#like……. i know im only ever all over rin on here AND that’s fair cause he’s like ….. my nr 1 forever &always !!

[itoshi-s]

OK u know what .. . goin purely off the vibez i give off ! cause i don’t talk abt the others nearly enough …… v_v

[shxxknytrash]

endless daydream

pairing: sousuke yamazaki x [y/n]

word count: 2098

a/n: im very rusty and idk if this made any sense but enjoy! ;u; i apologize for any grammatical errors,,,, it’s been a while since i’ve written something,,,,

The ethereal hues of red and orange stretch far and wide with the sun slowly setting from afar. It was just like every other day where you stood right in front of the glass window of your office with eyes wondering how such beautiful colors were made. However, your thoughts somehow wander off to the man whom you’ve been working with for the past two years.

Yamazaki Sousuke

He was the only client of yours who stayed throughout - progressing every single day which would always surprise you. Smiling at the thought of the man, you transfer your gaze at the progress notes on your table. You knew that this day would come where you’d have to bring the good news to him.

The news where he can finally go back to his regular training routine and go after that dream of his where he can stand beside his dear friend at the world championship. “I bet he’s going to be ecstatic about this,” you mutter as you hold the progress note with trembling hands. You should’ve been happy about such improvements, however, you can’t seem to bear the thought of the coming days where you’ll never see how his lips would always tug into a bright smile whenever, how his teal eyes would soften at the sight of you encouraging him all-throughout the session, and just him in general.

Your eyes soon focus on the discharge note you made the other day. A sad smile was plastered on your face as you placed the progress notes and discharge note back into the folder you have prepared. “You seem way too down to enjoy such sunset behind you,”

The moment your eyes landed on the owner of the dulcet voice, you couldn’t help but stare at him. There he was, standing at your doorway with the most gentle smile. Every inch in your body wanted to run up to him and hug him but you knew it was unprofessional for you to do such act. Softly shaking your head from side to side, you flash him a weak smile before gesturing him to take a seat right in front of you.

“What’s up?” He casually asks as he sits right in front of you. His teal eyes never left yours and it took every ounce of energy from you to look away and focus on something else. How can he be so calm in times like this? How can he be like this?

Your fingers start to fidget on the corners of the folder that was tucked in between your hands and you couldn't seem to focus as all you can ever hear was your heart loudly pounding against your chest. However such actions didn't go unnoticed by Sousuke. He knew something was up the moment he saw you staring at the progress notes before he made his presence known. Standing up from his seat, he slowly makes his way towards you before tucking a finger under your chin, lifting it to make you look at him.

There he was again with the most beautiful set of teal eyes that stared right back onto your [e/c] orbs. "What's wrong?" he asks with eyes showing a glint of worry. "It's nothing," you heave out as sigh before breaking the eye contact and returning your gaze to the folder.

"Here," puzzled by your actions, Sousuke takes the folder and carefully opens it. The moment his eyes landed on the discharge note, his breath hitched and before you knew it, he was staring right back at you with such an unreadable expression written all over his face. "What is this?" his voice was nothing compared to how he would usually speak. Now, it had a hint of anger, sadness, and bitterness.

You tried your best to give him the most convincing smile you could ever muster and yet, it seemed like he just saw right through you. "You're good to go back to your dreams," you start as you take his hands in yours, "you've been such a good patient and you've improved, compared to how you started.”

"We have finally met our goals and you can finally go and stand right beside your friends at the world championship," you state in a matter of fact before looking up to meet his gaze. “In the folder, as you’ve already seen, I’ve written up a discharge note. You won’t be needing me anymore since our last session I’ve re-examined you and thankfully, you’re good to go.”

Sousuke couldn’t help but let out a soft ‘why’ before lowering his gaze. He knew this day would come but not that soon. He remembered how much he wanted to improve, however throughout the sessions he’s had with you, he never expected you to pique his interests. You are his physiotherapist. You were one of his childhood friends but he has never seen in you in this light before. Yet, here you are, standing right in front of him with glistening eyes that didn’t match the smile on your lips.

“Why?” you repeat after him before giving his hands a light squeeze before answering, “Well, isn’t this what you’ve always wanted? To be well and back into shape? We’ve achieved our goals, Sou.”

There you are again with that smile of yours.

“Does this mean that I...” his voice trails off before looking right back into your [e/c] eyes. “won’t be seeing you anymore?”

Nodding your head in response, you couldn’t help but free one of your hands to give him a soft pat on the head. “You’ve done such a great job, Sou. I’m really proud of you.” Instead of seeing a smile on his face, all you could ever see was sadness written all over his face. You couldn’t understand why he was reacting this way. Shouldn’t he be happy that he’s finally back on track? That he can finally go and swim with Rin again?

“Aren’t you happy?” you carefully ask Sousuke, who was now letting go of your hand. “I am...” he mutters before turning his heel away from you and starts walking away. “Thank you for everything, [y/n].” He says as he looks back at you with a smile for one last time before leaving you as you watch his retreating back disappear.

-

Ever since that day, you didn’t anything from Sousuke ever again. Days passed and yet, you couldn’t seem to forget the smile he gave you before he left. Heaving an exasperated sigh, you pack up your things and was about to leave your office when your secretary came running up to you with a big grin on his face. “What is it, Kei?” you ask with curious eyes, eyeing the young lad from head to toe.

“Y-you’ve got a client waiting for you.” He almost giggled and you swear you could see how Kei was trying to hold his smile. “Alright, I’ll be there in a sec.” You casually shrug off whatever Kei was trying to hide and locked the doors to your office. You then make your way to the front, only to stop abruptly when you saw Sousuke standing there with his eyes instantly meeting yours.

Seeing how surprised you are, Sousuke heaves out a sigh before he makes his way towards you. Unable to even give him a proper response Sousuke couldn’t help but chuckle at the sight of the woman who used to give him snarky remarks whenever he tried to do anything cheeky with her.

“You still look beautiful,” he says before tucking a strand of hair on the back of your ear and it was enough to have your cheeks heat up - a tint of pink dusted on top of them. “W-what are you blabbering about?” you stutter before swatting his hand away, causing him to burst out into a hearty laugh. “Anyway, what are you doing here?”

Sousuke looks at you before he lets out the words you’ve never expect from him. “Be my personal physiotherapist, [y/n],”

“What?” you couldn’t help but gawk at him as you tried to process the words that left his mouth. “Be my personal physiotherapist. Work for me... only for me.” his voice seemed to trail off at the end however you were able to hear them loud and clear.

“Only for you?”

Sousuke knew there was no way for him to beat around the bush - especially when you were staring at him with those eyes he loved so much. He takes a step forward, closing in the gap between the two of you.

“I know how selfish it may sound to you but ever since the day you’ve given me the discharge note, all I could ever think was to never let you go.” he pauses for a bit as he tries to collect the right words, “I’ve already started my training and yet, I can’t seem to just let you go. I want you to be there in every journey I take, [y/n].”

You couldn’t understand why this was happening and yet, you also couldn’t seem to look away from his gaze. Every single word that left his mouth felt so right - as if it were words you’ve always wanted to hear from him.

“I know I’m not making any sense right now but I can’t help but endlessly daydream of that day where you’d be by my side. Throughout our time together, all I ever felt was genuine happiness and I’ve found love in you. Every single day, little by little, I was falling for you and just the thought of not being able to do anything about it haunted me. I genuinely love you, [y/n], and I am not just saying this because I want you to be my physiotherapist again but...”

“Do you want me to be your physiotherapist or your lover?” you ask, trying to put one plus one together. “Can it be both?” he asks with eyes pleading for you to say yes.

Trying to rack up every single brain cell there is, you couldn’t help but stare at him. You didn’t know how to respond but for one, you already knew how you felt for him. How you’ve fallen for him as days passed you had with him. You already knew how you’ve fallen for him with the broken wings countless times.

“I would love to be both, Sou, but,” your voice trails off as you look down on both of your hands, “I can’t leave my job. I can’t leave my other patients behind.”

It wasn’t fair for your patients if you’d just leave them without giving them another chance to live their lives - to bring back what they’ve once lost. “This doesn’t mean I’m rejecting you, Sou. I really would love to be your lover and your physiotherapist but I just can’t leave my patients behind.”

“Wait... you’d like to be my lover?” he carefully asks as he watches you nod in response, causing him to smile. “I guess we can try and work something out with the physiotherapist part since I’m willing to take care of you until you reach world championship,” you added before you were pulled into a tight hug.

Chuckling at Sousuke’s reaction, you couldn’t help but hug back. “You’d really be my girlfriend, [y/n]?” he asks once more as he pulls away from the hug. You roll your eyes before flashing him one big grin. “Yes, Sou. I’d be your girlfriend.” You reach up to his cheeks and softly pinched them, causing him to look at you with wide eyes. Letting out a laugh, Sousuke heaves out a sigh. You really did radiantly shine whenever you were with him and that was all it took for his heart to melt at the sight of you smiling brightly at him.

Before you know it, a soft pair of lips planted a chaste kiss on your lips which made you into a blushing mess. “H-hey!” you were caught off guard by the laughing Sousuke. “You’re really cute.” he carelessly says before pulling you by the hand, “Let’s go and grab some dinner.”

“What the heck, Sou?!” all of your protests and rants just passed through his other ear as he gives Kei a nod before dragging you out of the clinic. “Gosh, Sou, you didn’t have to-”

“I love you, [y/n],” he says as he looks over his shoulder to meet your eyes. Scoffing at him, you heave out a sigh before looking away with a point which made Sousuke smile at you.

“I love you too, Sou.”

[kenzokuki]

Yes, Serendipity! Part 1

Because of the lack of a better title, I’ll just call it Yes, Serendipity!

So it has been over a week since I was in Japan for Cinderella Girls 5th LIVE TOUR Serendipity Parade!!! and up until the moment of writing this, I am still gathering my thoughts about the whole experience. Honestly, somehow it still feels very surreal to me and I still can’t believe I was there, on such a big venue to watch the Cinderella Girls perform live.

I will (probably) have too much to say and I want to write out properly instead of spamming my twitter with all the ramblings, so I thought that I should just write it out on one big post in my dead tumblr blog. I also thought that it’d be a pretty funny memory to look back to one day. A fair warning that this post is long, rambly, and likely full of grammatical mistakes so I apologize to whoever reads it in advance.

Before anything else, I want to start with an introduction about myself. Since I gained a few followers this month, I feel like this is a good time to know me a little bit better, how I became a Producer and ended up in CG5th, etc. I go by the name “chun” on the internet, and that’s the only name I’ve used ever since aside from my real name. I started following anime religiously back in 2012 when I started this anime blog though my interest at the time was nowhere near idols, if some of my old tumblr friends read this then they know what I was into back then. I did have a bit of interest in seiyuu back then though I didn’t follow them as seriously, seiyuu like Kondou Takashi, Sawashiro Miyuki, and Tsuda Kenjirou to name a few but my interest have now shifted to more female seiyuus like Sumipe, Matsueri, and Shimayuki. Contrary to what most people think, I haven’t been a Producer for a long time like most of the Ps that I have encountered, I’ve only been a fan for a little over a year and a half though I’ve been aware of iDOLM@STER ever since my young anime days but didn’t care about idols at all.

To be honest, like most “how I got into x series/franchise” stories go, I also never really saw myself getting into iDOLM@STER or any idol stuff in general until I got into Love Live. And yes, I was a huge Love Liver way before I became a Producer, just to get that out there. I’m going to skip the whole Love Liver part, but basically I finally took notice of iDOLM@STER in 2015 though I still couldn’t get into it back then because I was a filthy Love Liver (see this tweet). I even tried Deresute when it released but I was too deep into SIF that time so I just shrugged it off since I had my hands full with different mobage. It wasn’t until my friend convinced me to play Deresute again cause an Anya event was coming which is what got me to play Deresute continuously up until now. I’ll talk about how I became an AnyaP in a separate post when her birthday comes around, but basically he knew I liked Anya despite not being into CG at the time. So I picked up the game again and eventually it led to my fall to Deresute then ultimately to CG, this was also around Final Live so I guess it somehow came off as me being “traitor” to the other series, but thinking about it now I don’t really regret it.

I did try to actively support both series but I knew it was impossible for me to like both equally, eventually I would have lesser time for one series while I dedicate all my time to the other. Since I got interested into CG by the time µ’s was ending, it was also around the time when they started pushing so much Aqours stuff, I had to pick between getting into Aqours or diving deeper into CG. Naturally, it was an easy decision for me (nothing against Aqours, they are good but I couldn’t bring myself to like them fully as much as I did with µ’s). I guess you can say everything fell into place at the right time? It’s kind of silly actually, one of the main reasons I’m so deep into CG right now is all thanks to Love Live. Now that I think about it, I would often get into friendly arguments with the same friend who got me interested into CG about the usual LL vs. iM@S debate and it’s funny how I moved over to the other side now and he became an Aqours fan instead, how the tables have turned as they say. This is just one of the silly reasons why I got into CG though, one of the main hook that got me was the anime which then eventually got me interested in all the idols (and seiyuu).

I know a lot of people dislike DereAni because of the emotional baggage and unnecessary drama it brings, but I personally really loved it and up until now I still rewatch it and get the same feelings like when I watched it for the first time. Through the anime, I feel like I got to see another part of the idols’ lives, personalities, and feelings that I didn’t get to see in the games or any other media. Because of the anime, I feel like I got a bit closer to Anya and I got to know her more since there is barely translated content for the CG games and it’s not only Anya, the same applies for all the other idols too.

I eventually found myself replacing my entire playlist full of Love Live! songs to all Cinderella Girls. I still remember the first song that got me hooked on their music was Rin’s version of S(mile)ING!, I couldn’t stop looping it for a couple of weeks until I found another song to listen to which was Yuubae Present (still remains to be one of my favorite songs until now). Shortly after that I got into more of the anime songs and the rest was history.

Which leads me to getting to know the seiyuu of Cinderella Girls, I genuinely want to get to know them better through whatever content is out there. Since I’m considerably a new fan, there is so much content to catch up on and I feel like I’ll never get tired about getting to know all of their unique and colorful personalities. I know it’s not humanly possible for me to actively support them all, but I still try what I can to appreciate the things they do (be it solo work or for CG) and do little things like watching anime they’re in or simply sending tweets of support to them. At the very least, I know a little bit of basic stuff about all the CGs from names/nicknames, the characters they voice, etc. so that’s something.

And now I’ve covered most stuff about myself and how I became a P, I’ll now talk about what really made me want to go to CG5th. To be honest, it was a far-fetched dream that I never knew would become a reality. My CG5th plans were already in the works as early as November 2016, nothing was announced back then but my desire to go to a CG live was so strong at the time that I didn’t care about the circumstances and just “yolo’d” it. I’ve read all of the writeups, tweets from the kaigai Ps who went to CG4th, I’ve seen the drawings from some Japanese Ps, and the seiyuu pictures and tweets from 4th which all the more fueled my desire to go. Before anything else was announced, I talked with Oxide about which places and dates that we could most likely go to and I told him that Osaka or Tokyo around July was the best possible scenario for me so I was planning somewhere around that. Fast forward to January 2017 (or was it February) when they announced the locations, dates, and performers for the first 3 stops which ruined all the planning that I had in mind. There was no ideal scenario for me, Anya was in the Sendai stop and it was happening as early as the 2nd week of May which I 100% couldn’t go to due to it being thesis period. The next one was the Ishikawa stop which had a lot of personal favorites in it but I wasn’t sure if it was something that I REALLY wanted to fly for so I decided to wait it out, the same goes for the Osaka stop. By the way, I was only limited to go to 1 stop of the whole tour so I really had to choose wisely on which stop did I want to fly for.

Ultimately, I wanted to have the best CG live experience so I decided to go in blindly for the SSA stop. I knew I couldn’t do this half-heartedly, that’s why as early as February (only the dates for SSA was announced this time), I already booked my flights in order to fully commit myself to it. It was a moment of no turning back, I figured that no matter what kind of crazy cast they put out, I would still like it. Honestly didn’t expect the cast to be so crazy that it had over 60 performers for a 2-day live, so even though there was no ideal scenario for me, I feel like this god-tier cast was enough to compensate for that. I could talk more about my “road to SSA” experience, but this post has already gotten crazy long so I will cut it off here.

To conclude this post, I hope that whoever is reading this got to know me a little bit better and how I ended up to where I am now. The next post, I will talk more about the “road to SSA”, CG5th buppan, and up until Day 1 of SSA maybe.

[aibrechts]

What are your top ten fave fics (or fic authors, since maybe all your fave fics are already on that poker pair list 😂)

oooooooo thats hard lmfao yeah ur right all my fav dgm fics are on that list lololol damn ten is a big number let’s see if i can do this esdrfg i’m gonna kinda chop and mix between the authors of my favourite fics and the best fics from my favourite authors, but i cant keep it to one fandom sorry lololol anD also i cant really ???? put them in a specific order???? lmao i love all the authors for their various styles and stories, but let’s see how i go ahahaha

1. Methoxyethane!! my bias!!!! she’s written the best porn i’ve ever read, ever and i can’t even say specifically which fic it was because, like. It’s tied between at least three lmfao. But!! if you’d like to read something from her id def recommend A Fish and A Bird as a place to start (or if you wanna go straight to the hard stuff, Hot like Magenta is… really fucking good. Like. really fucking good). (Voltron, Keith/Lance)

2. Hurryup because im STILL CRYING BECAUSE OF SHUTDOWN IT’S NEVER GONNA END OKAY I !!! LOVE !!!! THIS !!! FIC !!!!! (D Gray Man, Tyki/Allen)

3. surveycorpsjean im not going to lie and say ive read much, or even more than one thing, but Fresh Air (Mystic Messenger, 707/MC) changed my life okay it really did lmfao

4. gyzym from back in my Inception days - honestly it’s still a fact that Inception has the most consistently incredible fics as i’ve ever freaking seen in any fandom, ever. Like, i could probably fill this entire list with authors and fics that have changed my life and made me fall in love in so many ways, over and over, but if you want to read the best coffee shop AU in existence then look no further because it is I’ve Got Nothing To Do Today But Smile (Inception, Arthur/Eames)

5. rageprufrock because gyzym reminded me of Inception and i can’t NOT say Presque Vu because while Nothing to Do is the best AU in existence, this is such a perfectly canon fic that i literally just. it’s canon. it is. Everything about it is perfect and flawless and fuCk im. If you’re ever thinking of a reference to an inception fic and cant remember which, it’s probably Presque Vu. (Inception, Arthur/Eames)

6. tothemoon for literally everything. im not kidding, i mean it. everything. Every single fic i read was beautiful to a degree i cant even explain. It’s poetic, it’s profound, it’s deeply meaningful and just. Beautiful. I recommend On Lightning, On Luster or 35mm depending i guess on ur ship preference but like ??? it lit doesn’t even matter what u choose everything in their archive is perfect. (Haikyuu, Iwaizumi/Oikawa, Bokuto/Akaashi)

7. literally myself because i can’t keep choosing inception authors cause that’s not fair lol and if i didn’t love my own writing i wouldnt have this massive ego and also would probably be dead lmfao and of COURSE im going to say make it out alive because its my CHILD, okay, its my BABY. (D Gray Man, Tyki/Allen)

8. Scientia_Fantasia because [Fire Emoji x3] is wonderful. It beautifully tackles some really hard subjects and has amazing and perfectly represented trans and autistic characters, not to mention an age gap relationship which isn’t just shrugged aside as nothing big, but actually plays a large part in the development of the characters AND their relationship. (Kingdom Hearts, Axel/Roxas)

9. clandestine7 i really cant go past because Long Distance is, to this day, one of my favourite fics in the entire Free! fandom, it’s just. i don’t even know if it’s finished and it’s been two years since i touched free and this fic has stayed with me that entire time. Its just… fucking flawless. It’s beautiful. It’s wonderful. (Free!, Rin/Haru)

10. I wanted to choose something big for 10, and i was kinda stumped for a while cause I thought i’d already said all the authors i have a deep emotional attachment to lol. But looking at Long Distance again after so long pretty much opened my mind to all these memories of the Free fandom and how beautiful it could be. And i think, in that, the most beautiful fic i read not only in this fandom but in any - Phosphorite is to Free what tothemoon is for Haikyuu. A fucking poet who can bring you to tears not only from the emotion in their stories but the way they write it. Wind Waves was a large part of my life for a long time - i think it’s written in my heart, and I don’t know how I forgot it, but here it is. Something big. (Free!, Rin/Haru)

[hyourinmarus]

Yes, Serendipity! Part 1

Because of the lack of a better title, I’ll just call it Yes, Serendipity!

So it has been over a week since I was in Japan for Cinderella Girls 5th LIVE TOUR Serendipity Parade!!! and up until the moment of writing this, I am still gathering my thoughts about the whole experience. Honestly, somehow it still feels very surreal to me and I still can’t believe I was there, on such a big venue to watch the Cinderella Girls perform live.

I will (probably) have too much to say and I want to write out properly instead of spamming my twitter with all the ramblings, so I thought that I should just write it out on one big post in my dead tumblr blog. I also thought that it’d be a pretty funny memory to look back to one day. A fair warning that this post is long, rambly and likely full of grammatical mistakes so I apologize to whoever reads it in advance.

Before anything else, I want to start with an introduction about myself. Since I gained a few followers this month, I feel like this is a good time to know me a little bit better, how I became a Producer and ended up in CG5th, etc. I go by the name “chun” on the internet, and that’s the only name I’ve used ever since aside from my real name. I started following anime religiously back in 2012 when I started this anime blog though my interest at the time was nowhere near idols, if some of my old tumblr friends read this then they know what I was into back then. I did have a bit of interest in seiyuu back then though I didn’t follow them as seriously, seiyuu like Kondou Takashi, Sawashiro Miyuki, and Tsuda Kenjirou to name a few but my interest have now shifted to more female seiyuus like Sumipe, Matsueri, and Shimayuki. Contrary to what most people think, I haven’t been a Producer for a long time like most of the Ps that I have encountered, I’ve only been a fan for a little over a year and a half though I’ve been aware of iDOLM@STER ever since my young anime days but didn’t care about idols at all.

To be honest, like most “how I got into x series/franchise” stories go, I also never really saw myself getting into iDOLM@STER or any idol stuff in general until I got into Love Live. And yes, I was a huge Love Liver way before I became a Producer, just to get that out there. I’m going to skip the whole Love Liver part, but basically I finally took notice of iDOLM@STER in 2015 though I still couldn’t get into it back then because I was a filthy Love Liver (see this tweet). I even tried Deresute when it released but I was too deep into SIF that time so I just shrugged it off since I had my hands full with different mobage. It wasn’t until my friend convinced me to play Deresute again cause an Anya event was coming which is what got me to play Deresute continuously up until now. I’ll talk about how I became an AnyaP in a separate post when her birthday comes around, but basically he knew I liked Anya despite not being into CG at the time. So I picked up the game again and eventually it led to my fall to Deresute then ultimately to CG, this was also around Final Live so I guess it somehow came off as me being “traitor” to the other series, but thinking about it now I don’t really regret it.

I did try to actively support both series but I knew it was impossible for me to like both equally, eventually I would have lesser time for one series while I dedicate all my time to the other. Since I got interested into CG by the time µ’s was ending, it was also around the time when they started pushing so much Aqours stuff, I had to pick between getting into Aqours or diving deeper into CG. Naturally, it was an easy decision for me (nothing against Aqours, they are good but I couldn’t bring myself to like them fully as much as I did with µ’s). I guess you can say everything fell into place at the right time? It’s kind of silly actually, one of the main reasons I’m so deep into CG right now is all thanks to Love Live. Now that I think about it, I would often get into friendly arguments with the same friend who got me interested into CG about the usual LL vs. iM@S debate and it’s funny how I moved over to the other side now and he became an Aqours fan instead, how the tables have turned as they say. This is just one of the silly reasons why I got into CG though, one of the main hook that got me was the anime which then eventually got me interested in all the idols (and seiyuu).

I know a lot of people dislike DereAni because of the emotional baggage and unnecessary drama it brings, but I personally really loved it and up until now I still rewatch it and get the same feelings like when I watched it for the first time. Through the anime, I feel like I got to see another part of the idols’ lives, personalities, and feelings that I didn’t get to see in the games or any other media. Because of the anime, I feel like I got a bit closer to Anya and I got to know her more since there is barely translated content for the CG games and it’s not only Anya, the same applies for all the other idols too.

I eventually found myself replacing my entire playlist full of Love Live! songs to all Cinderella Girls. I still remember the first song that got me hooked on their music was Rin’s version of S(mile)ING!, I couldn’t stop looping it for a couple of weeks until I found another song to listen to which was Yuubae Present (still remains to be one of my favorite songs until now). Shortly after that I got into more of the anime songs and the rest was history.

Which leads me to getting to know the seiyuu of Cinderella Girls, I genuinely want to get to know them better through whatever content is out there. Since I’m considerably a new fan, there is so much content to catch up on and I feel like I’ll never get tired about getting to know all of their unique and colorful personalities. I know it’s not humanly possible for me to actively support them all, but I still try what I can to appreciate the things they do (be it solo work or for CG) and do little things like watching anime they’re in or simply sending tweets of support to them. At the very least, I know a little bit of basic stuff about all the CGs from names/nicknames, the characters they voice, etc. so that’s something.

And now I’ve covered most stuff about myself and how I became a P, I’ll now talk about what really made me want to go to CG5th. To be honest, it was a far-fetched dream that I never knew would become a reality. My CG5th plans were already in the works as early as November 2016, nothing was announced back then but my desire to go to a CG live was so strong at the time that I didn’t care about the circumstances and just “yolo’d” it. I’ve read all of the writeups, tweets from the kaigai Ps who went to CG4th, I’ve seen the drawings from some Japanese Ps, and the seiyuu pictures and tweets from 4th which all the more fueled my desire to go. Before anything else was announced, I talked with Oxide about which places and dates that we could most likely go to and I told him that Osaka or Tokyo around July was the best possible scenario for me so I was planning somewhere around that. Fast forward to January 2017 (or was it February) when they announced the locations, dates, and performers for the first 3 stops which ruined all the planning that I had in mind. There was no ideal scenario for me, Anya was in the Sendai stop and it was happening as early as the 2nd week of May which I 100% couldn’t go to due to it being thesis period. The next one was the Ishikawa stop which had a lot of personal favorites in it but I wasn’t sure if it was something that I REALLY wanted to fly for so I decided to wait it out, the same goes for the Osaka stop. By the way, I was only limited to go to 1 stop of the whole tour so I really had to choose wisely on which stop did I want to fly for.

Ultimately, I wanted to have the best CG live experience so I decided to go in blindly for the SSA stop. I knew I couldn’t do this half-heartedly, that’s why as early as February (only the dates for SSA was announced this time), I already booked my flights in order to fully commit myself to it. It was a moment of no turning back, I figured that no matter what kind of crazy cast they put out, I would still like it. Honestly didn’t expect the cast to be so crazy that it had over 60 performers for a 2-day live, so even though there was no ideal scenario for me, I feel like this god-tier cast was enough to compensate for that. I could talk more about my “road to SSA” experience, but this post has already gotten crazy long so I will cut it off here.

To conclude this post, I hope that whoever is reading this got to know me a little bit better and how I ended up to where I am now. The next post, I will talk more about the “road to SSA”, CG5th buppan, and up until Day 1 of SSA maybe.