#literally i need to get my shit together
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I hate when I can't help my friends
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"What do you MEAN there's literally nothing I can do to help literally anyone in this situation and I'm just useless??? Will killing myself help? Will not being in the situation or in their lives ever again because they don't deserve such a worthless sack of shit as a friend help? PLEASE just TELL ME WHAT TO DO. LET ME BE USEFUL TO YOU."
Cause like I whine all the time and people jump to help me and then when they actually need help back I'm just completely and utterly utterly useless
And I'm whining now instead of actually helping them because I can't think of anything I can say to help them and I fucking hate it
THIS ISN'T ABOUT ME I NEED TO PULL MY ASS TOGETHER
#tw sui talk#literally i need to get my shit together#god I'm worthless right now#do NOT pay attention to this post#do NOT encourage me#infact#none of you should talk to me again???#I'm literally so useless and unfunny#why are any of you following me#OK#GET MY SHIT TOGETHER NOW
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THEY ARE SO INSUFFERABLE AND HORRIFIC AND AWFUL BUT SO AMAZING AND DORKY AND THIS PART IS SO UNFAIRLY FUNNY AND CUTE AND WHOLESOME-- PLEASE, PLEASE HAVE MORE SCREENTIME IN S2. PLEASE LET THEM TAKE OVER THE SHOW. I KNOW THEY'RE HORRIBLE PEOPLE BUT I NEED MORE OF THE VEES.
And the most important scene of them all (to me):
First of all, how is Vox doing that. Second, you just know that these two douchebags are going to bang so hard with Alastor getting his ass kicked replaying in the background after this. I hate them so much.
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel vox#hazbin hotel valentino#hazbin hotel velvette#hazbin hotel vees#voxval#staticmoth#all their scenes in this episode were so freaking good holy shit#all their scenes in show are great actually#like-- oh my god#they are so much fun to have around#vox was literally me the entire time (minus the alastor hating)#and their evil little happy celebrating at the end was so cute it's unreal#i wanted the vees to sing together at some point and i'm so happy it was delivered vox and val sound fantastic together#and that sneaky staticmoth kiss at the end YES YES YES YEEESS#i love everyone in this show (except adam) but the vees are just built different#with adam dead can they please appear more? please? i need more of these disgusting assholes committing disgusting crimes and gay wrongs#''the future of hell belongs to the vees'' is a sentiment i can and will get behind please take over#i just finished the season finale and it gave me the dopamine rush i really needed today i'm so happy AAHHHHHH#i can't stop rewatching this scene someone please help me i can't escape their clutches i've been here for hours please#ok i'm clogging these tags so i'm stopping here but AAGHHHBKFGXGGGBB#anyways good night
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i think i really need to learn how to cold quit things... one habit i have that really bothers me is checking my phone first thing in the morning bc it's "just for 5 minutes" "just to see if anyone sent me anything important" no bitch literally nothing on your phone requires you to check your phone first thing when you open your eyes!!! stop it
#i want to keep it cute and say i drink water or some shit but i check my phone THEN drink water guys it's true#i like to think i'm pretty productive / do well w my time bc i get to studying/errands pretty quickly#but sometimes i think about how those minutes spent on my phone could be spent reading the book i said i didn't have time to read#or doing a quick stretching exercise#or just getting myself together before a long day of studying idk. anything really#i need stricter regulations for myself ik it#i am doing good rn but what is good if u could literally be the best just by being off ur phone more
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I know my ass says this every time there’s a new season but god DAMN, heartstopper is such a good show for teenagers
#the klock keeps ticking#heartstopper#and also before i go on my ramble let me get my obligatory angy moment out of the way#i wish aled was in the show im never gonna be over this i think isaac is turning out great but like#every time i see him it just feels so wrong lol its like. WHERES MY BOY WHERES MY GUY RADIOOOO#okay anyways#i only watched the first 2 episodes of s3 but damn its just like so good at the tone#so good at being sweet but serious when it needs to be#so good at showing healthy communication methods in a way teenagers can practice#and just like saying that hey. your partner is struggling with something and you arent responsible for fixing them cuz you literally cannot#do that and you are literally 16 theyre gonna need much more than this#and this is a part of growing up and having your relationships mature like you will have to go through shit like this together sometimes#and its a lot but you can still show love and support without straining yourself it just takes practice and patience#im so glad a show like this exists for teenagers cuz damn i havent seen anything be this good for that specific demographic in uh#like ever? something thats so good at acknowledging that teenagers have these problems or drink or have sex#without doing some euphoria bullshit#just tows the line so well
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Yeah I'm not done yet.
The thing I keep coming back to is that as much as I'm down to nit-pick things like how characters are written and plot details (and boy are there a whole infestation of nits to pick), what it boils down to is that the basic premise here shouldn't even be happening.
I get they're doing a Thing with Bruce and the after effects of Failsafe and Zur and Insomnia so sure I guess it makes sense to have him acting totally unreasonably. I'm not saying it's a plotline I'm thrilled with, but whatever. This is about everyone else.
You have half a dozen people routinely patrolling in Gotham, who've been doing it for years, who know the city and how it works, who have at least two people who are particularly inclined towards collecting and parsing data for patterns for crime fighting purposes, and none of you noticed anything amiss until Selina called and was like "Hey did you notice my neat new plan I've been doing?"
To that point, in a room full of literal canonical geniuses not a single person has thought to ask any of a dozen very practical questions that occurred to me, a non-genius reader, roughly 10 seconds after reading what The Plan was. Things like, oh, I don't know
How is this going to be a sustainable long-term effort?
For example, what happens when Gotham's wealthiest realize what you're doing and dramatically beef up their security (with tech or with actual people), making it much harder and more dangerous?
Like iirc you, Selina, have definitely had some real dicey situations as a result of your profession, and you're a lot more experienced than these people.
(Hey speaking of which isn't there a whole secret society of Gotham's wealthiest and most powerful who have access to nearly unkillable assassins? Who keeps coming back even though they keep being taken down? You think any of these people might belong to that?)
What happens when the rich folks get pissed and sic the heavily militarized GCPD on you? Don't act like they won't, I'm sure someone's squirreled away stuff from that whole Fear State fiasco.
For that matter, what happens when the costumed villainry figure out who swiped all their henchpeople and decide to object to it, presumably violently?
How many people are we talking here anyway that you're training? How many ultra-wealthy people live in Gotham? How many easily stealable things do they have sitting around to take? (As opposed to, like, other non-liquid fake assets like stocks)
How are you fencing all this anyway? Isn't that a great way to get caught? Or is everyone just stealing cash? (Or did nobody think about the part between "got the valuable thing" and "have usable money from it"?)
How on god's green earth did you ever assume this was going to end in anything other than violence?
Like of course one of your guys got killed. It doesn't matter that you told them no violence, even if they fully buy into that it only takes one panicked reaction when someone's home who shouldn't be, on either side, and there you go.
Look I get what they're trying to do. It's supposed to be a big moral quandary about whether it's right to allow some crime if it decreases other crime, the struggle between Batman being unreasonably violent and unwilling to listen and this new plan of Selina's. First of all that's a weird debate to have when everyone having it is technically a criminal to some degree. And second of all, it doesn't matter, this isn't about the morality, this is about how this plan is fucking dumb and was destined to fall apart even if Batman was still asleep and the fact that any of you are buying it just means there's a gas leak in Gotham somewhere.
#maybe i'm totally wrong and there's some secret behind-the-scene plot happening and the plan as presented is just a front#which would not excuse the way all the kids are reacting but would at least get selina off the hook#maybe i'll eat my words later whe it turns out there was some grand plan that totally ties everything together#but right now i'm fucking annoyed at how LITERALLY EVERYONE is being handled in this and i needed to vent#for the record no i'm not at all morally opposed to the ultra-wealthy getting their shit stolen i think that part is fine#i just don't think you should base a sizeable chunk of the city's long-term economic survival on having that as an income#gotham war#comics talk
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anyway i swept the leaves out of my garage and built a shelf and those two actions were enough to leave me too tired to do anything about the fact that now there are two shelves in my room that only has room for one of them
#ragsycon exclusive#inside you there are two shelves#one was the right depth but was made out of cheap particle board and was literally collapsing under the weight of all my books#the other is an industrial strength workshop shelf but the shelfs themselfs are too deep and now rigatoni's tank is entrenched in shadows#so i have to get a lighting system set up for my boy i guess#but i don't have the beans to go back out to the hardware store so i have to hack something together with what i have in my house#and my display shelf that was on my old shelf is now the top shelf of my new one which is higher than eye level#so i need to figure out some sort of riser system so i can see anything i even put up there#not to mention find a home for my old shelf#all this to say; i'm sitting here typing this instead of doing all that#because i'm tired#but i can't lie down because my bed is covered in half the shit i pulled off my old shelf and haven't put on the new one yet#march of the gladiators dot mp3
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yk. the resistance ppl have to so much as considering the idea that mike might not jump to immediately and enthusiastically engaging in obvious n indisputably gay shit with will publicly is kinda funny in a puzzling way when season three and season four, where he does exactly that the entire way through, are literally right there for us all to watch on netflix.com. like. Okay ❤️
#i get not liking angst. but it's not an insane idea. do you think it's a coincidence that mike quit touching will after season two? do you#think it was just for shits and giggles when he stopped himself from hugging will and put distance between them by ''bro''-ing#out and maintained that energy throughout the entire rest of the season until he finally got over it because he realized they were#in danger and will really needed his support? do i need to remind anyone of his season three + ongoing arc and the iconic legendary#lucas look my arm and it's not my fault you don't like girls moments?#no one HAS to write or entertain those ideas but to act like it's INSANE when we've seen him do literally just that already......#we all know mike's got a mean bite and that he is absolutely losing the fight rn to conformity like 😭 huh..#like even in AU contexts that gets thrown out as being preposterous. since s3 will has been the one trying to ''fight'' for#their friendship and in s4 we see him initiating contact and getting rebuffed so it's just like . dsfhbjkjhbdfkjhsbdkjfhbdkj#like do u get what i mean. why do people act like it's crazy that he'd ever be hesitant why is that never considered for even a second#why is will the one that's written as being resistant in every way!!!!!!#anyway. clasps my hands together. I Love Yelling At Clouds#byler#mine
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"this man, is weird.. CRAZY weird.." "he was always very bright.."
#i think abt this soo often u have no idea#no one understands them like i do.. sighh..#platonic or romantic idc There is something Happening there#this also implies that sammy doesn't hate norman/displays some form of positive feeling towards him#bc it's shown in canon that he doesn't rlly like many ppl in the studio#and despite sammy's descent into insanity norman still appreciated him for who he was#they way norman talks abt sammy in his first audio log feels so personal too#probably kicked his feet and giggled abt him idk man#like okaayy what u kno abt him pooks... something u wanna tell me.. twirls my hair/..#IM SO ILL OH MY GODDDDDDDD#CAN ANYONE HEAR ME#i could go on a full 2 hour youtube rant abt how tragic they are#both together and as separate people#and dont even get me STARTED on the reason for norman's heart obsession while in the cycle and why he collects them#UGGHHHHHHHH KICKS THE WALL PUNCHES THE FLOOR I HATE THE FLOOR#been mentally ill about them since 2017 ❤ we up#at least until my pea sized 8 yr old child brain found out normmy was a thing#finding that shitty ms paint ship art changed my life..#theyre literally my og otp 5eva nothing will top them ever#smushing their faces together like barbies type shit#i do wish they had some kind of interaction actual gameplay wise in batim (or even batdr)#idc what kind i just need to see them in the same room together interacting in some way#batim#bendy and the ink machine#normmy#sammy lawrence#norman polk#norman x sammy#rosey rambles#I LOVE DOOMED YAOI
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ive been unhealthily fixated on kubosai for the past few weeks, i just have no idea how to put it into words. kuboyasu aren and saiki kusuo are in love btw
#they are.#been thinking a lot about t*rusai and k*bosai and all three of them together#(really long rant in these tags that shouldve been a rant post but im not changing it soz i got carried away LMAO->)#see the thing is that k*bosai is my absolute favorite ship ever. but i get genuinely pissed when people smack talk t*rusai#idk like i get why people wouldnt ship kbs and i really dont care. and i also get that a lot of people have differing opinions and-#wont ship trsai. i honestly cant wrap my head around why (other than people who just hate teruhashi and are misogynistic) but im okay with-#agreeing to disagree and i dont care yk??#but people so often make these long discussion posts just yapping and yapping and making up shit about how trsa 'wouldnt work'#and its always just... actual complete bullshit. like unreadable word vomit.#sorry. but its true.#thats why it gets me so mad#i cant think of a single reason why you would feel the need to do that#why cant you be normal and just. not like a ship. just dont like it. hate it even. but dont make up shit just to shit on it#its so dumb i have to force myself to just scroll past them every time i encounter one#usually on tiktok or tumblr#if i read them i wont be able to stop myself from making the most concerned and upset noises ever cuz what is actually wrong with you#theyre always the biggest dumbest stretches ever and they ignore their actual development and pretend it didnt happen#it just makes me wonder why people are so okay with making fun of that ship but get mad if anyone even dislikes theirs#and then they complain about people 'shitting on their opinion'#LIKE ?? NOBODY CARES THAT U HATE THE SHIP. I CERTAINLY DONT GAF.#but ur in the main tags advertising ur hatred for it and sounding stupid as shit for no reason? UR SHITTING ON PEOPLES SHIP ON PURPOSE#AND THEN GETTING MAD AT ANYONE WHO EVEN SAYS 'i disagree actually' IM LAUGHING SO HARD STOP IM KILLING MYSELF#the one time i ever talked in that much detail about why i disliked a ship was bevause somebody specifically asked me#and yk what ?? i have literally gotten death threats over it. im not allowed to hate that ship but everyone else can do whatever i guess#okay sorry. rant over.#is that controversial i cant tell. i dont really care and im not tagging anyway#meows post
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au where lbd is not killed at the end of season 3, but instead stripped of her powers and effectively turned human. she'd get to see the world from a mortal's perspective and further understand mk and the others' notions regarding the world's imperfections. i also want her to work at pigsy's in place of mk when he's training or not present. and you can't tell me that she would find a favorite pass time after a while. she'll sound hypocritical insulting people's "sentimentality for mortal pleasures".
#lmk#lego monkie kid#lmk lbd#lmk lady bone demon#lego monkie kid lbd#lego monkie kid lady bone demon#jin shut up#lbd lmk#lady bone demon lmk#lbd lego monkie kid#lady bone demon lego monkie kid#i've been obsessed with her having a redemption arc/second wind since season 3 came out#i actually need one#please please please#and no sorry the mayor does not get shit in this au#where did he go#remember when we thought he was one of the ten kings?#he's mortal now so he doesn't matter#guess he'll die /ref#what if he just becomes the mayor for real#and not just wearing a suit and having mei be justifiably skeptical of him#i mean like actually being responsible for the city#in the au lbd feels bad for abandoning him since he was like the one person she had on her side for the longest time#maybe they should reunite in my au#but they don't date or anything#they literally just do nothing but together#he was literally her hype man in season 3#i want that#but they're both mortal#and he just encourages her to be a little shit
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going back to drawing feels so scary because it's confronting myself and what i am and what i failed and making peace with the fact that my life fucking sucks and i'm a failure who is rotting in poverty under fascism and occupation and that i'm too deep into my head and too overwhelmed with my shame to recognize it all and strive to be better instead of feeling like i need a gun to my head and a bullet to hit me straight in the brain.
huh. anyways
#personal tag#couldn't fall asleep last night because i was thinking of th ecommission i promised to finish back in JULY...#it's almost december.#literally ready to send the person who ordered it all the money back and my head as an apology#like logically i know i need to just get myself together and finish shit#and instead i wallow in self-pity and fear and want to tear myself apart for being a bad person#nobody cares just finish the drawing oh my gooood#literally a bullet to the head could fix me
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i can tolerate a lot of things from writers and showrunners but outright condescension and disdain for their fans is not one of them
#ted lasso#ted lasso critical#tedbecca#i didn’t like it from rian johnson and i sure as shit don’t like it from the ted lasso showrunners#i didn’t think tedbecca was going to be canon (and honestly didn’t care one way or the other)#(as in my enjoyment of the show was not hinging on tedbecca being canon. i was there for sam dani and nate first and foremost.)#but that 3.12 opening felt very meanspirited for a show that’s all about being curious and not judgmental#like if they felt so strongly about platonic tedbecca and KNEW they would never get together#what was the deal with playing coy when they were asked about that for the last two years#everyone involved could have just shut it down a la tina fey right away and we wouldn’t have this problem#i just don’t like ppl (fans and creators alike) laughing at the tedbeccas for picking up the pieces that the showrunners were putting down!#hunt and sudeikis and everyone in that room basically dangled a carrot for the last two years#and now they’re denying the carrot even existed#which does not sit right with me#also (hot take) but if the finale opened by mocking tedtrent fans and not tedbeccas y’all would (rightfully) be up in arms#the writers are adults and did not need to waste parts of the literal series finale punching down at a section of fans#whose worst crime was being annoying
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Rewatching act 2.... yeah ISHA WATCH OUT FOR THE CYCLE ISHA!!!!! NOOOOO
#ambessa setting up the logs on a fireplace while literally adding fuel to the fire with cailtyn... subtelty#silco spent his whole life trying to rile the undercity together STUPID JOKE THAT IT IS you have the chance to pull it off#isha is the true revolutionary after all... jinx get up to her level#was jinx scared of having hallucinations when the girl she released was gonna touch her shoulder??? and then she didn't#what i find really funny is that warwick knows how to use elevators and that funicular to the prison#also there is a lot of blood when he appears in the prison.... it was surprising#vander recognizing jinx with the name of powder after she complained about it eariler its just crazy crazy crazy#people commenting that its unrealistic how caitlyn bests vi when they meet in episode 6 as if there wasn't a montage about how she lost her#edge because of alcohol and living like shit.... she's not like jinx lmao....#rewatching so recently is so weird i imagine it is as close as being dr manhattan as i can get it is literally happening all at once#also the people of piltover are so dumb... lets let the government implement martial law and put this 20 something with 0 political#experience on charge with the army of this outsider agent. alright. i can tell you guys dont vote in this oligarchy you know fuck all#well i guess in that case it isnt the people of piltovers fault... just the important families that contribute in this oligarchy...#putting count fagula in charge.... salo is speciallt dumb but we all knew that#katie leung needs awards btw.... and interviews#“do not test this or you will yearn for caitlyn's dungeons” be careful singed my friend vi fell for that and look at her... her dungeons...#vander reaching for isha not jinx.... OR VI.... she just stopped him#“hes gonna kill you” and vi fighting vander to protect jinx.... yeah#and then she trusts jinx and the beast turns into vander... he serves as a recognizing tool for their true selves...#their mom being so worried about how to name vi and then names the second one POWDER kahdksjsk never not funny... also the barber of zaun#when vi joins with jayce she unlocks this loser flop aspect of her mother's inheritance.... two losers joining to maximize their joint flop#also vander kinda giving up this promise to protect the girls instead of bettering zaun... how it puts him in a standstill bc it's either or#like damn there is nothing as undoing as a daughter for reals. she didnt experience that bc she died so now vander has to and here we are#episide 6 starts with the end of the episode when viktor drops that metal piece..... hello..... is this anything#“do you think this place could work” underground utopia.... DYNASTIES AND DYSTOPIA FEAR IS NEVER AN OPTION SO DYING'S NOT A REAL PROBLEM#didnt ambessa suspect anything when they spent loke a full minite staring at each other 😭😭 she's lost her edge...#just like when she clocked sevika but not jinx... when there's a strong butch in the area her radar gets jammed up#and caitlyn leaving her weapon behind... ambessa thought she was gonna fistfight warwick or something#the metal thing falling when viktor dies repeats THREE TIMES WHAT DOES THAT MEAN#watching arcane season 2
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*touches screen dramatically* v5 is almost here...
#Im a faker i havent caught up on the post game story at ALL i just know we all eat shit and die and some stuff happens in between there /hj#anyways i was gonna go to sleep then i saw that axez was literally updating the v5 section on the site as i was closing out discord so now#I have the zoomies or something#rahhhhhhhh i need to catch up on the story#I dont know if i have the energy right now with school and work to replay the whole game Again esp untranslated but i know enough to watch#someone else play it prabably#sig blinks now btw at least in the first two cutscenes which is mindblowing news /silly#axez animate my scenes too right meow /silly#the real answer is i need to get not scared enough to talk in the big m04 server but that's... perhaps i shant...#I just lurk like a little bug. a little bachi buggg. anyways#mutuals you should totally add me on discord i stole our hosts account we can be silly about numa game together /nf#status noir#🕶️ posting
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Library volunteering is so chill today because there's no one here like at all earlier there was like 1 kid who actually needed help and his little sister and I just hung out and she had no homework to do but was just messing around on the computer and she was like what's your name I'm gonna Google you and I said Juniper and she searches juniper and really excitedly goes OMG .. Juniper tree...Juniper bush...Juniper APARTMENTS? you're FAMOUS!!! 😯 and it was so funny then she searched "Juniper the person" and was extremely annoyed that I wasn't coming up because the first thing that comes up when you Google that is a 13th century Italian friar
#i love kids so much man i really cant wait to go back to working with them full time i just couldnt handle ece anymore but in a different#capacity. literally its my#number 1 dream at this point to be like an elementary school librarian i just need to get my shit together#she was 8 and i swear 8 year olds are just my favorite age to work with theyre always sooo fucking funny#but we get a lot of middle schoolers in too and i honestly love working with them too even though#most people lack patience for them but they respond really well when you just treat them like people generally speaking#i dont think i could ever actually teach middle or high school in the us but high school in austria was lowkey chill asf too#to teach i mean i didnt attend it there#but k-8 is where its at for me i love chilling with kids in that age range so much
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#a part of me is like I should just shut my phone off around like 7pm and go straight to bed and pretend like nothing historic is happening#another part of me is like I NEED TO KNOW#but like if- IF- shit goes to hell and I’m aware of it I literally have to get up and go to work with even more existential dread than usual#ugh at least we’re all suffering together?#punk gets mail
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