#lindsey talks into the void

[3dayweeknd]

I shaved him and nail trim him and scent glands etc etc this mf bit me like 4 times

[laufire]

although I think it comes across that she's a beginner and there was nothing ~spectacular, I like how lindsey morgan directed the episode, and I'd like for her to get more chances to do it. things like the use of sunlight with memori (first in the scene where emori opens the window of their room and sits in front of the mirror, then the way the rays hit the chessboard when sheidheda invites murphy to play... I can tell who u ship lindsey), some of the shots, especially echo facing the disciples with blood down her face, the use of (outer) space in becho's flashback... I appreciate those. also I liked this transition because yeah, I too ship memori, lindsey xDD

[octahedral-chaos]

Finally, I made a cryptidsona/ Non-fandom related sona! Everyone, meet Electra! Yes, I gave it one of my Nicknames, and yes, they're a shadow creature... maybe?

Other trivia under the cut!

Really chill and friendly, but pretty mischievous.

Likes to collect anything shiny, glowy or brightly coloured. Probably has a horde of random stuff somewhere.

Can talk! Might sound like this raven mimicking a person's voice.

2D form acts like a shadow, which means that fe can 'sticks' to walls and interact with objects' shadows, which also affects the actual object!

Eyes glow in the dark. They also have a golden glow by the way

Mane feels like the hackle feathers of a rooster, especially the breeds with softer feathers.

Void's theme is Shadows by Lindsey Stirling

[hannahsmusings]

Renee

*my phone calls end finally, just a few minutes after Jen had left the party, sighing as I see how much time had passed and that Lindsey would kill me if I was missing for much longer, rushing back inside and over to her, poking her side to show her I was back* Sorry, sometimes Gemma is as stubborn as I am and we just bicker like a married couple. Told her not to call me anymore tonight. Just for you, birthday bitch. *I smile up at her, poking her side again before letting her go back to her conversation, looking out to the crowd, hoping that now since I wouldn’t be interrupted anymore, I could actually find Jen and talk to her more, not wanting to text her without at least having one more conversation* *after 30 minutes, I realize she must have left, not seeing her anywhere, checking the time and seeing it wasn’t super late yet so maybe she didn’t leave but where could she be?* *I felt defeated as the night continued on, other blondes coming up to me and but none of them were her - hell, none of them even held a candle to her* *finally, around 2 or 3, Lindsey had enough, us both in an Uber as Lindsey was half asleep with her head in my lap, our other friends being rowdy in the back but my mind was focused on Jen; I had her number but I couldn’t help but feel grimey sending her a text this late at night, not knowing what she was up to but she deserved a sober day time text, not a sleazy 3am ‘you up?’ one* *I get Lindsey up to my apartment, getting her into bed and getting myself ready, climbing in next to her and sighing wistfully, wishing I had just 5 more minutes with Jen, wanting to see her smile and hear her laugh just once more, knowing there was a chance that she could never respond to my text and I’d never see her again, it wouldn’t be the first time that I misread someone’s niceness as flirting and got rejected or ghosted* *I curse silently to myself about how sappy I had become, covering my face with the blanket and closing my eyes*

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*chatting and drinking with some of the girls, having another slice of cake but feeling the perfect level of drunk right now, everything tonight having gone perfectly* *looks up as you poke me in the side, eyes lighting up and giving you a quick hug* Yay, love you. *mumbles drunkly, it not being unusual for you to take work calls at events like this, you never seeming to switch off* *wwe party for a good few hours more, beginning to flag after awhile and slumping against you in the cab, being too drunk to notice your change in mood over the night, unaware you’d continued to look for Jen and pine for the rest of the evening* *When we get to your apartment I practically fall straight asleep in your bed, your place always being luxurious and your bed was so comfortable, snoring lightly as I sleep peacefully* - Lindsey

*you hadn’t left my mind the role ride home, sighing as I hated how our interaction had been cut short and now I knew it was unlikely I’d ever see you again, feeling I’d lost a chance at exploring this as I’d never felt so strongly about anyone before since coming out, this seeming to be way beyond crush level already and I didn’t know how that was possible after only one conversation* *frowns as I toss and turn in bed, thoughts of you keeping me up for awhile before I eventually drift off, dreams filled with olive skin and sleek black curls, feeling disorientated and unrested when I woke in the morning* *you were my first thought and I hated that, not used to pining after anyone so I immediately threw myself into distractions, having a cold shower before taking myself to work, hours before I was due there* *normally I was grateful for the empty lab but now it just meant it was void of distractions, my mind wandering and cursing every time it did*

[fantasywritten]

@extraordinarygrrls:

(Allison/Abby, AU where she lives which is CANON THANKS.) "I-I know, it's probably a real.. real disappointment to you." She couldn't stop fiddling with her hands these days, and struggled to look people in the eyes, especially Kerry's. "Genuis forensics prodigy quits and goes crazy after one case... Meanwhile you almost get turned inside out and you're still a detective." And even still, she was helping Abby while leaving the house was a difficult task. At least she could spend her time unpacking the new place. "I know I was never strong, some hero like you or Lindsey, or Peter. I couldn't stay, not after Mark, after almost losing you all, and John..." A shaky breath, Kerry knew everything at this point. "Maybe that makes me spineless, a-and that's because deep down, I am."

“ABBY…” Kerry found herself offering the other woman a small smile. She truly did consider the other woman to be her best friend. Abby had saved her MULTIPLE TIMES from falling into a deep spiral, an endless void of the Jigsaw case. She hated that Abby was talking shit about herself, ESPECIALLY after all she’d been through. Intertwining her hands with Abby’s, Kerry smiled softly. “You’re not spineless. TRUST ME — you’re one of the strongest people I know.” Even if Abby didn’t believe that, Kerry did. She wasn’t just lying to make her friend feel better. She was being HONEST. She’d been through a lot, and she’d persevered. THAT was bravery. THAT was strength. “But you need to do what’s best for YOU. Not anyone else. YOU.” Her smile faded, just to show Abby how serious she was. After another moment, Allison sighed softly, letting go of her hands. “Come here.” Pulling Abby into a tight hug, the detective rested her head on the other woman’s shoulder. “I love you. You deserve to be happy.”

[americangirlstar]

why each american girl is banned from the aux cord on road trips, contemporary edition

Lindsey Bergman: you know how i said elizabeth cole’s playlist was solely meme songs? lindsey’s is even more extensive with several remixes and ytps added in for flavor

Kailey Hopkins: she literally only plays ocean ambience

Marisol Luna: her music ALWAYS gets the dancers hyped and since there’s like three of them they just end up encouraging each other and the bus gets very chaotic

Jess McConnell: she doesn’t play music, just full-length story-based dnd podcasts

Nicki Fleming: is not prepared to deal with the discourse that divides the bus into a warzone when she puts on dear evan hansen

Mia St. Clair: she’s really into emilie autumn which is great except a lot of her songs can get very Adult™ and gwynn is in the car

Chrissa Maxwell: she plays nothing but the mean girls musical

Gwen Thompson: lindsey stirling (good) gwen pulling out her violin to play along (awkward) when it’s not lindsey stirling it’s full violin concertos that last for like twenty minutes (oh no)

Sonali Matthews: jess plays dnd podcasts. sonali exclusively plays horror podcasts. when forced to put on actual music, she will put on the heathers musical soundtrack which, you guessed it, starts an intense Discourse™

Lanie Holland: she only plays bird calls occasionally interspersed with her infodumps on said birds

Kanani Akina: “kanani the steven universe soundtrack is GREAT and we all love it but can we listen to one (1) other thing? it’s been fourteen hours” “well i have the little mermaid 2 and lilo & stitch soundtracks i guess” “...are those the only things on your phone?”

McKenna Brooks: you remember in the historical post when i said ivy climbed on top of the bus one time after getting too amped up? yeah mckenna does that every time

Saige Copeland: she puts on “michael in the bathroom” and hits the “repeat song” button

Isabelle Palmer: somehow always picks like the WORST disney channel soundtracks

Grace Thomas: they’ve never actually let her on the aux cord cause they know she’ll put on something french and they’ll have to argue about it. little do they know she honestly just really wants to listen to olivia rodrigo for ~some reason~

Lea Clark: she really only listens to like ten songs (max) at a time and puts the playlist on repeat until the music stops giving her emotions

Gabriela McBride: unironically (and unfortunately, canonically) plays glee songs

Tenney Grant: swiftie (derogatory) 

Logan Everett: it’s a LOT of heavy metal angst that tends to blow the speakers out

Z Yang: she has a LOT of illegal songs. not just “illegally downloaded,” like “we’re not sure how the HELL she found this bootleg recording of a musical that’s not out yet” or “how did you get your hands on the beyoncé ‘shadowland’ demo” and it’s starting to worry them

Luciana Vega: somehow she always ends up segueing her song choice into a talk about the endless void of space

Blaire Wilson: the only music she’s into right now are nonsense songs created sometime around 2010 on youtube, consisting only of remixed movie syllables

Joss Kendrick: never turns off the rwby playlist

Kira Bailey: she plays music from those animated movies in the 90s that were clearly only made to rip off disney’s style in an attempt to make a quick buck except she actually likes these soundtracks and the only one that’s actually good is anastasia which is stuck in a mess of other crap

Makena Williams: within a few songs she’ll get bored and turn on kennie jd videos instead

Evette Peeters: her music taste is either eight-minute long ballads that give everyone existential crises or intrumental classical pieces that last an hour

Maritza Ochoa: her playlist is 95% different covers of “holding out for a hero.” good song itza but we need some variety

Corinne Tan: it’s just the frozen soundtrack(s) and nothing else

Gwynn Tan: she will play the matilda musical on repeat. if anyone complains she will immediately change the music to whatever genre they hate the most. they have never expressed this hatred out loud but she always gets it right which is starting to freak them out

[angelxxreaper]

Colorza Masterpost

All colorzas can be detected by a change of eye color/gem color. All Colorzas change Phil’s soul color, but are present in his soul at all times.

REDZA / BENIHIME

Tag: You Reap What You Fuxxin SEISO [Red]

Source Song: 失礼しますが、RIP♡ (Excuse My Rudeness, But Could You Please RIP?) -- Calliope Mori

Design: (1) (2) (3)

Song I Like For Him He Is My Special Guy: Freak Show -- Set It Off

Redza (or Benihime) is the oldest and most common colorza. Chronologically he’s existed for 1600 ish years, but in terms of actual run time, he considers himself to only be 33 or 34 (aligning with where Phil stopped aging).

Red is triggered by extreme anger, being grabbed by the neck, or extreme references to Ender.

Benihime is extremely uncomfortable with people using his name without his permission. It’s assuming a level of closeness you don’t have to him. This also goes for any derivations of Benihime (Ben, Beni, Benny, etc.). The people who use his name (aside from Slimecicle) are the ones who got specific permission to do so from him.

When Phil is Redza, his skin changes, just like in the dsmp. AXXR Redza has horns, a devil tail and demon wings. He also has longer hair, red slitted eyes, longer talons and sharper teeth. Red is notably faster than Phil.

Benihime fights more recklessly than Phil does and takes a more non-traditional approach.

Red prefers to fight with a katana.

Despite his violent reputation, Red is usually more bark than bite….. Despite him biting a lot. While he is willing to follow through with threats, Red tends to prefer not to actually have to. He is loud and chaotic.

I best would describe Beni as a shield forced to attack.

Red’s first appearance was to protect himself from torture in a war. When Red freed himself, instead of being accepted by his allies, they turned on him.

Red tends to appear when things “get scuffed”

Benihime adores spicy food.

He seems to enjoy cherries.

He hates hardtack.

Strangely enough, Red typically does not enjoy bird seed and worms nearly as much as he normally does.

Benihime is just as capable of building and cooking as he is when he’s Green. But he tends to try to cook posh Enderian dishes when prompted.

Red was the first colorza to have his own name that is not just the Color. He named himself after Kisuke Urahara’s sword in Bleach, because of the Ichigo and Zangetsu dynamic.

Red is the only colorza that has an actual history with Ender.

Red is also the only colorza who routinely refers to Phil as “Green”

Benihime enjoys small and cute things. He tends to get protective around beings that he particularly cares for. He will use swear substitutes around small children.

He is EXTREMELY fond of his kid(s). 

Some of Red’s speech patterns were picked up from Ender.

Of all of the colorzas, Beni is most likely to be considered his own spirit.

Red originally was connected to Phil’s sword, and has managed to relocate to Phil himself.

According to Benihime, his favorite colorzas are Void and Pink. On that note, Red is also intimidated by Pink. He respects Blue as well.

ORANGEZA

Tag: Tired Mechanical Heart [Orange]

Source Song: Shatter Me -- Lindsey Stirling Ft Lzzy Hale

Design: (1) (2)

Orangeza is one of the newest colorzas chronologically (about 40 years) and is among the rarer ones of the bunch.

Orange is triggered by extreme mental fatigue, especially in the face of invention or problem solving.

AXXR Orangeza has a set of antennae, a dragonfly tail and wings. He also has longer hair, orange eyes, longer talons and better vision. Orange is notably nerdier than Phil.

Orange doesn’t like to fight. If he has to, he uses his crossbow and prefers strategy over strength or speed. He likes to explain things. A lot.

Orange tends to be rather excitable. He likes to talk a lot, especially about his plans and has little to no impulse control if he likes the idea.

Orange tends to really enjoy coffee and generally non messy foods.

Orange seems to have an even harder time keeping track of time and therefore neglects to take care of himself when in the zone.

Orange also doesn’t swear. He likes to replace it with sillier variants.

YELLOWZA

Tag: Proud As An Eagle’s Scream [Yellow]

Source Song: Touch The Sky -- Julie Fowlis

Design: (1)

Yellowza is one of the rarer colorzas and is one of the youngest of the set chronologically.

Yellow is triggered by extreme pride/arrogance.

AXXR Yellowza has an extra set of wings on his head that are small and are only large enough to cover his face. He has light brownish golden wings and a lion like tail with a feathery tip. He also has longer hair, yellow eyes, shorter talons and better vision. Yellow is notably flashier than Phil.

Yellow exclusively uses a bow and is a sharp shooter.

Yellow is supposedly pretty talkative and arrogant. He also tends to be more assertive.

BLUEZA

Tag: Steady In Our State Of Mind [Blue]

Source Song: Battlecry [MONSTERCAT RELEASE] -- Mazare & Philip Strand

Design: (1)

Blueza is a relatively more common colorza. He has been around for around 60 years.

Blue is triggered by extreme anxiety or stress, or when put in conditions of similar to that of the Empire.

AXXR Blueza has antlers, and snow owl wings and tail. He also has longer strawberry blonde hair, blue eyes, longer talons and glasses. Blue is notably stealthier than Phil.

Blue likes to snipe folks or strike hard and fast from above. He fights like a soldier.

Blue tends to keep up a calm demeanor despite how he becomes blue. He is honest to a fault and tends to be softer. However, this attitude is thrown out the window for Techno, who he finds is a superior, and Tommy, who he will like to heckle.

Blue’s first summon was during the Antarctic Empire as a stress response to paperwork and empire duties.

Blue enjoys hardtack and other types of wartime foods. He also really likes fish.

Blue is quite the people pleaser and seems to know how to do many different types of duties.

Blue is more introspective than Phil normally is.

Blue is a strategist and really enjoys playing games like chess or Risk.

Blue also doesn’t swear often and likes to maintain a professional typing style.

PURPLEZA

Tag: Took The Mask Off To Feel Free [Purple]

Source Song: Life Will Change -- PERSONA 5 OST

Design: (1)

Purpleza is a rare colorza and the youngest colorza.

Purple is triggered by extreme feelings of injustice.

AXXR Purpleza has cat ears, a cat tail and demon wings. He also has black hair, purple slitted eyes, claws and sharper teeth. Purple is notably more flexible and climby than Phil.

Purple tends to go for close combat and strikes hard quickly if he has to fight for real. Other than that he tends to just argue.

Purple is the Ultimate weeb. It’s not a phase mom

Purple is a literal catboy

Purple adores junk food.

Purple gets extremely uncomfortable with the prospect that he is something to be ogled and stared at. He hates feeling like a child.

PINKZA / AURORA

Tag: The Feeling I Want To Put Into Words [Pink]

Source Song: AI KOTOBA III -- Originally by DECO*27 covered by Gawr Gura and Takanashi Kiara

Design: (1) , (2)

Pink is the second oldest colorza chronologically and the second most common colorza summon.

Aurora is triggered by extreme love and fondness, or a feeling of protectiveness.

AXXR Pinkza has moth antennae and wings. He also has longer braided hair, pink eyes, shorter talons and a ton of flowers. Pink is notably more affectionate than Phil.

Pink doesn’t fight often, but when he does and he’s motivated, he is one of the strongest colorzas. The sword comes from inside of a lute.

Aurora is unapologetically sweet. He loves to pour his heart out and share his deepest affections to his friends. He is also a bit touchy.

Pink, when someone is threatened that he cares about, will not hesitate to protect them. He will commit atrocities with a smile to keep people safe.

Pink’s first appearance was to protect his friends from a haunting of endermen.

Aurora adores sweet and savory food.

Pink also loves flowers especially roses

Aurora very much enjoys gardening. He likes to take up interests that align with those of his loved ones.

Pink does not like Endermen.

Pink is the only colorza that gets stronger if the feeling of love grows stronger.

Pink adores Voidza in concept, but finds him to be very sad.

Pink enjoys being able to scare Red

Pink is the second colorza to receive a name. Aurora was named by Techno as a symbol of hope and guidance. It is also a reference to pink aurora moths and the princess.

Aurora enjoys small and cute things. He tends to get protective around beings that he particularly cares for. He will use swear substitutes around small children.

He is EXTREMELY fond of his kid(s). 

Pink also doesn’t swear. He replaces swears with different sweets.

VOIDZA

Tag: The Man With No Face [Voidza]

Design: (1) (2)

Void is the rarest colorza. He has only appeared around 5 times at most

Void is triggered by extreme despair and grief. This is usually caused by loss.

Unlike the other colorzas, Voidza is the only colorza with a spectrum of different forms. He goes from a desaturated, mist veiled version of his normal self with a set of antlers and a second pair of wings to a full on crow griffin monster with a skull head and voids for eyes.

Void is the only colorza that cannot speak common. He speaks in Talon pretty much exclusively, but can understand snippets of common

Void tends to act more animalistic and likes to act only on instinct.

Void attacks on sight unless given reason not to. He will attack using his scythe if more human and will go for gruesome attacks.

Void is much more bird-like than Phil.

Void is also the only colorza that can be premeditated by feathers growing.

Void is the only colorza that leaves a lasting physical impact on Phil post transformation. The impact makes Phil even more bird-like post transformation

[whoasooo]

reactions to USWNT roster drop:

glad most of the vets are getting some time off to spend with their families <3

no mal “anti-vaxxer” pugh

this is like everything that a lot of annoying people on twitter have been asking for lol

BELLA BIXBY MY LOVE

i vibe with this group of keepers. they are all 25/26 which seems like a really good age to succeed alyssa (post 2023?)

this is a pretty small roster

no rodman, dydasco, or c. pickett feel like the most glaring omissions 

huerta being there is laura harvey’s doing and i love her for it 

thats a lotta cbs

i wish sonnett would get a shot at cb but seems like thats not in the cards. shes been so good there for washington tho

i hope casey gets her first cap. my guess is jane plays one game and casey/bella gets the other but my guess is casey

i luv andi sullivan

kmew gets to be with sammi <3

weaver is the biggest surprise to me imo, ik she was hurt a decent amount but i didn’t think she had a standout season…if we are talking pdx forwards charley’s production was much better when she wasn’t hurt. she is young and has potential tho

idk if he sees weaver as a winger or a cf

thats a lot of possible cf’s to fill the lloyd void/challenge alex (balcer, hatch, smith, williams, weaver). ik a couple of them are generally wingers on the nt but they all play cf/in a two front at their clubs

i hope lynn gets to see marley

surprised he didn’t call up another dm. My guess is either he is pretty set on andi (yay!) or jae howell is next on the depth chart and not called up bc of the college cup

my guesses on positional depth charts on this roster: 

rb:

sonnett

huerta

(cook)

cb:

sauerbrunn

davidson

adk

cook

(sonnett)

lb:

fox

(davidson)

(sonnett)

dm:

andi

lindsey

am:

lindsey

rose

kmew

cat

sanchez

wingers:

lynn

smith

purce

weaver?

cf:

hatch

balcer

weaver?

(lynn)

(smith)

My largely shot in the dark lineup guesses:

game 1:

jane

sonnett-adk-tierna-fox

lindsey-andi-kmew

williams-hatch-smith

game 2:

casey

huerta-cook-tierna-fox

rose-andi-cat

purce-balcer-smith

[3dayweeknd]

Some of me wishes i chose something more slutty to wear tn but it’s ok. I’ll be ok

[laufire]

the title of Lindsey's episode might not mean anything to do with her, it was Eliza who was meant to direct it but couldn't because of her miscarriage so Lindsey stepped up!

Yeah, I’d heard about that.

But even before I saw she’d be directing episode 7, according to IMDb, the thing that gave me pause is the “Queen” part of the title (“The Queen’s Gambit”). My immediate reaction was “ugh please let this not be about Clarke” xDD

Characters I’d prefer it to be about:

Octavia, one character that’s actually being called that title.

Echo, though I prefer “Commander” ofc.

Emori, for her new Prime role.

Literally any other woman other than Clarke tbh. Except like, Abby or Madi (let her be a goddamn child okay).

Also like. This is going to sound incredibly mean, but I’d like Morgan’s directing debut to be focused on actors that can actually raise the material and I just see Taylor as adequate, not to mention I tend to be annoyed at some of her default acting choices.

[sheetsonfire]

Can you please do

Jay halstead x girl reader

The reader having served in the rangers with mouse and Jay and coming home to Chicago new months after mouse had,seeming like everything was fine with her but was hiding it from mouse and Jay to not bring up what they all went through again willing to help them on a case and ending up staying an being a great aset to the team having always been unaware that Jay had been in love with her sense they met In the rangers having always been focused on whatever was next that they had to do.

Having always been great at undetetnating bombs because of their time in the rangers an on a case void sends her in alone because of a bomb an she’s way more then calm about it talking on the scanner at the same time Adam trying to flirt with her “hey Jay remind me afterwards to kick that guys ass for even attempting” sarcasm in her voice just trying to keep the mood funny like she always has while taking care of it an telling void an the others it’s all clear.

Getting back up to the offices an lindsey talking with Jay because they were together still around this set in asking him why the reader seemed so friendly with him when mouse reminded her what she told Jay to remind her and her jokingly shoving Adam to his knees grabbing his jaw telling him next time she would actually hurt him but Jay seeing her doing that made Adam just fall in love with her more.

Having not showed up the next day even though she was now suppose to be working there and when Jay asked mouse where she lived cause he was gonna check on her mouse told him she had been staying with him sense she got back but seeming hesitatant saying that and when Jay went to go check on her having a key to Moises place he walked in on the reader laying on the couch crying in her sleep though she had acted like she was fine she defiently wasn’t when he woke her up an she had flung up knocking him on the ground and freezing realizing what she did “oh my god Jay I’m so sorry” helping him up an Jay seeing rope burns around her wrist realizing her must of been held hostage when she was serving recently before got back and he helps her with her ptsd and they end up together

Hi, thank you for sending this in! Unfortunately, it's not something I'll be taking on, but please don't hesitate to send in a different request or prompt!

Posting it here, just in case another writer wants to take it on :)

[anniesardors]

Hear me out please love if you are willing to write to write this

Adam Ruzek x Jay halsteads little sister

The reader being the little sister to Jay and will halstead an having served with Jay and mouse in the rangers coming back a year after mouse had.an Jay getting overly angry hearing after his little sister (the reader) helping with one case that Adam and Antonio had been talking about his sister and sexualizing things she does that isn’t even something to sexualize an will having to pull Jay away from doing anything.

Adam being in the room when they talked about the next case which had do deal with ex military and few acting out killing at random void saying only Jay and mouse an the reader was gonna be going to an can update them if they need back up sense the three of them will know the suspects more then anyone.which made Adam worry because even though he made those comments with Antonio he had actually started to really have feelings for the reader and love her the three of them leaving before he could say anything.

Hours going by an lindsey bringing up the fact they hadn’t heard anything so void said he was gonna see if he could find anything while antonio got a text which he put in the computer showing everyone.which was of Jay tied to a pipe bleeding from the shoulder and his head pretty bad with mouse passed out in the corner bleeding from his head an the readers coat in the corner covered in blood but no sign of her

Them getting to Jay and mouse and getting them help and eventually then being okay while a whole day went by and they hadn’t heard from the reader until that next day at night they got a video of her on her knees with a gun pressed agianst the back of her head an a guy infront of her with the camera pointed at her grabbing her jaw asking if she had any last words calling her bullseye like jays had been Ricky and mouses was mouse.the reader looking at the guy behind the camera moving her hands from her head looking like she was gonna take the gun out of the guys hands before looking around an her face turning pale instantly making the others at the station realize it was more of them then they had even thought.

“What would your family think of you all you were supposed to protect this country sn here you are killing the citizens that you swore to protect” having not finished her sentence before the guy behind her lowered the gun shooting her in her back three times

Eventually being found and brought in but the doctors telling them she lost a lot of blood an two of the three bullets never exited her and one was very close to her spine.ending up being fine though and Adam not hearing from the reader but just hearing from mouse and Jay that she was okay and she’s tougher then that and has been through worse

Causing Adam to show up at jays to see the reader who was sleepy an surpised when he showed up cupping her face confessing all his feelings for her and that he was scared he was gonna lose her before he could tell her how he felt for her

But Adam seeing papers on the table by the door that was from the rangers which were asking her to come back and serve another six years it seeming like she was planning on it even when he asked her “I don’t know it’s different there then here I mean I love my brother and everyone here don’t get me wrong but those guys came home and became killers an it’s not normal” him kissing her before she could say anything else an telling her that he didn’t wanna lose her like he almost had an him seeing her face just become overly beat red an telling her just to think about it

Void and Kim and Adam all looking at Jay and the readers and mouses military file mouse being realeased due to ptsd after a ied,Jay being realeased to to ptsd and nightmares of death of his friends with a huge rap sheet of injuries,an Adam picking up the readers file

Y:n halstead (bullseye)

Injury list:broken wrist,6 broken fingers,broke leg,sprained ankle,8 broken ribs.12 gunshot wounds

Released:due to family request:free to come back

Which meant she really could go back if she wanted to an they would take her back without question an Adam comes over to jays acting like he came to watch the game with him and mouse having brought Kevin a water so it didn’t look so suspicious and having seen the reader on the phone most of the whole time an signing something in the folder which he guessed was for her to go back and serve more time which meant she picked the rangers over being with him

(Replace the little kid with the reader and her hand wrapped around his waist more of a visual of Adam)

When Jay and Mouse went to bed and Kevin left the reader had laid down beside Adam wrapping her hand around his waist cuddled into him red in the face that easily for a momment him thinking it was a goodbye “I didn’t sign those Papers I signed papers of leave so they can’t send me another letter so go back,of course I choose you”

I don't write for Adam or do any character sibling fics, so I'm not the person to send this request to. But it seems like you've got a good chunk of it written. You should give it a try!

[marshmallows2345]

If your willing to please love

Adam ruzek x Jay halsteads sister

Jays little sister having served with him an mouse in the rangers coming back around a year after mouse to help with a case that involved ex military acting out an when she gets to the station Adam couldn’t help but fall in love with her right away,how she shoved Jay just to hug mouse an jokingly flipping him off sticking out her tongue “you had him for a year I didn’t he’s my best friend now”

Void telling the rest of the dedtetives until they get a they need back up the only people starting the work on the case was gonna be Jay halstead and mouse and the reader sense they knew the suspects more then anyone having served with them.

Them having not heard from the three for hours which lead to worry before pictures were sent to void which he showed and was trying to figure out what building they were in of mouse passed out and Jay bleeding from his forehead and shoulder but there wasn’t a sign on the reader which lead to lindsey saying maybe they had already killed her which left Adam worried for her safety along with the others though to.

Before few more hours went by when they got Jay and mouse and got them help and they were doing good they got a video of the reader on her knees panic set in on her face as the camera showed a hand around her jaw to look at the camera a gruffly voice asking if she had any last words.even with the fear look in her face she spat at the guy “fuck you,you think this is what the others would like to see who served with you,your not s ranger your a god dam monster” her voice breaking while they dragged her to her feet before they could realize she had already been shot once near her side before a guy came up behind her shooting her three more times

Few days going by an Adam not hearing anything until he ended up going to jays apartment where mouse opened the door seeming calm about it like nothing had happened and Adam seeing the reader coming around the corner slowly with faint bags under her eyes asking who was at the door and feeezing seeing Adam with the worried look on his face “hey jays in the kitchen” thinking he hadn’t been serious when he told her how he felt an when he held her jaw talking to her about that he was worried and that he loved her,her face had just became really red in the face which had never happened before with anyone even with guys who had dated

And maybe they end up together

hi ! i appreciate the request but i don’t think i’m the right person to write this one shot

it’s a great idea !! i just don’t think i can do it justice and wouldn’t want to put out something i’m not 100% proud of

[guardian-angle22]

I’ve been speculating a lot about the TK lake stuff happening next week cause I can’t wait to see how it plays out, but man oh man have I mentioned how scared excited I am for PAUL?!

After that promo I’m over here googling “void space” and freaking the fuck out.

In the IG live they did, Ronen said there was a Paul scene in episode 3x02 that is his favorite scene of the season. Brian was hyped about it... Julian also mentioned being excited about a scene with Mateo, Judd, and Paul that he said took place in a hospital (he said maybe episode 3 or 4, but they all seemed to not know what happened in which episode because they stretched out the first couple).

My guess is that Paul will somehow find and rescue the trapped volunteer, Lindsey, while stuck in this void space but something emotional will happen with him trying to save them both and maybe him not being able to... and the scene with all three of them is probably in the hospital talking about whatever happened.

I’m just preparing to be emotionally destroyed by this entire season, to be honest.

[goldentournesol]

All That Matters

*gif originally posted by @heat-waveee​ *

(Spencer Reid x Reader)

The one where Reader doesn’t visit Spencer in prison.

Length: 3.0k

A/N: MAJOR SPOILERS FOR SEASON 12 FINALE AND BEGINNING OF SEASON 13! 

Part 2: Here For You

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Spencer’s absence was felt in every aspect of her life.The bullpen wasn’t the same without him, her apartment, although they lived separately, wasn’t the same without him, even the jet wasn’t the same. She was so used to looking over and seeing his tall frame sprawled over that beige couch that she found herself glancing over out of habit just to find someone else there. It was just as disappointing every time. Her heart ached for him. It ached because she knew that there was nothing more she could do to help him or ease the pain he felt as he was being tortured in prison and it took a huge toll on her mental health. Everyone else had visited him, but she couldn’t bring herself to do it.

“Hey, Spence.” JJ said tearfully as soon as he took a seat across from her in the visitation room.

“Hey, is everything okay? It’s not my mom, is it?” He hurriedly asked with slight panic.

“No, no, she’s fine. Y/N and I saw her yesterday, she asked about you.” She nodded, smiling in an attempt to reassure him. He mirrored her expression with relief when she told him his mother thought he was at the beach. A short silence ensued.

“How are you doing?” JJ asked, as sympathetically as possible. Spencer fought back tears.

“I’m okay. I’m, uh, really happy to see you.” He admitted, even though he knew it probably wasn’t a good idea she was visiting. However, she reminded him of the promise she made him the last time she saw him. She promised she’d never leave him alone.

“How’s…” he paused with a swallow, “Y/N doing?” The question came out tentatively, his facial expression displaying something between a grimace and a hopeful look. The last time he’d seen Y/N in the courtroom, she was in a silent fit of tears.

“She’s...fine.” JJ lied. Spencer raised his eyebrows questioningly. It didn’t take a profiler to know that that was a straight up lie. “Alright, she’s not doing very well. I just didn’t want to tell you that because I knew you would worry about it and I don’t think you need any more of that.” She gestured around. Spencer heaved a sigh. He expected her response, he just didn’t want to hear it. 

Later that day, JJ found Y/N at her desk, nose deep in a file. Her eyes were frantic as they raced through the words on the page, hoping to find something useful. She had thrown herself into the case files, the Spencer-related and the non-Spencer-related. When she wasn’t occupied with the work, her mind would wander over to Spencer, which would send her into a whirlwind of panic, guilt, and rage. 

Panic because she didn’t want to imagine what he was going through, alone, scared, hopeless--. 

Guilt because she hadn’t visited him yet, she just couldn’t bring herself to see him. Not when she couldn’t wrap her arms around him, not when she couldn’t kiss him, or hold his hand. 

Rage because time was moving so slowly without him and they weren’t any closer to getting him out.

She hadn’t heard JJ come up from behind her and rest a hand on her shoulder. She yelped out in response, having been totally focused on the file.

“Woah, sorry, didn’t mean to startle you.” JJ said as she was met with Y/N’s red rimmed eyes.

“It’s alright.” Y/N muttered softly.

“Y/N, when was the last time you took a break? Or got some sleep?” JJ asked, noticing the constant nervous tapping on her thigh.

“A break? I can’t--I can’t take a break, JJ!” She uncharacteristically snapped, standing from her seat. JJ took a step back at her sudden outburst, her friend’s eyes aflame. 

“How am I supposed to take a break when he’s in there, probably terrified out of his mind?! How do you think he would feel if he knew I was sipping on some tea or...or styling my hair instead of helping him get out of there?” She spat, not even caring that she was gaining attention from people around her. She didn’t know that this was the guilt taking over and speaking for her, but JJ knew.

“He asked about you today...again.” She stated coolly, seeing Y/N’s angry expression soften immediately. She averted her gaze quickly, heart wrenching in her chest. She grabbed some files and made a move to leave, probably to shed some self-wallowing tears, but JJ stopped her by grabbing her arm gently.

“We’re going to get him out of there, I promise. But we need you on board with us. I suggest you go home and get some rest. This won’t be solved overnight.” JJ assured her with a determined voice. Y/N pulled her arm out of her friend’s grip and made a beeline for the exit.

It’s not like she didn’t want to see him, of course she wanted to see him. She wanted to see him more than anything, but she wouldn’t stop. She wouldn’t rest until she caught the son of bitch who put him in there. Spencer wanted nothing more than to see her face and hear her voice.

 At first, he genuinely couldn’t blame her for not wanting to visit, but as matters outside the prison began to worsen, the matters inside were on another level. Then, hope began to elude him. He stopped hoping to see her, stopped hoping for a future. Spencer struggled to see his future as anything other than void and bleak as the four walls of his cell consumed him every night. He tried to file away any resentment he felt for her, he even stopped asking JJ about her. Whether or not she chose to share anything about his girlfriend was completely her choice. It had become too painful for him to think about her, let alone talk about her. 

And in the beginning, he was thankful for his eidetic memory because it allowed him to replay their conversations and memories on a loop. But now, the memories mocked him and kept him up at night. She became a part of his past life and he didn’t know whether his new life after prison could accommodate her.

What if they never solved the case? What if he had to spend the entirety of the 25 years in prison? Would she come see him then? At what point would she move on from him? Would she even bother showing up to break up with him? Or would he eventually have to learn from JJ that Y/N found a new lover as she mistakenly mentions her name in conversation?

This is ridiculous. She loves him. He knows that.

Right?

 Curse the intricate inner workings of his brain. It never ceased. He shouldn’t be thinking this way. But pulling himself out of the darkest place he’d ever been was proving to be increasingly difficult. 

Rage filled him as he learned of his mother’s abduction. He didn’t know why he expected Y/N to come take him home when he’d been released instead of JJ. He shouldn’t have done that. He also shouldn’t have felt disappointed when he saw Penelope all by herself right outside the prison doors.

But he did.

No one mentioned her on the way back to the headquarters, but she invaded his mind anyway. He didn’t have the time or the energy to be thinking of her, he needed to find his mother. 

She had been eagerly awaiting his arrival in the bullpen with the rest of the team. She grinned for the first time in months as she saw his tall figure appear through the glass doors. She watched as Rossi grabbed Spencer’s face and kissed his cheeks before pulling him into a bear hug. She watched Emily stroked his hair and kissed his head. Even Matt threw his arms around Spencer. Tears fell as she watched the scene unfold across the room from her desk. 

Spencer’s entire attitude shifted as his eyes finally landed on her. His smile dissipated, his shoulders were pushed back, and his eyes, his kind, soulful eyes were cold as they bore into her wet ones. She felt a shiver race its way down her spine. The air in the room shifted. It was eerily quiet, everyone waiting for the fallout. But Spencer stood still and silent, neither of them making the first move. There was so much left unsaid between them.

“Let’s go find my mother.” Spencer spoke as he averted his gaze from her and made his way to the conference room. 

A silent sob wracked through her body as she fell back into her chair, her fingers gripping at her roots in frustration. Penelope rushed to her quickly and tried to console her, the rest of the team already in the conference room discussing the case.

“Go help the team, I’ll have Emily brief me later.” Y/N said, taking a deep, shaky breath as she pried Penelope off of her frame. Penelope reluctantly nodded and made her way into the conference room. Spencer’s expression was stone cold and indecipherable as he watched Y/N scurry off into the direction of the bathrooms through the window. 

Hours later, they had managed to retrieve Diana after learning that Cat Adams was in fact impersonating Mr. Scratch along with some help from Lindsey Vaughn. They were now doing the best they could to track down the real Mr. Scratch, but the team had been caught in a horrific car accident, which led to Emily’s abduction. Spencer was currently at home with his mother. Y/N, Penelope, and Matt hadn’t gone with the rest of the team. Y/N had been too shaken up to go out into the field.

“Y/N, get Spencer and meet us at the hospital!  Rossi’s refusing treatment until he talks to you two!” Matt yelled as he and Penelope raced to the hospital. Y/N nodded and called Spencer. Her name was the last he wanted to see on his phone, but he picked up anyway. He almost didn’t.

“Spencer! There’s been a terrible accident, Emily’s been taken by Scratch, I’m picking you up now! Rossi’s refusing treatment! I’ll explain everything on the way to the hospital.” She spoke frantically into the phone, speeding off into the direction of his apartment. He hadn’t even had time to reply before she hung up. Minutes later, he got into the car and noticed her panicked state.

“Are you okay to drive?” He asked, immediately noticing her rapid breathing, wide eyes, and white knuckles from gripping the wheel tightly. She met his eyes, shaking her head. Spencer saw the tears and switched places with her, driving to the hospital. He also noticed how she failed to manage her breathing.

“Hey, hey. Try to match my breath.” He breathed in and out slowly. She shook her head in disbelief, hating the fact that this was their first encounter. He was still the caring man she fell in love with, even though she knew he probably hated her guts right then. Her breathing evened itself out and she fiddled with her fingers.

“I’m good, I’m good.” She muttered, mostly to herself, “Spencer, I-” she began but he cut her off harshly.

“Not now, Y/N.” He spat as he rolled into the hospital, searching for JJ and Rossi. Y/N’s heart wrenched as he ran to JJ’s side, treating her with the tenderness she craved. She found Rossi and ran to him quickly.

“Where’s Spencer? Get Spencer.” He uttered, obviously in pain. Y/N brought Spencer over.

“What’s going on?” He asked, walking into the room.

“Shut up and listen.” Rossi demanded, eyes shifting between Y/N and Spencer, landing on Y/N as he spoke, “First, you, go through my pants pockets and find my keys. Second, you’re back on the team.” He referred to Spencer.

“Not sure I should be. Has the director approved that?” He asked.

“I’m making the calls now. I’ll take the heat. You’re back on the team.” He panted.

“I’ve got the keys.” Y/N said, holding them.

“There’s a little one there to a file cabinet in my office. Inside, there’s Chicago Bears season tickets. When you get them, call Matt Simmons. I promised him those tickets.” He seemed adamant.

“Rossi, did they give you something to make you loopy?” Y/N asked.

“I’ll get the doctor, we’ll get him into surgery.” Spencer stated and made a move to leave.

“Just shut up and listen.” He insisted, “Emily is missing. Stephen is dead. As for you two ass clowns, you’ll do me the courtesy of following my orders. And for the love of God, work through whatever it is you two are going through and then I’ll go into surgery.”

She and Spencer nodded as they left the room. “This has nothing to do with season tickets.” She stated and he agreed.

“Ass clowns?” Spencer muttered confusedly and she repressed a giggle. 

They had been so caught up in the urgency of the case that they hadn’t found the time to talk, but Y/N was glad that Spencer was at least conversing with her, even if it was strictly about the case. With Emily now found and Scratch finally dead, they learned to breathe again. Y/N offered to drive Spencer home from Stephen’s funeral, seeing how morose he seemed. He reluctantly agreed and got into the car.

“I know you don’t want to, but we really have to talk.” She said softly, afraid that if she spoke too loud, he’d either snap or break. It was unclear which was more likely to happen.

“Now’s not really the best time, Y/N.” He spoke defeatedly, his hands running over his face and digging into the sockets of his eyes.

“It’ll never be the right time, Spencer.” She pushed, “I missed you.”

He laughed crudely, almost mocking her, “Oh, you missed me?”

“Yes, I missed you. Of course I missed you. I’m sorry I didn’t-”

“Sorry?!” He practically screeched, turning to face her. Her jaw clenched in reaction as she focused on driving. 

“You’re sorry for what exactly? For not coming to visit me? For not bothering to write me any letters? For practically pretending like I didn’t exist? Do you have any idea how often I hoped to see you? Do you have any idea what it feels like to be disappointed to see one of my best friends because I was hoping it was you? I hated myself for it, but it happened. How could you, Y/N?!” He seethed, voice uncharacteristically booming through the small space between them. It was laced with hurt and betrayal. She abruptly pulled the car over on the side of the road and turned to look at him. 

“How could you forget about me like that?” Spencer’s voice was small and shaky, tears threatening to spill.

Her own tears found their way down her cheeks as she stared at his heartbroken face, “Forget about you? I could never forget about you, Spencer.” She sniffled softly.

“You were all I could think about. I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t eat. I’m pretty sure I developed an ulcer from the stress, by the way. I didn’t visit because…” she swallowed, pausing to blow her nose, “because I was angry. I was so angry, Spencer. Not at you, of course. At the situation. It was unfair to you and I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry. I know no amount of apologies will undo it, but I couldn’t handle it. I knew I wouldn’t have been able to handle seeing you in there and not be able to hold you or kiss you or...or touch you.” She paused again to blow her nose. 

Her words were disguised by the sobs, but Spencer managed to comprehend them. “It would have been too painful for me, I’m sorry. I was too weak and too selfish. You deserved so much better than that, I know.”

Spencer’s heart ached to see her cry, but he was so upset that he didn’t know if he could forgive her just yet. His throat got that familiar feeling of being so tight that he couldn’t speak. He just shook his head and rubbed at his eyes, turning away from her.

“Just take me home.” He whispered and she nodded, pulling herself together. Spencer occupied himself with a loose thread on his clothes, the soft hum of the engine was the only thing filling the silence between them.

She pulled up in front of his apartment complex and he was about to step out of the car when she reached for his arm, stopping him. She drew her hand back immediately, realizing that that was the first time they made physical contact since he got back. She hoped she wasn’t overstepping. He stared at her curiously at both reaching for him and drawing back.

“Spence, I understand if you want to end things. I just...I love you. I never stopped loving you and I never will.” She reminded him and he nodded, the tenderness she’d grown so used to returning to his eyes.

“I love you, too.” He spoke quietly, offering her a tight smile that obviously hid a lot of pain. 

She watched as he got out of the car and disappeared inside the building. He hadn’t confirmed nor denied that he wanted to end things with her and she didn’t know if she should be relieved at that. All she did know though was hearing those four words from Spencer again breathed a new life into her lungs.

He still loves her.

That’s all that matters.

Part 2

[ahalal-uralma]

favorite bands/musical artists?

Ok, I have a hard time truly limiting this to a few answers and I am answering this question way too often. I just can’t pick a few favorites.

So I’m going to make a bit of a MASTER LIST and will update this list as I feel is necessary for people who really want to know what my tastes in music are. I have too many artists I enjoy for different reasons.

Keep in mind this will appear like a lot, but is still not the sum of every genre or artist I listen to. It won’t even touch half of my tastes.

It’s also important to realize that music can be very nuanced: Some artists may fall under more than one type of genre or label themselves as one of their own. I am focusing on categorizing people by what they are most associated with and you may not always agree. Here are the musicians that I listen to the most:

Classical (typically between 1700-1900’s): Beethoven, Mozart, Prokofiev, Bach, Chopin, Debussy, Brahms, Schubert, Vivaldi, Bartok, Stravinsky, Strauss, Verdi, Rossini, Faure, Scarlatti, Schoenberg, Ives, Saint-Saens, Bizet, Satie, Goldmark, Gaubert, Busser, Weber, Pfitzner, Danzi, Nicolai, Offenbach, etc.

Classical (Modern/Progressive/Vocal): Adrian von Ziegler, Hans Zimmer, Kevin Macleod, Thomas Bergerson, John Williams, Jerry Goldsmith, Howard Shore, Lindsey Stirling, Mark Snow, Danny Elfman, Sarah Brightman, Amelia Brightman, Charlotte Church, Tarja Turunen, Nina Simone, Frank Sinatra, Michael Buble, Marilyn Monroe, Audrey Hepburn, Vera Lynn, Charlie Puth, Nico Collins, Adam Hurst, etc.

Folk/Indie/New-Age/Alternative: Indila, Sogdiana, Enya, Dido, Zella Day, 78Violet, Nora Jones, Enigma, Delerium, R.E.M, Kerli, Depotax, Sisters Of Mercy, Echo & The Bunnymen, The Dream Academy, Howard Jones, Dead Can Dance, The Grateful Dead, Meg Myers, Angie, Phildel, Mazzy Star, Cigarettes After Sex, Cocteau Twins, Twin Tribes, The Angelic Process, Valerie Broussard, Halsey, Magic Wands, Hayley Kiyoko, Zand, Alice et Moi, Elena Esenina, Kanga, Abba, Lola Blanc, Alanis Morissette, Raison d'etre, Asam Ali, Vas, Ludivico Technique, Holly Golightly, etc. 

New Wave/Electronic/Synth/DreamPop: Depeche Mode, Alphaville, Duran Duran, Tangerine Dream, Robert Miles, E Nomine, And One, Rroyce, Jack Strify, E-Type, Information Society, INXS, Erasure, Kaelan Mikla, Gunship, Peter Murphy, Peter Gabriel, David Bowie, Camoflauge, Ashbury Heights, Sandra, Prince, Sneaker Pimps, Eurythmics, Grimes, Erasure, Modern Talking, Blue System, C.C Catch, Dead Or Alive, Culture Club, Thomas Dolby, After The Fire, Men In Hats, Falco, Gary Numan, Bauhaus, Clan Of Xymox, Sad Lovers And Giants, Lights, Joy Division, Laura Branigan, Kitty, The Chameleons, Visage, The Timelords, The Wolfgang Press, Real Life, Kate Bush, Pete Shelley, Wall Of Voodoo, Ritual Howls, Strvngers, My Life With The Thrill Kill Cult, The Electric Hellfire Club, T.O.Y., De/Vision, Minerve, Wolfsheim, Blaqk Audio, Chrom, Angels On Acid, Emigrate, H.P. Baxxter, EMF, Baltimora, Austre, Sextile, Vandal Moon, Void Vision, Children On Stun, Gost, Funker Vogt, Covenant, Diorama, In Strict Confidence, Beborn Baton, Faderhead, Solar Flake, Night Club, Skynd, Switchblade Symphony, ISON, etc.

Rock/PunkRock/HeavyMetal/GlamMetal: Black Veil Brides, Malice Mizer, Versailles, Candy Spooky Theater, Phantasmagoria, The Birthday Massacre, No Doubt, Smashing Pumpkins, Rob Zombie, Ministry, Skindred, Blue Stahli, Vixtrola, Kidney Thieves, Cold, Staind, Garbage, The Pretty Reckless, HIM, Disturbed, The Haxans, The Smiths, The Cure, The Damned, Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers, Velvet Underground, Cutting Crew, Billy Idol, Alice Cooper, Fields Of The Nephilim, Kitten, The Church, Hexvessel, Deftones, Crosses, Linkin Park, Ice Nine Kills, Falling In Reverse, Def Leppard, Motley Crue, Guns N Roses, Faster Pussycat, Slaughter, Scorpions, Ghost, Twisted Sister, Whitesnake, Queen, Kiss, Mozart Opera Rock, Otep, Nothing More, Raven Black, 

Metal/Progressive/Industrial/Folk/BattleMetal: Eluvietie, Arkona, Heilung, Amaranthe, In This Moment, Beast In Black, Powerwolf, Turisas, Thyrfing, Wintersun, King Diamond, Sopor Aeternus, The Hu, Autumn’s Grey Solace, Myrath, Kamelot, Marilyn Manson, Love & Death, Korn, Death Stars, Dope Stars Inc, Dope, Nine Inch Nails, Type O Negative, Deftones, Orgy, Erdling, Rammstein, Hanzel Und Gretyl, Schwarzer Engel, Blutengel, Eisbrecher, Hocico, Razed In Black, Reactor 7x, D’espairs Ray, Dir En Grey, Nemesea, Alestorm, Swashbuckle, 3TEETH, Silence In The Machine, Grendel, Rabbit Junk, Combichrist, Heimataerde, Velvet Acid Christ, Decoded Feedback, Dioxyde, C-Lekktor, Omnimar, Zombie Girl, Motionless In White, Not My God, Zeromancer, Aesthetic Perfection, Red Flag, Skold, Skinny Puppy, Sister Machine Gun, Killing Joke, Chelsea Grin, A Life Divided, Oddko, Puscifer, The Cruxshadows, Jack Off Jill, Semblant, Project Pitchfork, Lord Of The Lost, Inkubus Sukkubus, Sabaton, Korpiklaani, Tristania, Insomnium, Katatonia, Orbit Culture, Snake River Conspiracy, Gemini Syndrome, Myrkur, Draconian, Within Temptation, Sirenia, Nox Arcana, Arcana, Elysion, Atrium Carceri, Elend, etc.

Ambient/Black/Death/FuneralDoomMetal: Cradle Of Filth, Carach Angren, Mandragora Scream, Burzum, Dimmu Borgir, Children Of Bodom, Alcest, Darkthrone, Gorgoroth, Blut Aus Nord, Behemoth, Emperor, Immortal, Taake, Ulver, Leviathan, Bathory, Mistress Of The Dead, Urgehal, Mayhem, Xasthur, Lustre, Enthroned, Elderwind, Dark Funeral, Earth & Pillars, Summoning, Eldamar, Endiku, Krypt, Satyricon, Carpthian Forest, Wolves In The Throne Room, Sun of the Sleepless, My Dying Bride, Dark Sanctuary, Evoken, Trees Of Eternity, Mortiis, Severoth, Dark Mirror Ov Tragedy, Mandragora Scream, Dissection, Until Death Overtakes Me, Shape Of Despair, Mourning Beloveth, Evadne, Agalloch, Alien Vampires, Psyclon Nine, Pantheist, Esoteric, Akhlys, Therion, Theatre Of Tragedy, BRÒN, Valor, Empyrium, etc. 

Overall, music is an art and people should not feel limitations on the art they can enjoy. I am obviously bad at limiting myself with anything that gives me pleasure.

Just be grateful I didn’t touch upon things by country (ie. not the genre, but the locations) or focus more on mainstream media like pop or rap, because then you might find yourself having to dissect this list forever. I already know there are lots of artists I’m forgetting and will have to mention later. 

If there’s a musician or band you would like me to recommend a song or album specifically for, just let me know and I can offer up some links. A few people on this list don’t have a physical discography, or their music exists in a foreign language, so you might find a few of them a bit of a challenge to locate on your own, if you do not already know where or how to go look.