled. But first, pull the string and I'll tell you that he runs because he loves me. "I have waited, Louis. I have patiently waited in vain for you to love me, as I love you." Ep 2x7 (still The Fight™️) He saw forever so he smashed it up. Hehe, Slam Reid his face into the coffin.

9. The Great War - POV Louis and Lestat Ep 1x5 The Fight™️ 2: Electric Boogaloo I drew curtains closed, drank my poison all alone. Louis ignoring Lestat and going deeper into his depression. And maybe it was egos swinging, maybe it was her. "A thousand nights of sulking, and the first sight of her, you are just gonna up and leave me?!" Ep 2x7 (still The Fight™️) Your finger on my hairpin triggers. "A word of context for our jury. The single worst thing that a vampire can feel is loneliness." Soldier down on that icy ground looked up at me with honor and truth. Broken and blue. So I called off the troops. That was the night I nearly lost you. Louis leaving Lestat after being dropped from the sky. "I did it to hurt him. And it did hurt him. And afterwards he was a broken thing. I know, I saw, because I am the one who broke him!" Ep 1x6 We can plant a memory garden. Say a solemn prayer, place a poppy in my hair. There's no morning glory, it was war, it wasn't fair. And we will never go back to that bloodshed. The aftermath of The Fight™️. "We leave the damage so we never forget the damage."

10. imgonnagetyouback - POV Louis Ep 1x6 Whether I'm gonna curse you out or take you back to my house. I haven't decided yet, but I'm gonna get you back. Louis swimming the Mississippi to yell at and fuck Lestat after he sends him the "Come to me" record. And then taking him back. And then plotting his death to get him back.

Rest of the songs will be in a reblog because apparently you CAN reach character limit on a tumblr post...