#literally didn't even include stuff that is not necessary for the context

[didiwaffles]

good lore, good lore.. i absolutely adore multiverses and immortals having arguments that last millions of years! this is so awesome

now that i know who devi is, i want to circle back and ask a bit more about eva

what were her lives before rebirth? how was she even made? what powers did she have?

thanks you for answering my silly questions about your characters 🙏

- void anon

It's such a pleasure to me I can do it all day if you let me

Actually, we do not need to circle back for that, we can just move forward from where I stopped the last time. Before we move on to Eva, I need to establish a few things that led to her birth.

There's a few things that happened in about a few hundred thousands to a million of years between the moment the Monster was sealed and when Devi left Afiar.

As I mentioned, she created 5 Elemental Spirits who went on to restore the world.

Amenir - the Spirit of Air - created a flying castle made of air for Devi.

Devi resqued Emi - a girl who lost everyone she ever knew as well as everyone of her race to the Monster's awakening.

Next few hundred years Emi spent in a hybernation, after which she went on to restore her kind and with time created an army of soldiers devoted to serving Devi. (Not like Devi was a huge fan of that at first, but she let Emi and the others do whatever they wanted.)

Devi made continuous efforts to change Darinir's mind about herself, but it was in vain.

Whenever she could, she spent her time helping people in need, protecting the weak, and fighting off anyone who posed a threat.

The rest of the time she spent on her own, with time creating two other Spirits - Rudy (the Spirit of Time - or rather a tiny fluffy fox squirrel) and Nirali (the Spirit of Art and everything that falls under the category of talent and inspiration) to keep her company. They will become the closest to her, and will remain by her side even when she will have many other friends in the future.

With time, Devi became quite bored of this routine. So she thought of something fun to do. Since she didn't remember ever having a childhood, she wanted to experience that for herself. She didn't consult anyone on that - not her mother, not her enemies, not her children. She just put Emi before the fact - she was going to be reborn as a human child in some other world. She took Nirali with her, merging their souls together so she'd always be by Devi's side, while left Rudy behind. It wasn't meant to take long. After all she intended to come back once she was 20 or something.

Thousands of years passed. She never returned. Everyone looked for her, but she was nowhere to be found.

Obviously something went wrong.

In the preparation to be reborn, Devi left her body and her soul traveled around the universe, in search of a good place to reborn in. Now, remember I mentioned that a piece of Afiar that flew out when the Monster awakened would form into a separate world that would go on to create an anomaly zone? Devi accidentally flew by and got caught up in it. It did quite a few things.

First, it suppressed her power. She was no longer in control of what was happening.

Then, when she was trying to fight it, her mind fractured and split her personality into 3 parts. One was the "Devi of Light" (I'm using such a wording intentionally, she's not the "good" and the other one is not the "bad" Devi, that matters), Rodari, who inherited Devi's wings, which became white with her. The other one was the "Devi of Darkness", Diano, who took the crack from Devi's eye. The third one was Devi herself, what was left of her.

As the result, she lost her memories once again.

As she was reborn, luckily to Devi, everyone inside of her - Diano, Rodari, the Monster, and even Nirali - were put into slumber. Nirali would wake up rather quickly though, but would realize she's trapped inside of Devi's mind, who didn't remember anything and was just like an actual human child.

As Devi grew up, she would often end up creating fantasies in her head. Between toxic family relationships, having no friends, and stressful school stuff, it was her only gateway. There was only one problem. The anomaly did drain all the magic it came in contact with, but what it also did was it made the fantasy of people inside the world affect the rest of the universe. Characters from the books were coming alive in a newly born world somewhere far away, far from the reach of its creator. But that was even more true for Devi. Because even though she lost her memory, she didn't lose her power, and even though it was constantly drained, that wasn't enough to rid of it completely. And the fact that Devi didn't know it existed didn't mean she wasn't using it unconsciously. So, unbeknownst to her, her fantasies were affecting the entire universe. Everything she were thinking about was coming true outside the anomaly. And not only did she affect the future, she also affected the past. She created the fates of people... who she already met. But she didn't remember them. I'm talking about Ula and Lana. She crafted a story of their lives... that she already knew. Just didn't remember. But those two weren't the only ones. There were 7 people she affected directly, and many more - indirectly. One of those 7 was Riam.

I already went on a big enough of a tangent, so I will skip laying out Devi and Riam's relationship. What matters is Devi heavily influenced his very existence, but some stuff remain hidden even from her. Eventually, she got caught up in her own fantasies so badly, that she completely fell in love with her own mind's creation - that is to say, Riam. So one evening when she was especially lonely, she unconsciously completely overpowered the anomaly and just teleported Riam to herself.

Again I will not go into the details of their relationships now, what matters is they fell in love, and after figuring out that finding out how to get out of the world they both ended in might take a bit, they eventually married. And during their honeymoon, Devi got pregnant.

That's how Eva was born.

Now, I will shift to her story.

When Eva was born, Nirali - who was practically her older sister - planted a kiss on her forehead. Being the Spirit, what that did was it blessed Eva with extraordinary talent. Combined with her father's genes, Eva developed extremely quickly. By one year old she could already read with no problems, and by three she could solve simple math problems. When she went to school, she was far ahead of her peers, and what ended up happening is that she would be let to do whatever she wanted in class, as long as she aced all her tests. And of course she did. Devi also made sure Eva had several tutors who would teach her in accordance to her level of development. Once Eva was a bit older, she agreed that it was better than shoving her in the higher grades with more grown up kids or depriving her of socialization by tutoring her at home. As for changing schools into a more advanced one, Devi debated doing that... But there was one slight problem with that.

When Eva was 6, she got two twin little brothers.

As they were growing up, they looked and acted absolutely identical to each other. Even their own parents couldn't tell them apart when they were in matching closes. For some reason, Eva was the only one who could always tell them apart. Consequentially, she was the only one that could put a stop on their twin antics.

But fast forward to the time Eva would go on to graduate. Even though no one doubted her ability to ace the final exam, that was still pretty stressful, and the stress only multiplied with what was happening at home.

After almost 20 years of searching and trying everything she could even think of, Devi finally was able to create a portal out of the world they were in. Funnily enough, it came to her in a dream. She tried her best to replicate it, but she must've messed it up in several places because the portal barely opened. But that was enough for something to grab Riam and shove him inside, after which it closed immediately. At first Devi was incredibly happy. She tried to achieve that for so long! But slowly her happiness faded as she came to the realization, "...But what about me..?"

Devi quickly spiraled down into a deep depression, and Eva had to choose between staying by her side to help her through it and preparing for her own exams, while also taking care of her brothers. But she managed through it and successfully passed her final exam. And when she came back to share the news...

Devi's pain was so unbearable that she unconsciously tore through the fabric of reality, completely overpowering the anomaly, and creating a portal. But when the answer was right before her, she hesitated. She couldn't just go in and leave her children behind. At the same time, they had their own lives and aspirations, Eva was almost an adult, with Paul and Pete already being teens. Forcing them down the path she wanted to go didn't feel right either. But they still needed to be taken care of, she couldn't just abandon them. But she couldn't stay either, not when she had that chance, she would go on to regret it for the rest of her life.

That's where Eva found her when she returned home. And she didn't need any words to understand what was going on. Then, she encouraged Devi to leave them and go, promising that she'll take care of the boys, and when they will be ready, they will somehow find a way to find her. She didn't really think that far ahead, she just knew that if her mom stayed, she'd be deeply unhappy. Devi didn't have time to think for too long, and just before the portal closed, she went into it.

But the task that Eva assumed upon herself was not an easy one. By then, the twins who used to be indistinguishable started showing signs of separating into two completely different people, and losing both of their parents made them develop completely different personalities.

Much like Eva, Paul understood mother's decision. He trusted both Devi and Eva with their decisions. But Pete... He didn't take it well at all. He was angry. Angry that his parents abandoned him, and he vented his frustration on none other than Eva. He criticized her cooking, comparing to how Devi used to do it, he criticized her for not having a job, despite them not having problems with money, criticized her for not cleaning the house. Eva understood his frustration so she didn't stop him, but Paul wasn't taking that, and the two of them were constantly fighting over everything now. But Paul understood that Eva also wasn't all that happy that Devi left, and with the university she just got in on top of that, the last thing she needed was chores and quarrels at home. He tried to do everything he could, but Pete was just making everything more difficult than it needed to be.

That went on until both boys hit 15. By then, both of them knew what they wanted to do in life. Pete has decided to be a professional musician, and as soon as he could, he left to study in the music college, making sure he let it be known that he doesn't want anything to do with his family anymore. By that time Eva went on to study for her future master's degree in chemistry. As for Paul, he had an obsession of his own. All he wanted was to protect Eva. So he went on his own path, going to the military academy.

Now that I laid out the kinda dynamic the three have and what they've been doing with their lives, I'll quickly go through the rest that happened there.

Eva graduated with the master's degree in chemistry, and went on to own her own lab where she started working on finding something that could create a portal so they could reunite with their parents.

Paul graduated the college and went on to serve in the military.

After that he went on to the military university and studied there in the air force department.

Sometimes they would do street patrols, and in one of such days Paul happened to pass by Eva's lab. He immediately noticed something was wrong. By a pure coincidence, exactly at the time he was passing through there, something went array in the lab, and just a moment after Paul thought something was off, there was a massive explosion. Eva was inside.

By an order of their captain, cadets helped evacuate people, but Paul was concerned since he couldn't find Eva. Eventually the fire got too strong, and Paul disobeyed orders completely and went inside.

Eva made sure everyone was evacuated, but by that time she inhaled too much toxins and passed out in the fire. Paul got to her in time to grab her and jump out of the window before there was another massive explosion that would've killed them both.

They both were sent to ER. Paul suffered from mild intoxication, light burns, and he also sprained his ankle when landing. Eva suffered much more heavily. She fell into a coma.

For more than a year Eva remained unconscious, and Paul made sure to stay by her side at all cost. His studying was paused for as long as he needed. Eventually, Eva woke up. Paul held a huge grudge against Pete for not showing up even once.

Paul would go on to finish the university, and Eva continued working on her research. They barely saw each other, and as soon as Paul graduated he was mobilized as a war broke right about that time.

He went on to pilot a fighter jet on the front lines, and nearly died. His body was never found, and he was declared missing.

Eva was going crazy worrying about him, while Pete as always showed miracles of compassion and care, just shy of celebrating his brother's death.

Paul survived though and returned home on his own two. He would be later awarded a medal since his feat practically turned the tide of the war.

Once the war was over, Paul didn't retire, instead he went on to be Eva's personal bodyguard. He ensured the lab's safety and protected her when she was awarded for her achievements in the field of chemistry.

Eventually, she achieved her goal. She created an essence that could turn a mirror into a portal. She couldn't control the destination, but it could bypass the anomaly's borders, and they could figure it out from there. Pete refused to go with them, but Eva left an extra bottle of that essence for him if he ever changed his mind.

From then on, Eva and Paul quickly reunited with Devi, and found out it's been many thousand years for her. At that point in time, Devi still hadn't recovered her memory, but she was already pretty strong.

A whole new world was open before them. For Paul it was simple - she went wherever Eva went. And Eva went everywhere - she wanted to try everything. Eventually she settled on two things. First, she became a succubus. And second, she became obsessed with fighting. She used to fight as a child, and seeing her mom being strong and beautiful, she wanted to be just as strong as her.

Eva made good progress, quickly becoming third strongest person in the universe - right after her parents (though it's questionable who made that list to begin with.) And then it happened.

As I mentioned before, Devi had a lot on her shoulders. Not remembering her past, she already defeated one enemy, and another one showed up right after, and she didn't even know why they were so determined to kill her. The truth was those two were sent after her... by her own mother.

Anorava gave them a fraction of her power and wanted one thing in exchange - find Devi and do anything they had to but restore her memories. But Darkness was a wicked power, and given to those who were too weak, it corrupted their minds. And Alphonse completely forgot what was the reason he was fighting Devi - but unable to overpower her it seeded a deep hatred for her in his heart.

Alas, Devi was oblivious to this. She was just tired. She already suffered one heartbreak, and another one that shattered her soul in pieces completely, and she barely was able to recover. She thought that if Alphonse was so determined to kill her then if she died he'll rest easy. So she left the protection of the universe to Eva, and went to Heavens.

First of all, she got bored really quickly there. She did have her rest, but quickly realized that she would absolutely dread spending an eternity there.

But that was the least of her problems. Because there was someone who really didn't like her being dead, aside from her friends.

Eva thought she was ready to face any opponent, but she was absolutely unprepared for how wicked and insane Alphonse was. He didn't want Devi dead. No, he wanted to kill her. And surely Devi will come back if he hurts something really precious to her. And he knew nothing was more precious to her than her family.

All he did was he burned Eva's eyes out. Completely. Along with her eyelids. The pain was so agonizing that Eva's own scream ruptured her eardrums, and after a while she lost her voice too. She would regain her voice eventually, but never - ears and eyes. And as if that wasn't enough, he branded Eva's soul. That way, even if she somehow managed to restore her eyes, she was destined to lose them. Again, and again, and again. No matter what she did, no matter how hard she tried, she could return her speech, even her ears - with enough miracle - but never her eyes. Not for long at least.

To say that Devi was mad - to say nothing. She was furious, and also hurt. She would never stop blaming herself for what happened to Eva. And she was incredibly angry. Alphonse achieved his goal - Devi returned to the world of the living. But contrary to his expectations she didn't go on to fight him - first thing she did was making sure Eva wasn't going to do anything to herself.

When all that happened, Eva was left completely alone in the darkness. Saw nothing, heard nothing, only felt pain. Wanted to cry but tears wouldn't come out. She even forgot there was an enemy in front of her - not like he cared about her at all.

But soon enough she felt first touch. Someone grabbed her by the shoulders and slightly shook. She instinctively recoiled, and the touch stopped. Recognized it clearly wasn't an enemy, she reached forward and grabbed the shirt. Big warm hand gently laid over her hand. She skimmed through everyone she knew to figure out who that hand belong to. Figured out it can't be anyone but Paul, she relaxed.

Only when she lost her most important senses did she truly come to appreciate how much Paul cared about her. He carried her home, treated her injuries, applied bandages, and held her hand as she fell asleep. In the situation where she lost everything - he was the sunshine in the complete darkness that she needed to not give up completely. And then Devi came right into her mind, making her feel like the world around her still existed, like it was not all destroyed when she lost her senses.

Devi made sure Eva was still mentally stable, and went on helping her learn how to stop relying on her eyes and ears to live. Not like Devi knew how to. She had to bullshit her way through it, learning herself as she went. Because she knew that if she doesn't, she might lose Eva.

Thanks to her efforts, pretty quickly Eva became much more aware of her surroundings. She became more sensitive to smells, vibrations, and touch. The latter was also making her feel pain more strongly. Her voice slowly returned, a bit hoarse, but she could speak, though couldn't hear herself. Gradually she learned to identify the energy flow around her and translate it into a complete picture inside her head. And in next millions of years of practice she would even go as far as to be able to decipher the sound vibrations and understand speech without actually hearing it. Being forced in such a situation made her a true master of "seeing without eyes, hearing without ears", even Devi could not reach her level of mastery.

Devi tried everything she could to return Eva's eyes and ears. And if with ears it went well, Eva always lost her eyes, one way or another, no matter what, and then always decided to rid of ears to, just because she was used to get by without both. But no matter how much times she said that that's how she prefers it, deep inside she knew she wanted to be able to see. Even if the truth was that without eyes and ears she was stronger than with them, she was willing to trade that for the ability to see her mother, her brother... and of course, her son.

But that was not all. Because even after Alphonse was defeated and gone seemingly forever, he kept living in Devi's, and especially so in Eva's nightmares.

[jakei95]

[Post in English] Something Nyx and I want to publicly address, regarding the recent allegations in the Glitchtale Crew's Discord Server and it's moderators. I really apologize for the upcoming wall of text. These are our Twitter threads I have pasted them here, in case you don't have access to said platform. I have also added some additional notes to provide more context. All details under the line:

NyxTheShield: (Transcription from his official twitter thread) I read some mean comments lately and I just wanna be super clear: I havent been related to Glitchtale since at least 2022. I never considered myself part of the community and went through some much shit while doing stuff for it that my mental health was completely destroyed.

For people who thought I was an admin of the server, that was just in paper. I was constantly de-admin'd, demodded and kicked from the server through the years for simple stuff like asking the rest of the mod team to not say slurs or standing up against the Midnight Crew. I personally left the server for a long while because I really did not want to be around some of the people there. All of this happened years ago (from 2016~ to around 2020). On the early years, my full income came from Youtube/Glitchtale. I was a broke college student and my economic stability depended on it. Despite this, and making literally hundred of tracks and hours of music for the series, most of the income came from my own ad revenue. I was paid less than 2000 USD for all of the work. Essentially, I was paid in exposure.

This wouldn't have been an issue for me if at least I got to keep my artistic vision with the series. That didn't hold true for long.

From the second season and onwards, and in multiple instances, I would score the entire OST for the episode, watch the episode when it released, and then find out a completely new section of the episode (usually a battle scene) with music from somebody else This was completely demotivating to me because I wasn't being paid, the tracks would not fit the rest of the OST at all, and most of the income I made from the battle scenes. I had to work for weeks trying to compose music for glorified powerpoint presentations (Basically everything that's not a battle scene on the series was just still frames of characters barely moving) and do all the heavy lifting and I wasn't even let known about the guest tracks.

This added to the feeling of having absolutely no power within the community. I don't know if this was intentional or not (I don't wanna presume malice), but all of these things together contributed to me distancing myself from the community.

Honestly, there is A LOT more shit that went down these early years that are extremely traumatic to me that I would prefer to not talk about unless completely necessary, but I feel this is a good amount of context for what I wanna talk about next.

As you might be aware, extremely serious (and true) allegations were made against Camila and his partner, Veir, which was accused of grooming minors from 2015 to 2021 There are really good videos out there explaining the entire timeline of what transpired, but I specifically wanna talk about 2020.

(Jakei's note: Links to said videos are here: [1] [2] [3])

In that year, a public document was made by my head mod CrystalFlame alongside 2 other mods in the GT server, that exposed Veir and their actions. This document went mostly unnoticed. Even more, Crystal went through a lot of abuse for coming forward about their abuse and was almost ostracized from the UT AU community because of this.

Because of this, I was asked directly by one of the victims (and also representing the other victims) to please not speak up (Citing that they just wanted to move on and didn't want to involve themselves with more problems and expose themselves)

All the info was kept very vague from me, including the people who were involved, the extent of the stuff that went down, etc But I knew enough to know it was serious. I followed their request and didn't speak up publicly about this, but I banned Veir from my server, warned all of my mods and people close to me in those circles about Veir, and constantly tried to get Camila to please adress the situation. Despite this, she did not listen and we all know how stuff went down later in 2022, where the allegations came back again with full force. This time around I wasnt asked to stay silent so I spread the word around and confronted the entire mod team. I was shortly banned after that.

I needed to address this because this thing has been eating me alive for years. I was intentionally kept in the dark about a lot of context and nuance that would have completely changed my mind about speaking up or not about what happened in 2020.

Everything is easier in retrospective, and with the knowledge I now have about the situation I know for a fact that I would have spoken up about all that happened. But being asked directly to not speak up by the victims was something that goes against what I am Sorry for the long rant, but I really needed to get this off my chest. I am tired of having to deal with this kind of stuff. As a content creator/public figure I am trying my hardest to keep the communities I am active in as safe as possible.

I feel I could have done more for the Glitchtale community regarding the grooming situation, but all of the years of abuse that I endured really fucked up my judgement. I am not very good at dealing with people and I always trust the people close to help me for this kind of stuff

Sadly, in this case, those same people who were close to me were also the victims, so they couldnt have known or had a way to help me out, I should have helped them instead. Most if not all of what was described in this thread is backed up by screenshots, chat logs, and direct testimony from the people who were involved during this time.

I don't want to direct hate to anyone or start a witchhunt, I am doing this purely to decompress a bit and try to vent some of the trauma I experienced all these years.

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Jakei: (Transcription from my official twitter thread) I would also like to share my experiences about my relationship with the Glitchtale Creator, Camila Cuevas. Publicly, we appeared as close friends, but in reality, that friendship was based on bullying and mistreatment, and this affected my mental health deeply.

Years have passed, and the memories still cause me pain. I decided to remain silent, but after the revelations of grooming cases in her community, I realized I wasn’t being too sensitive. The time has come to speak up about my experiences.

During the early years of Underverse, I was dealing with a serious depressive episode. Simultaneous internal and external pressures as an independent artist amplified my mental strain. Meeting Camila felt like finding a genuine friend who shared my passion for the fandom and understood the struggles of being a content creator amidst toxicity. At my lowest, I became compliant to doing things that I didn’t want to, just to keep people around me happy. For Camila, this meant allowing her to belittle my work and make me the butt of her jokes.

Only our veteran followers may remember the 'roasting games' between us on Tumblr (consisting of mutual insults), a spectacle where she'd always win. However, it was a game she privately forced me to "play" and I ended up accepting, despite the discomfort it caused me. These 'games' would give her a cool and strong image in the fandom while painting me as the dumb, 'cringe-worthy' friend. In essence, I became her personal punching bag, unknowingly reinforcing his reputation.

Camila's favorite term to demean my series 'Underverse' was “Cancerverse”. It felt like a constant contest where she'd always position herself as the superior writer and animator simply because my story and animation techniques didn't fit her standards. Years of being subjected to her ridicule left my self-esteem in ruins. I was okay with the negative feedback by some fans, but when my 'friend' publicly disrespected my art, it made me question my abilities as an artist.

I can't deny there were times when she gave me advice to deal with hate or hurtful comments. However, her damaging comments and treatment outweighed those moments of support.

My depressive state worsened around July 2017, where I had accepted people pushing me to do things I wasn’t comfortable with, while being part of Camila's demeaning games, just to appease her ego. I was introduced to Nyx during this time, he offered his music for my series, and eventually we started dating. We met in person in Chile, where I also met Camila. I hoped our friendship would strengthen but everything felt the same. Before I moved to Chile with Nyx, Camila reached out to me in dms, attempting to turn me against him because he opposed the use of slurs in the GT server. She claimed Nyx was being 'brainwashed' by his American friends belonging to the black and LGBTQ+ communities. She made fun of my dating choices, suggesting I was entering a toxic relationship, while showing off her relationship with her then-boyfriend (later exposed as a pedophile). She even quoted her own mother assuring me that Nyx would 'get back to normal', and if it didn’t happen, she would let me live in her house, almost like if she was telling me that Nyx would hurt me or make me feel miserable.

It only took Nyx 3 months to realize that the GT server was going in the wrong way. I initially felt compelled to defend Camila due to my inferiority complex, but soon realized Nyx was right. (Jakei's note: Not only Nyx was right, a lot of people that called her out over the years were right, yet they were not listened to at the time)

Even then, I found it difficult to distance myself from Camila due to the false sense of obligation I felt towards her. My fear of her making fun of my work kept me from interacting with others in the short period of time I stayed in her Discord server. I was afraid that she and her echo chamber would talk behind my back, something that I found out was happening in private chats until recent years.

Rebuilding my self-esteem wasn't an easy task. I began noticing the red flags – Camila's lack of respect not only for me but Nyx also, the emotional manipulation Nyx was suffering from Veir (something he used to do all the time with his other victims), her attempts to 'roast' me in front of her family and fans in the Underverse/Glitchtale meetings, and her constant criticism of my artstyle not being compatible to hers in the few collabs we made.

All these 'small' instances, dismissed as insignificant by many, caused me immense pain while treating my depression. I felt it was too late to express how I felt, as I feared being labeled as attention-seeking or oversensitive by her and her fanbase. Ironically, the moment she talked about her traumas after being bullied in the past, her feelings were the only ones that mattered any time she was involved in a problematic situation in the fandom and deserved to be the only to get pats in the back.

I never expected a sincere apology, as I was convinced she didn't remember or didn't care about the hurt she caused. I tried to maintain a facade of good terms with her, both publicly and privately. Eventually, I distanced myself from her, unfriending her and banning her from my own server even if she didn't interact there. I started focusing on my own work and the people who appreciated it. Despite this, the aftermath of the bullying continued to affect me.

Everything fell into place when the grooming accusations against her former boyfriend and server mods came to light. It was a shocking revelation, but it validated all my doubts and fears about her. The purpose of sharing my experiences is not to stir up drama, but to address the concerns of those worried about my association with Camila. I want to make it clear that I will never tolerate such behavior. Although the things I did for her in the past cannot be erased, I hope Camila at least deletes the animation remake I did for her and all the collabs that boosted her views for free, though I'm not optimistic about it happening.

As I've matured, my hope is that she and her crew learn from their mistakes, start behaving like adults, and take responsibility for their actions in their future projects and with their new followers. But I'm skeptical about any real change, especially if their server continues to exist. The best course of action for me was to cut all ties with Camila and Glitchtale.

NyxTheShield (now my husband) and I have endured too much from our treatment by Camila. We no longer want to be associated with her or Glitchtale. It's a chapter of our lives that we wish to close. It's time for us to focus on recovering our mental health, as remaining silent is only prolonging our pain. We have been working to improve our mental and physical health over the past few years and this is a crucial part of our healing process.

[kandadze]

The death of the nameless guard in FoF ep 1

I was planning on including this in my bigger meta on deaths in FoF, especially since it's shown in juxtaposition to the death of the bunny demon WX caught earlier in the episode, but seeing that I'm here anyway...

I think that especially on the first watch, this senseless death, basically a kill in cold blood to make a point, is understandably considered a serious flaw in ZYZ's characterization overall. I also think that on the first watch, and in the very first episode, we're *supposed* to be disturbed by this. We're *supposed* to sit there with our mouths gaping open, going, what the fuck, man? Because in ep 1, ZYZ is supposed to look and feel and *be* the villain. We shouldn't forget that this is a powerful being who ZYC must hate for a good reason; oh sure he folds like a wet tissue when WX knifes him later, hahaha, great demon who? but she's the only one he allows to treat him like this, and we need to remember how terrifying this guy could be, if he chose to - he can literally kill someone by crooking his finger at them.

Cool motive still murder? Sure it is. The great demon killed a human being in cold blood. A few blocks down the road, the Chongwu Camp killed a defenseless bunny demon, also in cold blood.

Now what I didn't quite think of on my first watch, but realize is pretty obvious now, is that we need to look at the context of where we are when ZYZ makes his point so drastically, which will help us realize that there's (at least) one key difference between the bunny and the nameless guard (or at least the one difference I'm going to focus on). Our nameless guard is *not* a defenseless petty criminal, or a random human who just waltzed in from the street. (Like, y'know, not to look far, those patients who stepped into WZY's clinic that just happened to be situated above a dungeon full of captive demons.) He's a guy who signed up to work for a Demon Hunting Bureau. His *job* is to hunt - and often to kill, no doubt - demons. Right at the time ZYZ taunts ZYC with his powers, this guard, along with 15 others, is at the ready to step in and help ZYC to subdue the great demon, by any means necessary. Our nameless guard should know the risks of this line of job - how easy it is to turn from hunter to prey; heck, he probably signed a Tiandu equivalent of a safety waiver.

So, was this guy's death untimely? Sure it was. Was it senseless? No more than the bunny's. The difference is, even so early in the story, and painted as the villain, ZYZ didn't kill a civilian. For all intents and purposes, he killed a fantasy equivalent of a border patrol officer, who was ready to kill *him*.

(I have more thoughts but I think I got my point across. Off to gif stuff.)

[mintedwitcher]

Okay, I'm not gonna lie, some of the opinions I've been seeing about The Giggle are... getting to me, so here are my thoughts:

(ETA: not including any of my thoughts about the Master because this got WAY longer than I expected it to and if I talk about the Master on this it'll become an essay.)

"It's a repeat of Tentoo!" No, it isn't. Not even remotely. The bi-generation was a release of trauma. A release from all the guilt and pain and anguish that the Doctor has been suffering (even more so lately) ever since he started running. The bi-generation was not "lol let's just throw in a double for old times' sake!", it was about healing. It was about growth, and comfort for a heavily traumatised character.

Tentoo was a genetic mishap that never should've existed, and only came about due to unusual and rare circumstances, and ended with devastating consequences. Tentoo added to the Doctor's trauma and guilt, because that's another genocide under his belt, under his name. That's another person - and another civilisation - that he couldn't save. And we don't know what Tentoo got up to in the parallel earth. We assume that he lived happily with Rose, but that's not a guarantee. Look how quick he was to turn to such mass-scale violence in The Journey's End, do you really think that he wouldn't do the same again if he found himself or his family under threat on Earth 2?

Tentoo is Ten's rage. Fifteen is the Doctor healing from all that rage. The two are not the same, narratively or characteristically.

Next: the Companion Roll Call. "Martha wasn't mentioned!" Martha came before Donna, the Toymaker was recounting what happened after Donna. Martha also - as we saw in Ten's farewell tour - was not working for UNIT by the time her story wrapped up. So no, of course she wasn't mentioned. She was not immediately relevant. (Don't bring out the pitchforks yet, just listen.) Yes, it's sad that she didn't get a mention, but looking at it in context makes sense. Martha had the least to lose when she left the TARDIS for good. She didn't die, her entire family is alive (albeit traumatised, as Martha herself is), she was engaged in The Poison Sky/The Sontaran Stratagem, and married to Mickey by the end of The Last of the Time Lords. She was okay. Of all the Doctor's companions, Martha had the happiest possible ending. She was FINE. Look at the context.

You know who else was not mentioned? River Song, as in, the Doctor's literal wife, whose life with the Doctor was evidently just brushed aside with Donna saying that a normal, settled life is "the one adventure you've never had." River and the Doctor lived together for twenty four years. Before that, the Doctor spent eight hundred years, living on Trenzalore, protecting the town of Christmas. He's had a 'normal', settled life before. He has settled and stayed in one place before, more than once, and yet that got brushed aside without a single mention. That bothered me more than anything else, but that might be because I'm also rewatching Twelve's run at the moment, so it's front and centre in my brain.

Now that's all said. Let me get on to the stuff I liked about the special.

First, the bi-generation. I loved it. What a beautiful, brilliant way to reset such an old character. Fifteen feels fresh in a way that none of the past regenerations have felt, in my opinion, and it was beautiful to see the Doctor being so fully and joyfully embraced - both figuratively and literally - by his own self. The pure joy and excitement that Fifteen showed, and the love that he exhibited towards Fourteen, it genuinely made me tear up, which if you know me, you know that is not an easy feat. I think the line "It's so good to see you! So good!" is going to be burned into my brain forever. It was beautiful and it was kind, and it was everything that I never knew I needed to see. And their last hug on the UNIT tower, with Fourteen being cradled by Fifteen so gently, so lovingly, it was so very very necessary. The Doctor has been through so much, has lost so much, and even during that special, he had to endure being mocked by the Toymaker and ignored by Kate Stewart, and after all of that, damnit he deserved a hug, and Fifteen delivered.

I've been worried for a while now about how they could possibly refresh the show and the character of the Doctor coming into this new era on David's coattails, but they fucking nailed it with the bi-generation. Fourteen gets to slow down, he gets to live with the people he loves, his own little family. I have no doubt that he would eventually start reaching out to other former companions, too, like Martha, and Ace and Teagan, and Thirteen's Fam, and everyone else who's still knocking about on Earth. It'll take him some time, I think, but he'll do it, because he really does love them, and he remembers every last one of them. And while he rests, and heals, and lives, Fifteen can carry on the mission of the Doctor. Flying through the universe, saving people and planets, being kind. And he doesn't have to do that with so much weight on his chest anymore. He can see the joy in the universe again that Fourteen had lost sight of under all the weight he had to carry alone. I'm not saying that Fifteen is completely mentally healthy - healing doesn't work like that - but he is freer, and he is going to be brilliant because of that freedom.

Next, goes without saying, I love Ncuti Gatwa. He knocked the ball right out of the park with his first appearance and he had me absolutely hooked from the jump. I've always loved Ten, he's one of my favourite NuWho Doctors, but I'm going to be so honest, I completely forgot that David was even there once he was out of frame because Ncuti captured my attention that strongly. I love his energy, I love his joy, I love his whole attitude. I cannot wait to watch him take on this role. I've genuinely never been so excited for a new Doctor to take the reigns. Every other time, it's felt like a loss, but this time, all I can feel is joy.

Circling back, Fourteen's ending. I needed to see that. I needed that to be on my screen, and I am so fucking happy with it. It reminded me of the very first Christmas special, where Ten joined Rose's family for Christmas dinner. I love the very obvious parallel here, of course, the Doctor joining his best friend and their family for a meal. It's exactly the kind of ending that Fourteen deserved, in my opinion, and I think it was done wonderfully. Placing that emphasis on family, on loved ones, on finding comfort in simplicity, it just felt so good. The Doctor is happy, he's home, he has a family again, and he can just be. He doesn't have to impress them with technobabble or show them the stars, he can just be himself and they'll love him. And I can't even tell you all how fucking important it felt to me to have Fourteen's ending be without romance. (Another thing that differentiates this era from the Tentoo nonsense.) Too many shows - even this one - try to force a "Happy Ending" by saddling the main character with a love interest in a lazy attempt to show the audience that "See, they're happy now!" and it very rarely ever works out. (Remind me to come back later about TentooRose on this topic.) But Fourteen got familial love instead of romantic, and to a demiromantic like myself, that is SO fucking important.

This is getting WAY too long so I'll shut up now, but there. Those are my preliminary thoughts on The Giggle. Please do not dogpile me about the Martha thing, I am REALLY trying to keep everything very neutral about her.

[shame-kink]

this is no place of honor. nothing good is buried here. like, look at those tags, jesus fucking christ icansayithewasalsojewish there they are, i'm at fucking PEAK 2:11 in the morning brain and i got hooked on the discourse rod like two hours ago at this point? i've been rewriting the same sentence over and over again trying to come up with a way to insult most of the people on this site while excluding all the people i'd feel legit fucking terrible making feel bad (which. includes forseeably anybody reading this unless the grace of god does- AAAAAAAUGHGHGHGGG JUST PUBLISH THE FUCKING THING

yooo this post literally begins "as a trans woman" and is about "discourse", uncool fetish shit, and like. idfk if theres even word for that other thing. People That Are Not Trans Women Keep Your Mouths Shut On This. Maybe Nobody Should Reply At All Actually? i've reached paranoid moralizing stink-beast levels that i don't even really know what to logically do with like i SHOULD post something and this is like my fifth time trying but also it feels deeply unwholesome to either reject or welcome outside input.

being a a trans woman, (which is. fucking relevant because YES THIS SHIT GETS TUMLBRFIED ALONG DEMOGRAPHIC LINESSSSS I'M REWRITING A FOLLOW UP THAT MORE DIRECLTY MADE CLEAR IT WAS ABOUT TRANSMISOGYNISTIC REACTIONS TO THINGS-RANGING-FROM-COMPLETELY-INNOCUOUS-TO-FRINGE-CASE-PERVERT-SHIT-I.-JFC-I-CANT-EXPLAIN-IT-MORE-AGAIN-I'LL-COLLAPSE) one who is NOT immune to internet horny in all its forms ranging from innocuous to.... Less [private information/"backstory" expunged tldr the internet can fuck you up especially if you grow to view it as a place of refuge] and is ALSO extremely adamant that Hey I Think That People Should Face Repercussions For Publicly Saucing Up On "Gross" (don't. make me spell out the exact points at which i think the enjoyment of a particular subject can be morally justifiable we'd be here all week and we'd kill ourselves before the talk was done) Shit but ALSO also the moral phucking filosopher in me can't shake off the feeling that Even Kink Shaming For Legit "Dangerous" Shit (in. interpersonal and cultural normalization ways not "shoot your boyfriend in the pancreas" ways) Still Fucking Counts As Sexual Harassment*** and. ghahghhhh.

at least if i didn't have a moral backbone i could hang out with those smug pretentious fictional bullshit loving DOUCHEBAGS but no i guess i'd chose "foolhardy and can-have-their-sense-of-Innate-Morality-swayed-into-fascistic-tendencies yet barring those incidencees are still fundamentally deep down good" to "i have pleasured myself with uranium-27 every evening for the past three years and its everyone elses problem, radiation is a puritanical myth" (or for that matter "foolhardy and easily swayed into fascistic tendencies and pretending to be good but its mostly people getting mad at trans women for calling themselves dogs or being furries". i do not intend to equivocate The Bad Thing Thats Transmisogynist with my own fucking sad little adoptive poop house filled with people failing to actually make any progress in extricating 'that stuugh' from the contexts where its fucking dangerous but like hey we're trying and i guess thats better than worshipping the the fucking stuff)

*** just bc i call it that doesn't mean arguments can't be made as to why its necessary or for the public good bla bla bla i'm not strictly arguing against it its just. even entertaining that it might be a lesser of two evils opens up so many fucking unsanswerable questions and my feelings-of-personal-shame-and-guilt engines just start kicking in bc this shit can't even be framed as "rationally" or "concisely" as a fucking trolley problem i'm moral relativisming my way into absolutism somehow i pray for hell to be real so that the duty of judgement can be left to hands other than my own for I Too am imperfect (albeit not in a way that gets off to children, LOL, get fucked i do still have the moral highground, like not over YOU necessarily but over those *other* dipshits that neither of *us* like)

[lokigodofaces]

putting under the cut off bc this might get long

So, roommate issue. I've lived here for like 5 weeks now. And from day 1, it's been a mess. I can't tell you everything that has happened, that would be too much. But here's some context for some things.

So, this apartment is supposed to hold 6 people. We only have 5 people living here. I lived in this complex before, and was like, hey, this is great. It works with 6, but 5 will be even easier! And then it wasn't. My roommate Ellie and I have been struggling with space from the beginning. When I first moved in, they gave me the drawer under the oven and the cupboard above the microwave (which has a long microwave cord in it that takes up a lot of space) and a little bit of the fridge and that was it. In the vanity, there was no space for me. Ellie had one part of the pantry, a small drawer, and one cupboard, and that was it, as well as no space in the vanity. We asked the others if we could have more space, and suggested the idea of combining our dishes to be space efficient if everyone was okay with that. They basically said we didn't have a problem because they didn't have a problem with space, cleared out one drawer, and glare at us if we ever mention an issue with space. Yet they also glare at us when we have to move chairs by the counter because we can't reach. Ellie and I are sharing our space in the kitchen, which is the only way it can work for us. And we're sharing what is normally the space for one person in the vanity because we literally moved people's stuff over because they were taking up so much space for like three things.

They just did not talk to me ever for days even when I tried my best to start a conversation. Ellie had to leave immediately after she moved in for a family thing, and the other three refused to talk to me. I got their names and that was it. They didn't talk to me until I made brownies (partially because I was stressed and wanted chocolate and partially because I thought it would be a good icebreaker). Ellie was talking to me immediately when she came back and that made me feel better (we share a room so I was terrified we wouldn't get along after everyone else's bs).

There are two bathrooms, and Ellie and I only use one of them. Every couple weeks management has clean checks and we're supposed to split up jobs. Our roommates were made when Ellie said she wouldn't clean their bathroom after they signed her up for it.

So one of my roommates is obsessed with locking the door. And, yes, locking the door is important. But I shouldn't have to bring my keys with me to go to the basement to do laundry or to grab the mail. We live in a small town, like a town where people don't lock their doors. You can understand my annoyance then. Less of a big deal, but it is necessary for understanding other things.

We have a TV that comes with the apartment, but we are supposed to bring our own DVD player/Roku/HDMI cords/etc. I have my parents' streaming apps on a Roku they don't use anymore. This includes Prime, Vudu, YouTube, and other apps with in-app purchases. Because of this, I told my roommates to ask me before using apps with in-app purchases since I did not as of then trust them when my parents' bank information is already connected to those accounts. I also told them that if they wanted to add apps, that I'd allow it if they asked first, and that I may ask them to use the guest mode. Well, one day I come home from class, sit down on the couch, turn on the Roku to watch Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D., and Spotify is on the screen. Never had that app, and the email wasn't connected to my parents. I unplugged my Roku and brought it into my room. I no longer trust them to use my Roku because my parents' banking information is connected to it. Ellie did the same thing with her DVD player that had Prime on it. Ellie's parents live nearby, and her brother had a tiny TV in his room. He's on the other side of the country, and he told us we could borrow his TV. So we have that in here, with my Roku and her DVD player. I considered using the parental controls on my Roku, but turns out most of those only apply for Roku TV and all I can do is stop them from watching mature movies. So it's staying in here. And, as you can imagine, my roommates were not happy.

(Tumblr is being dumb & not letting me continue to 6 so whatever). Dishes. So many problems there besides the limited space. Not scraping off dishes before putting them in the dishwasher, which can damage the dishwasher! Yelling at Ellie and I for putting dishes in the dishwasher because they're not dishwasher safe, but how are we supposed to know if you leave it in the sink. We have the magnet thing that you can turn around to say if dishes are clean or dirty, and I never had one growing up, so I naturally open the dishwasher to check if it's clean or dirty. Someone took that as an insult because I "couldn't trust" her ability to use the magnet. Few weeks later, she walks up to the dishwasher and turns it around without even looking inside, and I have to tell her that, no, the dishwasher is empty now, you can put dirty dishes in, check before you just flip a magnet around for funsies because she only touches her dishes. When I unload the dishwasher (and I'm the only one running the dishwasher ever), I never put anyone's dishes away other than mine and Ellie's (we share) because I'm not searching through cupboards for where they go. I leave them on the drying mat so that I can load the dishwasher, and then those dishes stay there for days, sometimes even longer than a week. Sometimes when someone else unloads the dishwasher, they just shove dishes anywhere, and I have to go searching for my dishes or put dishes on the drying mat because they aren't mine yet in my stuff. And this is despite me marking my dishes! Like I said, I'm pretty much the only one doing the dishwasher. Which isn't a chore that I mind but if they could at least scrape leftover food off their dishes or let them soak. Or put their dishes in the dishwasher instead of the sink when it's dirty. Oh also there's someone that almost yells at us for not loading the dishwasher she wants us to but her way is horribly space inefficient. Like I can fit in at least 10 more dishes, at least. So guess what I'm going to do?

Lack of communication. Ellie and I have been vocal about our problems and asked them to help us. To which we're usually told that it's not actually a problem that we have no space or that they're dishes have been on the counter for days or whatever. But when they have issues with us, they don't tell us. We straight up ask if we're upsetting them, and they lie through their teeth. How do I know they're lying? Because I can fricking hear them in their rooms crying to their parents about how much they hate living here. For heaven's sake, nothing can be fixed unless we talk things through. Just tell us why you're pissed.

[irrelevantsunarin]

things people need to stop saying in fanfiction

this first part if mostly about explicit or mature content so if that bothers you you can skip to the end - I will label it in pink!

"wet cavern" - does not sound like it should be describing a mouth (and so overused)

globes of flesh (usually in reference to a butt) - yucky

plush lips - no thank you

on that note, also: surging forward into a kiss - totally fucks with the flow of the story every time, and just makes me die inside

"mound" - bad in any context except a pile of dirt

"heat" (usually in the context of "his/her/their heat") - I think this one is pretty self explanatory

Two in one:

and on that note, please keep words for crotch bits simple - if I see one more fic that uses a different word every sentence I'm going to shrivel up and waste away. it's cringe, please stop.

some common ones that annoy me are as follows:

member

length

shaft

core

heat

hole

if you're gonna write p*rn you really should be comfortable enough to talk about the peepee parts without avoidance. you don't have to say p*nis but please avoid the ones that make people (read: me) gag.

I feel like this one goes without saying but... anything about "pain and pleasure" whether the pain turns into pleasure or both at the same time - it's terribly overused and I honestly don't know if anyone still uses it anymore outside of wattpad (but I just read it in something so I guess it's still relevant)

I just want to point out one thing that bothers me specifically - I see a lot of kissing scenes go like this: kissing passionately with mouths closed -> someone gasps, allowing the other one to sneak in some tongue and force the other person's mouth open -> full out frenching - like, correct me if I'm wrong but making out usually happens with mouths open even before tongue, if their mouths were closed it would just be a lot of mushing faces together

making things anatomically correct is important

where did the idea come from that lady cum is sweet and dude cum is bitter/salty? - I've asked friends about this and I don't think it's really a thing (it could be more bitter or taste different based on what you eat) but I think comparing it to food flavors doesn't really make sense... which brings me to another, more uncomfortable topic. abo fanfiction. for whatever reason, it's always in weird animal/abo shit where they take this stuff to the next level - slick always tastes like some specific pastry or food and the character's scents are always described like mall candle scents. to clarify: people secretion tastes and smells like people, people don't smell like specific things (woodsmoke, freshly cut grass, etc) unless they are often around those things and their genitals certainly shouldn't taste like them

I apologise, that last one was a little nasty, but now...

this next part is about general stuff and not the dirty

"the _____ boy/girl" (the blue haired girl, etc. I've even seen it using character distinguishers referencing the story like: "the explosive boy" - bakugo from bnha) - please, it doesn't hurt the story to just use their name or pronouns (and if you feel like you're saying those too much you should probably take a step back and talk about something else other than the characters)

adverbs! - not inherently evil but I would like to remind you all that GOOD adverbs are ones that contradict whatever they're describing (ie. killing me softly instead of harshly or what not) otherwise, use them sparingly

please don't describe skin colors with food words - it's disrespectful and kinda gross, especially because it is usually only used for POC characters (ex: chocolate, caramel, mocha, coffee, etc.)

"something more" - in literally any context (a promise of something more, [x] wanted something more, it felt like something more) you know what just don't say "more" in any situation like that - find another way to say it and it will be better I promise

i feel like these are all cliches that everyone makes fun of but i'm putting them in anyway:

[insert color] orbs - just say eyes, it's fine

blushing (this includes turning red, flushing, and any other way to describe it) - there are other ways to show embarrassment

when a female (or more feminine) character is described as a lot smaller and physically weaker than the male/masculine character - glorifies and fetishizes the stereotypes of feminine people being submissive and weak. basically it's gross.

I have seen a lot of people talking about the phrase: "they let out a breath they didn't even know they were holding" - and while I agree that it's overused I don't think it's unrealistic. it is a thing that can happen in a particularly stressful situation and it does a good job of letting the readers know that the pace of the story is changing and that they too can stop holding their breath at whatever wild thing is going on. definitely don't overuse it but once isn't the end of the world.

smirking - no explanation necessary

s-s-s-stuttering - when people stutter from nerves they tend to repeat whole words, not just the first letter.

This:

Also remember to please use line and paragraph breaks and don't write in first person unless you're really confident because I have never in my life read a good fanfic that was written in first (or second) person

[phenomenalcosmicpowers]

In a recent post on I Dream of Twilight Sparkle I said that I noticed asks that were not in my inbox the last time I decided to read through my entire ask box. So I did the same for my mod blog. And while there were some also that I didn't see before. Most are questions I feel either I feel like I may have already sufficiently answered enough with my thoughts on an episode and/or it'd be weird at this point to answer something that's obviously years after the fact.

But there is two I found that I feel like I may want to respond to. The person who sent it was someone who used to discuss the show with me almost all the time, though obviously they must no longer be on Tumblr as all their blogs are deactivated. But I still want to answer since it is sort of relevant to recent stuff. Particularly in their 2nd ask.

By the way, I'm always open to questions on the show or even non-pony topics here on my modblog. I still do love talking about G4 ponies and I wouldn't mind some questions if any of you would like to know my opinion on anything. Now that the show has been over for nearly 2 years , I can have a perspective on many topics about Friendship is Magic that I wouldn't mind sharing. Maybe some things have changed here and there, though I think I still generally have a positive attitude towards most things for certain. I stuck with the show until the very end, and was satisfied with how it ended. And I still have interest in doing more in G4's world even as G5 approaches. (Though I'm sure perhaps once that movie has aired that may be the focus of any questions sent here)

((My answer and more after the break))

For the most part, I think I still generally agree with what I said in my initial thoughts about the Season 6 finale. It's a solid episode with some great interactions between Starlight, Trixie, Discord, and Thorax. Though the way the ending is executed is a bit of a headscratcher. Maybe somewhat less so since thinking about it now, like even if Chrysalis did keep some things loyal. What would stop them from eventually seeing what Thorax's changelings did shortly after.

But I suppose I wanted to answer this mostly about Starlight. Since while the Season 6 finale made HomerJ get over some remaining feelings about Starlight. I'll admit it took literally until writing Secrets of the Dragon's Tear (A year after the show was over) to realize the sort of potential that Starlight had. The baggage from the Season 5 finale always felt like a cloud above her for the entire rest of the show's run. And I consider Season 6's largest mistake is not trying harder to endear us to Starlight. That's what that season's entire job was, to try to make us feel a little better of how rather rushed Starlight's redemption was by giving us a more expanded look into Starlight's character. And unfortunately, I feel like it failed at that in my opinion. Thus I basically disagree (Though respect the opinion of) with those who would say the Season 6 finale was when Starlight finally won them over.

Don't get me wrong, I like how Starlight is portrayed in the episode. But it would of been stronger if say the season had explained more about Starlight's past. How did Starlight get her cutie mark, and given her opinion on Cutie Marks how did she feel at the time?

Instead, we mostly just got Starlight reuniting with Sunburst that didn't exactly give any more details to her rather vague reasons for turning to darkness from him moving away other then finding out Sunburst's personality and how his side of the story went. And from there we had Starlight befriend Trixie... in an episode I still don't really like to this day.

Ironically, the character in the Hearth's Warming episode that casts Starlight as the story's version of Scrooge (Snowfall Frost) is given more reason to sympathize with then Starlight herself.

Starlight then just about disappears up until the episode that introduces Thorax. Where she doesn't do much other then be among the crowd that Spike has to convince that Thorax is not evil.

The next time we see her is Every Little Thing She Does. Which is something of a controversial ep from what I hear, though ironically despite my skepticism of Starlight at the time. I actually sort of liked that episode since it was basically Starlight's own Lesson Zero. Though I get why Starlight deciding to hypnotize all the Mane 6 besides Twilight against their will would not be approved of. Though it does feel like at the very least Twilight and the rest give her enough of a piece of their mind at the end.

And that's how things stood before the Season 6 finale happened. Even though I do think Starlight has good moments in said finale, nothing earlier in the season really dispelled many of my feelings about the Season 5 finale's ending. So despite a good showing, I could hardly care for it. I wasn't convinced yet we were given a satisfactory answer about the many questions that Starlight's sudden redemption prompted.

Another part of my thoughts I feel still applies is when I mentioned that Starlight's a "Diet Sunset Shimmer" (Which considering what I did to link the two for SOTDT, is a bit funny in hindsight). It took just one movie (Rainbow Rocks) for the fanbase to turn a 180 on Sunset. While an entire season with Starlight as one of the good guys goes by and she remained just as divisive as before if not more so by the end of Season 6.

Come Season 7, and Starlight appears quite a bit more often though under the assumption that the Season 6 finale was enough to warm you up to her. There were many complaints during the first half of Season 7 that she was appearing more then she should (Even in an Equestria Girls special where she got to meet the character she was so often compared to). Though another thing about Starlight in Season 7 in hindsight is besides from her meeting a few more friends like Maud. Starlight isn't actually given much to actually work towards. They dropped the whole student aspect so it's not like she was doing friendship lessons under Twilight anymore (Though I suppose on the bright side for the detractors, it lessened worries about her becoming an Alicorn). Season 8 and 9 does somewhat fix that by having Starlight employed at the school, first as a counselor and ultimately ending with her as the school's Principal as Twilight herself got promoted to sole ruler. Which I'm still unsure about if fans of her character feel that was a proper ending for her. Though probably the best that could of been done in context of not much having been done with her over time.

Still, at least for me personally it felt there was alot missing about Starlight and as time went on it became obvious I wasn't going to get the satisfactory answers about her that I wanted. So as a result, I only had lukewarm reactions when a new Starlight episode was coming up. It also didn't help that there were two episodes that raised my hopes of at least one interesting aspect that would of been cool to see. The first being the episode "All Bottled Up" which I had hoped would mean it would be an episode that's somewhat genie related. And then there was Road to Friendship where Starlight and Trixie try to travel to Saddle Arabia (which is an important location in I Dream of Twilight Sparkle)... and yet never actually get there. So even on the few times that I was hoping to be excited about a Starlight episode, it dropped the ball. Partly my fault for getting so hyped about something that wasn't promised, but I would of loved to at least SEEN canon Saddle Arabia.

I'd never say that I hated Starlight back during the show's run. But she was a frustrating character for certain back then. I couldn't hate Starlight as much as some others did, but at the same time I couldn't like her as much as others. She was in likability limbo. For every fun and or good moment that included her, it's brought right back by either lingering problems that arised from the Season 5 finale or otherwise dropping the ball in some way.

In some ways, she's still a frustrating character. Though that's just how it'll always be with the canon Starlight. It's up entirely now to fanon to give their approach on Starlight that was never done in Canon. With SOTDT, I obviously did a bit of a "Fine, I'll do it myself" when it comes to making Starlight a more satisfactory character for me. Though I'm sure there are many interpretations that are vastly different from how I approached it that can satisfy others and probably be more popular and better written then mine. (My interpretation might be understandably controversial just for Starlight being put back on a path where she'll likely become an Alicorn eventually. Something Starlight detractors feared the most. Though I think I at least try to explain as best I could that makes sense with the story, her cutie mark moment being similar to Twilight's, and the identity of her mother. And I myself sort of feared Starlight becoming an Alicorn might happen, so for me to actually write it so that it might be inevitable. That's just how much of a 180 I've taken on Starlight because of writing SOTDT)

I think I mentioned this before, but I can pretty much say that in a way that I can actually say I like Starlight now. But sort of in a "FiM's biggest missed opportunity" sort of way that it becomes sort of sad to look at how canon Starlight was done. Rather then me simply shrugging her off back when I didn't care so much about her. I also understand it's a bit cheating to say I like Starlight now after doing my own sort of fanfic that had her in a major role since that might be me tooting my own horn a bit.

Though I will say as much as necessary that I am very aware alot of what happens in SOTDT would have been impossible to do in canon and I don't plan on pushing what I did to expand on Starlight's backstory as gospel. It only applies to what I'm doing on the blog, I will not be making a case that my interpretation is the only correct one. I'd actually welcome seeing some different interpretations on things such as who Starlight's mother is, what they feel her past was like outside of the Sunburst leaving incident, and/or especially how Starlight originally got her cutie mark. (I've even said my personal guess is different then how I did it in SOTDT, as my guess is she got it the first time she discovered the cutie mark removal spell). Cause if nothing else, I've realized Starlight is a very interesting character that I think would be fun to explore all the possibilities with. It certainly could be something for those still on the G4 train to talk with one another about.

[lucidpantone]

Extras are literally just that, an extra to something, in this case an extra person, in almost every production the extras are there to be on the background scene, it's really weird when the extras are actively participating on a scene unless they are booked for something specific, that means any extra has actual background or context of what's going on, on the bigger picture, specially since they don't film in order, then extras normally get an specific place we're they have to be or a position (this could be giving the back to the actual scene), since they aren't actually in the scene participating plus there's always the distance between the actual actors scene the cameras+crew and the extras, since the cameras have to be focused on the scenes and the equipment or crew could be big or moving, most times extras aren't close to the scenes, you can see this all the time on Wtfock, for example the central scene happens on a bench and you can see there's more people around but they aren't that close soooo extras can't always heard exactly what's said, now the extras are normally separated from the actors or crew and equipment between takes... I can go on but on summary as you all can read extras info is not likely to be accurate at all and this doesn't make them liars, some people are lucky to heard or seen some stuff or knows and gets easily (in this case) og references and that's why they do theories about it.

Now since the beginning has been stablish that this blog is a collection of all those theories into one big one trying to put stuff together, sometimes including the owner of this blog theories into it or the info people collect following actors an crew and movement and sometimes Info of their connects, that "connects" info until now has been reliable and I think out of common sense that the connects info is not all the time clear and more like little crumbs because why In the world they would spoil the actual script? Anyways...

One big example about how everything is on pieces and depends on the extra pov and knowledge for me is another extra, she told she saw a big sub-plot and Sobbe is not part of it but this same extra haven't seen the OG so ofc what happens on that scene seems to be super big, me that I know OG and saw that scene been filmed too knew what that was about and why Sobbe not been involved doesn't mean they aren't part of a sub-plot, another one clearly...and this doesn't mean she's lying this just means any extra have the whole picture and context of everything.

Sometimes on some productions not even actors get the whole picture or context for example on GOT the actors received the script only with their lines (specially on last seasons) so they didn't knew until later on the reading tables or if was necessary what was something about.

So why you all people keep coming to attack? Don't you understand what a theory is? Or even a spoiler? Go and google it!! And if you don't like it or you don't agree or you still don't understand then just go? Stop coming to read if you're not actually interested on this blog concept.

Anons I love all of you so much right now!!!! This anon popped off. They giving you facts, explanation, real time accounts. Also thank you for defending the extras because they are a huge part of the blog as are the insta community like no one is lying no one is driving for clout. It’s literally everyone pouring out the contents of their backpack on the table to sort through what they have. We don’t discuss the actors personally it’s just about piecing together plot. There is no need to be so damn aggressive. Like relax.......like last anon said the whole season is done in 7 weeks and filming wraps this weekend. Like just chill out with the constant hate and aggression.