#linyahan sa serye

[congnael]

“The truth. See the truth isn’t almost the most exciting version of things, or the best or the worst. It’s somewhere  in between. But it deserves to be heard and remembered. The truth will out, like someone said once. It remains.” (Hannah Baker, 13RW S01E01 “Type 1, Side A”)

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SIDE STORY

18th May, S and I were seating on the couch after our badminton training. Sabi niya sa akin, like how she always ask me, “Are you happy you are here with me now?” and I answered like how I always answer her question, “Yes lahammy, so much!” then she mumbled, “Because now you no longer live a double life, you are now living..” then I cut her out, “Our life..” then she argued, “No lammy, you are living YOUR life through US”. (tears) 21/5/2018

[congnael]

“A couple hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You would think more of us would listen to what he had to say. I don’t know why we put things off but if I had to guess I’d say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision because what if you’re wrong? What if you made a mistake, you can’t undo? Whatever it is we’re afraid of, one thing holds true - that by the time the pain of not doing the thing gets worse than the fear of doing it. It can feel like we're carrying around a giant tumor. And you thought I was speaking metaphorically.”  

“The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can’t pretend we haven’t been told. We’ve all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to cease the day. Still, sometimes, we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today’s possibility under tomorrow’s rug until we can’t anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering. That waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying.” (Meredith Grey, GA S01E06 “If Tomorrow Never Comes”)

[congnael]

“Whoever says, ‘What you don’t know, won’t hurt you’ was a complete and total moron because for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.

As surgeons we have to be in the know but as human beings sometimes it’s better to stay in the dark. Because in the dark there may be fear but there’s also hope.”  (Meredith Grey, GA S02E06 “Into You Like a Train”)

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“I mean if life is so hard already, why do we bring down more trouble on our self? Why do we hit the self-destruct button?

Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we’re wired that way cause without it, I don’t know, maybe we just wouldn’t feel real. What’s that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.”  (Meredith Grey, GA S01E07 “The Self-Destruct Button”)

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“There’s a reason I said I’d be happy alone. It wasn’t because I thought I’d be happy alone. It was because I thought if I love someone and it fell apart, I might not make it. It’s easier to be alone because what if you learn you need love and then you don’t have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Loosing love is like organ damage. It’s like dying. The only difference is death ends. This could go on forever.”  (Meredith Grey, GA S07E22 “Unaccompanied Minor”)

[congnael]

“Hey, life is short, times are hard, the road is long, with many unwinding turns.”  (Miranda Bailey, GA S02E05 “Bring The Pain”)

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“We deny that we’re tired. We deny that we’re scared. We deny how badly we want to succeed and most of all, we deny that were in denial. we only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that the lies seem like the truth. We deny so much that we cant recognize the truth right in front of our faces.

Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the damn burst, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired; we are scared. Denying, it doesn’t change the truth. Sooner of later we have to put aside our denial and face the world head on, guns blazing. 

Denial, it’s not just a river in Egypt. It’s a freaking ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?”  (Meredith Grey, GA S02E04 “Deny, Deny, Deny”)

[congnael]

“Secrets can't hide in science. Medicine has a way of exposing lies. Within the walls of the hospital, the truth is stripped bare. How we keep our secrets outside the hospital -- well, that's a little different. One thing is certain, whatever it is we're trying to hide; we're never ready for that moment when the truth gets naked.

That’s the problem with secrets, like misery it loves company. They pile up and up until they take over everything. Until you don’t have room for anything else. Until you’re so full of secrets, you feel like your going to burst.

The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they’re out in the open, like it or not. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don’t have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you’re in control, you’re not.”  (Meredith Grey, GA S01E09 “Who’s Zoomin’ Who”)

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“At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it. It’s like one day you realize the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed of. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it’s not so important that it’s happy ever after, just that it’s happy right now. See, once in a while, once in a blue moon people will surprise you. And once and a while people may even take your breath away.”  (Meredith Grey, GA S01E08 “Save Me”)

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“Intimacy is a four syllable word for here’s my heart and soul. Please grind them into hamburger and enjoy! It’s both desired and feared. Difficult to live with and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to life’s three R’s: relatives, romance, and roommates. There are some things you can’t escape and other things you just don’t want to know.

I wish there were a rule book for intimacy. Some kind of a guide that could tell you when you’ve crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming. No matter how you fit it on a map, you take it where you can get it and keep it as long as you can. And as for the rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself.” (Meredith Grey, GA S01E04 “No Man’s Land”)

[congnael]

“At some point you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out, they fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So you can waste your life drawing lines, or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross. Here's what I know, if you're willing to take a chance, the view from the other side.. is spectacular.” (Meredith Grey, GA S01E02 “The First Cut is the Deepest”)

[congnael]

“For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can’t get out of your head - so that when your lips finally touch, you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot, so deep, you never want to come up for air. You can’t cheat your first kiss, Nicole. Trust me, you don’t want to. Because when you find that right person, a first kiss, is everything.” (Alex Karev, GA S02E07 “Something to Talk About”)

[congnael]

“I love you. In a really big, really big, pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your bedroom window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you... love you.”  (Meredith Grey, GA S02E05 “Bring The Pain”)

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“Pain comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain, the normal pains we live with every day. Then there’s the kind of pain you can’t ignore. A level of pain so great it blocks out everything else, makes the rest of the world fade away. Until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us. Pain, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it. And for some of us the best way to manage pain is to just push through it. 

Pain, you just have to ride it out. Hope it goes away on its own. Hope the wound heals on its own. There are no solutions, no easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you when you least expect it. It’s way below the belt and doesn’t let up. Pain, you just have to fight through because the truth is you cant outrun it and life just makes more.”  (Meredith Grey, GA S02E05 “Bring The Pain”)

[congnael]

“I have an aunt who, whenever she poured anything for you, would say “Say when!” My aunt would say, “Say when” and of course we never did. We don’t say when because there’s something about the possibility of more. More tequila, more love, more anything, more is better.

There’s something to say about a glass half full, about knowing when to say when. I think it’s a floating mind. A barometer of need, of desire. It’s entirely up to the individual, and depends on what’s being poured. Sometimes all we want is a taste. Other times there’s no such thing as enough. The glass is bottomless and all we want is more.”  (Meredith Grey, GA S02E02 “Enough is Enough”)

[congnael]

"Remember when you were a kid and your biggest worry was like whether you’d get a bike for your birthday or if you'd get to eat cookies for breakfast? Being an adult? Totally overrated. I mean, seriously, don’t be fooled by all the hot shoes, the great sex and no parents telling you what to do. Adulthood is responsibility. Responsibility, it really does suck, really really sucks. Adults have to go places, do things, earn a living, and pay the rent.

Unfortunately, once you get past the age of braces and training bras, responsibility doesn’t go away. It can’t be avoided. Either someone makes us face it or we suffer the consequences. 

And still, adulthood has it’s perks. I mean, the shoes, the sex, the no parents anywhere telling you what to do, that’s pretty damn good.”  (Meredith Grey, GA S01E05 “Shake Your Groove Thing”)