#like. she is not. that's a gnc nonbinary woman if i've ever seen one. but she's never really explored it!

[crimeronan]

“Forcefemmed by Belos” is certainly a string of words. But also like. God he really did do that huh. Every day my desire for Luz to cathartically chop off all her hair in the bathroom rises exponentially!!!!

justice read this post and said aloud, "you are So Brave to use the term 'forcefemmed' in this context" and i was like "IF PEOPLE THINK I MEAN IT IN THE KINK SENSE THAT'S ON THEM!!!" FJDJHD

[windypuddle]

enstars headcanons

ok im going in order but i dont have headcanons for a few characters for sure. so. whatever on we go . just saying in advance these are mostly gender and Autism

fine:

eichi tenshouin: look i cant say anythinf about this guy hes already canonically terminally ill and gay. like what do you want me to do

wataru hibiki: genderfluid. whatever gender fits the performance. shes the moment hes the star theyre the epitome of an actor

tori: boy you are so gnc. princess but not a girl you know

yuzuru: has definitely had impulse thoughts about dying his hair and having a scene phase at 3 am

trickstar

hokuto: bigender. sooooo queer . also autistic

mao: um ritsu braided his hair sometimes when they were younger

ryuseitai:

chiaki: trans guy i have many feelings about this but he leans into the hero thing because its gender affirming. also autism

kanata: no gender only blublublub. likes wearing long skirts. filipino. has like 1 million fish earrings. also autism

tetora: TRANSMASC ‼️💥💪

midori: transfem... also autistic.. she is so important

shinobu: Autism Autism Autism. bonus the detachment from gender that sometimes comes with the autism but he hasnt really thought about it. hes just some guy

alkaloid:

hiiro: transmasc autistic i will die on this hill

aira: my lovely mutuals have convinced me with blasian aira its canon to me now. white french? no. cowards happyele are cowards i tell you. theres such a vast portion of the francophone world that is not white . also transmasc

mayoi: scaredgirl weirdboy core. whatever gender is easier at the moment. she likes being pretty

tatsumi: ok yknow what. fuck it. aroace tatsumi

eden:

nagisa: so much autism. nonbinary guy. religious trauma

ibara: lesbian. not going to elaborate bc thats not my problem ibara is just a lesbian

hiyori: hes just gay idk what to tell you. cisboy gay who is so annoying. when people complain about "gay isn't a personality trait" theyre complaining about him. also chubby

jun: also gay but fans love him for being normal about it. one of his main motivations for working out is being able to princess carry hiyori. hes so polite usually its insane but with eden he doesnt care because he loves them so hes a bit of a bitch

valkyrie:

shu: god is a woman and her name is shu itsuki. transfem and autistic i will Also die on this hill.

mika: transmasc and autistic

2wink:

hinata: men liker but dont ask me about her gender idk

yuuta: i see those slipups in twin peaks girl u are transfem nonbinary i think

crazy:b:

rinne: bigender [wild cheering] also demi aka down bad for niki specifically

niki: tboy swag but hes not really bothered too much about medically transitioning. arospec i think

himeru: Sooooo nonbinary. so so so nonbinary. i like to hc afab nonbinary himeru and mainly got top surgery to more easily pass as kaname but like gahdamn of course you have blue hair and pronouns (they/it/no pronouns)

kohaku: tboy swag . the gender in crazy:b is off the charts

Undead:

rei: 1 million genderqueer and SO gay. has all the problems of an older sister but also the hotness that comes with issues u know.

kaoru: ok. bear with me. aussie. also transfem... like what do you mean you hate men and only hang out with girls. definitely arospec

koga: AUTISM!! weirdgirl to autism boy wonder transmasc swag pipeline

adonis: also autism. he can be gnc. as a treat

akatsuki:

keito: come on man we all know youre gay and insufferable about it

kuro: he should get to have piercings i think

souma: autism boy wonder. while you were busy learning social cues he was studying the blade. also applies to gender norms

ra*bits:

nazuna: boy there is something gender going on with you. weirdboy or maybe a gender cis people have never heard of.

tomoya: That Is The Normalest Girl I've Ever Seen

mitsuru: autism

hajime: girl what is your gender. hes like the narrator of the arch nemesis cynthia post. so poor they cant afford a gender

knights:

tsukasa: autistic and please please please let him be chubby. staring at happyele with my biggest saddest eyes Please let tsukasa be chubby. while you're at it can he wear a skirt. please

leo: ok i give a lot of characters autism because i have autism and i get it but i think leo has adhd

izumi: agender. any pronouns. idk what to tell you he said in next door that he doesnt care about gender only beauty

arashi: only normal one in knights. i love aranee she should get 1 million hours to stress bake if she wants to

ritsu: ah i understand why vampires are gay. occasionally a girl if its funny

switch:

natsume: Diversity win!! the angry witch is transmasc!!! neurodivergent but i think its funnier if i dont specify.

tsumugi: new gender unlocked its pathetic wifeguy. hes every spirit in the fields of punishment and he does it willingly for natsume

sora: wahoo autism ^_^ yippee!!

madara: is cowboy a gender?

feel free to reblog and throw in ur own headcanons i love hearing other fans hcs it is so awesome!!

[onemattwolf]

dealing with a fair bit of shame around being trans that I don't know how to shake. I think i've been feeling this for years but wasn't sure how to name it til I started to be open about being trans and connecting with other trans folks.

I don't know what to do about it. It makes me feel so lonely.

being trans is lonely already. people keep discounting my lived experiences. they can't see past their own perceptions on me and can't switch their perspectives enough to figure that I'm seen differently by different people

With more comfort with myself means I'm thinking of my presentation less. Which means i don't have the same control as i use to on how i'm perceived. That lack of control makes me feel incredibly anxious, esp when I can't figure out what bathroom I can safely use. So i've just gotten good at holding it when i'm out and about.

I'm either a man or i'm some 3rd gender to the people that think they're woke enough to know what a nonbinary person is. If i have anything on me that is at all feminine, my masculinity is stripped away and I'm now they/them, or she/her to those who are either very unaware, or who are trying to be an ass.

The people i pass around don't believe that someone can still see me as a woman. The people i don't pass around can't believe that people can read me immediately as a man. they both think i'm exaggerating.

it's exhausting.

i keep pushing that i'm nonbinary just because it's an easy out when i'm so bad at standing up for myself or correcting others, because of the shame i feel. I don't feel like i have a right to correct others.

And it's not that i'm *not* nonbinary. but i know i'm more man than I even let myself believe. If anything, I'm a GNC man. I actually like that I was raised as a girl on some level because I feel it gives me more room to play around with my man-ness. But i feel like that simultaneously ostracises me from my fellow trans men and cis men alike. I never wanted to copy manhood exactly because i think a lot of societal gender expectations for men are just as stupid as the one's for women, and I never followed those, anyways. but it just makes me

... something else.

I just don't know how to tell people all that, defend it, esp as i get less focused on passing. I don't know how to be a man with boobs, esp as I get more and more set on keeping them (hopefully smaller versions if i can finally find a surgeon that'll do breast reduction with ohip coverage).

For some reason i don't feel any shame for being a man with a vagina. it's just there, I've never minded it. Actually it's quite fun.

I guess when i was coming to terms with being trans, there was a lot of representation of trans people with vaginas, but most everyone seemed to have top surgery or were binding. and, the main rep of trans men with tits (who were comfortable with them) was either fetish art, or made by cis people making fun of "that type" of trans man.

I guess it made me not want to be "that type."

and i don't know how to shift my views even as there's more "men with tits" rep than ever.

It's just... so confusing

and so many people i talk to about this don't get my confusion. They make it so black and white.

"you are what you say you are, don't listen to the haters." like, sure

But it feels so invalidating at the same time. cus my emotions are real and they've been hurting me. I want to talk through this but when people respond with something like that I feel shut down, that they don't actually care enough to listen through the complexity.

They just want to give the best sounding blanket statement and then walk away feeling good about themselves.

And the thing is, they are actually 100% right. but i still have to process it all.

That's step Z. I'm still at step C. I can't just skip to the end, this shit doesn't work like that.

it's just

Confusing. I wish it wasn't.

[werevulvi]

Something i've been noticing is that seems male attracted dysphoric females do not have actual community but can gain one+hugboxing through ftm declaration. And space where they're centered instead of mocked for not being 'feminine' and acceptable enough, which i think can be terrifying to lose if that's your only comfort/support net. Would you agree with this assesment? Did you ever felt constricted this way in your trajectory? Or like you're in the land of nowhere as a nongay virilized tomboy?

I think you're right. I see far more tomboys identify as some flavour of nonbinary or ftm than as women, and I've rarely ever come across straight identified tomboys. Aside from my mom, but she's really not the community type of person, nor does she identify as anything in particular. She's an hermit, lol. I also knew of a few other straight women of my parents' age when I grew up, who were noticably gnc. They were farmers, competetive women who stacked heavy bales of hay every summer and took care of horses and other farm animals in the cold winters. They drank beer, never excused themselves, and had meager husbands who seemed to enjoy being bossed around by their strong-willed wives. And I think I've always related to that kinda women, but... never quite knew it. (I grew up in the country side if that's somehow not clear, but most of my classmates' mothers were the feminine type, back when I was a kid, which was in the 90's.) Sometimes I feel that way yeah, like there's no place for a tomboy who dates men. The straight world has shunned me, a long ass time ago. Straight men are often great friends, but have zero sexual interest in me, and straight women don't typically relate to me. I get the feeling that most straights are just confused why I don't wanna date women if I'm "trying to be a man." I'm not really trying to be a man, I just like having a beard and being masculine in a wide variety of ways. Of course I know it's not a coincidence that I pass as male. It's undeniably convenient. More social status, less misogyny coming my way, what can I say? I do sometimes wonder if my "transman" label is just a convenience label for me to hold onto the trans community, for the gender clinic to prescribe me my hormones, and for other people to more easily identify what my material reality is. But I dunno for sure anymore, hence my near constant dithering. I'm not expecting anyone to keep up, or even try to. Although I have no trouble making straight (non-trans) friends, there's never been a community to find in the straight world to begin with. At least not in regards to dating, sex or love. It's a battle ground. From the female point of view, it's metaphorically fighting other women and competing against them on who's the most feminine, beautiful, sexy, etc, to score the hottest man. And if you're lucky enough to get him, he'll treat you like garbage and leave you an even worse mess than you were to begin with. Rinse and repeat. And among men, I think they fight/compete against each other for the hottest woman too. And like that's straight dating, in my personal experience. It's never been a warming or safe space by any means. It's a battle field. I think it's sad, but that it also sadly makes sense. Other women will always be rivals, in a sense, and men will always be dating prospect more than they'll be potential friends. I think the war between the sexes is perhaps the most obvious in the straight world, and I think that's largely because of... well, the straightness. And as a virilized tomboy (when people know of my true sex) I feel like I'm seen and treated mostly as a man, but sometimes also as a failed woman. Or they see me as a failed lesbian, despite knowing I'm not gay. But over all it's really hard to tell what they think of me. They don't often say, and I can't read minds, obviously. But some have hinted at or even said outright that they don't think women who date men "should" be masculine, because men don't find that attractive. Perhaps silly, but I made the mistake to look up "masculine women" on youtube once. First 10+ videos were people going on long tangents about how they thought masculine women are damaged, gross, will be alone forever, are "going against their feminine nature" and other such utterly revolting garbage, and then a few videos at the bottom referred to lesbian butches. I dunno how representative a youtube search is of reality outside of internet, really, but let's just say that was a bit of a bummer nonetheless... But in regards to dating, I abandoned the straight world for lack

of prospects, some 10 years ago, when I was ditched by a straight man I was involved and infatuated with, because he (probably) lost attraction to me, as my changes from testosterone were starting to come in. I gave him all my time and patience, but he dropped me like a hot potato, and I guess that hurt me. Although it was a long time ago and not something that keeps me up at night anymore; the memory still serves as a bitter lesson. Although I'm in theory open to dating straight men; in practice, that's probably not gonna happen. So I veer towards bisexual men, which unavoidably leads me to the gay male community. Not to seek gay men, or to claim myself as the same as them, but to find the dating pool we have in common: bisexual men. I know that bi men technically exist in the straight world too, but they tend to hide their sexuality when they seek women to date. Vast majority of bi men I've been with, or known as friends, were closeted, or otherwise just very quiet about it. And I know why. Regular homophobia, plus fears of bi men as "HIV carriers" makes many straight women not want them. So they seem to only be open about their sexuality when seeking other men in gay spaces. So that's why I go there to find them. Simply because that's where they are. But do I find community in gay male spaces? No, I'm only borrowing their dating apps for a bit, to find bi men who are into trans. I don't feel part of gay men's world. More like an uninvited guest, mayhaps. I don't really feel like I'm trespassing, but in a sense I kinda do. Like... I know why the Grindr app opened up for women and transes, and now is no longer just for gay men... because of people like me shoe-horning ourselves into that app. Yeah, I was on it before they made that change of gender inclusion. I guess I have to take some responsibility for that, even though I never advocated for my inclusion to begin with. And can I now use the app guilt-free, knowing it's no longer only for gay men? Nope. Because I know they had to give up that exclusion because of people like me. But I still use that goddamn app, guilt-ridden. The flesh is weak, indeed... Bisexual dating spaces don't really exist, and even if they did, they'd be for people who wanna date both sexes, not for people who wanna date bisexuals of one specific sex. And how does the bisexual community serve me? Not really, for the most part. It's not much of a community to begin with, probably because between the bihets (like me) and the almost gay bi's, we don't really have a lot of struggles in common with each other. Do I find community in the straight world? Honestly, I don't think anyone does, not even hardcore superstraights. But do I find community in trans ftm spaces then? Sometimes, and to a certain extent. If I just tuck away my "terfy" views, as well as my positive connection to womanhood. Can't go around there talking of myself as a woman for being bio female, or ranting about how much I love my hairy he/him pussy, lol. After this long time of transitioning, I've also gotten bored out of my ass with coddling newly out ftm's, which is whom most trans spaces are made up of, and made for. If I see one more post about binders or misgendering, I'm gonna have a fucking spasm! No but seriously, I feel left out in ftm spaces too. Although I of course can relate on some fairly standard things like... oh I dunno, masculine presentation, being clumsy about male social cues thanks to having a severely lacking male socialization, top surgery, testosterone, gushing about passing, gynecological issues that are specific to ftm's, being perceived as gay when dating a man and as straight when dating a woman, navigating men's bathrooms, etc. But do I feel like I'm really one of them? Yes and no. It's complicated. In a way, I guess I feel like I'm more self aware than they are, and have my dysphoria under better control. And that's probably partly because I've been transing for a long ass time by now, and partly because of my gender critical world view. But then I look at transmen like Buck Angel, and then

I can relate! And do I feel like the only kinda community I may ever have with my gender and/or sexuality is the trans community? Probably, yeah, but I'm trying to care less about having a community, and care more about advocating for myself, and only myself. I've always been too weird to really fit in anywhere, always on the cusp of something else. Too gnc to be a woman, too self-loving to be ftm; favouring men and masculinity too much to be bi, liking pussy too much to be straight; I'm always in that goddamn grayzone, and with so much more than just sexuality and gender. It's just kinda how I am, always at the border. Caught somewhere between left and right wing, between feminist and men's rights advocate, between disabled and totally normal, and so on. And I'm trying to become okay with that. Like trying to force myself into a community that I have to cut my edges off to fit into, just isn't fucking worth it for me anymore. Because maybe I love my edges, and don't wanna lose them. Also, it's not like I've ever really had any trouble finding people who like me for who I just am. So I'm aiming at that. Just finding people who like me for who I am, and people I like for who they are, and screw communities altogether. I'm trying to put aside safety for the reward of more freedom. I know that's why I transed myself to begin with, why I later reclaimed my womanhood, and why I went back on testosterone, as a woman. Because to me being free to be myself matters more, than being safe in a community. But that's not an easy choice to make, and it's something I'm still struggling with myself as well. I wouldn't think it's in any sense strange, for young tomboys to feel lost and seek refuge in trans communities. The straight world has no place for someone like me. It spat me out long ago, and clearly does not want me back. But then again, the straight world isn't a safe space for anyone, least of all any kinda women.

[vampish-glamour]

I've reached a point where I am legitimately ashamed of being lgbt. There's so much sexism (I have seen "queers" quoting -almost verbatim- ideas of womanhood from the 1870s. Let that sink in for a moment.) and box building coming out of that community, that I, a gnc lesbian, who has only ever known sex (gender isn't really a part of our culture...yet, we're importing all those wonderful 60+ genders -.-) feel like those people are hellbent on putting me in a stereotyped box - while they themselves screech about boxes. Worse yet, lgbt acceptance is decreasing thanks to that shit. 10 years ago I wouldn't have been afraid to come out to my parents. Now, I am.

Sorry, for venting, but there's no one I could safely talk to about those grievances.

As I always say, no need to apologize for venting! 💖

I feel you. It’s embarrassing at this point to be lgbt because we’re automatically associated with the “queers”. People tend not to make the separation between them and actual lgbt people just trying to go about our lives.

And that association hurts us in the long run.

Honest to goodness homophobes aren’t making the distinction between “queer” people and lgbt people. I cannot tell you how many times I’ve seen somebody take a look at some crazy news article, and make the “slippery slope” argument.

“We told you same sex marriage would be a slippery slope!!” Is what they say, and it KILLS me to hear that sort of thing.

The sexism is bad, too. I see it around so much and it genuinely upsets me. Here’s this group of people talking about how progressive and accepting they are... while being unbelievably sexist. They enforce gender roles, they push old fashioned ideas of womanhood, and it’s just tiring to see.

You’re absolutely right in saying that the “queers” are hellbent on shoving you in a box. They simply can’t comprehend the idea of a GNC person. They need gender roles. They need to be able to say “this is a masculine person, so he’s a man. This is a feminine person, so she’s a woman. And this is somebody in the middle, so they’re neither”.

I just wish things weren’t the way they were. It makes it exhausting to be lgbt, because it feels like the sane bunch of us are running around doing damage control while the Queers do their damned hardest to shut us up and speak for and over us.

And I hope that the lgbt movement can get back on the right track to become respectable again, and to stop making us all look like absolute lunatics. Because it’s really hard to go around in the world as an lgbt person while people are going around acting like idiots in your name.

The acceptance drop is scaring me, because I can easily see a future where “lgbt” no longer means “same sex attracted and/or is transgender/transsexual”... but comes to be purely associated with the “queer community”. And we simply won’t be taken seriously.

And if there’s no distinction made between a gay bi or trans person and a “nonbinary demisexual genderfluid panromantic”, as we’re starting to see... we’re in trouble. I don’t blame people for letting their acceptance drop. Because I mean, look around. The lgbtqiakeysmash community is an absolute NIGHTMARE.

My point is, being lgbt is getting worse and worse simply because of how we’re forced to sit and watch people make a mockery of us.