#like yes babe. come lay in bed with me proped up by pillows while I try and write this paper

[mement0--m0ri]

So, after calling my insurance company three times over two days, I finally got some answers.

It looks like at this point they are happier enough with my verbal update that I will still receive payments for the next three months. But!.. BUT.. I have to get an updated assessment report from EVERY member of my medical treatment team by the end of July 😅😅 did some quick math and Im looking at $1,400 (minimum 🫠) to get these reports done.

They also want to use my uni placement as a "suitable to return to the full-time work force" test. So basically, if I want to pass this placement I need to work well 4 times a week, but if I'm able to do that Im also expected to return to the workforce. Which I know is 100% fair, but what makes me annoyed is there is a pretty high chance this isnt going to go well. I had class (online, for 2 hrs) this morning. After sitting at a fully ergo, set up for my physical disabilities study area, I had to take the call from the insurance company laying in bed because I literally felt ill from sitting upright. I have hEDS and other conditions that cause chronic pain and sublaxations/dislocations. If I sit longer than about an hour my hips literally slip out of place and it causes pain to shot down my legs and up my spine.

Anyway, long story short (or not?) I'm still angry about the situation. I know there are people out there who con their way into disability payments or try to stay on them past when they need to. But I dont understand why suddenly out of nowhere they have decided I'm no longer trustworthy? There is only two things I can think of that would have changed their mind.

That being the last update, I explained that my pain specialist basically fired me as a client. Not because I wasn't going or anything, but because she told me there was nothing else she could do for me and basically that I was wasting money by seeing her. And my exercise physiologist mentioned that I don't need to use my wheelchair or cane anymore. Well, okay, he said I dont use them, not that I don't need them. Tbh, I really could have used one of them yesterday while grocery shopping with my mum, but Im stubborn and at a certain point you get sick of strangers asking questions when you are young and "dont look disabled".

Anyway, a little stressed out about the next three months but feeling slightly better about the situation.

I got an email today that I might be losing my disability payments. I actually missed a call because I was sleeping because the funny thing about chronic pain is that it is normally easier to sleep through oain rather than deal with it.

So I got sone bullshit email about my doctor not playing ball and apparently now they will be requesting updated medicals from all my treatment team to decide whether I am still "disbaled enough" to receive monthly payments.

Srsly this is the worst timing. I start placement in mid July for uni. Its going to be 4 days a week for 16-18 weeks, fully unpaid. And now I might be needing to find a job around that? I mean it has also taking 2 months to find a company that would take me on for placement because if my disabilities. And now I might have to find a part-time job 3 days a week, so work 7 days a week, 4 for free, to try and be able to afford rent.

I'm seriously fucked if I lose my income protection.