#literally couldn't find that reaction but it IS real i promise

[jestroer]

It's hilarious to me finding out that ironmouse is joining qsmp cause I had no idea she was anywhere in those circles at all I found out about her like a month ago from seeing her reacting to Scar's off-road wheelchair vlog as a wheelchair user herself.

[bandgie]

Reactions To You Pissing During Sex

OT8!SKZ x fem!reader

a/n: this ask got me thinking tbh I can't stop myself.

warnings: MDNI 18+, pissing obvi, crying, some degrading

BANGCHAN! - truthfully he's just too good at fucking you. knows where all your good spots are and hits them with precision. he's gripping you by the waist and bringing you down on his cock. breasts bouncing and your hands clutching onto his wrists. - that warm, beautiful feeling builds, but it feels too intense, a little too familiar in your bladder. panic hits you but it's so hard to talk when all you can is moan and squeal. all you do is shake your head back and forth as a signal, but channie is so used to you doing that when he's in your pussy just right that he pays no mind to it - when you pee, he thinks you're squirting at first. then he sees the consistency, the color, the everything. he pulls out real quick, thinking he's hurt you or its uncomfortable for you. which in fact, is completely wrong! it feels so good to pee mid orgasm, overwhelming actually - the realization gets to you that you literally pissed on your lover, and with the high emotions, you can't stop yourself from crying. soft sobs and apologies tumble from your swollen lips, which makes Chan panic. he's soothing you immediately, telling you it's okay and that it's not a big deal. your tears nearly make him cry, he's such a softie!

"No baby don't cry! It's okay, I promise it's okay, im not mad! We can always take a shower yeah?"

MINHO - has you doggy style, hand reaching around to rub on your clit. his chest is completely on your back, the pressure of everything just feels so good. you're able to warn him, telling Minho that you think you're gonna piss. - thinks you're joking, laughs and slaps your puffy pussy. you keep repeating yourself over and over until it finally happens. hot liquid splashing on his fingers. - he flips you over immediately, looking at your hazy eyes and twitching limbs. you're still peeing as your lay flat on your back, and he's looking at you slightly aroused and slightly shocked -minho is very observant, and he watches your expressions to judge whether or not you're able to continue. you have such a fucked out face, your teeth biting on your lower lips as you look up at him shyly and embarrassed. - he laughs breathlessly, surprised by yours and his excitement about the whole thing. thrusts his cock in you a few times to see how you react. your legs immediately wrap around your waist to bring him closer, and your arch your back for him to hit your favorite spot.

"pissing yourself? how old are you again?"

CHANGBIN - oh he doesn't even notice. all he knows is that your pussy is his favorite and he's drowning in it. when he feels that warm splash on his tummy, he pays no mind to it. just adds to the wetness between your thighs - you're repeating his name over and over, but changbin's sooooo lost he just repeats yours the same way. - it's not until you have to reach up and grip his stomach, pulling to get his attention. thheennn he opens his eyes, and registers your wrecked state. soaked and writhing in pleasure. changbin coos and rubs your thighs, gripping the plushness. - he's so stuck on his headspace, that just mindlessly plays with all your slick on your clit and his stomach. changbin didn't hear you say any safe word, so he takes the green light to keep going. doesn't care if you pee more or not. he just adores those pretty little sounds you make. it's not until you're both laying on the bed, coming down from your highs and back down to earth that he finally realizes you wet yourself

"you peed!?! did you like it? I liked it, can you do that again next time?"

HYUNJIN - he loves everything about you, worships you even. you pee during sex? okay and? is he supposed to care? - ofc he would stop if it bothers you that much, but it's perfectly safe to say he doesn't find it gross in the slightest. it just means he's making you feel so good that you couldn't tell the difference. and he basks in the warmth of your piss, he weirdly finds it intimate - makes you feel better with plush kisses and hushed whispers. telling you that it feels nice and he loves all of you. makes you gush with cum this time, ugh he's such a sweetheart - I feel like he would get cocky about it too during sex. like wow he's that good? he lasts extra long when you pee, just watching your cunt flood with piss onto his stomach is a beautiful sight - kinda opens a door for him. doesn't take long before he's asking to pee on you. both of you are covered in absolute filth at the end, and a shower is much needed

"oh you're such a pretty angel for me. just got a little excited huh?"

HAN - hot. like Hyunjin, hannie just loves you down to the atoms. but peeing? oh he's in love - riding him while his hands play with your tits. your hands are splayed over his tiny waist when you feel the impending orgasm, with a little something else. you don't tell him though, you have a feeling he'd rather find it as a pleasant surprise - imagine his needy expression when he sees you pee all over his stomach. he moans at the sight and bucks his hips up into you. he can feel the liquid travel down his stomach onto the sheets, filling his bellybutton - oh he's beggingggg. for cum? for more piss? for you? who knows. but he's just saying please please please with little uh uh uh's and he's squeezing your breasts soooo hard, he's gonna leave little finger marks - cums real quick after that, but you just keep riding him. there's little splash noises and your knees are soaked from the piss stained covers, but he just looks so fucked out and in pure bliss

"Baby, baby oh fuck yes. More! Make me dirty."

FELIX - doesn't say anything about it, just keeps fucking you. he's not sure if it would embarrass you or anything, so he just waits for you to say something first - but he does really like how it looks. your moans are higher and you can't stop shaking. he swears your pussy is softer, wetter. he gets more vocal too, pushing your thighs up to your chest to fully expose your wet clit to him - ugh watching it squirt out of you onto his pelvis? oh he likes that a lot. rubs your sensitive nub to try and squeeze more out of you. smiles mischievously when you squeal and thrash, as if in warning - felix didn't know he could be this nasty, he enjoys that you're marking your territory in the most animalistically way possible. makes his eyes roll back, deep moans when he finishes inside you

"Fuck, you're so wet. Wanna taste you so bad."

SEUNGMIN - oh he's mean. asshole. you're squirming away from his brutal thrusts, pleading with him. oh but he wants you to. wants to see how mortified you get when you piss all over yourself. gives him a huge power trip - he'll go harder, pin your hands above your head so you can't cover yourself. laughs manically when you finally let go. his beautiful smile twists evilly when you softly sob. he'll hold both your wrists in one hand and use the other to grip your face, forcing you to look up at him - man he just loves that humiliating look on your features. the tears in your eyes, the quivering in your lips. makes your lips pucker open so he could spit in your mouth. if you wanna be nasty, seungmin is sure to leave you filthy - your cries turn into choked moans when he starts fucking into you again. it's too much, emotionally and physically, but you love being a good girl for him. he always makes sure to make it up to you afterwards anyway

"Did you really pee on yourself? You really are just a dumb puppy."

JEONGIN - it's really his fault, you wouldn't have peed if it weren't for his actions. he read on the internet that if you press down on your partner's stomach while you fuck them, it makes their orgasms much more extreme. - yes, but at a cost. your release feels beyond amazing, seeing stars in the midst of it. you dont even recognize yourself going pee because everything just feel so good. head thrown back, back arched, eyes rolled, god you're cumming hard - he's in shock. the article didn't mention anything about this. his thrusts slow, but he was soooo close to his own release that he can't fully stop. plus you seem to having a rather fun time, it would be a terrible idea to pull out - you're clenching on his cock repeatedly, pussy fluttering around his cock from your intense orgasm. your cream mixed with piss is surprisingly a good combination to i.n. - everything just sounds so wet, but you hardly have the mind to care. just that pleasurable thrusting in your walls that hit your deepest part numb your senses. are you cumming again? are you pissing? squirting? doesn't matter, you just don't want him to stop - it's after you're both clean and snuggled that i.n shyly tells you of your accident.

"Your pussy felt so good like that. Is it weird that I liked it?"

[moon-alight]

Hi, i loved ur "nightmares" jo fanfic and wanted to request an ot9 reaction where they have a nightmare where they lose their s/o and can't find their s/o (and they like cry a lil cuz i feel like nicho cuz he's a softie and maki would a bit but let's leave it at that cuz it's a ot9 reaction) and srry for my vad english, anyway i love ur writing so yeh bye-bye 💗💗

Hello! :) I like this idea, I think it's absolutely adorable. . . also, what does everyone have with nightmares? Do you guys need someone to talk to or something? I'm glad you like my writing and your English is good enough for me to understand so, you're good. <3

Masterlist

&Team reaction to waking up from a nightmare and not finding you

Warnings: fluff, angst, sad &team

Word Count: 1359

-K

He wakes up in the middle of the night with a thin layer of sweat on his forehead. The recent events of his nightmare still fresh in his mind, he reaches out to find you but somehow can't.

He quickly opens his eyes and looks around. The spot on the bed where you would usually be is empty and right now he really would've loved your support. He looks around before remembering that you are currently at your house because you have to wake up early tomorrow.

He turns on the lights, sits up on his bed and stares at his phone on his nightstand. He has a discussion in his head, contemplating whether or not to call you but he decides against it. 'It was just a nightmare anyways' he would tell himself.

(He would tell you the next morning and you'd both talk about it which makes him feel better)

-Fuma

He has had livid dreams, sure, but never did he have such a livid nightmare and honestly, it scares him. He opens his eyes and looks around wildly only to find your side of the bed empty.

"y/n?" His voice is shaky but he tries to hide his fear as much as possible. He throws the blankets off of him and stumbles through the hallway. He hears faint voices come from the living room and decides to check it out only to find you watching tik-toks on the couch.

"Hey, baby." You say, smiling softly.

"What are you doing here?" Fuma asks, sitting down next to you. You close your phone and put it down next to you.

"I had a nightmare and didn't want to wake you."

"Me too." Fuma replies and wraps his arms around you. "We shouldn't have watched Nightmares on Elmstreet last night."

-Nicholas

His nightmares are usually about bad performances or something but this one was much, much worse. He lost you, the love of his life, after an argument which he could've fixed. When he wanted to apologize, he got the news that you had died in a car accident.

It all felt so real.

Especially because you two fought literally right before going to bed. He reaches out once he wakes up but you're gone. Instant panic spreads through his body. Did you walk away? Did something happen? Are you gonna break up with him?

You walk inside the room two minutes later to find your boyfriend crying on the bed. "Nico?" You ask, your voice is soft as to not scare him. He looks up, his eyes red and there are tear stains on his cheek. You had never seen him like this.

"I'm sorry." He whispers, you run to his side and sit down next to him. "We fought and you left and then you died! I couldn't say how much I love you, I couldn't say how much you mean to me--" *Hiccup* "You were just gone."

"I'm here, love." You assure him. "I'm not going anywhere, I promise." You pull him in your arms. "I love you, doesn't matter how much we fight I will always love you."

-EJ

He is stressed out. He has been ever since he got the role of leader which meant that he now has so many responsibilities meanwhile he also tries to take care of you. . . it's a lot. Nightmares aren't very uncommon but you not being there is.

He wraps a blanket around his shaking body and he is off to find the love of his life in the middle of the night in the dark dorm. Boy is determined to find you and ultimately does. He sees you stand at the kitchen counter with a cup of milk in your hands.

He walks over and embraces you from behind, letting his body weight fall on you. You jump slightly but laugh when you realize it's your own personalized teddy bear.

"Hey, baby. What's wrong?" You ask, taking another sip of your drink.

"Nightmare." EJ mumbles back. "You weren't there."

"Oh, I'm sorry, bubba. Want some milk to make up for my absence?"

-Yuma

He is absolutely terrified but will pretend he isn't just for the sake of being the protective boyfriend who doesn't need protection but the moment he realizes you're not there. . . he freaks the hell out!

"Princess?" He sits up and looks around with sleepy eyes. "Angel?" A scary sound comes from outside and he's up. "Sweetheart?" He asks again. Nothing. "Bab---AAAAAHHHH!!!!"

You slam your hand over his mouth to stop him from waking the other boys though you're sure they're awake by now. "What's wrong?" You ask but Yuma doesn't reply, no, he wraps his arms around you and holds onto you like you're his lifeline.

"I thought you were kidnapped!" You chuckle and rub your hand through his hair gently.

"Let's go back to bed, shall we?"

-Jo

My baby. ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡) Anyways, he would wake up and stare at the ceiling unable to move. When he finally catches his breath he feels around the mattress with his hand only to find that you're not there.

He would want to go look for you but he's absolutely terrified to even as much leave his bed so he waits this one out. When you finally return to the room he does sit up and looks at you with teary eyes.

"What's wrong?" You ask, cradling his face in your hands. He sobs lightly and you gently wipe his tears away.

"Just a nightmare, it's stupid." You reassure him that it isn't stupid and climb in beside him. Jo holds onto you like a koala for the rest of the night, just making sure you won't leave again.

-Harua

Has a dilemma when he wakes up. Harua had positioned himself against the wall with his phone in his hands, your contact is visible but he isn't sure if he should call you. You were at home, asleep peacefully, he shouldn't wake you but he had clicked 'call' before he could stop himself.

"Yes?" Your groggy morning voice sounds. Harua feels so damn guilty about waking you up. "Harua?"

"M sorry." He reaches to end the call but your voice stops him.

"What happened?" You sound so worried, so caring.

"Nightmare."

"Want to talk about it?" You ask. He hears blankets shuffle and knows you're sitting up now too. So he decides to talk to you about it.

-Taki

He feels indifferent. He had a nightmare but he has had them many times before. . . then why is he currently grabbing onto his phone like an idiot? It rings four times before you pick up.

"Yes?"

"Where are you?" Taki asks, knowing you should've been besides him but you weren't.

"Bathroom."

"Oh, ok." He hangs up and stumbles out of bed. He walks towards the bathroom and knocks a couple of times.

"Yes?" You ask again, still tired from waking up only seconds ago. The door suddenly opens and Taki walks inside. You're glad you just pulled your pants up before he came in. "Hello, a bit of privacy?"

"I had a nightmare." Taki tells you, he looks rather shaken up. You quickly wrap your arms around him and comfort him the best you can.

-Maki

Pain. He feels pain. So much that he can't breathe properly and tears stream down his face. It looked and felt so real. He reaches for his phone and calls you immediately.

"Sorry for waking you." He apologizes when you have picked up. "But I had a nightmare and didn't know what else to do." You were up, you couldn't sleep so this sounded like the perfect opportunity to go to the dorms since you live close by.

"On my way." You arrive about seven minutes later and find him on the couch. His hair is messy and he is still wiping away his tears. "Oh, Maki." You say softly and sit down next to him.

He clings to you and buries his face in the crook of your neck. You chuckle lightly and rub up and down his back, comforting him.

[blythebewitched]

Eyes Like Starlight: Smiling Critters Oneshot

Tales From The Playcare AU:

While scavenging, Bubba and Kickin find a skylight above the Playcare. Its the first time they see the real night sky . . .

Kickin Chicken always wanted to go outside for as long as he could remember. Out of everything, there was nothing he wanted to see more than the stars his personality was inspired off of.

Just above, HIGH above the Playcare, there it was. A skylight. It was round and covered a bit by old vines around the outside. But you could still see through it.

He and Bubba stood there. Silent. Staring up. Kickin could count at least 30 stars. It was literally breathtaking as his breath caught in his chest. It was the most amazing thing he'd ever seen.

"Are you coming? . . . Kickin?"

The Chicken swung his head to face his friend. He hadn't noticed Bubba was looking at him. Normally the thought of his crush staring at him would fluster him. But the view took his attention.

"C'mon. We have a job to do remember? "

"Isn't that the most beautiful and amazing thing you've ever seen!? The REAL night sky! Its right there! You're just gonna walk away and act like this isn't MONUMENTAL!?"

"Eh . . . Not really. I'm not impressed."

Kickin stopped dead in his tracks. Eyes wide and mouth agap.

"You're NOT impressed? . . . HOW ARE YOU NOT IMPRESSED!!!???" The words ricochetted off the walls. Bubba having to quickly shush him.

"Are you out of your mind? There's monsters nearby!"

*whispers* "how are you not impressed???"

Bubba squeezed the bridge of his trunk under his glasses and let out a sigh. "If I wanted to see pretty white lights I would've just looked at YOU. Your eyes are the same thing. Now let's go".

He started walking towards the ladder to go back down to the Playcare. Kicken was being oddly silent so he turned around. A little annoyed the idiot wasn't following. He caught sight of Kickin standing perfectly still as expected, but UNEXPECTEDLY he was wide eyed and red faced.

"Kickin? . . . Are you . . . Alright?" He walked back a few feet. He took notice the Kickin was avoiding his gaze. When he got close enough, Kickin's eyes became heavy lidded.

"You . . . You're unimpressed cause you think my eyes look like the stars? . . ." Kickin finally looked up at Bubba. To his dismay, it was with those big puppy dog eyes Bubba could never hate or say no to. Those eyes gave him the hint he needed to realize what he just did.

"THAT WASN'T A COMPLIMENT!!!" Bubba cursed himself for being the loud one now. "I ONLY MEANT IT FACTUALLY! You are literally the STAR character! It shouldn't be surprising that SOMETHING about you would be modeled off the real stars!"

Bubba didn't think it was possible, but Kickin's eyes got BIGGER. A little smile appeared and his blush got deeper. The fact that Kickin was flattered caused Bubba's face to fluster in return.

"It's okay to compliment me y'know." The smile turned into a sly smirk. "I promise I won't think any less than you . . . Lemondrop" . Kickin knew there was NOTHING Bubba hated being called more than Lemondrop.

He had a huge crush on Bubba Bubbaphant since they had met. When Kickin called him that pet name for the first time, he realized just how bad Bubba was at . . . Emotions. Since then, he found it funny and endearing about his favorite elephant.

Kickin was lifted off his feet and pinned against the wall. He couldn't help but cackle at this reaction he'd gotten used to by now.

"NEVER. CALL. ME. LEMONDROP!!! NEVER. EVER!!!" Bubba's face turned red. It PISSED him off whenever Kickin tried to play with the emotions he tried to keep under lock and key.

Bubba angrily slung the bird over his shoulder causing him to burst out laughing. He began to walk back towards the Playcare planning on ignoring the idiot on his shoulder. But Kickin wrapped his arms around his neck. He placed the slightest peck on Bubba's head.

"Thanks Bubby. I think that was the nicest thing you've ever said to me . . . You're my best friend. 💛"

Bubba looked down at his feet as he walked with his crush . . . His favorite person in his arms. He tried his hardest to hide his smile despite being irritated by the pet name.

"You're . . . My best friend too. But Sweet Prototype you get on my nerves."

Both of them laughed as they reached the entrance of the Playcare. Secretly, in that moment, both wanted nothing more than to tell each other what they really felt. But, too nervous to do so, they left it for another day. For now, it was good enough for Bubba to be his best friend . . . And for Kickin, it was good enough to know his eyes reminded him of starlight.

[karizard-ao3]

My reactions to the End of Evangelion

First, I know I have some asks about romcom Shinji waiting for me, but I felt I must watch this first because I am a little bit freaked out about what's going to happen and I need to just face it and get it out of the way. Also, I have a feeling I'm going to want to think about cute romcom Shinji afterward to aid my recovery. I have been led to believe it's pretty intense.

I am literally sitting here with the remote, avoiding pressing play.

Okay. I did it. It's starting.

I wonder if this is with the new VAs. Did they redub this as well? I'll find out soon.

The world is flooded, it looks like.

Shinji visiting Asuka and asking for help.

This is the new dub.

Ope, he accidentally made her naked.

Jesus Christ, Shinji.

Confirmed that their intent is to force humanity to evolve. They wanted to use Lilith but instead will have to use Unit 1, its only offspring, since the Spear of Longinus is lost.

Yui chose to stay in the Eva. "The human condition lies in how it struggles for survival".

There's Rei.

She finally broke the glasses.

Shinji's music player ran out of battery. He's just been laying there thinking about what a creep he is.

Misato found the real truth behind the second impact. Should I go back and pause to read the page?

Seele's trying to hack NERV HQ.

So was Unit 0 made from Adam, then?

Wait. So, Seele wants to do the forced evolution, yes? What is Gendo's motive in all this?

They're hiding the kids in their Evas. Rei is missing.

Shinji is hiding. Is he jerking off again?

These guys are going through and very efficiently killing everyone in NERV.

No, Shinji is just feeling depressed and hopeless and probably hating himself.

How does Rei feel about all her destroyed bodies?

They were about to kill Shinji and he was going to let them, but here comes Misato to save the day!

"Help, Asuka. Help me." Suicidal Shinji.

Humanity caused the second impact by trying to revert Adam to an egg state before he could awaken any more angels. Humanity came from Lilith and is the 18th Angel. I was not expecting that.

The other Angels were humanity how it could have been.

Shinji needs to destroy the Evas to prevent the third impact and save mankind.

Okay, so the human instrjmentality project is Gendo ans that's the forced evolution. Third impact is Seele's goal. I think.

Asuka has woken up.

They're bombing outside her capsule.

Does that let her sync?

Did she see her mom because she died? Oh no.

Oh, wait, it was the first thing.

The AT field was her mother protecting her? Is her mom also in the Eva? Are they really just farming people's mothers to make Evas?

Go, girl! Kick ass, Asuka.

She's so happy to realize her mother loves her.

There's the other Evas. Are they also crafted from mothers?

It's nice to see Asuka with her confidence back.

Which one got shot?

Misato.

I thought probably given ep. 25 (was it?)

Shinji does bad things to other people to hurt himself.

That's a good message from Misato.

And then she went and did that. Ugh. Misato, I knew you were going to do some shit like this. And promising him the rest when he gets back. What a weirdo. But I guess she's dead now? That's too bad.

Ritsuko is sabotaging Gendo.

But she failed.

The spear of longinus is back and it got her!

I was wondering if they would stay down. She probably has to destroy the S2 drive.

Do these ones have pilots?

Oh, they're eating her. And she is connected by nerve link.

Ohhhhhh no. Asuka...

He couldn't go to the Eva so the Eva is coming to him.

He saw what happened to Asuka and absolutely lost his shit.

Should I take a break to discuss this half of the movie since it's split into episodes, or should I wait? Umm.... I have until the end of this song to decide, I think. Uh... I think I'll just wait until the very end.

Rei's arm fell off.

Gendo wants to reunite with Yui, which is something I had kind of toyed with as an idea because he talks about her a lot and is very partial to everything that relates to Yui except for Shinji (maybe sees too much of himself in the boy), but I hadn't really spent a lot of time thinking about it because I hate Gendo and he keeps hooking up with other scientists.

He has become one with Adam somehow. He needs to unite Adam and Lilith to commence the human instrumentality project and then go to where Yui is (the quantum plane, perhaps?)

Quite honestly, I'm still not completely clear on what Seele wants versus what Gendo wants.

He stuck his whole hand inside her.

Rei senses Shinji screaming.

Were there two spears of Longinus?

Oh, they made a replica.

They are rerutning man and Evas to their true forms.

Several replicas.

They're going to use Unit 1 and therefore Shinji as a sacrifice.

This is the lead up to the third impact.

There is a huge explosion.

Looks like an eye.

They're returning earth to its true form?

Rei decides not to help Gendo. And she regrew her hands. She's going up to help Shinji by going in Lilith.

And with that, Lilith is fixed, with her legs not weird anymore.

That is Lilith, right? That's what Kaworu said?

A giant incorporeal Rei to the rescue!

Shinji screaming at the sight of Rei.

They're syncing with Rei. Once again, that's a lot of fucking Reis.

Shinji is losing his mind.

kaworu appears, coming out of Rei's body. But there's the spear. It's absorbed the spear. Now he's in the tree of life.

"Rei is in your heart. A perfect reflection of your wishes."

"What do you wish for?"

He's alone at the playground because the other kids went home with their mom and he doesn't have one.

His little Mary Janes.

Built the sand castle, knocked it down in a fit of rage, then started trying to put it back together and crying.

Did this stuff Shinji is seeing actually happen or is it happening in his head as part of human instrumentality?

Now he's choking her.

Seeing all the worst of humanity.

Shinji bouncing back and forth between everyone should die because they don't love me, and I should die because I don't matter to anyone.

Rei just sprouted from the atmosphere.

Everyone is truning to jelly. Primordial soup.

"I'd only hurt Shinji. That's why I left him alone." He's just like Shinji fr.

The Eva series are shoving the spears further in.

Rei is vacuuming something into her palms, it looks like. Is that souls?

The tree of life thing just went into the eye hole/ keyhole/ vag in her head.

Now we've got some actual footage from the real world.

"You made a convenient fantasy to get revenge on reality."

Rei and Shinji are kind of fused together. Everyone is merged into one, which is what Rei said Shinji wished for. But he realizes that's not really what he wanted.

AT fields are what keep us separate and cause our pain, but Shinji realizes that he wants to be with others again more than he wants to run away from the pain.

So now Rei is bringing everyone back, I think?

Yui wanted to make the Eva to be a testament that humanity existed even after the universe dies.

Shinji wakes up next to a red sea abd Asuka. Shinji sees Rei for just a moment, and then she'd gone. There is a red ring around the earth. He's trying to choke her and crying, then she touches his face softly and he stops. He cries. She calls him disgusting and the movie ends.

In Conclusion

Well.

Well, well, well.

First off: I am still confused because it seems like Seele and Gendo were trying for the same thing and I am really not sure of the difference. Maybe it was just a matter of how they wanted to carry it out. I feel like I must be dumb as a rock for not getting it, but also maybe it's just mental priorities. I spent more mental energy trying to figure out other stuff.

This movie leaves me with a lot to think about. I'm already googling things about it, but I'm going to stop for now. I want to let it percolate a bit more, I think. Also, I should watch my DVD extras! Probably not today, though. I need to spend some time with my kid.

It seems that the third impact still affected the planet, but Shinji elected to have everyone be individuals so it was an apocalypse but not one that turned everyone into a single, liquid consiousness.

I don't really think everyone's Eva is infused with their mother, but I'm a little perplexed by Asuka saying her mother is why she has an AT field. Maybe she just meant because of how her mother shaped her identity. Not really sure. I mean, I would understand if Shinji had that revelation but not sure on Asuka.

Yeah, this is another one that's going to have to sit for a while in my head, I think. There's a lot to sort through.

I do love that the connection between mother and child seems to be so important in this series. It's kind of sad because Shinji feels so alone and uncared for, but we can see that his mother is always watching him and protecting him, whether it's as Rei or as Unit 1 or as a metaphysical version of herself. But we also see Asuka dealing with a lack of love from her mother. That poor girl.

Also, can we really love anyone when they are mixed together in a soup with us? Shinji could be merged with everyone in the LCL sea but they were no longer separate people, so he still couldn't really be with them, because there was no longer a them to be with.

I do slightly wish the objectives between Seele and Gendo had been slightly clearer. I get that it's all secondary to the real message but I get hung up on this kind of stuff when it's not clicking.

Yeah, I don't think I've got anything really definitive to say right now. This is definitely another thinker and I need time to let my thoughts form.

I am left wanting more. Not of the story, but just of seeing the characters together. I wish we could get an Evangelion slice of life series and just see their day to day lives as Eva pilots with only a very loose plot to tie the series together. I want to see them all existing and coexisting and I think I could happily watch several seasons of that.

Okay, well, I have a couple people to text now that I've finished the movie and I need to sit and think some more. I want to look up more stuff but I feel like maybe I should wrap up this watching experience with a better conclusion post. I think I will try (only try, no promises-I've got a head full of questions) to hold off on looking anything up while I sort through things and maybe look at my notes and then attempt to gather together my thoughts and post them.

I will also think about those Shinji romcom asks.

This was a very good show. I will definitely be watching again, and quite possibly very soon. I confess that I put in a bid for a boxed set of the Perfect collection, which should have the original dub, so if I win it I'm going to buy it and then watch it with the original dub because I'm curious to see the difference.

[mysticbewitched]

It’s funny how you just made the post on how your perception has evolved because I literally deleted tumblr app today and continued reading The Law and The Promise and came to the same epiphany. None of Neville’s books shows how limitless we are apart from that one (to be fair, it’s just the tip of the iceberg). That is his last book as far as I’m aware, which says a lot . This book literally has a success story of a woman (lives in San Francisco) who imagined herself to be in her daughters home (in England) and imagined seeing her daughter. Her daughter turned to her, made eye contact and looked frightened and then she snapped out of the “imaginary” scene. Then the mum got a letter like a week later telling her that her daughter had seen her and she thought she was dead and had seen a ghost so her husband told her to send a letter to her mum straight away. Same day and time the mum imagined herself in her daughters home, the daughter had physically seen her there too. I never knew Neville spoke of these limitless acts but he truly evolved and so have you. He even writes about how imagination is not only within but without too and that they’re not separate and that imagination (consciousness/awareness) is “God” and all things exist because of imagination (consciousness /awareness). Whatever we become aware of we make real then and there. If only people would persist in its reality regardless of what seems otherwise, would they experience the full expression of it. There’s successes in that book that show you people who have been in the face of what seemed like they would never get their desires but returned to their imagination and had their desire fully expressed then and there.

I completely agree with you and everything you said. It's absolutely wild to me how so many people who claim to be loyal followers of Neville's teachings distort his work out of shape and spread around misinformation which others blindly accept on their journey.

What we truly are as awareness is indescribable, incomparable, infinite, and simply unmatched. We are the very source of creation itself, and it's such an incredibly beautiful realization to come to after drowning in a deep, endless sea full of ignorant misinformation for so long.

I'm grateful that I came to this realization of the true self and I was able to evolve in my beliefs just as Neville evolved on his journey. It's a beautiful metamorphosis to me.

I have heard that story about the daughter freaking out when her mother appeared to her out of nowhere and it never fails to amaze me every time I am reminded of it. All things are possible and that's only the tip of the iceberg as you said.

There was also a story from this one guy where Neville was once in two places at once which freaked the guy out and he couldn't understand how that was possible. I was floored when I first read about all of this and I thought of how funny that one guy's reactions must have been at the time.

Check out the story here.

You should also check out the story of this one woman (Louise Berlay) who manifested seeing her deceased son appear to her in her bedroom because she wanted to see him again and she was hellbent on manifesting to see him again after his death.

You can find that story here.

I recommend for everyone here to read The Law & The Promise. It's one of Neville's best, it has wild success stories, and it's simply incredible.

[wetcatspellcaster]

So I've been reading Pieces and Honest Lie alongside a friend who isn't on tumblr at all but still reads a lot of fanfiction. We both love both stories deeply and have a great time co-reading whenever a new chapter comes out.

Through casual conversation, she JUST NOW discovered that Honest Lie is going to have a happy ending and isn't the same timeline as Pieces. and oh boy, what a reaction. Here I had thought we were having the same reading experience, meanwhile she was consuming a tragedy and was prepared for everyone to be SO SAD

The texts I got:

OH MY GOD ARE YOU SERIOUS THAT IS INSANE that changes everythinggggggf I thought I was reading a tragedy That’s craaaaazy Wowowowoowiwoiwow This is so much to process I need time to thibk lol

Anyway, I thought that you might also find this entertaining! RIP to any other non-tumblr readers who didn't notice the "angst with a happy ending" tag on Ao3

lmao hello badwolf109's friend: you are so brave, it literally takes a lot for me to read a sad fic in my spare time. real life is already too depressing for that kind of praxis.

I am indeed laughing, I'm so happy for you both!

it truly underscores what a wild time it is to be writing in a fandom where people stick with WIPs and place their trust in you, rather than bingereading all the way to that eventual happy ending.

I know I angst! I know I write angst! But I am such a baby when it comes to true tragedy, I was so wet cat sad by the end of the Ascendency arc of Pieces - couldn't even do a tragedy in my tragic fic!! So, i promise you badwolf109's friend, there is absolutely a happy ending to An Honest Lie!! We've got to get these bitches to a graveyard!!!

[misscellophane-ao3]

And here it is~ the drabble based on the results of these three polls (extra poll) – A WangXian Soulmate AU ~ CW: Mentions of Allergies and potential Allergic reaction, WWX purposely ignoring an allergy (ex. Wei Ying wants to eat an almond joy but is allergic to almonds)

It turned into a crack fic 😅 I hope you all enjoy it ~ And hey, I ended up using all three quotes anyway 😂

--Start--

"Wei Ying! No!" Lan Zhan exclaimed as soon as he caught sight of his soulmate. Wei Ying startled at his sudden appearance, turning to him with wide eyes and a slightly guilty expression, his hand bringing the candy bar to his mouth froze in place.

"Those have real almonds in them, why would you eat that if you were allergic?" Lan Zhan asked, horrified as he took the opened almond joy away from his boyfriend, suddenly grateful he entered the kitchen not a second later, "Where did you even get this?"

There definitely shouldn't have been any type of almonds in the house, let alone anywhere Wei Ying could accidentally or purposely get to them.

"Huaisang keeps saying how good it is! I wanted to try it!" Wei Ying whined, making grabby hands at the candy bar, "Come on, just a bite Lan Zhan!" Wei Ying gave him his best pout, he could see his Lan Zhan waver briefly before his stance firmed back up.

"No."

"But I'm not even that allergic to it! I'll just get watery eyes and an itchy mouth." Wei Ying defended, "Plus it's my body not yours!"

Lan Zhan shot him a Look.

"It may not be my body, but it is a body that holds a soul I care for very much and can not live without. Even the universe agrees." He said, with a pointed glance at the soulmark clearly visible due to Wei Ying's choice of slouchy tank top, Lan Zhan's matching mark was covered by his t-shirt.

Wei Ying flushed slightly, "Lan Zhan."

Ugh, why did his boyfriend have to take them being soulmates so seriously? It makes Wei Ying's heart melt.

He could still remember the day they realized it, it was a business event he went to with the Jiāngs. Everyone was dressed to the nines, alcohol was flowing, people were mingling; and Lan Zhan had decked Wen Chao after he attempted to throw a drink at Wei Ying for a reason he can't really recall anymore.

Attempted, because Lan Zhan had swiftly stepped in front of the line of fire just as Wei Ying prepared himself for the splash of cold amber colored liquid. His fancy shirt got completely ruined even with Wei Ying immediately dragging the other to the bathroom in hopes of saving it.

Seeing the soul mark on Lan Zhan's shoulder was the cherry on top of the cake that night (the cake obviously being watching Lan Zhan giving Wen Chao a black eye....and maybe also seeing Lan Zhan wipe his bare chest and abs down with a wet paper towel).

Wei Ying couldn't deny the pull he had towards the other since even before that incident, though. Constantly following after the other, making excuses to see him, hanging out with him whenever he could, touching him and teasing him a ridiculous amount. Seriously, his thoughts practically consisted of Lan Zhan, Lan Zhan, Lan Zhan 24/7.

Finding out they were soulmates just made sense. And Lan Zhan loved to remind him of it every day. Wei Ying is honestly surprised he hasn't combusted from all the blushing he does when Lan Zhan says literally anything sweet or romantic. Or even worse, teasing.

Lan Zhan softened, "Wei Ying, my love, I would hate to see you in any amount of pain, almond joy is not worth it."

"How would you know!? You don't even like almonds." Wei Ying pouted.

"Wei Ying, please. I will make you a homemade almond joy without the almonds. Please, don't risk your health for a simple candy bar."

Wei Ying perked up, "You can do that? Would it actually taste like a real almond joy?"

"It will taste even better." Lan Zhan promised with no hesitation.

Wei Ying hummed, eyes narrowed in thought.

Lan Zhan was surprisingly good at baking. Maybe he really could find an almond-less almond joy recipe or even make one up himself. Either way, it was obvious he wasn't gonna get to taste the candy bar any time soon.

Wei Ying sighed, "Fine. I won't eat it."

Lan Zhan instantly relaxed, going to throw the candy bar in the trash, "Good. They suck anyway."

Wei Ying squawked in surprise, laughter rising up, loud and bright, a fond smile crossing Lan Zhan's face at the sound.

"Lan Zhan! Don't let Huaisang hear you say that! He practically worships them!"

"Mn." Lan Zhan washed his hands before coming back to the island where Wei Ying sat.

"Take a nap with me." He said, gently easing Wei Ying from the bar stool by his thighs, Wei Ying instantly wrapped his legs around Lan Zhan's waist in response, arms slipping over his shoulders

"Okay." Wei Ying rolled his eyes fondly, "You don't have to carry me, Lan Zhan. I can walk."

"I know." Lan Zhan replies, heading off to the bedroom without once letting go of him.

Wei Ying pressed a soft smile against his shoulder, right where their soulmark was.

Two bunnies (one white and one black) curled around each other, the same position they fall into as soon as they hit the mattress.

[mysteriouslybluepirate]

Watching Con O'Neill's old stuff cause it's fun. Day #? Soldier Soldier S06 EP.09 Asking for it (Con's Conography. 1996)

In future if you want to read all of these posts, I've added the tag 'Con's Conography'. Now they're all in one nice spot!

Warnings for: Sexual assault/rape (committed by Con's character), abuse of power within the military structure, assault, abuse of power, sexist comments(what you would expect from the military).

Should I watch this before reading this? Is it worth it?:

Con plays a military official who abuses his station, sexually assaults a female private under his care, and semi-gets away with it with barely a scuff on the wrist in the end.

It's a really fucking good story about how women are treated in the military. Especially victims of sexual assault. He uses his power to try to get her kicked out. When that fails, he knows they're onto him. Without much evidence, he can't be prosecuted so he asks for a transfer, which he receives. He's not a repeat offender, his first assault happens mid-way through the episode, but he's a fucking jackass who couldn't take no for an answer. They give him internal reasons why he thinks he didn't go too far, and it is very real. If you're still interested, watch it.

Again, cause I went into this fully blind I will be saying whoreish things about Con. If you just look at his costumes, he has some 'hot' ones in this if you don't know what he does. If you look up Soldier Soldier a good chunk of it is people rebloging hot photos/gifs of Con without context.

He did this 1 year after Scarborough Ahoy and basically has a shorter haircut. Still in the 'hot young Con era'. They literally throw him into a pool fully clothed for fucks sake. After the scene happens, my tune changes. I promise. Again, they don't define him as a man with a history of assault, but Con's character is definitely the type to think 'I only fucked up once, I'm still a good person.' just fucking gross.

If it's too much skip around my live reaction and jump to the end for my final thoughts.

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So, military. Should have guessed based on that title. This intro is very 80s for the 90s. If they kill anyone I'll kind of be surprised.

CON! IMMEDIATELY!

Angry swim coach Con, yes.

God, he pulls off military type so well.

"If you've got the energy to smile, go give me a few more laps." HELL YEAH.

God, I know that's his voice, but god it sounds like it hurts.

I hate military types...so much.

This bike tampering is dumb, and dangerous, and is going to get both of them beat up. Also, these men(E-1 privates) 'respect' women more than any vet I've met.

I'd be entertained by that shit. And fucker seems like an ass so might as well give it to him.

Con looks huggable in that jacket. It's a nice soft blue. Love it.

CON IN A HAT! With a little feather.

"I never thought of you as a romantic!" GOD FUCKING DAMN IT. Can he just be evil? Or a douche? Every single fucking project this guy needs to be sad and lonely, wanting a friend/lover. Hurt by a past relationship and just wanting justice in his life. Don't get me wrong, I eat this shit up with a goddamn spoon. But Fucking HELL. EVERY CHARACTER?

HE'S DIVORCED. THAT MEANS HE'S AVAILABLE BABY. "There's only room for one woman in my life, I joined the army, she made a man out of me." I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE.

ALSO THAT CARDIGAN, AHHHH. It's obviously cheap military clothes, but god.

CON SMILING BABY!

(The young couple we've been following all episode) They're a cute couple (I say, a military brat that got out before I was 10. They'll fuck, have a kid, and be just as unhappy as anyone else on base. Divorce before their kids fifth birthday. Love that)

OHH I think I've seen clips of this scene!

ROBERT! THEY GAVE HIM THE NAME ROBERT. :) Funny in an Ironic way. He couldn't find a date? If he's a teacher then he probably doesn't leave base often, and a divorce? This man is going to be relationship adverse as fuck.

Also, parental issues be damned, he looks nice in uniform

I love that he got all up in his space, and Robert just looked fucking dead inside. Then he ruined his meal.

Also, please tell me he isn't going to fucking go after a woman in his charge. :). Please. Fucking please. I'm holding on by the edge of my rope, if he takes advantage of his subordinate, I will be pissed.

God, Con's speech around 12:30 sounds like a good ol' time.

BOB. I know it's a shortening of Robert, but Jesus fuck.

Also, this amount of restraint is admirable. He should have gotten screamed at.

We as the audience are probably supposed to think he's an ass. Nah, he didn't humiliate him in front of the other officers, held his ground when he thought he was being made fun of. This is just good leadership. Izzy Hands could fucking learn a thing.

Bitch, he would have already heard about them fucking. The gossip would have been spread by lower-level officers. This 'damn, she got away' thing shouldn't work.

OOooooo sexist Con line. Don't like that.

Small break to talk about a fun real life military thing.

His point about some people getting ahead by passing tests is a real thing many in the military resent. (In the US you go up an E-4 on day 1 if you have a bachelor's degree in anything, to Corprol. Hell, depending on if you were reserves you could go up higher, when most start as E-1). This motivates some to join up even after they could get a job away from the civilian world. If you are poor, you're fucked. Take the long way around and don't get good pay.

Personally I see what Robert is saying here to be the main thing Izzy holds a grudge with Stede over. Stede was able to purchase being a captain where as he had to fight for it. Possibly die for it.

Now, back to this episode. There are bullshit and bigoted reasons behind this belief, not just class-based. It's used to say why women shouldn't serve, etc. Con's a sexist pig here and says these same reasons. It is exactly the reason I never followed in my family's footsteps. In male-dominated fields they will 9 times out of 10 treat you like shit. BACK TO THE SHOW.

Robert, if you fucking assault this woman I will reach into the screen and murder your ass.

Okay, a drunken apology is fun. Jackass trying to get in her pants.

EWWWW.

Forced attempted kiss/assult.

Don't like this. Mam, just scream close to the doors if you feel uncomfortable. Jesus Christ. OH THAT'S FUCKED UP.

Okay, he's forcing himself onto her. Gross.

Also, real-life examples of abuse of military power.

I DON'T CARE IF IT'S EMBARRASSING TO PAY FOR SEX, RAPE ISN'T BETTER YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE

He assaults her here.

Hey, you remember when I didn't want con to be in roles where he wasn't sympathetic. NOT LIKE THIS. This is actually one of the worst things you could have made him do.

BEAT HIS ASS UP. (This is around the 40-minute mark.)

I DON'T FUCKING CARE IF HE'S HIGH RANK, IM SWINGING.

This is where I started skipping around, thus why the rest is so short. It's all too painful and real. He's called into the office to answer for his crimes and bluff.

He threatens her in private, and thinks that he's going to get away with it.

Again, the military is in to protect their ass, but it's good to see the woman investigator standing up for the victim.

OH GOOD, FUCKING KILL HIM (he's almost drowned from the victims boyfriend, but gets stopped).

So, at the end of the day. There's not enough evidence to put him in jail or kick him out. She's left traumatized, and Robert gets away with some glares and very little else.

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Story: 8-9/10. Very real. I was wearing Con tinted glasses, but as a military kid who grew up around this shit, I almost immediately coped with him as the type to assault an officer. Lonely, doesn't get out much and feels like women owe him something. The type.

Con: ?/10 He plays A Fucking Vile piece of shit. The worst of it is you know his character has half a dozen reasons of justification. I was tempted to write out all the ones he says in the show, but no. I've heard it all before when men come onto me, and I tell them I'm gay. 'But you looked at me and smiled?' type shit. He plays the part really fucking well. Skin crawling performance of a 'nice guy'. He just does it so realistically I don't want to say like 3/10 you know?

Characters besides Con: Realistically, and sadly, more men would have sided with Robert. He has the rank, and though not well-liked, he would have been given the benefit of the doubt more than he was in the show. Everyone's performances were realistic and semi-heartwarming with how they believed the E-1. I liked the main couple and I hope they get together in the end. This a good example of why we need high-ranking women in the military.

Editing: Of it's era but non intrusive.

Overall: ?/10. I don't know how to put this one.

Again, if I wasn't ex-military kid/grew up around vets it wouldn't hurt as much. They sell you a dream when you grow up thinking the military does no wrong. How successful your male family members are and how they are heroes. But as a little girl, I quickly saw just how fucking dangerous to live up to these expectations was as an woman. On and off the field. If the purpose in this was to reassure the public that female victims would be believed, then it kind of works as propaganda.

This show fully explores it in a military with less rigor than the one I'm used to seeing. Still the same sexism bullshit regardless of where you are.

Don't worry, I'm watching a Val (BBC Uncle) mega cut after this to soothe my head.

I'd love to hear if anyone else has watched this, and your thoughts on it!

Have a lovely day.

thanks to @ivegotnonameidea for the list :)

[spring-demonx]

[Diabolik Lovers HDB LVE] Manservant & Brute Endings ~Subaru🗡️~

Am I doing this after only doing the vampire ends of (almost) every Sakamaki brother? Yes. But I wanted to get it out of the way bc surprisingly, getting the right amount of S points was slightly tedious for me LOL (literally tried 3 times to get Subaru's manservant end b4 resorting to just look up how to get it)

Manservant End

Running away from the castle after Subaru killed Christa, Yui and Subaru arrive in the forest. Yui laments how she couldn't listen to Subaru's wish for her to wait for him while he does what he gotta do, and notices how depressed he looks. She asks him if he's alright as, seeing your mother dead on the ground would probably warrant such a reaction, only for it to come as a surprise that Subaru himself was the one who killed her, because he wanted to free her from the Hell she was living. He goes on to talk about how his "filthy" blood "dirtied" the white rose, driving her to insanity (it wasn't your fault, Babuಥ_ಥ).

Christa was deemed the most beautiful of the family, so that's the title she was given. But then, KarlHeinz r-worded her and Subaru was born then she 'wilted'. He says although it was them (*cough* KarlHeinz's, let's be real) who ruined her and she loathed them, she couldn't kill them nor take her own life. So due to time flowing differently for vampires compared to humans (and trauma), she eventually was driven to insanity. So to release his mother from being held captive by KarlHeinz in her eternal life of mental instability, Subaru followed the plea she gave him from a young age and killed her.

There's small implications once again of the connection of Yui's heart and Cordelia, but when questioned Subaru brushes it off and says to just forget about it. To his frustration, he can't kill his father because he doesn't have the power to do so yet, so Yui tells him to drink her blood as that makes him more powerful so one day he will gain the power to kill KarlHeinz. He's hesitant at first but Yui expresses he can lose his self-control because she broke her promise and didn't wait for him and wants to help him, not minding that she's his prey... Under the condition that he's not allowed to drink anyone else's blood, of course. Subaru agrees and promises to never let her go, drinking her blood in the moonlight.

Brute End

Yui wakes up and Subaru hasn't come back yet, so she starts to get worried. One of Subaru's(?) familiars flies in carrying a pouch which holds Subaru's silver knife, AND A WHITE ROSE!ಥ_ಥ Yui finds blood on the rose, and that's when it hits her that Subaru's most likely dead:') Screaming, she blames herself for not stopping him from leaving, and begs someone to save him, she'd even throw away her belief in God. This is finally where Cordelia actually comes into play herself, and tries to take over Yui's body, bc apparently she couldn't all this time since Yui hadn't given up her faith until now?

They talk for a bit and ofc Cordelia gotta rub everything in her face, saying that if Subaru had continued to drink her blood, "maybe he wouldn't have died so pathetically"╰（‵□′）╯ she wants to take over Yui to use the power to kill Karl Heinz (valid, honestly. Dude can drop dead). Yui takes all this information, and calls for Subaru, apologising for saying smth that dishonoured his kindness of wanting to protect her. Silently pledging her life to Subaru, she follows him and implacably stabs herself(┬┬﹏┬┬)

[cool-island-songs]

11 and 25 for the dangerous game >:3

thanks mal! <33 (from this ask game)

11. number of fandom-related words you've filtered

just 3 on this account cuz it's my personal, none on my fanart archiving blog, and 7 on twitter though funnily enough half of those are stranger things-related from a period where i really couldn't escape stranger things. nothing against it—i just only want to see sp stuff and i guess there was a significant enough overlap for a bit

25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

generally a lot of things that annoy me stem from the trend of complaining about "fetishization" (yaoi or just shipping culture i guess?) or acting like people are doing anything wrong or in need of pathologizing for interacting with fandom in a way that was totally routine a decade ago. that they need to show they're sufficiently queer and not focused on sexuality in any ~weird way. honestly, i find that sort of thing easy enough to block out on its own (there's more of it on twitter but i just look at art over there). young people often have shame about sexuality and it's none of my business or anything i would ever argue with someone about. i just disengage

it's more the reactions people have to being told they're doing something problematic. there's this endless chain of moral rationalizations for why it's ok to like the thing that piques one's interest because actually it's woke and you don't get it, i'm gay enough to like standard yaoi tropes. some real gay people are like this! you know.. like, why engage this in the first place? why lend any credence to this viewpoint by debating it on its own terms? you don't need to justify yourself to anyone. just keep yaoifying those fake guys

people end up making really weird generalizations about gender, sexuality, mental health, drug use, etc. in an effort to enjoy the old 00s yaoi tropes. to all those who do this, I'm here to tell you you can just enjoy whatever and no one can stop you. personally, even as a smut writer, i like when characters feel whole and often enjoy a fic less if i feel someone is being reduced to gendered stereotypes or flattened in some other way that doesn't interest or challenge me. but those are my own personal feelings and highly subjective besides

i also don't think sharing some broad identity marker with the character you are writing actually shields you from poor characterization. people can "fetishize" themselves easily (and sometimes that's what people want to read/write, and who cares), and it can be hard to write well-developed characters! i just like to read and view things i enjoy on the merits of the work alone

general "you can't ship that" and "he would never top/bottom" sentiments are similarly grating. people can and do ship literally anything and it can't be stamped out so idk why people waste their time streisand effecting ships/dynamics they don't like. with both of these, there's a sense of deluded entitlement, like if people weren't making stuff for their ship/dynamic, they'd be making it for yours. i promise you that that type of hectoring actually just drives people away from what you like. in general, people are often quite fixed in who their faves are and how they like them in romantic/sexual situations. but for those like me, who really can potentially like anything if sold in a way i find compelling, this stuff really confounds and frustrates me. people are bad at getting what they want because of this need to emotionally react without thinking through the way it might impact others. sad stuff to see from adults in particular tbh

[sleuthy-scientist]

A Flicker of Lost Love Part II - Holding onto the Past

*Set in AU where Hotchniss had a brief relationship when he worked for Ambassador Prentiss. This chapter takes place in 3x02 after Emily quits to save Aaron's job.*

She hadn't thought about their past together in months. Not wanting to do any injustice to the woman he chose to be his wife. Emily promised herself she couldn't ever consider thinking about him as she had before. She needed to do her job without drama and distraction.

The job that had been her dream for longer than she cared to admit. Knowing this time the morality of her work wasn't going to be a problem. Because she knew clear cut who the good guys were in these scenarios.

It was a huge adjustment moving, but she couldn't turn down the opportunity when it presented itself to her. It had felt like fate, coming to her at the perfect time, when she felt stuck and lost and needed a change. And it brought her back to him, but she didn't like to ruminate on that path of thoughts. It was too slippery of a steep slope to even consider transversing. Plus he was more off limits now than he had ever been before.

She needed to put all past thoughts and feelings from him in her vault. This job was too important, to put unnecessary risk or paint herself with a target in any way. Emily knew there was always going to be confidential parts from her past she couldn't share, but here she felt safe. Like she didn't have to hide every aspect of her life and personality from the people on her new team. She hoped eventually to feel at ease with them and a part of the team they so carefully cultivated.

Emily could see herself eventually being accepted into the inner fold of the amazing people who already had her respect. She wanted to have a future here, where she could make a clear cut difference and not have to worry what side of the law she stood on.

The welcoming she received overall luke warm at best, but she understood the underlying hostility in this line of work. It was literally life or death, so she didn't blame them for distrusting her.

It seemed to be a mixed bag of reactions to her joining their team. While some like Hotch and Gideon were slow to trust and accept her like she expected, JJ's hesitance and Morgan's friendly demeanor surprised her more. She would have thought the reception she garnered from them both to be reversed based on her gut instinct and perception of the them.

It was clear Morgan, wasn't someone who trusted or warmed up to just anyone. And Emily originally assumed JJ was going to be an immediate friend and ally. But instead the woman seemed wary and suscpious of her for no particular reason as far as she knew.

Yet now she knew the truth of her job offer she excitedly thought she earned. Finding out she was brought on by their Section Chief as her Marionette puppet to control. Erin Strauss wanted to have her do her bidding, to keep her own hands clean. Reminding Emily at her hesitance to comply, that she wasn't a real BAU agent. That her position and future could be taken away in a blink of the eye.

Emily stared down at the shoe box she brought down from the back of her closet. It had been almost two years since she had last dared to peer inside at it's contents. Ticket stubs, little love notes, a few pressed flowers, a small stuffed bear keychain with an I❤️NY t-shirt, the locket, and a douzen or so photos from their time together.

It was eerily haunting the way her younger self smiled so carefree, so unaware of how much pain she would experience, care of the man smiling just as genuinely in that captured moment, frozen in time. Seeing them like that, so content, positive, and hopeful made her sad. Knowing she had incurred countless scars and memories since that, made what they had seem like a fairytale from another life.

Emily knew it was all for the best, that quitting now was how it was meant to be. That maybe it also meant it was time for her to move on and forget about their past. To finally let go of the man she once thought she would spend her life with.

She headed to her refrigerator, considering pouring herself a glass of wine to help drown out the memories. The knock at her apartment door interrupted her musings. The man in question was probably the last person she expected to show up at her door, yet there he was. It felt like deja vu of the last time he'd shown up at her door unannounced.

Yet, last time he had come to apologise for a stupid misunderstanding they had, that visit had ended with both of them taking their clothes off. Emily wished she could fondly remember how they hadn't left her apartment for almost 48 hours straight then. But it would be inappropriate now, for numerous reasons.

Emily knew this time there was no way anyone would be losing any layers. If anything she would need to bundle up if the frosty demeanor in his glare was any indication. Emily invited him in knowing from his stance he had no intention of leaving, and she had no intention of giving her neighbors a show.

Emily wished she had remembered the items sprawled out on her coffee table. She hoped if he saw them, realised the significance of the items, he wouldn't think she was pathetic and desperate for holding onto the past.

That he wouldn't kick her while she was down in the gutters with horrific comments about what they had had, and how little it had meant to him. How easy he found it to forget about the secrets and dreams they shared, for the future she thought they would have together.

Emily was glad he didn't seem to notice or even show interest in the decor around him. He stepped into her kitchen and Emily stood infront of the items she left out, further hiding them from his line of sight. Leaving the kitchen counter as a barrier between them, allowing Emily little peace of mind. Aaron interrupted the momentary silence that settled, cutting right to the chase, informing her of the true intention for showing up at her door.

Yet, she wasn't in a charitable mood, wanting him to spell it out for himself what he deduced from her quitting. Emily knew he was smart enough to read through the interaction in his office. That he would understand it had been a show for their section chief's benefit.

Complimenting Hotch after welcoming him back and pretending she hadn't noticed the other woman in the room. Strategically leaving herself with the last word finally acknowledging the Section Chief as if she was an afterthought. It was Emily's own version of a professional 'fuck you' to Erin Strauss. She had known even then he had sensed the tension in the room between her and their boss. That he had been aware something was amiss about the whole interaction.

Emily Prentiss had always been willing to follow him to whatever depths of hell he led her to. Even if he didn't know the the devout faith she had in him that had nothing to do with her unwavering love. It has everything to do with her respect for him and all he stood for.

Emily knew she didn't owe him anything, that he didn't deserve her loyalty after everything he had put her through. Even dismissing their past and how he broke her heart. Since her return into his life, he had been a real condescending jerk to her. So Emily knew she didn't owe him anything, she had solely been trying to do the right thing. To do her part to ensure the team she'd grown to care for in her short time with them, weren't torn apart in thanks to her.

Emily had quit because it was the only way to recuse herself from helping Strauss. It was the right thing to do, she refused to let anyone use power and politics to win. Especially when the BAU team needed a man like Aaron Hotchner at its helm to lead them and make the tough decisions. To help bring order and justice to restore some semblance of balance with the overwhelming evil and danger in the world.

When he correctly deduced her qualm, he issued her a challenge with his ultimatum, knowing full well she was too prepared not to have a go bag packed and ready. Emily knew it was his way of skirting around their personal past and saying she earned her place on the team. Of finally acknowledging without words that he had wrongly misjudged her and her morals.

She'd never know when she went to quickly change and grab her bag, he grew misty-eyed observing the items she had left out, immediately recognizing them for what they were. Or that he was the reason her favourite slightly worn photo of them went missing from her stack.

Yet years later, when she learned where the photo ended up, Emily would be glad to know it had comforted him in ways he couldn't even begin to explain to himself when he took it from her collection. That she had been the light that pulled him from the depths of his own darkness all along.

Even more pleased to know now, that even then he carried a torch for her. Because the love they had for each other had always been an eternal flame. One that kept burning no matter the time, distance, or barrier that came between them, threatening to extinguish their flames. Just waiting until they were reunited, so it could burn brighter than ever before.

[aresxseunggi]

103 — sgs 27th.

MOVED FROM DISCORD.

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ares was, in every sense of the word, happy. he was excited. having seunggi at his side was always his favorite thing, sure, but this? “a few more steps, baby.” was mused as he continued to guide his blindfolded fiancé. out of a car, into a building, turns and more doorways — it was safe to say this was more than a simple trek. not to mention the flight to get here, which ultimately revealed the location as thailand. but that was fine, it wasn’t necessarily the location but more so where they were now. not that seunggi knew that much seeing as since the moment they were in the car, the blindfold made its appearance. “sit for me, careful — you’re going to the floor, okay?” how insane this must sound, especially considering the fact that seunggi couldn’t see. but it would be so worth it. part one of three parts was almost here and oh — ares couldn’t stop smiling. “i’m going to take it off but i need you to keep your eyes closed. i’ll tell you when to open them, i promise.” ares was finally letting go and taking the blindfold, and followed that up with reaching for one of his fiancée hands. a large bottle was left there as another door could be heard opening, steps along the tile nearing the man on the floor. and then? then ares was taking a few backwards steps to make sure seunggi was the focus here. “go ahead and open them.” there were three people in the room, them and one other — and a ball of black and white fur in the shape of a baby panda. one that was quickly fumbling its way towards the only person with its bottle.

seunggi, by all means, was practically putty in ares' hands here. he generally felt that way about birthdays — that it was more about putting on a happy face for others, letting his reaction fuel their happiness for the day without any real thought about himself. it didn't matter; seeing them happy made him happy, too. just a bit of a cycle of giving, he supposed. but he never felt like that when it came to spending his birthday with ares (or any day, really). celebrating became actually celebrating, actually taking the time to ensure that they were both having a good time. so, when it came to putting the blindfold on, he was all for it. he trusted that whatever ares had planned would make anything and everything (including the flight) worth it.

"the floor," was murmured to himself, as if he needed to verbally remind himself to not tip and face plant on his way down. both hands fell to press his palms onto the surface before his weight settled, crossing his legs in front of him (better to keep everything close when he had no idea what the fuck was going on, no?). losing the blindfold was a bit of a relief, but he couldn't help but hold the bottle in his hand out awkwardly, not at all sure as to what he had in his grasp. then the door was opening, and seunggi felt a little bit like he was in a damn mob movie. it was weirdly quiet, he could hear footsteps getting closer, and he still had no idea what the hell was in his hand —— his eyes pulled open at the okay, first letting his confused gaze bounce around the room, before: "oh my god." oh, god, did his eyes get wide and his lips pull into a small pout after he gasped. he probably looked like a cartoon character on the verge of literal tears as he looked at the baby animal, hands outstretched to make its transition closer a little easier. "oh, god — i'm going to cry. look at you!" he cooed, hands finding the bear's little stomach — don't even get him started on that — to slip it into his lap. "hi, baby, how are you?"

a few more backwards steps, all done with a growing smile as ares found his way to the chair closest. the way his heart probably doubled in size, and only continued to swell, was a testament to how crazy he was about seunggi. simply sitting back and watching a sweet moment unfold was it’s own brand of overwhelming. something he had to capture, hence the opening of the camera, the zooming in as seunggi’s hands opened and that little bear was brought to his lap. though he was putting it on the floor soon after, adjusting it to make sure the scene in question didn’t get missed. as much as he adored the memories this camera let them capture he wanted pictures. with the way the baby panda was all but pawing at the birthday boy, of course ares was going to want pictures. “her name is mei.” ares murmured as he pulled his phone from the confines of his pockets, and in the same moment he was taking a picture or two. maybe three or four — one was bound to be clear and that’s all he wanted. “she’s four months.” came next, followed by a soft creak as he shifted back in his seat. god, he couldn’t stop smiling. this had to have been one of the best moments and he was so happy to be witnessing it. “happy birthday, baby.” he’d try not to say it too many times today, but no promises.

"mei," seunggi repeated, eyes still full of wonder as he scratched at her belly carefully. "four months? oh, god —" he gave an almost exasperated huff because, really, he was almost on the verge of tears. it wasn't a lie. he was just so happy, so content with this little living, breathing ball of fur nestled in his arms, that any more context and the dam was going to break. and that wasn't even considering the fact that ares, the love of his life — his fiancé, had set all of this up for him. his lips fell into a further pout, brows furrowing before he forced his lips into a tight line as his gaze shifted towards the man in question. "thank you," he murmured. a hand lifted, clearly reaching for ares to join him where he sat instead of all the way over there. "come here. she's so soft, a. you're gonna love her."

“m’trying to let you enjoy her.” but oh, how tempting it was. ares wasn’t even slightly immune to the cuteness in front of him, of which seunggi played a big part in. sure, mei was adorable but mei and seunggi? his face hurt from how big it made him smile. “but if you insist.” ares laughed as he happily got to his feet to again go back to seunggi’s side, which was followed by him carefully kneeling down. a hand went to seunggi’s chin to tip his head in search of a kiss before any petting could happen, though it wouldn’t be long at all before he gave into the urge. “she has a twin but kannika said they are hard to handle together.” was said in reference to the worker, eyes dropping to get a closer look at the baby. “she’s so adorable, oh my god,”

seunggi immediately scowled at that, refusing to buy into that excuse for one second. with how cute she was, there was more than enough to go around. his grin widened at the sight of the other man giving in, hand falling in to go back to scratching the panda's fur. where his gaze was glued to the baby momentarily, too, he didn't resist the tilt of his head for a kiss, all too happy to have ares by his side once more. "a twin?!" was whisper-shouted, as if the thought that there was another panda out there, just as cute and soft as mei out there, unable to be held, was going to break him even further. seunggi turned a bit, arms lifting the bear like they were in the lion king, so ares could get a closer. "y'got to touch her, baby — she loves it."

“mhm, maybe if we beg we can see both of them.” was said with a soft laugh as his position changed just enough to fall to his ass with a soft thud. if he was going to be in the presence of such cuteness, he was going to be comfortable during. “jesus,” ares was actually going to melt with the way seunggi was holding her up, laughing again as his hand lifted to give those little ears a scratch. “look at her,” was cooed softly, expression going fond as her little tongue came out. “oh god, seunggi, look. she loves you.” or whatever her expression meant, that is. “i can’t get over it.” her, him, it. ares was reaching for the bottle to try his hand, to see if mei even wanted it when she could have all the pets in the world. “we’re going to have to come see here again.”

oh, seunggi could feel his whole body going warm with how ares was looking at the bear, his tone of voice — all of it. he'd give everything and more to see the other experience this kind of happiness every day, and he'd do everything to ensure that ares would be able to. he let out a small laugh, handing over the bottle with ease. one arm slipped under the bear's bum to let her back rest against his chest, while the other was too busy letting her hand play with his. "can we?" thailand wasn't that far, was it? it was far, sure, but not impossible. "god, she's probably going to get so big."

oh, god. ares was honestly melting in real time, and scrambling for his phone again as the bottle was put down. “smile, baby.” ares was cheesing hard as he brought the camera up so he could snap a picture of the way seunggi was holding mei. “yeah, we are definitely coming back to see her. we might not get to pet her again once she’s grown but seeing her. maybe she’ll have babies by then.” ares murmured as a hand lifted to grab her little foot. “look how sweet.” was cooed with a little wiggle of the foot in his hand, and then he was back to scratching her ears. “she’s going to be on my mind for weeks.” if not more.

of course seunggi's head lifted at that, smile wide as could be as he prepped mei for the picture, too (meaning, he scratched under her chin a few times in an attempt to make her smile, whatever that looked like). "mm, maybe we'll have some of our own, too," he murmured, hands now busy tapping along the bottom of mei's feet. apparently he needed to understand every part of a panda but, in his defense, he'd never seen one this close before. "would y'like that, mei? play date with the kiddos at your place?" he teased, speedy finger now poking a bit at her belly. "here, do you want to hold her? i want to get a picture of you, too."

this moment was only getting softer and warmer with every second. babies of their own? that had his stomach doing flips, honestly it did. he was so, so excited by the idea. it seemed like the more time that passed, the more they spoke about it? it seemed less distant and more concrete for them. a couple pictures were snapped, and the phone lowered slowly to watch. “maybe.” the smile that grew basically said it all — he couldn’t wait for their own baby. “we can bring, uh — bamboo, or something.” whatever pandas ate. did they eat other things? they were bears, after all. “of course i want to hold her.” he wasn’t trying to steal her away from seunggi, and would give her back obviously — but he wouldn’t object to a few good minutes. both hands were going for her as his phone landed on the floor, smile only growing as he got his hands on mei. “oh my god,” oh my god. he loved her already.

seunggi handed over the bear with ease, careful not to poke either mei or ares as he did so, grin growing wider and wider at the sight of his fiancé with the baby. "oh my god," seunggi mirrored, the words instinctual on their own because — someone truly was going to need a mop to clean him up. he was going to melt into the floor. "you two look so cute," he cooed in awe, hand blindly tapping for ares' phone, not wanting to peel his eyes away by any means. after a solid ten seconds of missing the device entirely, he took it in his hand and swiped to the camera, holding it up quickly. "smile for me, baby."

“she’s so —“ perfect, really. mei was precious and ares was pretty sure he was never going to want to leave her side. even if he did know that wasn’t possible, and that here soon they would be on their way anyway. still, that just meant more fun to come and more reason to enjoy their time here. “smile, mei.” was cooed softly as the bear was lifted a little, head turning to press gently against the bears head as his eyes landed on the camera. staying still was the goal here, though lord knows he wouldn’t last long before wanting to move around and experience the pandas full potential. “i just wanna squish her.” a quiet complaint of sorts as he offered a careful hug to the panda and then was lowering her to his lap, and letting go to see what she did. not much, really, she just sat like a little lump on a log. “i wonder if she has toys or anything — like a ball.”

"two cuties," seunggi mused, resisting the urge to pinch his fiancé's cheek between his fingers in order to snap not one, but a handful of pictures. it'd be a shame to not make the most of the moment while they were hanging out with her. ares' phone was offered up in return once he was done, mostly because he truly was finding himself physically incapable of looking away from mei for too long. "i just wanna nap with her. she'd be so good, like — right here," he thought out loud, patting his chest lightly. though, at the mention of toys, his head lifted to ask the same of the worker, hoping to receive one in good time. "can offer my head in the mean time. i'll gladly sacrifice my nose if it'll make her happy."

“aw, baby.” ares cooed softly as both hands went to mei’s sides again and he was lifting her up to offer to his fiancé. “she’d keep you so warm.” the bear was placed into seunggi’s lap and then ares was letting folded hands fall to rest in his own. “i don’t know, she looks a little out for the count right now. you could probably get a nap in. you have —“ he paused to look at his phone with a gentle tap of the screen. “almost thirty more minutes here. plenty of nap time.” ares would, one hundred percent, sit here and watch them with total fondness in his heart. “this wasn’t even apart of the original plan, we just got lucky.” he added with a laugh, eyes lifting from the panda to land on seunggi. “i’m so happy we get to experience this together.” on seunggi’s birthday, no less.

"are you sure? i'm sure she'd love to play with a ball. — can pandas play fetch?" even if they could, with the way mei stumbled to him in the first place, he wasn't quite sure if she was willing to run like usain bolt for them. still, he let his hands find mei's fur once more, scratching gently along her belly. and, well, at the mention of plan, seunggi couldn't help but let an eyebrow raise. "then what was apart of the original plan?" he supposed it could just be a trip to thailand was a pretty damn good gift in itself. he truly was more than happy with flying out to wander the country and let that be that. mei was just a fantastic little bonus that he'd keep tucked in his heart for years to come. "i am, too, baby. thank you for setting all of this up."

“i think if anything she’d just knock it around or something.” was murmured as he leaned back on his palms and kept his gaze locked on the cute pair. “oh, the original plan is still happening. i have a friend there that was able to make this happen here, though.” bless her, this was better than he could have ever expected it to be. which was crazy considering he had expected it to be amazing to begin with. “anything for you.” was said with nothing but love — that’s really all he had right now, a heart full of love. “you mean everything to me, i’d do anything to see you this happy.” was murmured with a softening of his smile. “even if it means we have to come see baby pandas once a year.” ares sighed and his tone was one that pointed to being burdened, as if spending a day with the love of his life and pandas wasn’t as close to heaven as it got.

"ah, is it?" huh. food for thought. he'd do his best to not get too curious about what ares was going to pull out of his sleeve, but now that the idea had been put in his head… well, he couldn't control everything. "can you thank her for me? i think i owe her an arm and leg for this, really." seunggi's gaze melted further in real time, his lips curling into an impossibly fond grin despite not moving much at all. the hand closest to ares lifted, searching for his own to hold. it was followed by a a slight lean in, clearly looking for a kiss, too, because the deep warmth in his chest was growing greedier and greedier by the second. "i love you so much. even when you pretend to find this inconvenient."

“you can thank her yourself, she’ll be there.” god, the urge to just spill the beans was growing. he wanted to watch seunggi light up at hearing what he had planned. but more than that ares wanted to see it in real time, so he’d be patient. “you’re making me feel so soft.” was murmured as he took the offered hand and leaned in for his kiss, smile still present with a soft huff of a laugh. “i’m glad you do.” ares was pressing in for another, though the sound of a small ball rolling their way stole his attention. which, considering the ticking time, had him lifting his phone towards the worker with a small smile as he asked for a picture of the three of them. “if she falls asleep on you i think you’re stuck here the rest of the day.” ares murmured as he scooted closer, fingers intertwining with seunggi’s to bring to his own lap. “i’m framing every single one of these pictures. mei’s gonna be all over the place.”

"oh, good. i hope she's prepared to be thanked a million times over." he wanted to tease and press on where, exactly, there was, but he'd do his best to refrain, even if it was almost on the verge of making his eye twitch. "good. only fair that we're on the same page." his lips pulled into a more obvious smile until his eyes were flickering towards the ball. "mm, i might just fall asleep with her. a little power nap never hurt anyone," he tossed right back, letting his hand fall into ares' lap before a finger stroked along ares' knuckle. "should give her her own little wall." he hummed in agreement, though, after a moment: "you should paint her, maybe. i think that'd be nice, if you're up for it."painting was one thing — a thing ares was very, very good at, in seungg's opinion — but painting on a wall? that certainly was asking a lot of him. nonetheless, seunggi's grin remained natural and unmoving as his head tilted towards the camera in the worker's hands, leaning a little bit further against ares as he did so.

“you can use my lap as a pillow, i’ll even play with your hair.” ares would die inside from such a cute moment, but that was a mighty good way to go. “you’ll help?” ares glanced to the panda in question as if already commuting her to memory for the painting. “could be fun to do together.” ares brought their hands up to kiss the back of seunggi’s but only after the worker was handing his phone back. “we can add her babies when and if she has any.” and maybe their own kids could help — a never ending cycle, one ares would be happy to be apart of. “you’re going to be such a great dad, you’re a natural.” not that a baby panda really equates to a human baby — but, well. the idea was there and ares couldn’t stop thinking about it.

"of course i will," seunggi hummed, eyes glued to ares' features even as he looked away. seunggi wasn't particularly gifted when it came to art — he'd never really had enough practice to make anything that was worth something to him. but he could hold a brush and paint a straight line, so he could definitely assist. "ah, we definitely should. they'll be apart of the family, it's what they deserve." seunggi's hand slipped free from his fiancé's to card through the hair on the back of his head before he pressed in to press a kiss to his cheek. at the comment, seunggi's eyes lifted quickly — a fact he was most definitely embarrassed about. "you know, that means a lot to me. especially coming from you." really, he didn't think anyone else saying it would be able to hold a flame to ares saying so. "i can say the same thing for you. your eyes — you're so loving. feel like you've been pummeling me left and right every time you look at her," he snorted, scooting and turning away so he could actually lay his head in ares' lap.

as seunggi spoke, as he moved to get comfortable, ares felt that familiar feeling bubbling in the pit of his stomach. the love he had for seunggi grew and grew daily, it was almost as if he couldn’t contain it anymore. not that he saw it as a problem. an over abundance of love was a good problem to have. “if we can love her this much in thirty minutes just … imagine. i’m excited to see it first hand. not rushing it — just happy to know it’s in our future.” ares was already dragging his hand through seunggi’s hair as he looked down over them, smiling softly as he watched mei make herself comfortable on seunggi’s middle. “she sees it too. it’s like she knows she’s safe with you.” safe enough to doze off, which had his heart swelling again.

seunggi’s smile softened as ares spoke, features growing more and more relaxed with every pass of his fiancé’s hand in his hair. soon enough his eyes fell closed, too, frame slowly melting into the floor as his head did with ares’ lap. the hand not rubbing gently along mei’s back lifted to search for ares’ free one, intent on holding it as he drifted off. surely, his mind was filled with thoughts about how seunggi feeling safe enough to doze off here, with ares, must’ve meant something, too — but his comfort level with the little ball of warmth on his chest grew to an all time high, leaving him to fall asleep with a ghost of a hum on his lips.

(ending it here ajskdlfasjdfkasjfkskadf but they would have went and washed/played w adult elephants next <3)

[evita-shelby]

not only did oppenheimer leave me in a desolate state but also craving functional domesticity.

Can we get a one shot of old eva and old tommy being them. (taking a walk, or how they act with their grandkids, being crotchety old with eachother but still like moments of tenderness)

also i had a complete laugh at the last chapter, Tom just carted off the minute he said Diane’s name. I honestly re-read the whole series and remembered how Diane had that illness and they really thought it was TB, and tommy was faced with that real possibility that his only daughter (at the time) could die. As much hell as Diane has given him since he really can’t help but think of that pivotal moment that struck such fear in him, but now he’s faced with the very real possibility that this delinquent is going to take his daughter way from him. Honestly it makes sense for him to be concerned, despite Eva’s assurances he is a dad and what he’s seen of Tom wasn’t promising (even though that was partially his fault lol) and while brashness is rewarded there’s a pretty fine line between being headstrong and being stupid. I feel like Tommy is weary bc a man like Tom with that pride is either like Tommy (which he doesn’t like) or like his father (which he HATEs) but spoiler he’s his own man.

Yes omfg Tom x Eva when they old, i will het started as soon as i can.

Putting the answers for the next part under the cut

As for Diane, in the TYHTM/tie your heart to mine verse, she would have been 14 when she almost died in 1934 and has led to her being more mature for her age (she is having her 20th birthday in the next chapter, a month older than Karl) and having a very present fear of death (as seen with her reaction to knowing Tom’s going to end up in the Navy) and thinking people do not understand the seriousness of it as she was literally at death's door (due to a generational curse Tommy inherited from his mom and grandpa and accidentally passed on to her when he refused to commit suicide like them).

Tommy lets her get away with murder for that reason, and mainly because he blames himself for her illness as a teen. Eva assures him his fears are perfectly normal as she doesn't want to lose Diane so soon, but then remembers she was 21 when she met Tommy after having been exiled for treason and was a war veteran by 19.

He hates Tom because he sees himself in him despite the differences in their stories, he sees the kid who cannot find his place in the world and resents his dad who he and Lois couldn't count on when his mom died (would've been 12 when Josie Bennett died).

Now that he sees Diane in love with him, and knowing Tom is going to have a life altering experience in the war, Tommy fears his daughter will be stuck with a man who she will have to take care of, may die any second or will turn into him because history has a funny way of repeating itself.

Tom of course isn't turning into Tommy as he refuses to become like neither his dad nor Tommy.

And even if he dies in season 2, he will live forever and have Tom Jr, Josie and Douglas with Diane in a nice house in Manchester.

Eva has seen it, and Tommy better get used to him.

[localwebslingers]

A small grimace as given under the mask when Harry punched the wall. Appreciated that it wasn't aimed for himself, but Peter couldn't say he didn't sympathize with the reaction, "Sorry, I promise I'll replace it with real bandages as soon as we get the chance." webbing wasn't the gentlest option out there but it was the only one he had on hand. Literally. It stung but it would work, and they could do a lot worse given the fact that they couldn't exactly go anywhere. They just ahd to make their way back to the glider for the other bandages stored inside.

Peter waited there quietly as Harry breathed through it, that part being somewhat familiar compared to everything else happening. Even if he did feel a twinge of guilt knowing he was the one that contributed to it this time around. They had to get moving, and they had to still find where the younger Spider-Man was, but that was also the problem, "...if he went somewhere to feel safe." he countered after a moment, settling back slightly, "And that might not be what he had in mind where he left." sure, it was possible that the younger did go somewhere that was safe, but that could have been a secondary requirement.

Just like that, a part of him is flung back years. To when there was distruction and wreckage around him. Where a fight took place and someone got hurt. Someone died. Peter forced himself not to tense up, for Harry's sake and his probably already on edge nerves, "Sometimes it's just getting away." he said finally, "If it's like- ...if that's what he actually wants, then I don't know where to look. Because that's the whole point. It's not leaving the city, or finding somewhere safe to lay low and hide. It's about going where no one looks for you. Somewhere they can't reach you, or very few people can, and it's just you to try and clear your head and sort through whatever sent you there."

Deaths, nightmares, reminders. All of it and everything else in between. A moment to breathe, a moment to live, a moment to mourn where no one else would see it, "...mine is the Empire State Building. The view is the best in the city back home and it's...it's up high. No one can reach me up there, no one can see me, and it's quiet for the city. If he has a place like that, I can almost promise if it's really not his friends that he went to, that's where he is."

Which was going to be impossible for either of them to figure out. That was the problem now.

|| @inhcritance ||

There was a chance, and it made sense even right then, that nullifying whatever Norman had taken would remove the Goblin from the equation, and turn him into just a dangerous businessman, yes, but not the threat he currently was. And that, Harry had to acquiesce with a grunt, especially as Peter spoke again, and explained, and it should not have felt better that if the kid's sixth sense worked like Peter's then it was indeed two different personalities... but it was relieving, in a painful way, from the part of him that didn't want to offer compassion and yet offered it anyway.

"Then let's hope we can figure out how to undo that." He settled for.

And for better or worse, he had a distraction to deal with soon enough, because Peter's warning was appreciated but not entirely easy to deal with, and he solved it by punching the wall next to them with his other hand, the hit painful and jarring but enough not to lash out as he forced himself to fight back the instinct to yank the webbing out.

For the first few moments, he didn't even look at it. Not when the mere sound of a webshooter brought too many memories and he was not in the best state of mind to be fully rational about it, no matter how much of a necessity they were. But the situation was different, and he couldn't yank them out, and as much as it stung... the pain was the lesser of the problems there.

So he focused on breathing, then on looking at Peter again.

"All I know is where they won't be." He admitted. "And I don't know where his friends are, either."

Which had been a smart idea, up until now.

"Where would he go?" He wondered, trying to think out loud. "Where would he feel safe?"

Especially now, of all times.

@localwebslingers

[bokutosbabe]

Obey Me! Brothers when you tell them you want a baby!

Lucifer

He's never thought of a family before

his brothers and you were his whole world, he couldn't imagine expanding it

so when you bring up the idea of a family

a real family

He was shocked to say the least

he needed to think about it, or that's what he told you

but for weeks after you asked him, he couldn't stop thinking about it

A baby, a being of pure innocence coming from him?

he couldn't imagine it

he eventually told you that you'd get your baby after your schooling was done

and you're now waiting patiently for your family to start 🫶🏽

Mammon

Simply malfunctions

you, the woman he finds absolutely breathtaking and beautiful

wants a kid...

with him?

Now we all know he acts cocky

but i hc it's because he feels inferior and he's insecure

he shouts about 100 questions a minute, obviously they flustered

you have to calm him down with a kiss on the cheek

you have to ask him in a somewhat dominant way now

“ give me a baby , mammon ? ”

is literally on his hands and knees for you

“ yes yes of course anything for you ”

and he keeps up on his promise

you two try for a baby almost every night until he's sure you're having his baby 🫶🏽

Leviathan

Freaks tf out

as we have all seen before, he doesn't think that highly of himself

probably says something like

“ y-you want a baby from a disgusting otaku like me?! ”

to be fair, his reaction was what you were expecting

so you gotta show him a little extra love to get your point of you wanting his baby across

he eventually agrees,

and unlike with his older brother, you two only have to try once

And then your knocked up

( monster fuckers for the win ig )

he treats you like the queen you are

even pays a little attention to you during his games now!

Satan

your his love,

buttt - Satan personally doesn't feel like he could take care of a kid

Maybe it's his internalized hate for himself

Or maybe it's because he's worried that his kid will hate him the same way he hates Lucifer

He expresses these fears with you and you completely understand

but, that doesn't mean you don't still want his kid

but you'll wait years upon years for his kid

and after about two years , he gives you exactly what you've been wanting 🫶🏽

Asmodeus

yes

just yes

you're absolutely gorgeous and stunning

Literally to him he could use every single adjective or synonym or whatever it is-

To just describe how beautiful you are

And obviously

He's like the most gorgeous demon ever!

So y'all's baby?

Sign him up because he will be getting all of the clothes ready!

basically, this is your sign to have a kid with asmo

you two have to try quite a bit, but when you finally get pregnant

he already has names and outfits picked out for every gender

Beelzebub

the sweetest

he loves you so much

He'll do anything to make you happy

So, immediately after you ask him he swallows his food and drags you to the bedroom

He doesn't know that it takes like a month for a girl to figure out she's pregnant-

So if you're not pregnant the next day, he'll take you back to the bedroom and do it all over again

It takes a whole month before you figure out you're pregnant

he gets so excited

More excited than when you give him food 🫶🏽

Belphie

no

Listen he may now be dating a human, you, now

but that doesn't mean he wants to make a human demon hybrid with you

You are upset, of course, But how could you blame him?

He was traumatized and probably blamed the rest of humanity for everything.

so you just live out your days in devildom with him but cuddling

and giving him hope in humanity

maybe one day belphie will give you a baby

but for now, you're content with him and just him

@widegrins for u bae