#listen. it is a holiday. i get to write as many self indulgent drabbles as i want

[broodwolf221]

solrookvellan and past solythal : daw aldwir, nessa lavellan, and solas are all together and he visits the lighthouse where daw (and eventually nessa) live. right now he's alone with daw talking about his past with mythal.

"It looked like..." Daw trailed off with a frown, and Solas drew the back of his fingers across their cheek. Their lips twitched into the beginnings of a smile, but it never quite made it. "It looked bad, Solas."

"What did?" There were too many things they could be mentioning. Too many guilts he bore. His only uncertainty was in which.

"Mythal." Daw's voice was quiet, soft, more an admission than an answer, and he blinked. His hand fell from their cheek.

"I... that is..." he cleared his throat unnecessarily, straightening from where he'd been reclined. "I turned against her. It was difficult." He laid his hands palm-up and open in his lap, looking at them instead of meeting Daw's eyes. "I regret it." He scoffed, a bitter sound. "One of many things I regret. But I could not stand beside her, not then."

"That wasn't what I meant." Now he was the one who frowned and met their eyes. They looked genuinely surprised. "At all."

"What, then?"

"It looked bad. From her." Daw shifted, drew a little closer, their legs tucked under them. "She asked you to take form. You didn't want to, but you did. Then she asked you to make the dagger. You didn't want to, but you did. Then she-"

"Please," he interrupted, hands turned and digging into his own legs now. "Please. I understand." It was a curious thing, this. For all that he never would have expected anything that had grown between him and Rook, he certainly never expected them to place him in the role of victim to the woman he'd loved. "You must understand. The murals, they show my regrets. They do not show the fullness of my life. They do not show all we were to each other." He sighed, looking away. "Tell me, Rook. Do you have regrets?"

"Of course." The answer came quickly. Too quickly.

"About people you care for? And who care for you?"

"... yeah."

"And if I were to be shown only those regrets, devoid of context... what conclusions might I draw?"

"Oh." They shifted, and he knew them well enough to recognize their discomfort. "Okay, yeah. I get that."

"I will deny none of what you saw," he said after a moment. "They are regrets for a reason. But they paint the narrowest view of our relationship, one which spanned countless centuries. You are correct: I did not want to take a body. But she asked, and I agreed. Would you do any less, for the one who means the most to you? Knowing that they truly needed your aid?"

"I mean," they gestured expansively around them, and he smiled. "I think it's pretty obvious, isn't it?"

"Quite. But I want you to understand."

"I was worried," they admitted, reaching for his hand. His fingers had relaxed at some point, but the weight of their hand on his was still foreign. He hesitated before turning to meet them, palm-to-palm. "But it was obvious she loved you. The fragment of Mythal I met, I mean." He winced. "Shit. Sorry. This isn't easy, huh?"

"No. No, certainly not easy." He leaned back, squeezing their hand reassuringly. "But you deserve the truth. And it can be given now. I loved her, too. I always will. What we had was real, and it was beautiful." He smiled at the rush of memory. "It is one thing I do not regret."

"Huh." They sounded quizzical and he turned to look at them, arching a brow. "Oh, no, it's nothing. Not really. It's dumb."

"Tell me," he prompted gently.

"I'm maybe..." they were blushing, he noticed. He was uncertain he'd ever seen them blush. "A little jealous? It's ridiculous."

"Need I demonstrate my loyalty to you, now?" He let his voice drop, let it thicken the way they liked, and thrilled at their full-body shiver.

"I mean," they managed, "what's the old saying? Dread Wolf-"

"-take me," he finished, and kissed them.

[sohnric]

2024 REWIND ☆

thank you so much to beam @sungbeam for tagging me in this! I really love stats and numbers so this is definitely something I enjoyed doing. I know I haven't posted in a while but I think it's still great to look back a little on what I managed to put out this year!

first fic of 2024: beloved (eric sohn)

I remember being super super scared of posting this one. I wrote it when I was having a really hard time dealing with a lot of thoughts and emotions. definitely self-indulgent and very personal, but I am happy it's out there 🫶🏻

last fic of 2024: cool kids (sim jaeyun)

not gonna lie this drabble was the most spontaneous thing ever 😭😭 for the length of it it surprisingly took me a lot of time to finish and I wasn't even 100% happy with it, but I think it's a sweet harmless little drabble!

longest fic of 2024: partners in crime (ji changmin) - 33k

this was a work that I've wanted to write for literally years. this idea has been bouncing around my head since like 2020, so I am happy I finally got to write it. I think the timing was just right, since changmin really fit the role of who I wanted the main character to be, and although I was really scared to put this one out there, I am very proud of it.

most popular fic of 2024: cool kids (sim jayeun)

not gonna lie I believe I have works that deserve the number of notes more and I didnt even expect this drabble to get so much traction, but I am thankful to enhablr for this 🫶🏻 over 1.4k notes is truly crazy

personal pick of 2024: to. my first (kim sunwoo)

this fic (alongside with millennium bug) might just be the works I truly love the most. I posted this in early january, so it almost feels like last year, but I am still going to count it because this fic has a very very special place in my heart. I love everything about the plot, characters and the universe I created with this 90s au and I will definitely revisit it in 2025!

total fics written: 16

total words written: ~ 131 600

I battled with writer's block a lot this year and was also very busy with uni since september started, so I can't really be mad at myself. Happy that I focused on writing so much in summer and hopefully there are many more words waiting to be written by me next year, when I have a degree and a lot less to worry about haha.

top artists/muses of 2024:

kim sunwoo ~ 58.5k words written

eric sohn ~ 44.4k words written

ji changmin ~ 34.5k words written

nothing surprising here, not gonna lie HAHA. although he is not my bias, sunwoo is just the most fun to write about for me. I adore creating his character because I feel like we are similar in many ways (I am in his walls.)

last words:

thank you so much for everyone on this site that has read anything written by me this year. It's crazy to think there are so many people out there that cared enough about what I have to say and I am insanely grateful for every ask, reblog, follow, comment, message and like I've recieved this year 🫶🏻

thank you also to all of my friends on this site but mainly @csenke my belovedest. you helped me insanely in a lot of ways this year, but also with writing by always listening to me rambling, beta reading for me, brainstorming and giving me inspiration. I owe you my life and love u forever my best friend, can't wait to see u again in january <3

not sure when there will be a new work posted by me, since I need to write a bachelor's thesis before I let my brainrot win and write a fanfic, but trust me when I say I WILL BE BACK. the ideas in my drafts are too good to abandon.

happy holidays. I wish everyone's 2025 will be kind.

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Iz's Glee Fics

hi! welcome to my glee fic masterlist! hope these aren't literally the worst things you've ever read or whatever <3

izwordsoup on ao3

fics all under the cut!

Drabbles:

Kiss Prompt Fills | ao3

a kiss as a promise ~800 words, Klaine

a kiss because the world is saved ~300 words, Klaine

a kiss in relief ~600 words, Klaine

in secrecy; out of anger 2 short chapters, ~1,150 words, Klaine

to gain something; desperately; to shut them up 2 short chapters, ~1,450 words, Klaine

One-Shots:

Home for the Holidays | ao3 link

Pure fluff, holiday-inspired Klaine one-shot. ~1,550 words, Klaine

The Name of the Game | ao3 link

I got inspired after listening to ABBA's The Name of the Game one day and started writing this Klaine one-shot featuring badboy!Blaine, the song which inspired the fic, and Kurt and Blaine both being idiots who haven't admitted they like each other yet despite the current nature of their relationship. ~2,650 words, Klaine

A "Safe" Choice | ao3

A self-indulgent Klaine one-shot inspired by a weekly event at my work place in which an armored service technician from the cash-handling company comes to check the safe every Wednesday, and there are a couple technicians that everyone at work agrees are attractive. ~1,500 words, Klaine

3 a.m. | ao3

He's a mess. God, he's a fucking mess. Kurt didn't expect to find himself literally stumbling out of a bar at 3 a.m. but here he was. Drunk and lonely and sad under a streetlight on a New York City sidewalk outside of a bar at 3 a.m. How did he let himself get here?

~3,800 words, Klaine

Almost Hallmark | ao3

Blaine is homesick during his first Christmas season in New York City. Then he finds a quaint bakery and the handsome baker inside. Written for Klaine Secret Santa 2022 exchange

~2,200 words, Klaine

Zip Tease | ao3

A college party where everyone is a little drunker than they should be, an open fly, and a dare.

Inspired by a post and brainstormed by The Lima Bean discord crew.

Klaine, ~900 words

Remote Learning | ao3

Kurt and Blaine are NYU Tisch Drama professors. They’re also married with two kids. They usually don’t tell students that part, for the sake of keeping some of their personal life private. But when there’s a blizzard that snows everyone in at home for a few days and classes temporarily move online, sometimes there’s no choice but to reveal some pieces of their lives.

Written for Klaine Back-to-School AU Challenge 2023

~2,650 words, Klaine

set up to fall for you | ao3

Kurt knows Mercedes and Sam mean well, but the history of blind dates they’ve set him up on is not pretty. But maybe that’s about to change when he meets Sam’s friend Blaine as his blind date on a “double date” which Mercedes and Sam have convinced them to come along on.

~1,700 words, Klaine

Change of Heart | ao3

It is not the most wonderful time of the year when you're tasked with planning the office holiday party alongside a coworker you can't stand. But what if you actually don't hate them after all...

Written for Klaine Secret Santa 2023 Exchange

~2,900 words, Klaine

Multi-Chapter:

dropping august 7th

Series:

Running in Circles, Coming up Tails:

Running in Circles, Coming up Tails | ao3

Kurt and Adam are married with a seven-year-old daughter, Ellie. "Happily married" is another question.

Ellie takes piano lessons from none other than Blaine Anderson, who also happens to be a good friend of Kurt's since college.

What happens to them when Adam goes to England to star in a West End musical, leaving Kurt and Ellie in New York? What happens when Blaine becomes a more frequently-seen figure in Kurt and Ellie's lives due to Ellie's piano schedule?

Completed, 10 chapters, starts Kadam, Klaine endgame, ~15,500 words

"Just Friends" | ao3

Kurt had promised him many times that he and Blaine Anderson were just friends. But Adam knew from experience what could happen with "just friends." He knew what could happen if "just friends" got too close. He was wary of "just friends."

A one-shot, from Adam's perspective, exploring what might cause someone to cheat on their partner; and indirectly, how that might affect a relationship; and even more indirectly, why Adam might view Blaine as a threat. ~1,000 words

Things I Didn't Tell You | ao3

A collection of cut scenes and conversations from within the Running in Circles, Coming up Tails universe/timeline

More to be added as I think of cut scenes I want to include

Ellie's Version | ao3

A look at some scenes from Running in Circles, Coming up Tails and after that main timeline, but from Ellie's perspective.

~2,500 words

Worth Every Love Song | ao3

4 times Blaine and Kurt talk about marriage + the 1 time he actually asks Kurt to marry him

~2,850 words

New Adventures:

New Adventures Summer Camp | ao3

Kurt doesn't know why he agreed to be a camp counselor with Finn for the summer, he doesn't even like camping. In other words, Kurt is pretty sure this summer is going to suck. Enter cute fellow camp counselor Blaine Anderson. Written for Klaine Word Scramble 2022 Completed, 14 chapters, ~26,400 words, Klaine

run away to mars | ao3

"And on the nights when I get a little homesick, would you look outside and describe the stars for me?” or, how a broken-up Kurt and Blaine begin to find their way back together. completed, 2 chapters, ~3,200 words, Klaine

setting fire to our insides for fun:

no sweet dream (but a hell of a nightmare) | ao3

Quinn was tired of Lima and the face she'd put on for years. Kurt felt the same. It only made sense for them to reinvent themselves.

~1,250 words, Character Study, Kuinn Friendship

physical fatality | ao3

A mid-summer house party led Kurt into a summer fling filled with fire: desire and anger, equally. But fire meant that someone could get burned.

~5,500 words, Kurtbastian

knife with your heart up your sleeve | ao3

Kurt just wanted to finish senior year unbothered and get the hell out of Lima. What he didn’t need was to get attached to someone new. And then Blaine Anderson walked into his life.

Completed, 11 chapters, ~17,200 words, Klaine