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saw a video of a little girl waiting for a butterfly to land on her in a butterfly garden and her parents (?) who posted it said none ever did like it was a silly little video of her learning some lesson (????) and it made me so annoyed if i saw a sweet little girl not able to attract the attention of a butterfly bc she seemed a bit young to understand how to get their attention w/o just standing still i would go over to her so fast and hand her a butterfly. like did u really take ur kid there and not help her attract a butterfly to land on her? fucking asshole parents my god she looks so sad help her get a butterfly to carry around as a friend right now before i maim you thru the screen
#i do this actually#like whenever i go to these places#i always hand off my butterflies to children#bc it makes them light up#so evil not to do that for ur own child 😔#ngl that really upset me lmao#like maybe they did help her after posting that video of her efforts to do it by herself#but shes obviously too young she needs some help learning#i hope they helped her :/
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I am loudly pushing the batdad agenda i am loudly pushing the— DPxDC Prompt
“Woah. You look like shit."
Granted, that’s probably not the first thing Danny should be saying to the guy that just bit the curb, but in his defense; he’s not running on 100% right now either.
The man -- tall, towering, and broader than Danny is tall -- whips around on his heel, black frayed cape flaring out impressively. Danny would've whistled in appreciation, but he takes the time instead to wipe the back of his hand across his mouth, smearing the blood running from his nose across his cheek.
"Sorry." He blinks widely, not even flinching as the man with the horns zeroes in on him. "That was rude of me. I have a really bad brain-to-mouth filter; Sam says its what always gets me into trouble."
And she's not wrong either, per say. His smart mouth is what landed him in this situation -- with blood blossom extract running through his veins and cannibalizing the ectoplasm in his bloodstream. Thanks Vlad.
The man grunts at him; a short, curt "hm" that shouldn't make Danny smile, but he does because he's somewhat delirious and probably concussed. The man keeps some kind of distance, sinking towards the shadows of Gotham's alleyway like he dares to melt right into it.
If it's supposed to scare Danny, it doesn't work. Danny's never been afraid of the dark; he's always been able to hide himself in it. He blinks slowly at the mass of shadows.
"You look hurt." The shadows says, blurring together around the edges. Danny squints, and licks his lips to get the blood dripping down his chin off. Ugh, he hates the taste of blood.
"I am." He says, "My godfather poisoned me. M'dying." The agony of the blood blossom eating him from the inside out looped back around to numbing a while ago, so all he feels is half-awake and dazed.
"Hey," Danny stumbles forward towards the man, a bloodied hand reaching out to him. "You-- you're a hero, right? You're not attacking me; which is more than I can say for most costumed people I've met." Maybe it's a poor bar to judge someone at, but he's already established that Danny's not in his right mind.
The man makes no change in expression, but Danny realizes blearily that it's hard to tell with the shadows on his face. He stays still long enough for Danny to latch onto the cape -- stretchy, but almost soft under his fingers.
He looks up blearily into the whites of the man's eyes. "Can you help me? I don't-- I don't wanna die." Again. He doesn't wanna die again. He blinks slow and lizard-like. "I mean- I'll probably get to see mom and dad again, but I told them I'd at least try and make it to adulthood."
There's a clatter down the street, and Danny's ghost sense chills up his spine and leaves a bitter, ashy taste in his mouth. He immediately knows who it belongs to even before the deceptively gentle; "Daniel?" echoes down the way.
"Daniel? Quit your games, badger, Gotham is dangerous for children."
Danny's mouth pulls back, and blood spills against his tongue. "Please." He rasps, and grabs onto the shadow's cape with both hands. "Please. He's going to kill me. Please--"
"Daniel? Is that you?"
His lips part, dragging in air to plead with the darkness again. He doesn't need to, the whites of his eyes narrow, and the cape whirls around him before Danny can blink. Soon swaddled in shadows, the Night lifts him up, and steals him away.
#I AM LOUDLY PUSHING THE BATDAD AGENDA#anyways— add ons are encouraged i wanna talk more dpxdc with folks i just cant find any aus i really like enough to engage with#which is nobody's fault and its why im making my own content in order to reach more people#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpdc#dc x dp#dpxdc prompts#i took a ‘which batfam member are you (except its personal)’ quiz a few days ago#and got bruce wayne. and then was promptly read to filth why im most like him and it rudely but accurately explained why im the most like#him. it also consequently explained to me why i like him so much. whenever i see him in his kindest form i see a mirror looking back#anyways lots of ‘danny rejecting bruce as a parent’ aus. may i present: bruce and danny finding family in each other aus. batdad aus pls.#dpxdc prompt#dcxdp#this prompt can take place at any point of Batkid accumulation but personally i was imagining this as before Bruce has any of his kids yet#eldest brother danny supremacy and also just that one on one bonding#danny being someone who was never afraid of the dark as a kid and even less so as he got older. taking solace in it as a ghost because you#cant hide in the dark when you glow. his enemies can't jump out at him. but he can jump out at them. how can he be afraid of the dark when#the dark is where the stars like to live? there's a comfort in the shadows. there might be something hiding in it. but he's hiding in it to#blood blossoms eat ghosts headcanon#wasn't sure where i was gonna go with this at the beginning and then i caught steam.#batman casually kidnaps an orphan upon kid's request. also the kid was Actively Dying Of Poison. What was he gonna do?? NOT help him?#mister 'keeps candy in his utility belt specifically for scared children'??? no way.
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One of the best things about Disco Elysium by far is that it does not fear ugly women. The world is full of ugly men, but ugly women are so hard to come by.
#I'm not calling the characters ugly btw#i don't believe any one can be ugly#i do not care for beauty standards and thus i don't rank people based on how “ugly” or “pretty” they are#but the characters in DE do not meet the conventional beauty standards and look like actual people with unique faces#and thus would be considered “ugly”#and that is so important to me. i go feral whenever media represents how people look like in real life and not how they look like in the#fictional parallel universe where everyone is a model and where a majority of the movies take place#because irl you don't have to be a model to be desirable#the most attractive man in any video game I've ever played has a receding hairline and a big nose and thick glasses and a small chin#and not only is representing realistic people. just good. in general. but it makes the character of Dolores Dei stand out so much more which#works for the game so well. she's barely human. she's a deity- a myth- a legend. the only version that exists of her now is the one with#glowing lungs. she's perfectly beautiful because she's inhuman. the fact that everybody else looks so human only highlights how inhuman she#has become yk?#if everyone was as conventionally attractive as her then she wouldn't stand out. we wouldn't get why she's so special.#disco elysium#disco elysium analysis#media analysis#beauty standards#this is only one aspect of how this game portrays real people btw. as someone interested in character design this just immediately stood out#to me#the first time i noticed it was when i first met garte and the second time was when i met ruby because neither are conventionally desirable#oh my fucking god the nerds who complain about a woman with a model face having body hair in a video game would perish if they played this#mainstream game/movie studios catering to western masses could never
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defining a "comfort album" as whatever feels right to you :)
#this poll is brought to you by the migraine i just had#because in january 2021 i became unwell for several months and evermore was always my go to#whenever i could do nothing but lie there and feel awful#so today when i went to lie down it was just automatic to be like at least i have evermore to listen to :)#so even though it's quite a sad album it's a comfort in the sense of being what i reach for when i feel bad#the other option would be lover as my sort of happy place album#i'm curious whether this will skew more towards the earlier albums than favourite album polls because of the nostalgia factor#or i could see folklore winning for the comfort during the pandemic factor#polls#taylor swift
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Me sobbing every day because I remember that Gravity Falls isn’t real even though Dipper told me it was and that I should visit it
#genuinely actually get very upset whenever I think about this btw#like I have teared up over it#I JUST WANNA GO THERE#NOT EVEN TO SUMMON DEMONS#JUST LIKE CAMP#GO TO THAT PANCAKE PLACE#FISHING#gravity falls#book of bill#dipper pines#mabel pines#grunkle stan#grunkle ford#bill cipher#billford#soos ramirez
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what if we kissed during our climactic fight to the death at the end of the movie (and we were both boys (and also ghostface)) 😳👉👈
#genshin impact#childe#tartaglia#scaramouche#wanderer#chiscara#scarachilde#halloween#i have watched scream twice this month and then i also watched the 2022 one on accident lol#not a big slasher fan bc i dont find them rlly scary but scream has a warm place in my heart lol#i remember being obsessed w the ghostface mask that u could like pump blood out of or smth whenever i’d go to haloween stores as a kid#my art
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The oil under Impala mystery 🔍✨
(Inspired by the lady with expert wife tips from tiktok)
#destiel fanart#dean winchester#castiel#destiel#my art#sasanka27 art#here you go!#sorry it took forever#i hope you like it#thank you again for helping to vote#and to suggest it in the first place#anon whenever u are ily#spn fanart#spn#spn comic#kinda#spn memes#deancas#inspired by that expert wife tips lady from tt#spn crack#art poll winner#s27comics
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Living off the land
#street fighter#my art#akuma#gouki#stayed up way to late working on this but ughhg i love him#comfort character go brrr#i am gonna ramble a bit but#the way akuma lives i find so genuinely admirable#being totally self sufficient and hard working?#like gosh that’s amazing#his way of living feels so soothing to me#like whenever we see him outside of combat he’s always chilling in such beautiful places#i mean look at all his stages in the games#gorgeous#idk i see him and i feel warm and fuzzy
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niche content but tier list of ghouls as clinicians (any patient-facing healthcare role)
sorry yuri but you'd fail viva
#tokyo debunker#lin yapping#honestly subaru would get bullied by patient families if he were in a big hospital#pls put him in priv or a small nursing home#jiro would thrive in acute honestly u go jiro#zenji would be SO FUN in an eipic setting im begging for a zenji#haru is the community paeds slp who never goes home on time / stays until 8pm prepping session plans#honestly luca would also be great with adults but also i feel like . parents would trust him#maybe as an audiologist??? or an ot tbh#im 20% sure sho's hair doesn't pass hospital regulations but he'd be great w rehab patients... maybe as a pt??#edit: nat said sho would be a resident and i SEE it#haku as a locum ot who happens to locum at the same places rui does (rui by default is an slp...)#lyca is on his way there but he needs a bit more cleaning up before he can pass viva!!!! maybe as an rt!!!#also towa would eat the flowers ur family brought for u#btw tohma is ok only bc he's head of department and doesn't directly deal with patients anymore#if he does it's vvvvvvip patients who request him by name or like . rly rare aphasia cases#he probs lectures part-time#doing this to put off intervention plans hurkghgkjgkhd#alas!#born to hotarubi forced to mortkranken#i should use this tag whenever i procrastinate huh#alan is a pt btw if it wasnt obvious#ed part times at dementia day cares for fun bc he 1) would not last the whole day 2) is not allowed near surgery patients
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#“is he under water or in space?”#well wouldn't YOU like to know weatherboy#<< sorry that vine has been in my head all day and y'all are my outlet#so my goal for the year was to get more confident with colors#i think i'm getting there#this *does* have a tone curve on it but i didn't adjust much so i'm considering that a win#just wanted to bring back some of the teal tones i lost while rendering#closing requests sometime tonight btw!#i'll do it whenever i go to bed#so that could mean in one hour or in five (because what's a sleep schedule)#ralsei#deltarune#ralsei in places that don't exist in actual deltarune#update; let's all pretend that i didn't forget to draw his horns
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Since Time and Time Again is coming back soon, wanted to invite people to the discord server again!
I share updates, wips, answer questions, stream, and chat in there! Come hang out if you want
The comic should be back in just under two weeks!
#whenever i share the discord link I'm always worried bots or trolls will instantly join#but it is what it is#server hasn't been super active on account of the hiatus#but were coming back soon and it's a great place to hang out and discuss!#not a place just to reach me it is intended as a fan space but I'm also there and hang out#discord#just feels like a good time for this. also soon will be a good time to make a wwl prelaunch page so people can sub if interested#so they can be there when it launches#ok back to sleep#and then back to work#oh also I still do not have confirmation and i don't think I'm going to get it#so we will see ON that day if it's actually back. lmao.
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You're my World
Doesn't matter where we are as long as we're together.
New Pride Flags Makeup (AXL Edition) by @pinkyjulien 💛
#cyberpunk 2077#kerry eurodyne#kerry eurodyne x v#male v cyberpunk#masc v#vincent ezaki#cp2077#Cyberpunk2077#cyberpunk vp#cp2077 vp#cyberpunk photomode#virtual photography#my vp#otp: to bad decisions#;_____;#so happy about this updated mod and that I can slap these on them now whenever I want and also in combination aaaahhhh#like I said last year with my pride pics - I don't think that kerry doesn't really give a shit about labels xD#the medias are gonna say what they're gonna say anyway and create drama out of nothing#and he is comfortable in his own skin and doesn't see a need to label himself in whatever way#so he isn't all that into going to pride anymore (even if that was probably very different when he was younger)#vince though who couldn't be himself for a too long time goes every year and loves to celebrate it with others#even if he tends to be a bit more private about personal information otherwise - so this is a great opportunity#to be himself openly and fully - because he is confident and comfy and anything but ashamed and wants to make sure people keep that in mind#and then of course kerry come's along to support him and maybe is even down to dress up a little bit#or will allow Vince to put some rainbow makeup on him at least - and in a way it's very cute and reminding him of when he was his age#and yeh uwu just sharing experiences and going places together and celebrating their love and all#cyberpride2024
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i think i've read somewhere that intelligent people are freakier...in bed...... (this might be right or/and wrong. i don't think i've ever come across a scientific study of this particular claim. therefore, please take this with heaping spoonfuls of salt.)
......but i kept thinking of jiang tian and sheng wang in the novel and wow. i think it's somewhat true.
#i'm going through their story again and Lord...#the amount of want and urge and desire and passion they have for each other is just so overpowering#they just naturally gravitate towards each other and i find it quite... cute?#but i can't help but scream whenever they get a //bit// freaky#if season 2 ever happens... i would like to see some of these scenes coming to life#i think it would be fun to see jiang tian being a bit out of place and sheng wang being the reason behind it#especially things that happen before and during the cultural (?) festival#the instrument room scene!!!!!!!!! i need to see that for scientific reasons!!!!!!!#i think benjamin and dong qin will rock that quiet intimacy to the roof#SEASON 2 PLEASE COME WE NEED YOU 😭😭😭#tianwang#the on1y one#**spoilers#**novel spoilers#na rambles
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im acutally going crazy over any time crowely's voice goes soft. specifically the "it burned down... remember?"
he doesnt want to say it again. not only because of the shiny new trauma he has with the memory, but because he doesnt want to remind aziraphale that its gone. he doesnt want to watch aziraphale's face to fall as he remembers the bookshop—his shop, his home for over two centuries—is gone. its burned down; the building, his chairs, his books, his memories, all of it.
but he has to. so he says it gently. it cant take away the pain, but he can lessen the blow, if a fractional amount at least. he reminds him softly, but doesnt give aziraphale time to spiral.
"you can stay at my place? if you like?"
he says it just as gently, just as soft. its an offer he's never given, a line theyd never crossed before. its new and its scary, but hey, it was almost the end of the world and they might die tomororw. what did they have to lose?
so he offers with a kindness to his tone only ever reserved for aziraphale alone, and even then only shown on rare occurrences. only when he knows the angel is close to breaking. he reminds aziraphale whats been lost, but also reminds him that hes not alone. he still has crowley.
#im not well im not well#whenever crowleys voice softens i cry#'ill give you a lift. anywhere you wanna go'#'im really sorry but its burned down'#'you can stay at my place if you like?'#IM SCREAMING#hes so careful with aziraphale#esp at that busstop#aziraphale just had his entire world view turned on a head#hes had to come to terms with the idea that heaven isnt all that good and wants to end the world anyway#hes had to grapple with the undoubtedly awful experience of being discorperated#hes had to come to terms with the fact that his home is gone#and crowley knows this. he knows all of this and treads oh so carefully#i love them so much#good omens#crowley#aziraphale#aziracrow#crowly x aziraphale#aziraphale x crowley#ineffable husbands
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Belobog was my fave main quest but a lot of it is so. Contradictory. It's like they had multiple groups doing different shit and none of them checked in with each other for consistency. And you see this so much in Gepard's profile.
So in the main quest, they made him unfailingly, unquestionably loyal to Cocolia. Gepard's character arc is him learning to question authority etc etc. And this isn't even a bad thing; that's a story worth telling! It makes good conflict between him and Serval! And I love that we got Gepard as a boss battle and I get to see him all the time in SU!
But then you look at his character stories and it's like. The complete opposite.
According to his profile, Gepard has already HAD this awakening, long before the Astral Express, and he'd already decided Cocolia sucks. Even outside of his stories, there's a pretty damning readable between him and Pela.
He even disobeyed direct orders right in front of her- he has been disobeying orders for a while now!
So I've decided I'm marrying the two different sides of this into a 1.5k fic-ish thingy, because I think there's some fun potential there with Gepard not trusting Cocolia, but still having to pretend to be a good obedient little soldier.
Anyway. I love to think of it as like. Gepard knows Cocolia has sunk into her apathy. He can see it in her eyes every time he looks at her. She doesn't care. Not about him, not about Pela, not about all his soldiers on the frontlines giving their lives to protect the citizens. And that's... It makes him bristle a bit, but ok. Gepard can deal with this. Even if Cocolia no longer cares, as long as she does her job then it's fine. Having compassion behind an action doesn't matter as much as the action itself. If Cocolia's heart is no longer swayed, then he'll just have to care twice as hard to pick up the slack. He considers it part of his duty as a captain of the guard anyway. It's fine. Gepard can deal with it.
And then, Cocolia starts coming down to the restricted zone. Issuing direct orders.
And Gepard realizes he is in way over his head.
Because Cocolia orders him to stay back and issue commands from the ramparts, away from all his comrades, away from where he can protect them.
Gepard had thought nothing could be as bad as watching a fellow guard die right next to him. But the first time he watches someone struck by a killing blow, so far away, it hurts. Every defensive scar across his arms itches, his fingers curl in want of a weapon, the cold cannot numb his hands enough as they desperately ache for his shield. It hurts.
Gepard tries to find any reason to stay. Because surely... He knows Cocolia has lost her love for her people, but surely... She wouldn't...
One day, Cocolia orders for their gunners to advance 20 yards. There are no survivors. She almost looks like she smiles.
Gepard doesn't sleep that night.
Pela brings him the report at the end of the first month; and then the month after that, and the month after that. A significant uptick in losses, and all of it started on that first day Cocolia started overriding his authority and issuing her own orders. The ends of Gepard's pens have all been nearly chewed off. Pela outright calls Cocolia an idiot, and Gepard corrects her. Cocolia isn't an idiot. Gepard had known her through Serval, knew her through all her college years and then some, and he knows how intelligent she is. It's not that she's stupid, and it's not that she's inexperienced, it's nothing of the sort.
Cocolia knows exactly what she's doing.
She must, there's no way she could make such a horrible mess of things so badly by accident. And Pela, quick as a whip, sharp as a tack, always too smart for her own good, catches onto the meaning behind Gepard's correction without any further prompting. The tent goes deathly quiet, nothing but the wind howling outside.
"...She's trying to kill us," Pela whispers, her voice swiftly suffocated by the silence.
Gepard swallows. He can't bring himself to correct her this time. There is nothing he could say that he would actually mean.
His gaze drops, back down to his desk and the reports on it. The names aren't listed, just the numbers, but Gepard knows them, knew them, and there must be something wrong, something he's missing, because why, why would she-? What could this possibly accomplish-?
“Gepard! Focus!” Something snaps right under his nose, and Gepard startles, eyes instantly honing in on Pela's irritated face as she leans over his desk. She holds his gaze for a moment before she huffs and begins to pace, wedges a knuckle between her teeth and bites like Gepard hasn't seen her do since cadet school.
Pela angrily strides from one end of his tent to the other, words hissed between her grit teeth. “What are we going to do?” In the dim lighting, Gepard can just barely see the damp spot of blood weeping under her gloves. “We need a plan.”
“A plan?”
“Wh- Yes, a plan! Unless you want more people to die!” Pela rounds on him then, all the wrath of a blizzard, winds roaring and snow sharp enough to cut.
“We don't even know-”
“What does it matter?! She killed-!!” Pela cuts off with a garbled noise when Gepard leaps up from his desk, hastily shoves his hand over her mouth. The prosthetic, not the flesh one, because he knows better than to assume Pela won't seize the opportunity to leave teeth marks in his skin.
“You're right. I'm sorry, I'm sorry; you're right. But you need to keep quiet.” Pela quirks an eyebrow at him and Gepard can read the question in her face. “Because we both saw what she did to Serval,” he hisses.
It's amazing the snow plains haven't thawed out yet, the amount of heat Pela can put behind a glare. The mere mention of Serval, and the smoking ruins Cocolia had made of her life and career, have her bristling up like a riled cat. The sudden hot breath she takes fans fog across his metal skin, and Gepard wisely keeps it in place until Pela finally sighs and reaches up, taps her fingertips against the back of his hand.
The second she's free, Pela bats him away and then her knuckle is right back between her teeth again, Gepard leaning back against his desk with his arms crossed to watch her resume her pacing. “If we spread the word, she'll have us discharged and make sure we can't even touch the frontlines,” Pela's voice seethes like an open sore. Gepard nods but keeps his silence. He knows better than to get in her way.
“And if you and I are both out of the picture, Belobog is fucked.” A little harsher than how he would have put it, but there's no denying that they're both important to the city's survival. Pela has the restricted zone running as efficiently as ever, and Gepard had become the youngest captain on record for a reason. “We need to keep this tight under wraps, at least for now… It can't leak to anyone higher up the chain.” Another nod. “Serval might know other discontents…” Another n-
Gepard's head snaps up. “No.”
“No what?”
“No. We're not involving Serval in this.”
Somehow, even the same tone that leaves entire squadrons shaking in their boots has never worked on her. “You're not deciding that for her, Gepard.”
Pela hadn't seen the worst of it, though, back when his sister had just been banned from the Architects. Serval's pride hadn't allowed it. Pela wasn't the one to find her passed out bottle still in hand, hadn't been the one to wash the sick out of her hair or carry her to bed.
Serval still has trouble thinking clearly when it comes to Cocolia, still can't quite bring herself to be objective. And Gepard maybe doesn't want her to be purely objective- but he would worry a lot less if she thought twice before she acted more often.
“At least let me be the one to bring it up to her.”
“Whatever, fine,” Pela gestures affirmatively at him as she paces past, and Gepard sighs. Good, at least that's one thing he can help.
From there, it's a lot of hemming and hawing and frustration. Cocolia has them under her boot, and Gepard and Pela both know it. Even with the way she's been cracking down on freedoms lately, Cocolia is still, overall, liked by the people. It's unlikely anyone would believe them. They don't even have solid proof, because most people don't know Cocolia as well as they do and won't see the clues in the same light.
The Fragmentum has been ramping up in recent years, too. Everyone is struggling just to survive as is, they can't afford a fight on two fronts. Gepard is a damn good captain, one of the best for that matter. But they're at a massive disadvantage, his experience is narrowed to fighting a defensive battle against monsters, that's all he's ever done. That's all anyone there has ever done. He has no way of finding first-hand knowledge for taking the offensive against a human opponent, and if he goes at this blind, there's no way he'll get everyone out unscathed. He's going to lose people. He's going to lose a lot of people.
He'd never thought before that Cocolia would have it in her to have someone killed. And with this new knowledge, he has no guarantee she won't go after Serval or Lynx if she decides to retaliate.
Gepard has to remind himself to breathe when he realizes this.
Pela writes down every name the two of them can come up with. Lists and lists of names and groups and anyone they can think of who might be an ally in all of this. They memorize every bit of it, make their plans of who to talk to and when. Gepard watches the sparks reflect off Pela's glasses as they burn the evidence together.
Pela finally leaves, far too late to make it home, but says she wants to stay in the restricted zone anyway to investigate. Gepard watches her make her way in the direction of Dunn's tent, watches her back until she's out of his sight and squashes down the urge to follow and keep an eye on her. His tent feels empty.
In the morning, Gepard is up before the wake up bells. He drags himself out of bed, leads his soldiers through their morning training. The same people gravitate to each other everyday. Friend groups and training partners. There's an ongoing rivalry between a few squadrons that everyone bets on. Some of them have lockets around their necks, keepsakes, mementos. Some of them wear wedding rings.
Gepard is suddenly, painfully aware of something acidic clawing at the inside of his throat, of a heavy weight low in his chest that blooms, takes up room until it threatens to spread his ribs. His mouth tastes of bile and blood.
He rearranges the schedules. Puts himself down for every open patrol into the Fragmentum, makes sure he'll be on the frontlines every single time Cocolia visits.
He only hopes that it's enough.
#honkai star rail#gepard landau#hsr gepard#pelageya sergeyevna#hsr pela#hsr#smacking Gepard out of Hoyo's hands and running off with him skzjmdkd#tentatively Figuring Out how to write these two... It feels a little tricky starting out with extreme circumstances like this haha#I feel like a lot of people see Gepard as naive for trusting Cocolia so much but I don't think that's quite it. He's not stupid.#He's not even naive.#He's someone who has been groomed since birth by his own parents to be an obedient Guard and nothing outside of that role.#You are not immune to propaganda etc etc#But even then there are a lot of things like all the included screenshots where he. Doesn't actually seem to like/trust Cocolia much.#I think Serval was a really good influence on him as a kid. He might have turned out much much worse without her.#and even with how I've written him here. I don't think he's normally slow to act or one to stand aside and make other people lead.#it's just that this specifically was a pretty extreme circumstance for him.#and also he openly states elsewhere that Pela is overbearing and he tries not to interfere with her work whenever possible nskzhdjdjd#Pela too. I don't know that I normally see her as someone with a bad temper or quick to anger.#But again; extreme circumstances haha#Bc like. they both would have seen what happened to Serval when she stood up to Cocolia. they know damn well what's going to happen to them.#if they fuck this up and get caught then they're done.#and I mean. What are they supposed to do? they're two people against the highest authority of the entire nation.#regardless I do love Gepard agonizing over this in the future after Bronya takes over and everything has settled down#did he do the right thing? did he make the right choice? if he went vigilante how many soldiers would have died without his protection?#would Belobog have fallen completely? how many people died because he DIDN'T run away? was it actually enough?#I love characters forced between a rock and a hard place. no good options. pick your poison.#no winning- only weighing what you can and cannot bear to lose.#make your choice and decide whether you want to rot or to burn.
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heyo! i learned a new word today and thought i'd share cause it sounds like a word you'd like
the word is apricity and its an old English word meaning "the warmth of the sun in winter" :]
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leaf anon ur spot on the money i have instantly fallen in love with this word right now immediately. If anyone sees this show up in one of the next hunger au chapters you know EXACTLY who to blame /DEEPLY SILLY
#shouting speaks#asks#fr one of those moments where i go starry eyed like OHHH I GOTTA USE THAT HOLY SHIT#guys i love words theyre so fun#my touys.....#actually okay a peek behind the curtain of my brain for u rq#my immediate thought for this is how apricity looks similar to and shares the same suffix with *reciprocity*#theres an immediate connection there in my mind; the warmth of the winter sun as a reciprocal gesture almost.. like a hug being returned#theres wordplay opportunities in that and so whenever i use this word#i will look for places to make that happen very intentionally#using different words in place of what would normally be there to evoke a particular image and FEELING is a very big aspect of my writing#i did this in uhhhh i think chap 9??? or 10??? of hunger au with the word ''dredge''#if you read it over its meant to take advantage of the similarities in sound to the word ''dread''#theres an upcoming one in chap 11 where i replace ''pose'' with ''poise'' because they look similar and share roots#but ''poise'' comes with additional connotations in the sentence that push like three different layers into it#im normal. im so normal guys please stick your dictionary in the bars of my cage i wont bi[PAPER SHREDDING SOUNDS]#txt
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