#listen i know its been 6 years im still spoiler tagging

[redding]

smth smth rick not being able to leave carls gun behind smth smth the gun being the last thing his son touched the last thing to ever touch him the last thing that ever felt the warmth of his skin before it went cold and stayed that way. the thing he held the moment he died instead of a hand the closest rick will ever get to feeling his sons hand in his again

[wistfulwatcher]

Hello I saw your tag on that "im 25 and dying post" please tell us how it got better for you. Im 26, still living with parents, currently having a fight with my boyfriend, and i still have a year until I get my bachelors. The comparison to everyone younger than me is killing me.

I'm really sorry to hear that you're struggling, but I hope you can take some solace in the fact that that post has a lot of notes and you are absolutely not alone in feeling the way you do! I can certainly try and share my experience, but unfortunately I think the biggest factor is just time (and like, a buttload of self-reflection).

I moved back home after college and worked full time at an administrative job I was doing during school breaks. I majored in psychology and anthropology in college, and was planning to eventually go into forensic psychology, but wasn't interested in going straight into grad school. So I did that administrative job for about a year, and tried to find something that was a bit more stable and at least semi-related to my field. I did end up finding a new job when I was 23 - stable, semi-related to my field (a psych/research background was required), and decent pay (especially as I was still living at home). Exactly what I needed, since I still wasn't ready to start looking into grad school.

I was doing pretty well, until I started getting comfortable at that job, and then I started getting hit with the "I'm not doing enough," and "I need to look into grad school," and "will I ever find a boyfriend?" (friendly reminder that 23-year-old me thought she was straight, yikes), "how will I afford to move out, I have to save my money and do it soon!", "I'm not doing anything but watching TV, I'm wasting my life," "I'm lonely, but I'm too tired to try and make friends," etc., etc.

But it wasn't constant. I'd have a flurry of those questions and fears, and then days where I was just living life and doing my job and taking care of my dogs, without any of that. And I don't think I felt good or particularly comfortable those days, it was more like I just wasn't actively thinking about it, like when you feel "good" after a physical pain goes away and you're just normal.

Eventually, I started thinking about all of these concerns I had, and the fact that it felt like it was URGENT whenever I thought about them. It felt like I needed to get my shit together immediately. I also started to acknowledge that there was this big sense of guilt around those concerns; I was too old to be living at home, I was too old to be single, I was too old not to be starting a career. I felt like I was wasting my life (cue the guilt), and I realized that part of why I felt like I was wasting it was that I felt like I was missing milestones I wouldn't be able to do at a later time because the older I was past "normal" the more humiliating it would be to try (cue the shame and embarrassment, hard).

I also started to doubt that I wanted to go into forensic psychology. More importantly, I started to seriously doubt that I wanted a "career" at all. My job (as I kept that same semi-related to my field one) was absolutely a job, not a career. And I think this was a huge tipping point for me, because a career had always been a given in my life. I'm passionate about what I'm interested in, so it literally just never occurred to me that I would be content with a job. I also started acknowledging that I had some messed up associations about being content with a job meaning that I was lazy (because the only way to be ambitious is with a career and, more damaging, a lack of ambition is fundamentally bad).

Now, I need to clarify that all of the above occurred over the course of years. I was constantly seeing "friends" (i.e., of the facebook variety) go to grad school, start careers, get married, buy homes, etc. And with all of that alongside the entire mess I've outlined in the above paragraphs, it was really, really, tough. It gets hard to find a foothold in better thinking, I believe, when seeing all of these people (some younger) doing things "right" was really just compounding my guilt and shame. (I feel like it's worth mentioning, too, that I was always "an individual" growing up, march-to-the-beat-of-my-own-drummer, yada yada. I feel like that's worth pointing out for others who may be in the same boat, because I think it can lead to another layer of shame in comparing yourself to those around you - especially if it's a big part of your identity that you DON'T do that, because I think it's inevitable as you get older, and you're looking to reach these milestones that prove you're an adult.)

So, here I am, acknowledging that I feel guilt and shame about what I'm not doing. And suddenly I ask myself my first really important question: Do I want a career? The question hot on its heels is: Do I want to go to grad school? Honestly, my answer is no. There is nothing in me that's excited by the prospect. But what, does that mean I'm just going to work my job for the rest of my life? How is giving up going to make me feel better about Not Doing Enough?

As I'm opening this door (remember, years), three things happen: 1) I realize I'm gay, 2) I watch Dirty 30, 3) I start playing D&D.

First, realizing I'm gay. Woohoo! Not only was this exciting because girls are amazing, but it made me seriously look at myself. Realizing I had spent 25 years assuming one thing about myself that turned out to be completely wrong made me question everything for a while. I started to ask myself, "Do I really like this?" more often, which seems like a really obvious question, but I'm not convinced that it's one people ask themselves consciously all that often. But once I did, I realized how freeing it was to answer, "No," and move on to something I did like.

Second, I watched Dirty 30, the Grace Helbig/Mamrie Hart/Hannah Hart movie. It feels dramatic to say that it changed my life, but the older I get the more I honestly think it did. Mamrie Hart's character is a dental hygienist who is freaking out about turning 30 and feeling very much like that text post I reblogged. But (spoilers), at the end of the movie, she decides that she loves her job (job, not career!) because it's comfortable and she has fun at work, and that it makes her happy. She has other things going on, but the idea that a character in a film is content with her job and choosing to "settle" into her life as-is and she's genuinely happy about it? I honestly can't think of a single other time I've seen that happen on-screen. I still think about that ending very often. And after seeing it, I started to ask myself another question regularly: "Am I happy?" Again, this feels pretty obvious, but I think there is something incredibly empowering about making sure you are happy on a regular basis, instead of just assuming that you're fine until something hurts.

Third, I started playing D&D. This is not a plug for D&D! (Well, maybe a little.) One thing that happened to me when I started to get into the urgent-guilt-shame-confusion mess of my mid-20s was that I got very much into a routine of go to work, come home, sleep, go to work, come home, sleep, be totally brain-dead on the weekend, repeat. I found it very difficult to feel creative because I was just wiped, and as all of my creative outlets (gifs, fanfic) are self-motivated, it was really easy to brush them off. I ended up starting Critical Role (this is also not a plug for CR! well, maybe), and I wanted to give D&D a try myself. (I was VERY lucky - my best friend happened to be listening to the Adventure Zone at the same time I started CR, and she wanted to try to run a game. The stars truly aligned!)

I started playing, then DMing, and found that it was a great fit for my interests. I used to be a theatre kid, and I was getting to act again (something I didn't realize I was missing). I was getting to build and flesh out characters, which is what I love the most about writing fanfic. I was also discovering that I was stretching myself - world building and plot had never been my strong suit, but as a DM it became the majority of my creative effort. It gave me soft deadlines with people I didn't want to let down, and it made me truly social again for the first time since college. Essentially, it was filling in all of the gaps of what I felt lacking in my life. This isn't a D&D plug because it wasn't D&D specifically, but rather a hobby that satisfied what was missing in my life. For example, I didn't realize how isolated I was before D&D until I had regular interactions with friends, and that isolation absolutely made the urgent-guilt-shame-confusion worse.

D&D gave me that final push to realize that I was OK with having a job and being passionate about hobbies instead of trying to fit myself into a career, because I was getting out of that hobby what I had been convinced I would get out of a career. I started to really value that I could punch out and go have fun doing exactly what I wanted to do. (It feels so obvious as I type this, but it took me a long time to get here! Sometimes it really is that simple!)

The above is specific to my job vs. career struggle which may not be in the mix of things you're struggling with. But what I do think is universal/can be your take away, is that sometimes you just have to actively choose to let go of the pressure to be doing things. Which, I know, sounds so much easier than it is (and part of why I think it just takes time/is part of growing older). But I think it's something that can be worked at over time, by checking in with yourself about what you feel, why you feel it, and what you need to make yourself feel better in the present.

It's been 6 years since I started that semi-related job, and I'm still there. I still live with my mom. I'm still single. My circumstances have not changed since 24, but honestly? I'm OK. When I check in with myself about it, I do enjoy living with my mom and our dogs (even though I'm 30 and "real" adults move out). I am happy more often than I'm not (much more, actually!). I have a job that allows me to be done after 8 hours, and I have hobbies I look forward to doing each night (and the energy to do them, most of the time). My weekends are free to play D&D with my friends and laugh until I cry. That is what I've worked out as my definition of what I want life to be right now. You'll notice it includes none of the "milestones" that those younger than me have hit.

As I noted on that text post tag, I still struggle with this. I definitely have days where I think, I'm a mess, I'm not DOING anything. It's hard. But time does help, those days become fewer and farther between.

I know that was probably a hundred times longer than you wanted it to be, but I did want to illustrate just how much of a process it is. It takes time. My summary advice is to check in with yourself often, be honest about what you want and what you need, do not let anyone else define where you "should" be. And if you aren't living life how you want to be, identify what you can do (however small) to make yourself feel like you're getting closer.

[wearethewinx]

fate episode 6 spoilers below

admittedly that opening shot slaps. like that immediately makes me curious

bloom why are you looking. everywhere but at the glowing pillar in front of you

LOL WHOOPS

AISHA ARE U FOR FUCKING REAL. WRITERS ARE U FOR FUCKING REAL. THIS IS NOT MY GIRL

lol dowling thats what happens when u liiieeeeee

jfdlsfjlds terras dad being so stumped by her completely correct rebuttal that he just says 'you need to cool down'

'sorry you have to be visible to have a point of view' that line really made it into the script huh

theyre REALLY gonna make aishas first and only autonomous act in this entire show be to snitch on her friends

oh so there are witches huh. is that how were doing this huh. oh my god this is so unnecessarily complicated and confusing? this is. ridiculous? why wouldnt anyone else know about the witches? how does them being witches give rosalind the right to murder them all? HOW IS BLOOM OK WITH THIS LADY JUST SAYING 'yeah i lied and killed them all because only fairies are allowed to do magic' HWAT THE FUCK

*sky voice* i am literally so fucking stupid and boring its unreal

lol even sam is like 'terra shut up'

see i dont wanna be so mean to terra but shes explicitly written to be as annoying as humanly possible? people keep telling her theyre not interested and she just mows right over them completely not caring EVERY time

oh bloom is growing a braincell now huh

'only vanessa and michael could give you love' YOU CALL THAT LOVE? YOU CALL THAT SHIT LOVE? WHERE ARE THE WRITERS ILL FUCKING KILL THEM

me, every time: weve gotta be getting close to the end now right weve been here at least forty minutes

the timestamp, every time: 21:30

HOW is it possible for a show to drag this much? six hours feels like 18

nobody told the caption writer that rivens name is riven not 'riv'

stella being like 'WE shouldve never gotten back together WE are codependent and toxic' gurl,,,,,,,, You

rly have to stress that bloom listened to rosalind talk and was like 'oh genocide? well thats totally understandable, i trust you implicitly. here i was thinking you were just a regular mass murderer!'

WHY ARE THERE NO MAGIC PAINKILLERS. WHY IS THE ONLY WAY TO EASE SOMEONES PAIN FOR MUSA SPECIFICALLY TO TAKE IT ON

ALSO TERRA FUCK. YOU. FOR EVEN THINKING THAT, MUCH LESS SAYING IT OUT LOUD

how does the solarian royal family have a magic teleportation ring but they cant move troops across their country in less than 2 days

*bloom voice* come on sluts im gonna put you all in danger

PLEASE let sky miserably wail 'YOU KILLED MY FATHER' please god let it happen PLEASE

damn ok i actually REALLY like skys reaction here. unironically well written, very believable. even a stopped brain has good ideas twice an episode i suppose

love that musa only gets dignified with the slightest sliver of backstory in this, the final episode

STILL only HALFWAY THROUGH THE EPISODE. THIS IS SICK TIME DILATION FUCKERY

flora isnt supposed to be the loose canon of the winx for fucks sake

ok but WHAT ARE THE BURNED ONES. WHERE ARE THEY FROM. WHY DO THEY CARE ABOUT BLOOM. EVEN SHE HASNT ASKED YET! ARENT YOU CURIOUS ISNT ANYBODY CURIOUS

bloom: yeah rosalind unleashed the burned ones to attack us all but i totally trust that she told me the truth about how to stop them

blooms wings look FUCKING STUPID those arent even wings theyre just random red blobs with a mesh pattern

i guess im glad we actually GOT wings but my god is this a disappointment as wings go

also @ everyone in the tag calling this a 'transformation': are we watching the same fucking show lol. having fire swirl around you isnt a transformation. TRANSFORMING. is what makes it a transformation. absolutely nothing changes about her except having a couple blowtorches on her back

CANT STRESS ENOUGH THAT BLOOM KEEPS HEARING PEOPLE ADMIT TO MURDER AND RESPONDING WITH 'OH it was just MURDER lol thank god'

'bloom transformed' nO SHE DIDNT THAT WASNT A TRANSFORMATION OH MY GOD

ok but why WOULDNT rosalind reveal exculpatory information when it benefited her lol. why are you idiots believing her. why are you accepting that as a justification

'ive been a brat' OH SO YOU ADMIT IT

'can we hug' very normal request bloom especially considering the circumstances /s

my mom would flip her lid if i invited four friends over w/o asking in advance and then put her on the spot abt whether they can stay the night, and thats WITHOUT the added context that BLOOMS MOM THINKS THESE ARE HER SCHOOL FRIENDS FROM S W I T Z E R L A N D AND THAT THEY WOULDVE HAD TO FLY ACROSS THE OCEAN TO GET THERE

this bloom family montage is 1: unearned (i remember the door, assholes) and 2: TOO long and cheesy

i love that stellas mom still hasnt admitted shes missing or come looking for her lol. the HEIR to the THRONE has been MISSING for WEEKS and thats just Okay

lmao what the fuck. how is andreas wearing the same clothes as 16 years ago. anybody care to explain what the goddamn hell is going on here

dragonflame namedrop huh? interesting

LOL EVERYONES JUST ACCEPTING ROSALIND BACK WITHOUT QUESTION? SHE DISAPPEARED AND WAS PRESUMED DEAD FOR 16 YEARS

HOW STUPID ARE THE PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD

THE KING OF ERAKLYON. ABANDONED HIS SON. TO RAISE BEATRIX

WHAT IN THE GODDAMN HELL

omg she just fucking killed her

absolutely metal

ah HERE are the hideous outfits from the promo image. hate

final thoughts: this show is dumb

[littlespaceporgs]

The Clone Wars Reacts - Part 3

Alternatively, Leah misses daddy Plo, gets annoyed by droids and is thoroughly entertained by Jar Jar Binks while simultaneously simping for Padme.

TA~DA! Welcome to part 3 of the reacts series, where we cover episodes 6, 7 and 8! I won’t lie to you, I actually found episode 6 really boring, 7 was less boring and 8 was maybe a little bit funny and I lowkey enjoyed it so much. So yeah, the first two reacts are kinda boring because I was super bored, but 8 is kinda funny. As usual, major spoilers for season 1 of the clone wars.

Part 1 - Episodes 1 and 2 Part 2 - Episodes 3, 4 and 5

So, lets do thissssss!

Tags (as always, let me know if you want a tag!): @acciokenobi​ @roseofalderaan​ @catsnkooks​ @peacelandbread​ @littlevodika​ @icedcoffeeandgays​ @captainrexstan​ @likeshootingstarsinthenightsky​ @mcu-padawan​ @onabouteverything​ @fractiouskat​

Episode 6: Downfall of a Droid

Notes: since writing these, I’ve discovered that I am 100% without a doubt very much a simp for Plo Koon and it shows.

> Pre-warning, I’m writing this on paper and on the train, so there may be slightly less thots thoughts in this one

> “Suffering serious defeats by Grievous”??????? All we’ve seen for 5 episodes now is Grievous lose????????

> Yeah Anakin! You should listen to Ahsoka!

>> (you need to trust my babey)

> Where the fuck is Plo when you need him? I WANNA SEE HIM

> Maybe that image will tide me over? (we all know it wont but that’s off topic)

> Oh for fucks sake I’ve had enough of Grievous

> YEAH R2, WE ALL KNOW YOURE THE ONLY REASON ANAKIN IS ALIVE!

> “this is too easy” oooohhhhh boy, you say that now......

*Grievous ditches his ship*

> ✨ disappointed, but not surprised ✨

> THERE IT IS!!!!! “I got a bad feeling about this” - bringing the total count so far to 2

> W H A T

>> R2D2?????????????????????????

>>> EXCUSE ME WTF?!?!?!?! DID THEY JUST - R2D2 NO!

> OBI WAN HOW DARE YOU R2D2 IS NOT REPLACEABLE

>> This is one of the few times I am more annoyed with Obi-wan than I am horny for him

>>> Wait no scratch that - i just looked at his face again 💖💖💖💖

> I miss Plo already, can he come back now?

> Oh Ahsoka, you’re so cute 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

> omg Goldie???? I LOVE IT he’s kinda adorable

> ooooohhh boy R2 is going to be on that dodgy ass ship isnt he?

> hahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahahah

>> fart humour, i love it!

> Unique items, huh

> OH SHIT THATS THE TYPE OF DROID FROM THE MANDALORIAN

>> just thinking about the mandalorian reminds me of the new armour/helmet kink i discovered I had and how much i love pedro pascal

> Goddammit R3. oh shit oh shit bad droids BAD DROIDS

> is R2 just a really good droid? or do all of them make this many mistakes???

> hahahaha ‘gramps’, Ahsoka he’s literally only 5/6 years older than you

> *GASP* Anakin, he’s not a lightswitch!

> Oh shit, R2 was on the ship!

>> HA HA I WAS RIGHT

> fuck fuck Grievous no dont take R2 bad droid

> okay, I love obi-wan but he’s being a little harsh

>> mild turn-on but ok 👀👀

> aaaawwww the little stomping when he’s excited

> Do we get to see R2 do a mad escape?

>> WE DO!

> oh no, R2 you were so close

> tracking beacon?! R3, what’re you doing?!

> sorry anakin, they definitely saw it

> R3 WHAT ARE YOU DOING? THE HYPERDRIVE TOO?

> YEAH AHSOKA, YOU SAVE ANAKIN’S BUTT

> You, know, I’m starting to wonder if R3 is doing all this deliberately??

> lowkey, I want to tally the amount of droids grievous hurts/destroys

> well, i want R2 back in the next episode, please and thank you.

Episode 7: Duel of the Droids

> Okay, all I want is for Anakin to hurry up and find R2, because I want this arc to be over

> I’m going to keep this reacts fairly short because I’m a little bit bored

> All I want is more Plo content, is that too much to ask???????

>> If you can’t tell I have a thing for Plo Koon and I officially joined the simp club for him.

> This trandoshan guy is just.... bleh 🤢

* insert gross shiver* 

> YEAH R2 YOURE DOING SO WELL! HOLY SHIT GO R2D2!!!!

> I said it in part 1, and I’ll say it again, R2′s whirring is a mood

> Okay so fucking R3 just turned R2 down, so I am definitely starting to think this is deliberate?

>> HOLY FUCK I JUST REALISED A THING! DUEL OF THE DROIDS???????? R3 VS R2??????????????????

> ANAKIN IGNORE OBI-WAN LIKE USUAL, YOU GO AND SAVE R2 OK?!

> Rex’s expression when he’s told to carry R3 is comedy gold by the way

> Oh please Captain, kindly fuck me

> FUCK YEAH AHSOKA!

> *sighs* Oh the droid humour

> I mean, it is a type of head adjustment I guess 🤷‍♀️

> ...

>> Did you seriously think grievous, being the slimy bastard he is, wasn’t going to kill you?????

> OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT I WAS RIGHT FUCK R3 MAN

> AHSOKA KICK GRIEVOUS’ BIN CHICKEN LOOKI- oh no she was thrown into a wall, never-mind.

> R2 YES ZAP THAT GODDAMN DROID AND SAVE ANAKIN

> oh this is awkward, I love how R2 is insulted that he got R3 hahahahahahahha

> YES AHSOKA YOURE RIGHT, HE IS A STUBBY LITTLE BACKSTABER

> okay the most interesting point of this episode is ahsoka is escaping grievous

> OH MY GOD I WAS RIGHT AGAIN?! R2 AND R3 ARE DUELLING!!!! I CAN SEE THE FUTURE OR SOME SHIT LIKE A JEDI

> THATS RIGHT BITCH R2D2 IS BETTER

> anakin looking out for R2 is the cutest shit I’ve ever seen

> ngl, i had a small degree of satisfaction when I saw R3 get smashed to bits

> “oh anakin... one day” obi-wan is a mood

> oh thank god its over, alright what’s up next?

Episode 8: Bombad Jedi

> HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH DOES THIS ONE HAVE JAR JAR IN IT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

> please tell me it has jar jar in it, then it will surely be funnier than the last 2 eps

> OH SHIT THIS EPISODE HAS PADME TOO IM SO HAPPY YAY

> oh in the white outfit too, i love this woman so much

> I’m going to put a photo hear so you can appreciate it too

> My horny bisexual senses are tingling

> HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHA IM ALREADY LAUGHING AT THE STUPID FROG

>> *for context he already fucked up once and we are 1 minute and 15 seconds into the episode

> she has a point though, C3PO does usually get into trouble

> oh boy, he sounds mad.... I’m getting a sinking feeling about this

> oh no

>> ah shit he’s gone and joined the separatists

> YOU DONT GET THE RIGHT TO CALL HER SWEET YOU TRAITOR

> I am much more entertained nonetheless by this episode

> wait so they fart insults???? it sounds like a fart and i giggled a little

> Oh and now jar jar’s trying to talk to them

> HAHAHAHAH C3 always gets shit thrown at him or shot at, whenever he’s in an episode I get a little bit happy 

> HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH ITS A FUCKING MAGNET OH C3 YOU POOR DROID

> why does he automatically jump to jar jar’s been killed oh my god so little faith like its a swamp planet???? and jar jar comes from a swamp planet????? of course he gone survive falling into water????

> buta mesa sav-ed you? i love this stupid creature oh my god hahahahaha

> HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA THE JEDI CLOAK OMG

>> definitely 100% anakins, and I love the Padme has the equivalent of one of his hoodies

>>> I want one too

> ooooohhhh this is not going to go well

> oh boy

> I’m guessing this is where the bombad jedi comes from?

> DARTH JAR JAR

>> I am so sorry no its not mine, but I have no idea who’s it is

> wheresa jedi? OH MESA JEDI?

> have you guys seen zootopia? specifically where they trigger a ‘howl’ with the wolves??? Thats what I headcanon the droids are like with ‘roger roger’

> DAMN PADME THATS SOME MADASS CORE STRENGTH

>> crush me with those muscles please

> “There’s no jedi in here, wait there’s no prisoner in here!” hahahahahahahahah

> One day I’m going to have to do a little audio recording so you all know what sound I make whenever I’ve written hahahahahaha

> FUCK YEAH PADME SLAY THOSE DROIDS

> “I’m afraid the ship has been destroyed.” 

>> “Battle droids?” *shakes head*

>>> “... Jar Jar?”

>>>> “Jar Jar.”

> obviously Padme was right, she usually is

> oh boy Jar Jar is your only hope? you’re in for a shock buddy

> Padme is an excellent shot by the way

> OH MY GOD IT ATE HIM TO PROTECT HIM THATS SO SWEET

> “I think Jar Jar’s dead.” “Oh again?” goddamn it C3PO

> YEAH SLUG CREATURE THING GOOD JOB!

> ...

> excuse me????

> WHAT A FUCKING LEGEND HERE I WAS HATING ON UNCLE ANO WHEN HE IS STILL IN THE REPUBLIC

> okay he has my forgiveness now :))))))

alright, I enjoyed episode 8, 6 and 7 were a little lackluster, but I did like 8 a lot actually, more than I thought I would 

anyways, see you next time for 9, 10 and 11!! (I’m pretty sure I saw ventress and kit fisto in the title image, so be prepared for major ass thots because i am very heavily attracted to one (1) assassin and one (1) fish man)

[talkngflowers-m]

7 PEOPLE I’D LIKE TO KNOW BETTER. rules:  fill this up and then tag people you’d like to know better!

TAGGED BY: @thievinggentleman​ !! ILU JAY!! TAGGING: @litteriae​​, @cursecloud​​, @obtainedloss​​, @destinychose​​, @royaltywritten​​, @kleinemeine​​, @fukenzena​​, @kurainburdened​​, + anyone else who wants to give it a go!!

one / ( alias / name ): plant !! two / ( date of birth ): july 6 three / ( zodiac sign ): cancer four / ( height ): 5′8″ five / ( hobbies ): drawing, writing, character making, world building, story making !! six / ( favorite color ): green?? maybe?? all my life i’ve never been able to choose/// seven / ( favorite books ): uuuhHHm bone comic... i don’t really read that much eight / ( last song listened to ): someone to you - BANNERS nine / ( last film or show watched ): black clover bc gina is feral ten / ( story behind URL ): i originally wanted the url talkingtoflowers, because i like to think of my muses as flowers and that people as well as i am interacting with them!! but instead i ended up only being able to snag talkngflowers, which is still cute!! my muses are just talking flowers in my new multimuse garden <3 eleven / ( inspiration for muse ): since you tagged my jigen url, i’ll give you those digits first *rubs hands together*

     so, it all started back in like early 2019 when my friend showed me a trailer for the cgi movie. i was honestly like “holy shit this is the best cgi i’ve ever seen!!” i looked into it and found a source with an info drop that the miyazaki lupin film was on netflix. i watched it with a few friends but i didn’t get into it immediately and i kinda put it off for a while because i had so many other things on my plate.. 

     later in the kny rpc when all the new chapters were making me uncomfortably sad ( for reasons i will not mention bc spoilers but im sure those who are caught up know ) and i was kinda already in an uncomfortable place health wise, i really wanted a pick-me-up and the trailer, again, popped up on my twitter timeline, so i decided to kinda start stickin my nose in the comics and finally started watching part 4 ( im a sucker for older comics and crazy styles, and since lupin was made in the 60′s, it really drew me in !! ).

     from then on, i literally fell in love with jigen as a character because his design was so unique and fascinating to me.. even though his personality is so far off from the characters i usually choose to write, i was so attached to his design that i caved and decided to give it a try ( in all honesty, i was originally gonna pick up zenigata because his character design also spoke to me a whole bunch, i love his eyelashes/// plus hes a lot more like the muses i typically write.. but in the end i was way more fascinated w jigen as a character, design and story wise !! ).. 

     everything said and done, the series really made me smile.. it was lighthearted, goofy, playful, and lots of fun, with interesting characters who aren’t always good people ( since theyre criminals ofc! ), and mischievous plots!! it was everything i really needed at the time!!

aoyama is definitely the oldest muse on my roster!! and by far the most nostalgic for me!! i wrote him back in 2017 and its where i met a lot of the friends i know today!! i decided to bring him back for the sake of interacting mostly with said friends. i also acknowledge the things hori has done and by no means agree or condone any of it.. there have been a lot of toxic elements in bnha for as long as it has been around, and frankly im surprised it only recently has been called out so hard. that being said, aoyama means a lot to me, and im basically now writing him as if he were my own character ( not like i wasnt already because that man ignores my son and never does him justice )///

pearl i picked up back in 2019 because i replayed platinum and it had been a few years since i wrote on tumblr, so i kinda missed the rpc scene.

as for literally ALL the rest of my muses, i picked them up because my friends snaked their asses into my goddamn discord, said “ HEY WATCH THIS, THIS CHARACTER IS YOUR TYPE” and it was over for me.

[pizzabookbuying]

10 comfort movies & wildcard

I got tagged by @natsugia and honestly feel so attacked rn because apparently I’m incapable of summoning any works of fiction to mind that aren’t episodes of Gilmore girls here’s my very very labored attempt I guess (these probably aren’t in any specific order except in which they came to mind) I should probably say spoilers because I don’t know when to stop talking

1. Twilight? The first one? Maybe?

I was very late to the twilight hype and only started reading/watching the series a few years ago. HOWEVER dear lord the movies are so bad they’re good. The amount of times I’ll be talking to someone and have to fight the urge to not quote these movies are rediculous. I meAn come oN “hold on tight spider monkey” ?!! “SAY IT” “...a vAmpire” iconic. Truly iconic. I’ve definitely seen the first one the most and I like the tone the best, it’s got weird vibes and I like it. But also the shot spinning around Bella while she’s being emo because Edward left? Yes please. (Breaking Dawn part 2 is also hilarious, Dakota fanning yeeting a baby into the fire? Aro and his horrid laugh? “You nicknamed my baby after the Loch Ness monster?!!!”)

2. Zombieland

It’s a family favorite, what can I say. If I’m watching TV and it comes on I am legally obligated to finish the movie.

3. Princess Bride

Another movie I grew up watching and have yet to get tired of. It also doesnt help that sophomore year of high school I read the book and it just pulled me deeper into its thralls. It’s the perfect movie to put on when you’re sick so you can pretend you’re the kid whose brother was in boy meets world. (Also, it’s very very quotable)

4. The Hunger Games Series, particularly Catching Fire

This series is one of the very few exceptions to rule of “I don’t tend to watch things when they first come out because reasons” It was all aboard the hype train for me. And I loved every second. The second movie really feels like the pinnacle of the series to me, though. The first film’s costuming and art design feels a little tacky at times (looking at you weird training garb) but the second film mmm so good. The mockingjays had some weird tonal shifts and were missing the great costuming of the first two (it works from a story standpoint but still) Plus, it means the ensemble cast is at its best, the introduction of some truly spectacular characters and most of the main cast doesn’t die this time! Plus plus I just really really love the party scene at snow’s house. Ooh and the training part with peeta’s painting and Katniss’s doll lol.

5. Scooby Doo Spooky Island & Scooby Doo Monsters Unleashed

Listen. It’s a weird pick. I know it is. BUT I cannot emphasize how much I loved Scooby Doo growing up. I had the box sets for the original series and what’s new scooby doo. I loved it. So watching the movies just gives me the warm gooeys inside. They’re just so delightfully rediculous.

6. Pretty in Pink

Duckie. My boy deserved better.

7. Pride and Prejudice

I’m basic and love hands.

8. Pretty much any period drama tbh

Anna Karenina? Yep. Although, the feels may be too strong.

The duchess? Not as good but acceptable.

Marie Antoinette? Slightly questionable in historic accuracy but damn if those aesthetics don’t do it for you. It’s a very pretty movie.

9. Made of Honor

Is it an objectively good movie? No. It’s rather questionable at times and doesn’t have a great theme. But, it’s a mom movie. I sit down, I snuggle in, and it’s like im watching it for the first time as a middle schooler wedges between my mom and a bowl of popcorn. It’s something I can watch and feel annoyingly comforted by. (Plus it’s Derek! And Owen! Even though I hate Owen, he’s very nice here!)

10. To All the Boys I’ve loved before. I guess.

The movie has similar yet very different vibes to Gilmore girls. It has that sense of safeness and comfort that shots of the town gazebo have. It’s also based off a great book series. Although my view of the movies has been seriously damaged by the second movie (my ship was ruined! Ruined I say!) I’ve still watched the first about a thousand times. (And when I say the second movie was bad let me just explain two things, my favorite character got all of 10 minutes of screen time, was used as a plot device, and the director seemed to find it necessary to include a scene of the main character gliding down the hallway lip sincing to a very emo song while also making direct eye contact with the camera. I was horrified.)

So Wildcard. I don’t really know how wild I’m allowed to get here, mostly because I scroll through about #2 on other peoples lists and get bored and yeet out. But, idk maybe atonement? That perhaps doesn’t seem wild but it’s one of my favorite movies and yet I haven’t seen the entirety of it. I’ve seen clips, read the wiki, and cried because NO. It also includes James McAvoy and I’m just now realizing I didnt even mention the X-men movies, which I love. Whatever. This whole list has been a wildcard.

Time to Tag!! Except I have this paralysing fear of rejection so instead I’m just gonna say if you’ve somehow made it through that horrid list YAY you just got tagged! Unless, of course, you don’t want to, in which case, I’m not tagging you and you don’t have to feel weird about not continuing the chain. If you do end up doing this because I somehow inspired your list making feel free to mention me so I can scroll down to your #2 and get bored. I’ll still heart it though, I promise!

[angelixii]

85 Questions Tag

Thank you for the tag @felixspotato c:

1. Last Drink - Water so I could swallow a pill for my headache that still hasn’t gone away c:

2. Last Phone Call - My mom

3. Last Text Message - “Even tho I say fite me all the time I don’t mean it” (please dont ask for context)

4. Last Song Listened To - Let Go Bts (listening to now as typing this)

5. Last Time You Cried - Idk probably in the last week

6. Ever Dated Someone Twice - Never actually dated

7. Ever Kissed Someone and Regretted It - Nah

8. Ever Been Cheated On - Never actually dated

9. Ever Lost Someone Special - Does my stuffed animal from Disney World count? :c

10. Ever Been Depressed - I’d just say upset for a few days at times

11. Ever Gotten Drunk and Thrown Up - Can’t drink

12. Favorite Color - Blue

In The Last Year Have You...

15. Made New Friends - Totally

16. Fallen Out Of Love - Nah

17. Laughed Until You Cried - uHm that’s everyday...at myself

18. Found Out Someone Was Talking About You - I don’t think so (I have a headache I don’t wanna think)

19. Met Someone Who Changed You - I think its barely out of reach of “In the last year” but yes

20. Found Out Who Your Friends Are: I believe so

21. Kissed Someone on Your FB Friends List - Don’t have a FB

23. Have Any Pets - uhm way too many but I got cats dogs a dwarf hamster and recently 8 puppies! But we giving them away :c

24. Do You Want to Change Your Name - Nah I like Kassidy c:

25. What Did You Do For Your Last Birthday - Hung out with my close family and tried to figure out my new piano

26. What Time Did You Wake Up Today - 9:30 but if my mom didn’t wake me up probably 10:00

27. What Were You Doing At Midnight Last Night - Being tortured by Georgia (Love ya worm)

28. Something You Can’t Wait For - uhm there is a lot of things but my main is getting an album or any merch besides my Bts ring

30. What Are You Listening to Now - Stray Kids singing ‘As if Its Your Last’ by BP

32. Something That Is Getting On Your Nerves - People and the fact that my body can’t pick of its hot or cold

33. Most Viewed Website - Obvioulsy Youtube

34. Hair Color - Lightish Darkish Brown (idk how to explian)

35. Long or Short Hair - Long

36. Do You Have A Crush on Someone - No not really unless you count celebrities c:

37. What Do You Like About Yourself - Not much except my healthy hair and Friends irl and my mutuals

38. Want Any Piercings - No not really

39. Blood Type - uh idk

40. Nicknames - Kassidilla (My fav), Kassadodle, Kassy, Kassidie (pronounced Kass-i-dye), Kassido, and probably a bunch more I can’t think of

41. Relationship Status - Single and wanna stay that way for a while

42. Zodiac - Pisces

43. Pronouns - She/Her

44. Favorite T.V Show - Don’t really watch T.V

45. Tattoos - Don’t have any now but might get at least one in the future that has a very special meaning to me

46. Right or Left Handed - Right

47. Ever Had Surgery - Had tubes in my ears multiple times and my tonsils taken out

48. Piercings - Nah

49. Sports - Don’t like them or play them unless forced to at school c:

50. Vacation - uhm idk

51. Eating - Nothing but want to be eating something

52. Drinking - Nothing but want to be drinking something along with that something I want to eat

53. I’m About to Watch - Idk probably YouTube

55. Waiting For - My body to chose if its hot or cold PLEASE MAKE YOUR MIND IM SUFFERING

56. Want - More mutuals

57. Get Married - uhm when im way older hopefully I don’t die alone being the old woman that has way to many animals c:

58. Carrer - Photograher or Zookeeper

59. Hugs or Kisses - Hugs

60. Lips or Eyes - Eyes

61. Shorter or Taller - Taller

62. Older or Younger - idk just close to my age

63. Nice Arms or Stomach - uHm uhhhhhhhh idk

64. Hookup or Relationship - Relationship

65. Troublemaker or Hesitant - Hesitant

66. Ever Kissed A Stranger - Nah

67. Ever Drank Hard Liquor - Can’t drink so

68. Ever Lost Glasses - Don’t wear them

69. Ever Turned Someone Down - Relationship wise no but other times I have multiple times but most of time I had a reason or just very nicely

70. Ever Had Sex On First Date - UHM nO

71. Ever Broken Someones Heart - Not to my knowledge

72. Ever Got Your Heart Broken - Nah

73. Ever Gotten Arrested - UhM I’m a good child so n0

74. Ever Cried When Someone Died - LOWKEY A SPOILER TO MAZE RUNNER DEATH CURE IF YOU DONT WANNA KNOW DONT READ!! Most recent was Newt from Maze Runner :c But with real people I’ sure (I cant think of a death since my grandma which was when I was like 5-7 I don’t remember

75. Ever Fallen For a Friend - Nah

76. Believe in Yourself - idk

77. Believe in Miracles - Haven’t really had one but I lowkey do

78. Believe in Love at First Sight - same answer as 77

79. Believe in Santa - hAhA no

80. Believe in Kiss on First Date - Sure why not

81. Believe in Angels - Yeah

83. Eye Color - Brown

84. Favorite Movie - Maze Runner series

85. Favorite Actor - Probably Thomas Brodie Sangster or Dylan O’Brien c; Oh also Zendaya lowkey

Finished!

Wow I did It! That took a while XD

Thanks again for the tag

I tag @sugaslostswagg c: You don’t have to do it but I want you to! c: Wuv you!

Have Fun!! (I know I did a little c:)

[carterashofficial]

Thanks, Aearyn

@aearyn was so unbelievably kind to tag me for this 

rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people (ahaha no i wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy this took forever)

— what was your last…

1. drink: water. from the fridge. there might’ve been a dog hair in it because Scout and Abbey show their love through shedding. I didn’t care.  2. phone call: my old internship asking why I never got my w-2 form 3. text message: a coupon from World Market, if that counts. If not, i texted myself a spoiler for the kotfe fic so i don’t forget 4. song you listened to: Champion by Carrie Underwood b/c i love it and I NEED THE POSITIVITY   5. time you cried: UH... writing the kotfe fic. But i wasn’t actually crying. it was more like “im tearing up at this one scene b/c its breaking my heart”. Actual crying? been... so long i can’t remember.

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: ahahahhahahahahahaha.... ahahahhaha..... ahahahhahahahaha despite my best intentions, i’ve never dated anyone. I’ve been trying to change that. I want romance in my life. 7. kissed someone and regretted it: That would imply i’ve had my first kiss, and im 22 years old and still haven’t had it. APHRODITE WHY AM I SINGLE. I’M READY TO MINGLE 8. been cheated on: see above. Can’t be cheated on if you’ve never HAD A DATE 9. lost someone special: i would rather not consider this question, but Domino, Jewel, and my Grandma (all were very, very sudden and hit me like a bag of bricks).  10. been depressed: ha ha ha apparently i’ve had depression since i was 15. I was officially diagnoses in January of 2017 and have been on medication since. ahahaha  11. gotten drunk and thrown up: no I can barely get drunk even when i try, let alone enough for a damn hangover. Seriously. I can drink like Carmadda and not get drunk.

— fave colours

12. soft eggshell green 13. the blue at the edge of the horizon 14. metallic  anything

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: ........yes? i think? 16. fallen out of love: ahahahahaha no b/c i’ve never been in love (in the romantic sense and that’s how im taking this) 17. laughed until you cried: always 18. found out someone was talking about you: in the worst of ways 19. met someone who changed you: yes 20. found out who your friends are: oooooh yes 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: never been kisses

— general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: all? how else do people find you on there? 23. do you have any pets: many. Scout, Abbey, the neon tetras (named the Heralds of Zildrog), my various shrimp, and Corypheus and Valkorian the golden inca snails  24. do you want to change your name: no, but i used to 25. what did you do for your last birthday: went bowling 26. what time did you wake up today: i woke up 3 times, once to Bug getting ready for school, then my mom asking if i opened the vitamins, then... i think 9 was when i finally crawled out 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: playing swtor or looking up some fresh and funky memes 28. what is something you can’t wait for: finished the next kotfe fic chapter and breaking everyone’s hearts. Or the next major expansion of SWTOR. I NEED ANOTHER CINEMATIC TRAILER LIKE GODDAMN 30. what are you listening to right now: nothing my house is silent and in the far, far distance, sometimes i can hear cars on the toll road 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i have an uncle named Tom. I have spoken with him. So Yes. 32. something that’s getting on your nerves: socialization. I can only take so much around others. If I was a Sim i’d have the lonely trait. 33. most visited website: Tumblr or my school’s student login page 34. hair colour: blonde/brown im really smack in-between and i just dye it lighter to make it blonde enough for me to be blonde 35. long or short hair: long. so long. down to my butt long                                   36. do you have a crush on someone: not sure. i like him, he’s funny and thinks im funny, and teases me back, but im shit at reading signs and far too much a coward to ask him out. I’m not sure. I had a major crush in high school that resulted in me falling in love with a guy but we never offically dated and then he crushed my heart. Long story. So i try to avoid crushes lest i break my heart again. 37. what do you like about yourself: bitch im fabulous 38. want any piercings: i got 3 in the lobes of each ear and cartilage in the left. If i get any more I think my mom would have a heart attack 39. blood type: ??????? no idea. I know my sister is O 40. nicknames: Milky (only drank milk as a kid, but this nickname has sorta phased away). Other nicknames give away my real name. But I do respond to my sister’s name. 41. relationship status: single and ready to flamingle 42. sign: Aquarius 43. pronouns: she/her 44. fave tv show: i literally can’t pick one b/c ive watched nearly every cop show on Netflix, including some that aren’t in english. All the cooking competitions i can find on Netflix and youtube, and im running out of TV to watch when i do art. Halp. 45. tattoos: Zero because my fatal fear is needles. 46. right or left handed: Left. left left left seriously i can.... maybe dip a french fry in ketchup with my right but that’s it 47: ever had surgery: wisdom teeth removed count? 48. piercings: 7 total in the ears and nothing else. 49. sport: I watch baseball and hockey (SPEAKING OF WHICH, GO DUCKS!). Used to play softball and some soccer. 50. vacation: if i can graduate a quarter early I want to go visit my family in florida and michigan 51. trainers: is... this british for shoes? i wear berkenstocks. only berkenstocks. because crocs are so comfortable but people judge. I also have hella wide feet where ever ‘wide’ shoes are too narrow. I can get by in Vans or my old old Nikes that i hardly ever wear

— more general

52. eating: whether or not if ketchup should go on it, ketchup is going on it. Unless if it’s breakfast food or desert. Breakfast food is my favorite and i could happily live off it it. 53. drinking: water, tea, juice, milk, Mike’s black cherry hard lemonade, monster energy drinks, RC Cola.... i drink a variety of things. Mostly water and tea. 54. i’m about to watch: i dont know I’VE RAN OUT OF THINGS TO WATCH ON NETFLIX 55. waiting for: myself to go out on a date and/or meet The Guy 56. want: many things. 57. get married: One day. 58. career: ssssssssttttttttttuuuuuuuuuudddddddeeeeeeennnnnnntttttttt

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses: i want both but maybe not from the same people. 60. lips or eyes: depends what each are doing tbh 61. shorter or taller: taller b/c im short and can’t reach the top shelf 62. older or younger: older but at this point im 22 and a lot of my classmates are 21 so like.... my generation. 63. nice arms or stomach: arms 64. hookup or relationships: relationships 65. troublemaker or hesitant: depends. like really depends. I’ll probalby go with troublemaker b/c they tend to be funny and on-the-spot and im a planner.

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger: never kissed anyone..... ha ha ha 67. drank hard liquor: so yes. 68. turned someone down: ahahahhahahahaahaha haha ha. Actually yes I got asked to homecoming my senior year by this one dude who still gives me the creeps jsut tihnking about him. I politely said no. 69. sex on first date: never been on a date, never kissed anyone. Never ‘done the deed’. Would not do on the first date. 70: broken someone’s heart: uh my mom’s when I told her I had Depression and wanted to kill myself all throughout sophomore year highschool 71. had your heart broken: oh. Yes. 72. been arrested: no 73. cried when someone died: more like wailed loud enough that half the dorm floor heard 74. fallen for a friend: *side-eyes my sister* yeeees

— do you believe in

75. yourself: it varies over what. 76. miracles: I mean.... to an extent.  77. love at first sight: no 78. santa claus: I AM 22 YEARS OLD of course 79. angels: its complicated. my mom found a dead rat in our old house’s garage when i was 4-ish and all i remember crying for the dead rat when my dad tossed it in the garbage. My mom explained that an angel had already taken the rat’s soul to heaven. What did I picture the angel as? A carrot, wearing a tie, with mickey mouse-esque white gloves carrying a rat dramatically. This still haunts me.

— misc

80. eye colour: blue enough that you might drown in the ocean 81. best friend’s name: @athenascrown 82. favourite movie: if you think I can pick only one you’ve got another thing coming. but.... any star wars movie. If i had to pick one, Empire Strikes Back or Phantom Menace or The Last Jedi.... or Rogue One.... or Revenge of the Sith... 83. favourite actor: The guy who played the stormtrooper who hits his head on the door in Ep 4 84. favourite cartoon: the old Ducktales was a childhood favorite 85. favourite teacher’s name: I don’t want to put her name out here but she was my art teacher all through high school and she is one of the kindest souls ive ever met and if it wasn’t for her, i wouldn’t have gotten back into art

because this post took 5ever im not tagging anyone but if you want to do it, just say I tagged you and I’ll say i did

[choisgirls]

Tiggity taggity

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. At the end choose 25 people to be tagged.

tagged by @sevensity​ my wwwwWWWWIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIFE HI I MISS U SO MUCH

LAST:

Last Drink: I had a strawberry crush ^^; Last Phone Call: SOME UNKNOWN NUMBER CALLED ME AN HOUR AGO SMH SAERAN NOT NOW Last Text Message: Actual text was my mum, whatsapp was 6, and tumblr message was Tex! ^^ Last Song You Listened To: Iris- Goo Goo Dolls  Last Time I Cried: :') literally a minute or two before I answered this thing

HAVE YOU EVER: Dated Someone Twice: Mmmm mhm long distance online and it was fucking horrible i cannot believe i went back to him he was a prick Been Cheated On: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA yes quite a few times Kissed Someone and Regretted It: Oh yes. Lost Someone Special: Quite a few,,,, Been Depressed: Hi I'm 4 and I suffer from severe depression why are you asking me this Been Drunk and Thrown Up: I'm a Zen or a Jumin, okay, not a Yoosung

IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU: Made a New Friend: MY WIFE MY WIFE MY WIFE! And!! So so so many more friends! Like Ams! And Aysel! AnD TEX!!! And kinky nonnie!!! and elizabeth!!! And Heart nonnie! And Hair nonnie! And- *unravels long list of other absolutely amazing people that i consider friends and that i love with my whole heart but if i list them all here i would take all day but please just know that i!!! love you!!! and you are all!!!! my friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!* Fallen Out of Love: Yes  Laughed Until You Cried: all the time Met Someone Who Changed You: Um. Maybe? I'm not sure Found Out Who Your True Friends Were: Yes and no. More like it solidified my thoughts on them ^^  Found Out Someone Was Talking About You: People talk about me all the time because im this huge bitch and im usually disliked and all that so like I'm not surprised???

GENERAL: How many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: Only one! otherwise!!! I have seen a few people on snapchat!!! And i've video chatted with one!!   Do you have any pets?: *frantically chasing after all 10 of my pets as they all avoid me* Do you want to change your name?: Yes. What time did you wake up this morning?: 11:32 because I'm an aDULT and i can do ADULT THINGS like SLEEPING IN and CRYING What were you doing last night?: Homework;;;;;;; Name something you cannot wait for: HaPpInEsS even if its in the form of getting the good end for V's route ^^ Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yeah i have family members named tom What’s getting on your nerves rn?: The fact that people KEEP SENDING ME FUCKING SPOILERS KNOCK IT OFF BEFORE I KNOCK YOU OUT that and I have no inspiration to write ^^;;;;;;;;;; Blood type: i mean i think all blood is good blood fight me Nickname: Pussydestroyer6969 (Or more commonly I actually go by Lucifer's Dick and DO NOT ask me why) (Really, its usually just 4) Relationship status: I'm pretty dead in all aspects but my hands are cold Zodiac sign: Fake ass snake Pronouns: The evil overlord??? goddess???? that one person?? Favorite tv show(s): Supernatural, Shadowhunters, Magicians, The Librarians, and thats all i can think of off the top of my head but theres more

College: Sucks? Hair colour: Dark auburn naturally, you can really see the ginger in the sunlight :') Long or short: long leggy Do you have a crush on someone: His name is Saeran and I love him so much he is my husband

FIRSTS: First surgery: My shoulder First piercing: My ears! Fun story, my grandma took me as a baby to get them done while my mum was at work and didnt bother to tell her so my mum was peeved ^^;; First best friend: First day of preschool my horrid of an ex best friend walked up to me and punched my arm, saying we were now friends so i mean fuck her she sucks First sport you joined: Boxing and not long after, football First vacation: Myrtle Beach, South Carolina! First pair of sneakers: idk im sure they were black sneakers tbh my mum didnt trust me in white Eating: the souls of those who cross me? Drinking: the blood of my enemies? I’m about to: Fall asleep :') im so tired someone pl e as e Listening to: My cats run around the house and the jingle of the kittens bell ^^ Want kids: I do! Not... currently, but I do! ^^ Get married: I would love to get married~ Lets go~ At the space station~ All of you, at once, come on (ง'̀-'́)ง (ง'̀-'́)ง  Career: This is a hard one because its between programming or owning my own bakery;;

WHICH IS BETTER: Lips or eyes: I fall for eyes sO q Uic Kl Y Hugs or kisses: When you hug people you get closer and you can hear their heartbeat so you know just where to stab them ;) (no really i like kisses better) Shorter or taller: I don't really care but im tIRED OF BEING THE TALL ONE Older or younger: I like a good amount either way, not too much younger and not too much older Romantic or spontaneous: It has to be both Sensitive or loud: Both but i'll probably get just as loud;; Hook up or relationship: *kelly clarkson voice* OH NO, I DO NOT HOOK UP UP, I GO SLOOOOWTroublemaker or hesitant: IF ITS NOT BOTH THEN IM SORRY ITS NOT HAPPENING;;;;

HAVE YOU EVER: Kissed a stranger: oh no listen i would not kiss someone random you dont know what kinda thINGS those lips have touched Drank hard liquor: eheheheheheheheheh Lost glasses/contacts: Yes along with my will to live and my love for anything Sex on first date: Honestly i wouldnt know Broken someone’s heart: I um;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; Been arrested: *evil cackling*  Turned someone down: I have but i tend to do it gently because!!!!! its rude otherwise!!!!!! Fallen for a friend: I did once yes

DO YOU BELIEVE: In yourself: I dont think i ever truly have? Love at first sight: Mmm, yes? no? maybe so? me @ saeran hell yeah Heaven: well i have no comment here Santa Claus: If I believe in santa claus will my mum still give me a present that i cant afford on my own because im a poor ass college kid?? :')

 yo im not tagging 25 people sorry im a rule breaker but! here! it is! if you guys want to do it! You definitely dont have to! ^^

hi my names 4 and i hit enter before actually like, tagging people sO:

@paleasamoon, @mysplaced-pen, @wishful-lolita @toraod, @beautiful-mystic-mess, @deadpan-sexual

[vitaminhwang]

92 Truths

Rules: Tag 20 people

I was tagged by @princechani HAHA AW TY FOR TAGGING ME <33 i feel special :’))

spoiler: im boringiojdoiqwjed

THE LAST…

1. Drink: iced tea

2. Phone call: a “conference call” with my friendsajsdnkasjd

3. Text message: “ AWWW DAMNN well as long as you take care of it it’ll be okay!!!!! “ - my friend got hurt :/ 

4. Song you listened to: outro: wings

5. Time you cried: maybe 2 weeks ago;;

HAVE YOU EVER…

6. Dated someone twice: nope

7. Been cheated on: nope

8. Kissed someone and regretted it: n o p e

9. Lost someone special: no

10. Been depressed: yeah :/ 

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nope im still a smol bean

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: blue, purple & pink

15. Made new friends: yes :’)) <3

16.Fallen out of love: nope

17. Laughed until you cried: NOO I HAVEN’t but i made other ppl ;-; & thats good enough for me :’)

18. Found out someone was talking about you: yep meh idcasdjnaskjd it was like a year ago sidhas so 

19. Met someone who changed you: i guess so?

20. Found out who your true friends are: yes 

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: nope facebook is dead

GENERAL…

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: none i dont even have fb lol

23. Do you have any pets: no :((( I REALLY WANT ONE;; PLS LIKE A CAT OR A DOG OR A BUNNY :((

24. Do you want to change your name: no actually :’) i used to want to tho

25. What did you do for your last birthday: go to school fun times;;

26. What time did you wake up: like 10: 50 ish am

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: doing face masks with my friendsasijdasod omfg i never laughed that hard in so long

28. Name something you cannot wait for: ...tbh nothing idk what im excited for...thats sad lmao

29. When was the last time you saw your mother: 10 mins ago

30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: take more opportunities

31. What are you listening to right now: friends in the bg lmao 

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nope 

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: the thought of summer school ugh i regret it now

34. Most visited website: tumblr, youtube, twitter 

35.Elementary: embarrassing, cringe, regret, dark ages

36. High School: ?????????? what is life??? pls help me??? im so awkward sidjoasd also anxiety :)

37. College/university: idk what i would want to do or if is a good idea for me or meh idk just the future to worry abt whatever i still got time

38. Hair color: black

39. Long or short hair: long

40. Do you have a crush on someone: if hwi counts then yeah

41. What do you like about yourself: ...............?????...i guessss hmmm i guess my dimples 

42. Piercings: on my ear i just have 2 simple ones 

43. Blood type: tbh i have no idea

44. Nickname: di 

45. Relationship status: single & waiting for hwi :’)

46. Zodiac sign: aries

47. Pronouns: she / her

48. Favorite tv show: friends

49. Tattoos: don’t have any but i kinda want a small cute one maybe on my wrist but im rlly indecisive so idk what id get

50. Right or left hand: right hand

51. Surgery: mouth a couple months ago :/ 

52.Piercings: tbh lowkey kinda want some piercings like taehyung does;;; like 3 tiny ones idk i love his piercings they’re so cute to me :(( 

54. Sport: i rlly like soccer & badminton but im not good lol

55. Vacation: i want to go to s. korea or japan or like somewhere tropical 

57. Eating: nothing atm  

58. Drinking: iced tea

59. I’m about to: most likely go to sleep 

60. Listening to: friends in the bg 

61. Waiting for: im not waiting for anythingisdkasld wow this is sad

62. Want: to have confidence myself

63. Get married: tbh?? i don’t think i’d want to;; well at least me rn wouldn’t want to;; no thanks i’ll pass

64. Career: i wanna do something in marine biology or psychology

WHICH IS BETTER…

65. Hugs or kisses: H U G S gimme all the hugs ;-;

66. Lips or eyes: eyes

67. Shorter or taller: taller

68.Older or younger: older

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: nice arms  

71. Sensitive or loud: ooooo...damn idk...its been 5 mins...hmm ...damn i srsly have no idea

72. Hook up or relationship: relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: im rlly hesitant so maybe troublemaker?? but then again... hmm 

HAVE YOU EVER…

74. Kissed a stranger?: nope

75. Drank hard liquor?: nosidjoiasdk

76. Lost glasses contact/lenses?: if i never wear them i can’t lose them jkjkjsadjas no i haven’t

77. Turned someone down?: nope

78. Sex on first date?: no

79. Broken someone’s heart?: nope

80. Had your heart broken?: nope, can’t get your heart broken if you don’t have oneisadjosajd

81. Been arrested?: nope

82. Cried when someone died?: ....no

83. Fallen for a friend?: yeah “friend” i guess they were??? at the time?? cringe cringe cringe regretregretregtregretregretregret

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

84.Yourself?: nope not really if im being honest lmao 

85. Miracles?: tbh?? not really but hey as long as it helps ppl

86. Love at first sight?: nahhhh sounds like a lot of bs to me.... after this yall probs think im rlly coldsidhisaod

87.Santa Claus?: no IM SORRY MOM

88. Kiss on the first date?: nah plus i havent been on one so i wouldnt knowsudhisa

89. Angels?: haven’t thought abt it tbh

OTHER…

90.Current best friend’s name: megan

91.Eye color: brown 

92.Favorite movie: the star wars series :P

im tagging: @ilysanha @supersaiyum @leeminpuppy @j1hunn @peurodyuseu @velvetjjks & anyone else who wants to do this!!

[vsirin]

yay i got tagged by @felleyan to answer these questions!! thank u!

Rules: Answer the 20 questions in a new post and tag 20 blogs you would like to get to know better.

Nickname: adi

Gender: ??? agender but also maybe genderfluid

Star Sign: taurus

Height: 5′4 :’( so short

Time right now: 9:52pm

Last thing I googled: “rami malek” bc i wanted to see when his bday was, and then right before that “i want to protect it meme” so i could use it in my tags lol

Favorite Bands: oohh lately INXS is all i listen to so it’s hard to remember anything before that... lol but i love twenty one pilots and panic! at the disco... and of course one direction is a Classic 

Favorite Solo Artists: george ezra!! and woodkid, hozier, lorde... i feel like im forgetting something super important but oh well

Song stuck in your head: ive been waiting to answer this one until a song IS stuck in my head so now one finally is and it’s kiss the dirt by inxs (such a good song to be stuck on tbh)

Last movie I watched: i don’t really watch many movies bc i watch more shows so i cant remember the last movie i finished but rn double indemnity is on for background noise

Last TV show I watched: black sails!! it’s been a while but im planning on watching the second to last episode tonight :’((

When did you create your blog: dec 6, 2012.. can’t believe it’s been 4 1/2 years

What kind of stuff do you post: anything i want!! lol, it’s literally whatever im into so it’s a mess

When did your blog reach its peak: honestly the Height was when i was a 1d niall blog, legit i was so popular i can’t believe it... i had like 16k (still have most of them actually) and got multiple asks like every single day... it was Wild. but for me, it’s height is right now bc i dont feel pressured to be a certain way and i just do what i want and dont rlly care about notes or followers

Do you have any other blogs: some super inactive reference blogs but none other than that

Do you get asks regularly: absolutely NOT lol i hardly get any asks ever

Why you chose your URL: i love vincent van gogh and all his letters/things he said are so motivational to me and he always signed his letters “ever yours, vincent”

Following: 38.... my dash is so dead and currently every post i would actually care about is blocked so i can avoid spoilers for mea and black sails (it’s not working)

Posts: 27,511 which isn’t as much as i expected tbh

Hogwarts House: gryffindor!!! although... the last time i took the test it was hufflepuff which is a lot more accurate HOWEVER when i took the test honestly when i was 12 i got gryffindor so that’s just who i am... my bravery will shine through one day

Pokémon Team: i dont pokemon i dont know what this means

Favorite colors: so many.. purple has been my fav forever but my top fav is probably maroon 

Average hours of sleep: usually 8 although not at the normal hours.. lmao like 2-10 

Lucky Numbers: i dont Need lucky numbers although i have a thing w/ 52... for some reason it’s always stood out to me so maybe that’s something

Favorite (manga) characters: im not into any mangas so im just gonna list my favs from other things

garrus (mass effect)

eugene sledge (the pacific)

bill adama (battlestar galactica)

chris (until dawn) 

i feel like i need a black sails fav on here but literally i couldnt choose between flint and silver :’( they’re both my sons who mean so much to me

there’s probably tons im forgetting and when i remember them i’ll be so upset i forgot them in the first place but oh well

How many blankets do you sleep with: like 3 or 4? i have a sheet and big blanket and then 2 fuzzy ones

Dream job: video game programmer!!! im so excited abt this and like... this could be a thing for my future and i CANNOT WAIT

Dream trip: AUSTRALIA!!! (although id like for it to be a permanent trip, i wanna live there so much) for a trip though listen up. i have to go here and do the whole beach camping thing... it looks so incredible

i definitely do not know even 20 people to tag but i’ll tag: @ageofthesith, @nickygrimms, @punkrockaries, and @lukearnold!!

[oreothechubbycat]

92 truths

Rules: answer the questions, tag 25 people( im not that popular pal)

I was tagged by @lgbtqbread​ thanks!

LAST
[1] 

drink: water

[2] phone call: Sarah, my friend

[3] text message: uhh my school friend

4] song you listened to: Something Entirely New- Steven Universe(contains spoilers)

5] time you cried: yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER

6] dated someone twice: nope

7] been cheated on: no and neither the other way around

8] kissed someone and regretted it: yes

[9] lost someone special: idrk, dont think so

[10] been depressed: yep

[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: nah, im not into alcohol

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS:

[12] purple

[13]pink

[14] yellow

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

[15] made new friends: yes!!! amazing ones

[16] fallen out of love: yes

[17] laughed until you cried: yes

[18] found out someone was talking about you: yeah but who cares

[19] met someone who changed you: yes definitely

[20] found out who your true friends are: well my friendships got stronger, but no one back stabbed me

[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: i dated someone of my facebook list

GENERAL

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life:  all of them, i dont have many friends on facebook lol

[23] do you have any pets: no :´´´´(  my sisters do though

[24] do you want to change your name: no

[25] what did you do for your last birthday: went to the beach :)

[26] what time did you wake up: 5:30 am

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping

[28] name something you cannot wait for: my suffering years in school to finally end, im graduating this year!!! oh also for new SU episodes 

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: like about five minutes ago

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: uhh the thing is very very personal so yeah not mentioning

[31] what are you listening to right now: nothing

[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: no,tom is not very common where i live, maybe a Tomás

[33] something that is getting on your nerves: a lot of things

[34] most visited website: uh pinterest, tumblr and youtube

[35] elementary: what is that

[36] high school: finishing it this year

[37] college: cant wait for it!!

[38] hair color: black

[39] long or short hair: medium

[40] do you have a crush on someone: romantically not really

[41] what do you like about yourself?: im a hard worker, intelligent and very kind :)

[42] piercings: only the one i got when my ears where pierced as a baby( is normal to pierce baby ears in brazil, you dont remember the pain i guess)

[43] blood type: AB+ 

[44] nickname: Nati, Naná, Tali  

[45] relationship status: single 

[46] zodiac sign: aquarius

[47] pronouns: she/her

[48] fav tv show: steven universe <33333333333

[49] tattoos: not yet my friend but just you wait till i turn eighteen, which will be very soon

[50] right or left handed: left

[51] surgery: im having my wisdom teeth removed, small surgery but is surgery

[52] piercing: just the ear one

[53] best friend: Nanda, Aaronzito and Sarah

[54] sport: i go to the gym but im not really into sports

[55] vacation: love it, would travel all the time if possible


[56] pair of trainers: two

[57] eating: nothing

[58] drinking: nothing 

[59] i’m about to: go to the gym

[60] listening to: silence

[61] waiting for: the sweet release of death  the weekend

[62] want: hugs and sleep

[63] get married: want to someday

[64] career: artist, aspiring animator


WHICH IS BETTER


65] hugs or kisses: both

66] lips or eyes:  eyes

67] shorter or taller: doesnt really matter, but im very short so if they are short it helps

68] older or younger: idc as long as if is nothing drastic

69] romantic or spontaneous: spontenous accidentaly romantic

70] nice arms or nice stomach: bellies are always nice to put your head in

71] sensitive or loud: im sensitive but i dont really mind loud people

72] hook up or relationship: relationships

73] troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker 

HAVE YOU EVER


74] kissed a stranger? yes

75] drank hard liquor? yes

76] lost glasses/contact lenses? yes

77] turned someone down: yes

78] sex on first date? no, im not into that

79] broken someone’s heart? yes but it wasnt my intention

80] had your own heart broken?  yes

81] been arrested? no

82] cried when someone died? yes

83] fallen for a friend:  yes


DO YOU BELIEVE IN


[84] yourself? try to


[85] miracles?  nope

[86] love at first sight? no, unless its a dog, then yes


[87] santa claus? as a kid


[88] kiss on the first date? have done that but like i dont really mind that whatever they are comfortable with


[89] angels? no

[90] current best friend’s name: already mentioned


[91] eye colour: dark brown/black

[92] favourite movie: Alice in the wonderland as a kid and it still holds a very special place in my heart

I tag @i-cant-drarry and whoever is interested in doing this

[adangertothegroup-blog]

8 PEOPLE I’D LIKE TO KNOW BETTER.  // repost, dont reblog

one / name / alias. Kumo, sis, foyfoy (or just foy) two /  birthday. april 3rd three / zodiac sign. aries (except im not any aries trope plis im nice i promise i got over my temper when i was NINE) four /  height. 5′2 (or 5′1??? i dont knooooow) five  /  hobbies. crochet && some knitting, drawing, gaming is for nerds (like me) and sewing/cosplay once every blue moon. six /  favourite colors. rainbow??? the color of a sunset??? if i had to pick ONE it’d be orange but why would i do that when im so g a y seven / favourite books. uh yknow. ??? goosebumps??? (ive read maybe 6 books my entire life not including goosebumps weh) WAIT NO the NOTEBOOK, the prrof, the third lie were really good but also terrible dont look it up plis i care about yalls sanity eight  /  last song listened to. pine six string by the haunted wind chimes nine  /  last film watched. ????????? oh god its been a while. UM. hunchback of notre dame  ten  /  inspiration for muse. 5 years ago I said “I dont even like nick that much why are you making me make a blog for him” and then i was like whoaH heskinda problematic like why he so depressed?? so much anxiety?? I can relate. and then i dropped out of the fandom like it was hot before the last two episodes of season 2 came out. cue now, 5 years later im just like hey lets over analyze these characters now that im ready to look at season 2 again (spoilers: im still unhappy) and found out a lot of unnecessary things like the fact that nicks left leg is fucked up, and that his mental problems likely stem from before the apocalypse. when i rp as a character i find ways to make them my own, to veer off the path that others would take. (I say as if i rp all that much with others HA) but over analyzing is like my favorite thing to do, its like a murder mystery!  /duck voice Also the fact that hes never ACTUALLY mad at uncle pete??  Really though the muse was hard to find back then, I legit struggled. But now it just kind of came naturally. I do struggle with the speech because that’s how I talk irl and I’m so used to writing like a normal human being that sometimes im like whuhuhhh lol! But again, I ain’t sayin im good at this muse. Just that i aint strugglin with how I want to portray him now. (also as i did with my omid in headcanoning a whole muse out of a ghost((ghostmid!!)) id like to do the same for nick, since season 4 showed potential of walkers/lurkers retaining SOMETHING from life, be it soul or what have you, i feel like itd be fun but also angst because what else is rp good for but crack and angst) eleven  / dream job.  gaming youtuber or just getting bigger in art enough to do more artist alley bs at conventions!!! one isnt enough!! (realistically id love a desk job or data entry at this point gdi my muscles are killing me at all times) twelve  / meaning behind your url.  Nick accuses Carlos of telling Luke that he’s becoming a danger to the group and lets be honest, he is. (if you add -archive to my url you can see my old ass art and old ass roleplays back in ye olden dayz)

tagged by: @crackinthewhip  tagging: i have like 10 followers so if yall want to i guess