#lilacnirnrootsdiary

[lilacnirnrootboy]

Day 1. 17/07/23

Feat picture of shredder my cabbage dog plush.

Yo first post of my self improvement I don’t know how to really write this but you only live once am i right . I’m deciding to share my journey on here cause why not I’m a very anti social person and who knows maybe sharing my journey with someone might help them . Also I don’t want to be one of those being who make self improvement an aesthetic that might work for some people but to me who has deleted all others forms of social media others then YouTube because I fell into the trap of if your not an TikTok aesthetic who has there life together and is making there passion there career then your nothing. Which is ducking stupid cause we all know most of it is fake and unreachable for a good majority of people. I just wanna learn to live my life for me and not the validation of other people. So here’s what I did today .

So I woke up before 11 today so good job me , I went on a walk around the block today which made me feel productive I also took out the trash that’s been piling for a couple of days so yay I always struggle taking out the trash . I also only had one coffee and 2 drinks of water so far yay . Cause usually I have 3 to 4 cups of cofeee a day and no water .later tonight I’m going to my boyfriends dads house to have a white people taco night so excited for that cause taco are very yummy but nervous to human interaction.

I’m proud of myself for being able to this today as all of this has been very difficult for me recently so go lilac yay.

[lilacnirnrootboy]

Day 6 22/07/23

Recently I’ve been trying to eat more then takeaway , fries and 4 cups of cofee I’ve been getting a bit better for the past 4 days I’ve only had 1 coffee a day which very proud of myself . I also wanted to do more productive things during my day since it’s month 4 of my job not giving me any shifts and I keep getting rejected from job applications big sigh.

So I’ve downloaded Duolingo math and language. I’ve always been really bad at maths and I have some Truama around not being good at it so I wanted to get better and do somthing productive ,I’m also learning mandarin since it’s me of the most spoken launches . I’m only doing the casual 5 minutes a day since my attention span isn’t that long. But doing the math even though it was just simple grade 4 stuff made me proud of myself that I got most of them correct.

Also I’m leaving the house more often and trying to brush my teeth more so yay me . I know this may seem like really simple stuff to people but being able to do this stuff no matter how basic makes me proud of myself cause a lot of days I struggle to do this.