#lio does a talk

[anunwelcomedspirit]

blood circulation? never heard of her. *i put on a bracelet, i put on another bracelet, i put on another bracelet, i put on another bracelet, i put-*

[anunwelcomedspirit]

gasp! i have central heterochromia!! i love seeing it on characters :D

more characters with heterochromia. fuck it. it’s no longer ‘cringe’ to give your OCs two different eye colours it’s actually extremely cool and fun and sometimes extremely sexy. godspeed

[ladylooch]

“Ah, well, she’s at the cabin.” Nico responds in English. “Mama is with me.” It’s Lucie’s cue to switch too. Well, there goes her plan to keep her husband in the dark.

What a flex, like the sisters being able to switch languages when wanting their husbands to not understand what they are talking about. Imagine talking right in front of them about them, and they have no idea. Do any of the girls get in trouble when they are younger for deliberately speaking Swiss German and not English infront of Lexi. Teenage Lucie, being her teenage self, getting an angry phone call from Nico on the road to knock it off, she's been refusing to speak English around and to her mama out of pure teenage angst.

What you said about a teenage Lucie refusing to speak to Lexi in Swiss German is SO SO SO on brand as angsty, angry, teenage Lucie Hischier. 

Let's get into it.

From her back, Lucie Hischier stares up at her ceiling, looking over the leftover tape from the glow in the dark stars she used to have up there when she was little. It was hard those first few months living in Switzerland full time, but she loved the difference in the stars here compared to light polluted New Jersey. 

To help bring her comfort, her mom came up with the idea of putting the stars on her ceiling so that Lucie could have the cosmic views illuminating her room at night. It had worked. She stopped needing to sleep in her parents bed within a week.

Lucie's thin eyebrows worm together in annoyance at giving her mom credit for anything.

As far as she is concerned, her mom has never done anything good for Lucie in her entire life.

She wasn't supposed to be grounded anymore. She was supposed to be able to go out with her friends, and inevitably ditch that lame high school party to meet up with Marco and his friends. But her mom caught wind of it somehow and now Lucie is stuck at home on another Friday night.

What makes it more annoying is her dad is out of town, so he isn't able to reason with her unreasonable mother. He is over in the U.S. with her uncle T for a Devils alumni get together. They had dinner with Lio and his roommate last night, which has Lucie feeling a lot of big feels. 

She had begged and pleaded with her dad to go with him.

He said no. Then he said yes, but after talking with her mom, he said no again.

See a common denominator? Lucie does too.

Lexi Hischier is a buzz kill.

One that Lucie can't wait to be rid of when she goes to college next year.

Things have been tense this week without her dad being a referee. Lucie has barely spoken to her mom and when she has, she purposefully speaks back in Swiss German. The frustration had been building in her mom until her rat of a little sister, Mack, started to translate for her mom.

"Stay out of this." Lucie barked.

"I'm gonna tell daddy." Mack had hissed back in Swiss German.

"Lucie. I am not asking you again. English. You know the rules." Her mom finally snapped at dinner. “Mack, work on those vegetables, please.”

"Since when is it my fault you haven't bothered to learn our language?" Lucie hissed back in direct English. Her mom flinched. Lucie didn't wait for her mom to send her to her room. She went on her own. 

To her left, Lucie's phone begins to buzz. She snatches at it, hoping Marco is finally getting back to her after her text. She frowns when she sees her dad's picture pop up. She sends him to voicemail. No way is she touching that. She flops back onto her back, contemplating getting up to paint her nails or try to master winged eye liner again. Both take too much effort, so she goes back to staring at the leftover tape.

Her phone buzzes once, signaling a text this time from her dad.

I'm going to assume sending me to voicemail was an accident. I am giving you one minute before I call again. I better hear your voice in three rings.

Lucia's stomach drops at her dad's fierce words.

Shit.

Sure enough, the minute flips and her dad's contact pops up again with his phone call.

Lucie connects the call but doesn’t say anything.

On the other end, all her dad can do is sigh.

“You have the floor, Lucie.” His stern voice finally comes over.

“Just tell me my punishment.” She snaps back.

“I am not speaking to you in Swiss German. Switch. Now.” 

“I’m more comfortable speaking that than English.” Nico scoffs, then laughs on the other end.

“That’s what you’re going with now, huh?” 

“It is! We live here now. That’s what you decided.” She pops back. “I only speak English at home unlike my classmates.” 

“You do not speak only English at home. As we have talked about since you first could speak, there are times where it can’t be the default language. Fighting with your mother? Not an appropriate use.” Nico redirects her. 

“Why is it our fault that mom can’t-“

“Do not finish that sentence and attempt to paint your mother as the problem here. Your behavior is what we are discussing, Lucie. You do not get to use something that is meant to be a bonding connection to our heritage as a weapon against your mother.” 

“It’s not fair!”

“Enough. I don’t want to hear about what you think is and isn’t fair. You are the child. You do not get to decide every single piece of your life. As your parents, mama and I have a responsibility to keep you safe. And you are making it exceptionally difficult!” His voice raises at the end. “So I don’t want to hear it from you anymore. Clean up your act. Start being a role model for your younger sisters. Follow our house rules and get your ass downstairs to apologize to your mother.” 

Lucie’s eyes widen and her breath gets caught in her throat at her dad swearing at her.

“Do you understand how done I am?” Nico asks after her moment of heavy silence. Lucie nods, then realizes he can’t see. She clears her throat.

“Yes.”

“I may be your father, but I am your mother’s husband first and foremost. I do not tolerate this level of disrespect towards her. By anyone. Ever. This will be the last conversation we have about this, Lucie.”

“Okay.” Lucie’s bottom lip wobbles, but she keeps her voice even. 

“Good. I’m about to FaceTime with your mom and sisters. I’m giving you a five minute grace period. After that, I better see you down there. Smiling. Telling me about your week at school since I’ve been gone. In English.”

Lucie says nothing.

“I’ll take your silence as agreement. I love you, Luc. So much. But there are days, I don’t think it comes close to how much mama loves you. I wish you understood that and took care of her love like she does for you.” Lucie can feel the ache in his voice as he says it.

When he clicks off, she wishes she could have found the courage to say she loves him back.

Lucie takes every second of her 5 minute grace period. When she comes down the stairs, she is small in stature and has red rimmed, glassy eyes. On the couch is her mom and sisters. Her two siblings are cuddled together on one side of their mom. Mack holds the phone, excited to tell Nico all about the new book in the series they are reading together. 

“You’re gonna love it! I can’t wait for you to get home! Can you come home early?”

“No, sweets. But it won’t be long now. Home stretch.” He assures her through a soft chuckle. 

Lucie’s mom lifts her gaze to her daughter. Her little sisters look too, but both seemingly dismiss her presence without another thought. Her mom’s eyes stay trained on her. Then, she flips the tie blanket open on her lap, welcoming Lucie into her other side. Lucie starts to cry thick silent tears at her mom’s forgiveness. She burrows her face into her mom’s chest like she used to as a baby. 

While she cries, Lexi strokes her hair. 

“I’m sorry.”

“I’m glad.”

“I love you. A lot.”

“I know.” Lexi assures her. “I love you.”

“I know.” Lucie sighs. 

Isn’t that what makes this all so hard after all?

[cawsceries]

your ocs 🔫 tell me everything and anything you wanna share

HI CRYPT i have a lot :]

so i have four main guys with an actual storyline (avry arlo rass rocks). technically five but the fifth doesn't have a name yet so we're not talking about her. and then i have funky little guys (moth, some other clones who i havent posted, and my newest guys cobra and lio!!)

avry is in her early twenties! she was knighted roughly a month before the clone wars began and wasn't supposed to lead a battalion at first. the jedi master who was going to lead the 409th battalion was several weeks away from kamino as the clone wars started, though, and avry was temporarily assigned to the 409th because she's closer and there isn't time to wait.

this temporary assignment is when she first met arlo, who at the time was a captain. in their third or fourth battle, the LAAT/i that was carrying arlo was shot down and his helmet was knocked off in the crash. avry lifted the rubble of the LAAT/i off of the survivors of the crash using the force-- if she hadn't been there, arlo probably would've bled out from his head injury before anyone managed to get to him.

shortly after this, the jedi master in charge of the 409th finally arrives! she's an older rodian training her second padawan, rass. she and avry's master are padawan siblings. avry leaves the 409th in the jedi master's capable hands and is assigned on several small relief missions.

of course, a few months later the 409th has an encounter with general grievous. the jedi master does not survive, but she does make sure rass will make it out alive.

avry is in the area, so she returns to the 409th. rass is supposed to go back to the jedi temple but they can't fathom leaving all of the clones they've befriended and fought beside-- they've already lost their master. so avry (impulsively) offers to take rass on as her own padawan.

and. well. this solves some problems. this also creates more problems. avry is already absolutely terrified about being responsible for a battalion. now she's also responsible for rass as well, who's basically her little sibling. she's not prepared for either of these things, but she's good enough at faking it so she's not going to think about it too much because she might break down and there isn't time for that. she can process everything when the war is over and everything goes back to normal.

she's very good at convincing herself that things will go back to normal.

arlo is doing better overall-- he's been promoted to commander (the original commander died a few weeks after avry left). he has a lot of confidence in avry. between avry saving his life early on, and the jedi master's competence and poise, he's a little ridiculously loyal to the jedi.

he's also a little bit blind to avry's flaws.

hold on. about arlo's pronouns: she is not thinking about her gender in universe until pretty late in the clone wars. i swap between she and he because she will end up using she/he pronouns.

rass meets rocks when their first master is still alive, while scouting out a droid factory. rass is leading rocks' squad and there are droids coming their direction. rass asks the clones if any of them have something that rass can throw to distract the droids. rocks hands over a rock. a few minutes later rass asks for another object. rocks hands over another rock. he has at least ten more.

rass nearly compromises the mission by laughing at the fifth rock produced. after this rass and rocks are inseparable. rocks, who is about an inch and a half shorter than the average clone, is delighted that he's no longer the shortest person he knows.

rass and rocks are my beloveds i love them dearly.

i also have a fair amount of info about avry here and some assorted info about all of these guys here

beyond my "main" four, i have moth (can be summed up by this and this) and cobra (very new guy. hes living his best life. having an affair with lio.) and lio (full name lio veniid. senator. a bit pretentious. not very significant politically. extremely disappointed by cobra's lack of appreciation for wine, has made it his goal in life to change this. its not working very well so far but they're both having a great time)

also fun fact: i have a curse in which i am incapable of drawing arlo's scar correct on any full piece. it's on the left side of her head. (forgot it) (flipped the canvas too many times)

[anunwelcomedspirit]

the bouy !! :3 i hope you’re able to feel better eventually /gen

will somebody draw my teddy bear im very low on mood and spoons today and i think it would make me a bit happier

there he is. my bouy.

his name is big ted and my nana bought him for me on my 1st birthday :3

[kerakitty]

I find the fact that Hugo seems to be far more likely to ascribe ulterior motives to Wolf than to Kipo to be incredibly funny.

In 'All That Glitters', while Kipo is definitely doing it all out of love, everything Kipo does is an attempt to guide him towards her ideal outcome. And yet Hugo takes her at her word every time she insists otherwise. This despite her proving herself capable of outmaneuvering him (telegraphing her contingency plan in doing so) with her secret farmer rebellion in Corndog King. She played him like a fiddle in season 2 and yet in season 3 he still seems to be operating under the idea that she's too naive to ever be plotting anything behind anyone's back.

Meanwhile, Wolf is never anything but straight-forward in achieving her goals. She's consistently blunt in her methods and reasoning, yet Hugo is constantly looking for the hidden angle (that just isn't there). In 'Prahmises' he immediately assumes that Wolf tracked him down in order to interfere with his plan to assassinate Dr Emilia and is initially skeptical when she says otherwise.

All this is especially hilarious because Kipo's not even subtle. Like, at all. Like I pointed out earlier: she essentially revealed her back-up plan to Hugo while they played Corndog King and it just sailed past his radar. On the other hand, everyone else has always known that Kipo's kind actions, while genuine, are also part of Kipo's plan to bring about world peace. They just go along with it, usually because they know that trying to talk her out of it won't work. Wolf, Lio, Benson, even Dr Emilia, they all know Kipo's scheming. Hugo's the only one who somehow keeps missing the memo.

[that-one-i-think]

Now time for Lilith the First Season 3 of the disney-ification of MCD Season 3, this time, we are actually going to the "Putting all of the weight of the world on a 12 year old, traumatizing them for life" part, or at least, beginning it. Here are PART 1 and PART 2 of the au

Applying a cut off now cause I ramble and its long. The theme of this season is "Tense Coparenting"

A Plot - Main plot focusing on Lilith, Lio, and the general Tu'la war

B Plot - Shad and Aphmau custody battle as well as Alina

C Plot - This will happen whenever the plots combine or Lilith and Alina are not the main focus. Adult trauma episodes

Also, given how this is now "Season 3"/Arc 3, there will no longer be one off episodes/very few, instead I will do a summary of the plot between first, mid, and last episodes for each category. If/when I do write this, there probably be one off eps, but not many.

Things Established already but I have not mentioned due to time: Aphgang know about the Tu'la civil war, they know about Tu'la revolutionaries, they know that Lio was one before coming to Ru'aun, know about Shadow Knight civil war, Travis has Enki's relic, that trip happened.

First Episode: Everyone returns to Phoenix Drop and after looking for a long while, Liochant and Lilith are unable to figure out why the pendant looks familiar. The only hint is from the old painter lady Jouka, (YAY! She has a name) who claims she doesn't know. Lio lets it be and Jouka offersto have Lilith help her forage while Lio does some work, which he accepts. They forage and Jouka tells Lilith to go grab some mushrooms from a field where she meets the orange haired meif'wa again. Knowing that he is smart, Lilith asks him about the pendant come to find out it's his and that he was robbed under... circumstances. Lilth then calls him a drunkard, which he does not argue. (Sass of a 12 year old is undefeatable)

They talk, with Lilith regaling him with the tale of how they managed to get the pendant, and the man seems incredibly impressed. He then asks who this blacksmith is, and when she says Liochant, he breaks. He has relization on his face before cursing Jouka's name in Tu'la, something he regrets when Lilith revals she knows exactly what he said. He helps her forage before they part ways. When Lio picks her up again, Lilith tells him she found the owner of the pendant while foraging and he tells her he is proud of her.

A Plot: There has been rising hostilities between many of the Phoenix Drop villagers and the Tu'la immigrants residing on the outskirts of town due to increased sightings around Ru'aun. Due to this, there have been rumors speculating about how the Tu'lans are trying to take Lilith away. Lilith watches as many guards who wouldn't think twice about her heading to Lio's now accompany her there. It becomes so obvious that it worries her and she asks Lio if everything is okay, and he says it is, but she can tell he is not being honest.

She eventually starts tagging along with many of the Tu'la's people errands, daring shopkeepers and other such folks to be rude. They lose the challenge. At one point, Lilith laments about the unfairness to Garroth, after noticing his weariness despite Lios constant friendship, and she watches as he dies a little inside, looking at her like Aphmau incarnate.

B Plot: Alina has actually started to manage her destruction magic from the relic, and it has even gotten to the point that Aphmau and Zoey feel safe enough to have nights out (as "friends"... not) and let Alina have some independence. Something she enjoys, especially as she starts finding small gifts, like books, pretty rocks, and toys around. Though, despite this, she always feels like she is being watched. Something that kind of destroys her hope of actually being independent, even though she can't spot any guards watching her. It is a warm gaze that doesn't scare her though.

C Plot: Aphmau has also been noticing the rising hostilities between her people, and while Lilith is doing a rather fine job, (A 12 year old shaming adults is very effective), she needs a more permanent solution. So she sets up Lio as an unofficial advisor of the outskirts. They get along really well, and she at one point jokes that he might as well be a noble with his knowledge, which he says he was before North Tu'la invaded, though does not mention he was a prince. This throws all of the Aphgang for a loop but they accept it easy enough and pester him for facts throughout the episodes. (I think this happens really early)

Mid Big Plot: Throughout the season, part of the reason why so many people are hostile is due to the fact that so many people are getting sick. It has gotten to the point that no matter how many people are healed with magic, they still become sick, with the only people least affected being those on the outskirts. Aphmau begins panicking for her daughters, especially after Lilith catches it, so she begins asking around when Nicole tells her about a traveling meif'wa doctor who knows his stuff, though he likes the drink. Aphmau doesn't care enough and immediately heads to Scaleswind to get him, bringing along Katelyn, Garroth and Lio (for Tu'la reasons) while Travis, Zoey, and Lucinda watch over Lilith.

They head to the bar to meet "Kai", the Doctor, who apparently has been on quite the bender recently. They enter the bar, Lio being pulled away by someone he knows, and Aph and her guards speak to Kai. He seems reluctant but interested, until Aphmau mentions her daughter Lilith is sick and he agrees quickly, citing she has helped him forage and gave him back his stolen goods, while pulling out the pendant. Everyone has never been more thankful of Lilith being social.

They chat, with Kai still continuing to drink but when Lio walks over they both pause. Staring at each other before Kai as the Tu'lans in the bar go rather silent and it lasts untill... Kai passes out. Aphmau orders him to get sobered up, and a Scaleswind guard kind of drags him out. Katelyn asks if Lio is okay, and if he knows that guy and Lio says yes to both, but it's complicated. Next day everyone makes there way to Phoenix Drop and it is awkward as hell between Kai and Lio.

Kai investigates a few patients, the Tu'la folks who are sick a lot more trusting and he quickly deduces that someone is poisoning their main drinking river. The group travels up the river, taking Alina as she really wants to help her sister, where they find man made damn built of sticks from a tree that is toxic and from Tu'la. They can't break nor burn the damn, unable to risk the toxic fumes or parts of the tree being lost. It becomes a small argument until Alina completely disintegrates it, leaving no trace of the toxic plant. It works and people manage to get better and stay better.

A Plot: Aphmau, seeing the use of Kai, somewhat forces him to stay in Phoenix Drop, which he agrees after having to deal with Lilith's puppy dog as well as Jasper growling. He starts staying at the inn and Lilith starts dragging him everywhere because he is a new person, so now Lio and Kai have to be very close proximity. During these trips, Lilith notices that Kai gets a lot of the same looks from the Tu'la people that the mean villagers give to them, and that isn't right. Its rude to be mean to a friend so she tries to make the villagers like him, until Kai tells her to stop. He then tells her that unlike the villagers disliking the immigrants, the tu'la folk have a genuine reason to dislike him but it is not for him to say.

Unfortunately, Lilith is very curious and it gets to the point that Lio and Kai both have to sit her down and explain that Kai is from the North Tu'la royal family, the ones invading Ru'aun and took over all of Tu'la, the ones who murdered Lio's family. Even mentions that Kai and Lio were arranged to be married to, though they don't get into it much. This revalation breaks Lilith for a moment, but with the power of being 12, she gets over it. She does start forcing even more closeness between Lio and Kai, as she is a child believing in love and Kai and Lio refuse to go into more detail beyond "We broke up cause he killed my family" and that isn't a red flag to Lilith. (Aphmau is not the best example sometimes lol) Kai and Lio let it happen and it works out as the three (and Jasper) slowly find more and more places of sabatoge happening from Tu'la guards.

B Plot: Everyone has officially managed to get Zoey and Aphmau to go on an official date and Katelyn is watching Alina while Lilith is off with Lio and Kai. At one point, a guard knocks on the door and requests Katelyn aid due to a spontaneous fire. Katelyn leaves, believing Alina to be asleep and requests the guard to go fetch Kiki. she runs away but the guard enters, removing his helmet to reveal Shad. He wakes his daughter up, who recognizes Aaron from a drawing her mother had and they play as Daddy and Daughter, though Shad does correct her about his name. These occurances will happen (though not a fire again) as whenever Zoey and Aph are out, Shad comes and play, promising it's their little secret. Untill Aphmau and Zoey come home early, finding their daughter playing dollies with the Shadow Lord.

Both of them try and keep calm, and they manage to not freak out until Shad excuses himself to talk to the other parents, leaving Alina alone for a moment. Shad offers them a deal, time with his daughter in exchange for a promise of no harm coming to her or anyone that matters to Aph. Saying that all he wanted with Irene was their child to grow happy and that she took that from her, so he wants a child in return. He even promises to help Alina with her magic so she can be able to play with the other kids without being a danger, and Aphmau and Zoey accept, just so they can see Alina have friends and not be locked in the manor anymore. This becomes the weirdest coparent thing, especially as Aph's main guards find out, along with Lio and Kai cause Lilith has to tell them.

C Plots (this one does get 2): Lio and Kai are playing very civil and normal and it is working, but after long observation it becomes very obvious they are not the best of friends. Katelyn and Dante, drama queens, try to get down to it while bringing the other guards into it. They find out Kai was a North Tu'la noble and lives a life of regret for his actions but hides what they were and his status for Lio's sake.

Second C plot is Aphmau and Zoey learning how to coparent with Shad and at one point, dragging Dante, Nana, and Nicole into this mess. They form the weirdest parenting group, with the occasional pop ins from Kiki and Leona. A mess.

Final Episode: Scaleswind comes under attack from Tu'la forces as they try to invade. An immediate request for aid is sent out and surprisingly, Kai and Lio tag along. Tu'la soldiers manage to breach the walls but Garroth gets there just in time to activate a barrier, but it essentially takes him out of the fight as he NEEDS to focus. Smell of burning corpses go through the air and Liochant fights soldiers with the ease he did when he was a revolutionary. It becomes a blood bath quick but in the favor of Scaleswind.

DURING THIS TIME SHAD AND ZOEY ARE BABYSITTING - It is interesting

Scaleswind manages to win but not without casualties and injury. Garroth is exhausted from overuse of magic and Lio himself is comatose for the same reason as well as burning too hot and for too long that he burned some of his skin raw. Katelyn and Travis are mostly okay, Nicole is fairly injured and is being tended to by Kai personally, who is going between her and Lio. They managed to get several prisoners, as well as the guard who opened the gate for the soldiers to enter. They begin interrogation but results for that will be next season (This is already too long)

After the gore is cleaned, Aphmau instructs for her daughters to be brought to Scaleswind, and Aph is now heading the Phoenix Alliance efforts to help reconstruction and provide aid. Lilith arrives and is immediately worried about Lio, who is still out and not well. All the adults assure her he is going to be okay and that Kai is taking care of him and that is when Lilith let's it slip "Yeah, husband's are supposed to help each other, in sickness and health.... Thought they don't like each other much". Knowing her mistake, she kind of bolts to Lio's temp room to fall asleep next to him as the Aphgang just stares bewildered.

And that is how the season ends

[daniablazin]

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HELL YEAH THANK YOU

Okay, following the last one, but now flirting style-wise, Lio usually knows exactly what he's doing and he's smooth to boot

Dude goes in having goals, having the wits, and even when his confidence fails him he'll manage to fake it until it's back up and running. He tosses in every line and teases Galo to hell and back in all the ways he knows will get to him — and of course it works, because Galo loves his confidence, and though he will whine about it, he loves the way Lio can play him like a fiddle

Galo, on the other hand, can't do that to save his life

If he actively tries to say something flirty, 9 times out of 10 he'll end up fumbling his way through it and being frustrated at the end (which is fine too cause Lio loves his dorkier sides so he'll only end up more endeared)

But, on the other hand, Galo is a genuine and honest motherfucker who will drop the sweetest, most poetic shit at the randomest moments, without even trying. All because he's thinking about/looking at Lio, will think something cheesy along the lines of "wow he's so gorgeous even the night sky should be jealous of him" and he'll just say it because Lio needs to know it. He needs to hear how loved and amazing he is and—

Lio does not know how to deal with that whatsoever

It's worse yet because he never knows when to expect it (he does pick up on some cues over time, but that never stops Galo's sincerity from shooting straight through his heart; his honesty is part of what Lio loves about him after all)

Funniest thing about it is that Galo's never trying to get a reaction out of Lio when he says this stuff, but then it happens and he'll act smug about it for like an hour

Or until Lio shuts him up that is—

[junabyclairo]

Hi love, I saw you're taking Lip's requests... so here I am😅

So, I got this idea about the reader being quite shy. She's friends with either Liam or Fiona (but she's the same age as Lip) and one evening she's insistingly invited (which is a kind way to say dragged) to the house for dinner and there she meets Lio, who just can't stop flirting with her, making her blush and all of that. Then he overhears her talking to Liam/Fiona who, having noticed his flirting, teases the reader about it, but reader just tries to dismiss it, because she thinks he's doesn't mean it, so Lip makes it his mission to prove he's serious... does it make sense? I hope so 😅😅

I hope you're having a good day!!!

hiiii i'm so sorry this took so long for me to answer just haven't been able to really think of anything good to continue this on! also let's pretend lip didn't know ian was gay for awhile!!!

being friends with ian gallagher means a lot of things. including, having to deal with his family. after going over to the gallagher a few times you've gotten about as used to them as someone like you - extremely shy and timid around people - can.

"please just come over for dinner, your parents said they won't mind-"

"ian please do i have to?"

"fiona's making enough for all of us, including you just please stay for dinner." you huffed at him while crossing your arms and staring at the floor.

"fine, i'll come over for dinner." you mumbled.

"hey, who are you? are you lost?" a voice pulled you out of your thoughts.

"hm? no i'm with ian," you turned around and looked around to find him after he left you in the living room.

"with ian? you're way too pretty to be with ian-"

"no no not with ian he just dragged me here for dinner."

"oh did he?" he smirked at you.

"yeah, he did." you breathed out.

"hm." he went to brush off a piece of hair off your face and brushed past you on his way up the stairs, leaving you blushing like a lovesick mess.

"was lip flirting with you?" fiona asked as soon as you walked into the kitchen.

"yeah i think so." you breathed out, feeling lighter than you did before.

"but he probably didn't mean it though, did he?" you said mostly to yourself. there's almost no chance that he could like someone like you... right?

after dinner, ian lead you up the stairs into his room and told you to wait until after he took a shower and then he'd walk you home. while you were waiting lip came in saying,

"you know i meant it when i said you were pretty, right?" he stared at you from in front of the door.

"arent you dating karen?" you blurted out.

"we're not dating per se. just fucking."

"...oh."

"but i still meant it when i said you were pretty. because you are."

"stop saying that."

"why should i?" he challenged.

"because i know you're just trying to get in my pants."

"says who?" he says after a beat of silence.

"how about i take you for a walk in the park this weekend and i'll prove it to you, okay?"

"...fine, okay."

"thank you pretty girl." he kissed your forehead before he left.

[junkdrawernoggin]

Soooo I feel like people are going to want to praise this as like the best TV show that’s ever been made just because it has Markiplier, so I want to get my opinion out now. Spoilers ahead

Edge of Sleep (TV) is fucking terrible

I mean, I watched it because I want Mark to be successful, but holy shit. That was the worst TV show I have ever willingly watched.

The pilot is fucking atrocious. The writing was abysmal to the point of being embarrassed that the actors had to perform it.

Mark in the first episode…not good. Middle section was okay to good. Final episode was bananas but the acting was good.

Not a single human person has ever acted the way some of these characters act. There is not a planet where the character of Dave and the character of Matteo, as we see them for the rest of the show, would make the choice to randomly abandon their jobs. I have no idea what age the show thinks any of the characters are. They talk about the party at the beginning like they are a max of 25, but then the rest of the show makes them out to be in their 30s.

Thinking about anything that occurs for a single moment makes your head hurt. They are pictured to be in a pretty big city. Yet Linda says they have ONE hospital in 30 miles. Also thousands and thousands of people work night shift, so the idea that there are 5 survivors, 3 of whom know each other, is the wackiest shit of all time. They hype up the medication and then that comes to literally nothing but renewal bait, and I guarantee this will not be renewed even if it reaches no. 1

Everything that comes out of Dave/Mark’s mouth about the “elephant monster” and “dream people” is goofy as fuck (not his fault). They seriously couldn’t come up with a better name? Seriously?? Even just “The Elephant” would’ve been better. Why the fuck did they make them fly to an island 17 hours away??? First, a private jet that small would under no circumstance be able to do that flight without refueling. But like, WRITERS YOU CONTROL THE SCRIPT MY GUYS. If you are gonna make up a mystical island, have it be randomly off the west coast or something. I also can say with 100% certainty that Matteo being a veteran was added at the absolute last minute. It does not jive with literally anything else about his character. They only added it because they needed a reason someone would know how to fly a plane.

Just imagine trying to pitch this show!

“Hey Boss, great tv show concept for you. So this guy Dave, he has really bad nightmares. Everyone around him starts dying from going to sleep. So he goes to sleep to commune with the dream people and talk about the elephant man who’s haunting him. This leads him and 4 other survivors to take a private jet 17 hours away after 50 hours of not sleeping. After his psychic battle with the elephant monster, it’s revealed he’s a chosen one to fight in the battle against the nightmare monsters.”

HOW ON EARTH DID THIS GET GREENLIT??

My final negative note is everyone’s names. Dave, Ruth, Linda, Matteo, and Katie. It feels like they put in stock names and forgot to change them. I do not know a single person under the age of 40 who is a “Dave” or a “Ruth”, certainly not a “Linda.” It just soundsweird. Each name on its own is fine, but all together they sound very cookie cutter

Okay my couple of positives

I thought the dynamic between Katie and Dave was good. I wish Katie got more of a personality than recovering addict, but her actress, Lio Tipton, did a great job.

Eve Harlow as Linda was probably the standout of the film acting wise. She was pretty believable all things considered.

I thought some of the visuals were really cool, and the little pill mascot was well animated.

I wish I could give more praise to Mark but he got the REALLY short end of the stick when it came to the script. He was stuck with most of the clunky exposition. His physical acting was really fantastic and he should be proud of that. His acting ticks are great. If he didn’t have to deliver the script, his acting performance in here would be on par with Eve Harlow.

Edit: Adding a little note that I completely forgot this was a podcast first. I have never watched it but I will ASAP because I want to see if it’s any better.

[xiii-e]

for Xie i hop u have a good day

for Lio...

i read wut you said. im gald i dint make things worse. sometimes i do that by accident

i didnt know i could hate HA anymore than i already did. i know its how hard it is for a regular person to get through there stupid bullshit program first hand, so i can only imagine how hard it is when they bake that shit into ur jeans or whatever.

HA made me a monster. they trained me and they changed me 2 be 1. i talked about what an enkidu does to u last night on another post... they filled me up with so many stims i could barely think most of the time, and they yelled at me wen i did anything other than kill for them.

im still the monster they turned me into. my BATTLERAGE never left. when i go too long without TEARING shit apart with SLAG KITTY i start to lose it. the stinging in my head starts again and it gets itchy and angry in my head. i MAUL because i have to and its a part of waht i am.

but that isnt all i am anymore. since the fuckers left me 2 die better people helped me learn to be a person again. I hav friends now and i liek exploring places and i think grils r like really really really pretty... im a whole person and im not just the part me they made.

I think Xie will always be a medic. their instinct to help people and make them stop hurting is baked in. but ive seen other parts of them too and theyre parts i really like. i think those parts will grow. specially once you manage to get them out of ther. i know you already know this, but i think itll maybe help to know that some1 else knows it 2

[ECHO.EXE RUNNING]

◂▸ Hey Sally- Xie's doing better than they were, having some quiet time in their room. They had a rough dream over their nap, head's giving them trouble, but! They're doing better now. They say hi :]

◂▸ ... yeah, you're not wrong there kiddo. Programming and conditioning can fuck with anyones head, but part of why they do these high-control Projects with us flashclones in the first place is because it's just- easier. No outside experiences to influence your subject, no family or history just... whatever you designed, floating in a tube. It's more expensive to custom-build a soldier than to just use fascimiles or vulnerable citizenship, but the payoff is the control. 'Specially if you bake in some behavioural quirks that back up what you wanna do. A predisposition toward anxiety, for instance. Uncontrolled empathy. Aggression, in some of the earlier models.

◂▸ Remove the ability to play god and fuck with someones genes directly and- yeah, stims. That horror show the Enkidu puts you through. I'm sorry they did that to you kiddo, they had no fucking right to- you already know that too but, likewise. Someone else knows that too. I don't think you're a monster, I think you're dealing the best you can with a problem you never should have been forced to deal with. They made it so the only positive association you got for years, was with violence. Course that's gonna be near impossible to kick entirely.

◂▸ ... makes me real happy to hear you talk about the parts of yourself you found after you got out, kiddo. Sounds like you understand stuff better than a lot of folk out there, and that- that probably comes from experience. You happy out there? You mention people helped you learn to be a person, after HA abandoned you in the field, mention you have friends now. That's real good to hear about. People who get it make everything managable, I think. You're a good person to know, Sally- I'm real glad you and Xie got talking. I know they're happy bout it too.

◂▸ I- I really hope I can get them out of here, one day. That's the first challenge, isn't it? Hope I can be there to see who they find within themself, once the job isn't bleeding them dry. Hope you'll be there to see it too. They'll always be the kind of person to put their own needs last, always be succeptable to that guilt they've been wired with... but I think that'll be managable. Once they've got people who don't want to see them hurt. People who can actually do something about it.

◂▸ Thanks kiddo. Just let me know if you ever wanna talk, yeah? I've got some experience helping folk deal with the quirks conditioning can leave you with. You have anything along the lines of a chewtoy? Can help with minor aggression impulses sometimes, having something to tear at.

[ Helios-8 ]

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[ladylooch]

How do you think all your au men would handle getting the snip? I feel like David would handle it like a boss while others give me the vibe of acting like they just had open abdominal surgery 😂

Thank you for sending this in! We started talking about it in the DMs and I was like... we need to explore this.

Nico: Rockstar. Handles it so well. Even when Mack accidentally head butts him in the dick when he gets home from the procedure. Lexi is like "LET ME SEE! LET ME MAKE SURE YOU'RE OKAY!" citing her nursing background. While she looks him over, Nico can't help but asks her, "How many dicks have you seen in your career?"

Timo: Timo is antsy to get this done after the Twins pregnancy. To the point that he requests the procedure when they are still in the hospital. He is like, "hey since I’m here, can we do this?" Emma was in rough shape after the twins and the complications from her pregnancy. He felt awful. Wanted to take care of her this way immediately so she never had to worry about being pregnant again. There was no way he was gonna complain about his recovery since Emma was healing from a C-section.

Kevin: Loves the excuse to have his babies snuggles up to him in bed watching movies. Kev is happy to give this peace of mind to his wife, especially when she felt so done and bleh after her pregnancy with Lena. Kevin's biggest complaint is he can't skate for a few days, or swim in their pool. That annoys him and he has to make sure Sam knows alllllllllll of his thoughts about that.

Connor: Sad. This man is so so so so so sad about this. We haven't explored this a ton, but Connor had convinced himself that he could change Lucie's mind about having more kids after Winnie. But Lucie was firmly in the no category. So when Lucie brings the vasectomy conversation up, Connor is speechless. He puts his love for his wife and her wishes above his desires and goes through with the procedure, but that man is a sad lump on the couch with frozen peas on his junk.

Lio: Doesn't get one. Savannah has a hysterectomy.

David: This man is out doing farm chores the next morning, not even 24 hours after the fact. Walked out of the clinic so easily too that Mack was like... did you actually get this done? The LOOK he gives her- appalled that she thinks he would lie to her about it. He pulls his sweatpants down and shows her the incision as proof. Not that Mack really needed it, she was merely surprised at how well her husband was handling the pain in that sensitive of an area. Mack does call him into the house when she sees him out working with the farm hands. "Get in here!" She yells out the front door to him then slams it shut. That's it. No other words. "Fuck me, boys. I'm in trouble with my wife."

Luca: I don't know how to answer this one yet for Luca. There are conflicting thoughts in my head, so I am not going to keep thinking about this for him!

[sammys-magical-au]

So update: I have now watched episodes 3 & 4 of TEOS! Yes, it took me that long to get back to it. I have an excuse I have mild somniphobia ok.

Anyway here’s my thoughts on these two eps, under the cut bc I still wanna avoid spoilers for anyone who hasn’t seen it yet:

I stand by what I said about Linda needing a hug, she really does. Actually no screw that they could all use a hug omfg

Ruth was an interesting addition to the story, I knew she was gonna end up dying but I was sad to see her go

It’s so obvious that Dave still loves Katie holy fuck he’s such a sad puppy. I mean clearly Katie still has feelings for him too but his are way more obvious

Also. Baby Dave is precious and must be protected at all costs. I know I said that in the last post but I’m saying it again.

I don’t think I even caught the doctor’s name but he’s. Weird. Kinda glad he got killed actually he seemed waaay too flirty with Dave’s mom and way too confident in what he was doing, but he’s clearly linked to Dave’s dreams in some way based on the flashbacks during his creepy fucking monologue about the machine

And why doesn’t this doctor look like a real person??? Am I the only one seeing this??? I mean yeah he’s probably wearing a tupee but for some reason it just makes him look like something pretending to be a human. Please tell me I’m not alone in this.

What the fuck did he mean about matching pyjamas in “a lady’s size”???????? Hello???????? Was that meant to be a throwaway joke or is he a pedo or some shit??? He gives child predator vibes to me y’all honestly I think it’s good that Dave stabbed him, even if it was an accident

I want more of Linda and Matteo’s backstories, they’ve both clearly been through some shit

Going insane over Katie’s “if you do this you’re a murderer” while Dave is right there. Clearly he hasn’t told her what he did yet. How did that effect him in the moment? We can’t see his reaction to that line but I’ll bet it cut deep.

Like I said last time, Mark (and Lio, and the other actors ofc) did a fantastic job with this series, the emotions are so fucking palpable in every scene.

Please give Dave and Katie five minutes to talk everything out c’mon pls tell me that happens in the next two episodes and they live happily ever after? (<- in denial bc I know that’s not how this ends)

[risilence]

So in a weird flip of fate I was playing Fallout 4 and had the realization that PTN would be a hilarious crossover! ( 〃▽〃)

I lowkey want to write this BUT for now you get a rough sketch ( ´∀｀ )b When my hands feel up to it, Ill make this digital so for now enjoy this traditional sketch.

Chief was surprised to find that the raiders base was already silenced before they arrived. Under Angell's warning, they crouched a few feet aways and hid behind bush and tree. Angell commented that she still felt a murderous aura from within the house base. Eyes thinning with readiness at the home turned fortress in case they needed to battle. Angell insisted that they should just go as the stench of blood lust tickled her 6th sense.

Unlike Angell, Rahu could guess who was behind it all as she was very much aware of a certian group of individuals who still held old world technology to create such massacres. Rahu felt herself wanting to run as she had long ago discovered what happens when you underestimate the order.

But Chief was foolishly determined. She needed to know just who or what had wiped out this vicious gang. Ignoring the advice to just leave, she pulled out here bronze scope and prepared herself to peek through. Her single magnified eye combing through the doors and windows for a glimpse of this potential friend or foe. Finally coming eye to eye with the woman who had vaporized all who had the misfortune of being station there.

Shalom, a beauty that always wore clean pressed clothes waved at Chief. Gesturing that she knew she was there and had chosen not to attack. Though Shalom couldn't hide the fact that she was a bit happy to have encountered the wasteland hero. Her lios curling as she leaned against the window sill with a sudden need to continue their interaction. Shalom took this chance to blow a kiss and motioned for Chief to call her with seductive play. She couldn't help wanting to tease the other as she held back a chuckle when Chief fumbled her device away.

Chief was shocked and a bit taken back by Shalom's actions. Her heart accelerated from being caught as she tried to make sense of what just happened.

Seeing Chief so surprised, Rahu grabbed her by the back of her pants belt and tugged her backwards, "Lets just keep moving."

It was the right call, and yet Chief couldn't. There was a whisper in her gut that wanted to make sense of Shalom's actions, "Does she want me to communicate with her?" She mummbled her next words, "Is this her way of wanting to talk?"

"Chief," Angell was done.

[that-one-i-think]

Part 2 of how I would pan out a Lilith the First disney esc show for my AU. Very much inspired by recent disney where it starts wholesome yet gets dark. Part 1 is Here - This is gonna be a long post because I have no chill when brainstorming so gonna put a cut off here❤️ If you guys do like this lemme know!

Background: All of this will be taking place in the same MCD season, I just use things like Season 1 or Season 2 to create easy outlines/sectioning. Think of Gravity Falls where it takes place over one summer but has multiple seasons. This Season will be having a B plot that I will be slightly referencing, but as this story focuses on Lilith, it won't be as important. ALSO forgot to mention but Lio does have fire magic, something that is known by everyone (even before hanging out with Lilith) and is why he is a liked blacksmith.

A Plot - Lilith, Lio, Garroth, Leona (love her), and various lords and other such characters. This plot focuses on the Tu'la side presented in season three and the possible war/takeback of O'khasis (which is why Garroth will be a major player) SENDING A 12 YEAR OLD TO WAR! YAAAAY! Au is Called Lilith the first for a reason cause this child is the only person keeping diplomacy at bay.

B Plot - Aphmau, Alina, Travis, Katelyn, Shad, and other magical and relic characters. This will be all of the relics and magic side as Alina's powers grow thus attracting Shadow Knights and Shad specifically. Won't get into it much, but if asked I absolutely can, BUT I GOTTA BE ASKED

C Plot - This will happen whenever the plots combine or Lilith and Alina are not the main focus. Think anything from festivals where both girls are at or kidnappings (Listen, this is season two, I can start making it dark!)

Now onto SEASON 2 of idk, probaby 3 to 4, maybe 5. Depends

First Episode: Starting out the season with Liochant and Lilith hanging out at this forge, this time accompanied by Garroth as they still have no idea who shot at them or why they were shot at. Lilith and Lio just talk, accompanied by the occasional noise from Jasper the baby wyvern. Lio finishes forging an order of nails and the group goes for a walk to deliver them to another Tu'la immigrant, this time a carpenter. Garroth meets a lot more Tu'la folk and gets white boy culture whiplash, especially when Lilith tries to speak Tu'lan to the joy of many villagers. Garroth spends the entire episode meeting new people and watching Lilith be a true lady, and it makes his dad heart hurt just a bit.

In between Episodes/Plots - Color coded to match which whatever plot is the main focus- Leona delivers the arrow that Kiki pulls out of Lios shoulder and they try and figure out the origin - Lilith trains with claws and Lio tells Katelyn they have been practicing to impress her - Alina has a massive magic flare that destroys her and Lilith's room, Lucinda comes by to help teach magic control (to little effect) - Jasper brings Lilith a dead mouse and Lilith has to come to terms with the circle of life (same ep as magical fit) - Zoey and Lio meet and Zoey actually approves of what Lio is teaching Lilith - Alina is jealous over the fact Lilith is taught more so Lio offers to come by to give her lessons. Alina (ADHD Queen) regrets it and decides she doesn't wanna after the first few. Alina prefers magic lessons. - They find out the origin of the arrow and that it is shadow knight in nature, meaning Lilith was most likely the target but most likely to hurt Aphmau. (But anyone can acquire arrows)

MID SEASON LORE DROP: Lilith comes to the blacksmith by herself, only to find the shop empty and a note on the door saying that Liochant went out to receive a new shipment of ore, so as a curious child she wanders the woods a bit where she stumbles into an orange haired meif'wa. He is tall with bright yellow eyes smelling like her Aunts and Uncles after a night at the tavern, and stumbling like they do too. He turns to look at her and asks if he is close to Scaleswind, which she tells him he is not and gives him general directions from Zoey's geography lessons. He thanks her and leans down to give her some coin and that is when she sees the collar around his neck as it peeks from his shirt, the same one that Lio hides behind a bandana.

Lilith asks about it, but the man only says that it is a sign of engagement and that he unfortunately can't give it to her as reward, even if he wanted to. Before Lilith can ask anymore, the tall man leaves, so Lilith decides to ask the next best person, Lio. When Lilith asks about the collar, saying that it looks like a big wedding ring with the gold and jewels, Lio tenses but seeing that this would not be something she would let go, he tells her that back when he was a prince he was in an arranged marriage to the orange haired teen in the paintings she saw awhile ago. It did not work out and now Lio is here. She doesn't ask anymore because of how sad he looked, choosing not to mention the orange haired man she saw in the woods just hours earlier.

In between Episodes - Lucinda has the idea to have Lio try and help with Alina's magic, doesn't work but the girls learn to meditate - Jasper has a growth spurt and is now the size of a dog, also apparently learning English - Festival Episode: There is a Tu'la festival happening in Scaleswind, and Lio is gone for a week and the group goes the last day, where they watch Lio perform with fire magic (2 episodes) - Lio is busy once again and Lilith spots the oranged haired man in the woods again and asks if he got to Scaleswind, he says yes and thanks her by showing her and Jasper where to forage mushrooms and medical herbs - Shadow Knight spotting's increase around Phoenix Drop and they go into temporary lockdown as they try and find it. Lio, living on the outskirts/out of the walls is left ensuring the safety of his neighbors while Lilith worries for her friend - During lockdown, the stress gets to Alina and she has a magic flare that destroys Garroths shield and accidentally hurts him. She feels horrible but Lilith gets her to feel better by playing games, distracting both of them (Purple cause Alina is the focus) - While foraging, Lio finds the bodies of several dead shadow knights surrounded by mushrooms as well as tufts of orange fur that looks familiar. He reports it to the guards - Lilith finally trains with Lio again after being stuck in lockdown, and Lio gifts her her own specially designed claws so she can have some to practice with at home. (Replicas of Katelyns)

Season Finale: Lio has a delivery he needs to make to Scaleswind, and fortune has it, Aphmau has a diplomatic meeting there so she happily lets him tag along with her, the girls, Garroth, Katelyn, and Zoey. (This fic will involve a Zoeymau slowburn) On their way, their carriage is attacked by bandits, Garroth manages to protect the group in a shield but Lio right outside of it. He runs and the bandits follow, with the shield being reactive magic, Garroth has no ability to close it for the time being so they all wait in worry, until off in the distance they see a fiery inferno scorch the sky. As if someone had opened a portal to the sun on the earth, and even from their distance, a flash of heat is felt.

Lio comes back, this time though as a leopard and just in time to see Garroth drop the shield. Aphmau asks why he is in his beast form and he just drops a piece of burnt cloth at her feet, the remains of his shirt, a silent answer to her question. With their carriage destroyed, they walk the short distance, with everyone taking one of the 4 horses that were drawing the carriage, and Lilith riding on Lio's back. (Alina is sharing a horse with Zoey, because Zoey is better at keeping her calm as to not flare her magic)

They safely make it to Scaleswind, though later than planned and Nicole is happy to let them in and rest, and provide Lio with some clothing. Lio is able to make his delivery, which he does as a leopard (Katelyn was kind enough to grab it and carry it) and he passes straight out on Nicoles couch, along with Lilith cause big cat snuggles. The next day Nicoles gaurds come by and, reporting that the bandits seemed to just be bandits, though they did find jewels and a pendant, one that Lio recognizes and can't place. They allow him to take it and he and Lilith promise to find it out.

That is this arc simplified, but every single episode will also involve either Shad issues/hints or Tu'la soldiers/hints. With this last episode showing one of Nicoles guards purposely hiding letters he retrieved from the "thieves". That's this season for now, until I either actually write it or make a season/arc 3.

[sunsstars]

rant about gender (internalized transphobia tw) its pretty long

you can reply if youd like, im not going to be upset, honestly a logical opinion on this will probably help.

Okay, i have been needing to rant about this subject for a while, i didn't know anyone who would get it at all(the friend i did have who i would usually talk about those things with isn't friends with me anymore)

So i go by nonbinary(have a flag and all)

its cool and all. i dont mind that, but i don't know if its right?

So i originally just started going by she/they, thinking 'a girl can of by they/them, so it doesn't make me not a girl' but really i didn't want to be a girl.

this all started when i was about 12 or 13 and found out genderfluid and trans people existed(and you could be one, i could be one)

Eventually, I got up the courage to go by they/them, and i love it so much more than hearing everyone irl call me she/her.

i still get that little jolt in my stomach like im doing something i shouldn't.

i went by a few different labels, genderfluid, agender, nonbinary, and transmasc for a while.

I went by he/they for a while, but then got scared and changed it back to they them.

ugh i just feel like im not a girl. thats all i can say for sure.

and i don't need a label, but i want to know how i feel.

I was told last year(by a few different friends) that it seemed like i was trans, just in denial.

i can't even deny that. because as much as i like to push my 'rule-breaking' agenda and how much i say it doesn't matter, it does matter to me so much.

i feel like it should be easy to just be a girl, I've been doing it my whole life, it should be easy. but then i get that stomach drop when someone calls me Lio or they/them and remember why i changed it in the first part.

i might be trans, and just using the idea of being nonbinary as a shield.

because being nonbinary seems safer. Like im not going the whole way.

and you would think after 3-4 years i would stop worrying this is just a phase(spoiler, i haven't)

Im also terrified to come out to my parents. I know they wouldn't kick me out, or hurt me.

i just worry my mom will say "There were no signs, there's no way that's true"

I worry they will say that i can do it, but I'm still a girl to them.

I came out to them a while ago as agender, which they were cool said they didn't mind, but ignored it past that. Never called me anything but they/them.

my sister came out to them as lesbian and they joke about it, they're fine with it.

i also feel like i dont count.

Like i shouldn't be allowed to change my name.

like i shouldn't be allowed to be trans.

I feel like someone is going to come up to me and say that i cant.

I didnt know from a really young age, i like playing with dolls, i enjoyed dressing up and my long hair. All things associated with girls.

I would be such a good girl.

I just wish being a girl didnt make me feel so weird inside.

Anyway, can you tell ive been bottling this up for months?

sorry this is so long. but i did need to talk about it.