#listen i'm having a crisis rn

[nosferatism]

i'm still so mad that key gave ***** a shout out like it was nothing and no mention of it has been made since..... how am i even supposed to look at you the same anymore

[a-very-tired-raven]

omg literally tho I've improved so much 😭😭-

Some doodles from the last week or so!

[last-starfighter]

plural playlist? plural playlist

ive been makin a playlist thats all "songs that make me think about bein plural/have plural vibes/are about trauma and systems/whatever" for a hot second. im not 100% happy with it but yknow i think we all need a distraction rn so.

have like 3 hours of ✨songs to split yr personality to✨ /s

if u vibe with this u can reblog it. this aint just for did systems or endo systems or trauma systems or whatever its for anyone who wants it.

content warnings: self-destructive vibes/suicidal ideation, drugs/alcohol, unreality, amnesia, bad choices, bad headmate relationships, breakups, fuckin kpop for some reason

tracklist + explanations under the cut

hive mind - tmbg i think this one speaks for itself

birdhouse in yr soul- tmbg listen this one has fucked up headmate to host vibes tell me im wrong. im yr only friend/im not actually yr friend/make a place in yr soul for me.

voices in my head- naked eyes pure goddamn 80s cheese but the lyrics are on point

simple and clean- utada hikaru raise yr hand if yr a sora fictive, have a sora fictive in yr system, or were personally victimized by the end of kingdom hearts 2. yeah thought so.

my truth's a lie- psylosia i think this ones supposed to be about schizophrenia but tbh it works.

where is my mind? - the pixies ik its a cliche but you cant really have a crazy playlist without it.

paranoid android- radiohead again. ik its a cliche but here we are. it fuckin works. like half of radioheads back catalog does

blow up your mind- the cramps ok i know this is mostly here cause i wanted more punk shit but it works for how i feel about this shit? idk

my own worst enemy - lit tfw you have that One Guy who keeps makin the WORST DECISIONS (its me im the guy)

the becoming- nine inch nails the me that you know/he doesnt come round much/that part of me/isnt here anymore. WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO FUCKIN SAY.

i'm not there - sonic youth ok this is mostly there for the title and for the good distorted guitar but fuck me i like noise rock

never let me down again- depeche mode ik what this song is rly about but. sometimes you just gotta let the other guy take the wheel.

carousel - tempting fate thx @eklesia-system for this one- it has THE VIBES

disintegration - the cure and now that you know that im breakin to pieces/ill put out my heart and ill feed it to anyone/crying for sympathy crocodiles cry/for the love of the crowd and the three cheers for everyone

otherside- red hot chili peppers this ones for all the fictives out there who want to blow up their lives.

bodies (ghosts) - 1000 eyes can you believe we aint never played signalis? it has the vibes tho.

myth- delerium thx @endogenesis-evangelion for this one. its on fuckin point.

voices in my head- steve aoki/bassjackers/teddy bee can you tell part of this was just searchin spotify for 'voices in my head' lol. i think it has the vibes but ymmv

my favorite stranger - depeche mode can you tell host really fuckin likes depeche mode. lmao. ht to @the-masked-bandits-system for this one tho

voices inside my head- the police again do i really need to say anything

the passenger- siouxie and the banshees this is for all of us who sit and watch while other people do shit

the projectionist- thoushaltnot another @endogenesis-evangelion banger. thx forte

disconnection notice - sonic youth the narrator may not be plural but hes profoundly alienated from everyone and everything and thats close enough /meme

clones (we're all) - smashing pumpkins can you believe that there aint anything from siamese dream that fits on here. that title is ~pluralcore~ af. but nooooo

personality crisis - new york dolls is this a new guy or am i going crazy??? who knows???

imaginary friends - splitsville i hate the 'i' word as much as the next headmate but the song is good so.

who do you want to be - oingo boingo listen i know this is about 80s tv pop culture but like. ~source separation~ vibes. who do you wanna be today?

am i awake - they might be giants ik ik ik ik. tmbg is lemon demon for 80s/90s kids. but this has the dissociative vibes

voices in my head - falling in reverse what can i say about this one other than that its got the content warnings and its catchy.

birthright - celldweller thx @eklesia-system for this one - i think i got a new fave band from yr recs cause this fucks

lucretia my reflection - sisters of mercy lucretia / my reflection / dance the ghost with me

personal jesus- depeche mode feelin unknown n yr all alone/flesh and bone by the telephone/lift up the reciever ill make u a believer

voices in my head - vicetone + chelsea collins anxiety, wanting yr fuckass headmate to fuckin shut the fuck up

voices in my head - dj univxrsel another one from the spotify mines

imaginary friends - deadmau5 we needed more good fuckin crunchy edm on here. im tryin to get more into edm so if u got recs hmu. also fuck the title but this slaps

voices in my head (they said) - jack harris instead, instead of panicking again/ i'm making friends with the voices in my head

mad world - tears for fears i know this songs kind of a meme but the lyrics man. if you got hte trauma and u dont listen to tears for fears yr missin out on a band that gets it

whistling in the dark - they might be giants theres only one thing that i know how to do well/and ive often been told that you only can do what you know how to do well/and thats be you/be what yr like/be like yrself

over my head - lit overwhelm is a v system feel for us ig? ok ill own it this is mostly here to lift up the mood at the end.

imaginary friend (english version) - itzy ok this song is the whole reason this playlist exists. hosts partner is real into kpop and was listenin to this and we started laughin about how big the system mood is with this one and how"LYRICS GUY YR EXPERIENCES ARENT UNIVERSAL." it made me wanna see how many songs i could find about the system experience tho. i dont like kpop. at all. but this one speaks 2 me.

@endogenesis-evangelion @lizardywizard @furyfuzz @eklesia-system @thegmsys @the-masked-bandits-system all either wanted to see this playlist or recced songs to put on it. i didnt get to everyones songs so if u want urs on here- well ill see if i can cram it in somewhere lol

[peachyfnaf]

haven't exactly watched the show in over a month but hearing what's going on. It's like everyone in it wants to ignore moon's health, plus fans just acting like he should die because of this.

he needs help first and foremost. not like a second death

FOR REAL- THAT'S PRETTY MUCH WHAT'S HAPPENING. EVERYTHING IS GOING WRONG AND NOT IN A FUN WAY, NOT ANYMORE. Not to mention that ever since his hallucination of Solar, Moon has been acting so incredibly out of character it's legit frustrating me. Hell, everyone's been out of character. He would not fucking say that. She would not fucking say that. None of them would fucking say that.

Imma use this ask as an excuse to rant about things that are making me Peeved now lmao.

First off, HERE'S THE THING, some people want this version of Moon to die rn? That, I get. I understand. Because this Moon fucking sucks. This Moon is so out of character compared to the one from like a month ago. He's acting like a villain about to twirl his damn oily mustache all like "I need to kill Ruin and Bloodmoon muahaha!1!". WHICH I COULD JUSTIFY IF HE WAS DOING IT FOR THE SAKE OF HIS FAMILY/DUE TO SHITTY MENTAL HEALTH. BUT NO. HE'S DOING IT OUT OF PRIDE AND THE SELFISH WANT FOR DEATH. HE'S NOT EVEN DOING IT FOR SOLAR ANYMORE.

And that just makes NO FUCKING SENSE because not only was New Moon's whole thing that he was going to be better, literally THE ONLY THING OLD MOON WANTED HIM TO DO WAS TO KEEP THE FAMILY SAFE AND HAPPY. AND NEW MOON IS DOING THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF THAT. I'm so upset rn jdkfhdsf

And then not to mention the way the other's are treating him- Sun is off my shitlist as of today due to the crisis he's having because, for some reason, the choice to whether or not we're killing New Moon is solely in his hands??? Wack. But. Earth and Lunar. Earth and Lunar. I'm not favorable to them right now at all. Earth, according to her, is supposed to be good at reading/understanding people, if not a "therapist". She should understand that Moon said what he said out of a place of fear, anger, ect. Not from his heart. She has every right for it to have hurt her, but for her to basically disown him? Also wack. The only thing I like about her rn is how she seemingly crushed Bm like a bug lmao. And Lunar? God, Lunar was just so unnecessarily bitchy to Moon in that one ""heart to heart"" episode. That "Fuck him!" pissed me off so very much. Dude, that is your brother who is going into a mental spiral over the death of someone he loved. That is your brother. Wack as hell.

AND not to MENTION everything going on w/ Monty- I literally love them 90% of the time but them deciding to NOT LISTEN TO PUPPET when she told them to NOT RESCUE EARTH ALONE literally made me sigh in frustration/disappointment. That is the one thing, the ONE THING she told them not to do. And Monty did it anyways. And Puppet is a MULTIDIMENSIONAL BEING WITH POWERS/ABILITIES/MAGIC FAR BEYOND ANYTHING MONTY COULD UNDERSTAND, AND THE ONLY THING SHE ASKED FOR MONTY TO DO, WAS FOR MONTY TO TRUST HER. And they Didn't. They didn't trust her, and they went alone, and now they're paying the price. Sighs.

No one is talking to each other. There's too much happening at once, aka the story is so bloated. This arc simultaneously feels too rushed and too slow. I'm so fucking salty. And now I'm gonna go eat food and draw sdkfjhds

[coldresolve]

Hi, I'm Elias, I'm a 26yo trans guy from Denmark. I write shit, I draw shit, and I get into unneccesarily tedious arguments with anons about torture apologia in fiction. I think that sums up my vibe

I've made a few posts about this already, but tl;dr: the Danish NHS has been refusing to treat me for gender dysphoria for the better part of a year now because they've deemed me "unstable." Unstable how, you ask?

I have depression.

No, that is quite literally it. Full context under the readmore.

Fighting to be heard and having the door repeatedly slammed in your face sucks peak ass, and I'm done now. The NHS is so lackluster when it comes to trans people, all of a sudden, it makes perfect sense to me why 31% of transgender Danes get HRT outside of the NHS.

And I'd rather not have to turn to the black market, so rn I'm hoping to get a prescription with GenderGP. The issue is, I'm poor as fuck and can't afford the start-up fees for the forseeable future - unless I do something like this. I hate asking others for money, and I hate it even more if I'm not in a place where I can give anything in return. But I also recognize I'm in over my head with this, so. If you've got a cent or two to spare, I'd be grateful as hell.

I've mathed it out, and my best estimate is that I need around 3500,- DKK / $500 USD. Again, this is just to cover the initial subscription as well as mandatory consultations/blood tests. I should be able to cover the prescriptions on my own, as well as further tests/consultations down the line, so I'm hoping this is a one-and-done sort of thing.

paypal: elimunpau@gmail.com

Also, important note. We're in a global cost of living/housing crisis and this isn't a strict life-or-death situation. If you're in a tough spot right now, don't send me anything, that'd just make me feel worse about asking. I appreciate the thought but you gotta take care of your own needs first. Peace and take care ✌️

So I've been dealing with major depressive disorder since I was 11. It runs in my family, and as you might imagine, after 15 years of living with this thing, I've learned how to manage it pretty well by now. I know what it's like to genuinely be unstable - and if I were in a place like that, no problem, I'd be open about that. I wouldn't be making decisions like this. I know myself. You kind of have to when you're dealing with a chronic mental illness.

Here's where I am right now: I've got no suicidal ideation, been clean from self harm for four years, no psychosis, no inpatient admissions for the last five years. I live on my own, take my meds, and I'm keeping my life in order. Depressed, yes, but about as stable as someone with my history can get, and ask anyone who knows me, me wanting to get on HRT isn't some spur of the moment decision. I've done a fucking decade of soul searching, and a few years ago, I finally (duh) reached the conclusion that living as a woman isn't something I can even fake being content with - believe me, I've tried. I'm well aware of the scope of medical transition, but I'm settled in who I am. And I just want to live like me now. That's the only thing I want.

If it counts for anything, my partner and family have supported me through this, which has been priceless obviously, but it also goes to show that me saying "I'm capable of making medical decisions" isn't purely a personal assessment. I'm pretty sure they'd speak up if they thought I was being unstable about it or whatever

But the CPH clinic for sexology, who have consistently refused to listen to me telling them all this, have somehow magically aquired divine knowledge on my capacity to make adult decisions about my own body, and on the basis that I have MDD, they're refusing to even set me up for a preliminary interview - one that would preceed a 6 month full-team psych evaluation before the prospect of HRT would even come up. They said in their latest refusal that they wont accept another referral from me until a year after my last in-clinic conversation with them, which happened on October 24th, 2023 - meaning that with the NHS, if they accepted my referral come October (which I don't have much faith they will), the earliest I could possibly get on HRT is April 2025. Arguing for my own sanity would've sucked enough as is, but it's made harder by the fact that they won't even talk to me. You're a trans guy who would like healthcare, but you have a mental illness? Good luck, you're on your own. Long live the Danish bureaucracy.

Dysphoria makes me fucking miserable. I'd rather not have to write a sob story here, and tumblr is like 80% trans people so I guess a good portion of you can imagine why waiting another year for the possibility of maybe-perhaps-if-all-goes-well getting on HRT would not actually make me less miserable about it.

So. I'm sitting down next week along with my mom to file a formal complaint with the patient's rights committee. I don't know what to call this other than some form of discrimination on the basis of mental illness, because nothing in my current situation would prohibit me from making medical decisions for myself. And I honestly don't think that a complaint is going to do much, but I intend to make it obnoxiously long, because by law, a specialized doctor and an attorney have to read through the whole thing. If you can't beat 'em, make 'em read 50 pages of you going into detail about why you think they suck, right

And yeah, like I said, in the meantime, I'm trying to go via GenderGP. It'd be nice if my poor ass could get HRT via the NHS instead of having to pay out of pocket, but apparently the bar for entry requires that you 1) have gender dysphoria to the point where it impedes normal function and 2) somehow aren't mentally ill. Who wrote these rules? Some 60yo cis guy in a suit in Christiansborg, I imagine.

Feel free ask about anything relating to this whole situation, I'll be as open as I can about it, cause I understand that if you're going to give money to someone, you want to know what it's going to. Though I hope you understand I'm not going to doxx myself more than I already have now, or give you my entire medical history - only what's relevant to my current situation.

I know Denmark is a welfare state and on a global scale we're doing alright, but I hope you don't mind if I say this: This shouldn't be happening as often as it does. Fuck the Danish NHS.

[justweird-cetus]

...Listen I just wanna ramble about Taliesin and Tarot Cards okay??

Spoilers for Skybound Lore "Magic and Misconduct"

The three cards Taliesin has are- The Magician, The Fool, and The Tower. The rest of the cards were lost in the crash. So these three cards *have* to be important in some way.

The magician seems obvious- Taliesin is a magician so it makes sense for them to have The Magician. As well as the fact that The Magician upright represents potential and tapping into ones talent.

What was Taliesin talking about all stream?

The fact that magic comes from someone's energy and that when a person is happy- their magic is stronger

So in a sense- "Tapping into ones talent."

Why Taliesin has The Fool is a little tricker to understand.

The fool represents new Beginnings. In a sense it symbolized the embrace of a new beginning and the willingness to take risks guided by intuition,

So maybe this place could be a new beginning for Taliesin and the others around them.

The Tower represents Danger, Crisis, Sudden change, and destruction (as well as higher learning and liberation- but for the moment I'm gonna be focusing on those first four)

The tower is also associated with falling. What's everyone afraid the islands will do?

Fall.

So, This could mean that the islands could fall into the void, (but we already knew that)

I would also like to point out that Rune and Vast were the two to pull the tower.

Who were the people trying to stop the islands from falling and fix the obelisks?

The Avicane and Vercane Factions.

Vast and Rune.

Vast has been trying to figure out a way to charge the obelisks *without* taking all of someone's magic. And While we don't know as much about the Vercane- We can assume that the Vercane has been trying to figure out a way to charge and obelisks and put the world back together without taking lives- just like what Vast is doing.

The Fool could mean that Vast finds a way to fully charge the obelisks without killing.

But- Vast pulled *The Tower* not The Fool.

The Tower is associated with falling. But when Vast pulled the Tower, she wasn't picking a card for the islands- they were picking a card for *himself*

This could mean a few things

1: Vast finds a way to fix the islands- but has to fall or sacrifice herself in some way to do it.

2: Vast can't figure out a way to fix it- and the islands fall-

3: Vast can't figure out a way to fix the obelisks without taking a life- so (in a sense) they fall back into their old ways and take someone's life and uses it to charge the obelisk

But that's just a theory- A Bird Theory!

Thanks for reading ;P

..Chat I am having so many thoughts and feelings about Taliesin lore rn

[pakyao]

I made an alt account so I could yap about what the frick my brain is doing rn and the identity crisis I'm having :3

More about me ↓↓↓

he/him pronouns

I still think I'm a girl and like my body but lowk if I could just magically become a cis boy I would without hesitation. And lowk really want to delete my boobs. Even if I WAS trans I couldn't tell anyone bc my family would lose it and start rebuking me or something... But it's fine. I don't wanna be trans and I ain't. I'm just a silly girl :3 (edit: ok so I'm pretty sure I am trans 😭)

I'm homeschooled (used to be in school) and only interact with other humans at my church 😐

I'm an actual loser btw

I love Leon Kennedy and resident evil!!!

Animal crossing is my comfort game!!

I listened to a lot of different music

I'm literally tamaki from ouran highschool host club but he's also my bae

Uhhhhh... I'm literally a gnorpy alien btw. And I'm literally :3. My brain is rotted.

I really really wanna join the army when I'm 18 and be a combat medic!!!! I wanna get all big and buff and look so cool and hot and strong like a guy would. I hope I stop having this identity crisis by the time I join the army so I can be as badass as possible B)

ALSO I PLAY BASS!!! :3

And I got that stilly little shark guy from IKEA! :3

OH I also have a cat! Lenny Garfield Hill!!!

[chaysreality222]

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𝐑𝓔𝓨𝓐'𝓢 𝟒 𝐃𝓐𝓨 𝐑𝓔𝓟𝓡𝓞𝓖𝓡𝓐𝓜𝓜𝓘𝓝𝓖 ! <3

hey shifters! it's c! i'm going through a blog identity crisis rn. but that's besides the point, we are here to talk about my experience as i completed reya's 4 day reprogramming! i started this process June 10, 2024 and ended it on June 13, 2024.

𝜗𝜚 𝐃𝓐𝓨 1 𝓞𝐅 𝐑𝓔𝓟𝓡𝓞𝓖𝓡𝓐𝓜𝓜𝓘𝓝𝓖 𝜗𝜚

the first day is dedicated to creating a list of your beliefs and non-beliefs that could be created in a physical journal, on a piece of paper, your notes app, etc. after that, you'll re-read it over and over throughout the day to really etch it into your brain. this way you'll be doing robotic affirmations to help manifest your beliefs! in which those beliefs include you believing in shifting and that you have the ability to shift.

ex. i wrote "i believe in reality shifting" in my beliefs area because i believe in that. as for non beliefs, i wrote "i don't believe in the tooth fairy" because i don't believe in that.

i wrote mine in my notion app! i read it multiple times and especially throughout the entire day. as i was reading my beliefs and non-beliefs, i can already notice that my mindset was changing! it gave me confidence in my beliefs about shifting so much that it wasn't even a second thought anymore. it just started to feel natural. i'd like to add that as i did my robotic affirmations, i played white noise and trickling water in the background on youtube (like they do in subliminals) which really seemed to help out.

ALSO, it's okay to not be re-reading every second or minute of the day. you still have a life you need to live and you have to take care of yourself as well. learn to balance it! remember, shifting is already apart of your daily routine. there's no external or internal pressure to have to do it because you're already used to doing it!

𝜗𝜚 𝐃𝓐𝓨 2 𝓞𝐅 𝐑𝓔𝓟𝓡𝓞𝓖𝓡𝓐𝓜𝓜𝓘𝓝𝓖 𝜗𝜚

the second day is dedicated to going throughout the day and doing things that motivate you to shift! meditate, listen to subliminals, etc! have a sense of gratitude and excitement about shifting to your desired reality and affirm yourself that you've shifted.

before i get into what i did for the second day, i had a dream about shifting and almost had shifted from the dream! i noticed i was lucid and began to say, "i have shifted, i have shifted, i have shifted". i started to feel different like i was being pulled out of the dream like i was waking up (i became very aware of my subconscious and it was like a tunnel opened up in back of me and i was about to be pulled through) and there was flashing lights! but the people in my dream heard me and grabbed onto me. (like wth, why did they have to be my ops). but, i did say it in front of them smh... anywayy since i was busy throughout the day, i turned the things i did into scenarios that could happen in my dr. going shopping turned into -> "this would be me and pansy shopping at the clothing stores in diagon alley in my hogwarts dr". drawing in my room turned into -> "this is what i'd be doing in my waiting room dr". you guys get the idea! i read my beliefs and non-beliefs a few times throughout the day. i constantly affirmed myself that i have shifted and that i shifted to my waiting room June 13, 2024! i made sure to mark the day i was going to shift like Reya had said, and kept affirming that. then, i ended off with a guided meditation from alunir before i had went to bed!

disclaimer: Reya had made sure to say this in her video, DO NOT ATTEMPT TO SHIFT WHILE THESE DAYS OF REPROGRAMMING!! These days are meant to reprogram your brain for shifting :) You will shift on the fourth day of the process!

"c, didn't you just tell us about the attempt to shift through your dream?" yes, i did 😭 but it's like i forgot about that fact because i had been dreaming. i did not have any intentions to shift before i had went to bed but once i became lucid, i jumped at the chance and took it fr. didn't work because of the ops, but the effort was there! </3

𝜗𝜚 𝐃𝓐𝓨 3 𝓞𝐅 𝐑𝓔𝓟𝓡𝓞𝓖𝓡𝓐𝓜𝓜𝓘𝓝𝓖 𝜗𝜚

the third day is dedicated to feeding your beliefs! read and watch about other people's shifting storytime's about their desired realities throughout the day.

i listened to kristeau's shifting stories on her youtube channel as i did things throughout the day, watched tiktoks from my fave creators, and read some dr story times on here as well! to add to that, i read my beliefs and non-beliefs throughout the day with subliminals playing in the background or music that reminds me of my waiting room dr. then, i also vaunted and acted like i was already in my desired reality. "this is what i'd be doing in my waiting room rn", "i'm so excited that i shifted to my waiting room on June 13, 2024", "i had such a good time in my waiting room doing (x,y,z)".

𝜗𝜚 𝐃𝓐𝓨 4 𝓞𝐅 𝐑𝓔𝓟𝓡𝓞𝓖𝓡𝓐𝓜𝓜𝓘𝓝𝓖 𝜗𝜚

the fourth day is dedicated to doing all the things you previously did into one day and shifting! read your beliefs and non-beliefs, go through out the day and do things that motivate you to shift, feed your beliefs, and finally shift.

my shift attempt pt. 5 to my waiting room dr - June 13, 2024 At first, I read my beliefs and non beliefs with a subliminal and fell asleep doing that. Then I woke up and I told myself to lock in. I put on a void state guided meditation w/ deep hypnosis by alunir. Let me tell you guys right now, that deep hypnosis is no joke. My sister was talking to her friends through voice messages here and there and had the tv playing but on low volume- All my surroundings drowned out and I was focused on her voice. Every time she snapped, tingles went through my body and I followed the meditation without a second thought. I had made it to the void state but I was drifting in and out of it. I think my headphones were too loud honestly, so it made alunir’s voice loud to where it would pull me back out of the void state. I began to fall asleep a bit but then, I saw marko (someone from one of my other drs). I kept seeing glimpses of imagery from that other dr and I was like looking for them to try and help me shift? idk why i thought that would work. Then, I ended up falling back asleep (rip). I woke up once again and told myself to lock in, so I put on a meditation by Reya. I was trying to get back into the void state but it wasn’t working. Ended up falling asleep not too long after.

𝐑𝓔𝐒𝓤𝐋𝓣𝐒 <3

i didn't successfully shift to my waiting room desired reality YET, but i've learned a lot from this experience and my mindset was definitely reprogrammed!

i learned that i was more focused on getting to the void state than actually shifting to my waiting room dr. Reya's words, "the void state isn't really something to shift from. it's something to pass through or to pass by from. you don't need the void state to shift! think of it like a pit stop and you're gonna go through it or whatever, and you're going to shift". i also learned that if i'm low on energy and extremely exhausted, i should just sleep that night and shift the next night! i was putting so much pressure on myself to shift that i didn't care what state my body was in. which is what i won't do in my future process!

i no longer find myself second guessing about shifting or having those intrusive thoughts against shifting being real. i also find that i'm more confident and positive about my shifting ability! which is why i'm proud of myself about this shifting attempt and have the push to only continue my journey. if anyone has any insight or tips to help me, pls leave them in the comments.

xoxo, c!

[wqnwoos]

get to know me!!

tagged by @haologram + i think a few others but i can't remember rn. sorry. if i tagged u it’s probably bc i rec’d ur fic which will be directly at the bottom 🙏

what's the origin of your blog title? just a variation of wonwoo.

favorite fandoms: the most relevant to this blog would be the many kpop fandoms i'm in!! idk about a favourite.

OTP(s)/shipname: in terms of kpop friendship dynamics - minghao+vernon (haovern???), jeonghan+jun (jeonghui? junhan??), vmin, tyunning, woosan + a few more.

favorite color: green and purple!

favorite game: i haven't played a game in ages but i used to play minecraft a lot when i was a kid. as i got older i was really into call of duty (black ops 3 u will forever be famous to me) and i also really liked the spiderman game!

song stuck in your head: currently listening to i couldn't love you more by sade!

weirdest habit/trait? i bite my nails + have done as long as i can remember. like genuinely gnaw them until there's nothing left. ive tried sooo hard to quit but for some reason i just. can't do it. it's such a subconscious thing i don't even realize i'm doing it. hopefully one day i'll get over it

hobbies: reading, writing, journalling baking, occasionally cooking, listening to music, knitting.

if you could have any job you wish, what would it be? i think i'd like to own a really successful flower shop OR bookshop but make enough that i can hire employees and then on the side i can just study as many things as i'd like. when i was younger my dream was to have multiple phds LMAO

something you're good at: this gave me an existential crisis. NOTHING!!! i'm not very good at anything - unless u count gift giving? i think i have a knack for getting things i know people will like. my siblings tend to come to me to ask what they should get for each other LMAO

something you're bad at: sigh. everything. most recently self-discipline.

something you love: my siblings, books + bookshops, my best friends. tiramisu, poetry, iced caramel lattes, a very specific brand of tea my brother buys, handwritten cards/letters. i could go on for a long time!!

something you could talk about for hours off the cuff: pick any of my favourite books and i'll go on forever. also certain psychological concepts, anything to do with people watching, and me and my friend once spent three hours talking about linguistics

something you hate: mushrooms + people who look down on others.

something you collect: books, seashells, random rocks from different countries

something you forget: i can't think of anything rn!! i tend to be quite meticulous and i make a lot of lists so i don't forget things.

what's your love language? giving - physical touch + gift giving. receiving - word of affirmation and physical touch

favorite movie/show: fav movies - little women (both 1994 + 2019), dead poets' society, tangled, pride and prejudice, 20th century girl. i recently watched we live in time which i loved! fav shows - derry girls, bridgerton (love/hate relationship), record of youth

favorite food: i love my mum’s biryani, my aunt’s pilao and my sister’s lasagna.

favorite animal: cats, elephants, penguins, polar bears

are you musical? not at ALLL lol i can play a couple pieces on the drums (but i haven’t in years so i probably can’t anymore)

what were you like as a child? this question will make me cry LMAOOO. i used to read a LOT. like two books a day. i would get banned from reading instead of electronics or anything else when i was naughty (and then i’d go to the school library during lunches just so i could read there instead). i used to talk a lot more and i used to use lots of big words really casually because i read a lot and my siblings used to make sm fun of me for that so i stopped 😭 and when i was telling a story i used to include every single detail without fail (i still kinda do that 😭). i was also a HUUUGE crybaby and i have five brothers who used to tease the hell out of me!! so obviously i just cried more!!

favorite subject at school? english, history + psychology in that order!

least favorite subject? back when i had to take drama i hated it. i also didn’t like geography. but i dropped both of those by the time i was fourteen, took econ for two years (hated it) and i’ve hated maths since i was little. i had to do further maths for gcses and it was the worst subject ever.

what's your best character trait? i think i’m quite good at being empathetic? idk i always try to assume the best of people + give the benefit of the doubt. and i also would do anything for my friends and siblings.

what's your worst character trait? so many 😭 i can’t discipline myself at all. i’ve also been told that my words come off as really harsh because of my tone even when i’m just joking around. like apparently i always just sound like a hater 😭 also i don’t think i’m the greatest daughter to my parents but that’s neither here nor there

if you could change any detail of your day right now what would it be? i wish i had studied a little more. or wrote a little more. but there’s time still!! we’ll see

if you could travel in time who would you like to meet? van gogh. my mum when she was younger. maybe my younger self (especially around 15. that girl needs a hug.) maybe jane austen or mary oliver. also — my siblings and i are kind of split into two generations. there’s a group of four, a five or six year gap? and then a group of three (which is where i am). i think i’d love to see my older siblings when they were younger, because to me they’ve always been very old and respectable and wise (even though, having gotten to the ages they were then, they were definitely not). but anyway, i think it would be nice to see them younger.

recommend one of your favorite fanfics (spread the love): AHHH where do i begin. lacuna by @eoieopda changed my life and i’ll never forget it. my feet to follow and my heart to hold by @daechwitatamic was just beautiful from start to finish. alta wrote me the most beautiful birthday fic (hanging by a moment by @haologram) and there’s also one of alta’s wips which i’m absolutely obsessed with. rania already knows i’m not normal about catnaps by @wheeboo. user @kkaetnipjeon ‘s whole entire masterlist, but stop thinking about me and the second time couple both live in a corner of my mind always. like real people do by @ylangelegy is also just a thing of beauty. i could go on forever, but anyway i’m very lucky to be alive at the same time as these people and so many others, and be able to read what they write (and for FREE??)

i think most of my mutuals have already done this? if u want to do it just say i tagged u!!

[box-of-roses]

Okay so I guess the writing bug like bit me or something

Who wants to be on a taglist for my pride stories? Just send me a message or comment here

Boyfriend (Alisa): Your boyfriend breaks up with you and your friends drag you to a party. Not happy to be there you bump into Alisa who makes the night worthwhile. (6/1)

Crush (Kiyoko): You gain a crush on your longtime friend and after many failed attempts at getting rid of it you finally tell her. (6/4)

Girls (Yachi): After running into a girl on her way to the club room Yachi has a crisis. After much encouragement from Hinata and Kiyoko she finds the pretty girl and asks her on a date (6/6)

Casual (Saeko): You ended your fwb relationship and go to a bar to mourn the loss of the friendship. You meet a pretty bartender who listens to your woes and offers you solace. After the bar closes she takes you to her house and you watch movies as she comforts you. (6/8)

I have more stories in the works but these are the only ones I'm sharing rn

[svltzmans]

Hello can I request anything with hope where she's reader's secret admirer (also friends with her and lizzie) but when they're around reader they act like they don't know who the admirer is, like acting all clueless and intrigued lol! Thank you <3

i can see you (h.m.)

a/n: hi anon!! i LOVE this request it's such a cute idea!! i'm sick rn so i'm happy i get to write this while i'm under the weather to make me feel better :) i'm also listening to a ton of taylor swift of course and this story kinda reminded me of i can see you!!! i hope you like it and thanks again for requesting <3

warnings: none just fluffy and gay <3

y/n had never been more confused.

staring intently at the note she had found in her bag, she tried to think of any reasonable explanation.

were the werewolves playing a cruel prank or something? maybe someone put it in the wrong bag?

what she did know, however, was that it was a love note. written in cursive, neat, unfamiliar handwriting.

"you look so beautiful today," it begins. whoever this individual was, they had already made y/n turn a deep shade of red.

folding up the note and stowing it in her jeans' back pocket, she ventured to her next class, where she continued to ponder who the note could be from.

y/n's walk to her room after class quickly led her to make a pit stop at lizzie's.

upon hearing the knock on her door, lizzie sprung up from her desk to open it.

"if it isn't y/n y/l/n, looking cute as ever. come in!"

plopping down on lizzie's bed, y/n pulls the note out of her pocket.

"a love note? for me? i didn't know you felt this way, y/n," lizzie laughs, opening the letter.

"liz! this is serious! i have no idea who this could have been from."

"where did you even find it?"

"in my bag."

"huh. what class?"

"introductory spells."

"how many people are in that class?"

"it's a lecture hall liz... a lot of people."

"shit. that doesn't help at all. do you have any ideas?"

"none at all. nobody has been showing any kind of obvious interest in me."

"it's girly handwriting."

"i hope so. if it was a man it would just be creepy."

they both chuckle at that before texting hope.

"she'll probably know how to help us," lizzie insists.

mere minutes later, there's another knock at the door.

"hope andrea mikaelson in my room, to what do i owe the pleasure?" lizzie quips.

"your text, saltzman." hope responds with a sarcastic edge in her voice.

"okay whatever, we have a y/n crisis happening and your attitude is not helping."

"crisis is kind of a strong word," y/n adds, earning a glare from lizzie.

"y/n! it's a big deal! your first secret admirer!"

"secret admirer?" hope interrupts, a quizzical expression on her face.

"miss y/n y/l/n got a love note in her bag from an anonymous person."

"what? let me see!" hope perks up excitedly. "woah, y/n, this person really likes you."

"i know! and it's killing me! i can't figure out who wrote it. it could be anyone in introductory spells with me."

"i'm in that class with you." hope pauses, before adding "i can help you figure it out!"

"you'd do that for me?"

"of course. i'd do anything for you, y/n... we're friends, aren't we?"

y/n's heart stings a bit hearing hope call her a friend, but she immediately lights up again remembering the first part of hope's sentence.

"in that case, mikaelson, let's do this."

"uh, hellooo. guys, did you forget i'm in that class too?" lizzie adds, clearly feeling left out of the conversation.

the next day, lizzie and hope run into each other in the hallway. quickly checking to make sure y/n isn't in earshot, lizzie pulls hope aside.

"are you gonna tell her it's you?"

"i kinda want to lead her in the right direction and let her figure it out herself."

"hope! you've already hinted at it so many times! you gotta just tell her."

"i'll think about it."

y/n walks up to the blonde and brunette, smiling.

"are we gonna figure out this secret admirer or what?"

the trio walk into the massive classroom, finding three seats in the back row that would allow them to easily scan the room.

"this is going to be impossible. where do we even start?" y/n asks, already exasperated.

"well, we can rule out everyone that's already in a relationship. at least i hope we can," lizzie responds.

"that's like, at least half the people in here," hope adds.

"any ideas, y/n?" lizzie questions.

"not yet. they gotta be right in front of me, i'm just not seeing it."

hope and lizzie both have to stifle their reactions to that comment, trying hard not to confirm that y/n is right.

when class begins, hope pulls out her notebook to document the lecture. she sneaks a glance at y/n, who seems to be deep in thought.

"i love when you get super focused on something. you look so cute," hope writes, quickly abandoning her class notes.

"i dream about you looking at me that way."

before y/n can notice, hope folds the piece of paper and slips it into her bag.

"i can't believe i didn't notice! they were right next to me at one point and i didn't see them put it in my bag!" y/n sighs, ranting to lizzie.

"i didn't notice it either, professor was extra immersive today," lizzie responds, trying to hide her amusement at y/n's exasperation.

"next class i'm gonna pay more attention to my bag. maybe i'll be able to catch them in the act."

"whatever you say, y/l/n. have you ever thought that maybe you're looking too far into it?"

"what do you mean?"

"nothing. just thinking out loud." lizzie realizes she might have said too much. y/n dismisses the conversation and moves onto a new topic, although still wondering what the blonde meant.

the next introductory spells class was quite intense for y/n, who was carefully trying to watch the lecture while simultaneously keeping an eye on her bag.

eventually, her attention lands on hope, delicately taking notes.

glancing down at hope's paper in hopes of seeing some notes to copy, y/n can't help but notice hope's handwriting.

it's beautiful. undeniably feminine, swoopy...

holy shit.

y/n immediately calls an "emergency meeting" between her, hope and lizzie after class. hope and lizzie shuffle to her room close behind her.

"i think i might have figured out who the admirer is."

"it's about time, y/l/n," lizzie says, anticipating y/n's elaboation.

"it has to be josie."

"what?" hope and lizzie say in unison, staring at each other in disbelief.

"y/n... it's not josie," hope nervously mutters.

"what? how do you know?"

"because it's me. y/n my feelings for you have gotten so strong that i couldn't help but write them down. i just like you so much i had to express it somehow. i was hoping you would realize eventually but i just want you to know."

"hope, i know. i noticed your handwriting matched in class today. i just wanted to hear it from you. i have always felt the same."

"finally!" lizzie sighs in relief, once again interrupting the tender moment between the two women in front of her.

"wait... you knew it was hope?" y/n cracks a smile.

"maybe..."

[nezumithewriter]

season three of the magnus archives was fucking awesome

ep 81: "guess who got framed for murder" "anyways my childhood was fucked up"

ep 82: "it was a little bloody and i didn't like daisy" - my mother

ep 83: "JON? There's a weird letter in the mailbox for you. Says.. uh... 'statement of'" jon crashing through the wall with tape recorder sfx

ep 84: I GOT A JOB AT THE MAGNUS INSTITUTE?!? (I'M INEXTRICABLY TIED TO A BEING BEYOND MY COMPREHENSION)

ep 85: The man was there but also wasn't, fuck you want from me?

ep 86: Holy fuck i love melanie king i can't think of a funny 3am joke for this one except i can WORKING MY JOB AT THE MAGNUS ARCHIVES (READ A PAPER ABOUT CHILDHOOD TRAUMA) (MY COWORKERS NEED THERAPY) but seriously i love melanie king so much i need her to get out of there and to safety

ep 87: the Stranger watching this plumber with adhd swag walk in, fix their pipes, and leave despite all of the dead people's faces being cut off around him

ep 88: DIG.

ep 89: girlboss explains her fire fetish to concerned eldritch entity in training, oh and also AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

ep 90: dude calm the fuck down they're just doing some reps on the high bar so what if they have no eyes it's fine dude why are you running

ep 91: Daisy Tonner kills mr. blue sky

ep 92: Elias really said "acab, also i killed gertrude and leitner lol. we're at war with a dozen or so eldritch abominations"

ep 93: Jonathan Sims explains the magnus archives lore to his friends after reading a statement about the corruption from terraria

ep 94: "the monster stole all of my 'give a damn' many years ago"

ep 95: Basira reading her alchemy book two feet away while Martin has a crisis over the fact he can feel the emotions of the statement giver when recording

ep 96: Jon and Daisy do a silly and commit a crime or two (broke and entered, murdered a mandela catalogue alternate, etc)

ep 97: "Are you going to kill me?" "What?? No!!!" "..." "well not rn!!!"

ep 98: "Are you worried about getting fired?" Melanie on her way to commit attempted murder

ep 99: Jonathan Sims gets kidnapped by the clown police (ASMR)

ep 100: can't believe we got The Spiral, The Desolation, The Web, the Dark/Buried, the Lonely in the same episode. the statements were so well done and the were clear and precise

ep 101: "why is the door locked" michael, 2 seconds before helen has a gamer's rise up moment

ep 102: knives, beetle wives, french, oh my!

ep 103: jon really said "fuck it we ball" and decided to use his eldritch powers to be petty

ep 104: "Tim! I might be an eldritch monster but that was unacceptable!"

ep 105: "你说中文?" "no i don't speak chinese"

ep 106: FUCK YOU ELIAS (GONE WRONG) (I WANT THIS BITCH DEAD)

ep 107: JON EATS THE STATEMENTS AND ALSO TREVOR AND JULIA ARE THERE THIS IS THE FIRST EPISODE WHERE I FELT INCREDIBLY EXCITED IS THIS WHAT MCU FANS FELT LIKE ENDGAME

ep 108: "Was he… woOoOo?" -- Basira Hussain, 2017

ep 109: FNAF but with three screaming corpses and a guy

ep 110: trans cinematographer deconstructs the film industry (and mr spider is there too)

ep 111: Jon interviews an emo book (real)

ep 112: #1 Victory Royale

ep 113: "STOP-- touching the plastic explosive"

ep 114: daisy and tim getting happy over the prospect of exploding a circus

ep 115: delicious, finally some good fucking food

ep 116: fuck your dance in particular *CANNON SFX*

ep 117: "hope we don't die!" vs tim and daisy's "fuck it we ball"

ep 118: Martin gets to commit arson-- FUCK YOU ELIAS FUCK YOU ELIAS FUCK YOU ELIAS FU

ep 119: genuinely one of the coolest episodes i've ever listened to due in part to the fact that i was just as confused as the characters (i listened without a transcript). The ways the stranger fucks with the archives team while they're slowly going insane from how much they've forgotten and no longer understand is phenomenal. I'm gonna miss Tim.

ep 120: world's weirdest clipshow that ends with police brutality

[pseudowho]

haitch!

first, i want to say that you are literally amazing and i love you and your writing 🫶

second, since you are now officially THE cool supportive aunt/mom™️, i request some of your wisdom my queen

i'm at a place in my life where I’m feeling stagnant and struggling with that. i'm in my early 20s so i know that i have so much more to experience and so many years ahead of me to do so but I can’t ever shake this feeling of “this is all your life will ever be” which is illogical because that’s just simply not going to be true. i guess i just had big expectations for myself or an idea of what my life would look like by now and now that i'm here and it doesn’t look the way I thought it would, I guess I’m just feeling impatient and disappointed.

as someone who has achieved so much with her life, I’m just wondering if you ever felt this way or just general advice because I’m having too many nights where I’m having a mini existential crisis

Babe, I always feel stagnant. You're talking to the girl who always feels like she's not enough. That's my own issue to deal with and I won't hijack your Ask; but just to show that I know how you feel.

First of all, well done for getting to the place you aimed to be. Isn't it lovely to sit in your own achievement and torture yourself and berate yourself for not being 'enough'? Ahhh, lovely.

I suppose it's always important to 1. Allow yourself to feel the sadness and the disappointment and the feeling as it is, I'm in no way about toxic positivity, but also 2. Take a moment to reassess what your goals actually are. And what would you need to achieve them?

I think a lot of people live on this rule of "Once I have (X), then I will be happy." If you get there, like you have, and don't feel that sense of satisfaction that you thought you would, there is something else you need in your life that you haven't identified yet. I recommend trying to find what that is.

If it's this constant "Once I have (X), then I will be happy" continues, it's like you're forgoing yourself the privilege of happiness because you 'haven't earned it yet'. This is something I do to myself on a daily basis. And something else our favourite salaryman did, no? Not that it worked out for him.

Instead of torturing yourself over this and having a crisis every night, you need to come to a conclusion on what you think you're missing, or why you're simply not allowing yourself to live and be happy, and make steps to resolve it.

Perhaps you're like me, and never happy unless you're working towards a goal? It's not even necessarily achieving the goal that brings the peace-- you love the process, the growth, it's cathartic and soothing and frantic all at once, and feels like you're maximising on who you can be as a person.

Have a think on it, in a way that's not just self-flagellation. Your life is ostensibly not over and not stagnant. I suspect you need to 1. Learn how to allow yourself happiness in what you've achieved and 2. Find that next goal, whatever it is.

But also listen, holding you by the face now like Gordon Ramsay in the 'idiot sandwich' gif:

You are not a failure. You are not a failure. You are not a failure. YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE.

☝️You're not an idiot sandwich, that's just how I'm holding you rn.

Repeat after me.

Love,

-- Haitch xxx

[orchestratedemotion]

The lovely @glasscushion tagged me to talk about 2024 books and I'm all too happy to oblige!

In this essay you will learn that I've never known peace... anyway. If you'd like an unedited ramble about books, please read on!

University completely ruined my ability to read for fun. Books were my first love, prior to high school I easily read 50+ books a year. In high school this dropped to 30-ish, and post high school, well. I was averaging maybe 5 books a year.

2024 was my first year of post-grad, full-time work and I finally remembered that books are a thing that you read, they're not just decorative. I started with a goal of 12, made that 25 when I smashed that in May, and finally finished the year on 30.

Working in public policy put me (a non-fiction fiend at heart) into an environment full of well-read people with great recommendations, so my 2024 reads were mostly non-fiction. I have a background in public health and genetics, this is definitely reflected in my reads. There was also some political commentary in there, a lot of critical thinking about the future of AI, and a handful of F1 releases.

My top 5 non-fiction reads:

Empire of Pain - Patrick Radden Keefe. A delve into America's opioid crisis through the lens of a New York Times journalist. It's 500 pages but didn't feel like it, I flew through it like it was the most gripping novel. I would recommend to anyone who loves long-form or investigative journalism.

Code Breaker - Walter Isaacson. This is an accessible yet interesting look at the long history and development of the CRISPR-Cas9 gene editing technology and explores it's incredible potential and the surrounding ethical considerations.

The Coming Wave - Mustafa Suleyman. What will the future of AI look like, and what do we as a society need to do to prevent the worst case scenarios that people love to throw around? A call for guardrails and effective AI policy.

Maybe You Should Talk To Someone - Lori Gottlieb. I really do love a memoir. The story of a therapist and her therapist, overlaid against the stories of her own patients.

Shortest Way Home - Pete Buttigieg. The memoir strikes again, and what can I say? I'm a sucker for an eloquent man with a brain and a moral compass.

Bonus: My Brother's Ashes are in a Sandwich Bag - Michelle Brasier. You HAVE to listen to this one as an audiobook. Michelle is a comedian, using comedy to process the death of her father and brother to genetic cancer which will almost certainly impact her at some point in her life. I've never laughed and cried so hard simultaneously. Her storytelling style is so me, I've never felt so seen.

My fiction reads tend to be mostly literary fiction, in 2025 my goal is to diversify the voices I read. I only read 7 fiction books in 2024 so a top 5 seems ridiculous, but I loved:

The Work - Bri Lee. I am fond of Bri as a non-fiction writer. I've devoured all of her work and love her Substack, so couldn't wait to get my hands on her debut novel.

The Pairing - Casey McQuiston. Anything Casey releases I will love, this one is no different. I yearn for Europe with good food and wine, so this was always going to be the book for me.

Open Water - Caleb Azumah Nelson. I'm late to the party on this one, but this tiny little book gets under your skin and packs a punch.

I've already finished 5 books for 2025, I'm trying to get back to my roots and finish 52 - I'm excited to give it a go. I've joined the reading challenge of my local book store and a few different book clubs, mostly to try and increase my fiction intake and get out of my comfort zone. (I'm reading Pride and Prejudice rn! She's a classics girly now!)

Wish me luck, see you for the 2025 wrap up. If you've made it this far, please talk to me about books! Follow @ caitrambles on Storygraph!

[emilyjunk]

Do you have any WIP fics going on? Sorry for asking, I just missed reading your fics!

oh please do not apologize!! that's really nice. feel free to ask anytime. i do actually have a WIP going rn that is and has been sooooo close to being done for like a week but i have been insanely sleep deprived this week and have not been making much progress lol i'm hoping to finish soon. here's a snippet

One day, everything was fine. She had a boyfriend she loved, a major she found fulfilling if not easy, and Cady was content. Happy, even.

She doesn’t know what changed. She was sitting in Denny’s with Aaron like they did every Sunday morning, and he was putting syrup on his pancakes while going on about some track thing like he always did. And Cady, just sitting there listening, had some kind of out of body realization. 

There she was, fork poised halfway to her mouth, and she had a brief thought that she’d be just fine if she never spent another Sunday in a Denny’s eating mediocre pancakes. That brief thought flitted away, only to be replaced by the passing thought that she might not be just fine, but she would actually be perfectly happy if she never heard another track anecdote in her life ever again.

Then she looked up at Aaron, and those brief and passing thoughts solidified into something a little more permanent, a little more real. 

Cady didn’t want to do this anymore. Everything suddenly felt stale, washed out and colorless like the cracked and fading booth she was sitting in. 

When, she distantly wondered, was the last time something interesting had happened to her? 

Cue the crisis.

And so Cady made some life changes. Big ones, like breaking up with Aaron. And small ones, like enrolling in a film elective about horror movies because they scared her and some crazy part of her that had been inspired by The Denny’s Crisis decided she would endure this class and overcome her fear.

So fresh out of the summer and newly single, Cady walks into “Topics In Film: Philosophy of Horror” nervous about the syllabus, but determined to seem like she’s not.

That’s when she meets Regina George.

[gold-rhine]

a little while ago you made a down with the cis bus post about scara killing teppei!! would u mind going a little deeper into how the inazuman archon quest was flawed? i think it'd be interesting :]

asdfghjk listen, that post wasn't actually a Critique, i just thought it's funny and if teppei has to die from scara's actions, we might as well both support trans wrongs and make it fun, i don't actually hate teppei or think he was the real archon quest problem haha

i would like to finish replaying inazuma questline before writing anything in depth, but things which are obvious already:

1.pacing is GARBAGE. it goes from slow to too quick to too slow to wayyy too quick to stopping in its tracks to force u on a date with ayaka on gunpoint, than again way too quick through rebellion parts. and like i'm not an ayaka hater and i know her fans love that quest, but it should've been just a separate story quest like all others. it has NOTHING to do with the story. At least Yoimiya's is connected, though I'd either separate it too or trim the fat on it a lot, but ayaka's is just what feels like several hours of meandering bullshit. i had to wait 10 minutes of real time to make cheese to make her pizza and it was just the start

2.because we had to waste hours going on dates, rebellion part moves at breakneck speed when it tries to do too many things at once: it wants to endear and make you care about common rebellion soldiers, it wants to make you feel like you're earned respect and command position of your team by them giving u trials, it wants to have a cool battle where kokomi is shown to be smart, and it wants to have fatui schemes with delusion effects shown developing gradually via teppei.

what ends up happening is that we do a lot of fetch quests, the battl is not properly set up so it ends up feeling small, and kokomi is shown kinda stupid instead of genius strategist.

3.more on kokomi. kokomi's only triumph is the win of that one battle, but its invalidated in hindsight bc she won by hiring mercenaries, but she hired them using money she blindly accepted, and they ended up being fatui's and it lead to the delusion crisis. like she didn't win bc of any great strategies, she won bc she was bankrolled and manipulated by fatui.

i think what they should have done is first of all, cut ayaka hostage situation, have the battle happen IMMEDIATELY as we arrive, have kokomi win by being brilliant and using her fish as spies or whatever, then combine the "endear and make you care about common rebellion soldiers" (rn happens before battle when u go with teppei around) and "make you feel like you're earned respect and command position of your team by them giving u trials" (now happens after trial when kokomi gives u swordfish team). teppei should just be a loser in swordfish team instead of wasting all that time at the start. then have a SECOND battle (it's a fucking war and we barely fight rn) and thats where fatui setup can happen. this way we establish kokomi as great strategist independent of fatui, make the bonding with rebellion more focused, have more cool action, and fatui schemes are still included.

4. raiden fans dont interact, biggest inazuma problem is raiden woobyfycation at the eleventh hour that immediately disregards both consequences of her actions and other character arcs, but also makes her seem as the dumbest jock in teyvat. instead of her having coherent vision, its just oh its her twin who was smart, raiden herself just didn't know that ppl have feelings, this is why she knowingly let fatui start civil war. but i think i'll talk about it later when i finish the whole inazum